Ah, interesting Scarlett. Do you have any idea what it's like if one does go past the monad level?
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Had something happen last night. I awoke to a sense of someone standing
next to my bed and I felt anger. I think the anger was directed at me.
I thought of dealing with the being myself but since I had no idea
what to do I mentally called on Maribelle if she could come and deal
with this being. When I mentally decided to call in Maribelle to come
and deal with it it felt like the being knew that somehow and went off a
short distance, outside my apartment maybe. Then I thought to call in
the naga female, who is apparently my monad twin or twin ray or
whatever the term is. Then I thought to call in my twin flame and soul
as well. I asked if they could come and deal with the being make sure
it's gone and wouldn't return and if they could ask or arrange for some
protection or extra protection since I don't want to deal with such
beings nor do I want them anywhere near me since confronting them isn't
one of the reasons I'm here.
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This morning I awoke to feeling fine, the are felt fine. My throat felt a
bit dry, but my mouth & throat always feel dry when I awake. There
is a slight spot on the very top of my throat the has some slight discomfiture. My only theory for all this maybe while sleeping I open
my moth to be able to breath better maybe. Just a theory though.
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Once I was awake I asked Spitire how she was and she said she was doing
fine, had a great morning flight and she considered going for a swim but
didn't want to get her wings wet but she was considering going on one
that afternoon. I asked Maribelle and she said she was doing great and
thought the idea going for a swim sounded great since she's not done
that in a while. I suggested maybe they both could do that and Spitfire
could dry her wings by laying on a beach, some grasslands area or a
small hill or something and let the sun dry her wings. She seemed to
like that idea. So I guess I know what the 2 of them will do, whenever
it gets to be afternoon wherever they are.
The naga female I think is looking at a computer screen, a book or
something so I'll not disturb her. Just an mental impression I got.
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I am intrigued by what may lie above the monad level and what the experience is like. Very interesting I find it.
As for the shadowy entity and darker presences I know nothing of or about such things, nor how to deal with them so thought it best to ask Maribelle to come and deal with it. My assumption was she may have experience or training how to deal with them and or what to do.
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Concerning the more expensive light body courses. I picked out 4 I want to get, 3 of them I always wanted to get right after the awaken the light body course is finished. 3 of them are an unofficial course, or I think of them as that. They deal with intuition, higher mind, and blending with your higher self. The one I moved up to get just after them is awaken the light body expanded. Orin and Daben revisit the awaken the light body I guess and did more guided meditations for those. I did take 2 audio courses from what was going to be wave to and put them with the LB courses I plan on getting. The rest of what was going to be wave 2 I moved the bookmarks into the not good value for my money folder since looking at how much they cost, the number of meditations I got for that price compared to awaken the light body I deem not worth my money in comparison. The 2 I picked out are worth it from a pure money standpoint and what I get for my money, in number of guided meditations. So that'll save considerable money and time. I still plan on putting most of my spending money into getting future courses so I can get more and more ahead slowly. when I don't need to put the money aside for the dentist or stuff I need to get. But that is one of the 2 reasons when i finish a course I go back and re do it. But I've mentioned the 2 reasons before. I'm happy with the final ones I picked to get and the ones i picked to not get.
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I awoke to the feeling of energy surging in my abdominal area. I do wonder if the naga female is dissolving blocks or something. Or if it's just happening on it's own.
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It seems that perhaps she was indeed dissolving or clearing blockages since during the time I was doing the free 25 minute medication a new chapter in your life I did feel the energy streaming in my abdominal area and I felt like it was working on some blockages. I felt the need to move and jerk my legs some during part of the guided meditation and did so. It felt like some energy was going down my legs from my abdominal area. Then it felt like deeper blockages were worked on next. These it felt like, maybe 2 like before. Were either fully or partially dealt with then the streaming of energy stopped. Not sure if she's busy doing stuff. letting me or my energy systems, emotional and or mental body recover or she's waiting till I rest or meditate next before starting up again, or if it's a mix of these.
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As for the meditation it went very well. During it I realized that not only is my twin flame another me, as is my soul, but the naga female is also, and although we're all 1, the same being, we are also, each of us, individuals too. hard to explain. And this path I'm on is heading towards my blending with my divine self, which is the next step after this. There may be other steps past that, but I don't really need to know now. No need to know the steps for the next thousand or million years after all. And this is not only helping me, it's helping them as well. Since they are all at the same level I'm at and we're growing, merging, and ascending together. Embodying each other and realizing each of us is one, the same being, but also individuals. Me blending with my divine self is the next step, but plenty of time for that. This is a reunion currently between me & the naga female. I'm not sure what she is, the proper label, but this is a reunion for both of us, as I had gone through that with my twin flame, my soul now the naga female. This also not only helps each of us, but also our divine self too. As we grow, ect, upwards towards it, it grows and learns too. hard to put all the realizations I've had into words, but this is the closest I can at present.
I do feel I have some more blockages left. Seems like since she and I have become one, or as much as we can. 1 light body heart center, one kundalini and energy system. The energy is not my energy with some of hers, it's our energy combined into one now. And that does feel totally normal, how it should be. Like before when it was just my energy, that feels like it wasn't how it should have been. This feels normal and that feels now like it was abnormal.
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The 3rd free meditation in the love section went well. I do feel freer and like I'll receive what I want at the appropriate time, or even something better.
The 4th one radiating unconditional love went very well. I did feel the love within and all around me. My soul came in the form of an anthro dolphin and we spent the time in that mental space area kissing and in an embrace expressing our love for each other as well as me sending it to a person I picked from the Thursday rpg group that I thought could use some.
The next one self love went ok, not a lot to report or comment on here. Like with before I did feel energy streaming into my abdominal area and doing something there, with a very slight pain in a few spots, then streaming down my legs. I could somehow sense it was the naga female doing this. My guess is she may be clearing out some deep blockages or some deeply buried negative energy or something. & is using the fact I'm meditating as an opportunity to do this since I'm relaxed.
Now I think I'll get started on the next section of short meditations, Solar light. This one has only 2 short ones. The first one is Receiving Solar Light and it went Very well. All in all I think. I did feel the usual energy doing stuff in my abdominal area, slight pain in spots of my abdominal and 1 spot in my lower back and the energy streaming down my legs to my feet and out.
I think I'll do the rest of the free short meditations this afternoon. So that way I can finish them up. The next one is shower of light and I could feel each of the colors as they washed around me and as I breathed them in. Each color had a different subtle feel to it, hard to describe.
the next section is Soul contact and that has 3 in it. The first is Receiving Extra Energy. It went well. For the extra energy Picked out fiances, money, and abundance. I actually started o sleep pretty into medium trance by the time it was over. Think I did briefly. I wonder how it'll change things. I'm sure it will at the perfect time for me.
with Soul contact my soul appeared again as an anthro dolphin. First with the pillar of light I had it be a bit wider then my body instead of as wide as my spine. I could feel this light and the cocoon of light that formed. My soul appeared as a dolphin and we were again in a loving kiss and embrace the whole time able to feel and share each other's love. think I went to a medium meditative trance and the gift my soul gave me was a what looked like a patch or small square made of light..
The last of the short free meditations is Soul vision. This was about the 3rd eye, but instead of my 3rd eye I felt my unicorn horn, coming from the center of my forehead, and it is connected to my 6th light body energy center I could feel. The being of light that came to stimulate my 3rd eye sent the beam of energy through my horn, not my 3rd eye, down that into my 6th light body energy center. so all in all that went well I think.
I also did another one, the last of the long free meditations about the violet flame. I imagined it huge, the size of a 1 story building. While I was in it I could feel it's energy within my physical, etheric, emotional and mental bodies, transmuting and burning away the negative energy, doubts, fears, limited beliefs. Also I could feel it a lot more in my abdominal area and some slight pains there as well. I think it went very well and I do feel much better overall for doing it. I think I may do some of these meditations, the longer ones especially, without listening to the audio so I can pick the length of how long they should be.
I also realized that in the 12th meditation for part 4 that took place at the temple of masters, who the 3rd person was there. 1 was my unicorn mother, the other my dragon mother, and by mother I mean at the soul level. The 3rd, and I didn't recognize i at the time, as the naga female who's my monad twin or twin ray or whatever the term is. I guess that is why I saw the figure as both dolphin and yet also as a naga, more as a naga the a dolphin though.
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I had a brief conversation with the naga female. We were embraced and sharing love and affection. We talked about that we are indeed one being, but also individuals at the same time. The way we feel about each other now, nothing would ever change. She had indeed been at the temple, but had changed her gender and appearance and temporarily merged with her twin flame before then. Also that we do indeed enjoy sharing, including sex, as some would call it. Also we would indeed share often in the future. And we could have children, and may choose to do so. I wonder if we if they'd be aspects of the both of us, since we are 1. 2 different individuals of the same multidimensional being.
Ps: forgot till now something else that happened. During the conversation I found I could sorta slip in and be her looking at me to see how she sees me. What I got was she saw me as an attractive male naga, her other half. The male part of me. The other part of the being we were. A hot attractive male. Then I felt myself being turned on as a female. Though that made me turned on too. I felt her smile, knowing what I had done but not minding at all.
She then rubbed a certain spot under my jaw, which felt nice. She kept it up for a bit. I teasingly said to her, "if you keep that up I may fall in love with you." She said in reply, <to late. For you and me both.> She mentally smiled and kept up the rubbing the spot on my jaw with 1 finger for a short time before stopping.
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