FRIDAY EVENING:
I said mentally to Maribelle and Duke if they are real can they talk to those 2 aspects and do something about them.
Maribelle said they were just having some fun and didn't to hurt me like they did.
not sure if that is true or not. if they didn't' mean to hurt me they would nto have done what they did. and why the lie that Chad said, pretending we were friends.
Maribelle said (concerning Chad) that <the 2 of you are still friends, but ones that may not get along all the time.>
I doubt that. friends don't' do that to each other, lieing and doing bad things to each other like that. especially not just for fun and kicks.
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FRIDAY EVENING:
I applogized to Maribelle and Duke. She said <it's ok, we understand> or was it, <it's ok i understand.> and as she did this i felt odd. sorta disoriented, but not quite the word i'm looking for. I also felt like I had an etheric, astral or some other energy type horn, and had the mental image of her head taking up most of or all of my mental image.
She was the whitest of white colors, with the horn coming from her forehead, like in unicorn pictures. and after a bit it felt like the base and inch or 2 of my horn felt a bit warm. Beautiful is the only way I can describe of the mental image.
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FRIDAY EVENING:
i looked up the meaning of maribelle. found one bit that says it is of french and latin origin.
Friench meaning is: of incredible beauty.
latin meaning is; wonderful.
So combining those it could be said to mean: of incredible wonderful beauty.
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FRIDAY EVENING:
Think Maribelle said they do want to make up.
likely more lies and tricks.
think Duke said, <it's not a trick or a lie. They really do.> I highly doubt that, with what they did.
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FRIDAY EVENING:
I did ask if this is real, with their ways (the 2 aspects mentioned above) and she said she understood. Then it felt lke she was doing something with her horn and it felt like the tip of mine was warm, odd feeling.
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I mentioned to Maribelle I do hope I am a decent stallion one day. She said i already am a wonderful stallion. I'm just not fully aware of it.
I asked if she'd help with that. and she said sure, sending me a feeling of love and the mental image of her head, as if it were close to mine. and the feeling of the tip of my horn being warm. odd feeling able to feel something that is I'm not sure how far, a foot? in front of the body .
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FRIDAY EVENING:
I asked her a sorta silly question. i asked if we are like mates or something, based on her talk about kids. she said we already are. I asked you mean former soul, and she said no, the you I'm talking to now. Feels like sorta a paradox but I guess not since i was remade. She did mention that our (her and mine) relationship would be different if I had not chosen to remember, or have access to former soul's memories and by default I guess my old memories since I use to be an extension of former soul, for certain incarnations, not an aspect.
I mentioned twin flame and as she mentioned before they are friends, (don't recall if twin said close or good friends). Maribelle has said that she has shared with my twin before. and she did say, with at least slight amusement, that a soul can have more then 1 mate.
maybe a unicorn term or a soul thing. Mate could mean a very very close friend one shares with, has strong feelings for, ect.
I got the strong mental impression of her putting her neck on my right shoulder and her head on my chest with very strong waves of love coming from her. Great experience.
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FRIDAY EVENING:
I asked her about her comment on her first appearance of she came to see the new stallion. She said, with laughter in her voice, <I knew it would be you. Duke said now may be a good time to appear, though he kept it a secret you had some unicorn. he never said the new you is part unicorn. a mixed breed. Great. I like this new you even more then the old you. Though species doesn't really matter. The fact you are a mixed breed unicorn stallion is even better.>
It as a secret kept from me till Duke showed me. activated my horn or something.
Maribelle, I get the mental impression of her nodding, <yes, kept dormant till awakened by a fellow unicorn. >
I guess if I asked how we met you'd not say? <you'll remember in time, either during or after this incarnation.>
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Since Duke said I was more orca then dolphin, that means I'm mostly orca. equal parts dragon and unicorn, and dolphin. Also not sure if I mentioned it before but Duke at some point did say when I was remade my Twin was present to make sure everything went ok. though she wasn't participating since we'd not be twin flames really if she did.
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As a joke I asked Maribelle if she and my twin are both part of my harem or herd. and her response was a laughing.
I jokingly asked duke too. he said, partially serious and partially jokingly, <no, We're brother aspects and brother unicorns but I'm not part of your herd.>
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Saturday, March 7, 2015
Friday, March 6, 2015
Thursday [3-5]
THURSDAY MORNING:
Had a fun conversation with Maribelle. Not sure why I keep thinking it's marigold. I also should look up to see if it is Maribelle, or how to spell it. I think she said with an I so Maribelle I guess is the spelling. Also unicorn guide, guess he's a guide or a sorta guide since we're aspects of the same soul. Forgot but either he told me or I got the impression or soul knowledge that his name is Duke or that is what he goes by.
It seems with her instead of wanting to share right away she'd rather wait. he said it builds anticipation. Plus my thoughts are she may want to get to know this me, though from what Duke and Maribelle said they can see the real me that is under these layers. i guess they mean layers of being incarnate as a human, the conditioning, programming, though I'm loosing those and become more of my true self. She may also want our relationship to normal develop. Maybe she's taking into consideration how humans are, though I'm not a human at the soul and heart, I do have some human personality aspects, so to speak. and that may be her natural way also. My feelings are that I do like her a lot. I do consider her a friend, a close friend, though we only recently met, at least from my point of view. She may know me far better then this me knows her, with the veil and all, though some of my viel is not present. Searching inside I can say I do love her, and see her as a very close friend, and that will likely deepen over time. And she may want to wait till I'm fully awake, aware of myself before she takes it to the next step, or it may just happen naturally one day. Time will tell.
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THURSDAY MORNING:
It does seem once I get relaxed to a certain level my body starts to resonate or vibrate. I did a sort of relaxing mediation this morning, just to see if I could get very relaxed and it started to resonate or vibrate, and i wasn't trying to project. i guess i can use that as a guide. Once i feel like I'm resonating, or vibrating, it may be an indication that I'm very relaxed. Hand to have that to be able to tell.
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THURSDAY MORNING:
I still think I'll look into getting a disposable cell phone. Not sure if I'll get one, but I'll look into it. if I do get one it would give me a contact number for when my phone goes out. Handy for that. I'll have to see how much it costs and such. Though my phone only goes out once every few years, so not to often. It'll be very handy during that time.
Not sure if the phone guy is supposed to come today or Friday. I'll stay home today, though I do dislike missing the Thursday rpg group. Also with on net and no phone I've no way to know if it's been canceled or not. I'd guess not.
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Thursday AFTERNOON
Interesting how Maribelle & duke accept and see me as a unicorn stallion, though mixed breed, they don't care about that. the pod accepts me as a pod member, and at least some see me as a dolphin, or orca, though orcas are really just big dolphins so accepting me as a dolphin or orca is sorta the same and the orcas usually look like dolphins when we're around the rest of the pod, and only do the orca form when we're just together. I think I put in earlier that i did contact the dragoness and she is the twin of current soul. And she sees me a soul, not as a dragon, or dolphin or anything else. Was just curious. I guess Maribelle and Duke are members of a herd, or if unicorns don't do that. I've no idea.
Though sometimes to be different when I'm with the rest of the pod, I may just look like a dolphin size orca instead of a dolphin. I'll decide then. That is when I'm not in an anthropomorphic form.
Also not sure what Maribelle meant by her talk of corruption, I can't be corrupt, ect. I guess she means going more dark, lower vibration, ect. hard to explain what I mean. No biggie i guess.
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THURSDAY AFTERNOON:
I think Maribelle or maybe it was Duke, don't remember. Said the unicorns have a sort of herd. I guess not in the same exact way that earth horses do. They may have a group of friends, close friends, relatives, ect, but they don't live all bunched up together like earth horses would in the wild. It may be similar to the pod where there is, from what either Dan or Stan told me, they have a huge commons area and each has their own homes.
I did ask Dan or Stan, forgot which, briefly, why I didn't have a horn after the change over to current soul, or why I didn't know of it till recently, and he said it wasn't active, or was it not activated. Forgot which exactly he said.
If there is a herd or sort of herd i can see why they didn't all pop up, after the pod has not. I've seen some in the distance but the main ones I have spent consistent time with are mainly 4, not counting currect and former soul.
With unicorns they may be not as close of a group as a herd, or I may encounter more later on maybe. I'll find out over time. As with many things.
It seems Duke may be my current guide. Maybe due to where I am. maybe due to the light body course I'm doing, Duke may be for heart, love, that sort of thing. The other 2 may be done, Dan and Stan, or as I move to say the upper energy centers, the throat, 3rd eye & crown, maybe it'll shift to one of them, or I may get another. I think it would make the most sense if one of the guides would come in for that at certain stages, and maybe the 3 light body centers. if I do take all 6 courses. It makes sense that for the path I'm on i may not have 1 or 2 set guides, but a group where the main guide or guides may be depending where I am on the path. Since their interests and specialties, extra training maybe, may be for certain things and or areas.
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THURSDAY EVENING:
Maribelle mentioning we'd have a lot of kid together may sound odd. She did seem serious, while kidding at the same time. But from a soul's point of view, say having 1 kid every thousand years, few thousand or 5 thousand. That can be a lot over the eternity a soul lives. Assuming unicorns are immortal like souls are. Even a kid every few hundred or 500 years, can add up to a lot over 5,000 years. So I will assume she means over the long term, not a human span of say 100 years.
and she and duke did say they can see the real, full me. So Maribelle may love that real me. Not that I think the real fully aware me is very different then this me typing this. Especially with some of the work I've been doing at removing the human programming and conditioning, and stuff I picked up as a result of my life. though I don't want to be working on it forever since as I think Matt said, you'll be working on yourself forever. I'm just working on what I see as the big things, self worth, self confidence, self image (which I think are tied into each other or are different shades of the same thing), but also dealing with worry, turning it into faith in my having good luck and things WILL work out for the best. Don't know 1 or a phrase for that. maybe meekness for self determination. Can't think of a term. the self image/worth/confidence ties into that to an extent. But i think tonight I'll do the sub personality, without the audio,and try both. Worry to faith in my good luck and t things will always work out for my greater good in the end. and meekness to self determination.
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THURSDAY EVENING:
Just now Maribelle said unicorns are as immortal as souls are. And she was serious about the kids part. Though I'd guess it's not like have kids in this dimension. But more like souls creating new souls where they are fully self aware from the start. Not sure if unicorns have the choice that souls have if they wish to be new souls, keep some or all of their soul parent's memories, or 1 or 2 soul parent's memories. I'd guess they may. or can choose their accumulated wisdom maybe instead of the exact memories.
Though as immortals no need ot hurry that stuff. With the rest of eternity, there is plenty of time. I do try to see things from a soul's perspective. Instead of just a human or temporal one. Since though I may not be fully aware from a soul's point of view, I'm only here a short time. this lifetime, compared to a soul's, even if I live long enough to be the world's oldest human male, will be like the length of an overnight dream to the lifespan of a soul.
Though i still doubt I'll incarnate much, or not very often. Either not at all or maybe vary very rarely for specific reasons. I don't see the appeal of incarnating, from the stand point of me doing it. Some would say my perspective will change when I'm over there, but I doubt it. I an at least half aware from a souls point of view and don't think I'll change my mind. Same as when i was a young teen or teen and i said I would never marry or have kids and my grandmother and a friend of hers said I would change my mind once i got older. And I did say I won't. turns out i was right then, and I'm willing to bet I'm right now also.
I'm sure I'll find being a soul more then enough to keep me occupied then incarnating willy nilly. Though if others want to incarnate, that is their business and not mine.
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THURSDAY EVENING:
Duke and Maribelle briefly had their horns alongside mine, but not touching. I did try, in a joking manner to move and 'accidentally touch horns' but they were not fooled, saying something like no, no. Not in a mad manner, just a friendly manner.
I did ask Maribelle why I couldn't usually feel my horn and she said i had gotten mostly use to it. after all can you feel your left hand? she asked. i guess it could be that, but sometimes I can feel the horn if I do relax and try, or the area at the center of my forehead where it feels like some weight is attached to the skull inside, sorta feeling.
I asked something like if there is anything I need to learn about being a unicorn or part unicorn.
She said first to become my true self, then she would teach me horn work, whatever that is.
I asked how long that would take. She said less then a year, likely, if I continue along the path I'm on.
She did do something she called horn cleansing, felt sorta odd. not in an unpleasant way, and as I recall it did feel sorta pleasant?
I did get it to resonate the slightest bit, but then that leaves me with a faint dull ache that come and goes, the ache is outside my body. Maybe the horn is to sensitive. that may be why when I get very relaxed, it doesn't resonate like the rest of my body does.
I wonder what horn work is.
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THURSDAY EVENING:
I did meditation 12 again. This time the master that worked with me in the meditation was a unicorn. Though I Think I may have seen Stan or dan among the other masters maybe, maybe not, I'm not sure. Among the others my age I did see some anthro dolphin looking beings that waved to me while smiling. I waved back. some of the unicorn anthro types , or were they half human half unicorn, Not sure, I couldn't see to clearly, or can't recall to well. All the light being sent into me did feel great at the time. Though I have a slight dull ache type feeling and slight chills. Though the slight chills may be the cold weather. The dull ache feels like it's in front of the center of my forehead, where the horn may be. I do feel some pain in my abdominal area. Towards the top. I guess it may be some blocks. Not sure how to deal with the blocks. At the point where you can ask for help did ask for help with things like the blocks. the dull ache in my horn may be from during all the times we were supposed to receive light, a lot then asking you to open up so you can receive more. it got to where it felt like my horn was pulsing with light as much as was going into it. For my appearance I again looked solid back anthro orca type, with a horn, but I choose to have no dorsal fin and a short dragon type tail. Then no tail, to see if i can change my appearance and it seems I can.
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THURSDAY EVENING:
Twin flame said <nothing can come between us>. I sent an intention of Maribelle to see what she'd say and twin said <ah, a very good friend of mine.>
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THURSDAY EVENING:
I did some quick meditation to look inside myself, hopefully at the soul level and yes I do feel a desire, not a super strong one, but it is there, to have kids, create new souls, with Maribelle. not today or next year, but someday. no hurry. not as strong as to create a daughter new soul with twin flame, but I'll not explore that feeling again since it'll just flair up again. As i do want to make , or I guess remake, Chad in the same method, with Twin flame. Which I can feel Chad is happy about, but again no hurry. Not sure if the future daughter and Chad will be primary twins to the 2 of us like she is mine, or more of a secondary twin flames, but that doesn't matter.
I feel it is normal for souls to create new soul with others. Some may never do so, but others may more often. I do feel at the soul level i think it is, that this is normal. But unlike with how it works here, no one will be pregnant or lay an egg that a soul hatches from. The soul will be fully formed and sentient from the start. And they have the choice to remember all of their soul parent's memories, some of them, picking certain soul parents, or none of them. Or even none, but with the option they can remember later if they wish.
Not sure if it works this same way as with unicorns, but I figure I'll find out one day. Either someone will tell me, maybe Maribelle, Duke, someone else, or on a forum somewhere.
Funny typing this and knowing it'll be days and days from now before anyone else reads this. But I also type this so not just so others can read of my experiences, maybe to learn from them, and also teach me things also as they may say something I never knew. But it also helps me to form my conclusions at times and remember.
I do recall Duke saying Unicorns usually use their horns to share. Not in the conventional method of the pod and I imagine dragons, when it comes to sharing, and what some call soul or spirit sex, though I prefer the term sharing then calling it sex.
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WED [3-4]
Wednesday morning: Had an interesting experience this morning. I was laying down to go back to sleep and like usually happens recently I felt the resonating as I grew more and more relaxed. I didn't go to sleep though. Still could not float out of the body, more leave it in any way.
Think I had a conversation with Dan. I think he said my light body wasn't fully activated, active or something, forgot the exact words. he did apologize saying he thought all that was needed was just for them to form my light body. i asked if they, by they I meant Dan, Stan, my twin, green sister, soul I'm an external aspect of, and any others who are helping me can continue to help me with fully awakening, ascending or whatever the term is. As well as with the energy centers and such of the light body and chakras both. While I worked on what I needed to work on. Since I think he said they could do some stuff and I'd have to do some stuff also.
Then I had a conversation with the unicorn that appeared yesterday when I did the meeting your unicorn guided meditation. To summarize our experience he said he said he called me brother since though I am not a pure unicorn he regards me as a fellow unicorn and also we're aspects of the same soul. He put his horn near mine and I could feel more love. Not sure how the topic came up but he said that unicorns can share like the pod does, but they touch horns, they don't do that in the conventional sense like some others like the pod does. Though they can. He kept his close and the love and other feelings were strong, with a momentary blast type intensity when he briefly touched his to mine. Though I wasn't able to feel my horn much really.
It felt like he moved his horn over my body, making it feel like it my body was resonating stronger in the areas he went over. I think maybe he touched where the heart chakra was.
He then did what felt weird. he sorta put his horn through mine kinda and into my head. not really pain but some discomfort. I felt a resonating in the area his horn penetrated. Then he was pushing in slowly, till it felt like the tip got around the middle of my brain. he said there may be some discomfort from this but I should be able to feel my horn more easily. Then he pulled out and kept his horn very close to mine, moving slowly up and down and I felt it resonating. I could feel it more easily. he asked me to feel, experience my horn. Mentioning, no idea why, that mine as as majestic as his.
He then asked how I felt as he lay down next to me, his horn barely not touching mine. I did feel much more love. He didn't touch his horn to mine but kept it alongside mine, almost touching. I did feel much more love a lot more. I then felt total love for him, all of my being, hard to describe it. I did mention that I loved him totally with all of my being, unconditional love. Then he slowly touched his to mine very lightly, asking me and how about strangers. I got the quick mental flashes of humans I had never met and maybe non humans. I felt the same for all of them for everyone. he mentioned that was my heritage of not just a unicorn, but also as a soul. Though I have had moments of unconditional ove before so it wasn't a new sensation/experience to me.
Wow, I wasn't expecting anything like this. I did ask and he said he was the 4th one there. I asked if that would work since he's and aspect of one of the souls who were there. He said the one had no problem with it and was there. Though i was surprised by his saying this then I understood and said the one is everywhere. and he said yes, so he was there too. He acknowledged of the souls that were there I basically got and they were, him a unicorn, old soul dolphin and some orca, current soul orca, and a dragoness. still not sure if she is current or old soul's twin. current soul maybe since her energy feels a bit intense the few times she contacted me. I asked if she is pure dragon, part western and eastern, or something. he said to ask her. He also mentioned, when I was more awake she may have an interest in sharing with me. and dragons share in the conventional sense like the pod does.
I did ask wasn't I just split off of old soul and the unicorn said no, basically and simply put I was recreated, after a fashion. Not exactly what was done, but explaining it would be very complex.
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after this I do feel a dull ache, at times, somewhere in my brain, hard to localize. I can sometimes have the dull ache go away for short periods of time. It is fairly minor so nothing to bad. Sometimes I can feel like the skull part of my forehead is supporting some weight. The area in the middle of my forehead, not on the skin but where the bone skull part is. or it feels like it is there.
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Wednesday Afternoon: I just did the 12th & last meditation for the first part of the awaken the light body course. It was an interesting experience. Going to the temple of masters, or some room thing anyway. I think i went pretty deep for the 2nd part of this meditation. Among the masters, and I saw many, were some I think I recognized, maybe the unicorn and maybe Stan, though he was farther away and dressed in robes and had a staff. Though I've seen him holding a staff once before. or fun since where the pod is I think one can manifest what the want. among the others on my path I did see some other dolphins and orcas, though the orcas were the same size as the others, and some of the dolphins & orcas were anthro, or shifted once they got to the seats. There were other races also, some not human, though I don't recall since I didn't really pay much attention, same as the masters, some didn't look human, like the 2 I mentioned. I wonder if the soul I'm currently part of was there, maybe. Didn't project, but I was in 2 places, for part of the latter part of the meditation, without realizing it. I think i recall when they sent us light I got some sent through and into my horn, though I think I recall most went through the top of the head and some down the kundalini channel. Most I think just went in all around the body. Sorta hard to explain. I do feel, a bit different, changed? but also the same me. Maybe more of the real me? I think the body I had there wasn't human. Think i had a dorsal fin also, like a adult male orca, but smaller and sitting wasn't a problem, so maybe I had it go away? But I'm not sure if I did or not. Or it could be sometimes I have one and sometimes not. Maybe the same as with a tail. I'm not sure.
Did get the feeling maybe at the soul level i was maybe mostly orca (by a slight bit), slightly less then orca but equal amounts dragon and unicorn, and least was dolphin. Not counting the various incarnations like obviously incarnating as a human (which i am incarnate as now) and other past/parallel lives soul, old did and current one did/is.
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Wedensday Afternoon: I would assume few souls are really what one may call pure. If one of the pod incarnates say as a non dolphin/orca, or if incarnations don't matter as far as if one is a pure unicorn or dragon or not. Also love being what it is at a soul level, it makes sense many souls are likely not pure this or that. Or there may be about as many pure as mixed souls.
I also think I may alter my idea a bit. I was going to listen to certain meditations from the awakening your light body course. instead I think i may try to do the meditations without listening to the audio and see what results I get. I may also try some of the guided mediation I downloaded for a week or 2 since if I do get the next part. part 2 being working on the heart center of the light body. My initial idea was not to order it till around the middle of the month. That way I'll have about 2 weeks roughly or redoing some of the mediations from the 1st part, using and not using the audio, and some guided meditations that are not part of the course.
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Wedensday (early evening)
I was on the bus. A unicorn mare came to have a look at me. the unicorn that is an aspect of the same soul I'm an external aspect of. I may give him the initials UA, or UG. he said she is a "sister" of his. and i did get the impression of the quotation marks. she said she came by to have a look at the new stallion. I guess she Looked at me since she said ah, a mixed breed with the impression she liked that. She said something like they are harder to corrupt. Then a bit later she mentioned that I'm so filled with light I can't be corrupted. Then I got the feeling she liked something about me since i got the impression like she grabbed my behind and pulled me closer to her, the mental impression and her mentioning, if we had children together they would have light also. I mentioned I didn't expect unicorns to be into that. She said she is one who likes to share, some unicorns do. I asked if she is a close friend like he is, meaning the gold eastern dragon I saw once and Stan said is a friend of his. She said yes, but one who likes to share. He really needs to learn to relax and have some fun, she said, meaning the gold eastern dragon. At one point I think she put her horn very close to mine. Don't think she touched hers to mine. I got a similar feeling like when UG did, but also I had the strong feel of her femaleness, a unicorn mare. Unconditional love, and other feelings I could not begin to describe, but not anywhere like if we had touched horns. The 2 times UG has with me it was like I was blasted with those feelings. But I also think maybe we didn't touch horns since she did say in a kidding fashion, Imagine if we had touched horns. I did ask if she'd help me, and she said she'd be glad to, though she is not one of my guides officially, she would be glad to help. I really enjoyed the Qi Gong. Marybelle mentioned a time or 2 it looks like an interesting thing. Then she fell silent till I was outside at the bus stop. Just 1 more class and it'll be over.
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Wednesday (evening)
The name Marybelle popped into my head. Maybe it is her name. On the way home she was overly flirting with me. She said she needs to since some stallions don't notice the obvious. mentioning we'd have many kids together. It felt like she was kidding, but serious also. I was wondering if she was really serious and she said yes, but not till I'm fully awake and aware of my true self, that she can see underneath the layers, though she mentioned there are much less then there was a week ago. I mentioned I'd rather get to know her better. She said we would. and we do have the rest of eternity to get to know each other better. Chad and her got along too. he called her Mam in the brief conversation they had. I think they'll have some fun eventually. I asked in a very kidding fashion if she thinks my twin would be jealous and she said she doubted it. She then said, after all, we have had some fun together (meaning she and my twin had). She mentioned about us having kids together, with UG saying she was being serious. She was hoping I would catch the bus I needed to catch since it was very very cold, and the high winds didn't help. I did make it, good.
I do feel I like her. I do feel like we will be good friends. Maybe very good friends. I do feel indeed that we are on the way to being very good friends. I was certainly surprised. I was not expecting a unicorn mare to pop by and then to flirt with me. Though I guess she did it in such an obvious fashion since having never dated and being a guy, or maybe she can just tell be looking at my or some senses she may have, that she'd have to be obvious with me. Or maybe she did it for other reasons, for fun, loosen me up a bit, though being around some pod members, including my 2 orca guides, I'm kinda use to that. Though I didn't expect a unicorn to have an interest in sharing.
I took a moment to sorta meditate and rest, laying back in the chair and closing my eyes for a few minutes to rest. I got the feeling that she kept her horn an inch or so from mind, or maybe slightly closer, and got the impression that she was very slowly moving her horn up and down mine. I got some feelings like openness, unconditional love, she has feelings for me more then just someone who'll be just a friend or close friend, but a future lover also. Seems fast moving to me, but maybe she knows my old soul, if she an my twin had some fun I'd guess she likely did. Maybe she is one of those things that I knew before but don't' remember, or old soul did know here but I don't recall yet. And her remark of see the new stallion does fit in with what UG said earlier today, or was it yesterday, that I was sorta remade. Explaining what happened to me when I changed to be an external aspect of current soul, is very complex to describe. Saying I was remade over simplifies it, but is correct in a way, after a fashion.
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I lay back in the chair and it happened again with her running her horn slowly along mine, but keeping hers an inch or so above mine. Then UG joined in after a bit. With them both doing the same. I felt unconditional love, the fact they love me as well, and they see me as a fellow unicorn, even though I'm mixed. Not that I mind. I see myself as mixed, a soul but mixed. I felt he also sees me as a close friend that he'll have fun with later on.
I was curious and I asked the dragoness a few questions and felt the same intensity of energy on the top half of my head. I asked a few questions and she said she sees me as a soul and she is my current soul's twin flame. She said a joking line, that was also serious, to search your feelings ... Luke." She said. Not sure if that is an accurate quite from star wars or not. Been quiet a while since I've seen the first trilogy. I do think there was a trust your feelings Luke. I think she was being serious and a bit bit of a joke too.
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While reading some on the seth book I'm reading, part of my mind was wondering. if UG is an external aspect of the same soul I am an external aspect of too, could Marybelle be an external aspect of say twin flame, or current soul's twin flame. I don't think she's an external aspect of my twin flame. I may be wrong. I'm not sure. She may be unrelated to me completely. I don't mind in any case, was just thinking something.
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Suposed to maybe sleet tomorrow morning. I wonder if schools are closed and how I'll find out with no internet and no phone. I think if schools are closed I'll not go to my rpg Thursday group since I assume if schools are closed then the group will be canceled.
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Think I had a conversation with Dan. I think he said my light body wasn't fully activated, active or something, forgot the exact words. he did apologize saying he thought all that was needed was just for them to form my light body. i asked if they, by they I meant Dan, Stan, my twin, green sister, soul I'm an external aspect of, and any others who are helping me can continue to help me with fully awakening, ascending or whatever the term is. As well as with the energy centers and such of the light body and chakras both. While I worked on what I needed to work on. Since I think he said they could do some stuff and I'd have to do some stuff also.
Then I had a conversation with the unicorn that appeared yesterday when I did the meeting your unicorn guided meditation. To summarize our experience he said he said he called me brother since though I am not a pure unicorn he regards me as a fellow unicorn and also we're aspects of the same soul. He put his horn near mine and I could feel more love. Not sure how the topic came up but he said that unicorns can share like the pod does, but they touch horns, they don't do that in the conventional sense like some others like the pod does. Though they can. He kept his close and the love and other feelings were strong, with a momentary blast type intensity when he briefly touched his to mine. Though I wasn't able to feel my horn much really.
It felt like he moved his horn over my body, making it feel like it my body was resonating stronger in the areas he went over. I think maybe he touched where the heart chakra was.
He then did what felt weird. he sorta put his horn through mine kinda and into my head. not really pain but some discomfort. I felt a resonating in the area his horn penetrated. Then he was pushing in slowly, till it felt like the tip got around the middle of my brain. he said there may be some discomfort from this but I should be able to feel my horn more easily. Then he pulled out and kept his horn very close to mine, moving slowly up and down and I felt it resonating. I could feel it more easily. he asked me to feel, experience my horn. Mentioning, no idea why, that mine as as majestic as his.
He then asked how I felt as he lay down next to me, his horn barely not touching mine. I did feel much more love. He didn't touch his horn to mine but kept it alongside mine, almost touching. I did feel much more love a lot more. I then felt total love for him, all of my being, hard to describe it. I did mention that I loved him totally with all of my being, unconditional love. Then he slowly touched his to mine very lightly, asking me and how about strangers. I got the quick mental flashes of humans I had never met and maybe non humans. I felt the same for all of them for everyone. he mentioned that was my heritage of not just a unicorn, but also as a soul. Though I have had moments of unconditional ove before so it wasn't a new sensation/experience to me.
Wow, I wasn't expecting anything like this. I did ask and he said he was the 4th one there. I asked if that would work since he's and aspect of one of the souls who were there. He said the one had no problem with it and was there. Though i was surprised by his saying this then I understood and said the one is everywhere. and he said yes, so he was there too. He acknowledged of the souls that were there I basically got and they were, him a unicorn, old soul dolphin and some orca, current soul orca, and a dragoness. still not sure if she is current or old soul's twin. current soul maybe since her energy feels a bit intense the few times she contacted me. I asked if she is pure dragon, part western and eastern, or something. he said to ask her. He also mentioned, when I was more awake she may have an interest in sharing with me. and dragons share in the conventional sense like the pod does.
I did ask wasn't I just split off of old soul and the unicorn said no, basically and simply put I was recreated, after a fashion. Not exactly what was done, but explaining it would be very complex.
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after this I do feel a dull ache, at times, somewhere in my brain, hard to localize. I can sometimes have the dull ache go away for short periods of time. It is fairly minor so nothing to bad. Sometimes I can feel like the skull part of my forehead is supporting some weight. The area in the middle of my forehead, not on the skin but where the bone skull part is. or it feels like it is there.
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Wednesday Afternoon: I just did the 12th & last meditation for the first part of the awaken the light body course. It was an interesting experience. Going to the temple of masters, or some room thing anyway. I think i went pretty deep for the 2nd part of this meditation. Among the masters, and I saw many, were some I think I recognized, maybe the unicorn and maybe Stan, though he was farther away and dressed in robes and had a staff. Though I've seen him holding a staff once before. or fun since where the pod is I think one can manifest what the want. among the others on my path I did see some other dolphins and orcas, though the orcas were the same size as the others, and some of the dolphins & orcas were anthro, or shifted once they got to the seats. There were other races also, some not human, though I don't recall since I didn't really pay much attention, same as the masters, some didn't look human, like the 2 I mentioned. I wonder if the soul I'm currently part of was there, maybe. Didn't project, but I was in 2 places, for part of the latter part of the meditation, without realizing it. I think i recall when they sent us light I got some sent through and into my horn, though I think I recall most went through the top of the head and some down the kundalini channel. Most I think just went in all around the body. Sorta hard to explain. I do feel, a bit different, changed? but also the same me. Maybe more of the real me? I think the body I had there wasn't human. Think i had a dorsal fin also, like a adult male orca, but smaller and sitting wasn't a problem, so maybe I had it go away? But I'm not sure if I did or not. Or it could be sometimes I have one and sometimes not. Maybe the same as with a tail. I'm not sure.
Did get the feeling maybe at the soul level i was maybe mostly orca (by a slight bit), slightly less then orca but equal amounts dragon and unicorn, and least was dolphin. Not counting the various incarnations like obviously incarnating as a human (which i am incarnate as now) and other past/parallel lives soul, old did and current one did/is.
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Wedensday Afternoon: I would assume few souls are really what one may call pure. If one of the pod incarnates say as a non dolphin/orca, or if incarnations don't matter as far as if one is a pure unicorn or dragon or not. Also love being what it is at a soul level, it makes sense many souls are likely not pure this or that. Or there may be about as many pure as mixed souls.
I also think I may alter my idea a bit. I was going to listen to certain meditations from the awakening your light body course. instead I think i may try to do the meditations without listening to the audio and see what results I get. I may also try some of the guided mediation I downloaded for a week or 2 since if I do get the next part. part 2 being working on the heart center of the light body. My initial idea was not to order it till around the middle of the month. That way I'll have about 2 weeks roughly or redoing some of the mediations from the 1st part, using and not using the audio, and some guided meditations that are not part of the course.
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Wedensday (early evening)
I was on the bus. A unicorn mare came to have a look at me. the unicorn that is an aspect of the same soul I'm an external aspect of. I may give him the initials UA, or UG. he said she is a "sister" of his. and i did get the impression of the quotation marks. she said she came by to have a look at the new stallion. I guess she Looked at me since she said ah, a mixed breed with the impression she liked that. She said something like they are harder to corrupt. Then a bit later she mentioned that I'm so filled with light I can't be corrupted. Then I got the feeling she liked something about me since i got the impression like she grabbed my behind and pulled me closer to her, the mental impression and her mentioning, if we had children together they would have light also. I mentioned I didn't expect unicorns to be into that. She said she is one who likes to share, some unicorns do. I asked if she is a close friend like he is, meaning the gold eastern dragon I saw once and Stan said is a friend of his. She said yes, but one who likes to share. He really needs to learn to relax and have some fun, she said, meaning the gold eastern dragon. At one point I think she put her horn very close to mine. Don't think she touched hers to mine. I got a similar feeling like when UG did, but also I had the strong feel of her femaleness, a unicorn mare. Unconditional love, and other feelings I could not begin to describe, but not anywhere like if we had touched horns. The 2 times UG has with me it was like I was blasted with those feelings. But I also think maybe we didn't touch horns since she did say in a kidding fashion, Imagine if we had touched horns. I did ask if she'd help me, and she said she'd be glad to, though she is not one of my guides officially, she would be glad to help. I really enjoyed the Qi Gong. Marybelle mentioned a time or 2 it looks like an interesting thing. Then she fell silent till I was outside at the bus stop. Just 1 more class and it'll be over.
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Wednesday (evening)
The name Marybelle popped into my head. Maybe it is her name. On the way home she was overly flirting with me. She said she needs to since some stallions don't notice the obvious. mentioning we'd have many kids together. It felt like she was kidding, but serious also. I was wondering if she was really serious and she said yes, but not till I'm fully awake and aware of my true self, that she can see underneath the layers, though she mentioned there are much less then there was a week ago. I mentioned I'd rather get to know her better. She said we would. and we do have the rest of eternity to get to know each other better. Chad and her got along too. he called her Mam in the brief conversation they had. I think they'll have some fun eventually. I asked in a very kidding fashion if she thinks my twin would be jealous and she said she doubted it. She then said, after all, we have had some fun together (meaning she and my twin had). She mentioned about us having kids together, with UG saying she was being serious. She was hoping I would catch the bus I needed to catch since it was very very cold, and the high winds didn't help. I did make it, good.
I do feel I like her. I do feel like we will be good friends. Maybe very good friends. I do feel indeed that we are on the way to being very good friends. I was certainly surprised. I was not expecting a unicorn mare to pop by and then to flirt with me. Though I guess she did it in such an obvious fashion since having never dated and being a guy, or maybe she can just tell be looking at my or some senses she may have, that she'd have to be obvious with me. Or maybe she did it for other reasons, for fun, loosen me up a bit, though being around some pod members, including my 2 orca guides, I'm kinda use to that. Though I didn't expect a unicorn to have an interest in sharing.
I took a moment to sorta meditate and rest, laying back in the chair and closing my eyes for a few minutes to rest. I got the feeling that she kept her horn an inch or so from mind, or maybe slightly closer, and got the impression that she was very slowly moving her horn up and down mine. I got some feelings like openness, unconditional love, she has feelings for me more then just someone who'll be just a friend or close friend, but a future lover also. Seems fast moving to me, but maybe she knows my old soul, if she an my twin had some fun I'd guess she likely did. Maybe she is one of those things that I knew before but don't' remember, or old soul did know here but I don't recall yet. And her remark of see the new stallion does fit in with what UG said earlier today, or was it yesterday, that I was sorta remade. Explaining what happened to me when I changed to be an external aspect of current soul, is very complex to describe. Saying I was remade over simplifies it, but is correct in a way, after a fashion.
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I lay back in the chair and it happened again with her running her horn slowly along mine, but keeping hers an inch or so above mine. Then UG joined in after a bit. With them both doing the same. I felt unconditional love, the fact they love me as well, and they see me as a fellow unicorn, even though I'm mixed. Not that I mind. I see myself as mixed, a soul but mixed. I felt he also sees me as a close friend that he'll have fun with later on.
I was curious and I asked the dragoness a few questions and felt the same intensity of energy on the top half of my head. I asked a few questions and she said she sees me as a soul and she is my current soul's twin flame. She said a joking line, that was also serious, to search your feelings ... Luke." She said. Not sure if that is an accurate quite from star wars or not. Been quiet a while since I've seen the first trilogy. I do think there was a trust your feelings Luke. I think she was being serious and a bit bit of a joke too.
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While reading some on the seth book I'm reading, part of my mind was wondering. if UG is an external aspect of the same soul I am an external aspect of too, could Marybelle be an external aspect of say twin flame, or current soul's twin flame. I don't think she's an external aspect of my twin flame. I may be wrong. I'm not sure. She may be unrelated to me completely. I don't mind in any case, was just thinking something.
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Suposed to maybe sleet tomorrow morning. I wonder if schools are closed and how I'll find out with no internet and no phone. I think if schools are closed I'll not go to my rpg Thursday group since I assume if schools are closed then the group will be canceled.
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Tuesday Afternoon & Night [3-3]
Tuesday afternoon: Did meditation 11 today. I'll finish the last one tomorrow. it was an interesting one. Annoying that the phone line went out the few seconds before I was going to post this.
You summon a master to help you. They also talk about you are a master yourself. And believing that you can become fully awakened in this lifetime and become the master that you already are. And this master will help you and you can summon him in the future. I could sense him, but not see him. she then had had the master touch the area of the head where the third eye was to open it. I didn't see anything. Instead it felt like something long came or grew from the center of my forehead and grew out. It felt like it was straight, but grew out of the center of my forehead and was aimed upwards, I think. Felt like something long was anchored on the skull, sorta. Hard to explain. I did feel the resonating of the rest of the areas of the first 3 energy centers of the light body. Though with the first one it felt like maybe 2 spots were resonating, or maybe the whole general area instead of just 1 spot. No biggie since I would assume any energy would go to the right spot. Or it could be that 1 was the 1st energy center of the light body and maybe the other was the 1st dantian (however you spell it), or the 2nd chakra maybe. Maybe even all 3.
What did it feel like to be the master: relaxing, I didn't feel to emotional. though
What advice did you give yourself? I don't recall much. One of it was to keep doing the to do list. That is a key to getting things done.
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Tuesday afternoon: I tried a guided meditation/hypnotic to astral project, but it didn't work. I felt the resonance/vibration, but could not get out at all. It's like whatever energy body is glued to the physical body. Makes me think that when the physical body dies die will it be free then or still stuck or glued into the physical body. I'll find out someday. Makes me wonder if there is any life after the death of the physical body. perhaps once you're in a physical body, if you can't project, then that is it, you die with the body.
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Tuesday afternoon/evening: I lay down, and instead of taking a nap instead I did 2 meditations. the first one was to deal with 2 sub personalities, worry and another. i did like the guided mediation did before, but without using the audio. I may retry this with the audio tomorrow, or maybe without the audio.
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Tuesday evening: I then tried to relax as deeply as I could. i felt the usual resonating/vibrations, but again was not able to leave, not float out of the body, not fall out of the body to the floor, nor pull myself out of the body using an imaginary rope, nor roll out, nothing worked. though i did feel very relaxed and the resonating/vibrations continued the whole time. I gave up after about an hour. No phone service and no internet so figured why not.
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Tuesday evening: Since the phone & internet are out I decided to go ahead and try a meditation I had downloaded. A short 15 minute one called Meet Your Unicorn. It was a unique experience.
The meditation talked about the third eye. Though I think she got it wrong when she said the unicorn's horn is it's crown chakra since it would be on the top of it's head, but that is getting off track. As she was talking about the 3rd eye, opening it or something I did feel something was there here my third eye was supposed to be.
he came out. i say he since I had the feeling of his being a male. He said either "welcome brother, or "greetings brother." not sure which. As he said this he touched his horn to what apparently was mine. Didn't know I had one. And it felt like I was blasted with, hard to describe. It did make my physical body's eyes water. Some exquisite feelings, love (inadvertent to call it that but that is the closest) some other powerful positive.... things I can't begin to describe. Felt like me entire body was resonating, pretty strongly as I recall, and I also felt some sorta warm fuzzy energy also. Also could feel like maybe a horn, or could feel it better at this point,and something sticking out of my back.
The guided meditation then had me get on the unicorn and I did feel what felt like some being between my physical body's legs, some being with very dense/concentrated energy, quite a bit of it. he then, as the guided mediation guided, to fly somewhere, through upper dimensions.
Then we appeared/landed on a beach and it had some dolphins at the surface in the distance. he said this was the territory of the pod, meaning the one I'm a member of. then he showed me an image. an anthropomorphic solid black, not sure if it had an orca coloration or not. with a unicorn horn sticking out of the center of his forehead, not sure of the gender. it also had a triangular dorsal fin. the arms and hands from the elbows down were scaly like a dragon's. The legs from the knees down and the feet i saw both, orca like and dragon. The tail also was both. I guess with the ability to decide between orca legs and tail and feet. I asked about wings and he said you don't need wings to fly. Wings are a vulnerable point, but can grow them if you want. I asked him what heritage I was soul wise. he aid unicorn, dragon, dolphin and orca, but I was more orca then dolphin. My path, as i know, is at least to fully awaken or as much as I can. The serpent being symbolic with that, shedding it's skin to become a new being, or in my case to become my true self, as much as I can.
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Tuesday evening:
I did meet your spirit guides. It didn't go as well. I think since I wasn't as relaxed. I had to shift how i was sitting due to a pain in a certain spot near the end of my spine. Think it want ok. Dan appeared first. he seemed different. I mentioned that and he said he was on his best behavior. Though he did caress his maleness briefly with a mischievous grin. Asking me, "wanna lick?" Made me smile. In the meditation they mentioned him giving me a gift. The first thing he did, also mischievously was put his penis into my hand saying "how about this." when I got to that part of the meditation saying to ask for a gift. Then he removed it, saying, "but seriously..." and put a small figuring of an orca with it's back arching. Stan appeared then, his energy feeling different but an inner me knew it was stan. Dan felt more solid then Stan did. The piece of paper the mediation said the 2nd guide was to give to me said peace on it. I guess inner peace. I did ask if they could continue to help me while I did what i was doing. Even if I could not project but he didn't say anything.
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Tuesday evening:
I wonder how long it'll take to post all this. I'd guess a day or 2 since I may not get my internet back till Friday or next week. no biggie. i have enough to do and to keep myself entertained.
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Tuesday evening:
I did meditation 11 a 2nd time. Got about as much as before, but wasn't as relaxed as the first time. Maybe due to my having done other meditations a bit before. The first light body energy center I did feel resonating. the 2nd less so. and the third the least, and there was some pain also, like thin and long stripes around the area, is how the pain was shaped. I guess some sort of block. I did focus on sending it love and that seemed to have worked. i tried to do that again and slight discomfort returned for a moment, I focused on sending it love and tried to get it to relax also. I may try that tonight, sending it love and relaxation.
I remembered some of what the master me said,or master that I am. to trust in my inner guidance, in myself, the guides i have, relax, be true to myself, The to do list does help, keep doing that. do the qi gong and tai chi qi gong. and the resistance band exercises.
As the master how did I feel? relaxed, loving, humorous.
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Wonder if that means I'm mostly orca. the rest being dolphin, dragon and unicorn. Seems an unusual mix. I wonder how the unicorn fits in? and why add it to me during the switch over. I had assumed I was split off from old soul. but I guess maybe it was partially that and i was partially made too. Something I must think on and meditate on in the future.
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You summon a master to help you. They also talk about you are a master yourself. And believing that you can become fully awakened in this lifetime and become the master that you already are. And this master will help you and you can summon him in the future. I could sense him, but not see him. she then had had the master touch the area of the head where the third eye was to open it. I didn't see anything. Instead it felt like something long came or grew from the center of my forehead and grew out. It felt like it was straight, but grew out of the center of my forehead and was aimed upwards, I think. Felt like something long was anchored on the skull, sorta. Hard to explain. I did feel the resonating of the rest of the areas of the first 3 energy centers of the light body. Though with the first one it felt like maybe 2 spots were resonating, or maybe the whole general area instead of just 1 spot. No biggie since I would assume any energy would go to the right spot. Or it could be that 1 was the 1st energy center of the light body and maybe the other was the 1st dantian (however you spell it), or the 2nd chakra maybe. Maybe even all 3.
What did it feel like to be the master: relaxing, I didn't feel to emotional. though
What advice did you give yourself? I don't recall much. One of it was to keep doing the to do list. That is a key to getting things done.
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Tuesday afternoon: I tried a guided meditation/hypnotic to astral project, but it didn't work. I felt the resonance/vibration, but could not get out at all. It's like whatever energy body is glued to the physical body. Makes me think that when the physical body dies die will it be free then or still stuck or glued into the physical body. I'll find out someday. Makes me wonder if there is any life after the death of the physical body. perhaps once you're in a physical body, if you can't project, then that is it, you die with the body.
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Tuesday afternoon/evening: I lay down, and instead of taking a nap instead I did 2 meditations. the first one was to deal with 2 sub personalities, worry and another. i did like the guided mediation did before, but without using the audio. I may retry this with the audio tomorrow, or maybe without the audio.
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Tuesday evening: I then tried to relax as deeply as I could. i felt the usual resonating/vibrations, but again was not able to leave, not float out of the body, not fall out of the body to the floor, nor pull myself out of the body using an imaginary rope, nor roll out, nothing worked. though i did feel very relaxed and the resonating/vibrations continued the whole time. I gave up after about an hour. No phone service and no internet so figured why not.
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Tuesday evening: Since the phone & internet are out I decided to go ahead and try a meditation I had downloaded. A short 15 minute one called Meet Your Unicorn. It was a unique experience.
The meditation talked about the third eye. Though I think she got it wrong when she said the unicorn's horn is it's crown chakra since it would be on the top of it's head, but that is getting off track. As she was talking about the 3rd eye, opening it or something I did feel something was there here my third eye was supposed to be.
he came out. i say he since I had the feeling of his being a male. He said either "welcome brother, or "greetings brother." not sure which. As he said this he touched his horn to what apparently was mine. Didn't know I had one. And it felt like I was blasted with, hard to describe. It did make my physical body's eyes water. Some exquisite feelings, love (inadvertent to call it that but that is the closest) some other powerful positive.... things I can't begin to describe. Felt like me entire body was resonating, pretty strongly as I recall, and I also felt some sorta warm fuzzy energy also. Also could feel like maybe a horn, or could feel it better at this point,and something sticking out of my back.
The guided meditation then had me get on the unicorn and I did feel what felt like some being between my physical body's legs, some being with very dense/concentrated energy, quite a bit of it. he then, as the guided mediation guided, to fly somewhere, through upper dimensions.
Then we appeared/landed on a beach and it had some dolphins at the surface in the distance. he said this was the territory of the pod, meaning the one I'm a member of. then he showed me an image. an anthropomorphic solid black, not sure if it had an orca coloration or not. with a unicorn horn sticking out of the center of his forehead, not sure of the gender. it also had a triangular dorsal fin. the arms and hands from the elbows down were scaly like a dragon's. The legs from the knees down and the feet i saw both, orca like and dragon. The tail also was both. I guess with the ability to decide between orca legs and tail and feet. I asked about wings and he said you don't need wings to fly. Wings are a vulnerable point, but can grow them if you want. I asked him what heritage I was soul wise. he aid unicorn, dragon, dolphin and orca, but I was more orca then dolphin. My path, as i know, is at least to fully awaken or as much as I can. The serpent being symbolic with that, shedding it's skin to become a new being, or in my case to become my true self, as much as I can.
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Tuesday evening:
I did meet your spirit guides. It didn't go as well. I think since I wasn't as relaxed. I had to shift how i was sitting due to a pain in a certain spot near the end of my spine. Think it want ok. Dan appeared first. he seemed different. I mentioned that and he said he was on his best behavior. Though he did caress his maleness briefly with a mischievous grin. Asking me, "wanna lick?" Made me smile. In the meditation they mentioned him giving me a gift. The first thing he did, also mischievously was put his penis into my hand saying "how about this." when I got to that part of the meditation saying to ask for a gift. Then he removed it, saying, "but seriously..." and put a small figuring of an orca with it's back arching. Stan appeared then, his energy feeling different but an inner me knew it was stan. Dan felt more solid then Stan did. The piece of paper the mediation said the 2nd guide was to give to me said peace on it. I guess inner peace. I did ask if they could continue to help me while I did what i was doing. Even if I could not project but he didn't say anything.
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Tuesday evening:
I wonder how long it'll take to post all this. I'd guess a day or 2 since I may not get my internet back till Friday or next week. no biggie. i have enough to do and to keep myself entertained.
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Tuesday evening:
I did meditation 11 a 2nd time. Got about as much as before, but wasn't as relaxed as the first time. Maybe due to my having done other meditations a bit before. The first light body energy center I did feel resonating. the 2nd less so. and the third the least, and there was some pain also, like thin and long stripes around the area, is how the pain was shaped. I guess some sort of block. I did focus on sending it love and that seemed to have worked. i tried to do that again and slight discomfort returned for a moment, I focused on sending it love and tried to get it to relax also. I may try that tonight, sending it love and relaxation.
I remembered some of what the master me said,or master that I am. to trust in my inner guidance, in myself, the guides i have, relax, be true to myself, The to do list does help, keep doing that. do the qi gong and tai chi qi gong. and the resistance band exercises.
As the master how did I feel? relaxed, loving, humorous.
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Wonder if that means I'm mostly orca. the rest being dolphin, dragon and unicorn. Seems an unusual mix. I wonder how the unicorn fits in? and why add it to me during the switch over. I had assumed I was split off from old soul. but I guess maybe it was partially that and i was partially made too. Something I must think on and meditate on in the future.
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Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Tues [3-3]
Weird dream last night.
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I do wonder. I do feel a connection with dolphins, orcas, dragons.
But how does serpant/snake, eastern dragons, serpentine nagas and unicorns fit into this.
It Could be that the connection with the eastern dragon may be he's a friend of Stan, another aspect and or current soul I'm an external aspect of. I did see a gold dragon once during my 2nd treatment and Stan did say he was a friend of his, so that may be the connection with eastern dragons.
But why serpent/snake and serpentine naga. That could be the same being, able to shift between serpentine naga and naga or 2 different beings.
Dolphin and orca I can see, since I'm a member of a pod and some members, me included it seems from my past experiences there, can choose if we look like a dolphin or an orca. and a dragoness may be the twin flame of old or current soul. if it's new soul not sure if old soul doesn't have a twin, if he merged with his twin. if his twin was elsewhere usually when I was there. and currently how does unicorns fit in. An aspect of current soul, or is one a friend of current soul. I should try to see if I can mediate later today and find the answer to at least some of these.
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Lay down to take a nap and decided instead to just relax, if i went to sleep fine if not also fine. not sure if i did, doubt it. I just tried to see if I could relax and how well I could relax. An hour passed and it seemed only a few minutes. So maybe i did go very deep uncontrollably and then eased back into being medium relaxed or the body may have gone to sleep without my being consciously aware of it.
A bit before I stopped and decided to get up I noticed I was resonating, vibrating, all over, no idea why. Guess my vibration was being increased or something. On a whim I tried to see if I could move the energy body, but like before it's impossible.
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Finally back after having no net from Tuesday afternoon till who knows today. I'd guess late afternoon or early evening. In only knew I had phone and net back since on a whim I picked up the phone and saw the dial was lite and there was a dial tone. tried plugging in the dsl modem and after a while I was online.
I'll start posting my experiences not to fast. I may do Tuesday tonight. Wednesday maybe Friday afternoon so if anyone does read this they won't have to read to much to get caught up.
Dryad says I have a trickser aspect. Sounds pretty evil to cause nightmares for fun. But on to the Tuesday stuff.
Makes me wonder if ANY of my experiences lately have been real, or if they are all lies done for the trickser whims. I'll have to question everything. i was going to post Tuesday but if it is all lies I won't post anymore but Tuesday. No idea why I attracted an evil trickster aspect. I'll have to think if I want to peruse awakening since no telling what the evil trickster do to make me think this or that happened when it was all fantasy tricks for it's amusement. on second thought I'll delete what I typed up for Tuesday since I bet it's all trickster fantasy and likes. I'll stop all mystic and spiritual stuff totally since I have no way to tell the difference between a real mystical experience and a trickster lie. I'll stop recording my dreams also, so maybe I'll go back to remembering maybe a few a year.
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Was going to type more but I Deleted what I had copy & pasted since who knows what of my experiences happened and what were just fantasy lies done to amuse the evil trickster aspect I seem to have attracted or something. I never heard of such a thing, but best for at least now, till I get more information, to totally turn my back on everything mystic and spiritual. and who knows what evil it'll do next just for it's amusement. and I can't do anything about it. Which likely makes it laugh more. Pretty evil beings.
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I do wonder. I do feel a connection with dolphins, orcas, dragons.
But how does serpant/snake, eastern dragons, serpentine nagas and unicorns fit into this.
It Could be that the connection with the eastern dragon may be he's a friend of Stan, another aspect and or current soul I'm an external aspect of. I did see a gold dragon once during my 2nd treatment and Stan did say he was a friend of his, so that may be the connection with eastern dragons.
But why serpent/snake and serpentine naga. That could be the same being, able to shift between serpentine naga and naga or 2 different beings.
Dolphin and orca I can see, since I'm a member of a pod and some members, me included it seems from my past experiences there, can choose if we look like a dolphin or an orca. and a dragoness may be the twin flame of old or current soul. if it's new soul not sure if old soul doesn't have a twin, if he merged with his twin. if his twin was elsewhere usually when I was there. and currently how does unicorns fit in. An aspect of current soul, or is one a friend of current soul. I should try to see if I can mediate later today and find the answer to at least some of these.
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Lay down to take a nap and decided instead to just relax, if i went to sleep fine if not also fine. not sure if i did, doubt it. I just tried to see if I could relax and how well I could relax. An hour passed and it seemed only a few minutes. So maybe i did go very deep uncontrollably and then eased back into being medium relaxed or the body may have gone to sleep without my being consciously aware of it.
A bit before I stopped and decided to get up I noticed I was resonating, vibrating, all over, no idea why. Guess my vibration was being increased or something. On a whim I tried to see if I could move the energy body, but like before it's impossible.
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Finally back after having no net from Tuesday afternoon till who knows today. I'd guess late afternoon or early evening. In only knew I had phone and net back since on a whim I picked up the phone and saw the dial was lite and there was a dial tone. tried plugging in the dsl modem and after a while I was online.
I'll start posting my experiences not to fast. I may do Tuesday tonight. Wednesday maybe Friday afternoon so if anyone does read this they won't have to read to much to get caught up.
Dryad says I have a trickser aspect. Sounds pretty evil to cause nightmares for fun. But on to the Tuesday stuff.
Makes me wonder if ANY of my experiences lately have been real, or if they are all lies done for the trickser whims. I'll have to question everything. i was going to post Tuesday but if it is all lies I won't post anymore but Tuesday. No idea why I attracted an evil trickster aspect. I'll have to think if I want to peruse awakening since no telling what the evil trickster do to make me think this or that happened when it was all fantasy tricks for it's amusement. on second thought I'll delete what I typed up for Tuesday since I bet it's all trickster fantasy and likes. I'll stop all mystic and spiritual stuff totally since I have no way to tell the difference between a real mystical experience and a trickster lie. I'll stop recording my dreams also, so maybe I'll go back to remembering maybe a few a year.
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Was going to type more but I Deleted what I had copy & pasted since who knows what of my experiences happened and what were just fantasy lies done to amuse the evil trickster aspect I seem to have attracted or something. I never heard of such a thing, but best for at least now, till I get more information, to totally turn my back on everything mystic and spiritual. and who knows what evil it'll do next just for it's amusement. and I can't do anything about it. Which likely makes it laugh more. Pretty evil beings.
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Monday, March 2, 2015
Monday [3-2]
Been thinking again about dolphin, dragon, orca, serpentine naga, and unicorns.
could be my soul heritage could be that. Also when I did the power animal thing more then a decade ago I would get dolphin, dragon serpent, and i think orca. maybe due to my soul heritage or something. Unicorn is more recent, maybe due to my being a new/old soul and what happened. The dragoness may be current soul's twin flame, but what of old soul's twin? i felt no inkling of that. Maybe he merged with her before my incarnation, or during it?
The unicorn could be current soul has an aspect that is a unicorn, or one of my soul parents may be part unicorn maybe.
I wonder if serpents, eastern dragons, and serpentine nagas are related. they look somewhat similar. Since, if I recall, nagas are supposed to be able to shapeshift, and in some myths, serpents can too.
are western dragons like male dragons and eastern females, or are they 2 separate species of beings?
Or were say serpents made by eastern dragons, or are they like if a serpent gets old enough or wise enough they can grow into and eastern type dragon, like the kitsune, grow more and more tails?
This is something I"ll meditate on, hopefully today, rethink this and see if I can get the answer today.
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lay in bed for a bit before getting up from my nap. I asked for the violet flame to help me again with what I needed help with. This time it seemed to make my entire abdominal area resonate.
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I did meditation 10. Didn't get to much this time. Maybe an off day, or maybe due to the violet flame making my abdominal area resonate may be why. Maybe that area can only take so much within a certain period of time.
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could be my soul heritage could be that. Also when I did the power animal thing more then a decade ago I would get dolphin, dragon serpent, and i think orca. maybe due to my soul heritage or something. Unicorn is more recent, maybe due to my being a new/old soul and what happened. The dragoness may be current soul's twin flame, but what of old soul's twin? i felt no inkling of that. Maybe he merged with her before my incarnation, or during it?
The unicorn could be current soul has an aspect that is a unicorn, or one of my soul parents may be part unicorn maybe.
I wonder if serpents, eastern dragons, and serpentine nagas are related. they look somewhat similar. Since, if I recall, nagas are supposed to be able to shapeshift, and in some myths, serpents can too.
are western dragons like male dragons and eastern females, or are they 2 separate species of beings?
Or were say serpents made by eastern dragons, or are they like if a serpent gets old enough or wise enough they can grow into and eastern type dragon, like the kitsune, grow more and more tails?
This is something I"ll meditate on, hopefully today, rethink this and see if I can get the answer today.
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lay in bed for a bit before getting up from my nap. I asked for the violet flame to help me again with what I needed help with. This time it seemed to make my entire abdominal area resonate.
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I did meditation 10. Didn't get to much this time. Maybe an off day, or maybe due to the violet flame making my abdominal area resonate may be why. Maybe that area can only take so much within a certain period of time.
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I do wonder some stuff. Like can one
light body project? what are some techniques, if one can? How hard is
it to do? Can one use astral projection techniques to light body
project? if not could one reach the 5th or 6th dimension with an astral
body, or the 6th with the light body projection?
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Do i have as a part of my soul heritage, dolphin, dragon, orca, and what else? and is the dragon wester, eastern, or both? maybe a serpentine naga, ? unicorn too, or current soul has one as an aspect?
also what exactly is soul heritage? Is it what my soul parents are, past/parallel lives of old soul, and current soul? ? my soul parents too, or just those 2? Will I ever find out the answers to this or to if I can project in the light body or astral or somehow to reach where the pod is, or Dan at least? I do hope to find out one day.
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Do i have as a part of my soul heritage, dolphin, dragon, orca, and what else? and is the dragon wester, eastern, or both? maybe a serpentine naga, ? unicorn too, or current soul has one as an aspect?
also what exactly is soul heritage? Is it what my soul parents are, past/parallel lives of old soul, and current soul? ? my soul parents too, or just those 2? Will I ever find out the answers to this or to if I can project in the light body or astral or somehow to reach where the pod is, or Dan at least? I do hope to find out one day.
Sunday, March 1, 2015
Sunday [3-1]
I do wonder if the dragoness I was in contact with a few times is the
twin flame of the current soul I'm an external aspect of, my old soul?
Digging around inside myself I think i do feel similar feelings towards
her as towards my twin flame, but to a lesser degree. Maybe soul's twin
flame, not sure if she's current or old soul's twin. and the other may
be the 4th person that higher self or current soul mentioned when they
said I have 4 soul parents, 3 i know of currently.
I do wonder whatever process was done to me, to switch me to being an external aspect of the current soul, if a similar process was done with my twin to ensure we'd remain twins, or if was something different. could be while I was asleep during that night where I sleep through the whole night, a rare thing. Maybe she and I merged, or at least the part of me that wasn't in this body merged with her, maybe they did whatever I was ? made ? by 4 souls and became mostly an external aspect of the current soul and then maybe she and I split. Just a wild guess. though when soul pulled me up that time, as I mentioned before, he did say that the time had come to decide. Not sure why the would need to do that preliminary work, if that is what it was, have me agree to not remember the meeting we had then I'd have to be asked (not yet remembering the meeting) and make my decision. Since when I said I accept, after asking a few questions, i did feel something inside me shift or click, hard to describe. and I did feel different, like part of me had changed. I feel the key for the timing was before my kundalini rose, since i guess it would otherwise have nothing to connect to. Unless I have that wrong. and a new higher self took a while to materialize. if that makes sense. maybe due to the current soul I'm an external aspect of and me needing to at least partially assimilate the new experience this is for both of us.
I guess maybe i got the orca from current soul, dolphin from old former soul, dragon from her. Still not sure if she is the twin of current or former soul. and what is the 3rd? serpent, serpent naga, a reptilian, or a mix?
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Also forgot to put down. I did always find unicorns to be neat. Something about them. A slight connection or something. it wasn't as strong as what I felt for dolphins, dragons, and serpentile nagas.
Maybe current soul has a unicorn aspect or one of the soul parents may have a fae aspect or be part fae. maybe dragons are part fae themselves or something. Not sure about it and Digging around, though i do so slightly. The connection, attraction or whatever it is, does feel stronger now. Not sure if its due to me beign more aware, having worked through more issues I need to work through so things are more clear, or because I'm a new soul, having switched to becoming the external aspect of current soul. or maybe it's a mix of 2 or more of those. ? pegasii to a lesser extent, or just that they can fly, dragons can fly so maybe just the connection they can fly, like dragons can fly and look similar to unicorns?
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Did the 9th meditation. I did feel the resonating on all 3 of the first light body energy centers. He talked about emotional flow. I think I understand. How you can experience whatever emotion you want to experience. I did feel the energy body, but less so. Was it more relaxed or something. I'm fairly sure I was maybe medium meditative trance state. And like usual I was warm during it, but not hot, maybe due to the temperatures being cold, as well as being thirsty, which I always am for some reason. Even if i during water before.
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After I lay down I decided to ask for the violet flame to come around me to help with what it could. During the time I lay down I did feel a resonating occurring all around my body and a few inches into the body or the energy body or both. After a bit it felt like the resonating penetrated deep into the body and or energy body, working it's way to the core. The sensation felt not just like a resonating but also pleasure mixed in. It also felt like my kundalini responded to this and was flowing faster, or with more force.
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I did the 9th mediation the 2nd time. I didn't get as much this time. Though i did feel a resonating around the areas of the first 2 light body energy centers. I felt very little around the 3rd one. but I guess I can still assume I did some work in or with that 3rd one, though I didn't feel much. I may be less sensitive or aware of the energy, though maybe it also was all I could do.
Also I felt like there was some pain around where the area of the 3rd light body energy center. I focused on sending that area love and saying I accept it unconditionally. i also asked for the violet flame to help. this time I felt only a warmth. I'll put this up as a successful experience, though I was less aware or sensitive. and as usual I am thirsty.
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I do wonder whatever process was done to me, to switch me to being an external aspect of the current soul, if a similar process was done with my twin to ensure we'd remain twins, or if was something different. could be while I was asleep during that night where I sleep through the whole night, a rare thing. Maybe she and I merged, or at least the part of me that wasn't in this body merged with her, maybe they did whatever I was ? made ? by 4 souls and became mostly an external aspect of the current soul and then maybe she and I split. Just a wild guess. though when soul pulled me up that time, as I mentioned before, he did say that the time had come to decide. Not sure why the would need to do that preliminary work, if that is what it was, have me agree to not remember the meeting we had then I'd have to be asked (not yet remembering the meeting) and make my decision. Since when I said I accept, after asking a few questions, i did feel something inside me shift or click, hard to describe. and I did feel different, like part of me had changed. I feel the key for the timing was before my kundalini rose, since i guess it would otherwise have nothing to connect to. Unless I have that wrong. and a new higher self took a while to materialize. if that makes sense. maybe due to the current soul I'm an external aspect of and me needing to at least partially assimilate the new experience this is for both of us.
I guess maybe i got the orca from current soul, dolphin from old former soul, dragon from her. Still not sure if she is the twin of current or former soul. and what is the 3rd? serpent, serpent naga, a reptilian, or a mix?
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Also forgot to put down. I did always find unicorns to be neat. Something about them. A slight connection or something. it wasn't as strong as what I felt for dolphins, dragons, and serpentile nagas.
Maybe current soul has a unicorn aspect or one of the soul parents may have a fae aspect or be part fae. maybe dragons are part fae themselves or something. Not sure about it and Digging around, though i do so slightly. The connection, attraction or whatever it is, does feel stronger now. Not sure if its due to me beign more aware, having worked through more issues I need to work through so things are more clear, or because I'm a new soul, having switched to becoming the external aspect of current soul. or maybe it's a mix of 2 or more of those. ? pegasii to a lesser extent, or just that they can fly, dragons can fly so maybe just the connection they can fly, like dragons can fly and look similar to unicorns?
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Did the 9th meditation. I did feel the resonating on all 3 of the first light body energy centers. He talked about emotional flow. I think I understand. How you can experience whatever emotion you want to experience. I did feel the energy body, but less so. Was it more relaxed or something. I'm fairly sure I was maybe medium meditative trance state. And like usual I was warm during it, but not hot, maybe due to the temperatures being cold, as well as being thirsty, which I always am for some reason. Even if i during water before.
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After I lay down I decided to ask for the violet flame to come around me to help with what it could. During the time I lay down I did feel a resonating occurring all around my body and a few inches into the body or the energy body or both. After a bit it felt like the resonating penetrated deep into the body and or energy body, working it's way to the core. The sensation felt not just like a resonating but also pleasure mixed in. It also felt like my kundalini responded to this and was flowing faster, or with more force.
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I did the 9th mediation the 2nd time. I didn't get as much this time. Though i did feel a resonating around the areas of the first 2 light body energy centers. I felt very little around the 3rd one. but I guess I can still assume I did some work in or with that 3rd one, though I didn't feel much. I may be less sensitive or aware of the energy, though maybe it also was all I could do.
Also I felt like there was some pain around where the area of the 3rd light body energy center. I focused on sending that area love and saying I accept it unconditionally. i also asked for the violet flame to help. this time I felt only a warmth. I'll put this up as a successful experience, though I was less aware or sensitive. and as usual I am thirsty.
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