Sunday [5-24]

Not sure if part of this was a false awakening dream or happened fully while I was fully awake, so I'll paste it here, and I already typed it up and posted it in my dream diary thread.

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This one could have been maybe a false awakening or not, not sure. I either awoke, or was going through a false awakening, again not sure. But my energy felt different, sorta like it was fuzzy or buzzing. hard to describe. Also I heard like someone stomping around the apartment as I was laying on my back with my eyes closed. Every time the person took a step there was like a bell or a buzz, not sure. Sounded like they then stomped into the bathroom and slammed the door.

I wasn't afraid, more like annoyed a bit. I then mentally asked for my mates, guides, soul (the part of me not incarnated in this body) future possible me, twin flame and added in any colleagues, friends, lovers I consciously don't know, and though I have never seen or experienced any angels or arch angels decided to add that in as well. Again I wasn't afraid just asked them to come check out what was going on, deal with it and any energy work needed doing.

After a bit i needed to go do something. I do keep a plug in light lit, it is not to bright but enough so I can see. I don't keep it plugged in since while I can let my eyes adapt to the dark, it is pretty dark in this apartment and I have bumped into stuff so thought why not have this light plugged in when I sleep. i usually keep it off, switching it on when I get out of bed, but at times I forget and leave it on all night. it's not very bright, but is enough so it can dimly light up a part of my apartment so I wont' bump into anything.

anyway I did feel my 2 mates and others pop in. Maribelle said she'd look into what happened. After a bit I needed to get up and do something but felt uneasy about going past the bathroom door. Something about the feel of the energy there felt odd, unpleasant or wrong. hard to describe. After I got done what I needed to do i want back to bed and when I woke up and went past the bathroom door it felt normal again. so I guess someone or multiple someones did whatever energy work was needed in there. again no idea what happened & if that was a false awakening, concerning the stomping and whatever it was or if I was really awake. I stayed on my back with my eyes closed not cause I was afraid, but a bit annoyed and trying to get back to sleep.

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I awoke and felt exhausted still.  I stayed in bed for, maybe 20 minutes at least, not sure.  maybe I dozed off again and still felt exhausted.  I got an idea and thought why not try to see if I can get some of the energy of my monad and divine self and see if that'll help.  I did that, first I mentally did it, streaming their energy into my body and energy systems.  After a short bit I asked if they wanted to do this since i thought they may be better then I was and they said they would rather I did it.  it felt like I plugged myself in, and could feel their energy streaming into my body and energy systems.  I did this for a minute maybe, maybe more or less. It did feel like it helped.  I felt a little tired and not exhausted.  I felt even better 15-20 minutes later as I type this.   not quite sure what I did or why it helped but it did. Maybe going to the grocery store this morning tired me out more then I thought it did. 

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I did the 9th meditation of part 4, it was about running a finer gridwork and it went very well.  Part of running the energies I wanted to see if I could include the energy from my monad, soul group, and divine self, and it felt like it went very well.  Felt like also that Maribelle & Spitfire were both sort of here at my sides.  The meditation switched over to Orin and she/he had a possible future self appear, talk to it briefly and incorporate some of it's energy and it's gridwork so mine now would become as fien as it's is.  Then she had me do it again.  The first time I had the intention of a year from now and the future me said things went well.  There were some minor hardships, but those happen living here, but the light body stuff went very well, better then he suspected at my time and I was able to get ahead, farther then I thought I would be able to get ahead in purchasing the courses.  Then for the other future me I went farther, after I had gotten all the light body courses and that me said all the light body stuff went very well, even better then expected.  his gridwork was very fine indeed, and I did incorporate some of his energy into mine and I'd guess other subconscious stuff.  It was to help make things even easier, more fun, ect, and that is great.

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Had a thought while I was in the shower.  If I'm an anchor for the higher light here, what if I'm the same back at the home or homes & places I stay and hang out at. 

It could be similar to earth.  Some folks like me like to advance and evolve as much as I can.  We enjoy doing that.  The majority prefer to evolve and advance at a certain even pace.  But those of us who enjoy shooting ahead and growing, advancing and evolving as much as we can can act like anchors for the higher light for others.  Just being around the others helps then go grow, perhaps more smoothly, more fun, depending on the culture and what's going on and the personal choice.

Some I share with, may grow a bit faster, depending on how much I share with them and how often.  If some of them share with others it effects them in a similar manner.  And so on.  There could be some around not as highly developed as I am, some that are around the same level I am, more or less, and some that are farther along. 

All those I am with and hang out with are helped in a similar manner to the way I help some here.  Though there they are far more aware of things, like the unicorns, pegasus, pod, and others.  So through doing the stuff I enjoy, like evolving, growing and advancing and growing as much as I can, and being around others and with others, having fun, sharing pleasure, our being, energy, love, what some would call sex, having fun, ect I help others as well by being an anchor.

That could be a clue to what I may do back at my homes and areas I hang out at.  maybe one of the reasons that maybe someone asked me to come here, original soul, or however that works. 

Though with the way the monad group folks said, the quantum fiends being adjusted, I think they said, when I was re-created, I got the feeling and or maybe they said, that it as me, this me, that was lovers with Maribelle, Spitfire, and others, and had those post lives that the original me had as an extension of original soul.  Though original soul and original me did that too.  Though the feel I get is for souls this isn't a paradox, just parallel selves or they created new timelines or soul lines or something.  hard to put into English what I mean. 

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