Feels like I've had some more soul knowledge pop up. I think unicorns are spread across the densities. Though some groves have unicorns of mixed densities living together. nagas I'm not sure, they are above 4th density I think. Not sure how up though. Dragons I think have quite a few that are 4th, but obviously some are above 4th, since my dragon soul mother is a monad level being. Maybe dragons are mixed like unicorns when it comes to densities. Maybe younger ones are lower, say 4th and much older ones may be up to monad level or higher. Unicorns may be the same. Nagas I'm not sure if they are the same, if they use tech more or abilities more since I feel very few unicorns use technology, but are more into using soul level abilities instead. Not sure about dragons and nagas, they may be the same or maybe they may be mixed, when it comes to technology and soul abilities.
With the pod I feel they are somewhat mixed. Staying roughly balanced between tech and soul abilities being used. Density I'm not sure, the pod may be 6th and higher, but I'm not sure. Some of the pod may be incarnations and some may be soul beings, or full soul beings, whatever the term is. Or is it that the pod is both 6th dimension & density, or 6th dimension? Not sure.
It is density and dimension, which can confuse. For example earth is 4th dimension, but 3rd density.
The dimension I'm not sure about the ones i said above. I had a better feel for the density for some reason. Maybe density matters more the dimension, and the 2 do get blurred together.
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i think some of the fear I have been experiencing, very minor fear, has been pretty buried and or is bubbling up to the surface due to some of the energy work, merging and other stuff I've been doing. I'll resolve that. I'm sure I can get to where all the fear is gone. Though I think instead of digging for it I'll wait till some has bubbled to the surface, so to speak. After this is dealt with then I'll deal with the doubt. I think I may do the meditations healing the inner child today. I may do the aspect one, that the awaken the light body calls sub personalities today or tomorrow, and changing your thoughts I may do Wednesday. I may do a compromise and listen to 1 of those audios a day today through Wednesday, but I may also do all 3 meditations without listening to the audio, doing 2 of the other 2 I'm not listening to each day.
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I thought about my relationships with my 2 mates. Unless I have more then the 2 mates I know of, which is entirely possible. I may have a naga mate or something else perhaps.
With Maribelle the connection & sharing (sex) feels more gentle. Like when we have sex it may be slower, with some pausing to share affection and nuzzle. Though I may stay in her and lay on her back while pausing to share affection and nuzzle.
with Spitfire if feels more intense, the sharing affection and nuzzling happens say between the times when I'm thrusting till the sex act finishes. Though with both, we will show affection & nuzzle at times during the day, Maribelle and I touching horns too.
I'm not sure if the naga I encountered before is just a guide, or perhaps a lover and or mate. I do feel love radiating from her and feels like she's beside me now. Though mixed in with the love is diffidently sexual feelings, but it's say sorta more like with Maribelle, love with sexual feelings mixed in. Spitfire it's equal amounts of love/sex, feelings. hard to explain.
These are not just feelings I feel coming from those beings, but what I feel within myself as well. Feels like our feelings for each other match. This may be due to a link or bond we have, or it may be just normal for us and or for souls, or souls who are aware or something.
With twin flame it's a special relationship. love and sex is there. it is gentle type love with some sexual feelings there, but with most of the intensity dealt with with my embodying, incorporating more of my soul self and the veil being gone the overall intensity is mainly not there. Though I do feel when we get together to share, it would be a mix, some affectionate sex, mixed in with passionate intense type sex/sharing. So a blend of the various types. Which I feel to be normal for us.
If it is the same female naga I did have an encounter with her before, a sexual one. Though I don't recall the whole scene, just 4 or so seconds so maybe we were talking or something before and after that.
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I also feel with some the distinction between lover and mate can be very blurred, since one can flow from being close friends, lovers, to mates. And some, over time, as circumstances moods, ect. may flow between lovers and mates. Though with Maribelle I think our being mates is permanent. Same as me and Spitfire. Though time being non linear and us being immortal we can spend time apart being busy doing this or that. Being telepathic we can still talk. Like folks can talk on cell phones even though they are not physically together, send each other video, ect.
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Typed up last night: ? do I have a naga guide. she did say she was a guide and more. What could the more mean? Hmmm.
Is that her presence I was getting a bit tonight. If I go into a meditative trance I do feel a loving presence.
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I forgot to put the above into my post earlier. Now I can say, from my experience earlier today. I do feel that there is a relationship other then just her being my guide. I do feel love from her, but not just what love a guide would have for their pupils, charges, or whatever the term is, & like I said before I did feel some sexual feelings intermixed with the love and she did say when I asked if she was a guide, "and more." so those together have me thinking and feeling we may indeed be lovers or even mates.
Some may say it's against some sort of rules for guides. I feel the real thing is if there is a pre established relationship then it's ok. like if someone asks one of their mates or lovers who is an experienced guide if they would be a guide for them in an upcoming incarnation it would be ok. Though the guide has to be careful to not overwhelm or scare the incarnate if they just start the affection and sex like before. During a dream may be ok since the person may be aware then. if the veil is gone or gradually goes away then if both are willing it would be ok too.
In a case of where there is no previous relationship I think if true love develops between them then it may be ok too, especially if it starts during an incarnation, but makes no impact on their life, & continues to grow between incarnations and more.
Being immortal I can see souls having multiple mates, and with time being non linear for souls, unless they wish to experience it linearly, then can spend many hours together with each mate or multiple mates, just by popping around time wise.
I do wonder if the naga and I do have a previous relationship and what type it is. I may find out soon.
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Had quite a bit happen when I awoke from my nap. The naga appeared and she was at first coiled our tails together. Seems I was in my naga form. Then she caressed my chest and back 1 of her hands on both. Then she coiled around me fully, our belly and chest pressed together. For a sort bit she did some sort of humming, vibration, of some sort that did help me to relax. She said this may cause some stuff to rise to the surface, but I could deal with it.
I then felt her doing some sort of something where she was reaching deep into me doing something. I was curious what she was doing and she said something about clearing out. Then I felt like my light body heart center was increasing in size. At first I couldn't tell what was going on. I did comment if I could really have as many beings I loved like Maribelle, Spitfire, twin flame and her. She said why not, I am a very loving being. Then she asked me to not talk since she needed to concentrate. I felt her doing what she had been doing before. It was like a tendral of energy or something was reaching deep into me. I felt my light body heart energy center grow larger still then it was like her's and mine both merged into one. She continued doing what she was doing for a bit. Then she stopped. Then we briefly kissed in human fashion. Then we touched cheeks for a bit. She showed me her form saying this is our true form. The snake form, with cobra hood and head, but with arms. She said I should go ahead and do the healing the inner child like I was planning on doing, but she said I would not need to listen to the audio. Then she left.
Then I called in Maribelle who briefly came. I was going to ask her what she thought of what happened but right off Maribelle said she was very happy it had finally happened. I did ask her if I could have this many mates & lovers and she said indeed, and it would not change our relationship at all. I touched my horn with hers, putting mine above hers since before she said that was traditional with her ? glory, blessing grove? forgot which she said, but she said it was traditional among her ?? for the male to put his horn above the female's. And as before when we touch horns we can feel each other's love and that it does go deep indeed. Maribelle said that it shows true mateship and we are soul mates. If our relationship was shallow or based on just sex only, then this would reveal it to both. She then left.
Next, no idea why I did this, I asked Sasha in, again no idea why it just sorta happened. I am guessing all this took place in some sort of personal space either inside me, or something, it was some sort of personal space I think. Again no idea why I asked or invited her in, it popped into my head. Maybe it was soul's idea.
Anyway when she saw me Sasha did a sort of gasp and said something like <you really are one of them> and started to bow, which to me felt totally wrong. I put a finger under her chin before she fully could and had raised her head so we were eye to eye. I don't recall the exact conversation, but I do recall in general I said that though I may be native to a higher dimension and or density, we are still equal beings. She said something about the elders had said that they (meaning nagas) wouldn't let them bow or worship them either when they would visit. She said they meant the bowing was just to show respect. I mentioned that we, she and I, are equal beings. I don't have access to my full soul memories or knowledge, which she said something about, most of my abilities are blocked, or are being blocked, forgot which she said. I then said that regardless, even if I were not incarnated and fully merged with the part of me not incarnated she and I would still be equal beings to me since, I said with a slight bit of humor, I bet there are some things you can do better and maybe know better then I do, even if I were not incarnated here.
Again no idea why I asked Shasha like that. Maybe it was soul's idea or something.
I also wonder, what sort of relationship could the naga and I have if what she was doing, clearing out stuff deep down, could cause my light body heart energy center to get larger then merge like that. She and Maribelle wouldn't say.
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I did the receiving and radiating love longer free meditation. early on I asked Spitfire how she was doing and she said great, she had had a pleasant morning flight.
During the mediation I could feel the love from the various sources. It flowed into me. My intention was for it to flow into not just my light body heart energy center, but also all my various bodies, physical, etheric, emotional, mental & light bodies, the as Orin said I had it radiate to my friends in rl and online, my mates, soul parents, lovers & mates I consciously know and others I may not know, others I know, neighbors, the earth grid, into the earth itself, ect. Just a summary of what I experienced. No need to go into super detail.
During the latter part of it Spitfire sent me a mental image of her flying over with some mountains not to far off, grassland type to one side & blow, an ocean below and to one side. I could feel the wind going over and a bit under her wings and body. she said something like I should join her in a flight. I said sure, I don't think a flying dolphin would attract much attention there and sent her a mental image of a dolphin flying in the air. She then giggled said something like, "no, silly." then after a bit, "you can become a pegasus if you wish." I feel this is what she meant by us flying together since I can look how I want. Though the imagry was silly, of a flying dolphin. ;)
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I do wonder what my relationship is with the naga, she's not saying, nor does anyone else seem to want to.
This afternoon I felt the urge to masturbate and she seemed to encourage me. It felt more then it usually does, like our energies were mixing or something. After a while she encouraged me to stop before I finished, saying something like what you started I'll finish. Oddly I didn't feel the need to anymore, sorta. Once I had stopped I noticed it felt like my Kundalini was surging , flowing fast. I'd not noticed it before, not had I noticed that it now felt like it was almost as wide as my body. As I ate if I paused to rest and close my eyes, I felt a sexual type pleasure, like I was having sex when I wasn't. it's centered on my kundalini area it seems and it does feel like it still is much wider then it was say an hour or 2 ago, almost as wide as my body. i do wonder what is going on and what her and my relationship is. Whatever process that is happening it feels normal, like it is supposed to happen. Even these waves of sexual pleasure I'm getting at times. The only tip I can get from her is once she briefly sent me a message of she's finishing what I started. It feels like I somehow know what she's doing, at least at times.
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I lay down to take a nap and it continued. It was like I could feel her masturbating. As if I were I were in her body as she was doing this. I could feel my kundalini responding as she did . It felt like my kundalini kept rushing & flowing faster, harder, like before, but it was also widening and kept till it got about as wide as my shoulders are. It felt like I was in her body and my physical body. I could feel the sensations. This continued till she stopped saying something like, "first our hearts became one. now our kundalini has. What you've started I've finished." Then she coiled around me hugging me with both her arms, her cheek touching mine. This was a me that was in whatever that private space place is I've been to before. She continued this embrace calling me dearest. Still no idea what happened, but while it was happening it felt right, like it was something normal that should happen, so I let it happen.
I did ask her what our relationship was, I still don't know. I think she said something like, "does it really matter dearest." or something like that with another embrace. Then I think I went to sleep. When I awoke I do have to admit I still have no idea what relationship that we have, but I do think I feel much better. More clear. hard to describe how I feel. I do think I can still feel her. Like we have some sort of special permanent connection. Our hearts are merged into 1 and our kundalini perhaps too.
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