Thoughts I was thinking last night before bed: I do think things are coming together as far as me wanting to find 1 or 2 spiritual new age type groups. I've though it over and I'd much prefer this to finding another group to play an rpg game, though I do like rping. When the last group moved to Friday night and I could no longer join them I decided to take a break and think things over after a while. With my meets once every 2-4 months new age spiritual type group going poof I thought it was time to look and I found 2 pretty easy. Found them actually a few weeks back. I'll be going to the meeting at 1 of the group at the organizer's house this Friday. Interestingly the name is waking Angels, and that was a few weeks before I had a free reading that said my heritage is the fact I'm from the angelic realms and am an Earth angel, interesting. maybe the group name is significant. Still not sure what part of the reading meant by I'm a member of Angelic space and party. Maybe a mistranslated, maybe it meant Angelic space and time. Space and it's a group or party of others. I may find out eventually.
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Not sure how the I'm from the angelic realms and also of certain species but it could all be true since angels could be as diverse as sentient life is across the dimensions. also it could be past or parallel lives or other things, maybe due to places I lived without incarnating, I've picked up energy or something. I'm sure I'll figure out how it works one day. Not that I need the super details. just curiosity about myself is all.
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Well I slept fine for 1 hour, since then I can't get to sleep. Not sure if it's due to the fact I did an awaken the light body expanded guided meditation earlier, or if sleeping through the rain can only work for a few days then I have to survive a day or 2 where it doesn't work. I'm sure I'll find out eventually. I do look forward to being back on the other side. I'd guess there I wouldn't have these problems.
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I did the wave 1.5 exercise sleep & exploration. not sure if I'll do the resonate tuning since about 1/3 of the time it makes me cough. I'll think about later. This time it made me cough and made my throat sieze up briefly so I stopped. I'll think in the future and decide if I want to do the resonate tuning or not.
I spontaneously poof 100% somewhere else briefly. No idea where since I was basicallly blind, had no other senses but telepathy and someone was wherever I was and started a conversation with me. Basically it was about is degree of awareness equal to level or degree of sentience and if a being is in a more dense enviroment are they less sentient then those from a lighter one, like someone incarnated on earth as apposed to being on one of the Sirius systems worlds. The conversation didn't go on for to long and I've no idea where this was or who I was talking to. I do think I said that the degree of awareness is not a adiquite measure of degree of sentience since that is 2 different things and adding in the levels of density complicates things since lower levels of density of Earth makes it harder to be fully aware, or as fully aware as one can since density puts a bottleneck on things and greatly slows things down.
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I was thinking over a few things I've been told. It could be that for some alliance, or something 2 species and lineages, say a Royal cobra naga and a royal positive alpha draconian, made an offspring, son or being to be their son, out of love as they said, maybe the 2 different species and linage doing this meant that with this their alliance was sealed. or they did this out of love for each other. Not sure on the details of this.
I do feel I may have more then 1 incarnation that may still be ongoing, like a unicorn maybe. or maybe some I just popped in without incarnating. Though I do feel I have quite a few, or a number of friends and lovers from various past incarnations that I do visit. Either by just teleporting in to where they are and manifesting a body. or re manifesting a body for the places where the incarnation has no set lifespan and I can come and go as I wish. And some places where incarnating is not needed and I can just pop in and manifest a body in places I want to visit where it's not required that you incarnated to hang out and interact. Adding in non linear to this I can even pop in a moment after I left, or a second or a few minute or an hour later. Also if there are alternate time lines, this will multiply places immensely.
I do feel I've had numerous incarnations on various Sirius worlds as various species, a blue skinned humanoid, dolphins, a merperson at least once. Other places, some incarnations that may still be ongoing where as I said above I can come and go, various me's since I'm multi dimensional. Like as a royal cobra type naga. maybe a Carian in the very distant past, maybe royalty, or a scientist or both maybe. Maybe involved in the early days of this universe. and other species too. Not sure on all the details. Just feelings I have.
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I was thinking and I do think I've had a number of incarnations. How many I've no idea. Also no idea how old the real me is. it may be tens or more billions of years old maybe, or maybe not.
It can get confusing since I could pop way way back in time. So even if the real me was say only 20 thousand years old I could have popped way back to before this universe existed just to see how it was made, what went into the planning & help out. Though maybe I was there for the first time and am that old. Or it could be if I recall what I've been told, if my true self exists outside time, then it could pop in to all sorts of times, alternate times, though it may be alternate times it's more correctly said to be parallel timelines. Where various alternatives could be explored. Like if Atlantis existed, what if it was never destroyed or sunk or whatever happened.
But I do feel immensely old. Not just 5 or 8 thousand, but millions or billions of years old. I can say though that I do feel immensely old and I do prefer non linear and this me at least doesn't want to incarnate anymore. Not cause I hate the Earth, but I feel Incarnating just doesn't suit this me. Nothing wrong with incarnating, I'm quite sure some folks absolutely love incarnating and will thoroughly enjoy it literally forever. Since we do have an eternity to exist, and experience and do stuff.
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I do fell that part of me does live or exists outside time, as I posted before on an earlier blog. I wonder if there are ways I could improve this blog, but I've no idea how to do so since it's beyond my understanding and seems incomprehensible, but that is ok. Not everything can be understood by everyone.
Anyway I do feel that part of me exists outside time. and teleports around to differing spots in time & space. To have experiences in various places & times. My true self may have incarnated and may this is all parallel, including alternative timelines. But I do feel this me isn't into incarnating.
I do feel that once this incarnation is over I'll have a choice, like I mentioned and was told to me in an earlier blog. If I want to merge with my true self. I can do a 2nd choice of remaining like an extension of my true self, incarnating perhaps, at times. or a 3rd choice, which I feel I like better. Is I can sorta go independent. Not fully independent. I'll still be aware of myself as part of my true self and aware of it's memories and of our other selves, but also I'm more independent also and don't incarnate, but can myself pop around time & space, spending time outside time & space. and in the angelic realms also. Not sure if the angelic realms are outside time or if part of them are. I'm sure I'll learn more about this over time.
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