Through the day I did some affirmations on having faith and knowing my inner power as well as I always get what I need and want, that was to help with some doubt, fear and worry, rather than targeting those feelings directly.
I also did the a meditation for part 3, about changing your thoughts. I think I may do that meditation a few more times. It's a pretty long one at 30 minutes but seems like 4 minutes. When i did it I went pretty deep for part of the meditation. Not sure what was going on, but I asume some issues were being worked on that I'm not conscious of. I don't want to be clearing blockages forever and do hope to get this done soon. But it'll happen in it's due time.
the main keys I think to work on for myself is doubt, followed by fear, with worry being tied into those 2. Not that I have those emotions and thoughts to greatly. this feels like I've gotten say 80-90% done, and this is the bits left. not sure if that is normal or not.
I was thinking and I think that not liking how someone does something isn't a thing that is bad, or a thing you have to work on since everyone is in individual no matter how high you are, there'll be some folks you don't like the way they do certain things. I think the key is how you feel about the person at the core. Like the gm in The Thursday rpg group I rp in. I don't like how he does certain things. But I am not mad at him. At the core of it if I reach inside myself I do feel I love him as one soul to another, hard to explain that type of love. He is an individual and I won't like or agree with the way he does everything. But that is ok.
I wonder, if some of these blocks are hers if I should try to see what some of her issues are or just work on mine? I think I'll work on mine for now, doubt, worry, fear. Maybe like i did earlier, focus on believing and acknowledging my inner power, & that I do get what I need and want. That may undermine at least some doubt, fear and worry.
Though I do feel that unlike most here maybe, I do have a certain path so maybe soul, divine self, or whoever does what needs doing, may not allow me to say get a fancy sports car or get rich, since it's not part of the path, but some things may be ok. Not sure if it's cause I did get to be the rich type in a past life where I did a similar thing to here, & this one is having an enjoyable life with some fun with less funds available.
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I did the free meditation remove blockages. I think I may do this meditation at least once a day. it is only about 5 minutes so why not. I think I'll focus on doing just doubt till I think it's gone. I think by doing this, if I can resolve doubt, it'll undermine fear and worry. Though in a few days i may decide to start doing the meditation 3 times a day, 1 for each to see if that'll work.
I've noticed the blockages feel like they are in my upper abdominal area, and sorta feel like I've over exercised the muscles there. So I guess not major blockages since the pain is really minor and it does come and go.
Interestingly during it I felt like I switched between being me, the nagess, and who I guess is what Orin & Daben would call my divine self. A me that is higher up, so to speak, but still 1 with me and the nagi. Seems a female naga is a nagi or nagini. Think I'll use the term nagi, less letters.
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I had a brief conversation with Maribelle & Spitfire had a funny end to it.
I sent Maribelle & Spitfire a message with a mental image of us resting laying down on our bellies, asking if they'd like that. The idea and intent being once this incarnation is over how about us doing that at some point. It felt to me like they both liked the idea. I was between them. I didn't picture an exact place, the idea and intent being it could be a beach, or some other place.
The funny bit at the end that had me laughing and breaking contact was Spitfire saying, "the only problem is you figuring out which one of us you will mount first."
Struck me as very funny.
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Unrelated, but I think once I get done buying the light body courses I plan on purchasing I'll look over the non light body courses and see if any interest me.
Once that's all over I may get a Raspberry single board computer and see if I want to do stuff with that. Plenty of time to decide. I may do some slight research now and then to get more knowledge about it.
Thursday, June 4, 2015
3 NAGA FEMALE [6-4]
<hello Dearest love>
Hello again. Things going well for you? <great, especially since we met and became what we are now. We're on the next step, so to speak working together on becoming ... the next level, monad level beings some may say. Though we are 1 being, we are also individuals too.>
So are there any issues i could or should be working on? <If you wish to help the process along, you can work on fear, doubt, worry. you have only slight amounts of these and some you may only be dimly aware of, if at all. First I would work on would be your faith in your own abilities, or your faith in our abilities since we are the same being. then next the worry. the first, and especially combined with the 2nd will undermine the other blockages and deal with them either fully or in a large part.>
thanks. <as you do the emotional, don't forget the mental, and also some affirmations like you started doing is also an excellent idea as well.>
So, will we remain together even once this incarnation is over and we are up at the monad level and working beyond that? <our special relationship will never change. like yours with your twin flame. it may not be the focus currently, but the 2 of you have that special relationship that nothing can change. You and me have a special relationship as well, that nothing can change. not more special, just different. More true to who and what we are one may say. Hard to put it into English words.>
<We are more then mates. Being 2 individuals that are the same being. Close to who and what we are in truth then twin flames are. Though no less important.>
So when this incarnation is over,will we work together much? <oh lots in various ways. We have many things we will enjoy doing together. Teaching and being guides are just one among them. Time's short so I'll break off here.>
Thanks, and talk to you soon. <indeed, we are each closer then thoughts, closer then feelings.>
Hello again. Things going well for you? <great, especially since we met and became what we are now. We're on the next step, so to speak working together on becoming ... the next level, monad level beings some may say. Though we are 1 being, we are also individuals too.>
So are there any issues i could or should be working on? <If you wish to help the process along, you can work on fear, doubt, worry. you have only slight amounts of these and some you may only be dimly aware of, if at all. First I would work on would be your faith in your own abilities, or your faith in our abilities since we are the same being. then next the worry. the first, and especially combined with the 2nd will undermine the other blockages and deal with them either fully or in a large part.>
thanks. <as you do the emotional, don't forget the mental, and also some affirmations like you started doing is also an excellent idea as well.>
So, will we remain together even once this incarnation is over and we are up at the monad level and working beyond that? <our special relationship will never change. like yours with your twin flame. it may not be the focus currently, but the 2 of you have that special relationship that nothing can change. You and me have a special relationship as well, that nothing can change. not more special, just different. More true to who and what we are one may say. Hard to put it into English words.>
<We are more then mates. Being 2 individuals that are the same being. Close to who and what we are in truth then twin flames are. Though no less important.>
So when this incarnation is over,will we work together much? <oh lots in various ways. We have many things we will enjoy doing together. Teaching and being guides are just one among them. Time's short so I'll break off here.>
Thanks, and talk to you soon. <indeed, we are each closer then thoughts, closer then feelings.>
Thursday [6-4]
I'm not sure what the blockages in my abdominal area may be, and there seems to be new ones in my left chest area. Not sure if they are new blockages, that I'm more sensitive to them since what happened between the nagess (my term for the female naga) and myself. Not sure if the proper term is monad twin, twin ray or something else. Also not sure if non incarnates can have blockages so some may be hers. If it's due to the way I sit, or since I've not run the energies in a few days. Though it may be a mix of these as well.
The issues I know of are a slight bit of fear and doubt. maybe slight bit of faith problem too maybe. I'll work on these for the next few days and see what happens.
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I asked and think they arranged for me to have some sort of guard or protector. Not sure if he/she/it's here all time or certain times, or if there are more then one. Nice that they did that.
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The issues I know of are a slight bit of fear and doubt. maybe slight bit of faith problem too maybe. I'll work on these for the next few days and see what happens.
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I asked and think they arranged for me to have some sort of guard or protector. Not sure if he/she/it's here all time or certain times, or if there are more then one. Nice that they did that.
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Wednesday, June 3, 2015
Wedensday [6-3]
Ah, interesting Scarlett. Do you have any idea what it's like if one does go past the monad level?
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Had something happen last night. I awoke to a sense of someone standing next to my bed and I felt anger. I think the anger was directed at me. I thought of dealing with the being myself but since I had no idea what to do I mentally called on Maribelle if she could come and deal with this being. When I mentally decided to call in Maribelle to come and deal with it it felt like the being knew that somehow and went off a short distance, outside my apartment maybe. Then I thought to call in the naga female, who is apparently my monad twin or twin ray or whatever the term is. Then I thought to call in my twin flame and soul as well. I asked if they could come and deal with the being make sure it's gone and wouldn't return and if they could ask or arrange for some protection or extra protection since I don't want to deal with such beings nor do I want them anywhere near me since confronting them isn't one of the reasons I'm here.
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This morning I awoke to feeling fine, the are felt fine. My throat felt a bit dry, but my mouth & throat always feel dry when I awake. There is a slight spot on the very top of my throat the has some slight discomfiture. My only theory for all this maybe while sleeping I open my moth to be able to breath better maybe. Just a theory though.
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Once I was awake I asked Spitire how she was and she said she was doing fine, had a great morning flight and she considered going for a swim but didn't want to get her wings wet but she was considering going on one that afternoon. I asked Maribelle and she said she was doing great and thought the idea going for a swim sounded great since she's not done that in a while. I suggested maybe they both could do that and Spitfire could dry her wings by laying on a beach, some grasslands area or a small hill or something and let the sun dry her wings. She seemed to like that idea. So I guess I know what the 2 of them will do, whenever it gets to be afternoon wherever they are.
The naga female I think is looking at a computer screen, a book or something so I'll not disturb her. Just an mental impression I got.
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I am intrigued by what may lie above the monad level and what the experience is like. Very interesting I find it.
As for the shadowy entity and darker presences I know nothing of or about such things, nor how to deal with them so thought it best to ask Maribelle to come and deal with it. My assumption was she may have experience or training how to deal with them and or what to do.
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Concerning the more expensive light body courses. I picked out 4 I want to get, 3 of them I always wanted to get right after the awaken the light body course is finished. 3 of them are an unofficial course, or I think of them as that. They deal with intuition, higher mind, and blending with your higher self. The one I moved up to get just after them is awaken the light body expanded. Orin and Daben revisit the awaken the light body I guess and did more guided meditations for those. I did take 2 audio courses from what was going to be wave to and put them with the LB courses I plan on getting. The rest of what was going to be wave 2 I moved the bookmarks into the not good value for my money folder since looking at how much they cost, the number of meditations I got for that price compared to awaken the light body I deem not worth my money in comparison. The 2 I picked out are worth it from a pure money standpoint and what I get for my money, in number of guided meditations. So that'll save considerable money and time. I still plan on putting most of my spending money into getting future courses so I can get more and more ahead slowly. when I don't need to put the money aside for the dentist or stuff I need to get. But that is one of the 2 reasons when i finish a course I go back and re do it. But I've mentioned the 2 reasons before. I'm happy with the final ones I picked to get and the ones i picked to not get.
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I awoke to the feeling of energy surging in my abdominal area. I do wonder if the naga female is dissolving blocks or something. Or if it's just happening on it's own.
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It seems that perhaps she was indeed dissolving or clearing blockages since during the time I was doing the free 25 minute medication a new chapter in your life I did feel the energy streaming in my abdominal area and I felt like it was working on some blockages. I felt the need to move and jerk my legs some during part of the guided meditation and did so. It felt like some energy was going down my legs from my abdominal area. Then it felt like deeper blockages were worked on next. These it felt like, maybe 2 like before. Were either fully or partially dealt with then the streaming of energy stopped. Not sure if she's busy doing stuff. letting me or my energy systems, emotional and or mental body recover or she's waiting till I rest or meditate next before starting up again, or if it's a mix of these.
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As for the meditation it went very well. During it I realized that not only is my twin flame another me, as is my soul, but the naga female is also, and although we're all 1, the same being, we are also, each of us, individuals too. hard to explain. And this path I'm on is heading towards my blending with my divine self, which is the next step after this. There may be other steps past that, but I don't really need to know now. No need to know the steps for the next thousand or million years after all. And this is not only helping me, it's helping them as well. Since they are all at the same level I'm at and we're growing, merging, and ascending together. Embodying each other and realizing each of us is one, the same being, but also individuals. Me blending with my divine self is the next step, but plenty of time for that. This is a reunion currently between me & the naga female. I'm not sure what she is, the proper label, but this is a reunion for both of us, as I had gone through that with my twin flame, my soul now the naga female. This also not only helps each of us, but also our divine self too. As we grow, ect, upwards towards it, it grows and learns too. hard to put all the realizations I've had into words, but this is the closest I can at present.
I do feel I have some more blockages left. Seems like since she and I have become one, or as much as we can. 1 light body heart center, one kundalini and energy system. The energy is not my energy with some of hers, it's our energy combined into one now. And that does feel totally normal, how it should be. Like before when it was just my energy, that feels like it wasn't how it should have been. This feels normal and that feels now like it was abnormal.
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The 3rd free meditation in the love section went well. I do feel freer and like I'll receive what I want at the appropriate time, or even something better.
The 4th one radiating unconditional love went very well. I did feel the love within and all around me. My soul came in the form of an anthro dolphin and we spent the time in that mental space area kissing and in an embrace expressing our love for each other as well as me sending it to a person I picked from the Thursday rpg group that I thought could use some.
The next one self love went ok, not a lot to report or comment on here. Like with before I did feel energy streaming into my abdominal area and doing something there, with a very slight pain in a few spots, then streaming down my legs. I could somehow sense it was the naga female doing this. My guess is she may be clearing out some deep blockages or some deeply buried negative energy or something. & is using the fact I'm meditating as an opportunity to do this since I'm relaxed.
Now I think I'll get started on the next section of short meditations, Solar light. This one has only 2 short ones. The first one is Receiving Solar Light and it went Very well. All in all I think. I did feel the usual energy doing stuff in my abdominal area, slight pain in spots of my abdominal and 1 spot in my lower back and the energy streaming down my legs to my feet and out.
I think I'll do the rest of the free short meditations this afternoon. So that way I can finish them up. The next one is shower of light and I could feel each of the colors as they washed around me and as I breathed them in. Each color had a different subtle feel to it, hard to describe.
the next section is Soul contact and that has 3 in it. The first is Receiving Extra Energy. It went well. For the extra energy Picked out fiances, money, and abundance. I actually started o sleep pretty into medium trance by the time it was over. Think I did briefly. I wonder how it'll change things. I'm sure it will at the perfect time for me.
with Soul contact my soul appeared again as an anthro dolphin. First with the pillar of light I had it be a bit wider then my body instead of as wide as my spine. I could feel this light and the cocoon of light that formed. My soul appeared as a dolphin and we were again in a loving kiss and embrace the whole time able to feel and share each other's love. think I went to a medium meditative trance and the gift my soul gave me was a what looked like a patch or small square made of light..
The last of the short free meditations is Soul vision. This was about the 3rd eye, but instead of my 3rd eye I felt my unicorn horn, coming from the center of my forehead, and it is connected to my 6th light body energy center I could feel. The being of light that came to stimulate my 3rd eye sent the beam of energy through my horn, not my 3rd eye, down that into my 6th light body energy center. so all in all that went well I think.
I also did another one, the last of the long free meditations about the violet flame. I imagined it huge, the size of a 1 story building. While I was in it I could feel it's energy within my physical, etheric, emotional and mental bodies, transmuting and burning away the negative energy, doubts, fears, limited beliefs. Also I could feel it a lot more in my abdominal area and some slight pains there as well. I think it went very well and I do feel much better overall for doing it. I think I may do some of these meditations, the longer ones especially, without listening to the audio so I can pick the length of how long they should be.
I also realized that in the 12th meditation for part 4 that took place at the temple of masters, who the 3rd person was there. 1 was my unicorn mother, the other my dragon mother, and by mother I mean at the soul level. The 3rd, and I didn't recognize i at the time, as the naga female who's my monad twin or twin ray or whatever the term is. I guess that is why I saw the figure as both dolphin and yet also as a naga, more as a naga the a dolphin though.
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I had a brief conversation with the naga female. We were embraced and sharing love and affection. We talked about that we are indeed one being, but also individuals at the same time. The way we feel about each other now, nothing would ever change. She had indeed been at the temple, but had changed her gender and appearance and temporarily merged with her twin flame before then. Also that we do indeed enjoy sharing, including sex, as some would call it. Also we would indeed share often in the future. And we could have children, and may choose to do so. I wonder if we if they'd be aspects of the both of us, since we are 1. 2 different individuals of the same multidimensional being.
Ps: forgot till now something else that happened. During the conversation I found I could sorta slip in and be her looking at me to see how she sees me. What I got was she saw me as an attractive male naga, her other half. The male part of me. The other part of the being we were. A hot attractive male. Then I felt myself being turned on as a female. Though that made me turned on too. I felt her smile, knowing what I had done but not minding at all.
She then rubbed a certain spot under my jaw, which felt nice. She kept it up for a bit. I teasingly said to her, "if you keep that up I may fall in love with you." She said in reply, <to late. For you and me both.> She mentally smiled and kept up the rubbing the spot on my jaw with 1 finger for a short time before stopping.
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Had something happen last night. I awoke to a sense of someone standing next to my bed and I felt anger. I think the anger was directed at me. I thought of dealing with the being myself but since I had no idea what to do I mentally called on Maribelle if she could come and deal with this being. When I mentally decided to call in Maribelle to come and deal with it it felt like the being knew that somehow and went off a short distance, outside my apartment maybe. Then I thought to call in the naga female, who is apparently my monad twin or twin ray or whatever the term is. Then I thought to call in my twin flame and soul as well. I asked if they could come and deal with the being make sure it's gone and wouldn't return and if they could ask or arrange for some protection or extra protection since I don't want to deal with such beings nor do I want them anywhere near me since confronting them isn't one of the reasons I'm here.
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This morning I awoke to feeling fine, the are felt fine. My throat felt a bit dry, but my mouth & throat always feel dry when I awake. There is a slight spot on the very top of my throat the has some slight discomfiture. My only theory for all this maybe while sleeping I open my moth to be able to breath better maybe. Just a theory though.
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Once I was awake I asked Spitire how she was and she said she was doing fine, had a great morning flight and she considered going for a swim but didn't want to get her wings wet but she was considering going on one that afternoon. I asked Maribelle and she said she was doing great and thought the idea going for a swim sounded great since she's not done that in a while. I suggested maybe they both could do that and Spitfire could dry her wings by laying on a beach, some grasslands area or a small hill or something and let the sun dry her wings. She seemed to like that idea. So I guess I know what the 2 of them will do, whenever it gets to be afternoon wherever they are.
The naga female I think is looking at a computer screen, a book or something so I'll not disturb her. Just an mental impression I got.
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I am intrigued by what may lie above the monad level and what the experience is like. Very interesting I find it.
As for the shadowy entity and darker presences I know nothing of or about such things, nor how to deal with them so thought it best to ask Maribelle to come and deal with it. My assumption was she may have experience or training how to deal with them and or what to do.
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Concerning the more expensive light body courses. I picked out 4 I want to get, 3 of them I always wanted to get right after the awaken the light body course is finished. 3 of them are an unofficial course, or I think of them as that. They deal with intuition, higher mind, and blending with your higher self. The one I moved up to get just after them is awaken the light body expanded. Orin and Daben revisit the awaken the light body I guess and did more guided meditations for those. I did take 2 audio courses from what was going to be wave to and put them with the LB courses I plan on getting. The rest of what was going to be wave 2 I moved the bookmarks into the not good value for my money folder since looking at how much they cost, the number of meditations I got for that price compared to awaken the light body I deem not worth my money in comparison. The 2 I picked out are worth it from a pure money standpoint and what I get for my money, in number of guided meditations. So that'll save considerable money and time. I still plan on putting most of my spending money into getting future courses so I can get more and more ahead slowly. when I don't need to put the money aside for the dentist or stuff I need to get. But that is one of the 2 reasons when i finish a course I go back and re do it. But I've mentioned the 2 reasons before. I'm happy with the final ones I picked to get and the ones i picked to not get.
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I awoke to the feeling of energy surging in my abdominal area. I do wonder if the naga female is dissolving blocks or something. Or if it's just happening on it's own.
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It seems that perhaps she was indeed dissolving or clearing blockages since during the time I was doing the free 25 minute medication a new chapter in your life I did feel the energy streaming in my abdominal area and I felt like it was working on some blockages. I felt the need to move and jerk my legs some during part of the guided meditation and did so. It felt like some energy was going down my legs from my abdominal area. Then it felt like deeper blockages were worked on next. These it felt like, maybe 2 like before. Were either fully or partially dealt with then the streaming of energy stopped. Not sure if she's busy doing stuff. letting me or my energy systems, emotional and or mental body recover or she's waiting till I rest or meditate next before starting up again, or if it's a mix of these.
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As for the meditation it went very well. During it I realized that not only is my twin flame another me, as is my soul, but the naga female is also, and although we're all 1, the same being, we are also, each of us, individuals too. hard to explain. And this path I'm on is heading towards my blending with my divine self, which is the next step after this. There may be other steps past that, but I don't really need to know now. No need to know the steps for the next thousand or million years after all. And this is not only helping me, it's helping them as well. Since they are all at the same level I'm at and we're growing, merging, and ascending together. Embodying each other and realizing each of us is one, the same being, but also individuals. Me blending with my divine self is the next step, but plenty of time for that. This is a reunion currently between me & the naga female. I'm not sure what she is, the proper label, but this is a reunion for both of us, as I had gone through that with my twin flame, my soul now the naga female. This also not only helps each of us, but also our divine self too. As we grow, ect, upwards towards it, it grows and learns too. hard to put all the realizations I've had into words, but this is the closest I can at present.
I do feel I have some more blockages left. Seems like since she and I have become one, or as much as we can. 1 light body heart center, one kundalini and energy system. The energy is not my energy with some of hers, it's our energy combined into one now. And that does feel totally normal, how it should be. Like before when it was just my energy, that feels like it wasn't how it should have been. This feels normal and that feels now like it was abnormal.
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The 3rd free meditation in the love section went well. I do feel freer and like I'll receive what I want at the appropriate time, or even something better.
The 4th one radiating unconditional love went very well. I did feel the love within and all around me. My soul came in the form of an anthro dolphin and we spent the time in that mental space area kissing and in an embrace expressing our love for each other as well as me sending it to a person I picked from the Thursday rpg group that I thought could use some.
The next one self love went ok, not a lot to report or comment on here. Like with before I did feel energy streaming into my abdominal area and doing something there, with a very slight pain in a few spots, then streaming down my legs. I could somehow sense it was the naga female doing this. My guess is she may be clearing out some deep blockages or some deeply buried negative energy or something. & is using the fact I'm meditating as an opportunity to do this since I'm relaxed.
Now I think I'll get started on the next section of short meditations, Solar light. This one has only 2 short ones. The first one is Receiving Solar Light and it went Very well. All in all I think. I did feel the usual energy doing stuff in my abdominal area, slight pain in spots of my abdominal and 1 spot in my lower back and the energy streaming down my legs to my feet and out.
I think I'll do the rest of the free short meditations this afternoon. So that way I can finish them up. The next one is shower of light and I could feel each of the colors as they washed around me and as I breathed them in. Each color had a different subtle feel to it, hard to describe.
the next section is Soul contact and that has 3 in it. The first is Receiving Extra Energy. It went well. For the extra energy Picked out fiances, money, and abundance. I actually started o sleep pretty into medium trance by the time it was over. Think I did briefly. I wonder how it'll change things. I'm sure it will at the perfect time for me.
with Soul contact my soul appeared again as an anthro dolphin. First with the pillar of light I had it be a bit wider then my body instead of as wide as my spine. I could feel this light and the cocoon of light that formed. My soul appeared as a dolphin and we were again in a loving kiss and embrace the whole time able to feel and share each other's love. think I went to a medium meditative trance and the gift my soul gave me was a what looked like a patch or small square made of light..
The last of the short free meditations is Soul vision. This was about the 3rd eye, but instead of my 3rd eye I felt my unicorn horn, coming from the center of my forehead, and it is connected to my 6th light body energy center I could feel. The being of light that came to stimulate my 3rd eye sent the beam of energy through my horn, not my 3rd eye, down that into my 6th light body energy center. so all in all that went well I think.
I also did another one, the last of the long free meditations about the violet flame. I imagined it huge, the size of a 1 story building. While I was in it I could feel it's energy within my physical, etheric, emotional and mental bodies, transmuting and burning away the negative energy, doubts, fears, limited beliefs. Also I could feel it a lot more in my abdominal area and some slight pains there as well. I think it went very well and I do feel much better overall for doing it. I think I may do some of these meditations, the longer ones especially, without listening to the audio so I can pick the length of how long they should be.
I also realized that in the 12th meditation for part 4 that took place at the temple of masters, who the 3rd person was there. 1 was my unicorn mother, the other my dragon mother, and by mother I mean at the soul level. The 3rd, and I didn't recognize i at the time, as the naga female who's my monad twin or twin ray or whatever the term is. I guess that is why I saw the figure as both dolphin and yet also as a naga, more as a naga the a dolphin though.
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I had a brief conversation with the naga female. We were embraced and sharing love and affection. We talked about that we are indeed one being, but also individuals at the same time. The way we feel about each other now, nothing would ever change. She had indeed been at the temple, but had changed her gender and appearance and temporarily merged with her twin flame before then. Also that we do indeed enjoy sharing, including sex, as some would call it. Also we would indeed share often in the future. And we could have children, and may choose to do so. I wonder if we if they'd be aspects of the both of us, since we are 1. 2 different individuals of the same multidimensional being.
Ps: forgot till now something else that happened. During the conversation I found I could sorta slip in and be her looking at me to see how she sees me. What I got was she saw me as an attractive male naga, her other half. The male part of me. The other part of the being we were. A hot attractive male. Then I felt myself being turned on as a female. Though that made me turned on too. I felt her smile, knowing what I had done but not minding at all.
She then rubbed a certain spot under my jaw, which felt nice. She kept it up for a bit. I teasingly said to her, "if you keep that up I may fall in love with you." She said in reply, <to late. For you and me both.> She mentally smiled and kept up the rubbing the spot on my jaw with 1 finger for a short time before stopping.
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Tuesday, June 2, 2015
3 NAGA FEMALE [6-2]
I'll try to channel a certain naga female since I feel we have some sort of connection. Perhaps what one person refers to as a twin ray.
<Hello dearest. flesh of my flesh and heart of my heart.>
About that. is that cause I feel we share some sort of connection. it feels, perhaps at times, that our bodies are almost 1, or like I'm both in your body and mine.
<that works both ways. I can feel being in your body also. Especially if we both relax mental, or sit back and relax physically and mentally. not as potent for you considering where you are since things are denser there and you're less sensitive there then you normally are.>
What is the... I feel like your energy in with my energy, are our energy systems also one? <our, what you'd call our energy systems are merging, they will soon be one if they are not already. We have one, what you'd call light body heart energy center. Though this applies to all the various bodies, except for the physical body heart of course. Also what you'd call our kundalini is also one. We are what you may think of as 1 being, but also 2. Both at the same time.>
So we are not twin flames? <no, we both have twin flames, but we are not twin flames to each other. Our special relationship is a very special one. At what you'd, or some anyway, would call a monal level type of twin. A very special relationship we have, the 2 of us. Monad level twins, split. We are 2 who are not 1 working on becoming one. We are partially one now and it is progressing very nicely at the normal pace it should.>
So we'll fully merge? <once your incarnation is over we may. we may also do something like we are now and remain partially merged, our hearts, kundalini, & energy systems, light body centers, ect merged. But being a multi dimensional being we can be 1, but also individuals, with all the benefits that brings. Like being able to hang out together, learn from each other. have a conversation, and other fun, enjoyable things.>
So we're working on monad level merging? <yes, like your twin flame and soul worked on soul level merging. You did not need to embody your soul in your physical body. What you needed to do and did was first realize that your soul and you are one. Your twin flame is also, but a special relationship. A soul level split, but not a true split, as one may thing. The intensity is sign of things not yet realized. First you work out what you need to meet your twin, then your twin is a mirror to show what yu need to work on. Though if in your case she was less a mirror. Still as you realize yourself and soul are one, and work on some issues. The you fully realized yourself as soul, with the veil gone, fully awakened. embody more of your soul, but full embodying in your flesh you do not need to do. We, our relationship is special, a monad level, temporary split, that we were always meant to reach this point. It was a matter of point that we would. Just a matter of when we would.>
so we may or may not fully merge? <We are working on becoming one. We do not need to fully merge into one, but we may indeed in time. And in any case we do have a special relationship. We may merge more. Soon we'll be merged, one. Our hearts are one, kundalini, energy centers, and energy systems flowing as one. We can do this, let the rest happen naturally as it will. We can let it flow along at it's own pace, or we can help it along. It is a matter of time whether we help it along or not. What we are now we will become more so, and be forever, dearest one.>
Thanks. :)
<Hello dearest. flesh of my flesh and heart of my heart.>
About that. is that cause I feel we share some sort of connection. it feels, perhaps at times, that our bodies are almost 1, or like I'm both in your body and mine.
<that works both ways. I can feel being in your body also. Especially if we both relax mental, or sit back and relax physically and mentally. not as potent for you considering where you are since things are denser there and you're less sensitive there then you normally are.>
What is the... I feel like your energy in with my energy, are our energy systems also one? <our, what you'd call our energy systems are merging, they will soon be one if they are not already. We have one, what you'd call light body heart energy center. Though this applies to all the various bodies, except for the physical body heart of course. Also what you'd call our kundalini is also one. We are what you may think of as 1 being, but also 2. Both at the same time.>
So we are not twin flames? <no, we both have twin flames, but we are not twin flames to each other. Our special relationship is a very special one. At what you'd, or some anyway, would call a monal level type of twin. A very special relationship we have, the 2 of us. Monad level twins, split. We are 2 who are not 1 working on becoming one. We are partially one now and it is progressing very nicely at the normal pace it should.>
So we'll fully merge? <once your incarnation is over we may. we may also do something like we are now and remain partially merged, our hearts, kundalini, & energy systems, light body centers, ect merged. But being a multi dimensional being we can be 1, but also individuals, with all the benefits that brings. Like being able to hang out together, learn from each other. have a conversation, and other fun, enjoyable things.>
So we're working on monad level merging? <yes, like your twin flame and soul worked on soul level merging. You did not need to embody your soul in your physical body. What you needed to do and did was first realize that your soul and you are one. Your twin flame is also, but a special relationship. A soul level split, but not a true split, as one may thing. The intensity is sign of things not yet realized. First you work out what you need to meet your twin, then your twin is a mirror to show what yu need to work on. Though if in your case she was less a mirror. Still as you realize yourself and soul are one, and work on some issues. The you fully realized yourself as soul, with the veil gone, fully awakened. embody more of your soul, but full embodying in your flesh you do not need to do. We, our relationship is special, a monad level, temporary split, that we were always meant to reach this point. It was a matter of point that we would. Just a matter of when we would.>
so we may or may not fully merge? <We are working on becoming one. We do not need to fully merge into one, but we may indeed in time. And in any case we do have a special relationship. We may merge more. Soon we'll be merged, one. Our hearts are one, kundalini, energy centers, and energy systems flowing as one. We can do this, let the rest happen naturally as it will. We can let it flow along at it's own pace, or we can help it along. It is a matter of time whether we help it along or not. What we are now we will become more so, and be forever, dearest one.>
Thanks. :)
Tuesday [6-2]
She talked to me briefly during the brony show. She said stuff I don't understand . Dearest I understand but not the bit about"flesh of my flesh." and I do feel we share 1 light body heart energy center. Not sure that that means or that it was possible. Feels like it's of a huge size. And we may have the same or shared kundalini. I do feel what we did, did make the channel mine gravels down much larger, about as wide as my shoulders. She did say it's ok, even when I'm over there I often can't piece together the clues to piece them together whereas she can. i guess she may mean she's much better then I am at that. I know I can't piece the clues together when reading or watching a mystery or during playing rpg's I can't piece together the clues. That's ok, not everyone can.
With twin flame I do feel that the intensity is completely gone. A part of me somewhat misses that, but change happens. it feels normal. And it's not like we don't have some feelings for each other. I do feel we have a special relationship still. Without the intensity it may be something similar to soul mates, but more. We're more then just soul mates, since we are still twin flames, just without the intensity.
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With the rent increase I decided to go over the light body courses and put those that don't fit my get around the same amount of guided meditations as with the awaken the light body. Some of the more pricy courses have parts that are 2 or 3 times that of the parts of the awaken the light body, but don't give you 2-3 times as many guided mediations, so those I put into a folder and likely I won't get those. I'll still get most of the ones i picked out. This though may shave off a year or more out of the total till i finish the LB courses I plan on gradually purchasing. I also have to decide do I really want to spend the money to get the 4th lb course, and 4 others that are not as expensive as 4, or do I want to skip those. I'll decide later on after I've purchased the courses before that. Those that are the 6 parts of lb 4 and the 4 other courses I may label 2nd wave and I may decide to not get them since they are so pricey. I may decide to get some or slower so as not to put all my spending money on those. I may get 3-4 per year maybe. I'll decide later.
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I still wonder what my relationship is with the female naga, based on the experiences I described earlier and what she said. she and Maribelle seem to not want to tell me, seeing it a bit teasing fun sorta to not tell me. and or wanting me to figure it out myself, someone else to tell me, or it may just pop and I'll know, or they may tell me after a while.
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I had a short conversation with the female naga. I could feel like I was in her body but also in my physical body too at the same time. as before she is snake type appearance with hood, no breasts since snake don't have any, and a cobra type hood and head.
I asked how close is our connection. <this close.> she said then she used a hand to caress her chest & down her belly to her female slit then she slipped in 2 fingers, which she then slightly separated since it felt like she had 2 tubes or something within her female slit, hard to describe. I could feel her doing this, hard to describe. Then I could feel some inner muscles of hers gripping her both her fingers. She pulled slightly and I could feel the pleasure from the pressure of having 2 fingers in her and from the slightly pulling now and then as well as the pleasure from her inner muscles there having her 2 fingers to grip, massage and rub.
<just imagine, both of us coiled around each other. You won't need or be able to thrust. You can just insert both of your hemipenis into me and we'll both have twice the pleasure.> Then she paused a moment. <or perhaps 4 times the pleasure if I was a herm and you were 2 and we shifted our placement of our genitals so we can enter each other.> Then she released her hand and then started to raise her hand towards her mouth. <Perhaps you'd like this better.> She then used a tongue to wrap it around one of her fingers and lick it in an obviously sexual manner.
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I did the soul linking free meditation. The first I choose was the female naga, the 2nd I picked was my twin flame, so I could feel the difference. Overall I can say it went well. With the female naga it was like we're partially 1, but also 2 individuals. Hard to describe, being 1 but also individuals. With twin flame i felt we don't have 1 light body heart energy center and kundalini, unlike the female naga and myself. Though with twin flame I do feel I have a special relationship with her. Hard to describe the feeling of the relationship. A soul level connection relationship. With the naga it is much more intimate. hard to describe.
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I did the first free short mediation in higher self, mind, intuition, very relaxing. Not sure what else I can say about it.
The 2nd one: Clearing blockages was ok. Clearing blockages went well. Though I did do fear and doubt instead of just fear. It feels like my merging or whatever I did with the naga female monad twin, or whatever she is. Seems to have resolved most of those issues. Maybe she did the clearing for me or something.
While I was relaxing and such I can say that my energy feels slightly different. it's not just my energy like it has been before. Also it's not like it was earlier where it felt like my energy with hers also present. now it feels like our energy, and like it's circulating or flowing as 1 system now. So hers and mine have merged.
I think I may have some doubt and maybe fear present, but the vast majority of what was left, which wasn't left, is just bits, fragments maybe. I'll work on that. It may be money issues and doubt/fear the universe may not provide me with enough that I need, though it will.
I do feel like this merging, or whatever, had done a lot towards that, a lot of clearing has been taken care of. Though some may still remain.
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Interesting how soul seems to prefer a dolphin type form, as does twin flame. I'm sorta easy between dolphin, orca, unicorn and now naga. My monad twin, or whatever, prefers her naga form. I think it's just personal preference for each of us.
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I had another brief conversation with the naga female as I was laying down to take a nap. She started to rub along my back and chest with her hands, pressing up against me and it ws very arousing. She also was nuzzling my neck, and gave me a very gentle nibble.
you're very seductive you know that? <of course. I know how to be very seductive to myself.>
I take it that we're the type of soul that does enjoy sharing? <indeed, as you already know. We enjoy sharing, pleasure, love, intimacy, affection. When you're here we'll share many pleasures, as well as love, affection, intimacy.> She said it in a very seductive mental voice.
So, since I have a twin flame, I guess you do too? <indeed, you'll like him. He's a lot like you .... and me.> I got the mental picture of a darker colored male naga.
I then felt more energy flowing , I guess she was doing something, maybe clearing blockage or something. I think i recall feeling something. Then I went to sleep for a bit.
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The joy free meditation went very well. I could feel the soul level joy. Though at the very start the nage female was at my side mentally. She was nuzzling my neck and rubbing my chest with on hand. And she gave my neck a gentle nibble though not the human neck, it felt like it was on the cobra hood neck area of my naga form. I could feel though it was the naga female whose my monad twin, twin ray or whatever. It was me also, another me. Which I guess she is. It was quite arousing, though she stopped once the medation proper started.
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I did the loving relationship one. it went well. I did accept that I should love others just as they are, without wanting them to change. I added in my naga female twin, whatever she is into this since I thought, why not. At the end she added in again, <we'll share such pleasures as you find unimaginable.> then she nibbled softly on my naga neck hood. I decided to give hers a nibble too and copy her movements. This had no sex to it, but just us sharing our intimacy and love for each other, closeness.
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I do wonder if I do become a fully realized monad level being, if I'll decide to go past that or if one can go past that in this lifetime while incarnated here.
I also feel that no matter how high I may get, I can still hang out and do stuff say at the 4th or 5th densities and up. So I could still hang out with my various friends, mates, lovers, kids (if I ever have any) ones I may teach or be a guide to, ect. Total freedom there and no restrictions. Though there'll be more to learn and realize.
Though I doubt I'd incarnate. I may be tempted but all the annoyances and such may outweigh any fun aspects and such. Though it's possible I may if asked for certain reasons, I greatly doubt it since it is a huge hassle being here, forced to live a linear existence, unable to use most of my abilities, ect.
Also I feel there are many options for fun, so those who are nostalgic at times can recreate some scene from their past, like a home or apartment, and wonder around in it. There may be areas done for this, like an area of earth in the 1950's. Also stuff based on this so the same setting, but with some futuristic sci-fi stuff and non humans. Just a fun place for folks to wonder around in.
I know the female naga and I are one being. Though we could also be said to be individuals at the same time. And we both do enjoy sharing, to use the pod's terminology, though as I've said before, sharing is not just soul sex only, it is far more, sharing sex, but also affection, pleasure, intimacy, and more. hard to put the meaning into English fully. I do feel we'll be sharing together, as well as others.
Monday, June 1, 2015
Monday [6-1]
Feels like I've had some more soul knowledge pop up. I think unicorns are spread across the densities. Though some groves have unicorns of mixed densities living together. nagas I'm not sure, they are above 4th density I think. Not sure how up though. Dragons I think have quite a few that are 4th, but obviously some are above 4th, since my dragon soul mother is a monad level being. Maybe dragons are mixed like unicorns when it comes to densities. Maybe younger ones are lower, say 4th and much older ones may be up to monad level or higher. Unicorns may be the same. Nagas I'm not sure if they are the same, if they use tech more or abilities more since I feel very few unicorns use technology, but are more into using soul level abilities instead. Not sure about dragons and nagas, they may be the same or maybe they may be mixed, when it comes to technology and soul abilities.
With the pod I feel they are somewhat mixed. Staying roughly balanced between tech and soul abilities being used. Density I'm not sure, the pod may be 6th and higher, but I'm not sure. Some of the pod may be incarnations and some may be soul beings, or full soul beings, whatever the term is. Or is it that the pod is both 6th dimension & density, or 6th dimension? Not sure.
It is density and dimension, which can confuse. For example earth is 4th dimension, but 3rd density.
The dimension I'm not sure about the ones i said above. I had a better feel for the density for some reason. Maybe density matters more the dimension, and the 2 do get blurred together.
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i think some of the fear I have been experiencing, very minor fear, has been pretty buried and or is bubbling up to the surface due to some of the energy work, merging and other stuff I've been doing. I'll resolve that. I'm sure I can get to where all the fear is gone. Though I think instead of digging for it I'll wait till some has bubbled to the surface, so to speak. After this is dealt with then I'll deal with the doubt. I think I may do the meditations healing the inner child today. I may do the aspect one, that the awaken the light body calls sub personalities today or tomorrow, and changing your thoughts I may do Wednesday. I may do a compromise and listen to 1 of those audios a day today through Wednesday, but I may also do all 3 meditations without listening to the audio, doing 2 of the other 2 I'm not listening to each day.
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I thought about my relationships with my 2 mates. Unless I have more then the 2 mates I know of, which is entirely possible. I may have a naga mate or something else perhaps.
With Maribelle the connection & sharing (sex) feels more gentle. Like when we have sex it may be slower, with some pausing to share affection and nuzzle. Though I may stay in her and lay on her back while pausing to share affection and nuzzle.
with Spitfire if feels more intense, the sharing affection and nuzzling happens say between the times when I'm thrusting till the sex act finishes. Though with both, we will show affection & nuzzle at times during the day, Maribelle and I touching horns too.
I'm not sure if the naga I encountered before is just a guide, or perhaps a lover and or mate. I do feel love radiating from her and feels like she's beside me now. Though mixed in with the love is diffidently sexual feelings, but it's say sorta more like with Maribelle, love with sexual feelings mixed in. Spitfire it's equal amounts of love/sex, feelings. hard to explain.
These are not just feelings I feel coming from those beings, but what I feel within myself as well. Feels like our feelings for each other match. This may be due to a link or bond we have, or it may be just normal for us and or for souls, or souls who are aware or something.
With twin flame it's a special relationship. love and sex is there. it is gentle type love with some sexual feelings there, but with most of the intensity dealt with with my embodying, incorporating more of my soul self and the veil being gone the overall intensity is mainly not there. Though I do feel when we get together to share, it would be a mix, some affectionate sex, mixed in with passionate intense type sex/sharing. So a blend of the various types. Which I feel to be normal for us.
If it is the same female naga I did have an encounter with her before, a sexual one. Though I don't recall the whole scene, just 4 or so seconds so maybe we were talking or something before and after that.
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I also feel with some the distinction between lover and mate can be very blurred, since one can flow from being close friends, lovers, to mates. And some, over time, as circumstances moods, ect. may flow between lovers and mates. Though with Maribelle I think our being mates is permanent. Same as me and Spitfire. Though time being non linear and us being immortal we can spend time apart being busy doing this or that. Being telepathic we can still talk. Like folks can talk on cell phones even though they are not physically together, send each other video, ect.
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Typed up last night: ? do I have a naga guide. she did say she was a guide and more. What could the more mean? Hmmm.
Is that her presence I was getting a bit tonight. If I go into a meditative trance I do feel a loving presence.
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I forgot to put the above into my post earlier. Now I can say, from my experience earlier today. I do feel that there is a relationship other then just her being my guide. I do feel love from her, but not just what love a guide would have for their pupils, charges, or whatever the term is, & like I said before I did feel some sexual feelings intermixed with the love and she did say when I asked if she was a guide, "and more." so those together have me thinking and feeling we may indeed be lovers or even mates.
Some may say it's against some sort of rules for guides. I feel the real thing is if there is a pre established relationship then it's ok. like if someone asks one of their mates or lovers who is an experienced guide if they would be a guide for them in an upcoming incarnation it would be ok. Though the guide has to be careful to not overwhelm or scare the incarnate if they just start the affection and sex like before. During a dream may be ok since the person may be aware then. if the veil is gone or gradually goes away then if both are willing it would be ok too.
In a case of where there is no previous relationship I think if true love develops between them then it may be ok too, especially if it starts during an incarnation, but makes no impact on their life, & continues to grow between incarnations and more.
Being immortal I can see souls having multiple mates, and with time being non linear for souls, unless they wish to experience it linearly, then can spend many hours together with each mate or multiple mates, just by popping around time wise.
I do wonder if the naga and I do have a previous relationship and what type it is. I may find out soon.
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Had quite a bit happen when I awoke from my nap. The naga appeared and she was at first coiled our tails together. Seems I was in my naga form. Then she caressed my chest and back 1 of her hands on both. Then she coiled around me fully, our belly and chest pressed together. For a sort bit she did some sort of humming, vibration, of some sort that did help me to relax. She said this may cause some stuff to rise to the surface, but I could deal with it.
I then felt her doing some sort of something where she was reaching deep into me doing something. I was curious what she was doing and she said something about clearing out. Then I felt like my light body heart center was increasing in size. At first I couldn't tell what was going on. I did comment if I could really have as many beings I loved like Maribelle, Spitfire, twin flame and her. She said why not, I am a very loving being. Then she asked me to not talk since she needed to concentrate. I felt her doing what she had been doing before. It was like a tendral of energy or something was reaching deep into me. I felt my light body heart energy center grow larger still then it was like her's and mine both merged into one. She continued doing what she was doing for a bit. Then she stopped. Then we briefly kissed in human fashion. Then we touched cheeks for a bit. She showed me her form saying this is our true form. The snake form, with cobra hood and head, but with arms. She said I should go ahead and do the healing the inner child like I was planning on doing, but she said I would not need to listen to the audio. Then she left.
Then I called in Maribelle who briefly came. I was going to ask her what she thought of what happened but right off Maribelle said she was very happy it had finally happened. I did ask her if I could have this many mates & lovers and she said indeed, and it would not change our relationship at all. I touched my horn with hers, putting mine above hers since before she said that was traditional with her ? glory, blessing grove? forgot which she said, but she said it was traditional among her ?? for the male to put his horn above the female's. And as before when we touch horns we can feel each other's love and that it does go deep indeed. Maribelle said that it shows true mateship and we are soul mates. If our relationship was shallow or based on just sex only, then this would reveal it to both. She then left.
Next, no idea why I did this, I asked Sasha in, again no idea why it just sorta happened. I am guessing all this took place in some sort of personal space either inside me, or something, it was some sort of personal space I think. Again no idea why I asked or invited her in, it popped into my head. Maybe it was soul's idea.
Anyway when she saw me Sasha did a sort of gasp and said something like <you really are one of them> and started to bow, which to me felt totally wrong. I put a finger under her chin before she fully could and had raised her head so we were eye to eye. I don't recall the exact conversation, but I do recall in general I said that though I may be native to a higher dimension and or density, we are still equal beings. She said something about the elders had said that they (meaning nagas) wouldn't let them bow or worship them either when they would visit. She said they meant the bowing was just to show respect. I mentioned that we, she and I, are equal beings. I don't have access to my full soul memories or knowledge, which she said something about, most of my abilities are blocked, or are being blocked, forgot which she said. I then said that regardless, even if I were not incarnated and fully merged with the part of me not incarnated she and I would still be equal beings to me since, I said with a slight bit of humor, I bet there are some things you can do better and maybe know better then I do, even if I were not incarnated here.
Again no idea why I asked Shasha like that. Maybe it was soul's idea or something.
I also wonder, what sort of relationship could the naga and I have if what she was doing, clearing out stuff deep down, could cause my light body heart energy center to get larger then merge like that. She and Maribelle wouldn't say.
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I did the receiving and radiating love longer free meditation. early on I asked Spitfire how she was doing and she said great, she had had a pleasant morning flight.
During the mediation I could feel the love from the various sources. It flowed into me. My intention was for it to flow into not just my light body heart energy center, but also all my various bodies, physical, etheric, emotional, mental & light bodies, the as Orin said I had it radiate to my friends in rl and online, my mates, soul parents, lovers & mates I consciously know and others I may not know, others I know, neighbors, the earth grid, into the earth itself, ect. Just a summary of what I experienced. No need to go into super detail.
During the latter part of it Spitfire sent me a mental image of her flying over with some mountains not to far off, grassland type to one side & blow, an ocean below and to one side. I could feel the wind going over and a bit under her wings and body. she said something like I should join her in a flight. I said sure, I don't think a flying dolphin would attract much attention there and sent her a mental image of a dolphin flying in the air. She then giggled said something like, "no, silly." then after a bit, "you can become a pegasus if you wish." I feel this is what she meant by us flying together since I can look how I want. Though the imagry was silly, of a flying dolphin. ;)
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I do wonder what my relationship is with the naga, she's not saying, nor does anyone else seem to want to.
This afternoon I felt the urge to masturbate and she seemed to encourage me. It felt more then it usually does, like our energies were mixing or something. After a while she encouraged me to stop before I finished, saying something like what you started I'll finish. Oddly I didn't feel the need to anymore, sorta. Once I had stopped I noticed it felt like my Kundalini was surging , flowing fast. I'd not noticed it before, not had I noticed that it now felt like it was almost as wide as my body. As I ate if I paused to rest and close my eyes, I felt a sexual type pleasure, like I was having sex when I wasn't. it's centered on my kundalini area it seems and it does feel like it still is much wider then it was say an hour or 2 ago, almost as wide as my body. i do wonder what is going on and what her and my relationship is. Whatever process that is happening it feels normal, like it is supposed to happen. Even these waves of sexual pleasure I'm getting at times. The only tip I can get from her is once she briefly sent me a message of she's finishing what I started. It feels like I somehow know what she's doing, at least at times.
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I lay down to take a nap and it continued. It was like I could feel her masturbating. As if I were I were in her body as she was doing this. I could feel my kundalini responding as she did . It felt like my kundalini kept rushing & flowing faster, harder, like before, but it was also widening and kept till it got about as wide as my shoulders are. It felt like I was in her body and my physical body. I could feel the sensations. This continued till she stopped saying something like, "first our hearts became one. now our kundalini has. What you've started I've finished." Then she coiled around me hugging me with both her arms, her cheek touching mine. This was a me that was in whatever that private space place is I've been to before. She continued this embrace calling me dearest. Still no idea what happened, but while it was happening it felt right, like it was something normal that should happen, so I let it happen.
I did ask her what our relationship was, I still don't know. I think she said something like, "does it really matter dearest." or something like that with another embrace. Then I think I went to sleep. When I awoke I do have to admit I still have no idea what relationship that we have, but I do think I feel much better. More clear. hard to describe how I feel. I do think I can still feel her. Like we have some sort of special permanent connection. Our hearts are merged into 1 and our kundalini perhaps too.
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With the pod I feel they are somewhat mixed. Staying roughly balanced between tech and soul abilities being used. Density I'm not sure, the pod may be 6th and higher, but I'm not sure. Some of the pod may be incarnations and some may be soul beings, or full soul beings, whatever the term is. Or is it that the pod is both 6th dimension & density, or 6th dimension? Not sure.
It is density and dimension, which can confuse. For example earth is 4th dimension, but 3rd density.
The dimension I'm not sure about the ones i said above. I had a better feel for the density for some reason. Maybe density matters more the dimension, and the 2 do get blurred together.
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i think some of the fear I have been experiencing, very minor fear, has been pretty buried and or is bubbling up to the surface due to some of the energy work, merging and other stuff I've been doing. I'll resolve that. I'm sure I can get to where all the fear is gone. Though I think instead of digging for it I'll wait till some has bubbled to the surface, so to speak. After this is dealt with then I'll deal with the doubt. I think I may do the meditations healing the inner child today. I may do the aspect one, that the awaken the light body calls sub personalities today or tomorrow, and changing your thoughts I may do Wednesday. I may do a compromise and listen to 1 of those audios a day today through Wednesday, but I may also do all 3 meditations without listening to the audio, doing 2 of the other 2 I'm not listening to each day.
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I thought about my relationships with my 2 mates. Unless I have more then the 2 mates I know of, which is entirely possible. I may have a naga mate or something else perhaps.
With Maribelle the connection & sharing (sex) feels more gentle. Like when we have sex it may be slower, with some pausing to share affection and nuzzle. Though I may stay in her and lay on her back while pausing to share affection and nuzzle.
with Spitfire if feels more intense, the sharing affection and nuzzling happens say between the times when I'm thrusting till the sex act finishes. Though with both, we will show affection & nuzzle at times during the day, Maribelle and I touching horns too.
I'm not sure if the naga I encountered before is just a guide, or perhaps a lover and or mate. I do feel love radiating from her and feels like she's beside me now. Though mixed in with the love is diffidently sexual feelings, but it's say sorta more like with Maribelle, love with sexual feelings mixed in. Spitfire it's equal amounts of love/sex, feelings. hard to explain.
These are not just feelings I feel coming from those beings, but what I feel within myself as well. Feels like our feelings for each other match. This may be due to a link or bond we have, or it may be just normal for us and or for souls, or souls who are aware or something.
With twin flame it's a special relationship. love and sex is there. it is gentle type love with some sexual feelings there, but with most of the intensity dealt with with my embodying, incorporating more of my soul self and the veil being gone the overall intensity is mainly not there. Though I do feel when we get together to share, it would be a mix, some affectionate sex, mixed in with passionate intense type sex/sharing. So a blend of the various types. Which I feel to be normal for us.
If it is the same female naga I did have an encounter with her before, a sexual one. Though I don't recall the whole scene, just 4 or so seconds so maybe we were talking or something before and after that.
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I also feel with some the distinction between lover and mate can be very blurred, since one can flow from being close friends, lovers, to mates. And some, over time, as circumstances moods, ect. may flow between lovers and mates. Though with Maribelle I think our being mates is permanent. Same as me and Spitfire. Though time being non linear and us being immortal we can spend time apart being busy doing this or that. Being telepathic we can still talk. Like folks can talk on cell phones even though they are not physically together, send each other video, ect.
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Typed up last night: ? do I have a naga guide. she did say she was a guide and more. What could the more mean? Hmmm.
Is that her presence I was getting a bit tonight. If I go into a meditative trance I do feel a loving presence.
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I forgot to put the above into my post earlier. Now I can say, from my experience earlier today. I do feel that there is a relationship other then just her being my guide. I do feel love from her, but not just what love a guide would have for their pupils, charges, or whatever the term is, & like I said before I did feel some sexual feelings intermixed with the love and she did say when I asked if she was a guide, "and more." so those together have me thinking and feeling we may indeed be lovers or even mates.
Some may say it's against some sort of rules for guides. I feel the real thing is if there is a pre established relationship then it's ok. like if someone asks one of their mates or lovers who is an experienced guide if they would be a guide for them in an upcoming incarnation it would be ok. Though the guide has to be careful to not overwhelm or scare the incarnate if they just start the affection and sex like before. During a dream may be ok since the person may be aware then. if the veil is gone or gradually goes away then if both are willing it would be ok too.
In a case of where there is no previous relationship I think if true love develops between them then it may be ok too, especially if it starts during an incarnation, but makes no impact on their life, & continues to grow between incarnations and more.
Being immortal I can see souls having multiple mates, and with time being non linear for souls, unless they wish to experience it linearly, then can spend many hours together with each mate or multiple mates, just by popping around time wise.
I do wonder if the naga and I do have a previous relationship and what type it is. I may find out soon.
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Had quite a bit happen when I awoke from my nap. The naga appeared and she was at first coiled our tails together. Seems I was in my naga form. Then she caressed my chest and back 1 of her hands on both. Then she coiled around me fully, our belly and chest pressed together. For a sort bit she did some sort of humming, vibration, of some sort that did help me to relax. She said this may cause some stuff to rise to the surface, but I could deal with it.
I then felt her doing some sort of something where she was reaching deep into me doing something. I was curious what she was doing and she said something about clearing out. Then I felt like my light body heart center was increasing in size. At first I couldn't tell what was going on. I did comment if I could really have as many beings I loved like Maribelle, Spitfire, twin flame and her. She said why not, I am a very loving being. Then she asked me to not talk since she needed to concentrate. I felt her doing what she had been doing before. It was like a tendral of energy or something was reaching deep into me. I felt my light body heart energy center grow larger still then it was like her's and mine both merged into one. She continued doing what she was doing for a bit. Then she stopped. Then we briefly kissed in human fashion. Then we touched cheeks for a bit. She showed me her form saying this is our true form. The snake form, with cobra hood and head, but with arms. She said I should go ahead and do the healing the inner child like I was planning on doing, but she said I would not need to listen to the audio. Then she left.
Then I called in Maribelle who briefly came. I was going to ask her what she thought of what happened but right off Maribelle said she was very happy it had finally happened. I did ask her if I could have this many mates & lovers and she said indeed, and it would not change our relationship at all. I touched my horn with hers, putting mine above hers since before she said that was traditional with her ? glory, blessing grove? forgot which she said, but she said it was traditional among her ?? for the male to put his horn above the female's. And as before when we touch horns we can feel each other's love and that it does go deep indeed. Maribelle said that it shows true mateship and we are soul mates. If our relationship was shallow or based on just sex only, then this would reveal it to both. She then left.
Next, no idea why I did this, I asked Sasha in, again no idea why it just sorta happened. I am guessing all this took place in some sort of personal space either inside me, or something, it was some sort of personal space I think. Again no idea why I asked or invited her in, it popped into my head. Maybe it was soul's idea.
Anyway when she saw me Sasha did a sort of gasp and said something like <you really are one of them> and started to bow, which to me felt totally wrong. I put a finger under her chin before she fully could and had raised her head so we were eye to eye. I don't recall the exact conversation, but I do recall in general I said that though I may be native to a higher dimension and or density, we are still equal beings. She said something about the elders had said that they (meaning nagas) wouldn't let them bow or worship them either when they would visit. She said they meant the bowing was just to show respect. I mentioned that we, she and I, are equal beings. I don't have access to my full soul memories or knowledge, which she said something about, most of my abilities are blocked, or are being blocked, forgot which she said. I then said that regardless, even if I were not incarnated and fully merged with the part of me not incarnated she and I would still be equal beings to me since, I said with a slight bit of humor, I bet there are some things you can do better and maybe know better then I do, even if I were not incarnated here.
Again no idea why I asked Shasha like that. Maybe it was soul's idea or something.
I also wonder, what sort of relationship could the naga and I have if what she was doing, clearing out stuff deep down, could cause my light body heart energy center to get larger then merge like that. She and Maribelle wouldn't say.
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I did the receiving and radiating love longer free meditation. early on I asked Spitfire how she was doing and she said great, she had had a pleasant morning flight.
During the mediation I could feel the love from the various sources. It flowed into me. My intention was for it to flow into not just my light body heart energy center, but also all my various bodies, physical, etheric, emotional, mental & light bodies, the as Orin said I had it radiate to my friends in rl and online, my mates, soul parents, lovers & mates I consciously know and others I may not know, others I know, neighbors, the earth grid, into the earth itself, ect. Just a summary of what I experienced. No need to go into super detail.
During the latter part of it Spitfire sent me a mental image of her flying over with some mountains not to far off, grassland type to one side & blow, an ocean below and to one side. I could feel the wind going over and a bit under her wings and body. she said something like I should join her in a flight. I said sure, I don't think a flying dolphin would attract much attention there and sent her a mental image of a dolphin flying in the air. She then giggled said something like, "no, silly." then after a bit, "you can become a pegasus if you wish." I feel this is what she meant by us flying together since I can look how I want. Though the imagry was silly, of a flying dolphin. ;)
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I do wonder what my relationship is with the naga, she's not saying, nor does anyone else seem to want to.
This afternoon I felt the urge to masturbate and she seemed to encourage me. It felt more then it usually does, like our energies were mixing or something. After a while she encouraged me to stop before I finished, saying something like what you started I'll finish. Oddly I didn't feel the need to anymore, sorta. Once I had stopped I noticed it felt like my Kundalini was surging , flowing fast. I'd not noticed it before, not had I noticed that it now felt like it was almost as wide as my body. As I ate if I paused to rest and close my eyes, I felt a sexual type pleasure, like I was having sex when I wasn't. it's centered on my kundalini area it seems and it does feel like it still is much wider then it was say an hour or 2 ago, almost as wide as my body. i do wonder what is going on and what her and my relationship is. Whatever process that is happening it feels normal, like it is supposed to happen. Even these waves of sexual pleasure I'm getting at times. The only tip I can get from her is once she briefly sent me a message of she's finishing what I started. It feels like I somehow know what she's doing, at least at times.
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I lay down to take a nap and it continued. It was like I could feel her masturbating. As if I were I were in her body as she was doing this. I could feel my kundalini responding as she did . It felt like my kundalini kept rushing & flowing faster, harder, like before, but it was also widening and kept till it got about as wide as my shoulders are. It felt like I was in her body and my physical body. I could feel the sensations. This continued till she stopped saying something like, "first our hearts became one. now our kundalini has. What you've started I've finished." Then she coiled around me hugging me with both her arms, her cheek touching mine. This was a me that was in whatever that private space place is I've been to before. She continued this embrace calling me dearest. Still no idea what happened, but while it was happening it felt right, like it was something normal that should happen, so I let it happen.
I did ask her what our relationship was, I still don't know. I think she said something like, "does it really matter dearest." or something like that with another embrace. Then I think I went to sleep. When I awoke I do have to admit I still have no idea what relationship that we have, but I do think I feel much better. More clear. hard to describe how I feel. I do think I can still feel her. Like we have some sort of special permanent connection. Our hearts are merged into 1 and our kundalini perhaps too.
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