Thursday, September 3, 2015

Thursday [9-3]

I had 2 dreams that I recall from last night, no idea what either of them means.

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In the first one I was at an rpg group or something. 2 guys I knew from that said they were going to watch a firefly movie and they invited me. we got to the place with the movie was going to be shown and it was a while before it would start. I needed to go to the bathroom but the place didn't have one so I kept looking or one and oddly enough I had to travel down many hallways and turns and I would up back at home, but it was all empty. I went through the home to the place I live in back of the home & it looked to be in ruins with grass and plants growing, like it had been in ruins for a hundred years or something. I went behind a partly still existing wall and came out after to look around. Some guy was there and I asked what happened. He said after the son of the owners was killed in a car wreck the parents were heart broken and they just abandoned the place and died shortly after that. He then looked at me closer and said I looked familiar. I came up with a half lie and said I've been to the area before but didn't know the history of this place.

I left him and found it odd since this area behind the house looked to be in ruins, but the house itself looked like the folks had only maybe just left. So I went back through the back door and saw mom in the kitchen. I asked her what she saw out the back door and she said She could see my father there and waved to him.

I told her what I saw, the area in the back yard and where I lived was all in ruins and what the guy had told me. She thought I was kidding so I took her hand and asked her to come with me, maybe I could take her there. We both headed to the back door with me holding one of her hands and I stepped through the back door and it looked to be in ruins like before. She then jerked me back saying with some fear in her voice that the part of me that had gone through the back door had vanished and she managed to jerk me back. She said it all meant time is in flux. I'd have to move into the main house where she and Dad lived and I wasn't to go back to the 2 guys who were waiting since I'd just be caught up and end up in the car wreck and dieing.

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The 2nd one was shorter. and also grisly, ick.

Something about I was talking to some folks, noticed I had a flea and a tick on me. the flea I manged to kill using my fingernails, the tick was to hard to do that, so instead I took some scissors and cut it's head off. it then loosened it's grip and I knocked it to the ground. it grew to be several inches in diameter somehow. Someone said to get a hammer and I reversed the scissors and started to hit the dead tick with my scissors, no idea why I was. every time I hit it it sounded similar to hitting thick glass with a hammer, and it looked like it shattered more and more.

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No idea what the dreams may mean, all gibberish to me.

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I did the 3rd radiance meditation and the few light body energy centers that Daben did run wer a sensual pleasure.  The main part of the meditation was on feeling first the Renawre cocoon, then the Fullonia cocoon.  I could feel all of the Renawre cocoon and my physical body both at once, though with the Fullonia I wasn't able to feel both at once.  I could feel my physical body and the energy of the Fullonia that is all around me, but not both the Fullonia cocoon and my physical body.  Like maybe the Fullonia cocoon was to large for me to feel both it and my physical body both at once.  Overall a very interesting guided meditation, very interesting.  I could feel the Renawre Cocoon far better then I could before during the Awaken the Light Body course.  The Fullonia energy around me I could feel better also.  And while I could feel the Fullonia cocoon in it's totality, I could not do so and feel my physical body at the same time.  Like maybe the Fullonia cocoon is to large for me to do both, or something.  Not sure.

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Had a bit earlier where I sorta had sex with both Feathers & Gaia, not really, but the sharing of energies, some energies merging sorta sex thing  hard to describe.  and not as aware as I could be or as sensative since I'm in this human body. Never did that, 2 at the same time, though it did seem to work.  Including holding both in my mind at once.  Gaia was in her orca female form, or the mental image of her was.

Feathers said could do it.  They both did some erotic talking

Gaia mentioned who wouldn't want to have sex or kids with such a high person as me, since she said was a star like person. No idea what she ment by that.  During it she mentiones she'd like a son this time.  I mentally shrugged and said sure why not if she's sure.  My intuition was like if she is sure, then why not.  I'm sure if it was wrong someone I'd feel that. 

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I did the 3rd guided meditation that is part of Radiance: self exciting building the light body and it went great. I think I could feel the border of the Fullonia cocoon this time. I could diffidently feel the Renawre cocoon and my physical body.  When I focused on the Fullonia cocoon I could feel that and my physical body. The Fullunia energy I could feel and it felt a bit different near where the Fullonia cocoon started.  overall an interesting meditation and I did a bit better then the last time I did it. I do wonder what I'll be like during the 2nd pass, but that is for next month. 

Gaia did pop up briefly with a female type insect being saying how about this one next time, or a raptor type, showing me a mental image of a raptor type being, not sure what she's up to.   When i channel later I may ask about that.

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