I had an interesting experience last night. I had a female being come to me. The impression I got was that she was a female, an immense snake type being. But also I felt how she was my mother, mate and lover.
"Greetings, you may call me Lugia, please write it down so you'll remember it." she bugged me till i did so. i was unsure of what I was feeling about her so instead of forming a question I just sent the concept of my feelings to her with the intent of a question since in my experience and soul knowledge one doesn't have to send words with telepathy or however we are communicating.
"the idea it is not proper for me to be your mother and us to be also mates and lovers, and yes we are all 3 my son, lover and mate. We will talk more later, I am very proud of you my son, mate and lover."
She then left
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a few minutes, or maybe 5 minutes later I felt a male presense being pop up.
yes? i ask.
Him: "your soul name was Kulstor, it is now Darius, prince Darius to be exact. I'm here to merge with you and this is the proper time. "
me: "you mean like Alura? "
Him: "yes, like Alura."
me: "were you sent by one of my fathers or something? "
Him: "your soul parents may not be the ones you think they are. This merging will help with your current growth and transition. It may take a few days for the changes to fully assemulate, or at least as far as you are consciously aware of. Now relax the time as come."
He them merged with me, an interesting feeling. I went to sleep shortly after this but I had the idea of nagia as a name, no idea why.
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As I was typing up the last paragraph or 2, I had my soul father, or one of them, popped up. I'lll put it up in my channeling thing later. I did feel the same he's my father but sexual and love feelings, maybe I'm lovers with him too.
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2 experiences to write about here before I decide if I want to do a guided meditation or not. I finished redoing the whole 6 part of awaken the light body yesterday. My original idea was to during these 4 days I'll do the meditations I picked out that I want to redo. an idea I got yesterday was maybe instead I'll try channeling a lot during this time. I think I'll do a mix of these.
These happened either during my nap or as I was awake, hard to day. it seems as I was awoken but asleep, hard to explain.
anyway the first thing was I felt odd. I got the idea of was there being energy being streamed to me. I relaxed and did relaxed mental thinking then after a few seconds I felt a high order energy being streamed to and into me.
The 2nd was like a dream. In the dream I was walking down a street and going beside me was a large being, which in the dream was like a city bus. we were going along and then there was a car in the street and the bus stopped behind it and I continued walking along. I then got a poof of soul knowledge.
Basically it was what was meant by soul colors in what they said to Scarlet was, there are certain traits, characteristics and each one could be said to have a different color based on the level of development within the individual. So if one could see this one may have a number of colors within themselves.
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Had some soul knowledge come up consciously before I was going to do the meditation.
Lugia: her species could be said to be the progenitor reptilian that all reptilians and those descended from reptilians are descended from, avians came from dinosaurs who came from reptilians. dragons, nagas, alpha draconians, and likely others. her species is the progenitor species. Not sure if she is the progenitor personally but her species is. Hope what I'm typing makes sense, it does to me. I also wonder if this includes mammals since they came from synapsids, a type of reptilian. at least assuming evolution elsewhere is similar to earth evolution and such. Though I suspect in some worlds mammals never evolved, on others maybe only insects evolved, maybe on another avians never did, that sort of thing.
Ceta: from him I feel progenitor cetacean and maybe insect. he could be a son of parents who are a progenitor cetacean and one who's progenitor insect. maybe a progenitor mammalian and he was given cetacean progenitor from one parent and the insect progenitor from his other parent.
not sure how this exactly works. I suspect if I really wanted to learn it it could lead to very complicated explanations. So that would mean from them and my unicorn mother I would have progenitor reptilian, cetacean, insect, as well as being a unicorn Still quite a mix. and maybe that is where the prince or imperial prince comes from, and or there may be more to it then that. I'm sure I'll earn in time.
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Not sure what part this is from, It is the 9th guided meditation. Running the energies was a sensual pleasure. The main part of the meditation was feeling the different frequencies, which I could feel. The Ranthia at one point I could feel such a deep level and many frequencies of love it brought tears to my eyes. All in all a great meditation. Glad I picked it as one of the ones to maybe do over the next 4 days.
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I felt the 6 of us, me, Fred, Karinus, Feathers, Ceta, & Lugia, sharing energy. It was like a orgasmic high, but sustained at that high, and the energy came in waves that had a peak and a lower point, but the orgasmic high point continued, what cme in waves was the amount of energy. It did feel like it was dieing down after a while. Towards the end Ceta said for me to go ahead and do a physical release since that would help to integrate their energy faster and more of it. I did and afterwards I can feel some of the combined energy within me. I'm sure after a while I'll be fully integrated to where it'll be just my energy. Great experience, I do hope we do more of this in the future.
I feel at part of the purpose was not just for the fun and enjoyable pleasurable sensations, but also to help with our resonance with each other. It may have had other effects with me, maybe some clearing if I needed it, no idea if I do. As well as other things also like energy integration, maybe so more of me can be here. Not sure, maybe other things also. I'll not try to question it but just go with the flow, that is the easiest, though I will try to satisfy at least some of my curiosity also.
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With the former Thursday afternoon group moving to Friday nights, not sure if the Gm will still want me in the group since I have to leave early. I can see how he would rather not have a player who has to keep leaving early every session since that would be annoying. If so that is ok. It'll be for my greater good. Time for me to move on is what I'll take it as a sign. They are not anywhere where I am, they are all asleep, and that is fine since that is perfect for them.
Think if so I'll take a few months off from gaming. Decide what systems I'd want to play and if I want to. the thing is otherwise I won't be getting out at all. I do want to get out at least once a week or month to do something with some folks. I would look at other options.
I think I may take some months off. I would also look at the option of the Unlimited Thought bookstore. It's a new age bookstore that does stuff. they do have a free new age fair once a month. I've gone once and didn't turn out super, but I'd give that another try, as long as the weather is nice, as well as looking at the newsletter to see if there is anything free or low cost that meets on weekends I could try. Since getting home weekday nights is to much of a hassle when the buses stop and the majority of events end. So that is out.
Most of what they do doesn't really interest me. Though at what levels I'm operating finding something at my level would be hard to do. But that is ok. I'm glad there is such a bookstore around. they may have a lot of tarot stuff and basic stuff, but there is at least a place for such folks to meet and do stuff together, which is great.
Plus if I say I won't start looking for a rpg group till March will give me a chance to see if I really want to do rping anymore or focus on just new age, and I'd rather do that.
As for if I do I may pick the rpg systems of savage worlds, 5th edition D & D, with pathfinder being a fallback.
But first I would wait to hear back from the gm.
If it doesn't work out, I would take the rest of the year off. Write down what do I want to do, just write down what comes to me, or type it up into a notepad file. then narrow it down to what I really want and see if I can find something like that nearby. I do hope it doesn't' result in me being a total hermit like i use to be, going out to a few stores that are a 20 minute walk as my only time getting out and that isn't really being with people. but if so oh well. Though there is the illumine dharma group that meets a few times a year. Well I joined in late Febuary or early March and they have met about twice since I joined 6 months ago.
Friday, August 28, 2015
Thursday, August 27, 2015
67 FEATHERS, KARINUS, & FRED [Thurs 8-28]
I am watching a let's play stream and I mentally felt Karinus appear, and sorta like before I was kinda in 2 places, watching the stream and with Karinus. I felt hir take my penis and slide down onto it slowly. While I could feel it, I could not feel it as much as with Feathers before since, I guess, I was at the time watching the stream at the same time. Shi slid down my penis till shi was sitting in my lap with all of my penis inside hir.
Karinus: Ah, dude, you don't know how long I missed that. Just watch the stream, I don't mind. You're distracted but go ahead and watch it, that's fine. I really don't mind dude.
I could feel a very deep shared love, like Feathers and I share, along with our energies flowing together, energies, love, sexual energies.
Me: ok, as long as you don't mind.
Then I saw Feathers come up behind me.
Feathers: Can another join this party?
She grew or manifested a penis and slid it into my ass pulling me down onto her, while Karinus was sitting in my lap with my penis inside hir slit.
Feathers: there, just relax, sit in my lap. Now, that feels good doesn't it. Continue to watch your stream dear, we don't mind dear, we really don't. Go ahead and watch it.
I could feel the 3 of our energies flowing together, sexual energies, our shared love that came from deep, and not so deep. Though since I'm watching the stream I don't feel it very much. I do go ahead and watch the stream since both of them said they don't mind and I feel they are being truthful.
Feathers: There, isn't that better, 3 of us. <I feel her smiling>.
Karinus: yea dude feels much better doesn't it, more fun. While I usually prefer 2's. 3's or more can be lots of fun too. You'll experience more of this dude once you're here, believe me. My preference for 2 or more depends on my mood. 3 or more can be... lots of fun, cause us to be closer. very, intimate. hard to describe.
Feathers: yes sexy, or sexy lovers. To put it mildly. mmmmm, yea.
us sharing energies feels faint to me. When I close my eyes briefly it increases and I can feel some of the love we share, and when I do that and meditate briefly it increases more and I can feel the sexual type energies and the deep love we share.
Feathers: yes, that feels nice doesn't it. This is just a sample of the fun we'll experience once you're here with us.
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Me: I read where Scarlet channeled a question or 2 for me. What is meant by my true family, you folks, The Misfits?
Feathers: In part, but he meant others too. I don't want to spoil the surprise, and to make it easier on you lover, just color both my and Karinus's dialog blue. you do put our names in front of the dialog so that should be enough.
Karinus: I guarantee you'll love it dude. but I don't want to spoil the surprise either. You've grown so much in the past month alone, even more over the past year, wow. I was looking in on you from time to time, but it wasn't the right time to contact you till when I did.
Me: thanks, I guess that surprise will have to wait. is The Misfits a large group, or are you not going to tell me the full size?
Feathers: well, that'll have to remain a surprise. You have the 3 of us. I've mentioned Shades and there's Fred, as the one you call the tentacled being said you can call him. So there may be more then 5, but I want to keep that as a surprise too. You'll get and be in for a huge surprise once are here and we have a welcome home party for you.
Karinus: Yea, totally dude. <here I have a mental picture of Karinus giving me a thumbs up>.
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me: Colorful soul lineage, Rich and colorful soul history? what is meant by that.
Karinus: well dude, you have more then 5 soul parents. Maybe some who you think are a soul parent technically are, but are not. Like your original soul technically is, but wasn't directly involved in your recreation or rebirth. and to be frank again dude, I like this new you, though I was best buds with your original self, our friendship, goes deeper.
Feathers: totally. I think you're sexier, more hot. and boy are you in for a surprise when you find out about yourself. think of it all as a book. it's best for even as sexy as you are, to see 1 page at a time, only turning it at the right time, not to fast. As for your colorful soul lineage, rich soul history. You do have that indeed. Think of what you know, cetacean, reptilian, unicorn, and more too. quite varied and quite a history, you did choose to remember all your soul parent's memories & accumulated wisdom, but no way your incarnated self, even as sexy as one as you have. maybe an ordinary body to you, but hot and sexy to me. But adding all your soul parents, that is a lot of history and wisdom, knowledge, no way your incarnation can recall all of it. It goes way back, farther then you suspect.
Karinus: totally true dude, and it's awesome, believe me. you are older and higher then you know or suspect, or believe perhaps. Just trust in what comes, and soon you'll be here with us soon.
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So, what sorts of stuff do you think I'd do when I'm there with you?
Feathers: you mean besides us all having fun together, sharing energy, love, sexual energy, having sex? <I get the mental image of impression of a humorous smile> well there's the music . Believe us, you'll like drumming, maybe other things too. Helping others, being a bit of a teacher, though not in the traditional ways, more like folks hang out with you and they pick up some stuff, maybe. You are a crown prince still, imperial. That's all I'll say to that. Some ceremonial duties you'll do. It'll give others, courage, spirit , hope, can't think of the right exact words. English is such a limited language. Especially compared to telepathy. and some spoken languages.
Fred <he popped up here>: well, helping me with certain things. The exact nature of which I'll leave for later.
Karinus: there's lots of options. Some we would like to keep as a surprise dude and some, are a bit involved and the folks of the earth shouldn't know quite yet. We can tell you but you'd have to not put it in the blog, but no, I think we'll leave that for a surprise dude. don't want to tell you everything. and we do trust you to not put something down if we ask, you've done it before dude.
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I felt some of Fred's tentacles wrap loosely around me. I feel it's his equivalent to hugging someone and is meant to be a hug.
Feathers: ooo a 4some, fun. I've been in some of those. <she says in a humorous non serious tone of voice>
?: there are also games here, all sorts, including rpg's. you're creative and bet you'd like that.
Me: who was that, another Misfit ?
Feathers: yep, you've not met that one yet. you will later in good time, but yes, I bet you could create settings and creative things like that. Songs too, beats. Like , the pseudo 1950's type world you've written about before. others have manifested fun to play in settings like that, place to relax.
Karinus: lots of options dude. unlimited really.
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Anything any of you folks would like to say to me? So it's not just me asking questions only.
Feathers: you are doing great, better then you suspect. Relax, be your real self, not the illusion you get from conditioning, programming, that many are not aware they are doing to others, but a few do know. Things are changing on the earth, thanks in part to you, you and of course others. By the time the shift finishes you'll be on this side of things. but you were there, are there, for the crucial part, and that is the key.
Karinus: True what feathers says. relax, be yourself dude, try to have what fun you can there. we'll help you when and in what ways we can. believe in yourself.
Fred: the other 2 have said pretty much what I would say so I'l second what they say.
me: Thanks.
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I can't really see you, not when I'm awake. I don't recall that 1 dream to well.
Fred: yes, that wasn't really a dream, you were here really. We got to know each other better. As for seeing all of me, & the rest of us, that'll come in time. The thing is your, clairvoyance, 2nd sight, whatever you want to call it, the humans have many terms, is not very well developed on the place you are currently developed. Your feeling and knowing is better developed. you'll get better in time, But once here you'll see yourself and us for who and what we really are, and your memories will return to you gradually, all of them will once you are fully on this side. you may need to rest and recuperate once you are on this side, but it'll be a short stay, comparative. at worst, your memories and knowledge will return fairly swiftly and you'll get whatever treatment you may need, mainly resting. Before you return home, here, in places not of the earth since your origins are not from there. your true self is from elsewhere. That is part of what pulls you here. Your transition will likely be more or less smooth, depending on how death comes to you. There are more then one possible exit points and scenarios, but it is best to not think of or talk of those, it'll happen soon and of it's own accord. you are there for 1 primary purpose, not a bunch as most, especially earth humans do. and especially not primarily since you enjoy incarnating there. Your primary reason is for 1 set mission, which you know, so that changes everything. as well as you having an exclusion from the karmic system there. Just have faith that you'll soon be here among us once more.
thanks.
From all of them: anytime, we'll talk in the future
Feathers: and more then just talk honey, believe me.
Karinus: Ah, dude, you don't know how long I missed that. Just watch the stream, I don't mind. You're distracted but go ahead and watch it, that's fine. I really don't mind dude.
I could feel a very deep shared love, like Feathers and I share, along with our energies flowing together, energies, love, sexual energies.
Me: ok, as long as you don't mind.
Then I saw Feathers come up behind me.
Feathers: Can another join this party?
She grew or manifested a penis and slid it into my ass pulling me down onto her, while Karinus was sitting in my lap with my penis inside hir slit.
Feathers: there, just relax, sit in my lap. Now, that feels good doesn't it. Continue to watch your stream dear, we don't mind dear, we really don't. Go ahead and watch it.
I could feel the 3 of our energies flowing together, sexual energies, our shared love that came from deep, and not so deep. Though since I'm watching the stream I don't feel it very much. I do go ahead and watch the stream since both of them said they don't mind and I feel they are being truthful.
Feathers: There, isn't that better, 3 of us. <I feel her smiling>.
Karinus: yea dude feels much better doesn't it, more fun. While I usually prefer 2's. 3's or more can be lots of fun too. You'll experience more of this dude once you're here, believe me. My preference for 2 or more depends on my mood. 3 or more can be... lots of fun, cause us to be closer. very, intimate. hard to describe.
Feathers: yes sexy, or sexy lovers. To put it mildly. mmmmm, yea.
us sharing energies feels faint to me. When I close my eyes briefly it increases and I can feel some of the love we share, and when I do that and meditate briefly it increases more and I can feel the sexual type energies and the deep love we share.
Feathers: yes, that feels nice doesn't it. This is just a sample of the fun we'll experience once you're here with us.
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Me: I read where Scarlet channeled a question or 2 for me. What is meant by my true family, you folks, The Misfits?
Feathers: In part, but he meant others too. I don't want to spoil the surprise, and to make it easier on you lover, just color both my and Karinus's dialog blue. you do put our names in front of the dialog so that should be enough.
Karinus: I guarantee you'll love it dude. but I don't want to spoil the surprise either. You've grown so much in the past month alone, even more over the past year, wow. I was looking in on you from time to time, but it wasn't the right time to contact you till when I did.
Me: thanks, I guess that surprise will have to wait. is The Misfits a large group, or are you not going to tell me the full size?
Feathers: well, that'll have to remain a surprise. You have the 3 of us. I've mentioned Shades and there's Fred, as the one you call the tentacled being said you can call him. So there may be more then 5, but I want to keep that as a surprise too. You'll get and be in for a huge surprise once are here and we have a welcome home party for you.
Karinus: Yea, totally dude. <here I have a mental picture of Karinus giving me a thumbs up>.
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me: Colorful soul lineage, Rich and colorful soul history? what is meant by that.
Karinus: well dude, you have more then 5 soul parents. Maybe some who you think are a soul parent technically are, but are not. Like your original soul technically is, but wasn't directly involved in your recreation or rebirth. and to be frank again dude, I like this new you, though I was best buds with your original self, our friendship, goes deeper.
Feathers: totally. I think you're sexier, more hot. and boy are you in for a surprise when you find out about yourself. think of it all as a book. it's best for even as sexy as you are, to see 1 page at a time, only turning it at the right time, not to fast. As for your colorful soul lineage, rich soul history. You do have that indeed. Think of what you know, cetacean, reptilian, unicorn, and more too. quite varied and quite a history, you did choose to remember all your soul parent's memories & accumulated wisdom, but no way your incarnated self, even as sexy as one as you have. maybe an ordinary body to you, but hot and sexy to me. But adding all your soul parents, that is a lot of history and wisdom, knowledge, no way your incarnation can recall all of it. It goes way back, farther then you suspect.
Karinus: totally true dude, and it's awesome, believe me. you are older and higher then you know or suspect, or believe perhaps. Just trust in what comes, and soon you'll be here with us soon.
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So, what sorts of stuff do you think I'd do when I'm there with you?
Feathers: you mean besides us all having fun together, sharing energy, love, sexual energy, having sex? <I get the mental image of impression of a humorous smile> well there's the music . Believe us, you'll like drumming, maybe other things too. Helping others, being a bit of a teacher, though not in the traditional ways, more like folks hang out with you and they pick up some stuff, maybe. You are a crown prince still, imperial. That's all I'll say to that. Some ceremonial duties you'll do. It'll give others, courage, spirit , hope, can't think of the right exact words. English is such a limited language. Especially compared to telepathy. and some spoken languages.
Fred <he popped up here>: well, helping me with certain things. The exact nature of which I'll leave for later.
Karinus: there's lots of options. Some we would like to keep as a surprise dude and some, are a bit involved and the folks of the earth shouldn't know quite yet. We can tell you but you'd have to not put it in the blog, but no, I think we'll leave that for a surprise dude. don't want to tell you everything. and we do trust you to not put something down if we ask, you've done it before dude.
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I felt some of Fred's tentacles wrap loosely around me. I feel it's his equivalent to hugging someone and is meant to be a hug.
Feathers: ooo a 4some, fun. I've been in some of those. <she says in a humorous non serious tone of voice>
?: there are also games here, all sorts, including rpg's. you're creative and bet you'd like that.
Me: who was that, another Misfit ?
Feathers: yep, you've not met that one yet. you will later in good time, but yes, I bet you could create settings and creative things like that. Songs too, beats. Like , the pseudo 1950's type world you've written about before. others have manifested fun to play in settings like that, place to relax.
Karinus: lots of options dude. unlimited really.
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Anything any of you folks would like to say to me? So it's not just me asking questions only.
Feathers: you are doing great, better then you suspect. Relax, be your real self, not the illusion you get from conditioning, programming, that many are not aware they are doing to others, but a few do know. Things are changing on the earth, thanks in part to you, you and of course others. By the time the shift finishes you'll be on this side of things. but you were there, are there, for the crucial part, and that is the key.
Karinus: True what feathers says. relax, be yourself dude, try to have what fun you can there. we'll help you when and in what ways we can. believe in yourself.
Fred: the other 2 have said pretty much what I would say so I'l second what they say.
me: Thanks.
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I can't really see you, not when I'm awake. I don't recall that 1 dream to well.
Fred: yes, that wasn't really a dream, you were here really. We got to know each other better. As for seeing all of me, & the rest of us, that'll come in time. The thing is your, clairvoyance, 2nd sight, whatever you want to call it, the humans have many terms, is not very well developed on the place you are currently developed. Your feeling and knowing is better developed. you'll get better in time, But once here you'll see yourself and us for who and what we really are, and your memories will return to you gradually, all of them will once you are fully on this side. you may need to rest and recuperate once you are on this side, but it'll be a short stay, comparative. at worst, your memories and knowledge will return fairly swiftly and you'll get whatever treatment you may need, mainly resting. Before you return home, here, in places not of the earth since your origins are not from there. your true self is from elsewhere. That is part of what pulls you here. Your transition will likely be more or less smooth, depending on how death comes to you. There are more then one possible exit points and scenarios, but it is best to not think of or talk of those, it'll happen soon and of it's own accord. you are there for 1 primary purpose, not a bunch as most, especially earth humans do. and especially not primarily since you enjoy incarnating there. Your primary reason is for 1 set mission, which you know, so that changes everything. as well as you having an exclusion from the karmic system there. Just have faith that you'll soon be here among us once more.
thanks.
From all of them: anytime, we'll talk in the future
Feathers: and more then just talk honey, believe me.
66 FEATHERS [Thursday 8-27]
I talked to Feathers, the first bits were during a guided meditation I did earlier. The rest were off and n through the afternoon.
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Me: I feel pulled in like 2 directions. To help with teh shift here, but also a very strong pull to go home, though with all the transition I've gone through I'm not sure if I have any sort of home really, except that Karinus said I could crash at hir place & that of the meeting place & hangout of The Misfits.
<here I had the mental image of Feathers putting a hand on my chest, still can't see her clearly in my mind's eye.
Feathers: It is normal. you are a higher being then the natives of the earth, your home, home plane, or what ever label you wish to use is here among us not on the earth. Such a feeling that you feel is a good sign, it signifies you are reaching to your true being. And you'll not feel this way forever. They human body does not go on forever. Focus on what you feel is important, feels right. What is important, exited you. Your true home is here among us, not there. That is why you feel pulled like you do, and you are there for 1 incarnation, not for several or through the earth shift.
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Me: I guess at least some of my mates and family are not my mates and family anymore due to the growth, expansion, and transition?
Feathers: indeed dear, as one grows upwards, shoots upwards in your case, < and here I feel her smiling in a mischievous manner> it is not odd or unheard of for one to move on and join a new family, acquire new mates. As one no longer resonates with ones former mates. they may be your mates once more since the day may come when you resonate close again, with eternity there is plenty of time. one can also move on past one's current soul family to another. In this case to us The Misfits as your family, lovers, mates, though you may have some outside of the group. i'll leave that up to the future and pleasant surprises. and to time as well.
There'll always be love between your former mates and yourself, nothing will change that, even if you no longer resonate close or don't since there is a long gulf of current awareness, development level, and so forth between you. most move at a casual walking pace, as you have said, in their spiritual growth, but not all do, some crawl, and some shoot ahead much faster. So big upheavals and change is to be expected, but you are taking it as well as possible, feeling the rightness in moving on. Though there is no reason you can't still be friends, perhaps at least occasional lovers, since you can help them to progress and grow faster if they wish. they may reach closer to your level, just like if you have a mate or lover higher then you it can help you to reach a higher level. And not everything will be totally changed, you are still a prince after-all. Though your species may not be as narrowly defined as it was before, since you have moved on past that, but you'll learn about that all in time. Not good to try to learn everything at once, poof, my love after all.
me: True.
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me: I do appreciate your answering my questions. and I do feel a deep love between us, as well as a sexual love as well. and me and Karinus, and maybe the tentacled being, but less so.
Feathers: Indeed, you resonate with us closer. The tentacled being as you call him, well using any gender with him isn't fully correct but let's just use him for now. You don't know him as well or resonate with him as closely but that will change with not that much time. your resonance will grow closer as you grow. but let that flow with time as its natural speed.
as for deep love indeed, and as for sexual love, those are both intermixed between us dear, and you with Karinus and soon with at least some others of The Misfits. All things in good time. Don't want to do this all at once.
Me: indeed. things are best if they are allowed to flow naturally.
Feathers: indeed, and as for what you call sex, sharing, hard to use English words, we'll be doing plenty of that. At the energy level especially, and the not so energy level too. you've felt the beginnings of the energy level stuff, low level beginner stuff really, but enough to get you back into the swing of things.
Soon you'll be back here among us, but all good things in their own time.
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Me: I've been watching Astral City AKA Nosso Lar.
Feathers: yes, good movie, basically correct, overall at the most basic of level. Not putting it down but you don't want to give college level stuff to earth. To you yes, you'd quickly be able to handle it, but for the masses best to start with the very basic stuff. get them use to that, then they can step up. Not that I'm putting them or anyone down since all of us had to start at the most basic level at one point in our past. Though there are some that do do the a bit above the most basic. Lots of information around, sadly lots of mistranslations, misunderstandings, outright lies and falsehoods, but that'll be changing and is in the process of changing, for those who wish it to change. Some, sadly, will not be ready, but there are places set aside for them to continue their learning, or what they want to do till they are ready to move on. The shift is changing for many. some will remain, or return through the shift, but i feel you will not. Your original intention was to help at the critical phase, then return home, to this side. if you do help it'll be from this side from now on, belive me. You'll not be on earth for vary long, incarnated, though it may seem long since you have to experience each second as a second. hard to explain what I mean and I don't want to give away to much at this point.
me: it's ok. I do love all of you and appreciate your talking, I should go and eat and rest and watch the rest of the movie.
Feathers: indeed, and you'll not be incarnating again. You'll remain here among us, no matter how high you grow to you'll always be a Misfit.
Me: thanks, one last thing. What do you think of me and drums?
Feathers: I feel you would really enjoy that. I bet you find you have a basic knack at it, you'll really enjoy doing that believe me. Don't go to fast.
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Got this from I don't know who.
You've changed since your rebirth <I'm pretty sure she, the mental voice sounded and felt female said rebirth.> my son. In more ways then you can now. We'll talk more later at the right time.
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Me: Who was that? Felt female.
Feathers: one of your soul mothers, you have not met yet. She is the being that Alura was part of before she merged with you, well you and the part of you not incarnated. It is a bit more complicated then that, but basically Alura was a bit of energy who's mission was to merge with you when the time was right.
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This is a bit of a conversation that happened as I lay down to take a nap. It does get a bit... erotic but I'll put it here anyway. and I'll try to recreate it as best as I can. It felt like I was not only in my physical body but also in another body in another location. not sure since I didn't try looking around and the background seemed all indistinct as I remember.
I felt Feathers with me, her wings and arms around me in a close hug, our chests touching. Then I felt her hands move down to start to caress my behind.
Feathers: Hello again lover. Why not try to see if you can put your penis into my cloaca <again she didn't use this term but I use the medical term instead of what she said> I bet it'll fit just fine.
I felt our energies touching and flowing together, merging, the deep love we share as well as the sexual energy flowing together too. I do go ahead and in the mental image do the intent of putting my penis into her open cloaca, which she had invitingly opened as she said what she said. I could feel as if her cloaca was really sliding down my penis, not as if she were physical 3d here, but hard to describe, as if she was maybe 4d, hard to explain but I could really feel it. Then when most of my penis was in her I remembered her earlier remark about the knot and did an intent for my penis to have a knot then i pressed the rest of my penis into her. I felt her cloaca continue to slide down my penis, opening wider for my knot, which was very small. then once I was fully in her i felt her cloaca entrance clamp down and the rest of her cloaca tube, I use the term cloaca since it seems the right term to use. I felt the rest of it grow tighter around my penis. I use the term cloaca since, as I said it feels right, like the correct term to use instead of vagina. though I do not know if she has to go to the bathroom like humans need to, maybe on the other side no one needs to, but maybe the term feels right since her species maybe once was 3d like earth humans were.
Feathers: ah, you remembered the knot, excellent. now let's just relax here and lets see how much our energies resonate.
I could feel our energies flowing together, our shared love, sexual energies, love energies, and I couldn't tell where her energies ended and mine started.
me: it does feel very nice, pleasurable.
Feathers: this is nothing to what we'll, well you really, will be experiencing once you are on this side believe me. our energies really do resonate don't they lover. ours, as well as yours with Karinus and Shades too.
me: shades? is he called that since he wears sunglasses all the time?
Feathers: yea, something like that, you've not met him yet. he likes to stay in the shadows for now. mmmm, feels pleasurable doesn't it. your pretty nicely hung, and have a nice rear too, sexy, in more ways then one. So sexy, how are you liking your little taste of what things will be for you on this side? mmmm, you're diffidently going to fertilize some of my next few eggs, along with some other Misfit members.
Me: This is very, arousing. < and it really was very erotic to experience, deep soul level love, sexual erotic, hard to describe.
Feathers: good lover. That is how it should be. mmmmm, nice.
me: so, what species exactly am I? Just curious.
Feathers: does it really matter. But if you want to know some tips, you've sort of moved past that, evolved past that. Think of your sexy self as being a reptilian, cetacean, unicorn, maybe even an insect, and other species, perhaps other species you may discover in time, you can change too. You could be an avian like me if you wanted.
me: which reptilian and cetacean, other species? interesting.
Feathers: mmm, yes. think of it as the original cetacean and reptian species that others are derived from, ones from this universe. you do know part of your energy predates this univers don't you lover. How was this universe created? hmm
I could remember sorta how, but hard to explain exactly or understand exactly what i was seeing, like I could only partially kinda sorta understand.
me: well, it was planned, energy was shaped, sorta, but not quite... hard to explain.
Feathers, caressing my behind like before: well sexy, see what I mean? part of you does, just that you're not at the level to quite understand all of it, yet. <she licked her lips.> hmmm.
Me: and is it true I don't resonate with my previous mates?
Feathers: you've grown a lot sexy. transitioned alot. Some, or most, maybe all, of your previous mates you no longer resonate with, not like me, Karinus, shades, and <forgot what she called the tentacled being. later when I awoke he told me mentally, "just call me Fred, easy to remember.> your resonance with him will grow closer. your former mates. in time you may resonate with them again lover. After all we all do have an eternity. your being mates once and not resonating may cause some of them to want to be mates and resonate with you again, which may mean you can be one of their guides, so to speak, to help then grow so you resonate once more, or they may resonate with you again in time. also there is still love there, you may still be friends with benefits or lovers still. Though you'll find in time there are other misfits you resonate with, some more then others. We're one family here, lovers, friends family. But we've talked and had enough fun, you need to get some sleep lover. We'll talk and have fun later sexy.
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Me: I feel pulled in like 2 directions. To help with teh shift here, but also a very strong pull to go home, though with all the transition I've gone through I'm not sure if I have any sort of home really, except that Karinus said I could crash at hir place & that of the meeting place & hangout of The Misfits.
<here I had the mental image of Feathers putting a hand on my chest, still can't see her clearly in my mind's eye.
Feathers: It is normal. you are a higher being then the natives of the earth, your home, home plane, or what ever label you wish to use is here among us not on the earth. Such a feeling that you feel is a good sign, it signifies you are reaching to your true being. And you'll not feel this way forever. They human body does not go on forever. Focus on what you feel is important, feels right. What is important, exited you. Your true home is here among us, not there. That is why you feel pulled like you do, and you are there for 1 incarnation, not for several or through the earth shift.
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Me: I guess at least some of my mates and family are not my mates and family anymore due to the growth, expansion, and transition?
Feathers: indeed dear, as one grows upwards, shoots upwards in your case, < and here I feel her smiling in a mischievous manner> it is not odd or unheard of for one to move on and join a new family, acquire new mates. As one no longer resonates with ones former mates. they may be your mates once more since the day may come when you resonate close again, with eternity there is plenty of time. one can also move on past one's current soul family to another. In this case to us The Misfits as your family, lovers, mates, though you may have some outside of the group. i'll leave that up to the future and pleasant surprises. and to time as well.
There'll always be love between your former mates and yourself, nothing will change that, even if you no longer resonate close or don't since there is a long gulf of current awareness, development level, and so forth between you. most move at a casual walking pace, as you have said, in their spiritual growth, but not all do, some crawl, and some shoot ahead much faster. So big upheavals and change is to be expected, but you are taking it as well as possible, feeling the rightness in moving on. Though there is no reason you can't still be friends, perhaps at least occasional lovers, since you can help them to progress and grow faster if they wish. they may reach closer to your level, just like if you have a mate or lover higher then you it can help you to reach a higher level. And not everything will be totally changed, you are still a prince after-all. Though your species may not be as narrowly defined as it was before, since you have moved on past that, but you'll learn about that all in time. Not good to try to learn everything at once, poof, my love after all.
me: True.
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me: I do appreciate your answering my questions. and I do feel a deep love between us, as well as a sexual love as well. and me and Karinus, and maybe the tentacled being, but less so.
Feathers: Indeed, you resonate with us closer. The tentacled being as you call him, well using any gender with him isn't fully correct but let's just use him for now. You don't know him as well or resonate with him as closely but that will change with not that much time. your resonance will grow closer as you grow. but let that flow with time as its natural speed.
as for deep love indeed, and as for sexual love, those are both intermixed between us dear, and you with Karinus and soon with at least some others of The Misfits. All things in good time. Don't want to do this all at once.
Me: indeed. things are best if they are allowed to flow naturally.
Feathers: indeed, and as for what you call sex, sharing, hard to use English words, we'll be doing plenty of that. At the energy level especially, and the not so energy level too. you've felt the beginnings of the energy level stuff, low level beginner stuff really, but enough to get you back into the swing of things.
Soon you'll be back here among us, but all good things in their own time.
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Me: I've been watching Astral City AKA Nosso Lar.
Feathers: yes, good movie, basically correct, overall at the most basic of level. Not putting it down but you don't want to give college level stuff to earth. To you yes, you'd quickly be able to handle it, but for the masses best to start with the very basic stuff. get them use to that, then they can step up. Not that I'm putting them or anyone down since all of us had to start at the most basic level at one point in our past. Though there are some that do do the a bit above the most basic. Lots of information around, sadly lots of mistranslations, misunderstandings, outright lies and falsehoods, but that'll be changing and is in the process of changing, for those who wish it to change. Some, sadly, will not be ready, but there are places set aside for them to continue their learning, or what they want to do till they are ready to move on. The shift is changing for many. some will remain, or return through the shift, but i feel you will not. Your original intention was to help at the critical phase, then return home, to this side. if you do help it'll be from this side from now on, belive me. You'll not be on earth for vary long, incarnated, though it may seem long since you have to experience each second as a second. hard to explain what I mean and I don't want to give away to much at this point.
me: it's ok. I do love all of you and appreciate your talking, I should go and eat and rest and watch the rest of the movie.
Feathers: indeed, and you'll not be incarnating again. You'll remain here among us, no matter how high you grow to you'll always be a Misfit.
Me: thanks, one last thing. What do you think of me and drums?
Feathers: I feel you would really enjoy that. I bet you find you have a basic knack at it, you'll really enjoy doing that believe me. Don't go to fast.
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Got this from I don't know who.
You've changed since your rebirth <I'm pretty sure she, the mental voice sounded and felt female said rebirth.> my son. In more ways then you can now. We'll talk more later at the right time.
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Me: Who was that? Felt female.
Feathers: one of your soul mothers, you have not met yet. She is the being that Alura was part of before she merged with you, well you and the part of you not incarnated. It is a bit more complicated then that, but basically Alura was a bit of energy who's mission was to merge with you when the time was right.
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This is a bit of a conversation that happened as I lay down to take a nap. It does get a bit... erotic but I'll put it here anyway. and I'll try to recreate it as best as I can. It felt like I was not only in my physical body but also in another body in another location. not sure since I didn't try looking around and the background seemed all indistinct as I remember.
I felt Feathers with me, her wings and arms around me in a close hug, our chests touching. Then I felt her hands move down to start to caress my behind.
Feathers: Hello again lover. Why not try to see if you can put your penis into my cloaca <again she didn't use this term but I use the medical term instead of what she said> I bet it'll fit just fine.
I felt our energies touching and flowing together, merging, the deep love we share as well as the sexual energy flowing together too. I do go ahead and in the mental image do the intent of putting my penis into her open cloaca, which she had invitingly opened as she said what she said. I could feel as if her cloaca was really sliding down my penis, not as if she were physical 3d here, but hard to describe, as if she was maybe 4d, hard to explain but I could really feel it. Then when most of my penis was in her I remembered her earlier remark about the knot and did an intent for my penis to have a knot then i pressed the rest of my penis into her. I felt her cloaca continue to slide down my penis, opening wider for my knot, which was very small. then once I was fully in her i felt her cloaca entrance clamp down and the rest of her cloaca tube, I use the term cloaca since it seems the right term to use. I felt the rest of it grow tighter around my penis. I use the term cloaca since, as I said it feels right, like the correct term to use instead of vagina. though I do not know if she has to go to the bathroom like humans need to, maybe on the other side no one needs to, but maybe the term feels right since her species maybe once was 3d like earth humans were.
Feathers: ah, you remembered the knot, excellent. now let's just relax here and lets see how much our energies resonate.
I could feel our energies flowing together, our shared love, sexual energies, love energies, and I couldn't tell where her energies ended and mine started.
me: it does feel very nice, pleasurable.
Feathers: this is nothing to what we'll, well you really, will be experiencing once you are on this side believe me. our energies really do resonate don't they lover. ours, as well as yours with Karinus and Shades too.
me: shades? is he called that since he wears sunglasses all the time?
Feathers: yea, something like that, you've not met him yet. he likes to stay in the shadows for now. mmmm, feels pleasurable doesn't it. your pretty nicely hung, and have a nice rear too, sexy, in more ways then one. So sexy, how are you liking your little taste of what things will be for you on this side? mmmm, you're diffidently going to fertilize some of my next few eggs, along with some other Misfit members.
Me: This is very, arousing. < and it really was very erotic to experience, deep soul level love, sexual erotic, hard to describe.
Feathers: good lover. That is how it should be. mmmmm, nice.
me: so, what species exactly am I? Just curious.
Feathers: does it really matter. But if you want to know some tips, you've sort of moved past that, evolved past that. Think of your sexy self as being a reptilian, cetacean, unicorn, maybe even an insect, and other species, perhaps other species you may discover in time, you can change too. You could be an avian like me if you wanted.
me: which reptilian and cetacean, other species? interesting.
Feathers: mmm, yes. think of it as the original cetacean and reptian species that others are derived from, ones from this universe. you do know part of your energy predates this univers don't you lover. How was this universe created? hmm
I could remember sorta how, but hard to explain exactly or understand exactly what i was seeing, like I could only partially kinda sorta understand.
me: well, it was planned, energy was shaped, sorta, but not quite... hard to explain.
Feathers, caressing my behind like before: well sexy, see what I mean? part of you does, just that you're not at the level to quite understand all of it, yet. <she licked her lips.> hmmm.
Me: and is it true I don't resonate with my previous mates?
Feathers: you've grown a lot sexy. transitioned alot. Some, or most, maybe all, of your previous mates you no longer resonate with, not like me, Karinus, shades, and <forgot what she called the tentacled being. later when I awoke he told me mentally, "just call me Fred, easy to remember.> your resonance with him will grow closer. your former mates. in time you may resonate with them again lover. After all we all do have an eternity. your being mates once and not resonating may cause some of them to want to be mates and resonate with you again, which may mean you can be one of their guides, so to speak, to help then grow so you resonate once more, or they may resonate with you again in time. also there is still love there, you may still be friends with benefits or lovers still. Though you'll find in time there are other misfits you resonate with, some more then others. We're one family here, lovers, friends family. But we've talked and had enough fun, you need to get some sleep lover. We'll talk and have fun later sexy.
Thursday [8-27]
Thinking about it, I do feel more resonance with the tentacled being that Karinus mentioned before that is a member of The Misfits. I do have a dream that I only vagely remember. Something to do with lots of tentacles and a positive feel like we had fun together. Not sure if we did something like sat in a park and talked, or were at a beach or floating in the water and having fun together and talking, played a co-op video game together. Feels like we spent some time together during one of my dreams and it was a positive experience for both of us, just that I don't recall any of the details. Not sure if we did any sharing of pleasures or energies or not. But compared to when I briefly talked to him yesterday and this morning. I didn't feel much of a resonance then, I do feel more now, so logically we must have had a positive experience or experiences and it also feels like we did, though I can't remember the dream at all.
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I have also been thinking on a comment I read or heard that someone said that Bashar said that we're in our own universe and it's a shared universe and we're like in each others universe like an interface. Also a comment one of my mates said through someone online said they said, a few demeaning things like me and another person think the universe revolves around us.
Actually yes it does, technically the way it feels to me is yes, the universe does revolve around me and around every single being that exists here. here in this shared universe.
Also feels like in this shared universe we're not really here, we're maybe in non physicality in like VR suits using remote controls in this shared universe in a similar way to how we are not really on the earth now, we're like fully locked into these VR suits using remote controls to be interfaced with what we experience as a physical body & we can't be free to take off the suit and be free till the physical body dies, then someone else will come along and unlock us from the suit or the suit will just fall away on it's own, not sure which. Elsewhere it feels like here's more freedom. Don't like being incarnated as a x race, just take off like your VR suit, the body dissolves away like some Jedi on star wars when they die. Not like earth which has many more limitations, rules ect.
Also as i feel this I'm also feeling the very intense urge to return to the other side. A constant urge there, though the feeling grows and lessons in intensity, more likely my perception of it grows and lessons up and down to where sometimes I'm not consciously aware of it much unless I think of it, other times it is fully there.
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Though on the other side I feel one can be an ensouled being and doesn't have to be incarnated.
To further illustrate what I mean, let's say there are 2 friends. A and B. A is incarnated as a Lyran. B is an ensouled being. They decided to go the the beach for some fun. Now since A is incarnated as a Lyran he's really in a special vr suit designed to be lived in since he's incarnated as a Lyran, and controlling and experiencing things as the lyran, though if he wants he can end he incarnation by just taking off the special can be lived in vr suit. Unlike on earth where we are locked into these special lived in vr suits and a member of some committee or their appointed representative will come be at certain times approved by the committee and ask if you want out of the vr suit and set free.
During the 3 hour drive A has to experience every second of that drive. Though during that he can use a hands free cell phone to talk to friends, listen to the radio, spend some extra time talking to folks at the place he stops for gas and food.
B can pop to the beach, spend 30 minutes there, putting on his special vr suit once he arrives at beach to interact there. His suit can be taken off or put on as quick as a thought and it can work anywhere and he can be any appearance or form he wants. Then he can take off his special vr suit, pop into the car, put on his special vr suit to be with A in the car for 30 minutes. Take off the suit, pop home to watch a 30 minute tv show and 30 minutes hanging out with friends and family in non physicality. then he can pop over into the another universe or another time and planet to put on his vr suit to have fun for an hour there.
Or instead of doing this stuff B can instead pop to the beach and at the same time pop forward 3 hours put on his suit so he's there when his friend arrives, instead of his doing that other stuff for the 3 hours it took his friend to arrive.
So over the 3 hours A had to drive there but had certain experiences, B was able to pop around as he wished. Neither one had a superior experience to the other, it was just a matter or choice. I feel this is closer to how things work on the other side.
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I did the 13th meditation that is part 6 of the awaken the light body. Once I do the next one I'll be fully done with redoing all the awaken the light body courses once again, this time doing all the 6 parts as 1 big course and doing 2 and towards the end 3, a day. If I do 3 over the weekend and 2 the other days, I'll be finished with all the meditations I picked out to redo a 6th time by Monday, then Tuesday I start the next course, Radiance: Self Exciting, building the light body.
Running the energies were a pleasure, though I was distracted by the fact today I'm supposed to get my delivery, though it is a bit to early, it could have come during the meditation, and I'm not sure since it's coming by us postal, if the delivery person will be the one to deliver it to my door or straight to the manager's office, or will just take it back to the postal office or whatever. I'll have to wait and see.
But the main part of the meditation went well. I could feel the Fullonia cocoon, it is much larger then the Renawre cocoon, and I could feel the column of light, forgot what Daben called it, that went from my spine to the top of the Fullonia cocoon and down through my spine to the bottom of the Fullonia cocoon, well bottom and top from my points of view, it's all relative I'm sure. So all in all an interesting meditation.
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I did the 14th and last guided meditation of part 6 of awaken the light body and running the energies was pleasurable. the main part of the meditation was about the Fullonia and the Fullonia Cocoon. I could feel it, as I could before. I could also see a light, though I had my eyes closed and covered. Interesting meditation all around. I talked to Feathers a bit, but I'll put that into another post, though we talked bits during this meditation.
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I finished watching Astral City. Great movie. Though it does feel like it's maybe 1st grade stuff, but one can learn a lot from 1st grade stuff and everyone had to star there at some point in their past.
It also got me thinking. This new me does have no interest in incarnating at all, though the old me did it for certain missions and did like certain aspects of it. This new me though has no interest in it. Though due to the rules of this place this new me does have to finish it. Though this new me may be also who knows how old. time being a flexible thing.
though the reason I'm shooting upwards maybe due to this new me being from a potentially higher level then the original me, or the method of my creation, the creation of this new me, gives me the potential to shoot upwards faster, and the original me was happy where he was.
Maybe this is part of why I'm going through whatever transition I'm going through and I may not resonate with some or all of my old mates, the mates who were my mates a few weeks ago. Though who knows by the time I'm on the other side at least some of them may resonate with me once again. Time will tell. Though I do wish it would hurry up a bit.
No idea how long this shift of the earth, the transitional of it's shift, will take, but I feel when it finishes I'll not be on this side of things, I'll be on the other side of things. no idea if I'll want to do anything on the other side to help with here or not. I may have moved on to other things and let others do what they wish to help on both sides here.
Since I do not feel to pulled to the earth.
I am totally alone on the earth, with 1 online friend who's likely higher then I am. That is ok since we all can't be the same level. and on the other side I do feel like I would be alone if not for The Misfits. I have grown upwards a lot, maybe more then I know, though that may mean that I no longer resonate with my mates, or former mates some of them may be. I'll let time reveal that, or maybe I still do or will by the time this incarnation ends.
A for the drumming without drums lessons on youtube, I think I'lll do as I did yesterday and will watch lesson 2 again tonight. I'll do 3 tomorrow & I think I'll review the first 3 lessons on Saturday. Sunday I'll decide if I want to review then 3 lessons, or go on to lesson 4.
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I have also been thinking on a comment I read or heard that someone said that Bashar said that we're in our own universe and it's a shared universe and we're like in each others universe like an interface. Also a comment one of my mates said through someone online said they said, a few demeaning things like me and another person think the universe revolves around us.
Actually yes it does, technically the way it feels to me is yes, the universe does revolve around me and around every single being that exists here. here in this shared universe.
Also feels like in this shared universe we're not really here, we're maybe in non physicality in like VR suits using remote controls in this shared universe in a similar way to how we are not really on the earth now, we're like fully locked into these VR suits using remote controls to be interfaced with what we experience as a physical body & we can't be free to take off the suit and be free till the physical body dies, then someone else will come along and unlock us from the suit or the suit will just fall away on it's own, not sure which. Elsewhere it feels like here's more freedom. Don't like being incarnated as a x race, just take off like your VR suit, the body dissolves away like some Jedi on star wars when they die. Not like earth which has many more limitations, rules ect.
Also as i feel this I'm also feeling the very intense urge to return to the other side. A constant urge there, though the feeling grows and lessons in intensity, more likely my perception of it grows and lessons up and down to where sometimes I'm not consciously aware of it much unless I think of it, other times it is fully there.
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Though on the other side I feel one can be an ensouled being and doesn't have to be incarnated.
To further illustrate what I mean, let's say there are 2 friends. A and B. A is incarnated as a Lyran. B is an ensouled being. They decided to go the the beach for some fun. Now since A is incarnated as a Lyran he's really in a special vr suit designed to be lived in since he's incarnated as a Lyran, and controlling and experiencing things as the lyran, though if he wants he can end he incarnation by just taking off the special can be lived in vr suit. Unlike on earth where we are locked into these special lived in vr suits and a member of some committee or their appointed representative will come be at certain times approved by the committee and ask if you want out of the vr suit and set free.
During the 3 hour drive A has to experience every second of that drive. Though during that he can use a hands free cell phone to talk to friends, listen to the radio, spend some extra time talking to folks at the place he stops for gas and food.
B can pop to the beach, spend 30 minutes there, putting on his special vr suit once he arrives at beach to interact there. His suit can be taken off or put on as quick as a thought and it can work anywhere and he can be any appearance or form he wants. Then he can take off his special vr suit, pop into the car, put on his special vr suit to be with A in the car for 30 minutes. Take off the suit, pop home to watch a 30 minute tv show and 30 minutes hanging out with friends and family in non physicality. then he can pop over into the another universe or another time and planet to put on his vr suit to have fun for an hour there.
Or instead of doing this stuff B can instead pop to the beach and at the same time pop forward 3 hours put on his suit so he's there when his friend arrives, instead of his doing that other stuff for the 3 hours it took his friend to arrive.
So over the 3 hours A had to drive there but had certain experiences, B was able to pop around as he wished. Neither one had a superior experience to the other, it was just a matter or choice. I feel this is closer to how things work on the other side.
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I did the 13th meditation that is part 6 of the awaken the light body. Once I do the next one I'll be fully done with redoing all the awaken the light body courses once again, this time doing all the 6 parts as 1 big course and doing 2 and towards the end 3, a day. If I do 3 over the weekend and 2 the other days, I'll be finished with all the meditations I picked out to redo a 6th time by Monday, then Tuesday I start the next course, Radiance: Self Exciting, building the light body.
Running the energies were a pleasure, though I was distracted by the fact today I'm supposed to get my delivery, though it is a bit to early, it could have come during the meditation, and I'm not sure since it's coming by us postal, if the delivery person will be the one to deliver it to my door or straight to the manager's office, or will just take it back to the postal office or whatever. I'll have to wait and see.
But the main part of the meditation went well. I could feel the Fullonia cocoon, it is much larger then the Renawre cocoon, and I could feel the column of light, forgot what Daben called it, that went from my spine to the top of the Fullonia cocoon and down through my spine to the bottom of the Fullonia cocoon, well bottom and top from my points of view, it's all relative I'm sure. So all in all an interesting meditation.
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I did the 14th and last guided meditation of part 6 of awaken the light body and running the energies was pleasurable. the main part of the meditation was about the Fullonia and the Fullonia Cocoon. I could feel it, as I could before. I could also see a light, though I had my eyes closed and covered. Interesting meditation all around. I talked to Feathers a bit, but I'll put that into another post, though we talked bits during this meditation.
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I finished watching Astral City. Great movie. Though it does feel like it's maybe 1st grade stuff, but one can learn a lot from 1st grade stuff and everyone had to star there at some point in their past.
It also got me thinking. This new me does have no interest in incarnating at all, though the old me did it for certain missions and did like certain aspects of it. This new me though has no interest in it. Though due to the rules of this place this new me does have to finish it. Though this new me may be also who knows how old. time being a flexible thing.
though the reason I'm shooting upwards maybe due to this new me being from a potentially higher level then the original me, or the method of my creation, the creation of this new me, gives me the potential to shoot upwards faster, and the original me was happy where he was.
Maybe this is part of why I'm going through whatever transition I'm going through and I may not resonate with some or all of my old mates, the mates who were my mates a few weeks ago. Though who knows by the time I'm on the other side at least some of them may resonate with me once again. Time will tell. Though I do wish it would hurry up a bit.
No idea how long this shift of the earth, the transitional of it's shift, will take, but I feel when it finishes I'll not be on this side of things, I'll be on the other side of things. no idea if I'll want to do anything on the other side to help with here or not. I may have moved on to other things and let others do what they wish to help on both sides here.
Since I do not feel to pulled to the earth.
I am totally alone on the earth, with 1 online friend who's likely higher then I am. That is ok since we all can't be the same level. and on the other side I do feel like I would be alone if not for The Misfits. I have grown upwards a lot, maybe more then I know, though that may mean that I no longer resonate with my mates, or former mates some of them may be. I'll let time reveal that, or maybe I still do or will by the time this incarnation ends.
A for the drumming without drums lessons on youtube, I think I'lll do as I did yesterday and will watch lesson 2 again tonight. I'll do 3 tomorrow & I think I'll review the first 3 lessons on Saturday. Sunday I'll decide if I want to review then 3 lessons, or go on to lesson 4.
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65 KARINUS [WED 8-26] + others
While I was in the shower, well toweling off actually while thinking about the female avian who had popped up the day before that I have written about before when a new mental voice popped into my head saying something like:
"scale on feather action. " The voice was in a good natured kidding way. "She really likes you you know." This was done in a serious tone of voice. My intuition, or some inner sense said this was another member of The Misfits. "Hmm, scale, scales. Hey, you wouldn't mind a nickname like scales would you?"
I thought it over briefly then said no, I don't mind.
"Scales it is then."
So it seems my nickname in The Misfits is Scales. I don't mind.
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So, am I the only scaly person in The Misfits?
karinus: "no, funny thing though is that "scales." never has come up before for any of the other members who has scales."
The avian female, is her name feathers or something?
Karinus; "yes, she likes to preen her feathers a lot sometimes. But calling her preen, that sounds to demeaning, so we thought up feathers instead. She doesn't mind and seems to like it."
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While I was laying down to take a nap the female avian came to me again and we talked briefly.
Her: "Hello dear." She said as I could feel her wrapping her wings around me again and I could feel the soft downy feathers of her belly on mine.
"So, your nick name in The Misfits is Feathers?"
Feathers: "yes, & you can call me that if you want." I felt her hands rub my behind in a sexual manner. I, a bit shyly moved mine to do the same to hers. "I'm sure you can feel how much our energy... resonates."
"yea I can. I also feel a deep love that we share. Is that part of the resonating?"
Feathers: "yes dear. When the energy of 2 souls resonates like ours, a deep shared love between the 2 is natural. But I can't wait till you are back here. and I can get your (I'll say the medical term penis here, she used another word.) into my cloaca. One little tip about me. one of my kinks is I like knots. Though the dolphin prehensile penis does seem interesting also. mmmmm." she said in a sexy erotic tone. "you're diffidently going to fertilize some of my next eggs. Most diffidently." and I got the impression she was looking me up and down in a very sexual manner.
WHy do you want kids?
feathers: "not now silly, later on. mmmm, diffidently. Hey sexy, you don't mind if I manifest a penis (again she used another term, I feel more comfortable putting in the medical term.) and mount you sometimes do you?"
No, I would like that, as long as you have a knot sometimes.
Feathers: "diffidently, but you need to get to sleep, and we have plenty of time. Though we still have to wait till you return back here." she said in a bit of a disappointing voice. During this i felt us sharing energy in a very light way, and the energy had same sexual energy mixed in. it was us sharing some of our shared love as energy and some sexual energy too.
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Here on out I'm talking to Karinus.
hey, uh (I ask in a slightly shy tone), sometimes when we share and have a bit of fun together, could you have 2? <here I meant 2 penuses, or should that be penii?) Then we could have straight and gay sex at the same time.
Karinus: "no dude I certainly don't mind. I like doing that sometimes.... as long as you do the same for me sometimes."
"ok, I can do that."
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This took place during one of the guided meditations today I have tried to recreate it here as best as I can.
I felt a highter finer energy when I did the running the energies earlier
K: yes. it is a higher energy .....(here I felt like Karinus's attention was drawn elsewhere briefly.) " Longbeard says it's a higher dimensional resonance energy that you are aware enough to feel or be sensitive too. Congratulations. you've grown up at least a step, congrats dude."
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was that avian that came to me during one of my guided meditations a misfit member? female? feels a bit male, very sexy, I do feel some attraction towards her..
K: She's a member of The Misfits. She is a female, but sometimes she likes to grow, manifest, a penis so she can mount certain males, or when she's in the mood. You do know that she likes you, you know. The 2 of you do have a resonance in your energy. She's hot dude, believe me.
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I guess being lovers with fellow group members is normal?
K: indeed, we are a big happy family. Though you'll resonate more with certain ones then others. Some will be close lovers and others maybe more like friends with benefits, and others lovers, but not close lovers.
So some you'll be close lovers, close resonance with your energy, like me and Feathers, and others. I do have a feel for who you may have the closes resonance with.
Me: like a plant or tentacled being? I've seen those images in my mind a few times since the day or 2 after I officially joined.
K: They are a little shy, sorta introducing themselves in a way, but a bit to shy to say anything, unlike feathers. I think you may have a resonance with them. Especially the tentacled being. he is part plant. Though with the appendages he has, saying he is maybe a bit ... leaving out a bit. though he does identify himself as male and his energy feels mainly male. I think the 2 of you will have a close resonance. Maybe not as close as me and Feathers, but I think if the 2 of you spend some time together and get to know each other better, it'll grow into a close resonance. as close as ours and yours and feathers.
The tentacle being you mentioned before, I think you said he does a sound board or something?
K: Sound levels and audio mix, and some other things yes. and Yes i did mean him. he is part plant, so to speak. He's a bit shy and withdrawn. The 2 of you'll have to spend time together to get to know each other better. maybe more when you're over here on this side of things. Sine he knows your time there is temporary, though the 2 of you may talk, he may not open up till you are fully here since you'll be your full true self and will have everything back, soul memories knowledge, you won't be 3d, and so on.
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Think I talked with him a bit, he seems nice but a bit reserved.
K: yep, that sounds like him. just wait till the 2 of you get to know each other, just takes time.
he said something, as I was looking at a picture. he said his race reproduces by putting eggs into people?
K: yes, part of why some are uneasy around him. But the thing is it has to be consensual and originally the egg would grow, and the young within, only if the 2 had some resonance, love, between them. Being immortal as souls are now, that is very seldom done, but that, all sorts of rumors and the fact he looks so unusual, is why some feel uneasy around him. his race isn't exactly numerous, especially compared to some others.
Like some feel uneasy are scared of reptilian races and insect ones?
K: Sadly yes.
"scale on feather action. " The voice was in a good natured kidding way. "She really likes you you know." This was done in a serious tone of voice. My intuition, or some inner sense said this was another member of The Misfits. "Hmm, scale, scales. Hey, you wouldn't mind a nickname like scales would you?"
I thought it over briefly then said no, I don't mind.
"Scales it is then."
So it seems my nickname in The Misfits is Scales. I don't mind.
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So, am I the only scaly person in The Misfits?
karinus: "no, funny thing though is that "scales." never has come up before for any of the other members who has scales."
The avian female, is her name feathers or something?
Karinus; "yes, she likes to preen her feathers a lot sometimes. But calling her preen, that sounds to demeaning, so we thought up feathers instead. She doesn't mind and seems to like it."
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While I was laying down to take a nap the female avian came to me again and we talked briefly.
Her: "Hello dear." She said as I could feel her wrapping her wings around me again and I could feel the soft downy feathers of her belly on mine.
"So, your nick name in The Misfits is Feathers?"
Feathers: "yes, & you can call me that if you want." I felt her hands rub my behind in a sexual manner. I, a bit shyly moved mine to do the same to hers. "I'm sure you can feel how much our energy... resonates."
"yea I can. I also feel a deep love that we share. Is that part of the resonating?"
Feathers: "yes dear. When the energy of 2 souls resonates like ours, a deep shared love between the 2 is natural. But I can't wait till you are back here. and I can get your (I'll say the medical term penis here, she used another word.) into my cloaca. One little tip about me. one of my kinks is I like knots. Though the dolphin prehensile penis does seem interesting also. mmmmm." she said in a sexy erotic tone. "you're diffidently going to fertilize some of my next eggs. Most diffidently." and I got the impression she was looking me up and down in a very sexual manner.
WHy do you want kids?
feathers: "not now silly, later on. mmmm, diffidently. Hey sexy, you don't mind if I manifest a penis (again she used another term, I feel more comfortable putting in the medical term.) and mount you sometimes do you?"
No, I would like that, as long as you have a knot sometimes.
Feathers: "diffidently, but you need to get to sleep, and we have plenty of time. Though we still have to wait till you return back here." she said in a bit of a disappointing voice. During this i felt us sharing energy in a very light way, and the energy had same sexual energy mixed in. it was us sharing some of our shared love as energy and some sexual energy too.
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Here on out I'm talking to Karinus.
hey, uh (I ask in a slightly shy tone), sometimes when we share and have a bit of fun together, could you have 2? <here I meant 2 penuses, or should that be penii?) Then we could have straight and gay sex at the same time.
Karinus: "no dude I certainly don't mind. I like doing that sometimes.... as long as you do the same for me sometimes."
"ok, I can do that."
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This took place during one of the guided meditations today I have tried to recreate it here as best as I can.
I felt a highter finer energy when I did the running the energies earlier
K: yes. it is a higher energy .....(here I felt like Karinus's attention was drawn elsewhere briefly.) " Longbeard says it's a higher dimensional resonance energy that you are aware enough to feel or be sensitive too. Congratulations. you've grown up at least a step, congrats dude."
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was that avian that came to me during one of my guided meditations a misfit member? female? feels a bit male, very sexy, I do feel some attraction towards her..
K: She's a member of The Misfits. She is a female, but sometimes she likes to grow, manifest, a penis so she can mount certain males, or when she's in the mood. You do know that she likes you, you know. The 2 of you do have a resonance in your energy. She's hot dude, believe me.
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I guess being lovers with fellow group members is normal?
K: indeed, we are a big happy family. Though you'll resonate more with certain ones then others. Some will be close lovers and others maybe more like friends with benefits, and others lovers, but not close lovers.
So some you'll be close lovers, close resonance with your energy, like me and Feathers, and others. I do have a feel for who you may have the closes resonance with.
Me: like a plant or tentacled being? I've seen those images in my mind a few times since the day or 2 after I officially joined.
K: They are a little shy, sorta introducing themselves in a way, but a bit to shy to say anything, unlike feathers. I think you may have a resonance with them. Especially the tentacled being. he is part plant. Though with the appendages he has, saying he is maybe a bit ... leaving out a bit. though he does identify himself as male and his energy feels mainly male. I think the 2 of you will have a close resonance. Maybe not as close as me and Feathers, but I think if the 2 of you spend some time together and get to know each other better, it'll grow into a close resonance. as close as ours and yours and feathers.
The tentacle being you mentioned before, I think you said he does a sound board or something?
K: Sound levels and audio mix, and some other things yes. and Yes i did mean him. he is part plant, so to speak. He's a bit shy and withdrawn. The 2 of you'll have to spend time together to get to know each other better. maybe more when you're over here on this side of things. Sine he knows your time there is temporary, though the 2 of you may talk, he may not open up till you are fully here since you'll be your full true self and will have everything back, soul memories knowledge, you won't be 3d, and so on.
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Think I talked with him a bit, he seems nice but a bit reserved.
K: yep, that sounds like him. just wait till the 2 of you get to know each other, just takes time.
he said something, as I was looking at a picture. he said his race reproduces by putting eggs into people?
K: yes, part of why some are uneasy around him. But the thing is it has to be consensual and originally the egg would grow, and the young within, only if the 2 had some resonance, love, between them. Being immortal as souls are now, that is very seldom done, but that, all sorts of rumors and the fact he looks so unusual, is why some feel uneasy around him. his race isn't exactly numerous, especially compared to some others.
Like some feel uneasy are scared of reptilian races and insect ones?
K: Sadly yes.
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Wedensday [8-26]
Thinking about it, I may get the drum, or some, drum sticks, later this year. Found a youtube channel about learning to drum without drums and saw the first video, the guy does seem knowledgeable and is a good teacher and my intuition says it's a good channel. Though it'll be months till I can get drum sticks so if I do watch more of his videos, or rewatch the first one, before that I'll have to use something unusual like toothbrushes, since they are long and handy.
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I did the the 10th meditation that is part 6 of awaken the light body. Running the energies was a sensual pleasure, moreso then usual. Also during the main part of the meditation it felt like I could reach a higher level of energy then I could before. The energy felt higher finer, hard to describe. for some like the Vee (the 3rd light body center) it felt for the 1st few seconds like I couldn't feel anything, then I could feel it. seems like I've reached the awareness or ability to feel a higher energy for each of the various centers and energy centers of the light body. The energy also had a love feel mixed into it & sexual energy also, hard to describe, that is the closest I can describe it.
I briefly talked to Karinus who said I had, he relayed a message from Longbeard who said I had reached the sensitivity to feel or experience the higher dimensional resonance of the energy. Then he said congratulations few reach this/that high, especially considering those on the earth at present. Think if I do channel later, like I did the last few evenings, where I channeled off an on all evening, I may try it off and on all day. I'll ask them to repeat it for the first bit, I'm sure they'll not mind.
All in all a great experience. I could feel the light body centers much better then before, including the SaHa, and the light body energy centers as well. Think I'll put this one up for those I wish to do again, over the next month or so roughly.
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Forgot to put down, Maribelle contacted me briefly. Some of the conversation was private which at her request I'll not put here. Though the rest of it I'll summarize.
Basically from what she said I'm out of the pod I was a member of, due to 1 of my fathers being angry, upset or something, and the other is agreeing, so as to not make waves. and since Maribelle's glory is on the same world, the feel I got is they would rather I didn't go there since it would or could cause drama for them. Which I can understand not wanting to be drawn into any drama.
Also with the drama going on at the at the new unicorn republic, I'll not go into details here, her glory has voted unanimously to sever all contact and go pure independent as they were before.
Seems there is just to much drama in some areas. My, my.
So that makes me a lone dolphin and unicorn. The more correct term may be rogue dolphin and unicorn, though the dolphin bit is not of earth origin but perhaps Sirius. But I like the lone term better, rogue dolphin & rogue unicorn.... the feel of those terms is ... they feel less resonance, lower resonance then lone dolphin and lone unicorn, which feels like neutral.
Karinus popped in to say concerning The Misfits, it seems they extended their official invitation just in time. I do agree with hir, it was perfect timing. & I do feel happy to be a member, not just the incarnated personality here, but also below that, at the soul level, or oversoul, whichever it is, at that level if feels great, happy, excited.
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got a text from the game master of the Thursday game. he'll be switching it to Friday nights. That means if I go I'll be missing the hentai Friday livestream. Also with my schedule a bit messed up, if I do go I may do 3 guided meditations, the light body stuff, on Thursdays so then I have just 1 to do on Friday, so that'll free that up. Since it is Friday nights, if I can't get a ride home I can still go, but I'll have to leave about an hour and a half before the game is set to end since with the buses not running all night. there is actually 1 bus after 9, but my intuition says not to catch the 10pm last bus, so I'll go on the bus that arrives there a bit after 9. I don't mind, not sure if the gm will mind, I expect he'll not mind. just I'd get less xp since I can't be there for a full session ever. but that does make sense.
I think on friday since I'm only doing 1 light body guided mediation I may spend a bit of time channeling, meditation, doing both, or whatever. I won't be locked into 20 to 30 minutes, but can make it flexible. The only main drawbacks as I see it is the bus fare going to the place will cost more then before, and if I get no ride home I have to leave before the session ends,
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The drumming I'll practice starting by watching the youtube video and as odd as it may sound, using toothbrushes, since I have no drumsticks and it'll be months before it fits my financial schedule. plus it'll give me a chance to see if this new urge/desire sticks or fades after a while. if it sticks, I'll get myself some for my birthday.
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I did the 11th meditation of part 6 of awaken the light body and while running the energies was a sensual pleasure, the main part of the meditation was not. I ended the meditation before it as over since the main part of the meditation was about experiencing the absolute as the title of the guided meditation mp3 file calls it, all that is, source.
I couldn't feel anything that Orin was describing. the most I could feel was an absolute stillness, nothing else. I also, for a while, kept getting flashes of things going on at random locations, of who knows where, none of the vastness,limitlessness, unconditional love, you are love, manifested and the manifested. I couldn't experience any of that since I guess I'm not evolved enough to experience being source, let alone merging and being 1 with it. The closest I ever got was seeing some place that had other balls of light around with a huge ball of blinding white light I could look into above, so to speak. the rest of the time I got the flashes of stuff going on at random locations, with the audio sounds, though that stopped after a while and I went back to experiencing only a absolute stillness. I wasn't evolved or of a high enough dimension to experience nor merge with source, just that absolute stillness is all I could feel. Orin kept going on about experience being the stuff I said before, but I felt none of it. I just started to feel some sadness that I wasn't evolved enough or of a high enough dimension, expanded enough or whatever the problem with me is that when I noticed I just started to feel sadness, I quit the meditation.
Overall a less then disappointing one, I'll certainly NEVER do this mediation EVER again. EVER!!!!! I have already switched my emotion to happiness from sadness. and have reached my inner calmness, relaxed non thinking. What a disappointing guided mediation.
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I did the 12th meditation for part 6. Running the energies was a huge sensual pleasure. During this an avian being came to me and we briefly shared energy, in the way that souls share sex, hard to explain, sharing energy, being, love, that's the closest I could explain. I could feel her, think it was mainly female, wrap her wings around me and I could feel the soft down like feathers of her belly against mine. She also sent me an erotic image of her posing laying on her back and her cloaca spread open. I couldn't tell her color, or see her head so can't tell if it was more human like, or avian or a mix. it was a brief thing since she didn't want to distract me to much form the meditation I was doing. I did ask if she as a member of The Misfits and she said she was and she had come to introduce herself to me, and asking humorously if I've been with an avian before, I said not to my knowledge. I got the feeling she was smiling humorously. She then said I should focus on the mediation since she promised it would be something special, and boy was it, but I'll get to that in time.
I briefly talked to Karinus who said indeed she's a member. I asked about her gender since her energy felt mainly female but had a bit of a male feel to it. Karinus said she does like to grow a (I'll use the medical term of penis here instead) sometimes to mount guys, if she's in the mood, or with certain guys. Hir also said that she likes me, meaning the avian female. (Karinus asked me to add that last bit of or with certain guys, he also wanted me to add that she is hot indeed and is a great match for me.
The main part of the mediation went super, a total opposite to the previous one that I cut short. Basically Orin had guided me to the temple of the masters, a higher version of it then the previous ones I had visited. There was a lot of light, pure crystalline light, don't remember the exact process but I was able to get as close as possible to being the real me, not the incarnated me, as I can at this point. I also felt a extremely strong urge and desire to be home, on the other side and with Karinus and The Misfits and my my own home and some of my mates, instead of incarnated on the earth, extremely strong, I was surprised at this point by how strong the urge was, it sort of was poof just there and extremely strong, wow.
orin had me then pick out some desires I had, I picked 3 and then put a lot of crystalline light energy into it and sent it into the future to a future date.
Then there was the ceremony of graduation. like with the previous 4 times I did this meditation I took the rod of graduation and it was put into my spine, I could feel it being put in there and shining with a great deal of light. I then felt it also lengthen and be also in my dragon tail was well. I guess since my spine continues in my tail, as it does with other tails. A must unusual experience the rod of graduation being put into my spine. Less unusual feeling it lengthen and grow so it would be present in the part of my spine that continued into my tail. It was also a very moving experience, brought tears to my eyes really. The graduation experience with a divine master there and 2 other beings of light. I assume Orin and Dabin.
Overall a great experience, I diffidently put it into the awaken the light body guided meditations I'd like to redo at least once over the next month or 2, no hurry. I could do 1 ever week, maybe some weeks do 2.
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Just thought I'd add in a slight observation on my switching to left handed and ambidextrous. I use my mouse only left handed, that is as smooth and easy as my right. writing with my left is still, slower then with my right and when I do write it sometimes is sloppier then my right, and not as fast. Also playing dr who legacy (a bejweled type game) my left hand is slower, then my right so that at timed levels I have to switch to play the game right handed. It's been a month, more or less since I switched, I assume it'll take more time till I'm equally smooth and have the same speed in both hands. I do hope so. Not stuttering is nice, the speech problems I have that do occasionally come up are those everyone gets now and then. I assume it's not caused by my needing to switch to right handed to play the occasional timed level on dr who legacy, and for stuff like filling out checks, which that only comes up twice a month.
Something else I remembered I had forgotten to put earlier. At the graduation ceremony at the temple of the masters, there were some others present. Some of them felt like The Misfits, not sure if it was all of them or some of them. I couldn't see them distinctly, but I do recall seeing Karinus and the female avian, among some others, most of their forms I couldn't see to well. Also some I did recognize was Spitfire & Maribelle. Couldn't see them to well but I somehow knew it was them. Though my other mates were either not there or were there and I didn't notice them, like Gaia, Sharra, Shalamane, Gar, and the others. I wonder if they were to busy, I don't resonate with them so we are not mates, they were there but I didn't notice them since they didn't bring attention to themselves, and remained quiet or what. no biggie in any case. I'll just say, "Oh well", mentally shrug and continue. I was surprised to see the ones I did there, at least some of The Misfits as well as Maribelle & Spitfire.
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I did the the 10th meditation that is part 6 of awaken the light body. Running the energies was a sensual pleasure, moreso then usual. Also during the main part of the meditation it felt like I could reach a higher level of energy then I could before. The energy felt higher finer, hard to describe. for some like the Vee (the 3rd light body center) it felt for the 1st few seconds like I couldn't feel anything, then I could feel it. seems like I've reached the awareness or ability to feel a higher energy for each of the various centers and energy centers of the light body. The energy also had a love feel mixed into it & sexual energy also, hard to describe, that is the closest I can describe it.
I briefly talked to Karinus who said I had, he relayed a message from Longbeard who said I had reached the sensitivity to feel or experience the higher dimensional resonance of the energy. Then he said congratulations few reach this/that high, especially considering those on the earth at present. Think if I do channel later, like I did the last few evenings, where I channeled off an on all evening, I may try it off and on all day. I'll ask them to repeat it for the first bit, I'm sure they'll not mind.
All in all a great experience. I could feel the light body centers much better then before, including the SaHa, and the light body energy centers as well. Think I'll put this one up for those I wish to do again, over the next month or so roughly.
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Forgot to put down, Maribelle contacted me briefly. Some of the conversation was private which at her request I'll not put here. Though the rest of it I'll summarize.
Basically from what she said I'm out of the pod I was a member of, due to 1 of my fathers being angry, upset or something, and the other is agreeing, so as to not make waves. and since Maribelle's glory is on the same world, the feel I got is they would rather I didn't go there since it would or could cause drama for them. Which I can understand not wanting to be drawn into any drama.
Also with the drama going on at the at the new unicorn republic, I'll not go into details here, her glory has voted unanimously to sever all contact and go pure independent as they were before.
Seems there is just to much drama in some areas. My, my.
So that makes me a lone dolphin and unicorn. The more correct term may be rogue dolphin and unicorn, though the dolphin bit is not of earth origin but perhaps Sirius. But I like the lone term better, rogue dolphin & rogue unicorn.... the feel of those terms is ... they feel less resonance, lower resonance then lone dolphin and lone unicorn, which feels like neutral.
Karinus popped in to say concerning The Misfits, it seems they extended their official invitation just in time. I do agree with hir, it was perfect timing. & I do feel happy to be a member, not just the incarnated personality here, but also below that, at the soul level, or oversoul, whichever it is, at that level if feels great, happy, excited.
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got a text from the game master of the Thursday game. he'll be switching it to Friday nights. That means if I go I'll be missing the hentai Friday livestream. Also with my schedule a bit messed up, if I do go I may do 3 guided meditations, the light body stuff, on Thursdays so then I have just 1 to do on Friday, so that'll free that up. Since it is Friday nights, if I can't get a ride home I can still go, but I'll have to leave about an hour and a half before the game is set to end since with the buses not running all night. there is actually 1 bus after 9, but my intuition says not to catch the 10pm last bus, so I'll go on the bus that arrives there a bit after 9. I don't mind, not sure if the gm will mind, I expect he'll not mind. just I'd get less xp since I can't be there for a full session ever. but that does make sense.
I think on friday since I'm only doing 1 light body guided mediation I may spend a bit of time channeling, meditation, doing both, or whatever. I won't be locked into 20 to 30 minutes, but can make it flexible. The only main drawbacks as I see it is the bus fare going to the place will cost more then before, and if I get no ride home I have to leave before the session ends,
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The drumming I'll practice starting by watching the youtube video and as odd as it may sound, using toothbrushes, since I have no drumsticks and it'll be months before it fits my financial schedule. plus it'll give me a chance to see if this new urge/desire sticks or fades after a while. if it sticks, I'll get myself some for my birthday.
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I did the 11th meditation of part 6 of awaken the light body and while running the energies was a sensual pleasure, the main part of the meditation was not. I ended the meditation before it as over since the main part of the meditation was about experiencing the absolute as the title of the guided meditation mp3 file calls it, all that is, source.
I couldn't feel anything that Orin was describing. the most I could feel was an absolute stillness, nothing else. I also, for a while, kept getting flashes of things going on at random locations, of who knows where, none of the vastness,limitlessness, unconditional love, you are love, manifested and the manifested. I couldn't experience any of that since I guess I'm not evolved enough to experience being source, let alone merging and being 1 with it. The closest I ever got was seeing some place that had other balls of light around with a huge ball of blinding white light I could look into above, so to speak. the rest of the time I got the flashes of stuff going on at random locations, with the audio sounds, though that stopped after a while and I went back to experiencing only a absolute stillness. I wasn't evolved or of a high enough dimension to experience nor merge with source, just that absolute stillness is all I could feel. Orin kept going on about experience being the stuff I said before, but I felt none of it. I just started to feel some sadness that I wasn't evolved enough or of a high enough dimension, expanded enough or whatever the problem with me is that when I noticed I just started to feel sadness, I quit the meditation.
Overall a less then disappointing one, I'll certainly NEVER do this mediation EVER again. EVER!!!!! I have already switched my emotion to happiness from sadness. and have reached my inner calmness, relaxed non thinking. What a disappointing guided mediation.
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I did the 12th meditation for part 6. Running the energies was a huge sensual pleasure. During this an avian being came to me and we briefly shared energy, in the way that souls share sex, hard to explain, sharing energy, being, love, that's the closest I could explain. I could feel her, think it was mainly female, wrap her wings around me and I could feel the soft down like feathers of her belly against mine. She also sent me an erotic image of her posing laying on her back and her cloaca spread open. I couldn't tell her color, or see her head so can't tell if it was more human like, or avian or a mix. it was a brief thing since she didn't want to distract me to much form the meditation I was doing. I did ask if she as a member of The Misfits and she said she was and she had come to introduce herself to me, and asking humorously if I've been with an avian before, I said not to my knowledge. I got the feeling she was smiling humorously. She then said I should focus on the mediation since she promised it would be something special, and boy was it, but I'll get to that in time.
I briefly talked to Karinus who said indeed she's a member. I asked about her gender since her energy felt mainly female but had a bit of a male feel to it. Karinus said she does like to grow a (I'll use the medical term of penis here instead) sometimes to mount guys, if she's in the mood, or with certain guys. Hir also said that she likes me, meaning the avian female. (Karinus asked me to add that last bit of or with certain guys, he also wanted me to add that she is hot indeed and is a great match for me.
The main part of the mediation went super, a total opposite to the previous one that I cut short. Basically Orin had guided me to the temple of the masters, a higher version of it then the previous ones I had visited. There was a lot of light, pure crystalline light, don't remember the exact process but I was able to get as close as possible to being the real me, not the incarnated me, as I can at this point. I also felt a extremely strong urge and desire to be home, on the other side and with Karinus and The Misfits and my my own home and some of my mates, instead of incarnated on the earth, extremely strong, I was surprised at this point by how strong the urge was, it sort of was poof just there and extremely strong, wow.
orin had me then pick out some desires I had, I picked 3 and then put a lot of crystalline light energy into it and sent it into the future to a future date.
Then there was the ceremony of graduation. like with the previous 4 times I did this meditation I took the rod of graduation and it was put into my spine, I could feel it being put in there and shining with a great deal of light. I then felt it also lengthen and be also in my dragon tail was well. I guess since my spine continues in my tail, as it does with other tails. A must unusual experience the rod of graduation being put into my spine. Less unusual feeling it lengthen and grow so it would be present in the part of my spine that continued into my tail. It was also a very moving experience, brought tears to my eyes really. The graduation experience with a divine master there and 2 other beings of light. I assume Orin and Dabin.
Overall a great experience, I diffidently put it into the awaken the light body guided meditations I'd like to redo at least once over the next month or 2, no hurry. I could do 1 ever week, maybe some weeks do 2.
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Just thought I'd add in a slight observation on my switching to left handed and ambidextrous. I use my mouse only left handed, that is as smooth and easy as my right. writing with my left is still, slower then with my right and when I do write it sometimes is sloppier then my right, and not as fast. Also playing dr who legacy (a bejweled type game) my left hand is slower, then my right so that at timed levels I have to switch to play the game right handed. It's been a month, more or less since I switched, I assume it'll take more time till I'm equally smooth and have the same speed in both hands. I do hope so. Not stuttering is nice, the speech problems I have that do occasionally come up are those everyone gets now and then. I assume it's not caused by my needing to switch to right handed to play the occasional timed level on dr who legacy, and for stuff like filling out checks, which that only comes up twice a month.
Something else I remembered I had forgotten to put earlier. At the graduation ceremony at the temple of the masters, there were some others present. Some of them felt like The Misfits, not sure if it was all of them or some of them. I couldn't see them distinctly, but I do recall seeing Karinus and the female avian, among some others, most of their forms I couldn't see to well. Also some I did recognize was Spitfire & Maribelle. Couldn't see them to well but I somehow knew it was them. Though my other mates were either not there or were there and I didn't notice them, like Gaia, Sharra, Shalamane, Gar, and the others. I wonder if they were to busy, I don't resonate with them so we are not mates, they were there but I didn't notice them since they didn't bring attention to themselves, and remained quiet or what. no biggie in any case. I'll just say, "Oh well", mentally shrug and continue. I was surprised to see the ones I did there, at least some of The Misfits as well as Maribelle & Spitfire.
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64 KARINUS [Tuesday 8-25]
So, if I wanted to learn a bit of how to play a musical instrument should I or would you advise waiting till I'm on the other side.
K: sure if you want, but I'd stick with whistling, don't need anything to buy to do that, but learning how to do so musically you'll find scant, if any, information and it'll be hard to find. otherwise I'd pick drums, which you play here, now and then, not all the time, more of a fun thing. Just do one of those drum pads, no need to get anything else. those sets are to expensive. you can learn 1 or 2 others, maybe if you realy want, but i'd stick with just 1 really dude. If you become really decent in your estimation, then maybe study a 2nd, but you've not a lot of time left there, not sure if I should mention that, won't say how long till your next exit point, first one really since there is no guarantee by the time it becomes your present that everything will be greenlit by the committee for you to leave, since it's like a carpet woven, everything has to be properly woven to all fit smoothly.
So just pick 1 really, if you want. You'll have plenty of time to improve your musical whistling here, and others if you really want to learn. and your drumming as well here. Once you're here I'd focus on your drumming and musical whistling, maybe pick up rhythm guitar if you want, but all that is for here. Different then there.
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That was you that came to hug and kiss me wasn't it during a meditation. It did feel like we shared love, a deep love perhaps.
K: yea dude, I just wanted to show you bit of affection.
it was fun, I do hope we can do this again in the future.
K: oh we will dude.
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So, anything you'd like to say?
K: Lots of stuff dude. but I"ll take my time to not tire your your typing. Yes, we are best buds, or were before you incarnated, and the original you. But I feel more resonance with this new you. the love runs deeper. and I feel the runs in both directions dude.
I'm very happy you're one of us, one of The Misfits now, it's gonna be great dude, believe me.
you are doing great, keep up with what you're doing. And to avoid drama, "oh well." including self only drama. and Getting worked up over really unimportant things. Though you are far less likely to do that currently.
I think your human form looks cute & sexy, but your soul form is far more flexible and more sexy.
Things are going great for you and they'll only get better as time passes.
for now relax, have faith, have no fear. continue according your plans.
Me: I guess you are an anthro shark?
K: indeed, that is/was my natural form, though I can change to other forms like a non anthro.
I look forward to when you can be with me fully. With the rest of us. It'll be not to long, have faith in that and in yourself. faith. belief.
Things will go great and soon we can all be together again, as we should be. the 2 of us, all The Misfits, our friends, lovers, your friends & lovers, and so on. Just relax, have faith, try to enjoy things as much as you can while there, it'll help the time to pass more & help to keep you clear. lover.
Believe me dude, things will be so much better here. We'll have a lot of fun together, and the rest of your friends, lovers and such. As you have been told, earth is the exception, well one of the exceptions, rather then the rule. That is the truth all over.
Me: So you're a herm like I am?
K: yes, though like you I can be one gender or the other, I usually don't bother to change though, remaining a herm most of the time. Though sometimes I may be in more of a male mood so may change, if I feel like it.
you help more people then you suspect and in ways you may not know.
me: nah, I'm basically a hermit.
Karinus: still you do help people and the earth a lot in ways you do not know and not at present. Where you go you leave an energy that may help others in the future, also you help the earth grid and the earth itself by just being there.
Me: I wonder what the live review will be like once I get back.
Karinus: you'll discover stuff you have not known or suspected. But I do not think you'll have shame for some of your actions in the past as many do. I think you've moved past that or close to being past that.
Me: "true, no one is perfect. Many have taught me many lessons, even ones I was not aware of at the time, and maybe are not aware of as of yet. Say, will you be on one of the councils I'll meet with after or during a life review.
Karinus: (in a humorous voice): oh, no not me. I may be high up, but I'm not that high up. if I am or not I'll leave that for when you get back.
K: sure if you want, but I'd stick with whistling, don't need anything to buy to do that, but learning how to do so musically you'll find scant, if any, information and it'll be hard to find. otherwise I'd pick drums, which you play here, now and then, not all the time, more of a fun thing. Just do one of those drum pads, no need to get anything else. those sets are to expensive. you can learn 1 or 2 others, maybe if you realy want, but i'd stick with just 1 really dude. If you become really decent in your estimation, then maybe study a 2nd, but you've not a lot of time left there, not sure if I should mention that, won't say how long till your next exit point, first one really since there is no guarantee by the time it becomes your present that everything will be greenlit by the committee for you to leave, since it's like a carpet woven, everything has to be properly woven to all fit smoothly.
So just pick 1 really, if you want. You'll have plenty of time to improve your musical whistling here, and others if you really want to learn. and your drumming as well here. Once you're here I'd focus on your drumming and musical whistling, maybe pick up rhythm guitar if you want, but all that is for here. Different then there.
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That was you that came to hug and kiss me wasn't it during a meditation. It did feel like we shared love, a deep love perhaps.
K: yea dude, I just wanted to show you bit of affection.
it was fun, I do hope we can do this again in the future.
K: oh we will dude.
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So, anything you'd like to say?
K: Lots of stuff dude. but I"ll take my time to not tire your your typing. Yes, we are best buds, or were before you incarnated, and the original you. But I feel more resonance with this new you. the love runs deeper. and I feel the runs in both directions dude.
I'm very happy you're one of us, one of The Misfits now, it's gonna be great dude, believe me.
you are doing great, keep up with what you're doing. And to avoid drama, "oh well." including self only drama. and Getting worked up over really unimportant things. Though you are far less likely to do that currently.
I think your human form looks cute & sexy, but your soul form is far more flexible and more sexy.
Things are going great for you and they'll only get better as time passes.
for now relax, have faith, have no fear. continue according your plans.
Me: I guess you are an anthro shark?
K: indeed, that is/was my natural form, though I can change to other forms like a non anthro.
I look forward to when you can be with me fully. With the rest of us. It'll be not to long, have faith in that and in yourself. faith. belief.
Things will go great and soon we can all be together again, as we should be. the 2 of us, all The Misfits, our friends, lovers, your friends & lovers, and so on. Just relax, have faith, try to enjoy things as much as you can while there, it'll help the time to pass more & help to keep you clear. lover.
Believe me dude, things will be so much better here. We'll have a lot of fun together, and the rest of your friends, lovers and such. As you have been told, earth is the exception, well one of the exceptions, rather then the rule. That is the truth all over.
Me: So you're a herm like I am?
K: yes, though like you I can be one gender or the other, I usually don't bother to change though, remaining a herm most of the time. Though sometimes I may be in more of a male mood so may change, if I feel like it.
you help more people then you suspect and in ways you may not know.
me: nah, I'm basically a hermit.
Karinus: still you do help people and the earth a lot in ways you do not know and not at present. Where you go you leave an energy that may help others in the future, also you help the earth grid and the earth itself by just being there.
Me: I wonder what the live review will be like once I get back.
Karinus: you'll discover stuff you have not known or suspected. But I do not think you'll have shame for some of your actions in the past as many do. I think you've moved past that or close to being past that.
Me: "true, no one is perfect. Many have taught me many lessons, even ones I was not aware of at the time, and maybe are not aware of as of yet. Say, will you be on one of the councils I'll meet with after or during a life review.
Karinus: (in a humorous voice): oh, no not me. I may be high up, but I'm not that high up. if I am or not I'll leave that for when you get back.
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