I awoke this morning feeling exhausted. No idea why. Lately that is not uncommon.
I do still wish I knew who and what I am, how developed I am at the soul level and how I can help that along and help ensure this is my last incarnation. Since really the very thought of incarnating has me feeling ick. Like not only am I dead tired of incarnating, but the very idea is starting to disgust me really. No idea why.
Also no idea why I feel such a strong connection to orcas, dolphins, western & eastern dragons, reptilian nagas, unicorns and pegasii. Perhaps not all the same level of connection or attraction. and why do i feel this at all?
Lots of things I wonder and no way to find out till after this .... incarnation is over, however long that is. I do hope this is my last and I dont' live past my mid 50's, which i really don't want to, in fact i'd rather just go right no this second.
I also seem much more thirsty lately then before, again no idea why and no way for me to know any of this stuff.
Who and what am I? How developed is my soul? Is there any way to ensure this is my last incarnation? how long will I have to be in this incarnation & that I'll never incarnate again? why do I feel an attraction/connection to the types of beings I mentioned before? why have I been more thirsty lately and often wake up exhausted, or tired?
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The very idea of incarnating I do find it a disgusting idea, one I really dislike for myself. if others want to incarnate that should be their freedom to choose. I find I personally really dislike it for myself and find the idea of me incarnating as disgusting, ick, sort of thing. I still wonder what I've posted previous and have no way to find out that I can think of.
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tried to take a nap. didn't get to sleep so after an hour I just gave up. felt some beings, likely nefarious ones, doing energy work on me the whole time, likely to ensure I am trapped in this hellworld. I really do hate being here. at least now I feel merely tired and not exhausted, so that is a plus. hard to breath just through my nose so have to breath through my mouth since my nose membranes are swelled up for some reason. I guess just cause they feel like it. god this is a miserable hellworld. these problems, eyes that don't really work to well, the entire world is to bright, to loud, bad vibes in many places, hard to breath at times. No sane person would come here willingly. I wonder who the torturer is who imprisoned everyone here is. I REALLY HATE IT HERE, I REALLY DO. and the all caps were done on purpose.
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started doing the last meditation of part 4. the bitch Orin didn't give enough time for me to run the energies when the asshole said she was going to. that bitch is always in to much of a hurry. I'll have to run the energies then listen to the audio when I'm done. what a fucking bitch. You'd think a non incarnated being would no be in that much of a fucking hurry. especially when the fucking god damn guided mediation is 38 minutes long. not like the bitch has to be in a hurry.
Seriously, someone should sit her down, force her to listen to daben running the energies with a stop watch in hand and when Daben stops stop the stop watch then she'd know how much at minimum to give. Again you'd think a non incarnate would not be in that much of a hurry.
I did run the energies but it took 15 minutes and was only barely successful. One I started some beings, no idea who, started interfering, doing some energy work on me also, at the same time. interfering, had to pause a lot to breath through my mouth quickly since for some reason, likely their doing, I really can't breath much even through my mouth while I was trying to run teh energies, but i did success despite their interference, whoever they where. Though it was just berly. also felt like i had a horn or something attached to my forehead, can still feel it to an extent, likely something they attached to help keep me imprisoned in this hellworld. Likely forever incarnating.
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I did the last guided meditation of part 4. I do emotionally an mentally feel better but I feel more tired then when i started it. i did feel constant energy work, likely interference from some sort of nefarious beings to interfere. I didn't see anything but the usual when I close my eyes, a dim sort of light in the background with billions of splotches and dots of light in front of that. so maybe 2-3 layers of that, hard to describe.
Didn't see any of the stuff Orin was describing, but at least once we got to the meditation proper she was in no hurry then. I felt some faint energy stuff. nothing of the dna being activated, being filled with light, evolving, cells evolving. i didn't feel any of that nor my sub personalities being filled with light and being absorbed into my soul. nothing of being connected through soul and going higher to soul all the way to source itself. nothing of being connected to and joining higher mind that is source. I didn't feel any of that.
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I really do hate being here in this hellword prison. why am I confined here against my will? I do wonder that.
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I do wish walk outs and walk ins were possible since I do want to be a walk out. I really dislike being here & do not like it at all. Whoever said we are here by our own free will is a big lier. I do NOT want to be here in this hellworld at all. No idea why those people lie and say we are all here by our own free will when I know I'm NOT.
What person in their right mind would come here? I know I never would come here to this hellworld.
Gods I hate being here. With no way to get any real true information.
I do wish there was some way to get information.
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More energy work being done on me, likely to help ensure I'm trapped and imprisoned here and can't get out. besides draining off some energy likely too. i have been tired all day and am still tired.
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I still feel exhausted. Though I'll try to do the 12th meditation of part 4. doubt it'll do any good consciously. to bad it's not key for me to get out of this hellworld. gods i do hate it here.
I won't be able comment much on what, if anything , happens since it is so long I find it hard to remember what happens during such a long guided meditation. Since I'm so exhausted I think I'll try to listen to it while laying down instead of leaning back in my recliner chair.
I did the 12th guided meditation of part 4. It went well. I forgot to run the energies but i can do that later. I feel tired, not exhausted like when I started it. I still didn't see anything really. I didn't feel much during the meditation. Overall I feel the same, except I'm tired instead of being exhausted. I do wonder if It did do anything or not.
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Awoke from my nap. First time I don't feel exhausted or very tired. I feel slightly tired, best I've felt all day.
As I lay down I felt some being appear and was overlapping with my upper body. I didn't feel like it had any low vibes so I ignored it hoping it would just go away, though it didn't until some time after I went to sleep. I did feel the usual energy work being done, my whole body more or less resonating, some like the abdominal area seemed to be resonating more, with energy streaming. No idea what that was about or what was going on. No way I can find anything out about what is going on so I'll just shrug and go on.
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I was thinking as I lay down about some stuff I could think over and write down stuff on 2 subjects. The first is what I wish were true about myself.
I'll be basic, no need to get to long with this. I'll do stuff as they come up instead of any sort of order.
For one I do wish I could really channel for real, and preferably a very high level being, or multiple beings like my monad group, or even higher then them. I do wish I was a very evolved soul, ancient soul, very high level & I no longer need to incarnate and have not needed to incarnate in ages. So that way I won't need to. That this incarnation will end soon, or at the the latest in my mid 50's, and very very likely before. That I could just be walk out when I wish, even tonight, and just leave this place for good.
The place Michael newton talks about in his books were true. and that place I use to be able to visit where beings/souls look like balls of color, were either my home or one of them. The other I've detailed in a previous post, last night I think, so no need to put that here. that at the soul level i was a, in no real order of preference: dolphin (not of earth origin), reptilian naga, orca (not of earth origin), western & eastern dragon, unicorn. maybe pegasus,
that the awaken the light body course will get me to being a monad level being, and the other light body courses I am thinking of getting will help also in this and or to get me higher then being a monad level being. (though really I'd much rater be a walk out and get out of this world forever, never incarnating anywhere).
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The nest is what questions I'd get answers to if I had access to the truth. This may take a while since I'll again do it as it comes to me, and I may add to this tonight.
How old my soul is? Do I need to incarnate after this? where is my true home? Where will my home or homes be once this <censored> incarnation is over? How long will this <censored< incarnation go on for? how highly developed,evolved am I? am I close to being a monad level being? if not or if so, how do i help myself to get to the highest level I can during the rest of this <censored> incarnation? What sorts of stuff do I do once I'm back at my true soul home or homes?
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Felt more resonating and energy work being done on me. Likely be nefarious beings to ensure I am trapped in this hellworld. I wish either this incarnation would end tonight or I could become a walk out now, or asap. I do hate being here. and really hope whenever I am allowed out of this incarnation that this is my last incarnation anywhere and I never have to incarnate anywhere ever again. Incarnating seems like a stupid idea to me. Who in their right minds would come here? I hate being here.
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Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Tuesday [5-26]
Deleted previous post since I can't really channel and none of it is accurate & don't want to leave it here to accidenty mislead anyone.
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This, the 11th guided mediation for part 4 of awaken the light body was about channeling. And I got my monad/soul group type. My monad and their energy.
I don't recall all the questions or answers, but the general gest is trust myself, be my self, my true self. the group are my monad group and some are individual souls, some are reflections, higher reflections, of myself. They include like my the part of me that's not incarnated that I often call soul since it's a handy label, twin flame, my possible future self. My twin ray is not yet included in this. I may meet her during this incarnation, but perhaps after it is over. I got the feeling she is incarnated or may be, but either not on the earth or not where we'd meet physically. I'll meet or encounter her at some point when I'm ready along my growth and evolving. I guess when I've embodied a certain percent of my monad and have gotten close, a certain percentage perhaps roughly, to embodying myself as a monad level being, yet also remaining an individual.
I'm here and to embody myself, my true self, to become my true self is my goal. Also found myself thinking of my mates, twin flame and others I don't remember consciously but I could feel are there. Not here, but there as in my memory or I knew before coming here and will again when this incarnation is over.
Felt some slight pain on my left lower side but asked and they did manage to dissolve it and replace it with a higher light. the pain was very minor.
Think I'll not do this guided meditation not listening to the audio as I usually do. I may do an opening to channel meditation so I can get done with the 2nd pass of that audio course this week, then I can start the 2nd pass of the receiving clear guidance audio course.
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Since I can't channel at all and whoever and whatever I channel is totally inaccurate I Won't be doing the 11th guided meditation of part 4. Instead I'll move onto the 12th and last meditation, but since it is the longest one yet, 38 minutes. I won't do that one while listening to the audio before I eat. I'll do it without listening to the audio first. Then when I awaken from my nap if there's time I may do the audio. If not I'll maybe do it with the non audio But more likely if there isn't time I'll listen to part of it.
This one is about imagine your past being rewritten so you were born a master with full awareness and no veil. Only if I were a real master, but since it is the 12th meditation I'll do it, even though I know I'm no master. No idea how developed I was, but I know if I were a master I sure would not be incarnating here on earth, which feels like a kindergarten school. Masters don't incarnate here, especially not with viels fully in place witwh the sort of life I had. Anyway on to the meditation.
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Felt some energy work or something being done on me like usual. NO idea who are what is doing it or why. Don't feel like I really care anyway. Not depressed or down, just don't care. I stopped my meditation since after i did the reason for it I just stayed in that stage and rested. I stopped it since my constant tinnitus ringing got pretty loud so couldn't remain relaxed anymore really. Now to post this and delete the fake channeling from google+. I don't want any fake channeled stuff up that may mislead someone, Can't do anything about my channeled thread on Spiritual Forums since I'm not an admin, but oh well.
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I feel better now that I have deleted all my fake channeled messages from my Google+. No one one can be mislead by those fake channeled messages that I thought were real.
I do wonder at my level of development as a soul. I'd guess not very high since I am incarnated here on this world. So that is likely one big telling clue. Another is I'm dead tired of incarnating. I don't want to be here but back home, whatever home is like. Though no idea how many hundreds or thousands of incarnations before I can return home and stay there, whatever home is like.
I'll continue doing the awaken the light body courses, and once I finish those. I'll redo all the 6 parts. then i'll move onto the light body courses that I have picked out. That'll take over 2 years to get all the ones I picked out. I do hope by the time this incarnation is over I can evolve far enough to be finished with incarnating. Not sure if I'll be finished with incarnating by the time this incarnation is finished but I do hope so.
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Seems I'm banned from that spiritual forums I use to go to. Likely due to my having a channeling thread on there and not knowing that I am unable to really channel and I accidentally mislead some people and the admin banned me for that. It's ok. I do hope they deleted that thread so it doesn't accidentally mislead any body. Since I'm banned there I went ahead and deleted all the bookmarks to that site. No sense in keeping them.
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After the awaken the light body course is finished and the month after I go back over the 6 part course again. I think I may get the intuition course. Not sure if I'll get that or the heart one. I'll decide later, plenty of time after all, a few months. I think I'd prefer to get the intuition, higher mind, blending with my divine self, first, then go for the heart, throat, crown ones next. Then the 2nd light body course.
No idea why Orin & Daben keep insisting we are all masters. I only wish I were a master. if I were a master I'd not be here, that is for sure.
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Also I do wonder what would home be like if I could have whatever home I want to have, when I finish incarnating and no longer need to incarnate anymore. A great time it'll be indeed when I finish incarnating.
It would be a non physical place, or a place where those living there no longer need to incarnate ever. Also have it be non physical, but ones can have forms if they want, or if non physicality is not allowed that is ok.
The inhabitants would be dolphins, orcas, unicorns, pegasus (why not), nagas, eastern and western dragons. I'd have a home bigger on the inside then the outside and the inside would be huge. Larger then a castle or mansion, maybe the size of a small moon or larger. Also no one will need to eat. Especially none of the sentient races eating each other. And I can be alone as much as I need or want to be and no one will mind. Same thing with each of the other sentients who live there.
Also everyone would be immortal and open about sex, why not. it's only fantasy not what my home is like, so why not imagine it. No idea what my home will be like. But I do hope it's great, or at least comfortable.
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I do wonder how many incarnations I have to do before I'm fully finished & how long this one will go on for. If I could wish it I'd wish that both this incarnation is my last and I won't live past the mid 50's. not since I'm depressed, but I feel I don't want to live past that age and I diffidently don't want to incarnate anymore and diffidently don't want to be here. Though as a kid soul I likely have hundreds or thousands ahead of me. Yuk.
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I do wonder if I have a home other then incarnating here and what it's like. I hope its like I said in an earlier post. or like that place Michael Newton said and I use to visit before I ever heard of Michael Newton. That I had been visiting since I was 17 back 30 years ago. No idea where it is or what it is. it's where everyone looks like balls of colored light. Wish I knew where and what that was. Can't go there since i can't project anymore.
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I wonder if I'll be more developed and what I'll be like once I've finished the awaken the light body course and have gone over the whole course.
I also wonder how developed and what I'll be like a year from now in June 2016. I'd have long since finished the awaken the light body course, the intuition, higher mind, blending with my divine self, ceremonies of initiation (heart, throat, crown) and I'd have started the 2nd light body course. I can only guess. But I'll find out a year from now in July of 2016. I do hope I'm more developed then now. Maybe even an old soul how has earned the right to never incarnate again. Maybe even earn the right to return home for good forever. I'll have to wait and see and hope.
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I am having fun with the Tuesday livestream. Been going on for about an hour now.
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I do feel an attraction or connection, not sure which, for dolphins, orcas, western & eastern dragons, reptilian nagas (not the half human ones), Unicorns.
Also I think pegasi,
I wonder why I feel a connection or attraction for them. Maybe I'll find out one day. also feels, now and then, like I have a horn, I can faintly feel at times that comes from my forehead.
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I wonder if I'll have a body of some sort once I'm done with incarnations. However far in the future that'll be. Or will I be a ball of light of some color. Unless those experiences were lies too.
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I feel an inner connection to some like dolphins, orcas, unicorns, I do think eastern and western dragons, and perhaps reptilian nagas too. Perhaps pegasus too? and others maybe, but less so. Not sure. I do wonder why, if there is a reason.
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Again I do hope this incarnation ends in my mid 50's at the latest and that it's my last incarnation. if home is better then here.
I can only go with the light body courses since I've no idea what else may be lies and what may not be. Not that all the Orin & Daben stuff works since I bought and tried their Lucid dreaming guided meditation and it did nothing at all. So at least 3 of their stuff doesn't work. The lucid dreaming is just a single 20, or so, minute course that I think cost $7, so not to much. Much more worthless and useless was the opening to channel and receiving clear guidance since what I thought i was getting was channeling the part of me not incarnated here, twin flame, future possible self, 1 then a 2nd mate , a unicorn and pegasus, the unicorn's family, or at least her parents. and had 1 encounter with 2 of her brothers and younger sister. Likely all lies, as well as the so called monad soul group that I'm working on embodying since stupidly that is the next level of my development since I had reached the soul level. I knew I was soul, but me and the non incarnated part of me are the same being. so supposedly since I realized that and that supposedly means I've reached soul level or embodied my soul being or merged or something, I wasn't clear on that, but supposedly I didn't need to consciously understand it. I thought that the channeling was way to easy for me. That as cause it wasn't real channeling. I wasn't really channeling the part of me not incarnated, nor any of the other higher beings.
yea sure. if I was at the stage where I had soul realization, realizing my soul and I were one or whatever. and was working on the next stage of monad realization, becoming 1 with my monad, merging with my monad or whatever it means. yea sure. if i was that high I would not be here incarnating. I'd be back home, whatever home is. I wonder how many incarnations I have to go through before I'm allowed to stop incarnating. yea, like I could get to soul realization, or whatever it was, that quick, in a period of 5 months, 4 months after I start the Awaken The Light Body Course, sure.
I wish I were that far along. That would be cool. not as cool as being a master, certainly not as cool as whatever comes after being a master. But one day maybe.
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I've already said what I'd like home to be like. Though I think I may not mind if home was where everyone is balls of colored light around points of consciousness. or if I could have more then 1 home. That could be cool.
As would being a starseed on my first & last mission here.
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I think once I finish the 2nd pass of the 4th part of awaken the light body, I think I'll go through and do the long free guided meditations form the Orin & Daben web site. Those are meditations that are at least 15 minutes long.
Then if I have time left, I'll do the longer ones at say 1 a day twice a day. If I have time left I'll go through the short meditations and do several of those. I'll do 2-3. Doing 1, type up my experience. do the next ect, till I do around 3. I wonder what I'll get from doing those free meditations again. Some I never have done. So by Wednesday evening of next week I'll have done all the free meditations that Orin & Daben website has, long and short ones. Neat.
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I did the 12th meditation for part 4 of the awaken the light body again. it's one where you visualize being born a master with the veil never coming down on you ever. I did that, and added in that i was working on becoming a monad level being and most folks were helping to teach me. Except for a few that were here just as friends to have run with, and a few friends were maybe teaching me very minorly. and I came here to get up to being a monad level being, and then go past that.
after I stopped doing the meditation, which I stopped since I reached the modern day. after a bit I did feel like i was floating. no idea what it means. I can somewhat feel that floating feeling still. Still no idea what it means nor any way to find out.
I know no one's reading this, but that is ok. I just do this blog so i can help organize my thoughts , feelings, and experiences and by doing so I may realize something or remember something I may normally have forgotten. So it's ok that no one reads this. if some do, that would be great.
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This, the 11th guided mediation for part 4 of awaken the light body was about channeling. And I got my monad/soul group type. My monad and their energy.
I don't recall all the questions or answers, but the general gest is trust myself, be my self, my true self. the group are my monad group and some are individual souls, some are reflections, higher reflections, of myself. They include like my the part of me that's not incarnated that I often call soul since it's a handy label, twin flame, my possible future self. My twin ray is not yet included in this. I may meet her during this incarnation, but perhaps after it is over. I got the feeling she is incarnated or may be, but either not on the earth or not where we'd meet physically. I'll meet or encounter her at some point when I'm ready along my growth and evolving. I guess when I've embodied a certain percent of my monad and have gotten close, a certain percentage perhaps roughly, to embodying myself as a monad level being, yet also remaining an individual.
I'm here and to embody myself, my true self, to become my true self is my goal. Also found myself thinking of my mates, twin flame and others I don't remember consciously but I could feel are there. Not here, but there as in my memory or I knew before coming here and will again when this incarnation is over.
Felt some slight pain on my left lower side but asked and they did manage to dissolve it and replace it with a higher light. the pain was very minor.
Think I'll not do this guided meditation not listening to the audio as I usually do. I may do an opening to channel meditation so I can get done with the 2nd pass of that audio course this week, then I can start the 2nd pass of the receiving clear guidance audio course.
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Since I can't channel at all and whoever and whatever I channel is totally inaccurate I Won't be doing the 11th guided meditation of part 4. Instead I'll move onto the 12th and last meditation, but since it is the longest one yet, 38 minutes. I won't do that one while listening to the audio before I eat. I'll do it without listening to the audio first. Then when I awaken from my nap if there's time I may do the audio. If not I'll maybe do it with the non audio But more likely if there isn't time I'll listen to part of it.
This one is about imagine your past being rewritten so you were born a master with full awareness and no veil. Only if I were a real master, but since it is the 12th meditation I'll do it, even though I know I'm no master. No idea how developed I was, but I know if I were a master I sure would not be incarnating here on earth, which feels like a kindergarten school. Masters don't incarnate here, especially not with viels fully in place witwh the sort of life I had. Anyway on to the meditation.
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Felt some energy work or something being done on me like usual. NO idea who are what is doing it or why. Don't feel like I really care anyway. Not depressed or down, just don't care. I stopped my meditation since after i did the reason for it I just stayed in that stage and rested. I stopped it since my constant tinnitus ringing got pretty loud so couldn't remain relaxed anymore really. Now to post this and delete the fake channeling from google+. I don't want any fake channeled stuff up that may mislead someone, Can't do anything about my channeled thread on Spiritual Forums since I'm not an admin, but oh well.
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I feel better now that I have deleted all my fake channeled messages from my Google+. No one one can be mislead by those fake channeled messages that I thought were real.
I do wonder at my level of development as a soul. I'd guess not very high since I am incarnated here on this world. So that is likely one big telling clue. Another is I'm dead tired of incarnating. I don't want to be here but back home, whatever home is like. Though no idea how many hundreds or thousands of incarnations before I can return home and stay there, whatever home is like.
I'll continue doing the awaken the light body courses, and once I finish those. I'll redo all the 6 parts. then i'll move onto the light body courses that I have picked out. That'll take over 2 years to get all the ones I picked out. I do hope by the time this incarnation is over I can evolve far enough to be finished with incarnating. Not sure if I'll be finished with incarnating by the time this incarnation is finished but I do hope so.
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Seems I'm banned from that spiritual forums I use to go to. Likely due to my having a channeling thread on there and not knowing that I am unable to really channel and I accidentally mislead some people and the admin banned me for that. It's ok. I do hope they deleted that thread so it doesn't accidentally mislead any body. Since I'm banned there I went ahead and deleted all the bookmarks to that site. No sense in keeping them.
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After the awaken the light body course is finished and the month after I go back over the 6 part course again. I think I may get the intuition course. Not sure if I'll get that or the heart one. I'll decide later, plenty of time after all, a few months. I think I'd prefer to get the intuition, higher mind, blending with my divine self, first, then go for the heart, throat, crown ones next. Then the 2nd light body course.
No idea why Orin & Daben keep insisting we are all masters. I only wish I were a master. if I were a master I'd not be here, that is for sure.
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Also I do wonder what would home be like if I could have whatever home I want to have, when I finish incarnating and no longer need to incarnate anymore. A great time it'll be indeed when I finish incarnating.
It would be a non physical place, or a place where those living there no longer need to incarnate ever. Also have it be non physical, but ones can have forms if they want, or if non physicality is not allowed that is ok.
The inhabitants would be dolphins, orcas, unicorns, pegasus (why not), nagas, eastern and western dragons. I'd have a home bigger on the inside then the outside and the inside would be huge. Larger then a castle or mansion, maybe the size of a small moon or larger. Also no one will need to eat. Especially none of the sentient races eating each other. And I can be alone as much as I need or want to be and no one will mind. Same thing with each of the other sentients who live there.
Also everyone would be immortal and open about sex, why not. it's only fantasy not what my home is like, so why not imagine it. No idea what my home will be like. But I do hope it's great, or at least comfortable.
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I do wonder how many incarnations I have to do before I'm fully finished & how long this one will go on for. If I could wish it I'd wish that both this incarnation is my last and I won't live past the mid 50's. not since I'm depressed, but I feel I don't want to live past that age and I diffidently don't want to incarnate anymore and diffidently don't want to be here. Though as a kid soul I likely have hundreds or thousands ahead of me. Yuk.
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I do wonder if I have a home other then incarnating here and what it's like. I hope its like I said in an earlier post. or like that place Michael Newton said and I use to visit before I ever heard of Michael Newton. That I had been visiting since I was 17 back 30 years ago. No idea where it is or what it is. it's where everyone looks like balls of colored light. Wish I knew where and what that was. Can't go there since i can't project anymore.
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I wonder if I'll be more developed and what I'll be like once I've finished the awaken the light body course and have gone over the whole course.
I also wonder how developed and what I'll be like a year from now in June 2016. I'd have long since finished the awaken the light body course, the intuition, higher mind, blending with my divine self, ceremonies of initiation (heart, throat, crown) and I'd have started the 2nd light body course. I can only guess. But I'll find out a year from now in July of 2016. I do hope I'm more developed then now. Maybe even an old soul how has earned the right to never incarnate again. Maybe even earn the right to return home for good forever. I'll have to wait and see and hope.
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I am having fun with the Tuesday livestream. Been going on for about an hour now.
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I do feel an attraction or connection, not sure which, for dolphins, orcas, western & eastern dragons, reptilian nagas (not the half human ones), Unicorns.
Also I think pegasi,
I wonder why I feel a connection or attraction for them. Maybe I'll find out one day. also feels, now and then, like I have a horn, I can faintly feel at times that comes from my forehead.
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I wonder if I'll have a body of some sort once I'm done with incarnations. However far in the future that'll be. Or will I be a ball of light of some color. Unless those experiences were lies too.
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I feel an inner connection to some like dolphins, orcas, unicorns, I do think eastern and western dragons, and perhaps reptilian nagas too. Perhaps pegasus too? and others maybe, but less so. Not sure. I do wonder why, if there is a reason.
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Again I do hope this incarnation ends in my mid 50's at the latest and that it's my last incarnation. if home is better then here.
I can only go with the light body courses since I've no idea what else may be lies and what may not be. Not that all the Orin & Daben stuff works since I bought and tried their Lucid dreaming guided meditation and it did nothing at all. So at least 3 of their stuff doesn't work. The lucid dreaming is just a single 20, or so, minute course that I think cost $7, so not to much. Much more worthless and useless was the opening to channel and receiving clear guidance since what I thought i was getting was channeling the part of me not incarnated here, twin flame, future possible self, 1 then a 2nd mate , a unicorn and pegasus, the unicorn's family, or at least her parents. and had 1 encounter with 2 of her brothers and younger sister. Likely all lies, as well as the so called monad soul group that I'm working on embodying since stupidly that is the next level of my development since I had reached the soul level. I knew I was soul, but me and the non incarnated part of me are the same being. so supposedly since I realized that and that supposedly means I've reached soul level or embodied my soul being or merged or something, I wasn't clear on that, but supposedly I didn't need to consciously understand it. I thought that the channeling was way to easy for me. That as cause it wasn't real channeling. I wasn't really channeling the part of me not incarnated, nor any of the other higher beings.
yea sure. if I was at the stage where I had soul realization, realizing my soul and I were one or whatever. and was working on the next stage of monad realization, becoming 1 with my monad, merging with my monad or whatever it means. yea sure. if i was that high I would not be here incarnating. I'd be back home, whatever home is. I wonder how many incarnations I have to go through before I'm allowed to stop incarnating. yea, like I could get to soul realization, or whatever it was, that quick, in a period of 5 months, 4 months after I start the Awaken The Light Body Course, sure.
I wish I were that far along. That would be cool. not as cool as being a master, certainly not as cool as whatever comes after being a master. But one day maybe.
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I've already said what I'd like home to be like. Though I think I may not mind if home was where everyone is balls of colored light around points of consciousness. or if I could have more then 1 home. That could be cool.
As would being a starseed on my first & last mission here.
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I think once I finish the 2nd pass of the 4th part of awaken the light body, I think I'll go through and do the long free guided meditations form the Orin & Daben web site. Those are meditations that are at least 15 minutes long.
Then if I have time left, I'll do the longer ones at say 1 a day twice a day. If I have time left I'll go through the short meditations and do several of those. I'll do 2-3. Doing 1, type up my experience. do the next ect, till I do around 3. I wonder what I'll get from doing those free meditations again. Some I never have done. So by Wednesday evening of next week I'll have done all the free meditations that Orin & Daben website has, long and short ones. Neat.
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I did the 12th meditation for part 4 of the awaken the light body again. it's one where you visualize being born a master with the veil never coming down on you ever. I did that, and added in that i was working on becoming a monad level being and most folks were helping to teach me. Except for a few that were here just as friends to have run with, and a few friends were maybe teaching me very minorly. and I came here to get up to being a monad level being, and then go past that.
after I stopped doing the meditation, which I stopped since I reached the modern day. after a bit I did feel like i was floating. no idea what it means. I can somewhat feel that floating feeling still. Still no idea what it means nor any way to find out.
I know no one's reading this, but that is ok. I just do this blog so i can help organize my thoughts , feelings, and experiences and by doing so I may realize something or remember something I may normally have forgotten. So it's ok that no one reads this. if some do, that would be great.
Monday, May 25, 2015
Monday [5-25]
I did the 10th meditation for part 4 and running the energies went well. Basically it was about the aura and bringing in different energy into your aura. I found the feel of my aura did change, but also it expanded in size as well. It started say about 3-4 inches and wound up around a foot or so.
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I was also thinking of some of the stuff I either read of what Treb said, and on one of the density classes that Rob, who channels Treb, had, some of which are free on youtube. No idea what the non free you have to pay goes into. But it doesn't feel fully correct. Some souls may do as Treb says, and rob says Treb says. Start off as incarnating as 1st density beings, 2nd density which I think he says minerals are, the move onto animals, simpler animals, then up to more complicated animals then onto humans. Then being a planet, then a star. Forgot if he mentions them moving on to being a galaxy and or universe.
it feels like some souls may do this, but not all do this. Some souls never incarnate ever. Some may incarnate for a while, only as sentient species. Some may do just 1 or a few species and some may do as a bunch of sentient species. Eventually some do grow tired of incarnating and stop, but others may incarnate for good.
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I'm not sure if planets and stars are a different line or type of incarnating then incarnating as a sentient is. It could be, but what may blurr the issue is the fact there is freedom of will, so a soul could choose to sample different things.
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Being a channeled being I wonder if that mean they can or can't bring some energy into the planetary grid, or is it only while they are being channeled they can do that. It may also be a reverse where they can talk to the planet directly so can bring energy to the planet, and bring energy to the inhabitants only while they are being channeled. It my also be just a different thing as well.
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For those nostalgic I'm sure one could manifest, say a section of the earth and some could play there, as if it were the earth. Though if one were to lower the density down to 3rd density I doubt many would really want to play there or go there. Maybe if it's left at the same density. That may be the key. Not the same as being incarnated on this or that world one had incarnated on, but one can create such a place for others to play on and I'm sure some souls do. Even monad and higher levels I think may indulge in this, though not all will.
& just cause one is a monad, soul, or higher then monad level doesn't mean one will never incarnate again. I'm sure there are some monad level beings who do still incarnate, and many who do not.
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I did the 10th light body meditation without listening to the audio and running the energies went very well, as did putting the energy from the running the energies into my Renawre cocoon and aura. And like before my aura did feel like it expanded. Not much else to write about.
The forum seems to be working now, it was messing up before.
I do wonder if I have one or more then 1 thing I do back at my home or homes. I'd guess likely several things I do since the thing is about doing what you like & want to do and & excites you the most. So it's like instead of a job, one has various hobbies & pastimes and not really 1 or more jobs. That feels like a more positive way to look at it.
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Deleted previous post since I can't really channel and none of it is accurate & don't want to leave it here to accidenty mislead anyone.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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11:06 AM
Decided to, after reading some stuff Scarlett said in her yourspace. I had some questions and decided to get some answers.
So, i wasn't incarnated before I came here? <no, the previous incarnation before your present one died of natural causes at a great age. To your question of what he did, he did something along the lines of what Duane Packer and Sanya Roman, as well as those who channel Bashar, Treb and others do. you weren't one of the first but did come along later and do courses and some lectures. it was a world where there are, and were at the time, what some would cal bipdal dolphin type beings. earth isn't the only place with what one could call dolphin and dolphin type beings. most of your past incarnations have been on worlds in similar positions to where earth is at the present stage, going through a shift and helping with that by being a conduit for higher energy into the local grid and in those more of a visible public figure who did help teach others. Unlike now where you are more of the quiet non public type since you are winding down on doing that on that side and in the most probable futures have you, at most, doing more of the Bashar, Orin, Daben, Seth, and Treb type of thing where you will be the one channeled, if you do decide to do that. Those are the most probable futures. As well as others like Spitifire deciding she may want to have twins, when the time comes for her when she starts feeling and deciding she may want to have her first child soon. Though that is the future since she and Maribelle, like you, do want to not rush into that. And literally with an eternity, you can wait a few centuries or millennia or 2 before doing that. Having your first children that is, with each.>
So unicorns are not incarnations, or pegasus? <no indeed, they are full soul beings. Not incarnated vehicles like humans are. it can get confusing since there are some like the Pleiades, Sirius, and other races that are or were physical and incarnations with a lifespan and such, but also there are some that are full soul beings and not incarnated. Then there are some areas where you can manifest as a soul being. So you could manifest there, say when say this incarnation is over, and walk around there as if you were incarnated there. Some areas do offer the freedom of both. Being an incarnated being and traveling or living there, or just what you call teleporting there and manifesting there a sort of physical body. Which would be a body in all respects. Some areas like earth that's not really done, not as of yet, or its not really supposed to be done. besides its so dense it's difficult to even attempt to do that there.>
So if unicorns are full soul beings and not incarnations, then I was made at the soul level or recreated? <indeed, though as we said before we adjusted the quantum fields. No need to use exact terminology, humans are not ready for that sort of technology so we won't describe the exact methods, but also reached back as part of that so you could say we created an alternate timeline where those were your incarnations. so both happened. it may seem like a paradox but at the soul level it's not a paradox. it was indeed you who Maribelle and Spitfire have been with before this incarnation, not the previous you. and it was not casually done, but done since you did want this, so we reached back to do that and the adjustments.>
Wasn't that hard for you to do? <not especially difficult you would see us as monad level beings, to use earth terminology and we had some help from higher up then we are, and some of your soul parents, like your unicorn mother and dragoness are, humans would classify them as monad level beings, as they understand such things, which is true in and of itself. Soul's soul can be classified also as that, but a younger monad being, so to speak, instead of a very experienced one like your unicorn mother and dragoness mother, parents at the soul level. She is an elder of the unicorns for a reason. So you are as full a unicorn as you are a .... what you call a dolphin type being, orca type being. your dragoness soul mother, and to keep things what you would call balanced, you had 2 mothers and 2 fathers. Though souls do not have genders officially, many do have preferences. your dragoness soul mother, one of 2, is more then just 1 type of dragon, she has been what humans would classify as eastern, western, naga, and other types, and yes in some classifications nagas can be classified as a type of dragon species. That's why you couldn't tell exactly what type of dragon your soul heritage is since it is a mixed dragon heritage. Your other 2 soul parents you know and from then you did get what you'd call orca and dolphin type being soul heritages. So you are quite a mixed being at the soul level. Though with souls you are not 20% unicorn, you are full 100% unicorn, but also 100% various types of dragons, dolphin and orca type beings. also the dragoness who is one of your soul parents is one of the soul parents of one of your soul parents, as you felt and knew before.>
What is with all the energy I feel streaming into me when I lay down or recline the chair back to relax? <That is us, what you'd classify as monad level beings, of the same monad and your soul group, doing some energy work, streaming some energy that has beneficial effects on you, helping you to embody yourself as a monad level and soon you'll embody yourself as a full member of this monad, as a monad level being, which is where you are headed towards. Also Maribelle, and at times Spitfire, do help in this also. They are excited to do so. Your twin flame does at times also, and yes since you have realized yourself as soul, a soul being, and are well along embodying that, the intensity has faded a great deal, which is the normal level of being where you are at present. You have reached that stage & are heading to the next stage. All will proceed at a pace comfortable for you & not to fast.>
So I'll still be a pod member and a unicorn, not just a soul? <some beings are souls and still their species, unicorns and pod members among them, and you'll not be the only monad level being who's also a pod member and a unicorn also. That grove will just have 1 more monad level being as a member. The pod is use to having monad level beings as members. Though some of the younger members are shy when around them. >
Grove? <this is the are overlapping where the unicorns, pegasus and currently the gryphons, and some other species live. and yes you are known to them and by the time this incarnation ends, due to your level of development and evolution and growth, will be more known once you get back, and due to word of your reputation since some, like certain pod members, unicorns, and others do look in on you from time to time, as well as some other areas of earth, though many have no real interest in earth, at least at present.>
So the dragon part of me is mixed, how many different types, here I felt like the one talking switched. <the heritage i gave you as a dragon is 3 types, what some would classify as western, eastern and naga. Though some, or much, of what humans say about nagas is not accurate. their natural forms are not half human & half snake. Though as soul beings they can look like that. their original forms were full reptilian and half snake and half reptilian. Though they were, or many nagas were, as sentient beings some choose other ways, chose to be of the light instead of giving into darker desires. working closely with what humans would call eastern dragons, some of with do live where the pod lives, nearby areas actually. Some nagas do live on that same world.>
Can a world support all those species? <indeed, it is different densities, but travel between the densities is not difficult and for some it's as easy as changing from this hat or shirt to that one. And the theory of an expanding world does fit where the pod is. it can and happily does, adjust to the population size, it being a co creation thing, the planet and those living there co creating the extra mass, where needed. the world is a high level of being indeed. The, what you'd call singing in the background is the world doing that in certain areas, that the pod has set up as healing areas where they use the native crystals to enhance their own healing practices as well as the world assisting as well. many do travel there for their healing. and the pod and world are not parts of the federation or whatever you want to call it, but are officially neutral, but are allies of the various light organizations, and there are more then 1 light organization. and the pod are indeed like certain Pleiades in their sharing, many races are. Though some feel that way about mathematics, or other things, singing, there is much variety.>
Think I'll stop now since I do want to do some web surfing and such. <it's been fun, feel free to channel at any time and it is a good idea you have to pause to pull our energy into your body energy systems> I felt like that one shifted from the dragoness to whoever does most of the speaking. it feels like the work together but through 1 person who does the speaking to me. Maybe the most skilled at being channeled or something. I did feel some of the pressure of excess energy in the top of my head, but can easily deal with it.
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I was also thinking of some of the stuff I either read of what Treb said, and on one of the density classes that Rob, who channels Treb, had, some of which are free on youtube. No idea what the non free you have to pay goes into. But it doesn't feel fully correct. Some souls may do as Treb says, and rob says Treb says. Start off as incarnating as 1st density beings, 2nd density which I think he says minerals are, the move onto animals, simpler animals, then up to more complicated animals then onto humans. Then being a planet, then a star. Forgot if he mentions them moving on to being a galaxy and or universe.
it feels like some souls may do this, but not all do this. Some souls never incarnate ever. Some may incarnate for a while, only as sentient species. Some may do just 1 or a few species and some may do as a bunch of sentient species. Eventually some do grow tired of incarnating and stop, but others may incarnate for good.
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I'm not sure if planets and stars are a different line or type of incarnating then incarnating as a sentient is. It could be, but what may blurr the issue is the fact there is freedom of will, so a soul could choose to sample different things.
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Being a channeled being I wonder if that mean they can or can't bring some energy into the planetary grid, or is it only while they are being channeled they can do that. It may also be a reverse where they can talk to the planet directly so can bring energy to the planet, and bring energy to the inhabitants only while they are being channeled. It my also be just a different thing as well.
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For those nostalgic I'm sure one could manifest, say a section of the earth and some could play there, as if it were the earth. Though if one were to lower the density down to 3rd density I doubt many would really want to play there or go there. Maybe if it's left at the same density. That may be the key. Not the same as being incarnated on this or that world one had incarnated on, but one can create such a place for others to play on and I'm sure some souls do. Even monad and higher levels I think may indulge in this, though not all will.
& just cause one is a monad, soul, or higher then monad level doesn't mean one will never incarnate again. I'm sure there are some monad level beings who do still incarnate, and many who do not.
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I did the 10th light body meditation without listening to the audio and running the energies went very well, as did putting the energy from the running the energies into my Renawre cocoon and aura. And like before my aura did feel like it expanded. Not much else to write about.
The forum seems to be working now, it was messing up before.
I do wonder if I have one or more then 1 thing I do back at my home or homes. I'd guess likely several things I do since the thing is about doing what you like & want to do and & excites you the most. So it's like instead of a job, one has various hobbies & pastimes and not really 1 or more jobs. That feels like a more positive way to look at it.
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Deleted previous post since I can't really channel and none of it is accurate & don't want to leave it here to accidenty mislead anyone.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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11:06 AM
Decided to, after reading some stuff Scarlett said in her yourspace. I had some questions and decided to get some answers.
So, i wasn't incarnated before I came here? <no, the previous incarnation before your present one died of natural causes at a great age. To your question of what he did, he did something along the lines of what Duane Packer and Sanya Roman, as well as those who channel Bashar, Treb and others do. you weren't one of the first but did come along later and do courses and some lectures. it was a world where there are, and were at the time, what some would cal bipdal dolphin type beings. earth isn't the only place with what one could call dolphin and dolphin type beings. most of your past incarnations have been on worlds in similar positions to where earth is at the present stage, going through a shift and helping with that by being a conduit for higher energy into the local grid and in those more of a visible public figure who did help teach others. Unlike now where you are more of the quiet non public type since you are winding down on doing that on that side and in the most probable futures have you, at most, doing more of the Bashar, Orin, Daben, Seth, and Treb type of thing where you will be the one channeled, if you do decide to do that. Those are the most probable futures. As well as others like Spitifire deciding she may want to have twins, when the time comes for her when she starts feeling and deciding she may want to have her first child soon. Though that is the future since she and Maribelle, like you, do want to not rush into that. And literally with an eternity, you can wait a few centuries or millennia or 2 before doing that. Having your first children that is, with each.>
So unicorns are not incarnations, or pegasus? <no indeed, they are full soul beings. Not incarnated vehicles like humans are. it can get confusing since there are some like the Pleiades, Sirius, and other races that are or were physical and incarnations with a lifespan and such, but also there are some that are full soul beings and not incarnated. Then there are some areas where you can manifest as a soul being. So you could manifest there, say when say this incarnation is over, and walk around there as if you were incarnated there. Some areas do offer the freedom of both. Being an incarnated being and traveling or living there, or just what you call teleporting there and manifesting there a sort of physical body. Which would be a body in all respects. Some areas like earth that's not really done, not as of yet, or its not really supposed to be done. besides its so dense it's difficult to even attempt to do that there.>
So if unicorns are full soul beings and not incarnations, then I was made at the soul level or recreated? <indeed, though as we said before we adjusted the quantum fields. No need to use exact terminology, humans are not ready for that sort of technology so we won't describe the exact methods, but also reached back as part of that so you could say we created an alternate timeline where those were your incarnations. so both happened. it may seem like a paradox but at the soul level it's not a paradox. it was indeed you who Maribelle and Spitfire have been with before this incarnation, not the previous you. and it was not casually done, but done since you did want this, so we reached back to do that and the adjustments.>
Wasn't that hard for you to do? <not especially difficult you would see us as monad level beings, to use earth terminology and we had some help from higher up then we are, and some of your soul parents, like your unicorn mother and dragoness are, humans would classify them as monad level beings, as they understand such things, which is true in and of itself. Soul's soul can be classified also as that, but a younger monad being, so to speak, instead of a very experienced one like your unicorn mother and dragoness mother, parents at the soul level. She is an elder of the unicorns for a reason. So you are as full a unicorn as you are a .... what you call a dolphin type being, orca type being. your dragoness soul mother, and to keep things what you would call balanced, you had 2 mothers and 2 fathers. Though souls do not have genders officially, many do have preferences. your dragoness soul mother, one of 2, is more then just 1 type of dragon, she has been what humans would classify as eastern, western, naga, and other types, and yes in some classifications nagas can be classified as a type of dragon species. That's why you couldn't tell exactly what type of dragon your soul heritage is since it is a mixed dragon heritage. Your other 2 soul parents you know and from then you did get what you'd call orca and dolphin type being soul heritages. So you are quite a mixed being at the soul level. Though with souls you are not 20% unicorn, you are full 100% unicorn, but also 100% various types of dragons, dolphin and orca type beings. also the dragoness who is one of your soul parents is one of the soul parents of one of your soul parents, as you felt and knew before.>
What is with all the energy I feel streaming into me when I lay down or recline the chair back to relax? <That is us, what you'd classify as monad level beings, of the same monad and your soul group, doing some energy work, streaming some energy that has beneficial effects on you, helping you to embody yourself as a monad level and soon you'll embody yourself as a full member of this monad, as a monad level being, which is where you are headed towards. Also Maribelle, and at times Spitfire, do help in this also. They are excited to do so. Your twin flame does at times also, and yes since you have realized yourself as soul, a soul being, and are well along embodying that, the intensity has faded a great deal, which is the normal level of being where you are at present. You have reached that stage & are heading to the next stage. All will proceed at a pace comfortable for you & not to fast.>
So I'll still be a pod member and a unicorn, not just a soul? <some beings are souls and still their species, unicorns and pod members among them, and you'll not be the only monad level being who's also a pod member and a unicorn also. That grove will just have 1 more monad level being as a member. The pod is use to having monad level beings as members. Though some of the younger members are shy when around them. >
Grove? <this is the are overlapping where the unicorns, pegasus and currently the gryphons, and some other species live. and yes you are known to them and by the time this incarnation ends, due to your level of development and evolution and growth, will be more known once you get back, and due to word of your reputation since some, like certain pod members, unicorns, and others do look in on you from time to time, as well as some other areas of earth, though many have no real interest in earth, at least at present.>
So the dragon part of me is mixed, how many different types, here I felt like the one talking switched. <the heritage i gave you as a dragon is 3 types, what some would classify as western, eastern and naga. Though some, or much, of what humans say about nagas is not accurate. their natural forms are not half human & half snake. Though as soul beings they can look like that. their original forms were full reptilian and half snake and half reptilian. Though they were, or many nagas were, as sentient beings some choose other ways, chose to be of the light instead of giving into darker desires. working closely with what humans would call eastern dragons, some of with do live where the pod lives, nearby areas actually. Some nagas do live on that same world.>
Can a world support all those species? <indeed, it is different densities, but travel between the densities is not difficult and for some it's as easy as changing from this hat or shirt to that one. And the theory of an expanding world does fit where the pod is. it can and happily does, adjust to the population size, it being a co creation thing, the planet and those living there co creating the extra mass, where needed. the world is a high level of being indeed. The, what you'd call singing in the background is the world doing that in certain areas, that the pod has set up as healing areas where they use the native crystals to enhance their own healing practices as well as the world assisting as well. many do travel there for their healing. and the pod and world are not parts of the federation or whatever you want to call it, but are officially neutral, but are allies of the various light organizations, and there are more then 1 light organization. and the pod are indeed like certain Pleiades in their sharing, many races are. Though some feel that way about mathematics, or other things, singing, there is much variety.>
Think I'll stop now since I do want to do some web surfing and such. <it's been fun, feel free to channel at any time and it is a good idea you have to pause to pull our energy into your body energy systems> I felt like that one shifted from the dragoness to whoever does most of the speaking. it feels like the work together but through 1 person who does the speaking to me. Maybe the most skilled at being channeled or something. I did feel some of the pressure of excess energy in the top of my head, but can easily deal with it.
Sunday, May 24, 2015
Sunday [5-24]
Not sure if part of this was a false awakening dream or happened fully
while I was fully awake, so I'll paste it here, and I already typed it
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This one could have been maybe a false awakening or not, not sure. I either awoke, or was going through a false awakening, again not sure. But my energy felt different, sorta like it was fuzzy or buzzing. hard to describe. Also I heard like someone stomping around the apartment as I was laying on my back with my eyes closed. Every time the person took a step there was like a bell or a buzz, not sure. Sounded like they then stomped into the bathroom and slammed the door.
I wasn't afraid, more like annoyed a bit. I then mentally asked for my mates, guides, soul (the part of me not incarnated in this body) future possible me, twin flame and added in any colleagues, friends, lovers I consciously don't know, and though I have never seen or experienced any angels or arch angels decided to add that in as well. Again I wasn't afraid just asked them to come check out what was going on, deal with it and any energy work needed doing.
After a bit i needed to go do something. I do keep a plug in light lit, it is not to bright but enough so I can see. I don't keep it plugged in since while I can let my eyes adapt to the dark, it is pretty dark in this apartment and I have bumped into stuff so thought why not have this light plugged in when I sleep. i usually keep it off, switching it on when I get out of bed, but at times I forget and leave it on all night. it's not very bright, but is enough so it can dimly light up a part of my apartment so I wont' bump into anything.
anyway I did feel my 2 mates and others pop in. Maribelle said she'd look into what happened. After a bit I needed to get up and do something but felt uneasy about going past the bathroom door. Something about the feel of the energy there felt odd, unpleasant or wrong. hard to describe. After I got done what I needed to do i want back to bed and when I woke up and went past the bathroom door it felt normal again. so I guess someone or multiple someones did whatever energy work was needed in there. again no idea what happened & if that was a false awakening, concerning the stomping and whatever it was or if I was really awake. I stayed on my back with my eyes closed not cause I was afraid, but a bit annoyed and trying to get back to sleep.
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I awoke and felt exhausted still. I stayed in bed for, maybe 20 minutes at least, not sure. maybe I dozed off again and still felt exhausted. I got an idea and thought why not try to see if I can get some of the energy of my monad and divine self and see if that'll help. I did that, first I mentally did it, streaming their energy into my body and energy systems. After a short bit I asked if they wanted to do this since i thought they may be better then I was and they said they would rather I did it. it felt like I plugged myself in, and could feel their energy streaming into my body and energy systems. I did this for a minute maybe, maybe more or less. It did feel like it helped. I felt a little tired and not exhausted. I felt even better 15-20 minutes later as I type this. not quite sure what I did or why it helped but it did. Maybe going to the grocery store this morning tired me out more then I thought it did.
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I did the 9th meditation of part 4, it was about running a finer gridwork and it went very well. Part of running the energies I wanted to see if I could include the energy from my monad, soul group, and divine self, and it felt like it went very well. Felt like also that Maribelle & Spitfire were both sort of here at my sides. The meditation switched over to Orin and she/he had a possible future self appear, talk to it briefly and incorporate some of it's energy and it's gridwork so mine now would become as fien as it's is. Then she had me do it again. The first time I had the intention of a year from now and the future me said things went well. There were some minor hardships, but those happen living here, but the light body stuff went very well, better then he suspected at my time and I was able to get ahead, farther then I thought I would be able to get ahead in purchasing the courses. Then for the other future me I went farther, after I had gotten all the light body courses and that me said all the light body stuff went very well, even better then expected. his gridwork was very fine indeed, and I did incorporate some of his energy into mine and I'd guess other subconscious stuff. It was to help make things even easier, more fun, ect, and that is great.
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Had a thought while I was in the shower. If I'm an anchor for the higher light here, what if I'm the same back at the home or homes & places I stay and hang out at.
It could be similar to earth. Some folks like me like to advance and evolve as much as I can. We enjoy doing that. The majority prefer to evolve and advance at a certain even pace. But those of us who enjoy shooting ahead and growing, advancing and evolving as much as we can can act like anchors for the higher light for others. Just being around the others helps then go grow, perhaps more smoothly, more fun, depending on the culture and what's going on and the personal choice.
Some I share with, may grow a bit faster, depending on how much I share with them and how often. If some of them share with others it effects them in a similar manner. And so on. There could be some around not as highly developed as I am, some that are around the same level I am, more or less, and some that are farther along.
All those I am with and hang out with are helped in a similar manner to the way I help some here. Though there they are far more aware of things, like the unicorns, pegasus, pod, and others. So through doing the stuff I enjoy, like evolving, growing and advancing and growing as much as I can, and being around others and with others, having fun, sharing pleasure, our being, energy, love, what some would call sex, having fun, ect I help others as well by being an anchor.
That could be a clue to what I may do back at my homes and areas I hang out at. maybe one of the reasons that maybe someone asked me to come here, original soul, or however that works.
Though with the way the monad group folks said, the quantum fiends being adjusted, I think they said, when I was re-created, I got the feeling and or maybe they said, that it as me, this me, that was lovers with Maribelle, Spitfire, and others, and had those post lives that the original me had as an extension of original soul. Though original soul and original me did that too. Though the feel I get is for souls this isn't a paradox, just parallel selves or they created new timelines or soul lines or something. hard to put into English what I mean.
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This one could have been maybe a false awakening or not, not sure. I either awoke, or was going through a false awakening, again not sure. But my energy felt different, sorta like it was fuzzy or buzzing. hard to describe. Also I heard like someone stomping around the apartment as I was laying on my back with my eyes closed. Every time the person took a step there was like a bell or a buzz, not sure. Sounded like they then stomped into the bathroom and slammed the door.
I wasn't afraid, more like annoyed a bit. I then mentally asked for my mates, guides, soul (the part of me not incarnated in this body) future possible me, twin flame and added in any colleagues, friends, lovers I consciously don't know, and though I have never seen or experienced any angels or arch angels decided to add that in as well. Again I wasn't afraid just asked them to come check out what was going on, deal with it and any energy work needed doing.
After a bit i needed to go do something. I do keep a plug in light lit, it is not to bright but enough so I can see. I don't keep it plugged in since while I can let my eyes adapt to the dark, it is pretty dark in this apartment and I have bumped into stuff so thought why not have this light plugged in when I sleep. i usually keep it off, switching it on when I get out of bed, but at times I forget and leave it on all night. it's not very bright, but is enough so it can dimly light up a part of my apartment so I wont' bump into anything.
anyway I did feel my 2 mates and others pop in. Maribelle said she'd look into what happened. After a bit I needed to get up and do something but felt uneasy about going past the bathroom door. Something about the feel of the energy there felt odd, unpleasant or wrong. hard to describe. After I got done what I needed to do i want back to bed and when I woke up and went past the bathroom door it felt normal again. so I guess someone or multiple someones did whatever energy work was needed in there. again no idea what happened & if that was a false awakening, concerning the stomping and whatever it was or if I was really awake. I stayed on my back with my eyes closed not cause I was afraid, but a bit annoyed and trying to get back to sleep.
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I awoke and felt exhausted still. I stayed in bed for, maybe 20 minutes at least, not sure. maybe I dozed off again and still felt exhausted. I got an idea and thought why not try to see if I can get some of the energy of my monad and divine self and see if that'll help. I did that, first I mentally did it, streaming their energy into my body and energy systems. After a short bit I asked if they wanted to do this since i thought they may be better then I was and they said they would rather I did it. it felt like I plugged myself in, and could feel their energy streaming into my body and energy systems. I did this for a minute maybe, maybe more or less. It did feel like it helped. I felt a little tired and not exhausted. I felt even better 15-20 minutes later as I type this. not quite sure what I did or why it helped but it did. Maybe going to the grocery store this morning tired me out more then I thought it did.
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I did the 9th meditation of part 4, it was about running a finer gridwork and it went very well. Part of running the energies I wanted to see if I could include the energy from my monad, soul group, and divine self, and it felt like it went very well. Felt like also that Maribelle & Spitfire were both sort of here at my sides. The meditation switched over to Orin and she/he had a possible future self appear, talk to it briefly and incorporate some of it's energy and it's gridwork so mine now would become as fien as it's is. Then she had me do it again. The first time I had the intention of a year from now and the future me said things went well. There were some minor hardships, but those happen living here, but the light body stuff went very well, better then he suspected at my time and I was able to get ahead, farther then I thought I would be able to get ahead in purchasing the courses. Then for the other future me I went farther, after I had gotten all the light body courses and that me said all the light body stuff went very well, even better then expected. his gridwork was very fine indeed, and I did incorporate some of his energy into mine and I'd guess other subconscious stuff. It was to help make things even easier, more fun, ect, and that is great.
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Had a thought while I was in the shower. If I'm an anchor for the higher light here, what if I'm the same back at the home or homes & places I stay and hang out at.
It could be similar to earth. Some folks like me like to advance and evolve as much as I can. We enjoy doing that. The majority prefer to evolve and advance at a certain even pace. But those of us who enjoy shooting ahead and growing, advancing and evolving as much as we can can act like anchors for the higher light for others. Just being around the others helps then go grow, perhaps more smoothly, more fun, depending on the culture and what's going on and the personal choice.
Some I share with, may grow a bit faster, depending on how much I share with them and how often. If some of them share with others it effects them in a similar manner. And so on. There could be some around not as highly developed as I am, some that are around the same level I am, more or less, and some that are farther along.
All those I am with and hang out with are helped in a similar manner to the way I help some here. Though there they are far more aware of things, like the unicorns, pegasus, pod, and others. So through doing the stuff I enjoy, like evolving, growing and advancing and growing as much as I can, and being around others and with others, having fun, sharing pleasure, our being, energy, love, what some would call sex, having fun, ect I help others as well by being an anchor.
That could be a clue to what I may do back at my homes and areas I hang out at. maybe one of the reasons that maybe someone asked me to come here, original soul, or however that works.
Though with the way the monad group folks said, the quantum fiends being adjusted, I think they said, when I was re-created, I got the feeling and or maybe they said, that it as me, this me, that was lovers with Maribelle, Spitfire, and others, and had those post lives that the original me had as an extension of original soul. Though original soul and original me did that too. Though the feel I get is for souls this isn't a paradox, just parallel selves or they created new timelines or soul lines or something. hard to put into English what I mean.
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Saturday, May 23, 2015
Saturday [5-23]
I lay down to take a nap but couldn't get to sleep, though I feel a bit mentally tired still. I did have a conversation with them with them giving me some mental images.
They showed me, not very clear or sharp, images of apparently the inside of my home. Saying that Maribelle and Spitfire had combined theirs with mine, a tradition among unicorns and pegasus. Though it's more of an overlapping type of merging since they don't want to give up their personal areas or rooms nor expect me to give up mine. My home can have, and has, 2 main entrances 1 to the pod area and 1 to the unicorn area. I asked if it's possible even though those are different densities and they said sure it's possible. There's also been another entrance added, to the pegasus area. They said it is immense inside, a mansion, with some areas that look like a castle, from the inside and a modest sorta house on the outside. There are various exits. one they mentioned leads to my twin flame's home, which will merge with mine when we merge and unmerge when we unmerge. that makes sense.
They also mentioned I could have an entrance or teleport pad to their level, the monad level or density if I wish to use that term, or I could have a tardis in my home somewhere, walk into that and use the console to go to the monad level. I think I'd find that neat to do that.
They said my presence and inner light will effect and has affected others around me, even there. Just my being around folks will do that. Even when this incarnation is over. Also it's effected those I share with more, and sharing they meant not just slight energy mingling, but also what some would call sex. Like it's effected Maribelle and my various lovers more then casually since we've shared energies and its' started to effect Spitfire more, but less so currently, but some have started to notice a bit. But many are not aware of the real reason and may likely put it off to her having a mate helping her to be a bit more confident, sexier in appearance, more attractive. or the like.
They then went into a bit not so g rated. Saying that mares do gather to talk including about their stallion mates & lovers. I did get the feel that pegasus are monogamous, or most are, not sure if all are or not, though I guess being sentient there likely may be some exceptions. They also said the fact I'm hung would spread. I was a bit embarrassed by this, but only slightly. Then I asked by what standards and they said unicorn and pegasus and somewhat by most pod standards, but what I call dolphin like beings and orca like beings. Some gryphons may want to check me out once they hear more. (I'm going to assume they were kidding about that). They mentioned I could change to a pegasus stallion if I want, my form being pliable, and that would really get Spitfire turned on, but over the long term she would prefer my more normal forms, those more native to me and my heritage.
Then they said some gryphons live in the areas near and overlapping the pegasus and with them. They are more recent arrivals. The area being deep in the light territory and with unicorns and Pegasus there they know it'll be a safe place to move into, and the pod doesn't mind. So i guess that means both areas, pod and unicorn/pegasus are multiple species areas. I asked if the gryphons and pegasus get along and they said they do, there are some hippogryphs also. I guess a way to say they have some kids together or a few did.
They said that homes could have doors that lead to other homes, like close friends, lovers, and the like. If one has children their own bedroom and playroom can grow over time into their own home, that can split off from that of the parents or have a connecting hallway. Though I guess they can just go and manifest their own house if the want too.
I watched a Dolores Cannon video last night about the afterlife thing. I asked how accurate is that for me and they said due to my level of development and mission I'd bypass all that to go home. I'm not native to the area and my native level isn't at that level anymore.
The group of gryphons are those who left the fae are Long ago and wanted a place to live in peace. The pod wouldn't allow any fae near the area, considering how the fae are in their own lands, as chaotic as humans in many areas and ways.
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I did the 8th mediation & running the energies went well. This was about abundance as energy and I focused on abundance of money and spiritual growth, figuring 2 types of abundance would be ok to focus on.
I also had a bit of a conversation at the same time. I asked about the belief that fae could turn non fae into fae and how would this affect the gryphons and others. They said that even if one does give into that belief system those gryphons have been away from the fae lands far to long. This group is an offshoot of the earlier original group. They parted over differences of opinion, but agreed to disagree when they parted. The original group believes they should remain isolated, based on their experiences in the fae lands and this group thinks they should incorporate more into the sentient beings community, that have nothing to do with fae.
Also I am indeed incorporating merging with their energies and mine, a monad divine self level of merging and I'll be fully merged with them eventually, at my right time, and will remain an individual as well.
also earlier, was a bit to embarrassed, and also forgot to type it up here. I decided to try masturbating till I got to etheric instead of physical orgasm and it worked again. This time I decided to see if I could include Spitfire into it and she seemed willing. Maribelle I did ask but she suggested Spitfire and said she was doing something. She didn't say what. I assume out for a run, swimming, reading, or any number of things she could be doing. Or off helping some folks. I feel as satisfied, or close to it, as with a physical orgasm. but none of the aftereffects of a physical orgasm.
Forgot to also mention, during the conversation they mentioned my being horny compared to others was some part of the rep that would be known to some, but those who heard of it know me and would think it would be odd if I wasn't due to being also a dolphin/orca like being and a pod member. Not sure about that. They could be kidding again, or half serious and half not. i just put it here since I try to put my experiences and thoughts on here since it helps me and maybe others. and by typing it up here I often notice or realize stuff I missed during the experience or think it over and realize something later. or get a poof later on related to it.
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I was thinking while I was in the shower and later while I was laying down to take a nap. Are sentient and animal souls 2 different types or just souls that choose, I'll just be cats, and another, I think I'd prefer sentients, and stick to it? Or are they different types of souls. Also if earth has a spirit or soul, I would assume its a type of incarnation. So if stars have spirits or souls also, could planets and stars be another type of soul? or be on another level of being then some sentient souls and animal souls are operating on another level?
not that the details really matter, just a fun thing to think about and ponder. And the knowledge that one day I'll know, even if I have to wait till I'm back home.
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I was watching a Picarto stream and could feel love coming into me, or a sense of being loved. I decided to explore this and could feel it coming from multiple sources. both my mates that I know of. No idea if I have other mates that I don't know of. Their love did feel pretty strong, twin flame as well, soul (feels a bit different), I felt others along the same lines as my mates, some were quite intense, both my mates and twin flame I think were among the most intense. Also multiple sources from the pod and others. Also the monad/oversoul, divine self, or whatever the label is, but their love felt a bit different, maybe slightly fainter? Maybe due to their vibration, density they reside at, or something along those lines. Maybe a different type of love, or a combination of factors?
It makes sense that my mates and others, maybe loves or other mates maybe, love me in a certain way. Twin flame may love me in a similar way to mates, but also soul. Soul would in a different way, and soul is just the non incarnated part of me, since not all of me is in this body.
The pod, at least those how know me or know of me, would likely love me in another way, maybe 2 other ways. That makes sense, and the other friends and such I may have, colleagues, ect, may in a similar manner but different. The guides, oversoul,monad, divine self, or whatever the labels are, would perhaps love me in another manner, plus their vibration may be higher then the others. maybe that is why it feels a bit fainter, and since I'm incorporating or merging witih them, their energy, growing or expanding to their level. So it could be as I continue their love, feel wont' feel so faint but will feel stronger since that'll be my native level. or one of my native levels. I would as them for tips but I'm sure they'd say to continue like I'm doing so I'll do that. I'm sure they'd say if I should do something different. and I'll continue to do this since it is fun and feels easy. So why not continue on the fun and easy path.
Forgot to put in, that I did attempt and succeeded in taking the energy from the love I was feeling and put some of it into my light body heart center then the rest of my body. For a brief time only. I did, and do, feel more uplifted, higher, uplifted mood, hard to describe.
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Once I'm fully integrated, expanded, grown, or whatever to the monad, divine self, or whatever it's called. I'll be native to that density, but will likely still live in a few, or more then a few places and densities. the place where souls look like spheres of color. that may be outside physicality. the pod area, where my mates and lovers are. likely close friends, and friends, or I may just visit them at times. Not like I have to quite seeing someone just cause I move up. it's all about what do i want to do, what excites me and what do I really want to do, not what I have to do. & it is the same for everyone else too.
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I think I feel an inner excitement. Not sure if it external to myself or another part of myself, like the part not incarnated that I usually call soul. i use that term since it is shorter & faster then to keep saying, the part of me not incarnated who's not twin flame whose also not incarnated.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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11:58 AM
Decided to try a short channeling this morning.
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So are you guys monad level? <we are as we explained, but one can say the reflection of what you call your divine self could be considered a monad. Some humans use labels for the same thing and sometimes the same label for different things.>
Why is it it's easy to pull your energy into my body like I've tried a few times? <we're the same group, more or less, the same immediate group and a step up some would say but that is inaccurate. You're being recreated you are at our level, but we went into that in a previous post. So our energy is compatible, ours and yours we mean by our. So when you pull it into your own energy systems there is no problem. Though we do need to step down our energy, taking into consideration you're in a human body. if you were not you could channel our energy in-diffidently if you needed, since you'd be at our level. So you'd not need to channel.>
So I'm merging at the monad divine self level? <more or less yes. slowly at first. The light body courses are helping with that, even though you are not taking that course yet. You're ahead of the majority who take the courses since you're operating at a higher level then even you suspect. one of the reasons you were an excellent being to go and do what you are doing. A side effect of this makes you more attractive to some beings like unicorns and pegasi. Especially one particular pegasus and unicorn, but others also.>
Any other beings? <Some others and individuals as well that you have not yet met consciously yet. The pod are more or less use to dealing with beings at our (your and our) level since they have some at our level as members, you included. Some are more use to it then others, since there are pod members at all levels of age and awareness/development. >
& the unicorn and pegasus herds? <they live more or less together in an area near where the pod lives at, but not the same density. Though travel to and from is more or less easy or not to difficult. Travel between the 2 groups and where the pod lives at and those who also live with or near the pod at the same density. the exact dimension doesn't really matter since most don't bother with those details. The pegasus and unicorns live more or less in what could be considered overlapping areas. With some who may be living there, having come in later. You'll discover the details either when you are back on this side, or over time as you incorporate/merge, or whatever term you wish to use, more of yourself as you are currently doing.>
They showed me, not very clear or sharp, images of apparently the inside of my home. Saying that Maribelle and Spitfire had combined theirs with mine, a tradition among unicorns and pegasus. Though it's more of an overlapping type of merging since they don't want to give up their personal areas or rooms nor expect me to give up mine. My home can have, and has, 2 main entrances 1 to the pod area and 1 to the unicorn area. I asked if it's possible even though those are different densities and they said sure it's possible. There's also been another entrance added, to the pegasus area. They said it is immense inside, a mansion, with some areas that look like a castle, from the inside and a modest sorta house on the outside. There are various exits. one they mentioned leads to my twin flame's home, which will merge with mine when we merge and unmerge when we unmerge. that makes sense.
They also mentioned I could have an entrance or teleport pad to their level, the monad level or density if I wish to use that term, or I could have a tardis in my home somewhere, walk into that and use the console to go to the monad level. I think I'd find that neat to do that.
They said my presence and inner light will effect and has affected others around me, even there. Just my being around folks will do that. Even when this incarnation is over. Also it's effected those I share with more, and sharing they meant not just slight energy mingling, but also what some would call sex. Like it's effected Maribelle and my various lovers more then casually since we've shared energies and its' started to effect Spitfire more, but less so currently, but some have started to notice a bit. But many are not aware of the real reason and may likely put it off to her having a mate helping her to be a bit more confident, sexier in appearance, more attractive. or the like.
They then went into a bit not so g rated. Saying that mares do gather to talk including about their stallion mates & lovers. I did get the feel that pegasus are monogamous, or most are, not sure if all are or not, though I guess being sentient there likely may be some exceptions. They also said the fact I'm hung would spread. I was a bit embarrassed by this, but only slightly. Then I asked by what standards and they said unicorn and pegasus and somewhat by most pod standards, but what I call dolphin like beings and orca like beings. Some gryphons may want to check me out once they hear more. (I'm going to assume they were kidding about that). They mentioned I could change to a pegasus stallion if I want, my form being pliable, and that would really get Spitfire turned on, but over the long term she would prefer my more normal forms, those more native to me and my heritage.
Then they said some gryphons live in the areas near and overlapping the pegasus and with them. They are more recent arrivals. The area being deep in the light territory and with unicorns and Pegasus there they know it'll be a safe place to move into, and the pod doesn't mind. So i guess that means both areas, pod and unicorn/pegasus are multiple species areas. I asked if the gryphons and pegasus get along and they said they do, there are some hippogryphs also. I guess a way to say they have some kids together or a few did.
They said that homes could have doors that lead to other homes, like close friends, lovers, and the like. If one has children their own bedroom and playroom can grow over time into their own home, that can split off from that of the parents or have a connecting hallway. Though I guess they can just go and manifest their own house if the want too.
I watched a Dolores Cannon video last night about the afterlife thing. I asked how accurate is that for me and they said due to my level of development and mission I'd bypass all that to go home. I'm not native to the area and my native level isn't at that level anymore.
The group of gryphons are those who left the fae are Long ago and wanted a place to live in peace. The pod wouldn't allow any fae near the area, considering how the fae are in their own lands, as chaotic as humans in many areas and ways.
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I did the 8th mediation & running the energies went well. This was about abundance as energy and I focused on abundance of money and spiritual growth, figuring 2 types of abundance would be ok to focus on.
I also had a bit of a conversation at the same time. I asked about the belief that fae could turn non fae into fae and how would this affect the gryphons and others. They said that even if one does give into that belief system those gryphons have been away from the fae lands far to long. This group is an offshoot of the earlier original group. They parted over differences of opinion, but agreed to disagree when they parted. The original group believes they should remain isolated, based on their experiences in the fae lands and this group thinks they should incorporate more into the sentient beings community, that have nothing to do with fae.
Also I am indeed incorporating merging with their energies and mine, a monad divine self level of merging and I'll be fully merged with them eventually, at my right time, and will remain an individual as well.
also earlier, was a bit to embarrassed, and also forgot to type it up here. I decided to try masturbating till I got to etheric instead of physical orgasm and it worked again. This time I decided to see if I could include Spitfire into it and she seemed willing. Maribelle I did ask but she suggested Spitfire and said she was doing something. She didn't say what. I assume out for a run, swimming, reading, or any number of things she could be doing. Or off helping some folks. I feel as satisfied, or close to it, as with a physical orgasm. but none of the aftereffects of a physical orgasm.
Forgot to also mention, during the conversation they mentioned my being horny compared to others was some part of the rep that would be known to some, but those who heard of it know me and would think it would be odd if I wasn't due to being also a dolphin/orca like being and a pod member. Not sure about that. They could be kidding again, or half serious and half not. i just put it here since I try to put my experiences and thoughts on here since it helps me and maybe others. and by typing it up here I often notice or realize stuff I missed during the experience or think it over and realize something later. or get a poof later on related to it.
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I was thinking while I was in the shower and later while I was laying down to take a nap. Are sentient and animal souls 2 different types or just souls that choose, I'll just be cats, and another, I think I'd prefer sentients, and stick to it? Or are they different types of souls. Also if earth has a spirit or soul, I would assume its a type of incarnation. So if stars have spirits or souls also, could planets and stars be another type of soul? or be on another level of being then some sentient souls and animal souls are operating on another level?
not that the details really matter, just a fun thing to think about and ponder. And the knowledge that one day I'll know, even if I have to wait till I'm back home.
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I was watching a Picarto stream and could feel love coming into me, or a sense of being loved. I decided to explore this and could feel it coming from multiple sources. both my mates that I know of. No idea if I have other mates that I don't know of. Their love did feel pretty strong, twin flame as well, soul (feels a bit different), I felt others along the same lines as my mates, some were quite intense, both my mates and twin flame I think were among the most intense. Also multiple sources from the pod and others. Also the monad/oversoul, divine self, or whatever the label is, but their love felt a bit different, maybe slightly fainter? Maybe due to their vibration, density they reside at, or something along those lines. Maybe a different type of love, or a combination of factors?
It makes sense that my mates and others, maybe loves or other mates maybe, love me in a certain way. Twin flame may love me in a similar way to mates, but also soul. Soul would in a different way, and soul is just the non incarnated part of me, since not all of me is in this body.
The pod, at least those how know me or know of me, would likely love me in another way, maybe 2 other ways. That makes sense, and the other friends and such I may have, colleagues, ect, may in a similar manner but different. The guides, oversoul,monad, divine self, or whatever the labels are, would perhaps love me in another manner, plus their vibration may be higher then the others. maybe that is why it feels a bit fainter, and since I'm incorporating or merging witih them, their energy, growing or expanding to their level. So it could be as I continue their love, feel wont' feel so faint but will feel stronger since that'll be my native level. or one of my native levels. I would as them for tips but I'm sure they'd say to continue like I'm doing so I'll do that. I'm sure they'd say if I should do something different. and I'll continue to do this since it is fun and feels easy. So why not continue on the fun and easy path.
Forgot to put in, that I did attempt and succeeded in taking the energy from the love I was feeling and put some of it into my light body heart center then the rest of my body. For a brief time only. I did, and do, feel more uplifted, higher, uplifted mood, hard to describe.
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Once I'm fully integrated, expanded, grown, or whatever to the monad, divine self, or whatever it's called. I'll be native to that density, but will likely still live in a few, or more then a few places and densities. the place where souls look like spheres of color. that may be outside physicality. the pod area, where my mates and lovers are. likely close friends, and friends, or I may just visit them at times. Not like I have to quite seeing someone just cause I move up. it's all about what do i want to do, what excites me and what do I really want to do, not what I have to do. & it is the same for everyone else too.
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I think I feel an inner excitement. Not sure if it external to myself or another part of myself, like the part not incarnated that I usually call soul. i use that term since it is shorter & faster then to keep saying, the part of me not incarnated who's not twin flame whose also not incarnated.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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Decided to try a short channeling this morning.
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So are you guys monad level? <we are as we explained, but one can say the reflection of what you call your divine self could be considered a monad. Some humans use labels for the same thing and sometimes the same label for different things.>
Why is it it's easy to pull your energy into my body like I've tried a few times? <we're the same group, more or less, the same immediate group and a step up some would say but that is inaccurate. You're being recreated you are at our level, but we went into that in a previous post. So our energy is compatible, ours and yours we mean by our. So when you pull it into your own energy systems there is no problem. Though we do need to step down our energy, taking into consideration you're in a human body. if you were not you could channel our energy in-diffidently if you needed, since you'd be at our level. So you'd not need to channel.>
So I'm merging at the monad divine self level? <more or less yes. slowly at first. The light body courses are helping with that, even though you are not taking that course yet. You're ahead of the majority who take the courses since you're operating at a higher level then even you suspect. one of the reasons you were an excellent being to go and do what you are doing. A side effect of this makes you more attractive to some beings like unicorns and pegasi. Especially one particular pegasus and unicorn, but others also.>
Any other beings? <Some others and individuals as well that you have not yet met consciously yet. The pod are more or less use to dealing with beings at our (your and our) level since they have some at our level as members, you included. Some are more use to it then others, since there are pod members at all levels of age and awareness/development. >
& the unicorn and pegasus herds? <they live more or less together in an area near where the pod lives at, but not the same density. Though travel to and from is more or less easy or not to difficult. Travel between the 2 groups and where the pod lives at and those who also live with or near the pod at the same density. the exact dimension doesn't really matter since most don't bother with those details. The pegasus and unicorns live more or less in what could be considered overlapping areas. With some who may be living there, having come in later. You'll discover the details either when you are back on this side, or over time as you incorporate/merge, or whatever term you wish to use, more of yourself as you are currently doing.>
Friday, May 22, 2015
Friday [5-22]
I did the 7th meditation and running the energies went pretty well. most of them went very well indeed. The 2 main ones that don't go as well usually is the leow and the pieah, the 3rd and 6th ones. the leow seems to need extra work to get it up and going and the pieah a bit more work then that. I think between meditations I'll take some time to run the energies and focus extra on these 2 centers.
While I was doing the meditation I think my ranawre cocoon felt slightly different, or a bit different. more energy, higher energy and or more diverse energy being incorporated into it, and or maybe I'm more sensitive to tell this. or it may be a mixture of these and other factors perhaps also.
This meditation was about seeing relationships as energy. In part I picked the gm of the Thursday group. That is a decently good one but I figured why not. I focused on feeling it a bit and converting it to the highest energy, or at least a higher energy, as the meditation went along. Also I, after a bit, added in my relation ship with Maribelle, Spitfire, twin flame, and some generic other connections I felt around for and felt. The Relationship with Maribelle & Spitfire did fee like genuine love, twin flame felt like a different type of love, more intense maybe but I didn't focus on the intensity. Also added in Maribelle's mother briefly and felt around for other relationship connections, I felt some, many, and at least some or most of these did feel like various types of love, but not all of them. Some I could not tell the feelings, not negative, just I wasn't able to identify the feeling. I focused on sending energy to or through these relationships like I did the one with the Thursday gm to help the energy become lighter, higher, a higher reflection. Feels like it worked. I then had the intention of sending back anyone's energy that I had since I know they and their higher selves working together can resolve all their problems themselves working together and they don't need my help. I feel lighter, or my energy does as a result of all this.
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I did it again not listening to the audio and it went very well. Not much more to say about this. I did the relationships like before, adding in the whole thursday rp group and the rest was as before.
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I do wonder if pegasus are the same size as unicorns. I'd guess they are more or less the same size since I doubt every unicorn is exactly the same size once they are adults.
I do wonder why Maribelle and Spitfire said that bit about I could claim my right and say I could only be their mate. As I've said in a previous post, the one before this one, it doesn't feel right, but I've already talked about that previously.
I do wonder if it's unusual, like Scarlett said, about a pegasus wanting me to be her mate, or her first mate, if she chooses to have several. I guess like with unicorns it may be an individual thing. Some have several mates & lovers too. Some others may have just 1 mate only, or a mate or 2 and no lovers at all.
Though I only know a little about unicorns and nothing about pegaus. As well as if I'm very popular, or known back home, if I have several homes, more then these 2 who were my lovers before, if I have more, more friends, lovers ect. I guess those details are not to important for me to know now. I may discover some bits but not really know everything till I'm fully back. Though i can tell from the bits and pieces it is likely very positive.
Though with both meditations it did feel like I do have more then these 2 that I love and love me. I'll eventually find out everything, even if I have to wait till I get back home. Who knows how many close friends and lovers I may have, or what I do, or my position.
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a few hours after the last post: I've been thinking, as I was watching some youtube videos. An idea popped into my head. What if say a unicorn is one species of soul, and I'm another type or species. If such a thing even exists as that.
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It feels like, when I think and feel it. All souls are really 1 species so to speak. That is why any souls can create new souls regardless of the types they are. There are types maybe or sub species, so to speak. So a unicorn and native earth human soul may be very different to look at, but have the same abilities, even if some are not aware of it. And Through culture, being raised, ect. They can feel different. See themselves as different. So they may be more like types or subspecies, but labels are not really fully correct. Just easy for my understanding in this case. Unicorn souls, pegasus, dolphin/orca type beings, arcturian, and others. Hard to put down what I mean and think I understand since English seems inadequacy fully, but it is close enough I think.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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8:12 PM
Thanks. hope it's ok and not to confusing.
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I decided to put this here instead of in my yourspace since though it felt more like a conversation I was channeling and the physical body may have gone to sleep at some point. I feel I was doing a type of channeling.
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As I was laying down to take my 2nd nap I had a conversation with my guides or whatever you'd call them. I think I recall most of it, or at least the general conversation.
So why am I popular with certain beings, and what is the higher light thing? <We'll just give the simplified version. Higher light is your development and potential, and higher inner light, and higher outer light. You've progressed far in a short time.
and have a lot of light within yourself indeed. Some can sense or feel this, though may not know exactly why or exactly what it means.
Basically when you were re-created, a rare thing but there is a system in place for when it happens, you were recreated really. We did this, simply, you are similar to an embodiment of some of the monad. Your soul parents are members of the same soul group. At what you may regard as different stages, but that is not exactly right. When it was time for you to be re-created, you and your twin flame since she and you wanted her to remain your twin. The probability fields were adjusted with the go ahead of what some may call source, not that we directly asked source, but one can sense if what one is about to do is against source or not. Anyway some of us came together to re-create you and the probability fields at the quantum level were adjusted so when we did re-create you we did so using our energy, as any souls do when creating a new soul, though you had a higher potential so to speak. Not exactly what Scarlett is, and posted about earlier, but something similar, very similar but not exactly the same. The probability and quantum fields were adjusted, to vastly over simplify what we did, so you are the you from before. it was really you who were lovers with Maribelle and those others, not like you are picking up from someone else. >
I think I understand. So why am I so bad at math? <the former you wanted to put blocks in so when you started to awaken and access your soul knowledge you'd not inadvertently introduce certain concepts into theoretical physics before they are ready for it, plus it may have distracted you from your personal path of awakening. Though he didn't really know the conditions of incarnating on earth were like first hand so they were a bit over done, to simplify things.>
So when I was re-created quantum stuff was involved? <indeed, what we said is a vast oversimplification, but indeed it was. it is not that hard to do, but one doesn't do it simply willy nilly for fun. But there was nothing source had against it so it was done.>
Thought I had 4 soul parents. <4 primary parents yes, there were others of us who did things to support the process.> The quantum adjustment fields thing? <yes, and other things as well.>
So do I have any sort of position back home? <In one of your home indeed. You're not king or the like, but would you really want to be? You're one of the pod, one of the more senior members but not the most eldest of members, not yet anyway. The unicorns do accept you as one of them since indeed one of your soul parents is indeed a unicorn, an elder in her own right.>
So do I have more lovers and close friends then I know? <yes indeed, you have us, and some others, like at least 1 naga, she's one of our members, an incarnation or aspect, hard to explain exactly. various pod members, we'll leave the exact details as a pleasant surprise and once you're back you'll be able to step back into what you were doing before, and indeed it was what you were doing and you, not something you're picking up from another soul that isn't this you. Though you can work with your former soul if you wish. He'll be the same as before, with some changes due to his increased experiences of course. Though you will to.>
Sounds like my re-creation was complicated. <indeed, though like with the creation of a soul, one can look into the extreme fine details to find out exactly how it works to get how complicated it does or one can just do it. like you can watch a tv even if you don't know exactly how it works or you can walk or type, without knowing the exactly physics, electronics, neurology and all the other details. >
and my twin flame was re-created as I was? <indeed, the same process, then you 2 were split as twin flames are. a piece of the original energy had to be left in the body during the process for the body to survive. it was a miniscule piece and knew it would not be separated long, from it's point of view, so did what it did. And technically because of that, the original soul contract was and is still in place. Though since you can do your primary mission without doing anything, that is ok. You have accomplished your personal reason and mission, the veil is gone, you are fully awake ect so that is fullfilled. Though as we've said and soul has, if you were to suddenly have full access to your full soul memories & knowledge it would not be healthy for your delicate energy and body systems. Imagine tryint to put to much amperage through a circuits or a wire that is able to handle say one tenth of that. Now done gradually over time, you can get conscious access to more and more, done at a slow steady rate. Instinctively you feel what this is for you. Each has their own rate perfect for them since everyone is an individual.>
So I am a new/old soul. <if one wishes to use labels and terminology such as that yes, though we've described an over simplification of the process. Though in your case you really are a new/old soul. Not one recalling your soul parent's memories. Due to the over simplified description of the process said above.>
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Thursday [5-21]
I guess the pegasus friend of Maribelle would likely eventually want to start having kids since from either what Maribelle said or what I felt/know she did promise, to herself and maybe shared with Maribelle, that I'd be the father of at least 1 of her first few kids and maybe more then just 1. And if you're immortal like souls are, no need like a human where when you hit young adult start thinking about when you plan on having kids. You can wait a thousand years or a few. Then have kids say 1 or 2 every few hundred or few thousand years. Also the way bodies are pliable I'd guess pregnancy birth or laying eggs, for the species who choose to do this, won't be painful or traumatic, but I'd guess pleasurable.
At the soul level I do feel I'm comfortable being both genders and being either gender. My energy in that spirit or light body, or whichever and whatever it is. Usually does feel like a herm, but with the energy and feel being more male inclined. I'm not sure if that is due to normal inclination, the fact I'm incarnated in a male body, and or because my twin flame is usually female. Not sure if she is also a herm, but female inclined or if she's usually pure female.
I guess likely eventually I may choose to be a mother and go through the pregnancy thing as a pod member and a unicorn mare, but plenty of time to think that over. I do have an eternity to think that over and decide, so plenty of time. While pregnant I'd guess I'd not be stuck being just 1 species. I'd guess i could still switch and change, not sure about gender though I'd guess i could change that too, or be stuck, or decide, to be female or a herm. Likely I'd pick to be a herm in most cases in that case, but again I have an eternity to choose. So no need to decide that now nor start being a father to unicorn or dolphin/orca like beings or other species.
Also I'm sure I'll eventually choose to participate in creating souls in the usual soul fashion, using some of your own energy and with other souls, weave this energy with our intent to make a new soul. But all this is in the future so plenty of time to think about it.
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This 6th mediation for part 4 went very well, running the energies went well. This one says it's about recharging at the core but I am not sure I caught the meaning of the meditation since most of it seems to be about the 7the light body energy center. maybe you can use that to rechange? I do feel uplifted, relaxed and like I have a bit more energy in my energy body, a high light type of energy. So that may be the key to mediation. I'll see if I can do that while I'm on the bus traveling to and from the rpg place, including, perhaps, waiting for the bus too. Once I get home I'll do it again without listening to the audio. Then I may, after my nap, do a channeling audio. I'll decide then.
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While I was at the rpg group today, and I had a lot of fun. I though I could indeed feel I had a connection to source that I could slightly feel. Different to knowing and feeling that soul aspect and I are 2 parts of one being, or 2 focuses of one being. It's hard to describe. I could also feel everyone else at the table had some sort of connection and they were loved, not sure if it was by source, or their larger selves like their higher selves and or soul.
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I decided to listen to part 6 instead of trying to do it without the audio since it's been so long I don't recall the exact specifics. I think when I wake up from my nap I'll do a channeling audio, then a bit later try this guided meditation without listening to the audio.
It went fantastic. I feel fantastic as well, not just from the guided mediation. It felt like early on the pegasus mare that apparently i was her first, came near or made a connection or something. During the early part of the mediation when Daben was just talking. It felt like she and I were having sex, or sharing as the pod calls it, at an energy level. It felt fantastic. Then it felt like Maribelle came on briefly. Maybe some teaching thing or something. Then I didn't feel Maribelle anymore but I felt the pegasus mare, but to a much lesser extent. Not sure if it was a practice thing, or both that and just to share. A bit after Maribelle's connection closed or went away the pegasus mare only slightly did the energy stuff. I guess once the main meditation started or she didn't wish to distract me to much. I feel great, I think from both the guided meditation and what the pegasus mare did. This morning, not sure if I mentioned it in a previous post, I felt a bit more energy and my mood was much lighter and higher and it went for the whole day.
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That got me to thinking. I wonder how many close friends and lovers I have. And if the pegasus mare is a thing that will fade over time as she gets more lovers and eventually mates more her age or if what we have is permanent. Personally I do hope it is permanent. With time being non linear and different for souls and eternity I could have more then I suspect.
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A bit after I had posted my previous message and before I ate I got a bit of a surprise. The pegasus mare, I'm pretty sure it was her, was talking to me a bit. She did something energy so I was getting some mild sexual pleasure, not physical but energy type and she, if I got the message right, asked if we could become mates, and it was ok with Maribelle. She mentioned wanting to join my herd, as far as I know I don't have a herd, unless that is a unicorn and or pegasus term. And she did mention wanting me to be her first mate. That was unexpected, coming out of the blue, I think the expression is. I said that's a big thing and I'd very likely say yes, but I would think it over, and she should talk to Maribelle to be sure she wanted it too since it is a big thing, but like I mentioned I'd very likely would say yes.
I did ask the pegasus mare her name and she said for me to pick a name to call her.
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I considered it as I lay down. I got soul, twin flame and various aspects i seem to have, into the conversation. They were all willing. Twin flame was only briefly in the conversation, guess she was busy doing something. At first it seemed that one aspect I felt was saying no about being mates with the pegasus mare, but he was saying no to the other aspect that was hesitant. he wanted to but was hesitant since it would be change. I talked to him and he agreed with my idea of he would be less hesitant and would be the part that sometimes gives everyone a pause and a bit of caution since it's seldom wise to rush into something. He agreed to this idea and agreed he would be not be as hesitant as he was but would be the sense of caution, ensuring I really want to do something, or maybe I should do some research first, type of feeling. I think that went well. Chad even spoke up and agreed with this. I asked future possible self and he said he said yes. I thought it over with out thinking for a bit then told the pegasus mare yes.
She was, as expected very happy and excited. When I was thinking it over and talking about it with soul, twin, and aspects I could feel her in the back of my mind. I guess awaiting an answer. After I said yes I guess she was to excited to talk any so I talked to Maribelle very briefly. Then the pegasus mare talked to me briefly saying the same thing Maribelle said. I'm sure they talked before and this is how she got what to say, or maybe it's a traditional thing to say or a final test or something. She said I was within my rights to claim her and keep me just to herself, but I said the same as I said to Maribelle, that if she wants to have other mates and lovers too she could and she also could have children with them if she wished. The too bit wasn't said but the feel was there since I assume as mates we'd have kids eventually. She mentioned, like Maribelle, lots of kids but I did say no need to rush into it and she did say she felt to young as of yet to start having any kids. I guess she's in unicorn or pegasus terms is a young adult. I'd guess maybe like a human in her early 20's or something. but her real age, who knows, since I'd guess pegasus are immortals like unicorns and souls are.
I was thinking, the pegasus mare did say for me to pick a name to call her. I guess she has her own name, but wants me to have a personal name or something for her. I may pick a name from the mlp show for a pegasus mare. Maybe the member of the wonderbols named Spitfire. I like the sound of that name.
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I'll finish the Seth book tonight. I started it but got distracted and forgot it for a bit. After I finish it I think I'll focus on other books I've started, like that benevolent book that Rob, Treb and the other guy did. Then I'll look over the other books I've started and read a chapter or 2 to see if I still want to read those or not. Then next month or the month after that I will buy Michael Newton's 4th book. I'll eventually get his first 2 to re-read those. I may try to get some of Dolores cannon's latest books. From seeing her in some videos it feels like the info she says she gets may be accurate but some of her conclusions are biased or wrong as is some stuff she says. The other Seth books I'll get to buying and reading after I've decided if I want to do others or not. Then I'll pick out a rough schedule.
If I were to get back into reading some fiction, I would go to Baen Free Library and read some of those, giving each book say 2 chapters to catch my interest. They are all free so no harm done if I don't like the book, apart from the time it took me to read it. That is if I wanted to get back into reading fiction. Ifigure between the Seth books, 3 of the Michael Newton books, and if I do like and decide to get some Dolores Cannon books, that should keep me occupied for a few years roughly, depending how fast and how much I read.
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Didn't find out if I have a herd or not or if I'm famous or of high position back home or not. I did find out some scraps and some I can feel. I've been told I'm higher then I am, I'm one of the elder members of the pod, but not among the eldest. That could be original soul. I do prefer non linear and likel won't incarnate anymore. I'm likely still a member of some organization of group who's helping earth with the shift at the moment. If I'm am among the elder members of the pod then likely I have many friends and collegues I don't consciously recall and considering how open the pod is about sharing, and at least some unicorns, I have likely friends, close friends and lovers among them, besides the 2 mates I do have, Maribelle & the pegasus Mare, then I think I may call Spitfire after the mlp wonderbolt pegasus mare. As well as Maribelle's mother as someone who is or wants to be a lover. her father, 2 brothers and sister have shown interest in me once or so. So they may be occasional lover types. I do figure one would not have lovers who one has to share with every day. it may be a few times a week or month, something like that. Who knows how many friends I may have, quite a few likely. Some I may see only ever month or a few times a month, or if they are busy elsewhere maybe a few times a year, but being telepathic and able to pop around non linearly one can keep up with quite a few friends.
I'm not sure if the pod does mateships like it seems unicorns and pegasus do, or at least some do. Logically some would.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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At the soul level I do feel I'm comfortable being both genders and being either gender. My energy in that spirit or light body, or whichever and whatever it is. Usually does feel like a herm, but with the energy and feel being more male inclined. I'm not sure if that is due to normal inclination, the fact I'm incarnated in a male body, and or because my twin flame is usually female. Not sure if she is also a herm, but female inclined or if she's usually pure female.
I guess likely eventually I may choose to be a mother and go through the pregnancy thing as a pod member and a unicorn mare, but plenty of time to think that over. I do have an eternity to think that over and decide, so plenty of time. While pregnant I'd guess I'd not be stuck being just 1 species. I'd guess i could still switch and change, not sure about gender though I'd guess i could change that too, or be stuck, or decide, to be female or a herm. Likely I'd pick to be a herm in most cases in that case, but again I have an eternity to choose. So no need to decide that now nor start being a father to unicorn or dolphin/orca like beings or other species.
Also I'm sure I'll eventually choose to participate in creating souls in the usual soul fashion, using some of your own energy and with other souls, weave this energy with our intent to make a new soul. But all this is in the future so plenty of time to think about it.
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This 6th mediation for part 4 went very well, running the energies went well. This one says it's about recharging at the core but I am not sure I caught the meaning of the meditation since most of it seems to be about the 7the light body energy center. maybe you can use that to rechange? I do feel uplifted, relaxed and like I have a bit more energy in my energy body, a high light type of energy. So that may be the key to mediation. I'll see if I can do that while I'm on the bus traveling to and from the rpg place, including, perhaps, waiting for the bus too. Once I get home I'll do it again without listening to the audio. Then I may, after my nap, do a channeling audio. I'll decide then.
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While I was at the rpg group today, and I had a lot of fun. I though I could indeed feel I had a connection to source that I could slightly feel. Different to knowing and feeling that soul aspect and I are 2 parts of one being, or 2 focuses of one being. It's hard to describe. I could also feel everyone else at the table had some sort of connection and they were loved, not sure if it was by source, or their larger selves like their higher selves and or soul.
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I decided to listen to part 6 instead of trying to do it without the audio since it's been so long I don't recall the exact specifics. I think when I wake up from my nap I'll do a channeling audio, then a bit later try this guided meditation without listening to the audio.
It went fantastic. I feel fantastic as well, not just from the guided mediation. It felt like early on the pegasus mare that apparently i was her first, came near or made a connection or something. During the early part of the mediation when Daben was just talking. It felt like she and I were having sex, or sharing as the pod calls it, at an energy level. It felt fantastic. Then it felt like Maribelle came on briefly. Maybe some teaching thing or something. Then I didn't feel Maribelle anymore but I felt the pegasus mare, but to a much lesser extent. Not sure if it was a practice thing, or both that and just to share. A bit after Maribelle's connection closed or went away the pegasus mare only slightly did the energy stuff. I guess once the main meditation started or she didn't wish to distract me to much. I feel great, I think from both the guided meditation and what the pegasus mare did. This morning, not sure if I mentioned it in a previous post, I felt a bit more energy and my mood was much lighter and higher and it went for the whole day.
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That got me to thinking. I wonder how many close friends and lovers I have. And if the pegasus mare is a thing that will fade over time as she gets more lovers and eventually mates more her age or if what we have is permanent. Personally I do hope it is permanent. With time being non linear and different for souls and eternity I could have more then I suspect.
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A bit after I had posted my previous message and before I ate I got a bit of a surprise. The pegasus mare, I'm pretty sure it was her, was talking to me a bit. She did something energy so I was getting some mild sexual pleasure, not physical but energy type and she, if I got the message right, asked if we could become mates, and it was ok with Maribelle. She mentioned wanting to join my herd, as far as I know I don't have a herd, unless that is a unicorn and or pegasus term. And she did mention wanting me to be her first mate. That was unexpected, coming out of the blue, I think the expression is. I said that's a big thing and I'd very likely say yes, but I would think it over, and she should talk to Maribelle to be sure she wanted it too since it is a big thing, but like I mentioned I'd very likely would say yes.
I did ask the pegasus mare her name and she said for me to pick a name to call her.
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I considered it as I lay down. I got soul, twin flame and various aspects i seem to have, into the conversation. They were all willing. Twin flame was only briefly in the conversation, guess she was busy doing something. At first it seemed that one aspect I felt was saying no about being mates with the pegasus mare, but he was saying no to the other aspect that was hesitant. he wanted to but was hesitant since it would be change. I talked to him and he agreed with my idea of he would be less hesitant and would be the part that sometimes gives everyone a pause and a bit of caution since it's seldom wise to rush into something. He agreed to this idea and agreed he would be not be as hesitant as he was but would be the sense of caution, ensuring I really want to do something, or maybe I should do some research first, type of feeling. I think that went well. Chad even spoke up and agreed with this. I asked future possible self and he said he said yes. I thought it over with out thinking for a bit then told the pegasus mare yes.
She was, as expected very happy and excited. When I was thinking it over and talking about it with soul, twin, and aspects I could feel her in the back of my mind. I guess awaiting an answer. After I said yes I guess she was to excited to talk any so I talked to Maribelle very briefly. Then the pegasus mare talked to me briefly saying the same thing Maribelle said. I'm sure they talked before and this is how she got what to say, or maybe it's a traditional thing to say or a final test or something. She said I was within my rights to claim her and keep me just to herself, but I said the same as I said to Maribelle, that if she wants to have other mates and lovers too she could and she also could have children with them if she wished. The too bit wasn't said but the feel was there since I assume as mates we'd have kids eventually. She mentioned, like Maribelle, lots of kids but I did say no need to rush into it and she did say she felt to young as of yet to start having any kids. I guess she's in unicorn or pegasus terms is a young adult. I'd guess maybe like a human in her early 20's or something. but her real age, who knows, since I'd guess pegasus are immortals like unicorns and souls are.
I was thinking, the pegasus mare did say for me to pick a name to call her. I guess she has her own name, but wants me to have a personal name or something for her. I may pick a name from the mlp show for a pegasus mare. Maybe the member of the wonderbols named Spitfire. I like the sound of that name.
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I'll finish the Seth book tonight. I started it but got distracted and forgot it for a bit. After I finish it I think I'll focus on other books I've started, like that benevolent book that Rob, Treb and the other guy did. Then I'll look over the other books I've started and read a chapter or 2 to see if I still want to read those or not. Then next month or the month after that I will buy Michael Newton's 4th book. I'll eventually get his first 2 to re-read those. I may try to get some of Dolores cannon's latest books. From seeing her in some videos it feels like the info she says she gets may be accurate but some of her conclusions are biased or wrong as is some stuff she says. The other Seth books I'll get to buying and reading after I've decided if I want to do others or not. Then I'll pick out a rough schedule.
If I were to get back into reading some fiction, I would go to Baen Free Library and read some of those, giving each book say 2 chapters to catch my interest. They are all free so no harm done if I don't like the book, apart from the time it took me to read it. That is if I wanted to get back into reading fiction. Ifigure between the Seth books, 3 of the Michael Newton books, and if I do like and decide to get some Dolores Cannon books, that should keep me occupied for a few years roughly, depending how fast and how much I read.
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Didn't find out if I have a herd or not or if I'm famous or of high position back home or not. I did find out some scraps and some I can feel. I've been told I'm higher then I am, I'm one of the elder members of the pod, but not among the eldest. That could be original soul. I do prefer non linear and likel won't incarnate anymore. I'm likely still a member of some organization of group who's helping earth with the shift at the moment. If I'm am among the elder members of the pod then likely I have many friends and collegues I don't consciously recall and considering how open the pod is about sharing, and at least some unicorns, I have likely friends, close friends and lovers among them, besides the 2 mates I do have, Maribelle & the pegasus Mare, then I think I may call Spitfire after the mlp wonderbolt pegasus mare. As well as Maribelle's mother as someone who is or wants to be a lover. her father, 2 brothers and sister have shown interest in me once or so. So they may be occasional lover types. I do figure one would not have lovers who one has to share with every day. it may be a few times a week or month, something like that. Who knows how many friends I may have, quite a few likely. Some I may see only ever month or a few times a month, or if they are busy elsewhere maybe a few times a year, but being telepathic and able to pop around non linearly one can keep up with quite a few friends.
I'm not sure if the pod does mateships like it seems unicorns and pegasus do, or at least some do. Logically some would.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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10:28 PM
So do I have a herd or something, the pegasus mare did mention it? <we'd rather leave that as a peasant surprise for when you get back.>
so am I famous or known back home? <all we'll say is you are known, and your reputation is positive, any more we'd prefer to leave as a pleasant surprise when you get home.>
I take it that I'm comfortable as a herm, but I seem male inclined. Is this due to my being incarnated in a male body and or due to my twin seeming to prefer being female? <indeed, it is in part due to both reasons. and for those with a twin flame it is not usual that as mirrors one will prefer male and the other female, for the slight inclination. though there are some twins who at the soul level both prefer the same gender.
I'll ask what is in the audio about it being better and more important to grow through joy rather then through pain and struggle ( a slight deviation from the audio questions) is it due to we can make a choice, like I have made the choice and intent known that i wish to grow through joy, fun, pleasure, the easy path and it's more the human conditioning of cultures and such that many choose otherwise, thinking they have no choice? <indeed in many cases. choosing the path of growing through joy, fun, and easiness is the proffered path, but each can choose for themselves and some do prefer to struggle, even at the soul level, for personal reasons, but no one has to.>
Who are you folks? <a combination, we are your soul aspect, some guides that are of your soul group, a reflection of what you may refer to your divine self. Your soul, due to your current development level and awareness can be considered a sort of higher self, though that label is not correct fully. saying it's your soul is also not quite the right level since, as you now know and feel, it is really the portion of yourself that you know that is not incarnated while you are. Your twin flame being a special case as twin flames are.>
another slight edit from the questions. <indeed, over time humans will grow more aware and more awakened. A gradual thing is needed since if their veils were removed right now their psyche's may be damaged, temporary true, but unpleasant if they suddenly knew the truth. Besides their energy systems are not ready for that. >
I guess folks can better align with the divine plan and the reason for their lives by choosing that which excites them or excites them the most? (slight edit to a question in the audio course) <indeed. if they develop this skill and do it out of habit then they would always be doing this, but it is the choice of each>
how can people know this is a friendly and abundant universe < trust in yourself, do not live in fear. Take back the power you give to others. Rule yourself. these are important first steps one can take and for many these will take a while for them to get use to>
What ARE Some ways folks can contact their souls and higher selves (exact question) <listening to if there is a sort of voice or feeling within that can guide you if you need a decision made and are not sure but get a feeling or hear a sort of thought that indicates which choice one should make, a slight hint. for many this can be a good first step and maybe that is all the want or need for this life.>
how to recognize how the thoughts and emotions of others have effected them and what they can do about it <if there is a feeling or thought that seems to be contrary to the way you usually think or feel. For some neighbors or those near you may have an effect also. question yourself, is this thought or feeling of my origin or from that of another>
Is the earth a conscious being, sending out messages, what does it want? <it is indeed a conscious being, in the same ways that sentients are, though as a being, as a planet it is somewhat similar and at the same time different then a human. the earth does want to go through this shift and is looking forward to this shift as it shifts up to a higher density, later dimension. in a very similar way to how human souls, and souls in general do grow over time. messages, the earth would prefer if humans would not misuse it as much. though being a long lived it can see that humans can't change overnight but it will take time. a century or a thousand years are not the same as to a human, for the earth. >
how to help the animal kingdom <much the same as the earth, taking the long term approach and the gradual uplifting, expanding, evolving, growing of the majority of humans. Not all will choose to evolve with the earth and evolve upwards and grow, upwards is to use a phrase since there is no real direction. Those who do not will have places they can go to to continue their own paths.>
Higher community of beings, how are they helping humanity? <in often subtle ways, gradually teaching or showing those humans most open to hearing, even if it is in a dream that they do not remember or only partially remember. As guides and such as well. Guides can take many forms and come from many places, the higher or upper realms, planes, dimensions or whatever terms you prefer, the natural world, and other places. Some may be surprised and the origin doesn't really matter, just the wisdom and love and approach of the guide and message.>
World peace? <also a gradual thing that must be done gradually and not quickly. this along with many things must be done gradually and not fast. humans often thing things have to be done fast and now, as many cultures say, and they do have a short lifespan, but one must take the longer view of things to see the true and better more easy approach and the most effective. Though many non humans are also the types who prefer to do things quick and sudden, since humans are not the only ones who need to learn and grow.>
the reason to learn to channel? <To gain conscious contact with guides, one's higher self, soul and other channels of wisdom that one may not have access to. The wisdom and experience can take one in many and surprising directions. Channeling your higher self may be, for many, the easiest thing to learn and do. Though putting aside doubts and the I'm making this all up feeling may be the harder things to do, especially at the beginning.>
This went well and after bit I didn't feel the pressure at the top of my head like at the start. I would assume this is cause I got use to their energy, and or they adjusted a bit. The pressure is very faint, just enough to feel if I think about feeling for it.
I do feel like I don't really need to continue doing this or the receiving clear guidance a 2nd time, but it may help to continue. So I'll do it. Just on certain days when I have time and or want to. Other days I may try doing a short channel.
so am I famous or known back home? <all we'll say is you are known, and your reputation is positive, any more we'd prefer to leave as a pleasant surprise when you get home.>
I take it that I'm comfortable as a herm, but I seem male inclined. Is this due to my being incarnated in a male body and or due to my twin seeming to prefer being female? <indeed, it is in part due to both reasons. and for those with a twin flame it is not usual that as mirrors one will prefer male and the other female, for the slight inclination. though there are some twins who at the soul level both prefer the same gender.
I'll ask what is in the audio about it being better and more important to grow through joy rather then through pain and struggle ( a slight deviation from the audio questions) is it due to we can make a choice, like I have made the choice and intent known that i wish to grow through joy, fun, pleasure, the easy path and it's more the human conditioning of cultures and such that many choose otherwise, thinking they have no choice? <indeed in many cases. choosing the path of growing through joy, fun, and easiness is the proffered path, but each can choose for themselves and some do prefer to struggle, even at the soul level, for personal reasons, but no one has to.>
Who are you folks? <a combination, we are your soul aspect, some guides that are of your soul group, a reflection of what you may refer to your divine self. Your soul, due to your current development level and awareness can be considered a sort of higher self, though that label is not correct fully. saying it's your soul is also not quite the right level since, as you now know and feel, it is really the portion of yourself that you know that is not incarnated while you are. Your twin flame being a special case as twin flames are.>
another slight edit from the questions. <indeed, over time humans will grow more aware and more awakened. A gradual thing is needed since if their veils were removed right now their psyche's may be damaged, temporary true, but unpleasant if they suddenly knew the truth. Besides their energy systems are not ready for that. >
I guess folks can better align with the divine plan and the reason for their lives by choosing that which excites them or excites them the most? (slight edit to a question in the audio course) <indeed. if they develop this skill and do it out of habit then they would always be doing this, but it is the choice of each>
how can people know this is a friendly and abundant universe < trust in yourself, do not live in fear. Take back the power you give to others. Rule yourself. these are important first steps one can take and for many these will take a while for them to get use to>
What ARE Some ways folks can contact their souls and higher selves (exact question) <listening to if there is a sort of voice or feeling within that can guide you if you need a decision made and are not sure but get a feeling or hear a sort of thought that indicates which choice one should make, a slight hint. for many this can be a good first step and maybe that is all the want or need for this life.>
how to recognize how the thoughts and emotions of others have effected them and what they can do about it <if there is a feeling or thought that seems to be contrary to the way you usually think or feel. For some neighbors or those near you may have an effect also. question yourself, is this thought or feeling of my origin or from that of another>
Is the earth a conscious being, sending out messages, what does it want? <it is indeed a conscious being, in the same ways that sentients are, though as a being, as a planet it is somewhat similar and at the same time different then a human. the earth does want to go through this shift and is looking forward to this shift as it shifts up to a higher density, later dimension. in a very similar way to how human souls, and souls in general do grow over time. messages, the earth would prefer if humans would not misuse it as much. though being a long lived it can see that humans can't change overnight but it will take time. a century or a thousand years are not the same as to a human, for the earth. >
how to help the animal kingdom <much the same as the earth, taking the long term approach and the gradual uplifting, expanding, evolving, growing of the majority of humans. Not all will choose to evolve with the earth and evolve upwards and grow, upwards is to use a phrase since there is no real direction. Those who do not will have places they can go to to continue their own paths.>
Higher community of beings, how are they helping humanity? <in often subtle ways, gradually teaching or showing those humans most open to hearing, even if it is in a dream that they do not remember or only partially remember. As guides and such as well. Guides can take many forms and come from many places, the higher or upper realms, planes, dimensions or whatever terms you prefer, the natural world, and other places. Some may be surprised and the origin doesn't really matter, just the wisdom and love and approach of the guide and message.>
World peace? <also a gradual thing that must be done gradually and not quickly. this along with many things must be done gradually and not fast. humans often thing things have to be done fast and now, as many cultures say, and they do have a short lifespan, but one must take the longer view of things to see the true and better more easy approach and the most effective. Though many non humans are also the types who prefer to do things quick and sudden, since humans are not the only ones who need to learn and grow.>
the reason to learn to channel? <To gain conscious contact with guides, one's higher self, soul and other channels of wisdom that one may not have access to. The wisdom and experience can take one in many and surprising directions. Channeling your higher self may be, for many, the easiest thing to learn and do. Though putting aside doubts and the I'm making this all up feeling may be the harder things to do, especially at the beginning.>
This went well and after bit I didn't feel the pressure at the top of my head like at the start. I would assume this is cause I got use to their energy, and or they adjusted a bit. The pressure is very faint, just enough to feel if I think about feeling for it.
I do feel like I don't really need to continue doing this or the receiving clear guidance a 2nd time, but it may help to continue. So I'll do it. Just on certain days when I have time and or want to. Other days I may try doing a short channel.
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