Thursday, September 3, 2015
81 FEATHERS, LUGIA [9-4]
ME: Hope you don't mind questions right off. Like Is there a reason for having kids with me like Gaia has wanted to do? I guess if there were any thing wrong with that or karmic that I'd have some sort of inner sense in that.
FEATHERS: Silly, you can't accumulate karma in any case, and in any case Gaia, at least the part of her that you are with at times, isn't incarnated in a human body in any case. The main reason, besides her feelings for you, is your a being of light, a pretty high one compared to the vast majority of the universe, but at present not as aware as we are here. Any offspring you have with her won't start with a blank slate like a human, and I must say how stupid such an idea is, in my opinion. But in any case, such a child would start aware and fairly advanced. Like pretty soon they can start to study what they want to learn to do, at least initially. Though some may wish to play around as kids for a while. Some beings enjoy that, some want to have access to their parent's accumulated wisdom, like you wanted, and bypass childhood, so to speak. but they can play later if they wish. Also it bypassess a lot of bother. I did that myself. many of us here do. Why live through all that nonsense when we can remember the wisdom and accumulated wisdom, and then get started on what we really want to do. Though there are some beings who absolutely love to incarnate, we, including you, are diffidently not among them. And as you've said, this was a wrap up for your incarnations. you only incarnated for specific missions, but even that was wearing thin, very thin I heard you say between your previous incarnation and this one. Thins one I'm surprised you took, considering how incarnating had lost all it's appeal, even though it was strictly for specific missions and that is it, no side stuff you needed to work on. I can't wait till you get back here fully. Though you will leave at times it'll not be to incarnate it'll just be to visit certain places, like your various lovers and such. totally different then incarnating. You can visit them for a few hours, days, ect, and visit here. Though it's more likely you'd live here, and visit there. Also visiting, once you're up to section 4 or 5, the various sections of the collective you can easily visit, as well as other places. Though You'd live here, in various sections, you do, or did, visit other places. Just this time once you return you won't be incarnating anymore. that is still your plan I can feel it. I just wish your incarnation would hurry up and be over so you can fully return here to be with us. A huge bother that it has to be approved by some, in my opinion, dim witted committee. but nothing I can do about that.
Me: I wish it were over too, but I guess we have to all wait till the next exit point is fully green lit, whoever that is.
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Me: I guess soon there'll not be much need for why I came here?
FEATHERS: well, there are others taking over what you started, they've been doing it for a while now and more and more are doing likewise. I'd think your incarnation would be ending soon, but how knows with those dweebs in charge of that. they are incredibly stupid and slow. Look what happened to the earth that was under their charge. Though i do hope they have learned from all the mistakes. and yet we still have to wait till they ok your exit point.
LUGIA: They do mean well, the poor dears. They were given custody of the earth and while they did make mistakes they did learn from the mistakes. While I do think the karmic, and certain other systems in place are stupid, and we did caution them against them, including You, well most of us here and other collective families, they learned from their mistakes, finally, and that is why they have asked for help.
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Me: So I'm really high enough to be a member of a collective family thing. Aren't you folks pretty high up?
FEATHERS: Some others would classify us as pretty high up yes. though it's not important what dimension you are from. Just fine a place to live that resonates with you. Live there, visit other places if you want.
LUGIA: indeed, if one goes by human classification then you are a high level being, higher then you believe or suspect. Not just anyone could undertake the mission you did, and you are totally succeeded my son, friend, lover, mate. But what Feathers says is true, it matters not if you are native to the 10th, or the 3rd dimension. one is not better then other. But you do like to go upwards rather then sideways. there are others who would rather go sideways, neither path is more correct then the other, same if some like to some of both. All are just as good as the other. Just pick what resonates with you best and that'll be perfect for you.
You are also much much older then you suspect my son.
FEATHERS: and how.
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Me: Still if I'm such a high level being why did I incarnate on the earth and why can't I recall any of you or more of my soul knowledge or memories?
LUGIA: You are higher then you suspect or belive. you are also very old, older then you suspect or believe. just have faith in both of these and relax and continue. It would such a being to do what you are doing and why you want to the earth to do that primary mission.
Me: maybe. I do have my doubts.
LUGIA: You should not have those doubts my son, belive what we've been saying. as for not recalling more of your soul knowledge and memories that is due to blocks and the fact you really couldn't recall all of it. You don't suspect how old, ancient you really are or how expansive your entire being really is, there is to much you to recall everything or fit into that body. you can recall some of it but it takes time. It is very dense there. You're not aware of how dense it is on the earth compared to what you are use to, the thinking and everything, so dense.
You've reached what humans would call the 9th dimension, or what I call section 3, upper section that is the very lowest we can be together. when the incarnation ends you'll be returning here fully and for good. Though you will visit other places and other collectives, other places being sections 2 and 3.
Another reason is the human brain is so very limited to what it can recall and it is very dense and slow, and very limited. It is like comparing a very slow calculator that can do a calculation every few minutes to a cray supercomputer. The blocks are not put there, they just exist with nothing that can be done about it.
me: I see, but I should go to bed, it is getting late and I am starting to feel a bit tired.
LUGIA: yes, good idea, we'll talk again soon my son.
FEATHERS: you better believe we'll talk. even though it'll be soon that you're going to be here fully I still can't wait till then.
Thursday [9-3]
I had 2 dreams that I recall from last night, no idea what either of them means.
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In the first one I was at an rpg group or something. 2 guys I knew from that said they were going to watch a firefly movie and they invited me. we got to the place with the movie was going to be shown and it was a while before it would start. I needed to go to the bathroom but the place didn't have one so I kept looking or one and oddly enough I had to travel down many hallways and turns and I would up back at home, but it was all empty. I went through the home to the place I live in back of the home & it looked to be in ruins with grass and plants growing, like it had been in ruins for a hundred years or something. I went behind a partly still existing wall and came out after to look around. Some guy was there and I asked what happened. He said after the son of the owners was killed in a car wreck the parents were heart broken and they just abandoned the place and died shortly after that. He then looked at me closer and said I looked familiar. I came up with a half lie and said I've been to the area before but didn't know the history of this place.
I left him and found it odd since this area behind the house looked to be in ruins, but the house itself looked like the folks had only maybe just left. So I went back through the back door and saw mom in the kitchen. I asked her what she saw out the back door and she said She could see my father there and waved to him.
I told her what I saw, the area in the back yard and where I lived was all in ruins and what the guy had told me. She thought I was kidding so I took her hand and asked her to come with me, maybe I could take her there. We both headed to the back door with me holding one of her hands and I stepped through the back door and it looked to be in ruins like before. She then jerked me back saying with some fear in her voice that the part of me that had gone through the back door had vanished and she managed to jerk me back. She said it all meant time is in flux. I'd have to move into the main house where she and Dad lived and I wasn't to go back to the 2 guys who were waiting since I'd just be caught up and end up in the car wreck and dieing.
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The 2nd one was shorter. and also grisly, ick.
Something about I was talking to some folks, noticed I had a flea and a tick on me. the flea I manged to kill using my fingernails, the tick was to hard to do that, so instead I took some scissors and cut it's head off. it then loosened it's grip and I knocked it to the ground. it grew to be several inches in diameter somehow. Someone said to get a hammer and I reversed the scissors and started to hit the dead tick with my scissors, no idea why I was. every time I hit it it sounded similar to hitting thick glass with a hammer, and it looked like it shattered more and more.
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No idea what the dreams may mean, all gibberish to me.
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I did the 3rd radiance meditation and the few light body energy centers that Daben did run wer a sensual pleasure. The main part of the meditation was on feeling first the Renawre cocoon, then the Fullonia cocoon. I could feel all of the Renawre cocoon and my physical body both at once, though with the Fullonia I wasn't able to feel both at once. I could feel my physical body and the energy of the Fullonia that is all around me, but not both the Fullonia cocoon and my physical body. Like maybe the Fullonia cocoon was to large for me to feel both it and my physical body both at once. Overall a very interesting guided meditation, very interesting. I could feel the Renawre Cocoon far better then I could before during the Awaken the Light Body course. The Fullonia energy around me I could feel better also. And while I could feel the Fullonia cocoon in it's totality, I could not do so and feel my physical body at the same time. Like maybe the Fullonia cocoon is to large for me to do both, or something. Not sure.
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Had a bit earlier where I sorta had sex with both Feathers & Gaia, not really, but the sharing of energies, some energies merging sorta sex thing hard to describe. and not as aware as I could be or as sensative since I'm in this human body. Never did that, 2 at the same time, though it did seem to work. Including holding both in my mind at once. Gaia was in her orca female form, or the mental image of her was.
Feathers said could do it. They both did some erotic talking
Gaia mentioned who wouldn't want to have sex or kids with such a high person as me, since she said was a star like person. No idea what she ment by that. During it she mentiones she'd like a son this time. I mentally shrugged and said sure why not if she's sure. My intuition was like if she is sure, then why not. I'm sure if it was wrong someone I'd feel that.
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I did the 3rd guided meditation that is part of Radiance: self exciting building the light body and it went great. I think I could feel the border of the Fullonia cocoon this time. I could diffidently feel the Renawre cocoon and my physical body. When I focused on the Fullonia cocoon I could feel that and my physical body. The Fullunia energy I could feel and it felt a bit different near where the Fullonia cocoon started. overall an interesting meditation and I did a bit better then the last time I did it. I do wonder what I'll be like during the 2nd pass, but that is for next month.
Gaia did pop up briefly with a female type insect being saying how about this one next time, or a raptor type, showing me a mental image of a raptor type being, not sure what she's up to. When i channel later I may ask about that.
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In the first one I was at an rpg group or something. 2 guys I knew from that said they were going to watch a firefly movie and they invited me. we got to the place with the movie was going to be shown and it was a while before it would start. I needed to go to the bathroom but the place didn't have one so I kept looking or one and oddly enough I had to travel down many hallways and turns and I would up back at home, but it was all empty. I went through the home to the place I live in back of the home & it looked to be in ruins with grass and plants growing, like it had been in ruins for a hundred years or something. I went behind a partly still existing wall and came out after to look around. Some guy was there and I asked what happened. He said after the son of the owners was killed in a car wreck the parents were heart broken and they just abandoned the place and died shortly after that. He then looked at me closer and said I looked familiar. I came up with a half lie and said I've been to the area before but didn't know the history of this place.
I left him and found it odd since this area behind the house looked to be in ruins, but the house itself looked like the folks had only maybe just left. So I went back through the back door and saw mom in the kitchen. I asked her what she saw out the back door and she said She could see my father there and waved to him.
I told her what I saw, the area in the back yard and where I lived was all in ruins and what the guy had told me. She thought I was kidding so I took her hand and asked her to come with me, maybe I could take her there. We both headed to the back door with me holding one of her hands and I stepped through the back door and it looked to be in ruins like before. She then jerked me back saying with some fear in her voice that the part of me that had gone through the back door had vanished and she managed to jerk me back. She said it all meant time is in flux. I'd have to move into the main house where she and Dad lived and I wasn't to go back to the 2 guys who were waiting since I'd just be caught up and end up in the car wreck and dieing.
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The 2nd one was shorter. and also grisly, ick.
Something about I was talking to some folks, noticed I had a flea and a tick on me. the flea I manged to kill using my fingernails, the tick was to hard to do that, so instead I took some scissors and cut it's head off. it then loosened it's grip and I knocked it to the ground. it grew to be several inches in diameter somehow. Someone said to get a hammer and I reversed the scissors and started to hit the dead tick with my scissors, no idea why I was. every time I hit it it sounded similar to hitting thick glass with a hammer, and it looked like it shattered more and more.
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No idea what the dreams may mean, all gibberish to me.
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I did the 3rd radiance meditation and the few light body energy centers that Daben did run wer a sensual pleasure. The main part of the meditation was on feeling first the Renawre cocoon, then the Fullonia cocoon. I could feel all of the Renawre cocoon and my physical body both at once, though with the Fullonia I wasn't able to feel both at once. I could feel my physical body and the energy of the Fullonia that is all around me, but not both the Fullonia cocoon and my physical body. Like maybe the Fullonia cocoon was to large for me to feel both it and my physical body both at once. Overall a very interesting guided meditation, very interesting. I could feel the Renawre Cocoon far better then I could before during the Awaken the Light Body course. The Fullonia energy around me I could feel better also. And while I could feel the Fullonia cocoon in it's totality, I could not do so and feel my physical body at the same time. Like maybe the Fullonia cocoon is to large for me to do both, or something. Not sure.
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Had a bit earlier where I sorta had sex with both Feathers & Gaia, not really, but the sharing of energies, some energies merging sorta sex thing hard to describe. and not as aware as I could be or as sensative since I'm in this human body. Never did that, 2 at the same time, though it did seem to work. Including holding both in my mind at once. Gaia was in her orca female form, or the mental image of her was.
Feathers said could do it. They both did some erotic talking
Gaia mentioned who wouldn't want to have sex or kids with such a high person as me, since she said was a star like person. No idea what she ment by that. During it she mentiones she'd like a son this time. I mentally shrugged and said sure why not if she's sure. My intuition was like if she is sure, then why not. I'm sure if it was wrong someone I'd feel that.
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I did the 3rd guided meditation that is part of Radiance: self exciting building the light body and it went great. I think I could feel the border of the Fullonia cocoon this time. I could diffidently feel the Renawre cocoon and my physical body. When I focused on the Fullonia cocoon I could feel that and my physical body. The Fullunia energy I could feel and it felt a bit different near where the Fullonia cocoon started. overall an interesting meditation and I did a bit better then the last time I did it. I do wonder what I'll be like during the 2nd pass, but that is for next month.
Gaia did pop up briefly with a female type insect being saying how about this one next time, or a raptor type, showing me a mental image of a raptor type being, not sure what she's up to. When i channel later I may ask about that.
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Wednesday, September 2, 2015
80 - ALL my Family I've met so far [Wed 9-2]
ME: Hello, hope you don't mind, whichever of you is present. Seems easy for me to channel a bunch of you at once.
FEATHERS: Well sexy, I'm always ready to talk to you, watch your streams, we don't mind you keeping pausing. That lifestream is fun, we'll watch it with you, plus your pausing often gives your forearms a chance to rest. and you've gotten to a new level of being, so channeling us like this is easy, Think of this as a sort of room we're in together that we link to your mind, or the part of you not incarnated and it can relay the message to you sexy, the exact details are unimportant.
ME: ok, thanks. Was that you what did that bit before while I was not quite asleep in my nap? where you had me sorta look into your eyes. Can't see you to well, I'm sure you don't mind. I did feel our energy, our being merge and for a bit couldn't tell which was me or you, it was us. was it like you mentioned, to show me how close we resonate?
FEATHERS: indeed sexy. it was to show that we can basically relax since we resonate so close our being can just flow together into 1, forming a combined being. But as I said to you, it is so much more fun like this, being 2 beings. Though like your former twin flame, I'd not mind spending some time merged with you.
ME: So you're not a higher reflection of her?
FEATHERS: No dear, she and I are different beings, just that we resonate with you so much, well in her case she merged with you fully. you and I can, but I prefer to have us like this. We can have so much more fun as separate beings like sex, or what humans would call sex. Though we will merge for periods of time. it is not not unusual for you to resonate that much with more then 1 being. You may find in time that Moondancer as you call her, may resonate with you that much, though you are at 2 totally different levels of awareness. At present. As for not seeing me, or us to well, well your clairvoyance I think the humans call it, isn't very well developed.
ME: I think you mentioned Fred as one I may resonate with. how about Karinus or others?
FATHERS: you already resonate with Karinus, maybe not as quite as with me, but you'll find out if you do or not soon. And Fred you both will find that you do resonate more then you think you do at present. You have to get to know each other a bit. You are both slightly shy, not from any blockages on your part, but a normal part of your personalities. a bit reserved.
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ME: Was that mom, or someone else, who gave me an example of what being formless is like? I liked it. I enjoyed being formless, but I recall thinking that I'd not give up visiting other areas, including section 2.
LUGIA: I knew you'd enjoy it dear, I'm glad you remembered some of it. and you would not be the first who is section 5 native, once you get there, who'll visit the other sections. Some do visit other sections, some do not. Some only visit areas of the collective, some do visit outside the collective too. I knew you would enjoy section 5 and you'll be there one day. it's a guarantee.
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ME: If I am no longer incarnating, and I hope I don't need to. Where will that leave me and Darius?
FEATHERS: You mean besides here with me where we can have all sorts of fun? and some other members of the family that you've met and some others you've not met yet.
LUGIA: Where would you want that to leave you? You don't have to part from each other just cause you don't want to incarnate. Many souls do love incarnating, part of that is since many do not consider non incarnating and the freedom that can give them. To do so much more with a personality who does not need to incarnate at all anymore.
Just cause you don't incarnate doesn't mean you have to end your partnership. And actually being partnered with a personality that not only doesn't incarnate but as high as you are, would give a soul unique experiences an incarnating soul would totally miss out on. and as has been mentioned before, while you are in the areas that don't need a soul or a soul can't go Darius can go to sleep, become dormant, go into stasis, something like that. Some don't mind waiting.
& as for needing to incarnate, no you don't need to. You bypassed the need to loooong ago. There are bylaws that protect you from accumulating karma. A set of bylaws that, as they put it, they put into the laws concerning the earth area, just to shut us up. and boy are they happy they did now, or some have told us. so many humans stuck in that karma. A sad thing, but things are changing now. and you're not the only one that thinks the karmic system is stupid, there are some, including some higher up then you let's say. But we'll be really happy to get you here.
As for why you can't remember us, well not much of you can fit into that, let's just all it an itty bitty body that a small piece of you are incarnated into. You recall some bits and pieces, but most of you can't fit into that itty bitty body and compared to how big all of you is, your current human body is itty bitty indeed.
Even Darius can only hold a small piece of you. Believe me. You are a large being. Not as big as me, of course, not yet anyway honey, but still large.
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ME: So what about the place I'm going to when this body dies, whenever that is?
FEATHERS: You'll like it. depending on how much growth you do go through, it can be upper section 3, or perhaps lower 4. Section 3, the upper levels have some stuff not to strange to what you are use to let's say. You can use your light body there, it is necessary. As for section 4, that is harder to explain.
LUGIA: yes, it is not formless, but not full form either. It's semi form or semi formless, depending where exactly you are. We think you'll like that. you're not one of the beings who wants to just remain in section 2 or 3 and that is it. You're one who'll like sections 3-5 the best, especially section 5 I do believe, but visiting 2 is something you'd do from time to time. I would say I think your favorite areas my be the upper section 3, and section 5. Section 4 less then the other two I mentioned, and section 2 will be from time to time, including if you have mates and lovers there. At least until they choose to evolve upwards, which many will do. Some like Moondancer I feel may choose to join our collective here, in time, in the distant future, from earth's perspective, but if not that is fine too. no hurry, when one is immortal and has literally forever.
FEATHERS: yes, forever for us to have lots of fun and pleasure together sexy. and not just the 2 of us either.
FRED: and for us to get better antiquated? I do feel a resonance between us and do feel we'll become good friends, lovers even.
FEATHERS: I bet more then lovers.
KARINUS: I second that. And for your blogs dear, just do our conversations as either 1 color or alternating color, to make it easier on yourself rather then assigning us each a different color. and yes, you'll love it being here with us dear. We are so happy to have you back here among us. Though we can't wait till you are really fully here among us once your incarnation ends, and your mission was a huge success, and the minor side missions too.
CETA: Hello sexy son. I second what Karinus said. Many of us are excited about you reaching our level and that you'll be returning home after a successful mission, many of us that you've not met yet. After all it's best you get to know a few of us, now, rather then having say 50 or 200 of us talking to you at once.
ME: that makes sense. So, what do you think of the Dolores Cannon books? I think they have interesting and valuable information, though I think there is some distortion also. Maybe conclusions, how she answers questions ect. though I'd guess I get some distortion also. Since I don't' feel we have to do Everything and return to source with our experiences to download it like to a computer.
CETA: very true and sadly there is almost always distortion, some more then others. Just use your intuition to pick out what resonates with you. The message has to go through the subconscious, even the method Dolores Cannon used, and she does come to some conclusions that are not correct. Though there are some souls and beings, personalities, that do literally want to experience everything. And there is no need to return to source to give your experiences to source. As you've posted once before, we are all source. So if you are watching the live stream you are watching as you type this Source is watching the live stream too. Those in the game playing it, Source is experiencing playing that game too. No need to return to source to do that.
There are some personalities and souls who do want to literally experience everything that there is to experience 3d, then and only then will they move on to 4d. and so on. Others like you wanted to move upwards. Though you have gone to 3d for a specific mission during this incarnation. But you'll return part of a totally successful mission.
Though she has helped many people and despite the distortions, really unavoidable where you are, her books and videos do have a lot of useful incarnation. But as with anything, use your intuition to pick out what resonates with you.
Go ahead and post this and rest for a while. I do think it's a long enough channel. We can continue if you want.
Wedensday [9-2]
It was difficult to awaken from my nap. I don't recall the dream at all. I even dozed off another 20 minutes after my nap. In this 20, or so minutes I was sleep I had someone, maybe me, tell me it was time to incorporate more of me into me. I had a sphere before me that looked very dark, not black but it looked virtually black. I was told to grasp it in my hands and just let it absorb that part of me into me at it's own rate and don't try to hurry the process along. I did so and seems to me I awoke shortly after this.
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I did the 2nd guided meditation that is of the Radiane: self exciting, building the light body, audio course and running the energies was sometimes pleasant and sometimes ok sligtly pleasant This meditation was mostly Daben talking and running the light body energy center energies. He skipped the Pieah. I am still not fully awake. The main part of the meditation from the title is mental fluidity, experiencing now. Though not fully awake and I did have stray thoughts pop up, I did find it much easier to focus on not having any thoughts for periods of time, even easier then lately when I do think to do that and do that. Maybe something in me is starting to shift. Even now after the meditation is over it feels easier to do this. overall a good meditation I'd say, though I wonder how It'll go later when I do it again and am awake. not sure why I'm not fully awake now, but no biggie.
I could feel the higher energy then I had been doing before when I ran the energies with Daben giving energy with his vocalization.
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Maribelle, Moondancer (Maribelle's mother who was called Belle) and I talked. Moondancer likes the new me better then the one she met, and she intends to keep with the idea of due to the change with me, she'll go with the name I picked out of the 2 names she gave me to choose between.
Maribelle is still a bit unsure but we both know there is love between us so she decided which I htink is a good idea of let's start as friends since we both know there is still love between us and see where it takes us over time, what it naturally grows and develops into, though both of us do feel we'll likely end up as lovers at least, maybe as mates again. But not like we have to rush into it. we have plenty of time to see where it takes us and what our love naturally grows into.
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I did the 2nd meditation for Radiance: Self Exciting for the 2nd time today and it went about the same as before. the energy was pleasurable to experience and feel. Things were pretty fluid and I think I know what Daben means by the fluidity of the mental and emotional energy bodies. and staying in the NOW is easier then before. Focusing on the present instead of letting thoughts run around. Easier then before. So I do understand what Daben meant by that too.
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I did the 2nd guided meditation that is of the Radiane: self exciting, building the light body, audio course and running the energies was sometimes pleasant and sometimes ok sligtly pleasant This meditation was mostly Daben talking and running the light body energy center energies. He skipped the Pieah. I am still not fully awake. The main part of the meditation from the title is mental fluidity, experiencing now. Though not fully awake and I did have stray thoughts pop up, I did find it much easier to focus on not having any thoughts for periods of time, even easier then lately when I do think to do that and do that. Maybe something in me is starting to shift. Even now after the meditation is over it feels easier to do this. overall a good meditation I'd say, though I wonder how It'll go later when I do it again and am awake. not sure why I'm not fully awake now, but no biggie.
I could feel the higher energy then I had been doing before when I ran the energies with Daben giving energy with his vocalization.
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Maribelle, Moondancer (Maribelle's mother who was called Belle) and I talked. Moondancer likes the new me better then the one she met, and she intends to keep with the idea of due to the change with me, she'll go with the name I picked out of the 2 names she gave me to choose between.
Maribelle is still a bit unsure but we both know there is love between us so she decided which I htink is a good idea of let's start as friends since we both know there is still love between us and see where it takes us over time, what it naturally grows and develops into, though both of us do feel we'll likely end up as lovers at least, maybe as mates again. But not like we have to rush into it. we have plenty of time to see where it takes us and what our love naturally grows into.
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I did the 2nd meditation for Radiance: Self Exciting for the 2nd time today and it went about the same as before. the energy was pleasurable to experience and feel. Things were pretty fluid and I think I know what Daben means by the fluidity of the mental and emotional energy bodies. and staying in the NOW is easier then before. Focusing on the present instead of letting thoughts run around. Easier then before. So I do understand what Daben meant by that too.
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Tuesday, September 1, 2015
79 Me Not Incarnated In Body [Tues 9-1]
Since I was talking to myself during an earlier light body guided meditation I thought why not try to channel myself. If I am really a multi dimensional being, I should be able to channel me, namely the part of me not in this body, assuming the folks I channeled are right and all of me can't fit into this body. I do feel like it'll work, like part of me is waiting to talk to me.
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Me: Anything you want to say?
Not Incarnated in body me (hereafter called NIIBM): indeed and it is me, or the other me. Not all of us, can fit into the body, we are to expansive, and also you can feel how I do love you indeed.
me: Say, if this works, does it mean that once we're back home, I hope in upper section 3) that we can hang out together, even have a but it fun sharing?
NIIBM: indeed, we can even indulge in a bit of spirit type sex. Even include Darius for a bit of 3way, though I'd prefer just the 2 of us usually. as we've been told, our relationship to ourselves does form a foundation and it is quite healthy really to love oneself as deeply as we do and do want to have what some would call sex, though sharing is better.
me: I look forward to that. maybe we can do some of that even before this incarnation ends.
NIIBM: indeed we can, but it's nothing compared to what it'll be like once we do go home after this incarnation ends, and at the moment we'd be upper 3 since we got high enough, aware enough, to fully join the family, collective. though if we do enough of the light body courses, who knows we may reach higher, even into 4. Though upper section 3 does have many layers or divisions, though they are not apparent like the floors of a building, but are very subtle. awareness levels, how far one has evolved. but still subtle.
me: Nice, so we have reached that high, nice. I never suspected the whole soul is a vehicle. I knew of collective consciousnesses and beings since that's been mentioned in some channelings I've seen or read.
NIIBM: I guess the the soul is a vehicle is pretty advanced and exactly how the collective being worked. Though we did know, through our soul knowledge that the collective wasn't that one looses one's own individuality, we've always known that one can be part of a collective, and also one will be an individual. instead of the distortions that say you give it up. That never did feel right. yet, funny thing, it never occured to us that the reason we knew that being part of a collective meant one would still be an individual and yet a part of a collective. It never occurred to us that maybe we knew was cause we were part of a collective. Interesting. as interesting as talking to ourselves like this.
me: So, we have become a monad and have an active light body?
NIIBM: indeed. We are a monad now, small by monad standards, but that is fine. by the time we get up to section 4 we may be larger. and anyway we're not the types to have 20 or 50 selves around, unlike others. the size of our monad is perfect for us just as we are, and we embodied the monad and light body both now. we are also diffidently section 3, upper 3, the bare edge of being in the collective, but that is enough to be a full member of our collective. The energy being merged into us is helping with that, our integration, clearing any blockages or anything else that needs clearing, smoothing, helping our integration into the collective much more smoothly, that sort of stuff and other things to help also.
me: I guess of our original mates we'll have very few of them, and of our true family, it seems Feathers likes us or his hot about us. Karinus still has the same feelings for us, but hir was a member of our true family before so that makes sense. Fred may like us also.
NIIBM: yes, shi is a member of our true family so hir feelings towards us wouldn't change. with Maribelle and Moondancer, and I do like Moondancer better then Moondust. I think between the 2, Moondancer is like half love and half sex. Maribelle is I'm sure still someone who does love us. maybe the same, maybe less then before. SHe may love us and the Kulstor soul equally. I think at the least she'll be someone we hang out with, talk, have some sex, so like a friend or occasional love, at the least. maybe a love mate, or a friend mate type of thing and her mother Moondancer, a lover mate. friend mate, and lover mate, assuming both decide they'll want to be mates. Most of the rest are confused, moved on, or love Kulstor and not the personality that was us, who has switched souls, and they may not understand the difference. We needed a bit of explaining and time to understand the new information.
me: So mate lover with Moondancer, and with her daughter Maribelle a friend mate maybe or friend lover?
NIIBM: That feels about right, but we'll talk to both of them tomorrow. No biggie, if one no longer resonates, best to move on and shrug your shoulders so to speak.
me: yes, though we are members of our collective, or more accurately we are aware of being members again, and we doubtlessly have lovers in them, close lovers in some cases like Feathers and others.
NIIBM: Indeed, very true. and some outside the collective too perhaps, love being what it is. True love should be allowed to flow free, not be ignored or controlled. THough we'll never incarnate again. We are past that. 1 mission then back home, that was that promise we were given and I, we expect them to uphold their promise.
Me: them, who them, our parents? How many parents do we have, I know of 3.
NIIBM: We may have more then 3 or just 3. let's wait and let time reveal the truth as we ascend higher, become more aware all around and so on.
Me: any clue on how long we may be here?
NIIBM: there are a bunch of exit points less then a decade. can't say more then that. plus doubt could keep us here longer. Believe me, I want to go home as much as you do.
me: Can you help with the doubt and stuff?
NIIBM: sure I can. if you feel doubt, talk to it, like you've been doing, saying how it's not right, switch it to a higher resonance, accept that it is present instead of ignoring it.
You are doing great, just relax, we don't need to be perfect. do with doubt and if worry comes up as you have been. they will soon go away. we, and others are helping with that. If you notice doubt adn worry actually pop up less and less.
me: Thanks. I'm sure we'll talk again.
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Me: Anything you want to say?
Not Incarnated in body me (hereafter called NIIBM): indeed and it is me, or the other me. Not all of us, can fit into the body, we are to expansive, and also you can feel how I do love you indeed.
me: Say, if this works, does it mean that once we're back home, I hope in upper section 3) that we can hang out together, even have a but it fun sharing?
NIIBM: indeed, we can even indulge in a bit of spirit type sex. Even include Darius for a bit of 3way, though I'd prefer just the 2 of us usually. as we've been told, our relationship to ourselves does form a foundation and it is quite healthy really to love oneself as deeply as we do and do want to have what some would call sex, though sharing is better.
me: I look forward to that. maybe we can do some of that even before this incarnation ends.
NIIBM: indeed we can, but it's nothing compared to what it'll be like once we do go home after this incarnation ends, and at the moment we'd be upper 3 since we got high enough, aware enough, to fully join the family, collective. though if we do enough of the light body courses, who knows we may reach higher, even into 4. Though upper section 3 does have many layers or divisions, though they are not apparent like the floors of a building, but are very subtle. awareness levels, how far one has evolved. but still subtle.
me: Nice, so we have reached that high, nice. I never suspected the whole soul is a vehicle. I knew of collective consciousnesses and beings since that's been mentioned in some channelings I've seen or read.
NIIBM: I guess the the soul is a vehicle is pretty advanced and exactly how the collective being worked. Though we did know, through our soul knowledge that the collective wasn't that one looses one's own individuality, we've always known that one can be part of a collective, and also one will be an individual. instead of the distortions that say you give it up. That never did feel right. yet, funny thing, it never occured to us that the reason we knew that being part of a collective meant one would still be an individual and yet a part of a collective. It never occurred to us that maybe we knew was cause we were part of a collective. Interesting. as interesting as talking to ourselves like this.
me: So, we have become a monad and have an active light body?
NIIBM: indeed. We are a monad now, small by monad standards, but that is fine. by the time we get up to section 4 we may be larger. and anyway we're not the types to have 20 or 50 selves around, unlike others. the size of our monad is perfect for us just as we are, and we embodied the monad and light body both now. we are also diffidently section 3, upper 3, the bare edge of being in the collective, but that is enough to be a full member of our collective. The energy being merged into us is helping with that, our integration, clearing any blockages or anything else that needs clearing, smoothing, helping our integration into the collective much more smoothly, that sort of stuff and other things to help also.
me: I guess of our original mates we'll have very few of them, and of our true family, it seems Feathers likes us or his hot about us. Karinus still has the same feelings for us, but hir was a member of our true family before so that makes sense. Fred may like us also.
NIIBM: yes, shi is a member of our true family so hir feelings towards us wouldn't change. with Maribelle and Moondancer, and I do like Moondancer better then Moondust. I think between the 2, Moondancer is like half love and half sex. Maribelle is I'm sure still someone who does love us. maybe the same, maybe less then before. SHe may love us and the Kulstor soul equally. I think at the least she'll be someone we hang out with, talk, have some sex, so like a friend or occasional love, at the least. maybe a love mate, or a friend mate type of thing and her mother Moondancer, a lover mate. friend mate, and lover mate, assuming both decide they'll want to be mates. Most of the rest are confused, moved on, or love Kulstor and not the personality that was us, who has switched souls, and they may not understand the difference. We needed a bit of explaining and time to understand the new information.
me: So mate lover with Moondancer, and with her daughter Maribelle a friend mate maybe or friend lover?
NIIBM: That feels about right, but we'll talk to both of them tomorrow. No biggie, if one no longer resonates, best to move on and shrug your shoulders so to speak.
me: yes, though we are members of our collective, or more accurately we are aware of being members again, and we doubtlessly have lovers in them, close lovers in some cases like Feathers and others.
NIIBM: Indeed, very true. and some outside the collective too perhaps, love being what it is. True love should be allowed to flow free, not be ignored or controlled. THough we'll never incarnate again. We are past that. 1 mission then back home, that was that promise we were given and I, we expect them to uphold their promise.
Me: them, who them, our parents? How many parents do we have, I know of 3.
NIIBM: We may have more then 3 or just 3. let's wait and let time reveal the truth as we ascend higher, become more aware all around and so on.
Me: any clue on how long we may be here?
NIIBM: there are a bunch of exit points less then a decade. can't say more then that. plus doubt could keep us here longer. Believe me, I want to go home as much as you do.
me: Can you help with the doubt and stuff?
NIIBM: sure I can. if you feel doubt, talk to it, like you've been doing, saying how it's not right, switch it to a higher resonance, accept that it is present instead of ignoring it.
You are doing great, just relax, we don't need to be perfect. do with doubt and if worry comes up as you have been. they will soon go away. we, and others are helping with that. If you notice doubt adn worry actually pop up less and less.
me: Thanks. I'm sure we'll talk again.
Tuesday 9-1
Yesterday I got some messages from my former twin flame/soul mate. From what she said the ones who merged with me are still here, but they are part of me and once I return home they can manifest and have their own bodies. Though they will remain part of me, they'lll also still have their own personalities also. She said think of my family like we are, like we are a microcosm of them.
I think I understand. I think I reached a level where I'm an oversoul and experiencing the other me's merging with me so though we are now 1, they also have their personalities too.
I also heard from some of my former mates that they still wish to be mates with me. Maribelle, I think her mother Belle maybe. I'm not sure on the details. I did channel them to get the details and to have a conversation with them.
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I had a dream during my nap. Don't recal much of it. From what I can recall of when I awoke it was some sort of showing me what formlessness is like, or something like that. An interesting experience. I do recall I enjoyed it, but also thinking that if I was native to there, say section 5, where it's formlessness, I would still visit the other sections 2-4. Some sections more then others.
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I also recalled when I channeled Darius, my soul, that his saying he sees no reason or problem with going to sleep or stasis for periods of time since this would give him a unique experience instead of if he left me and moved on to another personality since he knows I'd not just get up to say where I reach section 4 or 5 and give up on never leaving the collective. He knows I would visit other places, and after all I could also go to section 3, if for no other reason then to be with him.
But I was thinking earlier today. It's also a unique experience in another way, in that his personality, me, won't need to work on certain issues, or needs to incarnate to work on this or that. When I'm going around with Darius it's to visit say mates, lovers, friends, certain places and people Darius may want to go to to visit. and being mates, lovers with planetary and star beings, and other things if they are other beings beyond this. So from that perspective I can see that being a unique experience indeed. As well as Darius saying we do have an eternity, so there is really no hurry. Not like he needs to hurry and be active 24/7 constantly.
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I did the guided mediation that is the 1st one for Radiance: Self-exciting, building the light body and it was a sensual pleasure. At times bordering on a sexual type of pleasure. the energy for the lower centers felt like a mix of the regular energy and higher energy. For the Ranthia and Traeo (Daben didn't go past the Traeo) it felt like a very high energy I could barely feel. I could also feel some energy being streamed or merged into me, a small flow, some from what my intuition said was Thaniel's collective, but most from my collective. not a huge flow from both, but less of a flow. I guess to not interfere with what Daben was doing. Though most of it was just him talking since this was an intro. I do think once I finish this, solar light, Radiance & awaken the light body expanded, I may not do all of the meditations a 5th time when I do the courses all over again as one big course, like I did the 6 part awaken the light body. I think I"ll pick out my favorite meditations and do those, instead of everything. I'll pick out my favorites during the 2nd pass.
So overall an interesting meditation. I do think I'll do an idea I had, instead of doing a 2nd pass before I go on to the Solar Light course, my idea was, since the Solar Light is only 8 guided meditations, once I finish the 1st pas for this course, do the 1st pass of the Solar Light course, then do the 2nd pass of both. During the meditation I could also feel, I think, my inner light, or something, shining or felt like it was maybe.
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I read a bit from Dolores Cannon's Convoluted universe 4. & I can see some distortions in what the book. As I've been told, it's due to the conclusions she draws, how she asks some of the questions and I'd guess her belief systems too maybe. but my intuition is good enough that I can see the distortions. There is still interesting information there, like there was in the 3 waves of volunteers, despite some of the distortions. I guess some distortions are unavoidable here, more-so for some then others. My stuff may have some distortions, though I'm unaware of how much. Though I do try to have none whatsoever. maybe part of why a lot of what i get is vague in many areas. But that is ok.
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I did the 1st meditation of radiance: self exciting again and the meditation went ok. I did the relaxed mental thought and slipped pretty deep. I ended up talking to myself, only way I can explain it. From what I can recall, and I can only recall bits of it. and a bit with Feathers. Love is love, let true love flow, don't feel anything that could be bad about experiencing true love. and me talking to me. There are some areas I need to work on, doubt, mainly that comes up. This stuff I'm getting and happening is real. I really am a very high being of light. at the level of being a member of a collective. I did come here for 1 incarnation and mission, then it's back home. Though I have things to work on like doubts that come up, concerns come up now and then, don't get to worked up about it since I don't need to be perfect. Just shift out of that way of thinking. work on the few things I need to work on in a relaxed frame of mind.
Looking at it any doubts I have do come up less and less and there is less energy behind them or emotion. I do shift out of it when I think of it. countering and talking to the doubt when I do think of it. and I have come a VERY long way since I started the awaken the light body course. Imagine how farther I'll be in January.
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I think I understand. I think I reached a level where I'm an oversoul and experiencing the other me's merging with me so though we are now 1, they also have their personalities too.
I also heard from some of my former mates that they still wish to be mates with me. Maribelle, I think her mother Belle maybe. I'm not sure on the details. I did channel them to get the details and to have a conversation with them.
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I had a dream during my nap. Don't recal much of it. From what I can recall of when I awoke it was some sort of showing me what formlessness is like, or something like that. An interesting experience. I do recall I enjoyed it, but also thinking that if I was native to there, say section 5, where it's formlessness, I would still visit the other sections 2-4. Some sections more then others.
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I also recalled when I channeled Darius, my soul, that his saying he sees no reason or problem with going to sleep or stasis for periods of time since this would give him a unique experience instead of if he left me and moved on to another personality since he knows I'd not just get up to say where I reach section 4 or 5 and give up on never leaving the collective. He knows I would visit other places, and after all I could also go to section 3, if for no other reason then to be with him.
But I was thinking earlier today. It's also a unique experience in another way, in that his personality, me, won't need to work on certain issues, or needs to incarnate to work on this or that. When I'm going around with Darius it's to visit say mates, lovers, friends, certain places and people Darius may want to go to to visit. and being mates, lovers with planetary and star beings, and other things if they are other beings beyond this. So from that perspective I can see that being a unique experience indeed. As well as Darius saying we do have an eternity, so there is really no hurry. Not like he needs to hurry and be active 24/7 constantly.
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I did the guided mediation that is the 1st one for Radiance: Self-exciting, building the light body and it was a sensual pleasure. At times bordering on a sexual type of pleasure. the energy for the lower centers felt like a mix of the regular energy and higher energy. For the Ranthia and Traeo (Daben didn't go past the Traeo) it felt like a very high energy I could barely feel. I could also feel some energy being streamed or merged into me, a small flow, some from what my intuition said was Thaniel's collective, but most from my collective. not a huge flow from both, but less of a flow. I guess to not interfere with what Daben was doing. Though most of it was just him talking since this was an intro. I do think once I finish this, solar light, Radiance & awaken the light body expanded, I may not do all of the meditations a 5th time when I do the courses all over again as one big course, like I did the 6 part awaken the light body. I think I"ll pick out my favorite meditations and do those, instead of everything. I'll pick out my favorites during the 2nd pass.
So overall an interesting meditation. I do think I'll do an idea I had, instead of doing a 2nd pass before I go on to the Solar Light course, my idea was, since the Solar Light is only 8 guided meditations, once I finish the 1st pas for this course, do the 1st pass of the Solar Light course, then do the 2nd pass of both. During the meditation I could also feel, I think, my inner light, or something, shining or felt like it was maybe.
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I read a bit from Dolores Cannon's Convoluted universe 4. & I can see some distortions in what the book. As I've been told, it's due to the conclusions she draws, how she asks some of the questions and I'd guess her belief systems too maybe. but my intuition is good enough that I can see the distortions. There is still interesting information there, like there was in the 3 waves of volunteers, despite some of the distortions. I guess some distortions are unavoidable here, more-so for some then others. My stuff may have some distortions, though I'm unaware of how much. Though I do try to have none whatsoever. maybe part of why a lot of what i get is vague in many areas. But that is ok.
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I did the 1st meditation of radiance: self exciting again and the meditation went ok. I did the relaxed mental thought and slipped pretty deep. I ended up talking to myself, only way I can explain it. From what I can recall, and I can only recall bits of it. and a bit with Feathers. Love is love, let true love flow, don't feel anything that could be bad about experiencing true love. and me talking to me. There are some areas I need to work on, doubt, mainly that comes up. This stuff I'm getting and happening is real. I really am a very high being of light. at the level of being a member of a collective. I did come here for 1 incarnation and mission, then it's back home. Though I have things to work on like doubts that come up, concerns come up now and then, don't get to worked up about it since I don't need to be perfect. Just shift out of that way of thinking. work on the few things I need to work on in a relaxed frame of mind.
Looking at it any doubts I have do come up less and less and there is less energy behind them or emotion. I do shift out of it when I think of it. countering and talking to the doubt when I do think of it. and I have come a VERY long way since I started the awaken the light body course. Imagine how farther I'll be in January.
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78 Karinus [Tuesday 9-1 ]
Me: How are you doing?
Karinus: I'm doing fine. I just came by to talk to you a bit dude.
me: Glad you did, anything you wish to say?
Karinus: you should not doubt things, though you should not get worked over it. If you have a thought, switch out of it and to a positive feeling. Feeling is the key important thing, if you have stray thought of doubting if you really are as high of a being that you are. a stray thought is ok, the key is how you react to it. if you switch out of it and do not really believe it, and emphasis that you are as high of a being as we are saying, that is better. They key is what do you really believe and what do you put your emotions into. You'll notice such thoughts come less then they use to before. This is normal and another sign of how much progress you have made.
me: So do you have such thoughts, or thoughts along those lines?
Karinus: thoughts are normal to have, I have thoughts, we all do. One of us may have a stray thought. that's normal. especially where you are where it is very dense and you may pick up stray energy or from someone near you.
Me: Thanks, that's a big relief.
Karinus: yes, relax. you don't have to be perfect. You've reached our level, the lowest levels where you can be with us and us with you, especially when this incarnation ends. keep doing as you are planning to do with the audio courses and the books. also try to relax. you don't need to be perfect all the time. Thoughts are things that do happen. the key is emotion and what do you believe. Belive you are a high being of light, that you have reached us you WILL be with us once your incarnation ends. Fully with us here. The upper section 3, as Lugia calls it, is us, the lowest levels are still us, you are a full member and are that high. though the upper section 3 does overlap with the mid section 3 of folks who want to join us but are not ready yet.
You are not reaching us for the first time, you are returning to us. That is a big difference. I may be over emphasizing a few things, but just want to get across.
me: Thanks. I can be more relaxed. I thought I'd have to be this way constantly.
Karinus: No way dude. we all have thoughts, minor off days. No one needs to be perfect all the time. They key is belief and overall belief and emotion. if you are the way you are currently, then that is normal. No need for you to be perfect dude. We all have thoughts, feelings, nothing like on such a dense place as earth, wow. I never could incarnate there. You dude are braver then I am, and your mission is a total 100% success, believe me in this.
Me: Thanks. It means a lot to me. Anything else you'd like to say?
Karinus: dude, you are a beautiful being. I say that not only due to my feelings for you, but because of your energy, literally. If you could see the light you are shining out. you are a beautiful being of light, shining out, the way your energy looks.
Karinus: I'm doing fine. I just came by to talk to you a bit dude.
me: Glad you did, anything you wish to say?
Karinus: you should not doubt things, though you should not get worked over it. If you have a thought, switch out of it and to a positive feeling. Feeling is the key important thing, if you have stray thought of doubting if you really are as high of a being that you are. a stray thought is ok, the key is how you react to it. if you switch out of it and do not really believe it, and emphasis that you are as high of a being as we are saying, that is better. They key is what do you really believe and what do you put your emotions into. You'll notice such thoughts come less then they use to before. This is normal and another sign of how much progress you have made.
me: So do you have such thoughts, or thoughts along those lines?
Karinus: thoughts are normal to have, I have thoughts, we all do. One of us may have a stray thought. that's normal. especially where you are where it is very dense and you may pick up stray energy or from someone near you.
Me: Thanks, that's a big relief.
Karinus: yes, relax. you don't have to be perfect. You've reached our level, the lowest levels where you can be with us and us with you, especially when this incarnation ends. keep doing as you are planning to do with the audio courses and the books. also try to relax. you don't need to be perfect all the time. Thoughts are things that do happen. the key is emotion and what do you believe. Belive you are a high being of light, that you have reached us you WILL be with us once your incarnation ends. Fully with us here. The upper section 3, as Lugia calls it, is us, the lowest levels are still us, you are a full member and are that high. though the upper section 3 does overlap with the mid section 3 of folks who want to join us but are not ready yet.
You are not reaching us for the first time, you are returning to us. That is a big difference. I may be over emphasizing a few things, but just want to get across.
me: Thanks. I can be more relaxed. I thought I'd have to be this way constantly.
Karinus: No way dude. we all have thoughts, minor off days. No one needs to be perfect all the time. They key is belief and overall belief and emotion. if you are the way you are currently, then that is normal. No need for you to be perfect dude. We all have thoughts, feelings, nothing like on such a dense place as earth, wow. I never could incarnate there. You dude are braver then I am, and your mission is a total 100% success, believe me in this.
Me: Thanks. It means a lot to me. Anything else you'd like to say?
Karinus: dude, you are a beautiful being. I say that not only due to my feelings for you, but because of your energy, literally. If you could see the light you are shining out. you are a beautiful being of light, shining out, the way your energy looks.
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