I had an interesting experience last night. I had a female being come to me. The impression I got was that she was a female, an immense snake type being. But also I felt how she was my mother, mate and lover.
"Greetings, you may call me Lugia, please write it down so you'll remember it." she bugged me till i did so. i was unsure of what I was feeling about her so instead of forming a question I just sent the concept of my feelings to her with the intent of a question since in my experience and soul knowledge one doesn't have to send words with telepathy or however we are communicating.
"the idea it is not proper for me to be your mother and us to be also mates and lovers, and yes we are all 3 my son, lover and mate. We will talk more later, I am very proud of you my son, mate and lover."
She then left
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a few minutes, or maybe 5 minutes later I felt a male presense being pop up.
yes? i ask.
Him: "your soul name was Kulstor, it is now Darius, prince Darius to be exact. I'm here to merge with you and this is the proper time. "
me: "you mean like Alura? "
Him: "yes, like Alura."
me: "were you sent by one of my fathers or something? "
Him: "your soul parents may not be the ones you think they are. This merging will help with your current growth and transition. It may take a few days for the changes to fully assemulate, or at least as far as you are consciously aware of. Now relax the time as come."
He them merged with me, an interesting feeling. I went to sleep shortly after this but I had the idea of nagia as a name, no idea why.
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As I was typing up the last paragraph or 2, I had my soul father, or one of them, popped up. I'lll put it up in my channeling thing later. I did feel the same he's my father but sexual and love feelings, maybe I'm lovers with him too.
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2 experiences to write about here before I decide if I want to do a guided meditation or not. I finished redoing the whole 6 part of awaken the light body yesterday. My original idea was to during these 4 days I'll do the meditations I picked out that I want to redo. an idea I got yesterday was maybe instead I'll try channeling a lot during this time. I think I'll do a mix of these.
These happened either during my nap or as I was awake, hard to day. it seems as I was awoken but asleep, hard to explain.
anyway the first thing was I felt odd. I got the idea of was there being energy being streamed to me. I relaxed and did relaxed mental thinking then after a few seconds I felt a high order energy being streamed to and into me.
The 2nd was like a dream. In the dream I was walking down a street and going beside me was a large being, which in the dream was like a city bus. we were going along and then there was a car in the street and the bus stopped behind it and I continued walking along. I then got a poof of soul knowledge.
Basically it was what was meant by soul colors in what they said to Scarlet was, there are certain traits, characteristics and each one could be said to have a different color based on the level of development within the individual. So if one could see this one may have a number of colors within themselves.
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Had some soul knowledge come up consciously before I was going to do the meditation.
Lugia: her species could be said to be the progenitor reptilian that all reptilians and those descended from reptilians are descended from, avians came from dinosaurs who came from reptilians. dragons, nagas, alpha draconians, and likely others. her species is the progenitor species. Not sure if she is the progenitor personally but her species is. Hope what I'm typing makes sense, it does to me. I also wonder if this includes mammals since they came from synapsids, a type of reptilian. at least assuming evolution elsewhere is similar to earth evolution and such. Though I suspect in some worlds mammals never evolved, on others maybe only insects evolved, maybe on another avians never did, that sort of thing.
Ceta: from him I feel progenitor cetacean and maybe insect. he could be a son of parents who are a progenitor cetacean and one who's progenitor insect. maybe a progenitor mammalian and he was given cetacean progenitor from one parent and the insect progenitor from his other parent.
not sure how this exactly works. I suspect if I really wanted to learn it it could lead to very complicated explanations. So that would mean from them and my unicorn mother I would have progenitor reptilian, cetacean, insect, as well as being a unicorn Still quite a mix. and maybe that is where the prince or imperial prince comes from, and or there may be more to it then that. I'm sure I'll earn in time.
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Not sure what part this is from, It is the 9th guided meditation. Running the energies was a sensual pleasure. The main part of the meditation was feeling the different frequencies, which I could feel. The Ranthia at one point I could feel such a deep level and many frequencies of love it brought tears to my eyes. All in all a great meditation. Glad I picked it as one of the ones to maybe do over the next 4 days.
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I felt the 6 of us, me, Fred, Karinus, Feathers, Ceta, & Lugia, sharing energy. It was like a orgasmic high, but sustained at that high, and the energy came in waves that had a peak and a lower point, but the orgasmic high point continued, what cme in waves was the amount of energy. It did feel like it was dieing down after a while. Towards the end Ceta said for me to go ahead and do a physical release since that would help to integrate their energy faster and more of it. I did and afterwards I can feel some of the combined energy within me. I'm sure after a while I'll be fully integrated to where it'll be just my energy. Great experience, I do hope we do more of this in the future.
I feel at part of the purpose was not just for the fun and enjoyable pleasurable sensations, but also to help with our resonance with each other. It may have had other effects with me, maybe some clearing if I needed it, no idea if I do. As well as other things also like energy integration, maybe so more of me can be here. Not sure, maybe other things also. I'll not try to question it but just go with the flow, that is the easiest, though I will try to satisfy at least some of my curiosity also.
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With the former Thursday afternoon group moving to Friday nights, not sure if the Gm will still want me in the group since I have to leave early. I can see how he would rather not have a player who has to keep leaving early every session since that would be annoying. If so that is ok. It'll be for my greater good. Time for me to move on is what I'll take it as a sign. They are not anywhere where I am, they are all asleep, and that is fine since that is perfect for them.
Think if so I'll take a few months off from gaming. Decide what systems I'd want to play and if I want to. the thing is otherwise I won't be getting out at all. I do want to get out at least once a week or month to do something with some folks. I would look at other options.
I think I may take some months off. I would also look at the option of the Unlimited Thought bookstore. It's a new age bookstore that does stuff. they do have a free new age fair once a month. I've gone once and didn't turn out super, but I'd give that another try, as long as the weather is nice, as well as looking at the newsletter to see if there is anything free or low cost that meets on weekends I could try. Since getting home weekday nights is to much of a hassle when the buses stop and the majority of events end. So that is out.
Most of what they do doesn't really interest me. Though at what levels I'm operating finding something at my level would be hard to do. But that is ok. I'm glad there is such a bookstore around. they may have a lot of tarot stuff and basic stuff, but there is at least a place for such folks to meet and do stuff together, which is great.
Plus if I say I won't start looking for a rpg group till March will give me a chance to see if I really want to do rping anymore or focus on just new age, and I'd rather do that.
As for if I do I may pick the rpg systems of savage worlds, 5th edition D & D, with pathfinder being a fallback.
But first I would wait to hear back from the gm.
If it doesn't work out, I would take the rest of the year off. Write down what do I want to do, just write down what comes to me, or type it up into a notepad file. then narrow it down to what I really want and see if I can find something like that nearby. I do hope it doesn't' result in me being a total hermit like i use to be, going out to a few stores that are a 20 minute walk as my only time getting out and that isn't really being with people. but if so oh well. Though there is the illumine dharma group that meets a few times a year. Well I joined in late Febuary or early March and they have met about twice since I joined 6 months ago.
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