Through the day I did some affirmations on having faith and knowing my inner power as well as I always get what I need and want, that was to help with some doubt, fear and worry, rather than targeting those feelings directly.
I also did the a meditation for part 3, about changing your thoughts. I think I may do that meditation a few more times. It's a pretty long one at 30 minutes but seems like 4 minutes. When i did it I went pretty deep for part of the meditation. Not sure what was going on, but I asume some issues were being worked on that I'm not conscious of. I don't want to be clearing blockages forever and do hope to get this done soon. But it'll happen in it's due time.
the main keys I think to work on for myself is doubt, followed by fear, with worry being tied into those 2. Not that I have those emotions and thoughts to greatly. this feels like I've gotten say 80-90% done, and this is the bits left. not sure if that is normal or not.
I was thinking and I think that not liking how someone does something isn't a thing that is bad, or a thing you have to work on since everyone is in individual no matter how high you are, there'll be some folks you don't like the way they do certain things. I think the key is how you feel about the person at the core. Like the gm in The Thursday rpg group I rp in. I don't like how he does certain things. But I am not mad at him. At the core of it if I reach inside myself I do feel I love him as one soul to another, hard to explain that type of love. He is an individual and I won't like or agree with the way he does everything. But that is ok.
I wonder, if some of these blocks are hers if I should try to see what some of her issues are or just work on mine? I think I'll work on mine for now, doubt, worry, fear. Maybe like i did earlier, focus on believing and acknowledging my inner power, & that I do get what I need and want. That may undermine at least some doubt, fear and worry.
Though I do feel that unlike most here maybe, I do have a certain path so maybe soul, divine self, or whoever does what needs doing, may not allow me to say get a fancy sports car or get rich, since it's not part of the path, but some things may be ok. Not sure if it's cause I did get to be the rich type in a past life where I did a similar thing to here, & this one is having an enjoyable life with some fun with less funds available.
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I did the free meditation remove blockages. I think I may do this meditation at least once a day. it is only about 5 minutes so why not. I think I'll focus on doing just doubt till I think it's gone. I think by doing this, if I can resolve doubt, it'll undermine fear and worry. Though in a few days i may decide to start doing the meditation 3 times a day, 1 for each to see if that'll work.
I've noticed the blockages feel like they are in my upper abdominal area, and sorta feel like I've over exercised the muscles there. So I guess not major blockages since the pain is really minor and it does come and go.
Interestingly during it I felt like I switched between being me, the nagess, and who I guess is what Orin & Daben would call my divine self. A me that is higher up, so to speak, but still 1 with me and the nagi. Seems a female naga is a nagi or nagini. Think I'll use the term nagi, less letters.
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I had a brief conversation with Maribelle & Spitfire had a funny end to it.
I sent Maribelle & Spitfire a message with a mental image of us resting laying down on our bellies, asking if they'd like that. The idea and intent being once this incarnation is over how about us doing that at some point. It felt to me like they both liked the idea. I was between them. I didn't picture an exact place, the idea and intent being it could be a beach, or some other place.
The funny bit at the end that had me laughing and breaking contact was Spitfire saying, "the only problem is you figuring out which one of us you will mount first."
Struck me as very funny.
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Unrelated, but I think once I get done buying the light body courses I plan on purchasing I'll look over the non light body courses and see if any interest me.
Once that's all over I may get a Raspberry single board computer and see if I want to do stuff with that. Plenty of time to decide. I may do some slight research now and then to get more knowledge about it.
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