Had what sounded like a kid visit me last night I guessed from what she said one of the lovers/mate's daughters. Not sure why she was supposed to be watching me stealthed. I just know that since she mentions whenever she tries to do that Gaia's son keeps popping up to say hi and talk to her and it breaks her concentration. She left in a huff when I admitted I had no idea who she was, then came back briefly later to apologize since she said her mother told her how on earth due to my being incarnated here i'd not have access to much of my memory due to how the human body is and the density here.
I think from talking to her briefly it may be Moondancer's (formerly called belle) daughter but I'm not sure.
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I had a dream where I was playing some sort of computer game that was similar to catz, dogz, and petz, but with some changes. There was the default dog that you start with but every time you switched to a new type of pet the earlier one was erased. So you had to find more of that type to store up so you can switch to that type if you want. Though you can also purchase that type. Except for the default starting dog, that one you could only find in game. I recall thinking, wouldn't it be easier if they just gave you an infinite number of that dog type.
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I did the 6th meditation that was part of the Radiance: self exciting building the light body and it was a fairly easy and a very relaxing guided meditation. It was mainly about finding where one's though originate and surrounding the area with light. I found it pretty easily and surrounded it with light. Daben had me then go deeper and I went into the place. It was a relaxing formless, a nothing, hard to explain. it felt familiar, relaxing, like a bit of home. Hard to explain, the nothingness, formlessness. I also had long periods of time of no thoughts, just the relaxing formless, nothingness.
I did surround the area with light and Daben did run some of the energies for the light body energy centers and the Fullonia. After a bit Daben wanted me to try to feel the light body. I could feel the Fullonia cocoon, easy to just be able to barely feel it and not bother with how large it was instead of making sure it was 30 feet in all directions. Though at times I would slip into feeling the Renawre cocoon.
Overall a great meditation. Diffidently will go on to be one of my favorites for this course.
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I was thinking earlier. Most souls may want to experience everything, or a lot of experiences. Personalities usually may not want to experience everything, maybe part of why souls move on from personalities. Except earth where folks get trapped in karma, again the system on earth does seem pretty stupid the way it's implemented. look at the mess the earth is in to see the results of it. And Darius mentioned he'll have unique experiences with me. I feel what he means by that is instead of experiencing being all sorts of things, but having to deal with personalities who need to work on this and that, and being trapped in a mucked up system that earth is. With me I, guess, I don't need to work on anything and if it's true that I have no karma & am immune to accumulating karma, then after this is over I can go around to different places, visiting Gaia, some of my other lovers, maybes (if I have any mates) spending time at home in the collective too, living there. hanging out at various places designed for non incarnates to play, and I guess incarnates while they are dreaming maybe. Also being partners with a soul that is a part of a collective, may indeed be a unique experience for a soul, that he may be able to share with other souls maybe, not sure about that. & he's mentioned he doesn't mind going into stasis or sleep for periods of time. Though I've written about that before.
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I wonder if I am just me, or maybe one of the lowest aspects of the real me. Though it could be this me is the highest part of me and the other me's that merged with me were around the same level of awareness, or maybe more, not sure.
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I also feel that if some past civilizations were destroyed and the beings in charge of the earth hoped humans would learn from their lesson, it's a pretty stupid hope since with the system in place, with everyone starting with a blank slate, no memory of the past. Repeating the same mistakes over and over, trapped in karma. There is no way they could do better next time. To bad they, whoever they are, didn't realize this sooner. I feel that finally they, again whoever they are, I've no idea, gave up and threw up their hands and ask for help and that is when some of us came here, some came up with a plan, a several stage plan and have been implementing it. if the ones who came in are smart they'll tell the ones who were in charge of the earth to keep out of their way. Since if I was one of the ones in charge of this project to fix the earth I'd tell them, feel free to watch what I'm doing and asking questions, but you can't touch anything. I'm one of the ones here to fix it and I'll not get it half fixed just to have you muck it up again. But again feel free to watch and ask questions.
I feel it'll take likely at least a thousand years to fix this mucked up system, the black slate, karmic, and other systems, since they can't just wipe it all away. I feel it would cause some sort of severe psychological shock or something. It has to be done in tiny baby steps. Which if the native earth humans don't like the speed I'd say, well you should have said something before it got this mucked up. Otherwise we can wipe it all, poof (no more veil of forgetfulness, karma gone, the knowledge there are many sentient non earth human species around and out there), but then masses of you will have to come to this side, severely depleting the human species since nearly all of you would need master healers to come in to heal you before you can return to incarnate on the new earth, maybe not enough would be left for there to be any incarnated humans anymore, since there has to be a certain population size to sustain a healthy genetic breeding pool, or you can remain incarnated, insuring a healthy size breeding pool and take tiny baby steps. Not as fast, but it is the easiest on all of you.
Just my opinion on some soul knowledge that seems to have poofed, and some sort of memories. No idea what it is myself.
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I was just thinking. Unless I'm delusional or inflating my own ego, it seems that reading the Dolores Cannon book I'm reading, Convoluted Universe 4, I was thinking and it feels to me how I an see that some of the folks are being inadequacy trained before they were set on the earth by aliens in the distant past, not trained since the alien really don't know what it's like to live on the earth and when things go wrong they tend to say, its his fault since he should have .... (and some with what I guess is the earth committee and or some of the agents of theirs, that Dolores cannon would talk to when the person was under deep hypnosis. not to make it sound like I know so much more then they have. But it seems like they really don't understand the conditions of incarnating on the earth since none of them have themselves, and they don't seem as overall aware as it seems some think they are. I seem to be able to see that they are maybe like jr high or maybe freshman or sophomores in high school, where yes while they do know a lot, there is a huge amount more they don't know, but think and believe they know a lot. again I may be wrong, but it just struck me that reading her book I'm reading, that struck me, and looking back on her previous book, 3 waves of volunteers, there's lots that really don't really understand the earth.
I feel that if those who want to come to help the earth, they should have to incarnate to get first had experience of what it's like to incarnate on the earth. Same for any committee that rules the earth, they should have to not only do so once they should have to do so on a regular basis so the first hand knowledge doesn't fade into the past. Maybe at least once every 2 centuries or something. I do feel from an ethical and practical standpoint, if you don't have fairly recent knowledge of what the condition are like of incarnating on the earth, you have no business running the earth nor trying to fix it. Just my opinion on things.
You could be an advisory, giving your opinion, but if you don't have practical and semi resent and regular incarnations on the earth, you really have no practical real knowledge of the conditions of incarnating on the earth from an inside viewpoint and have no business nor ethics being on an earth committee, even one trying to fix things.
Just more stuff that popped into my head. Maybe right, maybe wrong, maybe to inflated of an ego. Just thought I'd type it out.
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To continue the past thought. I think I'd set up 2 committees or councils, and advisory one and the central one, the central one would have final vote and such on things, but to be a member you have to have had an incarnation on the earth and lived to at least a certain age, adulthood maybe, within 100 years, or you'd have to either step down or go and join the advisory committee, since otherwise you've not had a recent incarnation on the earth I feel ethically you really should not have final say since your last incarnation may have faded where you don't recall many of the details and the conditions on the earth may change, and from the outside looking in I feel is different then someone who has had an insider's viewpoint since I do feel ethically and practically those running the earth should have to incarnate here regularly, say within 100 years of their last one. Again just my opinion.
It may sound like I'm mad or something, but no, just my opinion. Once the incarnation is over I'm likely to home, walk away from earth and let them fix it themselves. Since I do have other interests.
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I did the meditation a 2nd time today and it was fantastic. running the energies for the few light body energy centers that Daben did and the Fullonia also. As before I was able to surround the area that thoughts come from with ease and experience not thinking, a relaxing formlessness, a type of peace, pleasure, hard to describe the experience, it as wonderful. This time it lasted for longer periods of time, & twice during the meditation I went very deep indeed, during the time of no thinking. As far as I can recall I experienced formlessness, it was wonderful and I was both me, and yet at one with myself. Hard to explain what I mean. I recall taking to myself also, as far as I can recall. and I could feel the Fullonia cocoon had 3 layers, the outermost layer I could barely feel.
one of my favorite meditations so far of this course.
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