Got a message from the dolphin who said that due to my strong ties with the Sirius dolphin pods and due to what I've done in the past, my past actions, I'm more then welcome in any of the pods.
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had a strange dream where I was superman or a superman type character, but very early in his career, including a bit of time as superboy, I wasn't known outside Smallville, and I only had some of the abilities, no super cold breath or super speed. And the strength levels were't rediculous.
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I also remember where the mermaid, then later the dolphin, told me that with I had so many blocks up that was acting as a type of cushion which was why the energy frequencies reaching earth were not much of a problem, not as much as now, as well as the synthetic stuff not bothering me as much. Though as both my blocks cleared and I became more clear and more and more of my true self as well as the new frequencies reaching the earth, both together have made me much more sensative to the synthetic and unhealthy foods. The dolphin adding in the fact I'm so alien to the earth and this level of density and my non human genetics compound the problem as well.
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I had fun at the walk around I had at the wholestic feastival. I'll head back later this afternoon. This time I'll remember to wear something in my ears since traffic can be very noisy. Also they had some new asphault on part of the walk there, ick, but I'm sure anyone that's smelled new asphalt knows that that smells like. Smells very toxic to me & makes me feel not to well. But it was mild. The energy of the place was very nice, and I'll go back for at least 1 more walk through. met 1 of the folks from another meet up group there.
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On further thinking, I think I may get more orgone things. I do like how they look. I think I'll some pendants & pyramids. The pendants I'll hang around my appartment, mostly off of the bookshelves, maybe 1 off of the front door handle. maybe 1 off a wall, like art. Think I may get some pyramids and spheres and place them around, like art also. Slowly over time, no hurry. It feels like the right thing to do. and the idea does appeal to me, even at a deep level.
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I went again to the event, had fun just walking around, great energy.
Before I left I had another me pop up mentally, a female anthro dolphin. wasn't expecting that. she said she was 4th dimesion, and said she had come so we could balance our energies, her female and my male energies. it was a pleasant experience. not sure if she is native to 4th dimension or if she went there from 5th to more easily talk to me mentally.
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Overall I had what I think is a pretty good day. Very good even. I'll take it easy, and not do any Gateway, taking a break. I'll start up again tomorrow doing the freeform focus 10, and the sleep & explore. The release & reacharge I may do Tuesday or Wednesday.
Sunday, November 15, 2015
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Saturday 11-14
Friday: while I didn't sleep to well Thursday night, I had a lot of fun at the spiritual type meet up I went to late this morning that lasted till about 1, from 10 - 1. I met new people and I diffidently will be going to more meet ups in the future. I think she has 2 a month at her house and I may not go to the other one that is at the restaurant, a different one picked each time.
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On the suggestion of someone I know online I used some stones. First I just walked around my apartment then put on my bed under and around my head. It seems to have worked. I'll keep using them to see if it continues to work. I used an amythest cluster thing I have a a bunch of tiny amythest crystals, quarts, rose quarts, some heavy black stone I have, and a very small geode on a keychain.
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So I may be from the angelic plane and have had incarnations on many worlds. Feels like I've had a number or a lot on either Sirius worlds and or ones that are water types since I do recall I've been dolphins often, a merperson, merman in the 2 flashes I've had of other lives. Not sure if it was 2 different lives or the same one. and also 1 or a few as a blue skinned humanoid that instinctively says Sirian. also had 1 as some sort of furry humanoid, teaching a group who would go out and teach others, a male Naga, working in a temple type place where he'd channel info, carve or write it on metal sheets and give it to others to copy and send out.
Also had Gaia yesterday introduce me to a mermaid and the mermaid said her energy is easier for me to handle since though I can reach a high level guides, including the plane I'm from, its easier on my physical body for now for her to be a guide or a go between since her energy is easier for my physical body to handle since say for example she's 4d, and if I'm from another plane, the angelic plane she said, but if for example their energy is say a high plane and they can reach down to the 6th dimension, it's easier for my body energy wise since she's 4d or can go down to 4d easily herself. She also said I have a very strong connection to mermaids so that makes it easier too for her and I to connect.
Makes sense that with the energies reaching the earth at this time and I'm sensitive to energy a 4d mermaid would be easier energywise then a high plane reaching down to 6d and if I've been non earth dolphins, a humanoid dolphin of some high tech world, and a merman at least once, that was on some non earth planet with how the sky looked it wasnt earth. I guess that explains what she may mean.
I do feel a strong connection to her, merfolk, dolphins, orcas, and such. also to Nagas & dragons too, and biped reptilians, unicorns.
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Think I have a dolphin guide now too. he came to me a short time ago. basically he said yes the Mermaid's energy is easier on my physical body, his also. he said while he is native to the 6th dimension he can easily go down to the 4th in order to talk to me. he said that the others I can talk to are much higher up, high beings since I'm from the high angelic realms. it's easier on my physical body energetically of they do it this way. He said that of course I know I have a very strong connection to dolphins and he did say he's from one of the Sirius system worlds, a sirius dolphin aquatic type world. and them together, him and the mermaid, are my guides that I can easily reach, and as he and she said earlier, easier energetically on my physical body.
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I tried the sleep & explore hemi-sync but like before all I got was being very relaxed and after a bit a floating feeling, very relaxing. Later I tried the focus 10 freeform, the last audio exercise for wave 1, but I am not sure if I got down to focus 10, but that was the first time I did it do I don't see anything bad about that, plus I'll not start wave 2 will the day after my birthday since the wave 2 album package is still sealed and I want to wait will my birthday to open it. So that means I'll have extra time to do free form focus 10, sleep & exploration, and I'll also do the release & energize a few times over the time before that.
Think I had the new dolphin guide pop up. he mentioned I should take the day off and he and the mermaid may appear tomorrow, but I should diffidently take today off like I did yesterday. yesterday since my sleep Thursday night wasn't very good and I went to a meet up at an organizer's house, but I wrote about that yesterday. Tomorrow I'll be going to another meet up, a special event thing that is being held at a hotel that is about 25 or 30 minutes from where I live, so I figure why not walk over there, since I joined the group last week.
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On the suggestion of someone I know online I used some stones. First I just walked around my apartment then put on my bed under and around my head. It seems to have worked. I'll keep using them to see if it continues to work. I used an amythest cluster thing I have a a bunch of tiny amythest crystals, quarts, rose quarts, some heavy black stone I have, and a very small geode on a keychain.
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So I may be from the angelic plane and have had incarnations on many worlds. Feels like I've had a number or a lot on either Sirius worlds and or ones that are water types since I do recall I've been dolphins often, a merperson, merman in the 2 flashes I've had of other lives. Not sure if it was 2 different lives or the same one. and also 1 or a few as a blue skinned humanoid that instinctively says Sirian. also had 1 as some sort of furry humanoid, teaching a group who would go out and teach others, a male Naga, working in a temple type place where he'd channel info, carve or write it on metal sheets and give it to others to copy and send out.
Also had Gaia yesterday introduce me to a mermaid and the mermaid said her energy is easier for me to handle since though I can reach a high level guides, including the plane I'm from, its easier on my physical body for now for her to be a guide or a go between since her energy is easier for my physical body to handle since say for example she's 4d, and if I'm from another plane, the angelic plane she said, but if for example their energy is say a high plane and they can reach down to the 6th dimension, it's easier for my body energy wise since she's 4d or can go down to 4d easily herself. She also said I have a very strong connection to mermaids so that makes it easier too for her and I to connect.
Makes sense that with the energies reaching the earth at this time and I'm sensitive to energy a 4d mermaid would be easier energywise then a high plane reaching down to 6d and if I've been non earth dolphins, a humanoid dolphin of some high tech world, and a merman at least once, that was on some non earth planet with how the sky looked it wasnt earth. I guess that explains what she may mean.
I do feel a strong connection to her, merfolk, dolphins, orcas, and such. also to Nagas & dragons too, and biped reptilians, unicorns.
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Think I have a dolphin guide now too. he came to me a short time ago. basically he said yes the Mermaid's energy is easier on my physical body, his also. he said while he is native to the 6th dimension he can easily go down to the 4th in order to talk to me. he said that the others I can talk to are much higher up, high beings since I'm from the high angelic realms. it's easier on my physical body energetically of they do it this way. He said that of course I know I have a very strong connection to dolphins and he did say he's from one of the Sirius system worlds, a sirius dolphin aquatic type world. and them together, him and the mermaid, are my guides that I can easily reach, and as he and she said earlier, easier energetically on my physical body.
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I tried the sleep & explore hemi-sync but like before all I got was being very relaxed and after a bit a floating feeling, very relaxing. Later I tried the focus 10 freeform, the last audio exercise for wave 1, but I am not sure if I got down to focus 10, but that was the first time I did it do I don't see anything bad about that, plus I'll not start wave 2 will the day after my birthday since the wave 2 album package is still sealed and I want to wait will my birthday to open it. So that means I'll have extra time to do free form focus 10, sleep & exploration, and I'll also do the release & energize a few times over the time before that.
Think I had the new dolphin guide pop up. he mentioned I should take the day off and he and the mermaid may appear tomorrow, but I should diffidently take today off like I did yesterday. yesterday since my sleep Thursday night wasn't very good and I went to a meet up at an organizer's house, but I wrote about that yesterday. Tomorrow I'll be going to another meet up, a special event thing that is being held at a hotel that is about 25 or 30 minutes from where I live, so I figure why not walk over there, since I joined the group last week.
Thursday, November 12, 2015
Higher Self [Thursday 11-12]
My higher self or another me: We are indeed from the angelic realms. We do not wish to tell you everything. We wish some stuff for you to find out through other means like your intuition, and other sources available like online, other people and such.
Some of the individuals you've communicated with are from various alternate timelines. once you add in all the alternate timelines and such there are many possible experiences one can have. Like in one, there is one of this, where Atlantis still exists. We also pop around in time, as you say. many experiences. not all of incarnate, some of us do, many do not. There are places where one does not need to do have experiences, to share experiences. You can just go there, manifest a body and hang out or do stuff there, learn, experience, help others. it is all basically doing what you want to do and it never ends. that is how reality is for everyone, the real reality, not the earth reality, as it is currently but that will change over time.
there is one where we are sometimes a mermaid or merperson, we are dolphins, orcas, belugas, among other species. Also multiple places in the same universe and points in time. it can get quite complicated, but it is really easy. we do as we want as all do. going here and there, helping others as we also do was we want to do. Various other lives we pop into when we want. We are royalty in some, no in others. but that is more then ok.
Some of us do do the incarnating thing as I mentioned but also there are some that dislike it, like you do. But that is fine. You can do as you wish and we are not all exactly the same, though we are various selves of the same being. after all you are not exactly the same through even 1 day. more so when you add in the being multi dimensional.
Also it is best to not assume all members of a race are the same. Like some Carians and other races may not understand certain emotions since Earth has many emotions. Though some have incarnated or had other experiences so they can understand more of a emotional array. Some realms and places have less of an emotional array then earth has. But to each their own. Being around others helps some to understand, also some do go out to have experiences and bring their experiences back for others to learn or even just for them selves to learn, which still helps others.
We do have many experiences and once this incarnation is over and you have done any needed time to recover and rest you'll have a wide array of things to do that you can wish to do. The choices will seem infinate, but they are there for you.
There are places you can just pop in, manifest a body and stay there doing things. There is no need to incarnate. Other places do prefer that you do incarnate but don't require it, and some do require it like earth, but Earth has certain exceptions to this, but no need to go into complicated details.
like you could go and be with same dolphins on some Sirius worlds or other places where there are sentient dolphins that use technology of various types. Also you can be say a merperson in various places, be a naga, or other races we've been before. Some we are royalty and can go back to being that once more since they do have some places you can go back into that if you want, come & go, though some dislike this and have that the incarnated folks may have more status or other things.
not easy to explain it in 3d ways. you'll be one of us who do like traveling around and doing this or that at times, as well as spending time alone. The folks you'll enjoy being with will be various species and types. For example if you go to visit Gaia or certain cities or places you may be a merperson or dolphin or switch back and forth in your form. Others a Carian, positive alpha draconian, as well as other races, though some you'll like more then others so may not enjoy being with much so may avoid being with them much, or may need to get use to them. There are many options and no need to discuss them all now. You'll be having a lot of fun, helping many and doing various things indeed.
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Among our friends and lovers, and right now I'll tell you that there are many that see friend and lover as much the same and some like mermaids, merfolk, satyrs, dolphins who not only see both as the same but are very open and promiscuous so that if you are someone they like or fancy they'll be willing to share with you in various ways, some of which are ways that earth humans would regard as a type of sex. it's all about fun, equal sharing, things like that, with them. Some others like carians and others are a bit more reserved. They do that but often at only certain times and places, a bit more like certain human societies, but not any repression, among the higher then earth plane is. or earth realm if you prefer that term. many races are varied, carians among them, dragons also, and others, varied in that the species can have individuals who are more open and one can say of a higher nature then others. Some it can be based on their mood. Nagas are much like this, among others. many nagas have a dislike of certain races based on past encounters and relationships with them, but more are willing to be more open. Some keep more to themselves, but are loving still, though the way they interpret it may be different then some others. Though above a certain level one can say indeed that all are loving beings, it still leaves one with a wide variety of possible personalities and actions.
as for being on team 1 or 2, we are above that, since this universe was designed from the start to have polarity, light, dark as some would say, positive & negative. We are loving beings, but above the drama between these 2 and dislike it, as you've found you dislike the drama of earth. Also competition is a thing that we do not indulge in nor have as part of our make up.
The carian female who appeared to you is indeed one of our, shall we call her a lover, very close friend. Lover is a more correct term since we are regarded as royalty, of 3 you can say royal linages, there may be more but I'll not say. The carian lineage we can claim is indeed very ancient and her society would see it as permissible for us to be lovers. I say us since we are multi dimensional beings. You'll love her. They are more, reserved. Think similar to humans who do show affection and such more in private settings, but out in public there are codes of conduct, again simlar to some more open human societies like those found in the USA and parts of British culture areas. But you'll get along with her well.
Our linage is ancient indeed, as we are from the angelic realms and an angel of course. We are more of the, well a classification is not super easy to do. Humans like to label everything but labels can be handy to use, but is not 100% accurate with everyone.
The light of a seraphim is accurate, though from being other races, incarnating and being with them and others, we have grown, changed, evolved so we may not seem like the typical Seraphim. We do hang out and do stuff with individuals, but prefer to more look at the whole large picture then the 1 on 1. some prefer looking only at the small immediate, and that is fine, just like the large picture. Some look only at the large picture. We have learned to balance this. We go at times where we are needed, where we want and this helps othe over all larger picture. Service to others is not a thing we see as a thing that has to be un fun. You can do service to others, do what you want to do and to some it may look like many of our selves just go around.
we can and do acknowledge we are of not just ancient but high heritage ourselves being from the angelic realms, but also some incarnations and lifetimes we've had, some of them have been as what some would call royal lineages so with the carian female you saw, she is of royalty and she did call you prince since we are of a very ancient lineage of royalty so in her society we indeed are of the right lineage and class and such that in her society and family see as appropriate for us to be lovers, though they are open about love, being of higher then some who choose to remain lower in their awareness, all based on their personal choices, but we are of that so you can say for her and us to be lovers is all green lit. and they are aware we are as multi dimensional as they are.
We do have lover/friends of many species, merfolk of you can say both genders, naga, dolphins, that's a big one, including orcas and belugas, though belugas are not dolphins. No need to go into to much detail, but we will say more will be uncovered over time in various ways and some you'll be surprised by once you return here. But the general gest you'll learn of by the time the incarnation ends.
I've looked into it and it is a new thing but the problem with the light body guided meditations is we are such a high level being compared to earth, with the solar radiance and radiance courses to increase your radiance you hit a point where you are tapping into a good portion of your, our true self. To much for our, well your, physical body at present. We were unaware of this since we have never really been to a place as dense as the earth, not incarnated in such a dense place I mean and had an incarnation awaken and start to tap into themselves as you've done. So best to stay away from that at present and focus on the gateway and hemi-sync. But that does give you a diffident clue as to how high a realm we originate from. We do return to visit there at times. We stay here or there for periods of time, including the angelic realms where we originate from and dwell there.
Some of us stay in places longer, incarnating, some like I suspect you will be, value individual freedom more & teleport around more so you live here or there for various periods of time. Go with what feels natural and is what excites you, fun for you, you love to do. You understand what I mean.
Though as I said, some of us do incarnate, some do not. I do think you''re one of us who Incarnating doesn't really suit. That is fine. Not all of us do.
We've picked up a lot from the various races we've been with, helped, incarnations. That is why you'll find we can't be so easily cataloged, or labeled.
me: I guess then we're much more use to being telepathic?
Higher self: indeed. That is why the galactic languages has no pull for you and they make no real sense. We're far more use to telepathy by far. almost exclusively really, with the occasional rare exception now & then.
me: and when you talk about the carian being a bit more reserved in public like in the us and some other cultures do you mean like that ore are they more open then earth but still reserved compared to some like dolphins?
Higher self: indeed, much more open then cultures and such on earth, since they are telepathic, but more reserved in comparison to some like other non earth origins, also not all Carians or any 1 species are exactly the same, they can be as varied not only since hey are individuals but also they may have various cultures like earth, but they were more brought together since they are telepathic and not with the sense of separation like earth is experiencing at the present. and by dolphins we mean non earth dolphins..
Me: and above such things you mean we are not into that drama and stuff like light/dark, good/evil stuff like we're not into competition?
Higher self: indeed. We do not partake in that stuff. Some do and greatly enjoy it, but we are not among those. We just remain true to ourselves and that is best for all of us.
Thursday 11-11
Not sure what was going on but I awoke ot a sort of memory of maybe a dream or something of that I had a dog, and oddly enough I awoke and it was like part of me was talking to the dog in the way folks talk to a dog. Not sure if I awoke and for the few seconds or so it was where I was awake but the dream was sort of running at the same time, or another me was nearby talking to some dog, or what was going on. The mental image I got was a mostly white dog with some black on it and the feeling I got was maybe it was a friendly, to me at least, pit bull. But I've no idea what was going on. So I'll just mentally shrug and go on with my life.
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not sure if it is connected but it could be me doing a light body course was responsable for my sleep being messed up a few days ago. though I'm not sure as of yet. and overnight sleep being important I'll not experament lightly. For now I'll stay away from doing any light body courses. it could be that if I am a high dimensional or high planar being that doing the light body courses now tapps a bit to much into my true being for this physical body to handle and the 1st noticeable sign could be my sleep being messed up. Just a wild theory. Also seems for some reason I need to get into the shower & get wet at night to help me get to sleep. though the hemi-sync I use does help the important thing seems to be getting into the shower to get wet, though with experimenting I've found I don't need to get my hair wet in the process. A good thing since the cold weather is coming I don't want to get my hair wet at night and the sleepphones I use is an elastic thing I stretch over my head so that would just mess up my brushed wet hair.
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I'm looking forward to going to the meet up group tomorrow. it's at someone's house. Not to hard for me to get to. I'll give it a try. it's set for the late morning and afternoon. Hopefully I should be home at or by 2:30pm so I can get caught up on a nap once i get home, though I may have to leave at 9:30. I'll have to look at the bus schedules later today and draw a map and stuff.
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Not sure why, maybe to give me more information or just to connect to me or something, I've had some female beings appear to me mentally and I can feel that there is some love or other positive type connection towards me as well as for each one I can feel they are very female, hard to describe how their female energy felt, & I could feel they diffidently had feelings for me that are hard to describe, love, passion, that sort of thing. Gaia appeared yesterday and a mermaid she sorta introduced me to, not a surprise there. but today a female dolphin, not sure if it was Sara or another one, then a female orca, a mermaid, and recently a carian female, who did tell me that yes she is royalty, think of her as a type of princess. She hugged me, mentally hug, hard to describe and caressed my chest with one hand, mentally, maybe a mental body I had or something. she did call me my prince & said I have more friends and lovers then I suspect, of all the genders.
Interesting experiences. I'll take it literally and mentally shrug.
the carian looked like a humanoid bird, covered in feathers, and had a bird type tail. don't recall if she had a human head, a bird or a cross. I just instinctively knew it was a carian female. The female part was unmistakable since as I said before I could feel her female energy, as well as the other things I mentioned.
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it may seem odd, but I do feel that away from Earth most places and beings are more open about sharing love, pleasure and such things. Though I'm sure some beings don't do that. Some do and there are likely many societies that are totally open about that and individuals and groups too. These could have been individuals who wanted to sorta introduce themselves to me, and or show me some of what things are like for me outside being incarnated here.
concerning the others who don't come anymore. It could be that either I've ascended or became aware enough so I'm past them so maybe it's harder for them to connect with me since I operate at a higher level and they can't really connect with me. maybe something changed or they are/were of an alternate timeline. Maybe they connected with me and are waiting till I'm back home or if the incarnation continues long enough they may reconnect with me in 5 or 10 years. Not sure on any of the details. There may be other reasons also.
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Still not sure if others like Shalamane and others who in past posts had said they wanted to be mates with me and did show interest including erotic interest then, poof they stopped contacting me. I wonder if it due to, like I said they are from a parallel time line that I've left and am in another one, or if I've ascended in awareness or whatever past them to a level they can't reach. I'm sure I'll understand it at one point.
Think I had a short conversation with my higher self while I was taking my 2nd nap. If I recall it said a mix of reasons. alternate time lines, me reaching a higher level of awareness. and some are waiting till I'm on the other side or for a while before they contact me again. it may have mentioned another reason or 2 but I don't recall. That's ok. I am trying to stick to my idea of when I started the Gateway experience that I'm sorta pretending to start over again.
It did say that indeed I'm from the angelic realms.
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not sure if it is connected but it could be me doing a light body course was responsable for my sleep being messed up a few days ago. though I'm not sure as of yet. and overnight sleep being important I'll not experament lightly. For now I'll stay away from doing any light body courses. it could be that if I am a high dimensional or high planar being that doing the light body courses now tapps a bit to much into my true being for this physical body to handle and the 1st noticeable sign could be my sleep being messed up. Just a wild theory. Also seems for some reason I need to get into the shower & get wet at night to help me get to sleep. though the hemi-sync I use does help the important thing seems to be getting into the shower to get wet, though with experimenting I've found I don't need to get my hair wet in the process. A good thing since the cold weather is coming I don't want to get my hair wet at night and the sleepphones I use is an elastic thing I stretch over my head so that would just mess up my brushed wet hair.
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I'm looking forward to going to the meet up group tomorrow. it's at someone's house. Not to hard for me to get to. I'll give it a try. it's set for the late morning and afternoon. Hopefully I should be home at or by 2:30pm so I can get caught up on a nap once i get home, though I may have to leave at 9:30. I'll have to look at the bus schedules later today and draw a map and stuff.
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Not sure why, maybe to give me more information or just to connect to me or something, I've had some female beings appear to me mentally and I can feel that there is some love or other positive type connection towards me as well as for each one I can feel they are very female, hard to describe how their female energy felt, & I could feel they diffidently had feelings for me that are hard to describe, love, passion, that sort of thing. Gaia appeared yesterday and a mermaid she sorta introduced me to, not a surprise there. but today a female dolphin, not sure if it was Sara or another one, then a female orca, a mermaid, and recently a carian female, who did tell me that yes she is royalty, think of her as a type of princess. She hugged me, mentally hug, hard to describe and caressed my chest with one hand, mentally, maybe a mental body I had or something. she did call me my prince & said I have more friends and lovers then I suspect, of all the genders.
Interesting experiences. I'll take it literally and mentally shrug.
the carian looked like a humanoid bird, covered in feathers, and had a bird type tail. don't recall if she had a human head, a bird or a cross. I just instinctively knew it was a carian female. The female part was unmistakable since as I said before I could feel her female energy, as well as the other things I mentioned.
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it may seem odd, but I do feel that away from Earth most places and beings are more open about sharing love, pleasure and such things. Though I'm sure some beings don't do that. Some do and there are likely many societies that are totally open about that and individuals and groups too. These could have been individuals who wanted to sorta introduce themselves to me, and or show me some of what things are like for me outside being incarnated here.
concerning the others who don't come anymore. It could be that either I've ascended or became aware enough so I'm past them so maybe it's harder for them to connect with me since I operate at a higher level and they can't really connect with me. maybe something changed or they are/were of an alternate timeline. Maybe they connected with me and are waiting till I'm back home or if the incarnation continues long enough they may reconnect with me in 5 or 10 years. Not sure on any of the details. There may be other reasons also.
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Still not sure if others like Shalamane and others who in past posts had said they wanted to be mates with me and did show interest including erotic interest then, poof they stopped contacting me. I wonder if it due to, like I said they are from a parallel time line that I've left and am in another one, or if I've ascended in awareness or whatever past them to a level they can't reach. I'm sure I'll understand it at one point.
Think I had a short conversation with my higher self while I was taking my 2nd nap. If I recall it said a mix of reasons. alternate time lines, me reaching a higher level of awareness. and some are waiting till I'm on the other side or for a while before they contact me again. it may have mentioned another reason or 2 but I don't recall. That's ok. I am trying to stick to my idea of when I started the Gateway experience that I'm sorta pretending to start over again.
It did say that indeed I'm from the angelic realms.
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
Wedensday [11-11]
Thoughts I was thinking last night before bed: I do think things are coming together as far as me wanting to find 1 or 2 spiritual new age type groups. I've though it over and I'd much prefer this to finding another group to play an rpg game, though I do like rping. When the last group moved to Friday night and I could no longer join them I decided to take a break and think things over after a while. With my meets once every 2-4 months new age spiritual type group going poof I thought it was time to look and I found 2 pretty easy. Found them actually a few weeks back. I'll be going to the meeting at 1 of the group at the organizer's house this Friday. Interestingly the name is waking Angels, and that was a few weeks before I had a free reading that said my heritage is the fact I'm from the angelic realms and am an Earth angel, interesting. maybe the group name is significant. Still not sure what part of the reading meant by I'm a member of Angelic space and party. Maybe a mistranslated, maybe it meant Angelic space and time. Space and it's a group or party of others. I may find out eventually.
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Not sure how the I'm from the angelic realms and also of certain species but it could all be true since angels could be as diverse as sentient life is across the dimensions. also it could be past or parallel lives or other things, maybe due to places I lived without incarnating, I've picked up energy or something. I'm sure I'll figure out how it works one day. Not that I need the super details. just curiosity about myself is all.
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Well I slept fine for 1 hour, since then I can't get to sleep. Not sure if it's due to the fact I did an awaken the light body expanded guided meditation earlier, or if sleeping through the rain can only work for a few days then I have to survive a day or 2 where it doesn't work. I'm sure I'll find out eventually. I do look forward to being back on the other side. I'd guess there I wouldn't have these problems.
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I did the wave 1.5 exercise sleep & exploration. not sure if I'll do the resonate tuning since about 1/3 of the time it makes me cough. I'll think about later. This time it made me cough and made my throat sieze up briefly so I stopped. I'll think in the future and decide if I want to do the resonate tuning or not.
I spontaneously poof 100% somewhere else briefly. No idea where since I was basicallly blind, had no other senses but telepathy and someone was wherever I was and started a conversation with me. Basically it was about is degree of awareness equal to level or degree of sentience and if a being is in a more dense enviroment are they less sentient then those from a lighter one, like someone incarnated on earth as apposed to being on one of the Sirius systems worlds. The conversation didn't go on for to long and I've no idea where this was or who I was talking to. I do think I said that the degree of awareness is not a adiquite measure of degree of sentience since that is 2 different things and adding in the levels of density complicates things since lower levels of density of Earth makes it harder to be fully aware, or as fully aware as one can since density puts a bottleneck on things and greatly slows things down.
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I was thinking over a few things I've been told. It could be that for some alliance, or something 2 species and lineages, say a Royal cobra naga and a royal positive alpha draconian, made an offspring, son or being to be their son, out of love as they said, maybe the 2 different species and linage doing this meant that with this their alliance was sealed. or they did this out of love for each other. Not sure on the details of this.
I do feel I may have more then 1 incarnation that may still be ongoing, like a unicorn maybe. or maybe some I just popped in without incarnating. Though I do feel I have quite a few, or a number of friends and lovers from various past incarnations that I do visit. Either by just teleporting in to where they are and manifesting a body. or re manifesting a body for the places where the incarnation has no set lifespan and I can come and go as I wish. And some places where incarnating is not needed and I can just pop in and manifest a body in places I want to visit where it's not required that you incarnated to hang out and interact. Adding in non linear to this I can even pop in a moment after I left, or a second or a few minute or an hour later. Also if there are alternate time lines, this will multiply places immensely.
I do feel I've had numerous incarnations on various Sirius worlds as various species, a blue skinned humanoid, dolphins, a merperson at least once. Other places, some incarnations that may still be ongoing where as I said above I can come and go, various me's since I'm multi dimensional. Like as a royal cobra type naga. maybe a Carian in the very distant past, maybe royalty, or a scientist or both maybe. Maybe involved in the early days of this universe. and other species too. Not sure on all the details. Just feelings I have.
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I was thinking and I do think I've had a number of incarnations. How many I've no idea. Also no idea how old the real me is. it may be tens or more billions of years old maybe, or maybe not.
It can get confusing since I could pop way way back in time. So even if the real me was say only 20 thousand years old I could have popped way back to before this universe existed just to see how it was made, what went into the planning & help out. Though maybe I was there for the first time and am that old. Or it could be if I recall what I've been told, if my true self exists outside time, then it could pop in to all sorts of times, alternate times, though it may be alternate times it's more correctly said to be parallel timelines. Where various alternatives could be explored. Like if Atlantis existed, what if it was never destroyed or sunk or whatever happened.
But I do feel immensely old. Not just 5 or 8 thousand, but millions or billions of years old. I can say though that I do feel immensely old and I do prefer non linear and this me at least doesn't want to incarnate anymore. Not cause I hate the Earth, but I feel Incarnating just doesn't suit this me. Nothing wrong with incarnating, I'm quite sure some folks absolutely love incarnating and will thoroughly enjoy it literally forever. Since we do have an eternity to exist, and experience and do stuff.
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I do fell that part of me does live or exists outside time, as I posted before on an earlier blog. I wonder if there are ways I could improve this blog, but I've no idea how to do so since it's beyond my understanding and seems incomprehensible, but that is ok. Not everything can be understood by everyone.
Anyway I do feel that part of me exists outside time. and teleports around to differing spots in time & space. To have experiences in various places & times. My true self may have incarnated and may this is all parallel, including alternative timelines. But I do feel this me isn't into incarnating.
I do feel that once this incarnation is over I'll have a choice, like I mentioned and was told to me in an earlier blog. If I want to merge with my true self. I can do a 2nd choice of remaining like an extension of my true self, incarnating perhaps, at times. or a 3rd choice, which I feel I like better. Is I can sorta go independent. Not fully independent. I'll still be aware of myself as part of my true self and aware of it's memories and of our other selves, but also I'm more independent also and don't incarnate, but can myself pop around time & space, spending time outside time & space. and in the angelic realms also. Not sure if the angelic realms are outside time or if part of them are. I'm sure I'll learn more about this over time.
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Not sure how the I'm from the angelic realms and also of certain species but it could all be true since angels could be as diverse as sentient life is across the dimensions. also it could be past or parallel lives or other things, maybe due to places I lived without incarnating, I've picked up energy or something. I'm sure I'll figure out how it works one day. Not that I need the super details. just curiosity about myself is all.
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Well I slept fine for 1 hour, since then I can't get to sleep. Not sure if it's due to the fact I did an awaken the light body expanded guided meditation earlier, or if sleeping through the rain can only work for a few days then I have to survive a day or 2 where it doesn't work. I'm sure I'll find out eventually. I do look forward to being back on the other side. I'd guess there I wouldn't have these problems.
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I did the wave 1.5 exercise sleep & exploration. not sure if I'll do the resonate tuning since about 1/3 of the time it makes me cough. I'll think about later. This time it made me cough and made my throat sieze up briefly so I stopped. I'll think in the future and decide if I want to do the resonate tuning or not.
I spontaneously poof 100% somewhere else briefly. No idea where since I was basicallly blind, had no other senses but telepathy and someone was wherever I was and started a conversation with me. Basically it was about is degree of awareness equal to level or degree of sentience and if a being is in a more dense enviroment are they less sentient then those from a lighter one, like someone incarnated on earth as apposed to being on one of the Sirius systems worlds. The conversation didn't go on for to long and I've no idea where this was or who I was talking to. I do think I said that the degree of awareness is not a adiquite measure of degree of sentience since that is 2 different things and adding in the levels of density complicates things since lower levels of density of Earth makes it harder to be fully aware, or as fully aware as one can since density puts a bottleneck on things and greatly slows things down.
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I was thinking over a few things I've been told. It could be that for some alliance, or something 2 species and lineages, say a Royal cobra naga and a royal positive alpha draconian, made an offspring, son or being to be their son, out of love as they said, maybe the 2 different species and linage doing this meant that with this their alliance was sealed. or they did this out of love for each other. Not sure on the details of this.
I do feel I may have more then 1 incarnation that may still be ongoing, like a unicorn maybe. or maybe some I just popped in without incarnating. Though I do feel I have quite a few, or a number of friends and lovers from various past incarnations that I do visit. Either by just teleporting in to where they are and manifesting a body. or re manifesting a body for the places where the incarnation has no set lifespan and I can come and go as I wish. And some places where incarnating is not needed and I can just pop in and manifest a body in places I want to visit where it's not required that you incarnated to hang out and interact. Adding in non linear to this I can even pop in a moment after I left, or a second or a few minute or an hour later. Also if there are alternate time lines, this will multiply places immensely.
I do feel I've had numerous incarnations on various Sirius worlds as various species, a blue skinned humanoid, dolphins, a merperson at least once. Other places, some incarnations that may still be ongoing where as I said above I can come and go, various me's since I'm multi dimensional. Like as a royal cobra type naga. maybe a Carian in the very distant past, maybe royalty, or a scientist or both maybe. Maybe involved in the early days of this universe. and other species too. Not sure on all the details. Just feelings I have.
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I was thinking and I do think I've had a number of incarnations. How many I've no idea. Also no idea how old the real me is. it may be tens or more billions of years old maybe, or maybe not.
It can get confusing since I could pop way way back in time. So even if the real me was say only 20 thousand years old I could have popped way back to before this universe existed just to see how it was made, what went into the planning & help out. Though maybe I was there for the first time and am that old. Or it could be if I recall what I've been told, if my true self exists outside time, then it could pop in to all sorts of times, alternate times, though it may be alternate times it's more correctly said to be parallel timelines. Where various alternatives could be explored. Like if Atlantis existed, what if it was never destroyed or sunk or whatever happened.
But I do feel immensely old. Not just 5 or 8 thousand, but millions or billions of years old. I can say though that I do feel immensely old and I do prefer non linear and this me at least doesn't want to incarnate anymore. Not cause I hate the Earth, but I feel Incarnating just doesn't suit this me. Nothing wrong with incarnating, I'm quite sure some folks absolutely love incarnating and will thoroughly enjoy it literally forever. Since we do have an eternity to exist, and experience and do stuff.
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I do fell that part of me does live or exists outside time, as I posted before on an earlier blog. I wonder if there are ways I could improve this blog, but I've no idea how to do so since it's beyond my understanding and seems incomprehensible, but that is ok. Not everything can be understood by everyone.
Anyway I do feel that part of me exists outside time. and teleports around to differing spots in time & space. To have experiences in various places & times. My true self may have incarnated and may this is all parallel, including alternative timelines. But I do feel this me isn't into incarnating.
I do feel that once this incarnation is over I'll have a choice, like I mentioned and was told to me in an earlier blog. If I want to merge with my true self. I can do a 2nd choice of remaining like an extension of my true self, incarnating perhaps, at times. or a 3rd choice, which I feel I like better. Is I can sorta go independent. Not fully independent. I'll still be aware of myself as part of my true self and aware of it's memories and of our other selves, but also I'm more independent also and don't incarnate, but can myself pop around time & space, spending time outside time & space. and in the angelic realms also. Not sure if the angelic realms are outside time or if part of them are. I'm sure I'll learn more about this over time.
Tuesday, November 10, 2015
Tuesday 11-10
I did the first guided meditation for Awaken The Light Body Expanded. Felt why not give it a try since I've not done that. Before Daben started talking & during the time he was talking I used those times to try to relax and get down to focus 10 or as close as I can.
During this I could feel the energies of the various light body energy centers and the first light body center. During this I felt like I was diffidently floating. During part of the first light body center, the Fullonia, I could see some place that was a bright white light area with various beings walking around. It felt like I was seeing various levels at the same time. The various beings looked like they were various species, including a biped avian type, among others. felt like I may have been there briefly also. Overall an interesting experience. If that is a real place I've no idea where it is or what it may be. Though there was a bright white light everywhere it wasn't painful to look at, but like it was a soft white light. hard to describe, but the light was everywhere.
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I did the sleep & exploration while doing my 2nd nap and like yesterday I felt very light, but never left my body and never went to sleep. Which means I'll likely never use it at night since if I don't to to sleep during the time I'd normally take my 2nd nap, I don't want that full night messed up. I may chance it if I've slept for say 4 hours or so. or I may try it then. Though I can keep doing this till I start wave 2, when they start doing focus 12.
I do hope I project eventually. We'll see, there is still the 6th exercise of wave 1 and all of waves 2-6.
During this I could feel the energies of the various light body energy centers and the first light body center. During this I felt like I was diffidently floating. During part of the first light body center, the Fullonia, I could see some place that was a bright white light area with various beings walking around. It felt like I was seeing various levels at the same time. The various beings looked like they were various species, including a biped avian type, among others. felt like I may have been there briefly also. Overall an interesting experience. If that is a real place I've no idea where it is or what it may be. Though there was a bright white light everywhere it wasn't painful to look at, but like it was a soft white light. hard to describe, but the light was everywhere.
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I did the sleep & exploration while doing my 2nd nap and like yesterday I felt very light, but never left my body and never went to sleep. Which means I'll likely never use it at night since if I don't to to sleep during the time I'd normally take my 2nd nap, I don't want that full night messed up. I may chance it if I've slept for say 4 hours or so. or I may try it then. Though I can keep doing this till I start wave 2, when they start doing focus 12.
I do hope I project eventually. We'll see, there is still the 6th exercise of wave 1 and all of waves 2-6.
Monday, November 9, 2015
Monday 11-9
I had a thought during an email to an acquaintance that may become an online friend, anyway We were talking about the fact I'm from the angelic realms as my origin and i've been to other worlds, helping other worlds with the shift, and other things also. So I am an angel from the angelic realms, but also a starseed in that I'm the various things I've posed before. Royal cobra type naga, royal positive alpha draconian, a carian of some ancient royal line (not sure if these are separate or all 1, Sirius cetacean, unicorn.
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I did the 4th audio of wave 1 of the Gateway Experience. I think after this I'll switch to do audio 5 since I've done this one across 4 days and I've done it twice a day for some of those. SO this'll mean I've done it 6-7 times. Though I think for a while I'll do this 3 times a week, and will do the chakra clearing and activating exercise from another guided meditation hemi-sync also 3 times a week. When I've started wave 2 think I may drop doing those as often, doing each maybe once a week, the recharge and release doing it without listening to the audio. I may do it twice a week or 3. and I may start doing the awaken the light body expanded since I got it in September but I've never even started it. I'll try and see how that goes doing the guided meditation once or twice a week. maybe doing the chakra clearing and activating once a week and the release and recharge (without listening to the audio) 1-3 times a week. So I may do say awaken the light body Thursday & Friday, release & recharge Saturday and Sunday, and the chakra clearing and activating once from Monday through Wednesday, with the option of doing the release and recharge during one of those days instead of Saturday or Sunday if I get to busy that day and that way I'd have 1 or 2 days off here I'm just doing the current audio of the current wave.
I did the release & recharge listening to the audio and it went well. It felt like some of the issues were fully cleared up. Where at most they may be all that's left is the habit thinking that I can catch myself and not do that, switch it over then and get out of the habit of thinking that occasionally if that does fit.
I did get some other stuff, like Gaia and me do have some sort of relationship as lovers and she's willing to continue it once this incarnation is over. I'm willing to also. I also got that my being in a relationship with a planetary being is not unusual for me. by got I don't mean I was told that, it's more like I remembered or got access to more of my innate knowledge.
I also got that indeed I am from the angelic realms, maybe more of a Seraphim or whatever the term is of an angel type that focuses on the world and collective, not on individuals. Though there are many grades of differences since they/we are all individuals. Also as I thought the other types of angels are not ranked, it's by you could say specialty. What do you enjoy doing. Though being curious I'm sure we've experimented helping or hanging out with one of the others to see what they do, get some first hand information and experience. besides hanging out with them since some may be friends and other sorts of relationships.
I also got/remembered that I've had other incarnations, not sure if it was this me or other multi dimensional selves or both. Some like I have incarnated on various Sirius worlds, maybe, or maybe I didn't incarnate there and have some friends and lovers there that I have. I pop back there to visit and some like Sarah hang out there a lot. You don't have to incarnate there to hang out or to do stuff. You could for example pop in, manifesting a body at the same time. and you could then go say to some place to learn to be a solar engineer, aerospace mechanic, medical doctor, ect and do stuff there, or just be a healer there. incarnating is an option. not sure if incarnated on Sirius or not. or if I just popped in to one of the Sirius worlds and did stuff there, maybe going to study this or that to learn stuff and hang out there, without needing to incarnate since I do feel that unlike earth, other places you don't have to incarnate, but have that as an option or you can teleport in, manifesting a body at the same time if you don't already have one.
I also got that I was the previous stuff I had posted before. On some Sirius worlds I can and do just pop in and hang out and do stuff with some of the dolphins who are natives there. Them being friends, lovers and such from before and they certainly don't mind me hanging out with them at times. Not sure if it is all the same pod or different pods. Also as far as the royal cobra type naga, royal positive alpha draconian and a Carian of an ancient royal linage. not sure if this is the same being or different incarnations or something. Maybe it's like with at least 1 Sirius world where I can pop in and live like a prince, maybe picking up where I left off since maybe they have no set live span so that is not unusual. or maybe since I did incarnate once there I can return there, or if there is no set life span it's not unusual for me to pop off for however long and return. Also being non linear will help this a lot, the society may be more aware also. I'm sure I'll get more details so I can make more sense of this later.
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I did the exploration sleep. it went sorta ok. I felt a strong floating sensation and was very relaxed. Nothing else. from what Monroe was saying it seemed the point of the exercise was to go to sleep and to project and I did neither, but that was just the 1st time I did it. So I'll wait to see what else happens with future redoing it.
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Thinking it over. I may not be really suited for incarnating. This me I mean. Living a linear existence, on 1 world in 1 form. With some of your abilities and knowledge blocked. Though I'm sure this varies from world to world. So on some like the Sirius worlds and others. though I'd guess even those it would be 1 form, maybe a linear existence, not sure on that but I'd guess so. on 1 world, though with advanced tech you can get around if the world doesn't allow teleporting, though I'd guess at least some or most, apart from Earth, do. It does feel very restricting, though it may just be the Earth and the current conditions and laws here.
So not really sure if elsewhere I'd feel the same. I can see how this me could be not into incarnating, but the other parts of me may be more into incarnating.
I can see how some would like incarnating. Some not liking non linear. and see the limitations as ok or helps them to focus. Since there would be less distractions for them. They can get down and focus on just this and this. Though it feels like some worlds are not ones that force you to incarnate if you want to do stuff there, unlike earth which does have that rule, with exceptions for guides and other stuff I guess.
On other worlds, or at least some, if you wanted to be say a healer you can pop in and set up shop. or you could go to a university and study there, without incarnating, and have the freedom that any being not incarnated does. I'm sure that being incarnated offers certain things that not being incarnated doesn't. Or it may just be a matter of choice with no clear advantages or disadvantages. I'm sure I'll understand and know one day.
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I did the 4th audio of wave 1 of the Gateway Experience. I think after this I'll switch to do audio 5 since I've done this one across 4 days and I've done it twice a day for some of those. SO this'll mean I've done it 6-7 times. Though I think for a while I'll do this 3 times a week, and will do the chakra clearing and activating exercise from another guided meditation hemi-sync also 3 times a week. When I've started wave 2 think I may drop doing those as often, doing each maybe once a week, the recharge and release doing it without listening to the audio. I may do it twice a week or 3. and I may start doing the awaken the light body expanded since I got it in September but I've never even started it. I'll try and see how that goes doing the guided meditation once or twice a week. maybe doing the chakra clearing and activating once a week and the release and recharge (without listening to the audio) 1-3 times a week. So I may do say awaken the light body Thursday & Friday, release & recharge Saturday and Sunday, and the chakra clearing and activating once from Monday through Wednesday, with the option of doing the release and recharge during one of those days instead of Saturday or Sunday if I get to busy that day and that way I'd have 1 or 2 days off here I'm just doing the current audio of the current wave.
I did the release & recharge listening to the audio and it went well. It felt like some of the issues were fully cleared up. Where at most they may be all that's left is the habit thinking that I can catch myself and not do that, switch it over then and get out of the habit of thinking that occasionally if that does fit.
I did get some other stuff, like Gaia and me do have some sort of relationship as lovers and she's willing to continue it once this incarnation is over. I'm willing to also. I also got that my being in a relationship with a planetary being is not unusual for me. by got I don't mean I was told that, it's more like I remembered or got access to more of my innate knowledge.
I also got that indeed I am from the angelic realms, maybe more of a Seraphim or whatever the term is of an angel type that focuses on the world and collective, not on individuals. Though there are many grades of differences since they/we are all individuals. Also as I thought the other types of angels are not ranked, it's by you could say specialty. What do you enjoy doing. Though being curious I'm sure we've experimented helping or hanging out with one of the others to see what they do, get some first hand information and experience. besides hanging out with them since some may be friends and other sorts of relationships.
I also got/remembered that I've had other incarnations, not sure if it was this me or other multi dimensional selves or both. Some like I have incarnated on various Sirius worlds, maybe, or maybe I didn't incarnate there and have some friends and lovers there that I have. I pop back there to visit and some like Sarah hang out there a lot. You don't have to incarnate there to hang out or to do stuff. You could for example pop in, manifesting a body at the same time. and you could then go say to some place to learn to be a solar engineer, aerospace mechanic, medical doctor, ect and do stuff there, or just be a healer there. incarnating is an option. not sure if incarnated on Sirius or not. or if I just popped in to one of the Sirius worlds and did stuff there, maybe going to study this or that to learn stuff and hang out there, without needing to incarnate since I do feel that unlike earth, other places you don't have to incarnate, but have that as an option or you can teleport in, manifesting a body at the same time if you don't already have one.
I also got that I was the previous stuff I had posted before. On some Sirius worlds I can and do just pop in and hang out and do stuff with some of the dolphins who are natives there. Them being friends, lovers and such from before and they certainly don't mind me hanging out with them at times. Not sure if it is all the same pod or different pods. Also as far as the royal cobra type naga, royal positive alpha draconian and a Carian of an ancient royal linage. not sure if this is the same being or different incarnations or something. Maybe it's like with at least 1 Sirius world where I can pop in and live like a prince, maybe picking up where I left off since maybe they have no set live span so that is not unusual. or maybe since I did incarnate once there I can return there, or if there is no set life span it's not unusual for me to pop off for however long and return. Also being non linear will help this a lot, the society may be more aware also. I'm sure I'll get more details so I can make more sense of this later.
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I did the exploration sleep. it went sorta ok. I felt a strong floating sensation and was very relaxed. Nothing else. from what Monroe was saying it seemed the point of the exercise was to go to sleep and to project and I did neither, but that was just the 1st time I did it. So I'll wait to see what else happens with future redoing it.
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Thinking it over. I may not be really suited for incarnating. This me I mean. Living a linear existence, on 1 world in 1 form. With some of your abilities and knowledge blocked. Though I'm sure this varies from world to world. So on some like the Sirius worlds and others. though I'd guess even those it would be 1 form, maybe a linear existence, not sure on that but I'd guess so. on 1 world, though with advanced tech you can get around if the world doesn't allow teleporting, though I'd guess at least some or most, apart from Earth, do. It does feel very restricting, though it may just be the Earth and the current conditions and laws here.
So not really sure if elsewhere I'd feel the same. I can see how this me could be not into incarnating, but the other parts of me may be more into incarnating.
I can see how some would like incarnating. Some not liking non linear. and see the limitations as ok or helps them to focus. Since there would be less distractions for them. They can get down and focus on just this and this. Though it feels like some worlds are not ones that force you to incarnate if you want to do stuff there, unlike earth which does have that rule, with exceptions for guides and other stuff I guess.
On other worlds, or at least some, if you wanted to be say a healer you can pop in and set up shop. or you could go to a university and study there, without incarnating, and have the freedom that any being not incarnated does. I'm sure that being incarnated offers certain things that not being incarnated doesn't. Or it may just be a matter of choice with no clear advantages or disadvantages. I'm sure I'll understand and know one day.
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