Thinking about it, I may get the drum, or some, drum sticks, later this year. Found a youtube channel about learning to drum without drums and saw the first video, the guy does seem knowledgeable and is a good teacher and my intuition says it's a good channel. Though it'll be months till I can get drum sticks so if I do watch more of his videos, or rewatch the first one, before that I'll have to use something unusual like toothbrushes, since they are long and handy.
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I did the the 10th meditation that is part 6 of awaken the light body. Running the energies was a sensual pleasure, moreso then usual. Also during the main part of the meditation it felt like I could reach a higher level of energy then I could before. The energy felt higher finer, hard to describe. for some like the Vee (the 3rd light body center) it felt for the 1st few seconds like I couldn't feel anything, then I could feel it. seems like I've reached the awareness or ability to feel a higher energy for each of the various centers and energy centers of the light body. The energy also had a love feel mixed into it & sexual energy also, hard to describe, that is the closest I can describe it.
I briefly talked to Karinus who said I had, he relayed a message from Longbeard who said I had reached the sensitivity to feel or experience the higher dimensional resonance of the energy. Then he said congratulations few reach this/that high, especially considering those on the earth at present. Think if I do channel later, like I did the last few evenings, where I channeled off an on all evening, I may try it off and on all day. I'll ask them to repeat it for the first bit, I'm sure they'll not mind.
All in all a great experience. I could feel the light body centers much better then before, including the SaHa, and the light body energy centers as well. Think I'll put this one up for those I wish to do again, over the next month or so roughly.
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Forgot to put down, Maribelle contacted me briefly. Some of the conversation was private which at her request I'll not put here. Though the rest of it I'll summarize.
Basically from what she said I'm out of the pod I was a member of, due to 1 of my fathers being angry, upset or something, and the other is agreeing, so as to not make waves. and since Maribelle's glory is on the same world, the feel I got is they would rather I didn't go there since it would or could cause drama for them. Which I can understand not wanting to be drawn into any drama.
Also with the drama going on at the at the new unicorn republic, I'll not go into details here, her glory has voted unanimously to sever all contact and go pure independent as they were before.
Seems there is just to much drama in some areas. My, my.
So that makes me a lone dolphin and unicorn. The more correct term may be rogue dolphin and unicorn, though the dolphin bit is not of earth origin but perhaps Sirius. But I like the lone term better, rogue dolphin & rogue unicorn.... the feel of those terms is ... they feel less resonance, lower resonance then lone dolphin and lone unicorn, which feels like neutral.
Karinus popped in to say concerning The Misfits, it seems they extended their official invitation just in time. I do agree with hir, it was perfect timing. & I do feel happy to be a member, not just the incarnated personality here, but also below that, at the soul level, or oversoul, whichever it is, at that level if feels great, happy, excited.
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got a text from the game master of the Thursday game. he'll be switching it to Friday nights. That means if I go I'll be missing the hentai Friday livestream. Also with my schedule a bit messed up, if I do go I may do 3 guided meditations, the light body stuff, on Thursdays so then I have just 1 to do on Friday, so that'll free that up. Since it is Friday nights, if I can't get a ride home I can still go, but I'll have to leave about an hour and a half before the game is set to end since with the buses not running all night. there is actually 1 bus after 9, but my intuition says not to catch the 10pm last bus, so I'll go on the bus that arrives there a bit after 9. I don't mind, not sure if the gm will mind, I expect he'll not mind. just I'd get less xp since I can't be there for a full session ever. but that does make sense.
I think on friday since I'm only doing 1 light body guided mediation I may spend a bit of time channeling, meditation, doing both, or whatever. I won't be locked into 20 to 30 minutes, but can make it flexible. The only main drawbacks as I see it is the bus fare going to the place will cost more then before, and if I get no ride home I have to leave before the session ends,
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The drumming I'll practice starting by watching the youtube video and as odd as it may sound, using toothbrushes, since I have no drumsticks and it'll be months before it fits my financial schedule. plus it'll give me a chance to see if this new urge/desire sticks or fades after a while. if it sticks, I'll get myself some for my birthday.
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I did the 11th meditation of part 6 of awaken the light body and while running the energies was a sensual pleasure, the main part of the meditation was not. I ended the meditation before it as over since the main part of the meditation was about experiencing the absolute as the title of the guided meditation mp3 file calls it, all that is, source.
I couldn't feel anything that Orin was describing. the most I could feel was an absolute stillness, nothing else. I also, for a while, kept getting flashes of things going on at random locations, of who knows where, none of the vastness,limitlessness, unconditional love, you are love, manifested and the manifested. I couldn't experience any of that since I guess I'm not evolved enough to experience being source, let alone merging and being 1 with it. The closest I ever got was seeing some place that had other balls of light around with a huge ball of blinding white light I could look into above, so to speak. the rest of the time I got the flashes of stuff going on at random locations, with the audio sounds, though that stopped after a while and I went back to experiencing only a absolute stillness. I wasn't evolved or of a high enough dimension to experience nor merge with source, just that absolute stillness is all I could feel. Orin kept going on about experience being the stuff I said before, but I felt none of it. I just started to feel some sadness that I wasn't evolved enough or of a high enough dimension, expanded enough or whatever the problem with me is that when I noticed I just started to feel sadness, I quit the meditation.
Overall a less then disappointing one, I'll certainly NEVER do this mediation EVER again. EVER!!!!! I have already switched my emotion to happiness from sadness. and have reached my inner calmness, relaxed non thinking. What a disappointing guided mediation.
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I did the 12th meditation for part 6. Running the energies was a huge sensual pleasure. During this an avian being came to me and we briefly shared energy, in the way that souls share sex, hard to explain, sharing energy, being, love, that's the closest I could explain. I could feel her, think it was mainly female, wrap her wings around me and I could feel the soft down like feathers of her belly against mine. She also sent me an erotic image of her posing laying on her back and her cloaca spread open. I couldn't tell her color, or see her head so can't tell if it was more human like, or avian or a mix. it was a brief thing since she didn't want to distract me to much form the meditation I was doing. I did ask if she as a member of The Misfits and she said she was and she had come to introduce herself to me, and asking humorously if I've been with an avian before, I said not to my knowledge. I got the feeling she was smiling humorously. She then said I should focus on the mediation since she promised it would be something special, and boy was it, but I'll get to that in time.
I briefly talked to Karinus who said indeed she's a member. I asked about her gender since her energy felt mainly female but had a bit of a male feel to it. Karinus said she does like to grow a (I'll use the medical term of penis here instead) sometimes to mount guys, if she's in the mood, or with certain guys. Hir also said that she likes me, meaning the avian female. (Karinus asked me to add that last bit of or with certain guys, he also wanted me to add that she is hot indeed and is a great match for me.
The main part of the mediation went super, a total opposite to the previous one that I cut short. Basically Orin had guided me to the temple of the masters, a higher version of it then the previous ones I had visited. There was a lot of light, pure crystalline light, don't remember the exact process but I was able to get as close as possible to being the real me, not the incarnated me, as I can at this point. I also felt a extremely strong urge and desire to be home, on the other side and with Karinus and The Misfits and my my own home and some of my mates, instead of incarnated on the earth, extremely strong, I was surprised at this point by how strong the urge was, it sort of was poof just there and extremely strong, wow.
orin had me then pick out some desires I had, I picked 3 and then put a lot of crystalline light energy into it and sent it into the future to a future date.
Then there was the ceremony of graduation. like with the previous 4 times I did this meditation I took the rod of graduation and it was put into my spine, I could feel it being put in there and shining with a great deal of light. I then felt it also lengthen and be also in my dragon tail was well. I guess since my spine continues in my tail, as it does with other tails. A must unusual experience the rod of graduation being put into my spine. Less unusual feeling it lengthen and grow so it would be present in the part of my spine that continued into my tail. It was also a very moving experience, brought tears to my eyes really. The graduation experience with a divine master there and 2 other beings of light. I assume Orin and Dabin.
Overall a great experience, I diffidently put it into the awaken the light body guided meditations I'd like to redo at least once over the next month or 2, no hurry. I could do 1 ever week, maybe some weeks do 2.
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Just thought I'd add in a slight observation on my switching to left handed and ambidextrous. I use my mouse only left handed, that is as smooth and easy as my right. writing with my left is still, slower then with my right and when I do write it sometimes is sloppier then my right, and not as fast. Also playing dr who legacy (a bejweled type game) my left hand is slower, then my right so that at timed levels I have to switch to play the game right handed. It's been a month, more or less since I switched, I assume it'll take more time till I'm equally smooth and have the same speed in both hands. I do hope so. Not stuttering is nice, the speech problems I have that do occasionally come up are those everyone gets now and then. I assume it's not caused by my needing to switch to right handed to play the occasional timed level on dr who legacy, and for stuff like filling out checks, which that only comes up twice a month.
Something else I remembered I had forgotten to put earlier. At the graduation ceremony at the temple of the masters, there were some others present. Some of them felt like The Misfits, not sure if it was all of them or some of them. I couldn't see them distinctly, but I do recall seeing Karinus and the female avian, among some others, most of their forms I couldn't see to well. Also some I did recognize was Spitfire & Maribelle. Couldn't see them to well but I somehow knew it was them. Though my other mates were either not there or were there and I didn't notice them, like Gaia, Sharra, Shalamane, Gar, and the others. I wonder if they were to busy, I don't resonate with them so we are not mates, they were there but I didn't notice them since they didn't bring attention to themselves, and remained quiet or what. no biggie in any case. I'll just say, "Oh well", mentally shrug and continue. I was surprised to see the ones I did there, at least some of The Misfits as well as Maribelle & Spitfire.
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