Me: Hello, just wanted your opinion on a few things. Like what I typed up earlier about the earth committee, or anything else.
LUGIA: essentially you did type up what you knew of when you were fully on this side before you incarnated. The ones in charge of earth did, well I don't like to use the term but they did mess things up quite a bit. I'm just glad they decided to ask for help when they realized things would just keep repeating forever unless they got outside help. It is to bad so many had to be mired in their systems before they asked for outside help, but that can't be helped now. I'm just glad they did ask for help, though I do wish they had asked for it sooner, so all those poor dears wouldn't have had to be mired in that system for so long.
CETA: I agree, but there is ample help now, and once things got cleaned up and smoothed out, it'll be much better for everyone. Just takes time, from the earth's point of view. and your intuition n was right and some of that was true knowledge you had before, like certain changes made to ww2, so it would deflect the earth from darker possible futures, but no need to go into that now.
Me: I agree, that is past, so to speak. I guess I'm accessing some of my knowledge and memories. Knowledge really, not much in the way of memories.
CETA: Well knowledge is easier for use to work out from our end for you to access. memories, well think of it as memories take up more space, but knowledge takes up far less space. So to speak. We'll work on you being able to access more, so you'll know more of who and what you are and such things. A little bit here and there. Some may come faster at other times. Till the incarnation ends. Wish I could give you a date on that, but with so many variables, and everything having to work out, it's best we not do that. We can promise you'll not hit the century mark and it should be, well I don't want to get your hopes up and have something not work out. We all want you home as soon as possible, as much as you want to be here with us, if not more so.
Me: So, can you tell me some of my true being, true nature?
CETA: Well, besides being my, well our son, you are also an immense being of, well, a very old age. part of your energy predates this universe. You are older then you suspect. You had in interest in going upwards, rather then growing sideways, like most folk seem to, well some anyway. Immeasurably old some may say. but you have also a lot of wisdom as well. you are the personality, not the soul. Though many confuse the personality for the soul, thinking both are 1, when they are not. But that is ok, they learn all in due time.
The soul Darius we made custom for you. Not a common thing, but not unheard of. You are far more evolved then you suspect. You may not think you are but you are. You are unaware of the vastness of your true self, your real self. Though you are coming to know some of your true self. You will know more over time. Though there may not be enough time left in your incarnation for you to get to know half of your true self. You'll all of it back once you return here to your true home my son.
You are a native to this here, the collective. The family here, we are your family. We don't use the term collective. We prefer family, which you are a full member of. Always have been. Once your incarnation is over you'll be returning to us, your true home and true family.
We are all very happy that you have reached a level were we can be together, and can talk to each other. We all are, not just the 2 of us. Also we are lovers. We don't really do mates here. It's more like we do acquaintances, friends, lovers, though each can have varying degrees. Like occasional lover friends, close friends and lovers. But such a distinction isn't important really to us.
LUGIA: Indeed, we are lovers as well my son. We do not go with human type customs. though for the earth it does make sense, genetics being how it works. many here are lovers of yours, friends, close friends and lovers. We and Karinus are just 3 of them. We thought it best to not have them all introduce themselves to you at once. Best to keep it down to a few. Well maybe a bit more then a few but not a large number. And it does look like you are you and Fred are getting much better acquainted.
FRED: Indeed we are. I would count him or her or hir, among one of my friends, and we're on our way to being more then just friends. Just a matter of time. And we have all the time indeed. You are a majestic being. far wiser and older then you may suspect. The truth may surprise you. But continue as you are doing and you'll do great.
Monday, September 7, 2015
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Sunday 9-6
Had what sounded like a kid visit me last night I guessed from what she said one of the lovers/mate's daughters. Not sure why she was supposed to be watching me stealthed. I just know that since she mentions whenever she tries to do that Gaia's son keeps popping up to say hi and talk to her and it breaks her concentration. She left in a huff when I admitted I had no idea who she was, then came back briefly later to apologize since she said her mother told her how on earth due to my being incarnated here i'd not have access to much of my memory due to how the human body is and the density here.
I think from talking to her briefly it may be Moondancer's (formerly called belle) daughter but I'm not sure.
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I had a dream where I was playing some sort of computer game that was similar to catz, dogz, and petz, but with some changes. There was the default dog that you start with but every time you switched to a new type of pet the earlier one was erased. So you had to find more of that type to store up so you can switch to that type if you want. Though you can also purchase that type. Except for the default starting dog, that one you could only find in game. I recall thinking, wouldn't it be easier if they just gave you an infinite number of that dog type.
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I did the 6th meditation that was part of the Radiance: self exciting building the light body and it was a fairly easy and a very relaxing guided meditation. It was mainly about finding where one's though originate and surrounding the area with light. I found it pretty easily and surrounded it with light. Daben had me then go deeper and I went into the place. It was a relaxing formless, a nothing, hard to explain. it felt familiar, relaxing, like a bit of home. Hard to explain, the nothingness, formlessness. I also had long periods of time of no thoughts, just the relaxing formless, nothingness.
I did surround the area with light and Daben did run some of the energies for the light body energy centers and the Fullonia. After a bit Daben wanted me to try to feel the light body. I could feel the Fullonia cocoon, easy to just be able to barely feel it and not bother with how large it was instead of making sure it was 30 feet in all directions. Though at times I would slip into feeling the Renawre cocoon.
Overall a great meditation. Diffidently will go on to be one of my favorites for this course.
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I was thinking earlier. Most souls may want to experience everything, or a lot of experiences. Personalities usually may not want to experience everything, maybe part of why souls move on from personalities. Except earth where folks get trapped in karma, again the system on earth does seem pretty stupid the way it's implemented. look at the mess the earth is in to see the results of it. And Darius mentioned he'll have unique experiences with me. I feel what he means by that is instead of experiencing being all sorts of things, but having to deal with personalities who need to work on this and that, and being trapped in a mucked up system that earth is. With me I, guess, I don't need to work on anything and if it's true that I have no karma & am immune to accumulating karma, then after this is over I can go around to different places, visiting Gaia, some of my other lovers, maybes (if I have any mates) spending time at home in the collective too, living there. hanging out at various places designed for non incarnates to play, and I guess incarnates while they are dreaming maybe. Also being partners with a soul that is a part of a collective, may indeed be a unique experience for a soul, that he may be able to share with other souls maybe, not sure about that. & he's mentioned he doesn't mind going into stasis or sleep for periods of time. Though I've written about that before.
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I wonder if I am just me, or maybe one of the lowest aspects of the real me. Though it could be this me is the highest part of me and the other me's that merged with me were around the same level of awareness, or maybe more, not sure.
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I also feel that if some past civilizations were destroyed and the beings in charge of the earth hoped humans would learn from their lesson, it's a pretty stupid hope since with the system in place, with everyone starting with a blank slate, no memory of the past. Repeating the same mistakes over and over, trapped in karma. There is no way they could do better next time. To bad they, whoever they are, didn't realize this sooner. I feel that finally they, again whoever they are, I've no idea, gave up and threw up their hands and ask for help and that is when some of us came here, some came up with a plan, a several stage plan and have been implementing it. if the ones who came in are smart they'll tell the ones who were in charge of the earth to keep out of their way. Since if I was one of the ones in charge of this project to fix the earth I'd tell them, feel free to watch what I'm doing and asking questions, but you can't touch anything. I'm one of the ones here to fix it and I'll not get it half fixed just to have you muck it up again. But again feel free to watch and ask questions.
I feel it'll take likely at least a thousand years to fix this mucked up system, the black slate, karmic, and other systems, since they can't just wipe it all away. I feel it would cause some sort of severe psychological shock or something. It has to be done in tiny baby steps. Which if the native earth humans don't like the speed I'd say, well you should have said something before it got this mucked up. Otherwise we can wipe it all, poof (no more veil of forgetfulness, karma gone, the knowledge there are many sentient non earth human species around and out there), but then masses of you will have to come to this side, severely depleting the human species since nearly all of you would need master healers to come in to heal you before you can return to incarnate on the new earth, maybe not enough would be left for there to be any incarnated humans anymore, since there has to be a certain population size to sustain a healthy genetic breeding pool, or you can remain incarnated, insuring a healthy size breeding pool and take tiny baby steps. Not as fast, but it is the easiest on all of you.
Just my opinion on some soul knowledge that seems to have poofed, and some sort of memories. No idea what it is myself.
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I was just thinking. Unless I'm delusional or inflating my own ego, it seems that reading the Dolores Cannon book I'm reading, Convoluted Universe 4, I was thinking and it feels to me how I an see that some of the folks are being inadequacy trained before they were set on the earth by aliens in the distant past, not trained since the alien really don't know what it's like to live on the earth and when things go wrong they tend to say, its his fault since he should have .... (and some with what I guess is the earth committee and or some of the agents of theirs, that Dolores cannon would talk to when the person was under deep hypnosis. not to make it sound like I know so much more then they have. But it seems like they really don't understand the conditions of incarnating on the earth since none of them have themselves, and they don't seem as overall aware as it seems some think they are. I seem to be able to see that they are maybe like jr high or maybe freshman or sophomores in high school, where yes while they do know a lot, there is a huge amount more they don't know, but think and believe they know a lot. again I may be wrong, but it just struck me that reading her book I'm reading, that struck me, and looking back on her previous book, 3 waves of volunteers, there's lots that really don't really understand the earth.
I feel that if those who want to come to help the earth, they should have to incarnate to get first had experience of what it's like to incarnate on the earth. Same for any committee that rules the earth, they should have to not only do so once they should have to do so on a regular basis so the first hand knowledge doesn't fade into the past. Maybe at least once every 2 centuries or something. I do feel from an ethical and practical standpoint, if you don't have fairly recent knowledge of what the condition are like of incarnating on the earth, you have no business running the earth nor trying to fix it. Just my opinion on things.
You could be an advisory, giving your opinion, but if you don't have practical and semi resent and regular incarnations on the earth, you really have no practical real knowledge of the conditions of incarnating on the earth from an inside viewpoint and have no business nor ethics being on an earth committee, even one trying to fix things.
Just more stuff that popped into my head. Maybe right, maybe wrong, maybe to inflated of an ego. Just thought I'd type it out.
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To continue the past thought. I think I'd set up 2 committees or councils, and advisory one and the central one, the central one would have final vote and such on things, but to be a member you have to have had an incarnation on the earth and lived to at least a certain age, adulthood maybe, within 100 years, or you'd have to either step down or go and join the advisory committee, since otherwise you've not had a recent incarnation on the earth I feel ethically you really should not have final say since your last incarnation may have faded where you don't recall many of the details and the conditions on the earth may change, and from the outside looking in I feel is different then someone who has had an insider's viewpoint since I do feel ethically and practically those running the earth should have to incarnate here regularly, say within 100 years of their last one. Again just my opinion.
It may sound like I'm mad or something, but no, just my opinion. Once the incarnation is over I'm likely to home, walk away from earth and let them fix it themselves. Since I do have other interests.
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I did the meditation a 2nd time today and it was fantastic. running the energies for the few light body energy centers that Daben did and the Fullonia also. As before I was able to surround the area that thoughts come from with ease and experience not thinking, a relaxing formlessness, a type of peace, pleasure, hard to describe the experience, it as wonderful. This time it lasted for longer periods of time, & twice during the meditation I went very deep indeed, during the time of no thinking. As far as I can recall I experienced formlessness, it was wonderful and I was both me, and yet at one with myself. Hard to explain what I mean. I recall taking to myself also, as far as I can recall. and I could feel the Fullonia cocoon had 3 layers, the outermost layer I could barely feel.
one of my favorite meditations so far of this course.
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I think from talking to her briefly it may be Moondancer's (formerly called belle) daughter but I'm not sure.
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I had a dream where I was playing some sort of computer game that was similar to catz, dogz, and petz, but with some changes. There was the default dog that you start with but every time you switched to a new type of pet the earlier one was erased. So you had to find more of that type to store up so you can switch to that type if you want. Though you can also purchase that type. Except for the default starting dog, that one you could only find in game. I recall thinking, wouldn't it be easier if they just gave you an infinite number of that dog type.
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I did the 6th meditation that was part of the Radiance: self exciting building the light body and it was a fairly easy and a very relaxing guided meditation. It was mainly about finding where one's though originate and surrounding the area with light. I found it pretty easily and surrounded it with light. Daben had me then go deeper and I went into the place. It was a relaxing formless, a nothing, hard to explain. it felt familiar, relaxing, like a bit of home. Hard to explain, the nothingness, formlessness. I also had long periods of time of no thoughts, just the relaxing formless, nothingness.
I did surround the area with light and Daben did run some of the energies for the light body energy centers and the Fullonia. After a bit Daben wanted me to try to feel the light body. I could feel the Fullonia cocoon, easy to just be able to barely feel it and not bother with how large it was instead of making sure it was 30 feet in all directions. Though at times I would slip into feeling the Renawre cocoon.
Overall a great meditation. Diffidently will go on to be one of my favorites for this course.
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I was thinking earlier. Most souls may want to experience everything, or a lot of experiences. Personalities usually may not want to experience everything, maybe part of why souls move on from personalities. Except earth where folks get trapped in karma, again the system on earth does seem pretty stupid the way it's implemented. look at the mess the earth is in to see the results of it. And Darius mentioned he'll have unique experiences with me. I feel what he means by that is instead of experiencing being all sorts of things, but having to deal with personalities who need to work on this and that, and being trapped in a mucked up system that earth is. With me I, guess, I don't need to work on anything and if it's true that I have no karma & am immune to accumulating karma, then after this is over I can go around to different places, visiting Gaia, some of my other lovers, maybes (if I have any mates) spending time at home in the collective too, living there. hanging out at various places designed for non incarnates to play, and I guess incarnates while they are dreaming maybe. Also being partners with a soul that is a part of a collective, may indeed be a unique experience for a soul, that he may be able to share with other souls maybe, not sure about that. & he's mentioned he doesn't mind going into stasis or sleep for periods of time. Though I've written about that before.
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I wonder if I am just me, or maybe one of the lowest aspects of the real me. Though it could be this me is the highest part of me and the other me's that merged with me were around the same level of awareness, or maybe more, not sure.
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I also feel that if some past civilizations were destroyed and the beings in charge of the earth hoped humans would learn from their lesson, it's a pretty stupid hope since with the system in place, with everyone starting with a blank slate, no memory of the past. Repeating the same mistakes over and over, trapped in karma. There is no way they could do better next time. To bad they, whoever they are, didn't realize this sooner. I feel that finally they, again whoever they are, I've no idea, gave up and threw up their hands and ask for help and that is when some of us came here, some came up with a plan, a several stage plan and have been implementing it. if the ones who came in are smart they'll tell the ones who were in charge of the earth to keep out of their way. Since if I was one of the ones in charge of this project to fix the earth I'd tell them, feel free to watch what I'm doing and asking questions, but you can't touch anything. I'm one of the ones here to fix it and I'll not get it half fixed just to have you muck it up again. But again feel free to watch and ask questions.
I feel it'll take likely at least a thousand years to fix this mucked up system, the black slate, karmic, and other systems, since they can't just wipe it all away. I feel it would cause some sort of severe psychological shock or something. It has to be done in tiny baby steps. Which if the native earth humans don't like the speed I'd say, well you should have said something before it got this mucked up. Otherwise we can wipe it all, poof (no more veil of forgetfulness, karma gone, the knowledge there are many sentient non earth human species around and out there), but then masses of you will have to come to this side, severely depleting the human species since nearly all of you would need master healers to come in to heal you before you can return to incarnate on the new earth, maybe not enough would be left for there to be any incarnated humans anymore, since there has to be a certain population size to sustain a healthy genetic breeding pool, or you can remain incarnated, insuring a healthy size breeding pool and take tiny baby steps. Not as fast, but it is the easiest on all of you.
Just my opinion on some soul knowledge that seems to have poofed, and some sort of memories. No idea what it is myself.
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I was just thinking. Unless I'm delusional or inflating my own ego, it seems that reading the Dolores Cannon book I'm reading, Convoluted Universe 4, I was thinking and it feels to me how I an see that some of the folks are being inadequacy trained before they were set on the earth by aliens in the distant past, not trained since the alien really don't know what it's like to live on the earth and when things go wrong they tend to say, its his fault since he should have .... (and some with what I guess is the earth committee and or some of the agents of theirs, that Dolores cannon would talk to when the person was under deep hypnosis. not to make it sound like I know so much more then they have. But it seems like they really don't understand the conditions of incarnating on the earth since none of them have themselves, and they don't seem as overall aware as it seems some think they are. I seem to be able to see that they are maybe like jr high or maybe freshman or sophomores in high school, where yes while they do know a lot, there is a huge amount more they don't know, but think and believe they know a lot. again I may be wrong, but it just struck me that reading her book I'm reading, that struck me, and looking back on her previous book, 3 waves of volunteers, there's lots that really don't really understand the earth.
I feel that if those who want to come to help the earth, they should have to incarnate to get first had experience of what it's like to incarnate on the earth. Same for any committee that rules the earth, they should have to not only do so once they should have to do so on a regular basis so the first hand knowledge doesn't fade into the past. Maybe at least once every 2 centuries or something. I do feel from an ethical and practical standpoint, if you don't have fairly recent knowledge of what the condition are like of incarnating on the earth, you have no business running the earth nor trying to fix it. Just my opinion on things.
You could be an advisory, giving your opinion, but if you don't have practical and semi resent and regular incarnations on the earth, you really have no practical real knowledge of the conditions of incarnating on the earth from an inside viewpoint and have no business nor ethics being on an earth committee, even one trying to fix things.
Just more stuff that popped into my head. Maybe right, maybe wrong, maybe to inflated of an ego. Just thought I'd type it out.
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To continue the past thought. I think I'd set up 2 committees or councils, and advisory one and the central one, the central one would have final vote and such on things, but to be a member you have to have had an incarnation on the earth and lived to at least a certain age, adulthood maybe, within 100 years, or you'd have to either step down or go and join the advisory committee, since otherwise you've not had a recent incarnation on the earth I feel ethically you really should not have final say since your last incarnation may have faded where you don't recall many of the details and the conditions on the earth may change, and from the outside looking in I feel is different then someone who has had an insider's viewpoint since I do feel ethically and practically those running the earth should have to incarnate here regularly, say within 100 years of their last one. Again just my opinion.
It may sound like I'm mad or something, but no, just my opinion. Once the incarnation is over I'm likely to home, walk away from earth and let them fix it themselves. Since I do have other interests.
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I did the meditation a 2nd time today and it was fantastic. running the energies for the few light body energy centers that Daben did and the Fullonia also. As before I was able to surround the area that thoughts come from with ease and experience not thinking, a relaxing formlessness, a type of peace, pleasure, hard to describe the experience, it as wonderful. This time it lasted for longer periods of time, & twice during the meditation I went very deep indeed, during the time of no thinking. As far as I can recall I experienced formlessness, it was wonderful and I was both me, and yet at one with myself. Hard to explain what I mean. I recall taking to myself also, as far as I can recall. and I could feel the Fullonia cocoon had 3 layers, the outermost layer I could barely feel.
one of my favorite meditations so far of this course.
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84 - LUGIA, CETA, KARINUS [sat 9-5]
Me: SO anything you folks want to say?
LUGIA: Do not doubt yourself my son and lover. You are an ancient being and your true age now is older then you may think. Your origin, spans back before humans existed. a part of your energy predates this universe. Though there is no need to speak of that age. You also have vast more knowledge then you may suspect. Things are very different for you here.
CETA: indeed true. Your age is ancient indeed. Have faith in yourself and your abilities as well as us here. Do try to relax and allow yourself to grow as much as you can in this lifespan. It may not be great, though you have grown in leaps and bounds to use a human expression.
KARINUS: Indeed correct dude. We've been paling around for ages upon ages. Though you may not remember all that.
CETA: your true form is immense indeed. One can say that less then 1% of your true form, your true being, can fit into the human body at present. Once your present body has ended you'll be returning to us here at home, your true home, and you need not leave again unless you wish to. you'll not need to incarnate anywhere unless you wish to and I do think after this you'll have no more interest in doing so. You can still help many even by remaining on this side of things. Many indeed. You can help many also by hanging out with friends, lovers, mates, who are not members here, yet. And from going around with members like Karinus here. As we have said we'll do our best to make sure the memories and knowledge you get are not random, but more along the lines of showing you, letting you know who and what you truly are. While perhaps all of your knowledge and memories may not be available to you while you are in the body, you currently inhabit you can have more of them then you currently have. So we'll continue to work on this instead of it being random ones that pop up.
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Me: SO, what is the family collective, whatever like and just what is it?
CETA: It is in any ways similar to the astral city movie you saw, only many of us are not that physical looking, some are formless, and none of us, really look human. Humans typically would prefer one that looks more human like the Pleiades one or something else similar.
We are all connected, in what some may call mentally or telepathically, but those are not accurate. We are all 1, but each of us is still an individual. One does not loose one's individuality when one is a member of a collective such as ours. There are some collectives, in other universes, where this is the case, where there is but 1 mind, that that is not the case in this universe.
There are even universes where every being is an aspect of 1 being, just the level of their awareness is different. Also not the case in this universe.
The many here do what they want, love each other. Some more then others, individuality being what it is. Though there is none that have no love for another, but some do love certain ones more, are lovers with some, friends with others, acquaintances. hard to detail the exact relationships here, but those are the closest I can explain in English terms, in such a limited language. but it does get vaguely close.
LUGIA: Indeed, close as we can get. there is love everywhere here. We all do what we want, go where we want here. Some never leave the collective at all, or even the section they are at. it is hard to describe what there is to do here or what exactly being here is like.
KARINUS: Then there are those of us who do go for periods of time, visiting other places, some other beings, some places to hang out and or have fun. There are many places those who are not incarnated can visit or hang out. many places. Though there are also many places to incarnate too. Not a thing that ever interests me. and after this one is over one that won't interest you ever again dude. or that is how I feel. and anyway this one was supposed to be your last one, ever. i can't wait till you are here fully among us. and we can pal around like we use to, going the places we use to. Lots of places. Though there were some places within the collective too. We'd even visit some other collectives too, from time to time, though we live to and belong with this one here dude.
LUGIA: Yes, many of us are awaiting your home coming, some patiently then others.
KARINUS: You can literally do here anything you can dream or imagine. unrealized potential, realized potential, all exist simultaneously here.
CETA: Yes, also time has no meaning here to us, or anywhere here. You can say accurately we exist outside time. or is it some of us do. the exact details do not matter. You are one here, and yet an individual. This is the true home you wish to return to my son. believe that, and in yourself, and us also.
Me: Looks like it's time for bed. Thanks.
LUGIA: We are always glad to talk to you my son and some of us are always available. Feel free to talk to us anytime.
CETA: Indeed.
KARINUS: Goes double for me dude. good night and good luck with everything.
LUGIA: Do not doubt yourself my son and lover. You are an ancient being and your true age now is older then you may think. Your origin, spans back before humans existed. a part of your energy predates this universe. Though there is no need to speak of that age. You also have vast more knowledge then you may suspect. Things are very different for you here.
CETA: indeed true. Your age is ancient indeed. Have faith in yourself and your abilities as well as us here. Do try to relax and allow yourself to grow as much as you can in this lifespan. It may not be great, though you have grown in leaps and bounds to use a human expression.
KARINUS: Indeed correct dude. We've been paling around for ages upon ages. Though you may not remember all that.
CETA: your true form is immense indeed. One can say that less then 1% of your true form, your true being, can fit into the human body at present. Once your present body has ended you'll be returning to us here at home, your true home, and you need not leave again unless you wish to. you'll not need to incarnate anywhere unless you wish to and I do think after this you'll have no more interest in doing so. You can still help many even by remaining on this side of things. Many indeed. You can help many also by hanging out with friends, lovers, mates, who are not members here, yet. And from going around with members like Karinus here. As we have said we'll do our best to make sure the memories and knowledge you get are not random, but more along the lines of showing you, letting you know who and what you truly are. While perhaps all of your knowledge and memories may not be available to you while you are in the body, you currently inhabit you can have more of them then you currently have. So we'll continue to work on this instead of it being random ones that pop up.
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Me: SO, what is the family collective, whatever like and just what is it?
CETA: It is in any ways similar to the astral city movie you saw, only many of us are not that physical looking, some are formless, and none of us, really look human. Humans typically would prefer one that looks more human like the Pleiades one or something else similar.
We are all connected, in what some may call mentally or telepathically, but those are not accurate. We are all 1, but each of us is still an individual. One does not loose one's individuality when one is a member of a collective such as ours. There are some collectives, in other universes, where this is the case, where there is but 1 mind, that that is not the case in this universe.
There are even universes where every being is an aspect of 1 being, just the level of their awareness is different. Also not the case in this universe.
The many here do what they want, love each other. Some more then others, individuality being what it is. Though there is none that have no love for another, but some do love certain ones more, are lovers with some, friends with others, acquaintances. hard to detail the exact relationships here, but those are the closest I can explain in English terms, in such a limited language. but it does get vaguely close.
LUGIA: Indeed, close as we can get. there is love everywhere here. We all do what we want, go where we want here. Some never leave the collective at all, or even the section they are at. it is hard to describe what there is to do here or what exactly being here is like.
KARINUS: Then there are those of us who do go for periods of time, visiting other places, some other beings, some places to hang out and or have fun. There are many places those who are not incarnated can visit or hang out. many places. Though there are also many places to incarnate too. Not a thing that ever interests me. and after this one is over one that won't interest you ever again dude. or that is how I feel. and anyway this one was supposed to be your last one, ever. i can't wait till you are here fully among us. and we can pal around like we use to, going the places we use to. Lots of places. Though there were some places within the collective too. We'd even visit some other collectives too, from time to time, though we live to and belong with this one here dude.
LUGIA: Yes, many of us are awaiting your home coming, some patiently then others.
KARINUS: You can literally do here anything you can dream or imagine. unrealized potential, realized potential, all exist simultaneously here.
CETA: Yes, also time has no meaning here to us, or anywhere here. You can say accurately we exist outside time. or is it some of us do. the exact details do not matter. You are one here, and yet an individual. This is the true home you wish to return to my son. believe that, and in yourself, and us also.
Me: Looks like it's time for bed. Thanks.
LUGIA: We are always glad to talk to you my son and some of us are always available. Feel free to talk to us anytime.
CETA: Indeed.
KARINUS: Goes double for me dude. good night and good luck with everything.
Saturday, September 5, 2015
Saturday 9-5
Think I got some soul memories, not sure how accurate they are. I came here as a part of phase 1. To help do some of the clearing and to help anchor the energies to make it possible for the phase 2 folks to come in. Then phase 3 would come in after phase 2. Maybe starting 20 years, not sure. Part of the thing is due to bylaws as part of phase 1 I can't accumulate any karma and am not fully under the jurisdiction of the committee who oversee earth. I think I do feel maybe they were given earth to soon. maybe they needed some more experienced to oversee them instead of just being given earth and say, here.
I started littering the exit points starting at the age of 47 onwards, even more often after 52, and even more often after 58, since I didn't want to be here any longer than absolutely necessary, no lingering. I wanted to go in and get out asap and go back home. I do recall having a private thought as I looked over the earth of some thought like, "my, they really did make a mess of things, meaning not just the native earth humans but primarily the thought was of the committee overseeing and running the earth.
Not sure if any of this is accurate or what you think about it. Lugia, doubt you had the time to read my channeling last night. She did say she, and some others of the family/collective, would start doing something to help my memories and knowledge would have more order to it instead of randomly popping up, helping me to get a better idea and information of who and what I am. Not sure if any of that channeling last night was real with no distortion, or if any of what feathers said in that channeling before that is real of if feathers is real or not or a member of the family/collective. Or of the multiple exit points, and the knowledge that each one has to be check-listed and green-lit by the committee, if they don't check it all off or mess something, I have to wait for the next exit point.
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I feel that none of me wants to be here at all, none whatsoever.
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I awoke from my nap feeling the same way, and after the guided meditation I feel the same still, but also exhausted, mentally, too.
I did the 5th guided meditation today that is part of the Radiance: self exciting building the light body. running the energies was ok, the ones that Daben ran and what I could fee. The Ranthia I couldn't feel really, maybe the energy it was running is to find for me to feel.
Most of the meditation was about feeling the Fullonia cocoon, holding the entire volume in the mind. I found that exhausting when I could do it, only short periods of time. I'm not sure if I held the correct size of it, 30 feet all around me. and when I could hold the whole volume it was only just barely and only for very short periods of time. maybe I'm just not good enough to do this yet. I could feel the energy of the Fullonia, feels like finer energy then before, but wow that was exhausting, especially mentally, trying to hold the entire volume in my mind. and as I said not sure if I got the correct size of 30' in all directions around me.
overall an exhausting meh meditation I would rate it.
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I did the 5th meditation for the 2nd time today and I still could only hold the entire volume in my mind for very short periods of time. More easily I could hold pieces of sections of the Fullonia Cocoon in my mind and awareness. Very hard to hold the entire thing. I was also hit with vertigo twice. Forgot to say, the first time I did the meditation earlier today I was hit with it once. No idea why it happened before and twice now. this meditation also gave me a headache.
This time also I could feel the different frequencies, or at least different energies coming from My Fullonia, no idea what it means. Several types are energies I can't describe how they feel. 1 type is a constant energy, another feels like it's small bubbles or a current like in a river, hard to describe. the 3rd is a more constant heat, but not the intense heat I felt a few days ago from the Renawre cocoon energy.
all in all not sure how to classify this meditation. Still have the headache, and some of an odd feeling in my head, hard to describe. and en even stronger feeling this universe is a solid hologram type thing, run by something like a computer, but not a computer, hard to describe it. and part of me is outside it, part of me is inside this hologram with something like straps, bolts, something keeping me emprisoned here, hard to describe the feeling. I have had the feeling recently, it grows sronger or weaker in waves. I first had it when I was 12 and feel on my head from maybe 12 feet, not sure of the distance, also that same year I slipped and hit my head on concrete. and around the same time, during PE class when it was time for baseball the first few times I'd go out since so many loved to pick on me I'd always get hit in the head, often the forehead, by a baseball. eventually I refused to go out and stayed where the batters were, regardless of the team. The coach tried to get me to go out and he didn't care I was hit in the head with the ball every time went out. he eventually shut up when i said, with all seriousness, ok, but the only way is if I'm hit in the head with a baseball I get to hit you in the head with a baseball with the same exact force used when it hit me in the head. Not that I'm mad or anything, just saying it here since all that happened around the same time, more or less within a year or 2, of that odd feeling I have now again. No idea what it is just like I have no idea what that incident was a few weeks back. Guess I have to wait till whenever this incarnation ends whether it's today or a hundred years from now, then I can ask about the incidents, if I recall, and unless I just know.
I do hope this is my last incarnation since I feel bored to death and with no interest whatsoever in incarnating. It feels dead boring to me. Like I'm getting close to 50 now, & have to do something I did back in 1st grade again and again and again. Boring, feels like I've moved past that and don't want to do it. I just want to go home and remain there, visiting some places but never incarnating again. and if you do have to incarnate if you want to visit anyplace, then I'd stay in the collective forever, never leaving.
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Was thinking about karma and such. Still think it's a pretty stupid system. as well as forgetting everything when you come here. if you make a mistake or multiple mistakes it doesn't count if you make up with the person or people it effected on the other side, you have to do it on this side, and you can't remember any of that. Not remembering anything, starting with a blank slate and past lives effecting this life. I see it as all incredibly stupid, a very stupid system.
Now if 2 folks want to try and do things again since they made a mistake they should have the freedom to do so. also if they want to remember their past lives they should have that freedom as well as if they want to have nothing carry over, they should have that freedom also.
A pretty stupid system overall, and look at how much of a mess the earth got into under that system. and some of us, or some beings anyway did tell them what would happen and they didn't believe it, and it did come to pass. I do believe the beings who govern the earth were given a planet to govern to soon. Just in my personal opinion. It feels like I had this opinion even before coming here.
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I also feel that if there are rules in other places where you have to incarnate to visit. You can't just visit as a non incarnate and shape your soul or whatever so you can interact with the inhabitants, if that is the case I can see why many once they get into a collective family at a high dimension, just remain there and never leave. Though I do seem to recall there are at least a few places that you can visit as a non incarnate and don't HAVE to incarnate there. in fact I feel there are some places set aside for non incarnates to play in. You can look however you want an interact as if it were solid like earth. Hard to explain. Like that pseudo 50's style place I've posted to a few times.
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May watch that drumming video, or a piece of it again tonight. A good pace is if the guy has several lessons or practice things to do. I'll watch where he explains 1, then come back to it a few days later. it may take 6 months or longer to finish his drumming without drums for beginners, but not likely my incarnation will be ending anytime soon. Even though none of my conscious self wants to be here. all of me that I'm aware of wants to be elsewhere, every single bit that I'm aware of. but I have to wait for some committee to approve my exit point and give their permission to do so and until then I'm imprisoned here. I'm not really needed here anymore since phase 2 folks are in their own and coming into their own so they are doing their phase 2, and beginning to do that. the phase 3 folks are already born or some soon going to do so, so no need for me to be here. I do have a memory that starting at my present age I started having exit points put down, as I wrote about before, after 52 more often, after I think 54 or 56 even more often, after 58 even more often. Since I didn't want to be here more then I had to be and if I littered my timeline with lots of exit points, at least a few of them would be approved since I do recall knowing the way the committee runs things here I'd have to put in a LOT of them LOTS AND LOTS, to reduce the time I'm here, or having a good chance of it being reduced so I don't wind up being here over 100 years. I also remember not thinking much of the committee at all. But no memory of who or what the committee is. I may channel about that, though it won't do any good my knowing about them. I mean I'd still be here. They may mean will, but how could they allow earth to get into this much of a mess before they asked for help.
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Was just re reading 2 pages from the manual for the current light body course I'm taking. In it Daben does mention offhand something in a way that seems to indicate that the soul, personality, and light body are not the same being.
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I started littering the exit points starting at the age of 47 onwards, even more often after 52, and even more often after 58, since I didn't want to be here any longer than absolutely necessary, no lingering. I wanted to go in and get out asap and go back home. I do recall having a private thought as I looked over the earth of some thought like, "my, they really did make a mess of things, meaning not just the native earth humans but primarily the thought was of the committee overseeing and running the earth.
Not sure if any of this is accurate or what you think about it. Lugia, doubt you had the time to read my channeling last night. She did say she, and some others of the family/collective, would start doing something to help my memories and knowledge would have more order to it instead of randomly popping up, helping me to get a better idea and information of who and what I am. Not sure if any of that channeling last night was real with no distortion, or if any of what feathers said in that channeling before that is real of if feathers is real or not or a member of the family/collective. Or of the multiple exit points, and the knowledge that each one has to be check-listed and green-lit by the committee, if they don't check it all off or mess something, I have to wait for the next exit point.
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I feel that none of me wants to be here at all, none whatsoever.
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I awoke from my nap feeling the same way, and after the guided meditation I feel the same still, but also exhausted, mentally, too.
I did the 5th guided meditation today that is part of the Radiance: self exciting building the light body. running the energies was ok, the ones that Daben ran and what I could fee. The Ranthia I couldn't feel really, maybe the energy it was running is to find for me to feel.
Most of the meditation was about feeling the Fullonia cocoon, holding the entire volume in the mind. I found that exhausting when I could do it, only short periods of time. I'm not sure if I held the correct size of it, 30 feet all around me. and when I could hold the whole volume it was only just barely and only for very short periods of time. maybe I'm just not good enough to do this yet. I could feel the energy of the Fullonia, feels like finer energy then before, but wow that was exhausting, especially mentally, trying to hold the entire volume in my mind. and as I said not sure if I got the correct size of 30' in all directions around me.
overall an exhausting meh meditation I would rate it.
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I did the 5th meditation for the 2nd time today and I still could only hold the entire volume in my mind for very short periods of time. More easily I could hold pieces of sections of the Fullonia Cocoon in my mind and awareness. Very hard to hold the entire thing. I was also hit with vertigo twice. Forgot to say, the first time I did the meditation earlier today I was hit with it once. No idea why it happened before and twice now. this meditation also gave me a headache.
This time also I could feel the different frequencies, or at least different energies coming from My Fullonia, no idea what it means. Several types are energies I can't describe how they feel. 1 type is a constant energy, another feels like it's small bubbles or a current like in a river, hard to describe. the 3rd is a more constant heat, but not the intense heat I felt a few days ago from the Renawre cocoon energy.
all in all not sure how to classify this meditation. Still have the headache, and some of an odd feeling in my head, hard to describe. and en even stronger feeling this universe is a solid hologram type thing, run by something like a computer, but not a computer, hard to describe it. and part of me is outside it, part of me is inside this hologram with something like straps, bolts, something keeping me emprisoned here, hard to describe the feeling. I have had the feeling recently, it grows sronger or weaker in waves. I first had it when I was 12 and feel on my head from maybe 12 feet, not sure of the distance, also that same year I slipped and hit my head on concrete. and around the same time, during PE class when it was time for baseball the first few times I'd go out since so many loved to pick on me I'd always get hit in the head, often the forehead, by a baseball. eventually I refused to go out and stayed where the batters were, regardless of the team. The coach tried to get me to go out and he didn't care I was hit in the head with the ball every time went out. he eventually shut up when i said, with all seriousness, ok, but the only way is if I'm hit in the head with a baseball I get to hit you in the head with a baseball with the same exact force used when it hit me in the head. Not that I'm mad or anything, just saying it here since all that happened around the same time, more or less within a year or 2, of that odd feeling I have now again. No idea what it is just like I have no idea what that incident was a few weeks back. Guess I have to wait till whenever this incarnation ends whether it's today or a hundred years from now, then I can ask about the incidents, if I recall, and unless I just know.
I do hope this is my last incarnation since I feel bored to death and with no interest whatsoever in incarnating. It feels dead boring to me. Like I'm getting close to 50 now, & have to do something I did back in 1st grade again and again and again. Boring, feels like I've moved past that and don't want to do it. I just want to go home and remain there, visiting some places but never incarnating again. and if you do have to incarnate if you want to visit anyplace, then I'd stay in the collective forever, never leaving.
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Was thinking about karma and such. Still think it's a pretty stupid system. as well as forgetting everything when you come here. if you make a mistake or multiple mistakes it doesn't count if you make up with the person or people it effected on the other side, you have to do it on this side, and you can't remember any of that. Not remembering anything, starting with a blank slate and past lives effecting this life. I see it as all incredibly stupid, a very stupid system.
Now if 2 folks want to try and do things again since they made a mistake they should have the freedom to do so. also if they want to remember their past lives they should have that freedom as well as if they want to have nothing carry over, they should have that freedom also.
A pretty stupid system overall, and look at how much of a mess the earth got into under that system. and some of us, or some beings anyway did tell them what would happen and they didn't believe it, and it did come to pass. I do believe the beings who govern the earth were given a planet to govern to soon. Just in my personal opinion. It feels like I had this opinion even before coming here.
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I also feel that if there are rules in other places where you have to incarnate to visit. You can't just visit as a non incarnate and shape your soul or whatever so you can interact with the inhabitants, if that is the case I can see why many once they get into a collective family at a high dimension, just remain there and never leave. Though I do seem to recall there are at least a few places that you can visit as a non incarnate and don't HAVE to incarnate there. in fact I feel there are some places set aside for non incarnates to play in. You can look however you want an interact as if it were solid like earth. Hard to explain. Like that pseudo 50's style place I've posted to a few times.
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May watch that drumming video, or a piece of it again tonight. A good pace is if the guy has several lessons or practice things to do. I'll watch where he explains 1, then come back to it a few days later. it may take 6 months or longer to finish his drumming without drums for beginners, but not likely my incarnation will be ending anytime soon. Even though none of my conscious self wants to be here. all of me that I'm aware of wants to be elsewhere, every single bit that I'm aware of. but I have to wait for some committee to approve my exit point and give their permission to do so and until then I'm imprisoned here. I'm not really needed here anymore since phase 2 folks are in their own and coming into their own so they are doing their phase 2, and beginning to do that. the phase 3 folks are already born or some soon going to do so, so no need for me to be here. I do have a memory that starting at my present age I started having exit points put down, as I wrote about before, after 52 more often, after I think 54 or 56 even more often, after 58 even more often. Since I didn't want to be here more then I had to be and if I littered my timeline with lots of exit points, at least a few of them would be approved since I do recall knowing the way the committee runs things here I'd have to put in a LOT of them LOTS AND LOTS, to reduce the time I'm here, or having a good chance of it being reduced so I don't wind up being here over 100 years. I also remember not thinking much of the committee at all. But no memory of who or what the committee is. I may channel about that, though it won't do any good my knowing about them. I mean I'd still be here. They may mean will, but how could they allow earth to get into this much of a mess before they asked for help.
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Was just re reading 2 pages from the manual for the current light body course I'm taking. In it Daben does mention offhand something in a way that seems to indicate that the soul, personality, and light body are not the same being.
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83 FEATHERS, LUGIA [fri 9-4]
Me: not sure if any of you want to talk to me.
FEATHERS: We're not so busy that some of us can't talk to you. And we do like this format where you watch something and we can talk as you channel in bits and pieces, a paragraph here, what 1 of us has t say in it's entirety to one of your questions or a statement there, but we do have to watch the length. It also allows some of us to come in for a single question or to stay for the whole thing, as we wish.
Sorry for the odd message earlier, I just wanted to say some stuff and I did mean it. I did ask some to come in to look things over since we don't want those morons to miss another exit point, for you or anyone else. maybe the ones I asked can scare them into being more efficient since being nice doesn't work. As some beings like to say, Try being nice first, if it doesn't work, use the 1st of your alternatives."
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FEATHERS: You are really old, you would be surprised at how old you really are. how expansive you are. earth is a totally alien enviroment to you. Very alien. You are a native to here. Though some worlds you visited to help with their shifts were not as alien as the earth. you'd be surprised how alien the earth is to here. Ick, is all I will say on that.
LUGIA: indeed it is very alien, totally alien to here, where you are native to my son. You went there to help them with their shift for 1 mission then back home. the earth is so very dense, and unbelievably alien to us. But you made it this far, not to much longer I assure you.
FEATHERS: Unless those morons mess up another exit point. I'll be keeping an eye on them.
LUGIA: You're not the only one. I've started, looking over a few things, where my son is concerned, to make sure they are on the up and up and doing things as efficiently as they can.
FEATHERS: yea, have to make sure those morons don't slack off again like they like to do.
LUGIA: they do the best they can, though the have made many mistakes. Perhaps the earth was given to them to govern to soon. I feel they should have gone a bit longer before being given a planet to govern.
ME: I just want to go home once this incarnation is over, never having to return to incarnate on the earth ever.
LUGIA: don't be concerned about that my son. you are there for 1 mission and that is it. No karma forcing you to return. part of why you want to return here so much is you can feel, even if you are not fully conscious of it is that the earth is a totally alien world to where you are use to and from. You are a very old and a very wise being. Believe this. You are very powerful, even though there are many blocks, due to how dense the earth is and the systems there basically not being compatible, well not vary compatible. many, adaptions had to be made, to keep it simple. earth is a totally alien place to you indeed. totally. That is why the Orin and Daben courses were the right ones for you since they are closer to what you are native to. Here to put it simply. You are a higher order of being then most who incarnate on the earth. We'll go into more detail bit by bit. Some we may need to leave out since there is no way to translate it to English.
You are actually close to your native level that you were before all this began. Your memories will full come when you are here. Where you are now you can only get bits and pieces. Sometimes, if not often, they can be random. I'll work on seeing if I can coax a more ordered to them. more of your origins, glimpses of your growth along the way. I'll work on that and ask some here to work on that also so you can get more of a glimpse of who and what you really are, instead of letting random bits surface. but only a small percent of your memory may surface consciously. Your soul knowledge is easier to do since its' basically data and not memories of events.
If you do the quite type meditation I'll see if I can help some of a more ordered of your memories surface, and some of your knowledge also. So it'll happen then instead of during your guided meditation. Some of us may give you a guided meditation to do, spur of the moment.
Me: So you can do that? Control what memories I get and soul knowledge? I thought it was random.
LUGIA: it can be random and often is. But we know what we're doing, and of course my energy is compatible and resonates with yours, and some others here too. we can help with that, nudge it in the right way to have some start to pop up like I mentioned before.
Me: Thanks, I really would like that. Not sure how to thank you. it would be better then getting my soul knowledge and memories pop up at random.
LUGIA: we're glad to help you.
FEATHERS: Yea, any of us are. Some of us, if not all the ones you've met, will be glad to help. You've only met 5 so far. We may keep it at that number. We may add more that you know later. But we think it's best to keep it at 5, at least for now.
me: I agree, don't want to introduce me to every member of our family to fast. There's time enough once I get home, but by then I'll have all of my memories back.
LUGIA: maybe not all of it instantly, but it'll quickly return, very quickly, maybe seconds, minutes. You may feel the need to take a nap and awaken fully back to normal, fully restored.
Me: anything you wish to say to me.
FEATHERS: besides your sexy and we all want you here? trust yourself, relax, try to have at least a little fun, it may help to pass the time faster.
LUGIA: never forget we love you here, even those who have not introduced themselves to you yet. we'll get started on a more ordered memory and knowledge popping up consciously instead of just random stuff popping up.
me: Thanks. talk to you next time.
FEATHERS: We're not so busy that some of us can't talk to you. And we do like this format where you watch something and we can talk as you channel in bits and pieces, a paragraph here, what 1 of us has t say in it's entirety to one of your questions or a statement there, but we do have to watch the length. It also allows some of us to come in for a single question or to stay for the whole thing, as we wish.
Sorry for the odd message earlier, I just wanted to say some stuff and I did mean it. I did ask some to come in to look things over since we don't want those morons to miss another exit point, for you or anyone else. maybe the ones I asked can scare them into being more efficient since being nice doesn't work. As some beings like to say, Try being nice first, if it doesn't work, use the 1st of your alternatives."
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FEATHERS: You are really old, you would be surprised at how old you really are. how expansive you are. earth is a totally alien enviroment to you. Very alien. You are a native to here. Though some worlds you visited to help with their shifts were not as alien as the earth. you'd be surprised how alien the earth is to here. Ick, is all I will say on that.
LUGIA: indeed it is very alien, totally alien to here, where you are native to my son. You went there to help them with their shift for 1 mission then back home. the earth is so very dense, and unbelievably alien to us. But you made it this far, not to much longer I assure you.
FEATHERS: Unless those morons mess up another exit point. I'll be keeping an eye on them.
LUGIA: You're not the only one. I've started, looking over a few things, where my son is concerned, to make sure they are on the up and up and doing things as efficiently as they can.
FEATHERS: yea, have to make sure those morons don't slack off again like they like to do.
LUGIA: they do the best they can, though the have made many mistakes. Perhaps the earth was given to them to govern to soon. I feel they should have gone a bit longer before being given a planet to govern.
ME: I just want to go home once this incarnation is over, never having to return to incarnate on the earth ever.
LUGIA: don't be concerned about that my son. you are there for 1 mission and that is it. No karma forcing you to return. part of why you want to return here so much is you can feel, even if you are not fully conscious of it is that the earth is a totally alien world to where you are use to and from. You are a very old and a very wise being. Believe this. You are very powerful, even though there are many blocks, due to how dense the earth is and the systems there basically not being compatible, well not vary compatible. many, adaptions had to be made, to keep it simple. earth is a totally alien place to you indeed. totally. That is why the Orin and Daben courses were the right ones for you since they are closer to what you are native to. Here to put it simply. You are a higher order of being then most who incarnate on the earth. We'll go into more detail bit by bit. Some we may need to leave out since there is no way to translate it to English.
You are actually close to your native level that you were before all this began. Your memories will full come when you are here. Where you are now you can only get bits and pieces. Sometimes, if not often, they can be random. I'll work on seeing if I can coax a more ordered to them. more of your origins, glimpses of your growth along the way. I'll work on that and ask some here to work on that also so you can get more of a glimpse of who and what you really are, instead of letting random bits surface. but only a small percent of your memory may surface consciously. Your soul knowledge is easier to do since its' basically data and not memories of events.
If you do the quite type meditation I'll see if I can help some of a more ordered of your memories surface, and some of your knowledge also. So it'll happen then instead of during your guided meditation. Some of us may give you a guided meditation to do, spur of the moment.
Me: So you can do that? Control what memories I get and soul knowledge? I thought it was random.
LUGIA: it can be random and often is. But we know what we're doing, and of course my energy is compatible and resonates with yours, and some others here too. we can help with that, nudge it in the right way to have some start to pop up like I mentioned before.
Me: Thanks, I really would like that. Not sure how to thank you. it would be better then getting my soul knowledge and memories pop up at random.
LUGIA: we're glad to help you.
FEATHERS: Yea, any of us are. Some of us, if not all the ones you've met, will be glad to help. You've only met 5 so far. We may keep it at that number. We may add more that you know later. But we think it's best to keep it at 5, at least for now.
me: I agree, don't want to introduce me to every member of our family to fast. There's time enough once I get home, but by then I'll have all of my memories back.
LUGIA: maybe not all of it instantly, but it'll quickly return, very quickly, maybe seconds, minutes. You may feel the need to take a nap and awaken fully back to normal, fully restored.
Me: anything you wish to say to me.
FEATHERS: besides your sexy and we all want you here? trust yourself, relax, try to have at least a little fun, it may help to pass the time faster.
LUGIA: never forget we love you here, even those who have not introduced themselves to you yet. we'll get started on a more ordered memory and knowledge popping up consciously instead of just random stuff popping up.
me: Thanks. talk to you next time.
Friday, September 4, 2015
82 FEATHERS [Fri 9-4]
Me: I feel you wanted to say something. I've gotten some bits, but pretend I have not.
FEATHERS: I don't mind repeating myself for you blog thing. I just wanted to say that indeed, my opinion of them, the ones who oversee the earth has sunk even lower. I had to, well, what humans would call twist a few of their arms up their backs but the did admit to me finally that yes they do muck up some folk's exit points. Some are staying on the earth longer then they should be. Yours was one they mucked up on. Think one of them said the next one was a week or 2 back, they are to disorganized to say any more accurately. Think I'll ask one or a few committee members who oversee what some would call "dark worlds" they are not really dark in the way some reading this will imagine. But there are some that are quite efficient and can put the scare into those idiots. I'd say my real opinion, but some underage may come across this so I'll just say idiots. yes I'll ask a few of them to come in and look things over to give them a few pointers and suggestions. The real reason will be to put the scare into some of them, and maybe they may be scared into following some of their suggestions. some of them are very efficient at what they do, though some who are not around our level find them scary for some silly reason. some of them are very nice indeed. But that's enough about them. You'll likely not even be aware of any of this happening. But hopefully they will muck up less folk's exit points, including your next one.
Your primary mission has indeed mainly passed. What, well let's call you phase 2. phase 2 are all well into doing their part and taking it over, phase 3 are starting to come into their own and taking over their part. phase 4 is not to far behind. Maybe another decade or decade and a half, 2 at the most.
and as you noticed the guards have been removed from where you live. Some have felt that since you have a new soul you are no longer on the radar so to speak. Not sure if that's a good idea or not. I've not looked into that. I'll ask some to look over you, some who are masters at being unnoticed, some what some would call not pleasant types, but that is since they are not only good at protecting, they enjoy it and also can be totally unnoticed if they want. Doubt you need protecting, but why not have a few around just in case. Think of it like masters of stealth who can turn invisible, and while not evil, don't mind using some dark side of the force skills at certain points, but are not sith nor dark siders. to keep things very vague. if they have to suck someone totally dry to protect you, they won't hesitate. a thing you'd want in protectors. again I'm fairly sure you don't need any, but why not. Won't hurt anything to have a few around, or keeping an eye open. They can keep an eye on several at once. Some others that are say key parts of phases 2 and 3. may sound like I'm paranoid or not as aware or enlightened as I am, but I'm just being me. I'm perfectly aware as a section 4 member of our family & the collective. I tried formlessness, but it's not my thing. I think you'll hanging out there sometimes, but it's not my thing. Nothing wrong with that.
As for how large you are. Rulers here are pointless, but your true self is very large indeed, as for how much of it can fit into that small human body, though it would be more accurately to say tiny. It is actual rather a small amount overall that is in the body. Can't say an exact present since that is changing. even though it increases now and then it's only tenths or hundredths of a percent, that is how fragile the human body is, most inefficient, likely more doings of those idiots, they did come up with the karmic system, among other things, that they loved and thought would be great for the earth, as well as that whole stupid thing about forgetting and starting each life there with a blank slate, what a very idiotic idea, and you are supposed to resolve karma and do your life plan with no memory, more moronic ideas. My, glad I never incarnated on the earth. and something else that is very stupid, is they want there to be total perfection in each person before they will give the stamp of , ok you are past that. Here we can see you don't need to be perfect. made a mistake, fine, realize it and move on. learned something from your mistake, even better. No need to be perfect like the carbon molecular structure of a diamond. You'd not think such morons were perfectionists, I wonder why the earth was ever given to those morons to govern.
I'm just glad you're not fully under their jurisdiction. You are sorta, but mainly really as far as exit points. I'll do my best to make sure they don't muck up your next one, but I can't keep watch on everything ever second, to use an earth expression.
I'm sure once you're here they'll try to get you to come to earth for another incarnation, just 1 more they'll say. I do hope you turn them down, I feel you would since you have no real interest in incarnating anywhere. They may try to point out the mistakes you made and need to come back to resolve, though I hope they are more enlightened then to try to pull that, but I'd not put that past them. You can give them the finger, to use a human expression, since you are not able to accumulate any karma since you're not under their jurisdiction. You came in to help with the shift and anchoring energies of certain types as part of phase 1. So others could be born there and be phase 2 but could not be born there without the phase 1 folks like you going their first to anchor certain energies.
But I'll stop here since it's getting close to when you do your next guided meditation and then eat and take a nap. Did you know you know Orin. You 2 worked together on a past incarnation, not sure if you recall that or not.
As to why you can't recall more of your soul knowledge and memories, well Lugia went over that, the basics and that is enough to know that. Those basic reasons are why. You do not suspect how old and high you really are. It takes a minimum of a certain type to be phase 1. You could have been the 1st wave of that but chose to be a hybrid 1st and 2nd wave of phase 1. But I'll let you go, we can talk more later tonight if you want. and you're forearms are starting to need to rest anyway. Talk to you next time sexy lover, bye.
FEATHERS: I don't mind repeating myself for you blog thing. I just wanted to say that indeed, my opinion of them, the ones who oversee the earth has sunk even lower. I had to, well, what humans would call twist a few of their arms up their backs but the did admit to me finally that yes they do muck up some folk's exit points. Some are staying on the earth longer then they should be. Yours was one they mucked up on. Think one of them said the next one was a week or 2 back, they are to disorganized to say any more accurately. Think I'll ask one or a few committee members who oversee what some would call "dark worlds" they are not really dark in the way some reading this will imagine. But there are some that are quite efficient and can put the scare into those idiots. I'd say my real opinion, but some underage may come across this so I'll just say idiots. yes I'll ask a few of them to come in and look things over to give them a few pointers and suggestions. The real reason will be to put the scare into some of them, and maybe they may be scared into following some of their suggestions. some of them are very efficient at what they do, though some who are not around our level find them scary for some silly reason. some of them are very nice indeed. But that's enough about them. You'll likely not even be aware of any of this happening. But hopefully they will muck up less folk's exit points, including your next one.
Your primary mission has indeed mainly passed. What, well let's call you phase 2. phase 2 are all well into doing their part and taking it over, phase 3 are starting to come into their own and taking over their part. phase 4 is not to far behind. Maybe another decade or decade and a half, 2 at the most.
and as you noticed the guards have been removed from where you live. Some have felt that since you have a new soul you are no longer on the radar so to speak. Not sure if that's a good idea or not. I've not looked into that. I'll ask some to look over you, some who are masters at being unnoticed, some what some would call not pleasant types, but that is since they are not only good at protecting, they enjoy it and also can be totally unnoticed if they want. Doubt you need protecting, but why not have a few around just in case. Think of it like masters of stealth who can turn invisible, and while not evil, don't mind using some dark side of the force skills at certain points, but are not sith nor dark siders. to keep things very vague. if they have to suck someone totally dry to protect you, they won't hesitate. a thing you'd want in protectors. again I'm fairly sure you don't need any, but why not. Won't hurt anything to have a few around, or keeping an eye open. They can keep an eye on several at once. Some others that are say key parts of phases 2 and 3. may sound like I'm paranoid or not as aware or enlightened as I am, but I'm just being me. I'm perfectly aware as a section 4 member of our family & the collective. I tried formlessness, but it's not my thing. I think you'll hanging out there sometimes, but it's not my thing. Nothing wrong with that.
As for how large you are. Rulers here are pointless, but your true self is very large indeed, as for how much of it can fit into that small human body, though it would be more accurately to say tiny. It is actual rather a small amount overall that is in the body. Can't say an exact present since that is changing. even though it increases now and then it's only tenths or hundredths of a percent, that is how fragile the human body is, most inefficient, likely more doings of those idiots, they did come up with the karmic system, among other things, that they loved and thought would be great for the earth, as well as that whole stupid thing about forgetting and starting each life there with a blank slate, what a very idiotic idea, and you are supposed to resolve karma and do your life plan with no memory, more moronic ideas. My, glad I never incarnated on the earth. and something else that is very stupid, is they want there to be total perfection in each person before they will give the stamp of , ok you are past that. Here we can see you don't need to be perfect. made a mistake, fine, realize it and move on. learned something from your mistake, even better. No need to be perfect like the carbon molecular structure of a diamond. You'd not think such morons were perfectionists, I wonder why the earth was ever given to those morons to govern.
I'm just glad you're not fully under their jurisdiction. You are sorta, but mainly really as far as exit points. I'll do my best to make sure they don't muck up your next one, but I can't keep watch on everything ever second, to use an earth expression.
I'm sure once you're here they'll try to get you to come to earth for another incarnation, just 1 more they'll say. I do hope you turn them down, I feel you would since you have no real interest in incarnating anywhere. They may try to point out the mistakes you made and need to come back to resolve, though I hope they are more enlightened then to try to pull that, but I'd not put that past them. You can give them the finger, to use a human expression, since you are not able to accumulate any karma since you're not under their jurisdiction. You came in to help with the shift and anchoring energies of certain types as part of phase 1. So others could be born there and be phase 2 but could not be born there without the phase 1 folks like you going their first to anchor certain energies.
But I'll stop here since it's getting close to when you do your next guided meditation and then eat and take a nap. Did you know you know Orin. You 2 worked together on a past incarnation, not sure if you recall that or not.
As to why you can't recall more of your soul knowledge and memories, well Lugia went over that, the basics and that is enough to know that. Those basic reasons are why. You do not suspect how old and high you really are. It takes a minimum of a certain type to be phase 1. You could have been the 1st wave of that but chose to be a hybrid 1st and 2nd wave of phase 1. But I'll let you go, we can talk more later tonight if you want. and you're forearms are starting to need to rest anyway. Talk to you next time sexy lover, bye.
Frday 9-4
I did the 4th guided mediation for Radiance: self exciting building the light body. There wasn't really much of a running the energies done in this guided meditation. It was briefly about the Renawre cocoon then went fairly quickly to the Fullonia. I could feel all the fullonia energy around me. I could barely feel the border of the Fullonia cocoon, just barely. I would guess my skill will increase over time. Though I didn't understand what Daben by the light bodies. I'll assume he had a slip of the tongue. It's happened before when Daben would pause at an odd time. Overall an ok meditation.
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I don't feel my skill or progress has changed any since I started this, but I am only 4 meditations in. There are another 20 guided meditations to do, and Daben has said in the manuals that you don't need to have mastered the skills to be ready for the next part so I'll go with that. Also when I do the 2nd pass as I call it I may notice I have increased in skill and made some progress and not noticed it. Maybe since my progress was so slight and slow at a time. Instead of huge and obvious.
While I do enjoy doing these guided meditations I'd much rather be at home then here. Not that I hate being on the earth, but all of me would much rather be at home then here. No idea how long I'll be here, wish I had at least an idea. I do hope what I've been being told is true, that I am a high being, I'll not be incarnating anymore after this and I'm part of a collective family, instead of being as alone there as I am on the earth.
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I did a 20 minute sorta meditation from an audio book I'm listening to and could feel there are no guards at all in here. Guess they don't see a need for guards at all here anymore, maybe since I have a new soul or something. I also feel Feathers wants to talk to me so I'll post this then channel her for a bit.
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I did the 4th guided mediation for Radiance: self exciting building the light body. This time for the 2nd time and I could feel the energy of the Renawre cocoon. It was a very intense, but pleasant, heat I could feel throughout my entire body. The energy of the Fullonia cocoon was not of intense heat but another feel, hard to describe. I was better at feeling the border of the Fullonia cocoon and the energy of it and the fullonia energy all around me, along with the Renawre cocoon energy that was in my body and around me nearby. This one was interesting. I also went pretty deep. Took me a while to come back.
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I don't feel my skill or progress has changed any since I started this, but I am only 4 meditations in. There are another 20 guided meditations to do, and Daben has said in the manuals that you don't need to have mastered the skills to be ready for the next part so I'll go with that. Also when I do the 2nd pass as I call it I may notice I have increased in skill and made some progress and not noticed it. Maybe since my progress was so slight and slow at a time. Instead of huge and obvious.
While I do enjoy doing these guided meditations I'd much rather be at home then here. Not that I hate being on the earth, but all of me would much rather be at home then here. No idea how long I'll be here, wish I had at least an idea. I do hope what I've been being told is true, that I am a high being, I'll not be incarnating anymore after this and I'm part of a collective family, instead of being as alone there as I am on the earth.
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I did a 20 minute sorta meditation from an audio book I'm listening to and could feel there are no guards at all in here. Guess they don't see a need for guards at all here anymore, maybe since I have a new soul or something. I also feel Feathers wants to talk to me so I'll post this then channel her for a bit.
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I did the 4th guided mediation for Radiance: self exciting building the light body. This time for the 2nd time and I could feel the energy of the Renawre cocoon. It was a very intense, but pleasant, heat I could feel throughout my entire body. The energy of the Fullonia cocoon was not of intense heat but another feel, hard to describe. I was better at feeling the border of the Fullonia cocoon and the energy of it and the fullonia energy all around me, along with the Renawre cocoon energy that was in my body and around me nearby. This one was interesting. I also went pretty deep. Took me a while to come back.
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