Feels like I've had some more soul knowledge pop up. I think unicorns are spread across the densities. Though some groves have unicorns of mixed densities living together. nagas I'm not sure, they are above 4th density I think. Not sure how up though. Dragons I think have quite a few that are 4th, but obviously some are above 4th, since my dragon soul mother is a monad level being. Maybe dragons are mixed like unicorns when it comes to densities. Maybe younger ones are lower, say 4th and much older ones may be up to monad level or higher. Unicorns may be the same. Nagas I'm not sure if they are the same, if they use tech more or abilities more since I feel very few unicorns use technology, but are more into using soul level abilities instead. Not sure about dragons and nagas, they may be the same or maybe they may be mixed, when it comes to technology and soul abilities.
With the pod I feel they are somewhat mixed. Staying roughly balanced between tech and soul abilities being used. Density I'm not sure, the pod may be 6th and higher, but I'm not sure. Some of the pod may be incarnations and some may be soul beings, or full soul beings, whatever the term is. Or is it that the pod is both 6th dimension & density, or 6th dimension? Not sure.
It is density and dimension, which can confuse. For example earth is 4th dimension, but 3rd density.
The dimension I'm not sure about the ones i said above. I had a better feel for the density for some reason. Maybe density matters more the dimension, and the 2 do get blurred together.
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i think some of the fear I have been experiencing, very minor fear, has been pretty buried and or is bubbling up to the surface due to some of the energy work, merging and other stuff I've been doing. I'll resolve that. I'm sure I can get to where all the fear is gone. Though I think instead of digging for it I'll wait till some has bubbled to the surface, so to speak. After this is dealt with then I'll deal with the doubt. I think I may do the meditations healing the inner child today. I may do the aspect one, that the awaken the light body calls sub personalities today or tomorrow, and changing your thoughts I may do Wednesday. I may do a compromise and listen to 1 of those audios a day today through Wednesday, but I may also do all 3 meditations without listening to the audio, doing 2 of the other 2 I'm not listening to each day.
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I thought about my relationships with my 2 mates. Unless I have more then the 2 mates I know of, which is entirely possible. I may have a naga mate or something else perhaps.
With Maribelle the connection & sharing (sex) feels more gentle. Like when we have sex it may be slower, with some pausing to share affection and nuzzle. Though I may stay in her and lay on her back while pausing to share affection and nuzzle.
with Spitfire if feels more intense, the sharing affection and nuzzling happens say between the times when I'm thrusting till the sex act finishes. Though with both, we will show affection & nuzzle at times during the day, Maribelle and I touching horns too.
I'm not sure if the naga I encountered before is just a guide, or perhaps a lover and or mate. I do feel love radiating from her and feels like she's beside me now. Though mixed in with the love is diffidently sexual feelings, but it's say sorta more like with Maribelle, love with sexual feelings mixed in. Spitfire it's equal amounts of love/sex, feelings. hard to explain.
These are not just feelings I feel coming from those beings, but what I feel within myself as well. Feels like our feelings for each other match. This may be due to a link or bond we have, or it may be just normal for us and or for souls, or souls who are aware or something.
With twin flame it's a special relationship. love and sex is there. it is gentle type love with some sexual feelings there, but with most of the intensity dealt with with my embodying, incorporating more of my soul self and the veil being gone the overall intensity is mainly not there. Though I do feel when we get together to share, it would be a mix, some affectionate sex, mixed in with passionate intense type sex/sharing. So a blend of the various types. Which I feel to be normal for us.
If it is the same female naga I did have an encounter with her before, a sexual one. Though I don't recall the whole scene, just 4 or so seconds so maybe we were talking or something before and after that.
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I also feel with some the distinction between lover and mate can be very blurred, since one can flow from being close friends, lovers, to mates. And some, over time, as circumstances moods, ect. may flow between lovers and mates. Though with Maribelle I think our being mates is permanent. Same as me and Spitfire. Though time being non linear and us being immortal we can spend time apart being busy doing this or that. Being telepathic we can still talk. Like folks can talk on cell phones even though they are not physically together, send each other video, ect.
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Typed up last night: ? do I have a naga guide. she did say she was a guide and more. What could the more mean? Hmmm.
Is that her presence I was getting a bit tonight. If I go into a meditative trance I do feel a loving presence.
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I forgot to put the above into my post earlier. Now I can say, from my experience earlier today. I do feel that there is a relationship other then just her being my guide. I do feel love from her, but not just what love a guide would have for their pupils, charges, or whatever the term is, & like I said before I did feel some sexual feelings intermixed with the love and she did say when I asked if she was a guide, "and more." so those together have me thinking and feeling we may indeed be lovers or even mates.
Some may say it's against some sort of rules for guides. I feel the real thing is if there is a pre established relationship then it's ok. like if someone asks one of their mates or lovers who is an experienced guide if they would be a guide for them in an upcoming incarnation it would be ok. Though the guide has to be careful to not overwhelm or scare the incarnate if they just start the affection and sex like before. During a dream may be ok since the person may be aware then. if the veil is gone or gradually goes away then if both are willing it would be ok too.
In a case of where there is no previous relationship I think if true love develops between them then it may be ok too, especially if it starts during an incarnation, but makes no impact on their life, & continues to grow between incarnations and more.
Being immortal I can see souls having multiple mates, and with time being non linear for souls, unless they wish to experience it linearly, then can spend many hours together with each mate or multiple mates, just by popping around time wise.
I do wonder if the naga and I do have a previous relationship and what type it is. I may find out soon.
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Had quite a bit happen when I awoke from my nap. The naga appeared and she was at first coiled our tails together. Seems I was in my naga form. Then she caressed my chest and back 1 of her hands on both. Then she coiled around me fully, our belly and chest pressed together. For a sort bit she did some sort of humming, vibration, of some sort that did help me to relax. She said this may cause some stuff to rise to the surface, but I could deal with it.
I then felt her doing some sort of something where she was reaching deep into me doing something. I was curious what she was doing and she said something about clearing out. Then I felt like my light body heart center was increasing in size. At first I couldn't tell what was going on. I did comment if I could really have as many beings I loved like Maribelle, Spitfire, twin flame and her. She said why not, I am a very loving being. Then she asked me to not talk since she needed to concentrate. I felt her doing what she had been doing before. It was like a tendral of energy or something was reaching deep into me. I felt my light body heart energy center grow larger still then it was like her's and mine both merged into one. She continued doing what she was doing for a bit. Then she stopped. Then we briefly kissed in human fashion. Then we touched cheeks for a bit. She showed me her form saying this is our true form. The snake form, with cobra hood and head, but with arms. She said I should go ahead and do the healing the inner child like I was planning on doing, but she said I would not need to listen to the audio. Then she left.
Then I called in Maribelle who briefly came. I was going to ask her what she thought of what happened but right off Maribelle said she was very happy it had finally happened. I did ask her if I could have this many mates & lovers and she said indeed, and it would not change our relationship at all. I touched my horn with hers, putting mine above hers since before she said that was traditional with her ? glory, blessing grove? forgot which she said, but she said it was traditional among her ?? for the male to put his horn above the female's. And as before when we touch horns we can feel each other's love and that it does go deep indeed. Maribelle said that it shows true mateship and we are soul mates. If our relationship was shallow or based on just sex only, then this would reveal it to both. She then left.
Next, no idea why I did this, I asked Sasha in, again no idea why it just sorta happened. I am guessing all this took place in some sort of personal space either inside me, or something, it was some sort of personal space I think. Again no idea why I asked or invited her in, it popped into my head. Maybe it was soul's idea.
Anyway when she saw me Sasha did a sort of gasp and said something like <you really are one of them> and started to bow, which to me felt totally wrong. I put a finger under her chin before she fully could and had raised her head so we were eye to eye. I don't recall the exact conversation, but I do recall in general I said that though I may be native to a higher dimension and or density, we are still equal beings. She said something about the elders had said that they (meaning nagas) wouldn't let them bow or worship them either when they would visit. She said they meant the bowing was just to show respect. I mentioned that we, she and I, are equal beings. I don't have access to my full soul memories or knowledge, which she said something about, most of my abilities are blocked, or are being blocked, forgot which she said. I then said that regardless, even if I were not incarnated and fully merged with the part of me not incarnated she and I would still be equal beings to me since, I said with a slight bit of humor, I bet there are some things you can do better and maybe know better then I do, even if I were not incarnated here.
Again no idea why I asked Shasha like that. Maybe it was soul's idea or something.
I also wonder, what sort of relationship could the naga and I have if what she was doing, clearing out stuff deep down, could cause my light body heart energy center to get larger then merge like that. She and Maribelle wouldn't say.
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I did the receiving and radiating love longer free meditation. early on I asked Spitfire how she was doing and she said great, she had had a pleasant morning flight.
During the mediation I could feel the love from the various sources. It flowed into me. My intention was for it to flow into not just my light body heart energy center, but also all my various bodies, physical, etheric, emotional, mental & light bodies, the as Orin said I had it radiate to my friends in rl and online, my mates, soul parents, lovers & mates I consciously know and others I may not know, others I know, neighbors, the earth grid, into the earth itself, ect. Just a summary of what I experienced. No need to go into super detail.
During the latter part of it Spitfire sent me a mental image of her flying over with some mountains not to far off, grassland type to one side & blow, an ocean below and to one side. I could feel the wind going over and a bit under her wings and body. she said something like I should join her in a flight. I said sure, I don't think a flying dolphin would attract much attention there and sent her a mental image of a dolphin flying in the air. She then giggled said something like, "no, silly." then after a bit, "you can become a pegasus if you wish." I feel this is what she meant by us flying together since I can look how I want. Though the imagry was silly, of a flying dolphin. ;)
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I do wonder what my relationship is with the naga, she's not saying, nor does anyone else seem to want to.
This afternoon I felt the urge to masturbate and she seemed to encourage me. It felt more then it usually does, like our energies were mixing or something. After a while she encouraged me to stop before I finished, saying something like what you started I'll finish. Oddly I didn't feel the need to anymore, sorta. Once I had stopped I noticed it felt like my Kundalini was surging , flowing fast. I'd not noticed it before, not had I noticed that it now felt like it was almost as wide as my body. As I ate if I paused to rest and close my eyes, I felt a sexual type pleasure, like I was having sex when I wasn't. it's centered on my kundalini area it seems and it does feel like it still is much wider then it was say an hour or 2 ago, almost as wide as my body. i do wonder what is going on and what her and my relationship is. Whatever process that is happening it feels normal, like it is supposed to happen. Even these waves of sexual pleasure I'm getting at times. The only tip I can get from her is once she briefly sent me a message of she's finishing what I started. It feels like I somehow know what she's doing, at least at times.
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I lay down to take a nap and it continued. It was like I could feel her masturbating. As if I were I were in her body as she was doing this. I could feel my kundalini responding as she did . It felt like my kundalini kept rushing & flowing faster, harder, like before, but it was also widening and kept till it got about as wide as my shoulders are. It felt like I was in her body and my physical body. I could feel the sensations. This continued till she stopped saying something like, "first our hearts became one. now our kundalini has. What you've started I've finished." Then she coiled around me hugging me with both her arms, her cheek touching mine. This was a me that was in whatever that private space place is I've been to before. She continued this embrace calling me dearest. Still no idea what happened, but while it was happening it felt right, like it was something normal that should happen, so I let it happen.
I did ask her what our relationship was, I still don't know. I think she said something like, "does it really matter dearest." or something like that with another embrace. Then I think I went to sleep. When I awoke I do have to admit I still have no idea what relationship that we have, but I do think I feel much better. More clear. hard to describe how I feel. I do think I can still feel her. Like we have some sort of special permanent connection. Our hearts are merged into 1 and our kundalini perhaps too.
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Monday, June 1, 2015
Sunday, May 31, 2015
2 very short (? DIVINE SELF ?) [5-31]
I had a short encounter with my divine self, or a part of it. at first I asked my divine self, or a fragment of it. It felt like me,but way more energy and much more concentration of energy. I asked it to first channel energy into my emotional and mental bodies . Then I asked it a few questions.
Any tips for me? <Remove and deal with fear, that is the main thing many have, though they may not be aware of it. You are becoming more like me every day, your true self you may say. Continue your good work. After fear, doubt it something you should work on too. You do not have much fear, which is why I'd prefer you to work on that first. The bits left may be buried and .... up to you of course but I'd rather you get rid of that before doubt. Work on it daily, several times a day in a relaxed and fun manner.>
Any tips for me? <Remove and deal with fear, that is the main thing many have, though they may not be aware of it. You are becoming more like me every day, your true self you may say. Continue your good work. After fear, doubt it something you should work on too. You do not have much fear, which is why I'd prefer you to work on that first. The bits left may be buried and .... up to you of course but I'd rather you get rid of that before doubt. Work on it daily, several times a day in a relaxed and fun manner.>
Sunday [5-31]
I did the Opening to Your True Identity longer free meditation, had quite a few things happen during it. During the early part where Orin was talking and before the meditation itself started I did a quick running the energies and did pretty well. The one I had the most trouble with was the 6th light body energy center, not to surprised there. Now as I type this I can feel, I guess, my unicorn horn a bit. and like before, it's connected to my Pieah, the 6th light body energy center.
The meditation itself went well. I did feel myself opening up, some elements being transmuted, to higher light, vibration, whatever the term is. I could feel and see it.
During part of it I felt a naga, she felt herm but a slight leaning towards female, come and coil around me and I was in a naga form, including both of us having a hood type thing like cobras have. She put her left cheek to mine and was coiled around me and we started to sway side to side as she started doing some sort of humming or vibration that I found very relaxing and could feel some of it in my body. I was able to do the meditation at the same time. After a bit she stopped us swaying and then the humming vibration thing and she then left.
I asked her if she was a guide and I got a reply with a mental sort of smile <and more.>
I asked what were you doing I got, <activating your naga dna, at the soul level and maybe physical>.. again with a bit of a mental smile
A bit later I saw a mental image (at the same time as the visualization of the guided meditation) of myself in a naga form, with a cobra like hood, and a reptilian type naga. I was with some what looked like dino raptor types, either like velociraptor or deinoychus type. I looked at my hand and saw i was a clawed reptilian type hand, but I was glowing like I was made of light and a sorta mental voice said <you'll be a guide to them.> I felt at some point in the future, after some interval maybe.
Over all an interesting experience I think.
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I did do the 12th mediation for part 4 again. The meditation went well overall. Hard to recall all of it since it is almost 40 minutes long. I did see the temple of the masters. The 3 that appeared, were interesting. 2 of them seemed to be 2 of my soul parents, my unicorn mother and dragon mother as well, my dragon mother was in a naga form, one of the types that she is. The other one was also a naga. Though it did seem like this third figure had 2 forms in one, a dolphin like being and naga. I switched to see and the 3rd being would take the other form. So if I was a naga it would be a dolphin, and vice versa. For most of the event thing I stayed in a dolphin like being form. then my soul was in a dolphin size orca form and when we merged I wound up at first like a dolphin like being with orca colors. Then later on a blending of the 2 forms.
Thw work on my emotional and mental bodies went very well I thought. For part of it I went very deep into my trance indeed. The latter part of it I was really just relaxing and trying to go through the visualization. I take that to mean some work was done while I was very deep. I do remember what happened, but it's hard to put into words what happened. Energy exchange, merging with the part of me not incarnated, some with the divine self's energy, my energy being risen in octaves, a higher vibration, transmuted to a finer light energy. hard to describe my experience.
I also, during part of it got a flash of the Sasha raptor that appeared with a either knowledge or words saying she would be a future student of mine, with me being a guide or teacher of hers.
Overall I do feel better. But hard to describe how and in what ways.
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I assume if I will be a guide I'd be more like an assistant guide, unless I already have been one.
I did the first of the short free meditations of the body section. The first one is called cellular activation. From the meditation it seems to be you have your soul, or in my case me, the part of me not incarnated here, come to you and you can feel it is love. Then you have it gather solar light, whatever that is. I just imagined my divine self as a bright sun and the light was coming from that. I could feel the higher finer light energy filling the part of me not incarnated, that was around me, & then sending it into my body's cells till they were filled with this light energy, filled till they could hold no more. Not sure if it did any cellular activation or had any effect. It may be I may not notice the effects for a while. But it was an ok to enjoyable 4 or so minutes.
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I did the 2nd one in the body short free meditations. it was almost 5 minutes but felt like it was at most 1 minute. It was an ok experience, streaming in a golden light from above into the solar plexas area, up the spine out the top of the head. I had it go back to form a complete circuit. it was an ok to maybe interesting. I do feel a bit more energy. Maybe extra energy in my abdominal area.
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This last one was about relaxation. An interesting mediation that was also about 4 minutes but felt like it was at most 1 minute. I could feel the breathing in of light and energy I had scattered into the universe, and breathing out negative emotions and energy from my physical, etheric, emotional and mental bodies. The meditation didn't mention the bodies but I added in that part myself.
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I had a brief conversation with Maribelle before I went to sleep while I lay down to take a nap. She did something that helped me to go to sleep faily quickly.
She and Spitfire had been friends for quite a while.
Before that she said that she had picked me to be Spitfire's first not in the hopes that she & I would become mates. That was not her intention. but Spitfire is younger then her and was curious about sharing and sex so Maribelle suggested me, since she thought and told Spitfire that her first should be someone patient and experienced and not some younger type who may be to eager or excitable. And Spitfire and I do have some things in common so we could spend time together talking about and doing stuff apart from sharing & sex. Though it was not her itension Maribelle is not sorry we Spitfire and I became mates.
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I also awoke, or a bit after I awoke I realized I had more. A bit vague, but like usual it's like it's always been there. something to do with Some Ananaki (not sure of the spelling) being sorry or something like that, about what they did and want to try to fix what they did or try to make amends, or something. Something to do with what they did to humans sometime in the past, but no real details but that. no idea what that is about, no biggie I guess.
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I did the awaken the solar light body meditation I had come across on youtube a long time ago, not sure when. It went ok. I could feel some energy going through me at times, some sort of higher fine light type energy. Not a lot to report on this except what I already said.
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I did the now, a meditation journey to your inner self and beyond. It was sorta meh. it was interesting in spots. I could feel the energy of the body, but not the external energy the person talked about. Nor being one with the universe. Though unlike what he said I do know the true me, the inner me that some call soul, that really is me, just most of it is not incarnated in this body.
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I seem to have a bit of access to a bit more of my soul knowledge. I know I have had lives and are from Sirius, quite a few maybe, or maybe early on. Not sure of the details. I feel I've had lives on Pleiades, wherever that planet is with anthro dolphins. Wherever nagas are. Those are ones I recall. Or like the soul knowledge that I have had connections to Sirius and Pleiades, not sure of others besides like I said that I recall like anthro dolphins, naga. 1 that I recall that are a furred humanoid, no idea about them, just a bit of a past life I had a memory of that I typed up a day or a few days ago. I'm not sure about those.
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The meditation itself went well. I did feel myself opening up, some elements being transmuted, to higher light, vibration, whatever the term is. I could feel and see it.
During part of it I felt a naga, she felt herm but a slight leaning towards female, come and coil around me and I was in a naga form, including both of us having a hood type thing like cobras have. She put her left cheek to mine and was coiled around me and we started to sway side to side as she started doing some sort of humming or vibration that I found very relaxing and could feel some of it in my body. I was able to do the meditation at the same time. After a bit she stopped us swaying and then the humming vibration thing and she then left.
I asked her if she was a guide and I got a reply with a mental sort of smile <and more.>
I asked what were you doing I got, <activating your naga dna, at the soul level and maybe physical>.. again with a bit of a mental smile
A bit later I saw a mental image (at the same time as the visualization of the guided meditation) of myself in a naga form, with a cobra like hood, and a reptilian type naga. I was with some what looked like dino raptor types, either like velociraptor or deinoychus type. I looked at my hand and saw i was a clawed reptilian type hand, but I was glowing like I was made of light and a sorta mental voice said <you'll be a guide to them.> I felt at some point in the future, after some interval maybe.
Over all an interesting experience I think.
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I did do the 12th mediation for part 4 again. The meditation went well overall. Hard to recall all of it since it is almost 40 minutes long. I did see the temple of the masters. The 3 that appeared, were interesting. 2 of them seemed to be 2 of my soul parents, my unicorn mother and dragon mother as well, my dragon mother was in a naga form, one of the types that she is. The other one was also a naga. Though it did seem like this third figure had 2 forms in one, a dolphin like being and naga. I switched to see and the 3rd being would take the other form. So if I was a naga it would be a dolphin, and vice versa. For most of the event thing I stayed in a dolphin like being form. then my soul was in a dolphin size orca form and when we merged I wound up at first like a dolphin like being with orca colors. Then later on a blending of the 2 forms.
Thw work on my emotional and mental bodies went very well I thought. For part of it I went very deep into my trance indeed. The latter part of it I was really just relaxing and trying to go through the visualization. I take that to mean some work was done while I was very deep. I do remember what happened, but it's hard to put into words what happened. Energy exchange, merging with the part of me not incarnated, some with the divine self's energy, my energy being risen in octaves, a higher vibration, transmuted to a finer light energy. hard to describe my experience.
I also, during part of it got a flash of the Sasha raptor that appeared with a either knowledge or words saying she would be a future student of mine, with me being a guide or teacher of hers.
Overall I do feel better. But hard to describe how and in what ways.
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I assume if I will be a guide I'd be more like an assistant guide, unless I already have been one.
I did the first of the short free meditations of the body section. The first one is called cellular activation. From the meditation it seems to be you have your soul, or in my case me, the part of me not incarnated here, come to you and you can feel it is love. Then you have it gather solar light, whatever that is. I just imagined my divine self as a bright sun and the light was coming from that. I could feel the higher finer light energy filling the part of me not incarnated, that was around me, & then sending it into my body's cells till they were filled with this light energy, filled till they could hold no more. Not sure if it did any cellular activation or had any effect. It may be I may not notice the effects for a while. But it was an ok to enjoyable 4 or so minutes.
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I did the 2nd one in the body short free meditations. it was almost 5 minutes but felt like it was at most 1 minute. It was an ok experience, streaming in a golden light from above into the solar plexas area, up the spine out the top of the head. I had it go back to form a complete circuit. it was an ok to maybe interesting. I do feel a bit more energy. Maybe extra energy in my abdominal area.
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This last one was about relaxation. An interesting mediation that was also about 4 minutes but felt like it was at most 1 minute. I could feel the breathing in of light and energy I had scattered into the universe, and breathing out negative emotions and energy from my physical, etheric, emotional and mental bodies. The meditation didn't mention the bodies but I added in that part myself.
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I had a brief conversation with Maribelle before I went to sleep while I lay down to take a nap. She did something that helped me to go to sleep faily quickly.
She and Spitfire had been friends for quite a while.
Before that she said that she had picked me to be Spitfire's first not in the hopes that she & I would become mates. That was not her intention. but Spitfire is younger then her and was curious about sharing and sex so Maribelle suggested me, since she thought and told Spitfire that her first should be someone patient and experienced and not some younger type who may be to eager or excitable. And Spitfire and I do have some things in common so we could spend time together talking about and doing stuff apart from sharing & sex. Though it was not her itension Maribelle is not sorry we Spitfire and I became mates.
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I also awoke, or a bit after I awoke I realized I had more. A bit vague, but like usual it's like it's always been there. something to do with Some Ananaki (not sure of the spelling) being sorry or something like that, about what they did and want to try to fix what they did or try to make amends, or something. Something to do with what they did to humans sometime in the past, but no real details but that. no idea what that is about, no biggie I guess.
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I did the awaken the solar light body meditation I had come across on youtube a long time ago, not sure when. It went ok. I could feel some energy going through me at times, some sort of higher fine light type energy. Not a lot to report on this except what I already said.
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I did the now, a meditation journey to your inner self and beyond. It was sorta meh. it was interesting in spots. I could feel the energy of the body, but not the external energy the person talked about. Nor being one with the universe. Though unlike what he said I do know the true me, the inner me that some call soul, that really is me, just most of it is not incarnated in this body.
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I seem to have a bit of access to a bit more of my soul knowledge. I know I have had lives and are from Sirius, quite a few maybe, or maybe early on. Not sure of the details. I feel I've had lives on Pleiades, wherever that planet is with anthro dolphins. Wherever nagas are. Those are ones I recall. Or like the soul knowledge that I have had connections to Sirius and Pleiades, not sure of others besides like I said that I recall like anthro dolphins, naga. 1 that I recall that are a furred humanoid, no idea about them, just a bit of a past life I had a memory of that I typed up a day or a few days ago. I'm not sure about those.
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1 (Sasha - Raptor) [5-31]
I had just awoken when I had a brief mental visit from someone new. I'll do my best to recreate the mental conversation. I had been watching some channeling videos while I ate a bit before my nap.
I felt a sort of contact, sorta like a mental light tap of one finger like to get one's attention, hard to describe.
"Hello?": <I just came by to say a brief hello.> I felt this was a reptilian, I got a sorta mental image of a dinosaur type raptor, and the feeling she was a warm loving being.
"Surprised that you would approach and talk to a human." I mentioned this for a few reasons. First while I don' see myself as human and inhabiting a human body some others may see me as human even at the soul level, and to see what she'd say. <I can see looking at your soul that you are not human... I can see also that you have a naga heritage. They helped us in the past to ascend to what you may refer to from the 3rd to the 4th density. Some of us, at the time, choose to not ascend, some did, many choose not to. so now our numbers are few. We do honor and appreciate the naga for their help and I wish to thank you for that. perhaps in a past incarnation you were one of them.>
"Perhaps, or one of my soul mothers. She may have been one of the ones or perhaps one of her aspects. So you are a sentient Velociraptor or Deinonychus? <I do believe humans have classified some of our ancestors as that yes. There were some, visitors to earth during the age of dinosaurs who looked over and saw a promising species and, did some what you may call gene splicing or gene altering to nudge one of the species towards becoming sentient, teaching some culture later on a later visit. then some naga, helped by teaching those of us who were ready about ascending to the 4th density. We have much to think the nagas for.>
"So you and the nagas are a species of the light? <I do believe treb bor yit ne classifies us and the nagas as a type 1, if I do recall his numbering system correctly.>
"Ah, so you heard of treb?" I've never talk to Treb just seen some videos and read his 1st book. <Yes, he is in contact with some of us. >
"And how about the nagas? <Some of them do at times now and then, at certain .... intervals. Wishing us to grow and progress on our own without their interference. Though some do wish they'd contact us more often since we can learn so much from them. We do understand why.>
"I felt the name Sasha, that is a human name. <yes, I adopt a human name. Easier then using my real name, when talking to humans, or those of human incarnations.> Here the contact was ended. Guess it was meant to be a short visit, or short mental communication.
Here the contact was ended. Guess it was meant to be a short visit, or short mental communication. Not sure what to make of this. I just put it here since I guess it would be channeled, though I didn't initiate it. I guess if someone else wishes to talk to me mentally it could be called channeling? Not sure of the classification, or if it was just a conversation and not a channeling proper.
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Saturday [5-30]
I do wonder if my past was at least a bit altered, since assuming what I got is correct, I think they said something about the quantum fields were adjusted when I was recreated. So that could have changed the past or just started a new timeline. So maybe before Spitfire and I were not lovers since I was just a dolphin type being. Maribelle and I may have been maybe just friends, maybe occasional lovers, not sure about that.
Since I was re-created perhaps Maribelle considered me a possible first mate since part of my soul heritage included being a unicorn, whereas perhaps in the first timeline she may have either not asked, or perhaps asked me after she had a unicorn mate first.
Spitfire and I may have been just friends or maybe just acquaintances, but in the altered timeline, being a unicorn, among other things I've said, I became a possible mate. I Was her first perhaps since, as I think my soul memories revealed, she was a bit shy especially in that area, she was good friends and Maribelle may have suggested me since I'm older and wouldn't be over eager, but could take my time. And she and I became lovers maybe, and later she asked if we could be mates. maybe she had time to think things over since I was incarnated here. Not sure if time is passing the same there as here, or if the part of me that's not incarnated here visits and spends time with her and she came to me since that part of me was willing and she came to ask this part of me since part of me is incarnated here and part is not incarnated.
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Had a conversation with Spitfire since I could feel sexual desire and urges not just within myself but coming from external and it did feel like it was coming from 3, Spitfire the most, some from Maribelle and my Twin Flame. Spitfire said it was because she prefers to be monogamous, but understands that's not my way, I'm the focus of her sexual urges and desires. With Maribelle she has lovers and one day may have mates so though Maribelle and I have special places in each other's hearts since we are mates, her lovers can satisfy her to an extent. I guess she means for Maribelle her sexual desires and urges have multiple focuses and Twin Flame's does, though Twin Flame and I share a special relationship obviously. Though I'll get all of Spitfire's since I'm the sole focus. Makes sense.
That may make for interesting times once I'm back home fully. I did ask Spitfire how about her and Maribelle, I'd not mind if the 2 of them want to have some fun. Spitfire said she may be interested if I'd be present to watch. I mentioned I may like that, but after a bit I may want to join in and participate, which I got the feeling Spitfire would really like.
I did ask Spitfire if the part of me that is not incarnated is capable of satisfying her since I can't be there fully and she said it isn't the same since I'm not fully there. part of me is there, where I am, incarnated in this body. I think I do understand. Her mate is in 2 places so perhaps 2 focuses, if that makes sense. It does to me.
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I think I'll do the soul linking meditation. it's only 15 minutes and one of the free ones, and the shortest of the long meditations. I think I'll try it with Spitfire first to see what happens. Then later on today maybe Maribelle & Twin Flame later. I think starting Sunday I'll do 1 free longer meditation and 1 category of the short free meditations (those tend to have 2-5 meditations that are 2-4 minutes long each. If I do this, on Thursday I'll be doing the last ones and Friday I can start on part 5 of the awaken the light body.
I may also go back to the 7th meditation of part 4 at some point , seeing a relationship as energy, to see what i get if I try it with Spitfire, Maribelle, then Twin Flame. Hmm.
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I did the soul linking. The first thing Orin had me do is bring my soul in as a ball. It's color was a very dark blue, almost black. Then for the soul linking I choose Spitfire. I felt we had a strong connection already at my light body heart energy center. I did feel some slight very slight pains there, as blocks maybe or something. Though I did feel we had a strong connection and our love was a bit intense, even with all the sexualness not being present. And our love as deep perhaps. With the solar light she had in the meditation too, I used that to dissolve most of the blocks or whatever was causing the faint pain, till it was basically just a faint bit left.
Then she had us bring in a 2nd person. I choose Maribelle. I felt our connection to be as strong as Spitfire, but our love was very gentle, or had a very gentle feel to it, hard to describe. i felt like it was deep as well. at the end I added in Twin Flame though she was saying for me to return. I felt with Twin flame, as I expected, our connection and love went very deep and was more intense then Maribelle's, but more gentle and the level of intensity was more gentle then Spitfire and our love.
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I awoke feeling more tired then when I went to bed to take a nap. Though I got up anyway.
I tried the short free meditation Receiving Solar Light. It seemed like I could indeed see the solar light above me, shining down. It's the source of some sort of very high light energy with some love mixed in. Hard to describe what it feels like. The shining light did cause me to be able to feel my unicorn horn, and, like yesterday when I did a meditation, forgot which one, that my horn is connected to my 6th light body energy center at the center of my head. Anyway the meditation included breathing in the solar light. I added in that as I exhaled it went to the various parts of my bodies, light, mental, emotional, etheric & physical bodies, and I added in any others I may not know of yet, as well as seeing the solar light shining a path to my highest path for today which I walked in. I do feel much lighter, like I am filled with some higher light energy stuff. hard to describe how it feels, and like I am radiating this light too.
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Next I did the very short free Shower of Light Meditation. It was interesting. This mediation was about 4 minutes, but it felt like it was at most 1 minute. This was about a shower of light, different colors of light of rainbow colors. I could feel the different colors as they were like a shower of color on me and as I breathed them in. Each felt slightly different then the one before. A very pleasant
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I was talking to Scarlett and after she went to bed I was thinking and an idea popped into my head and some sort of soul knowledge popped into my head.
It seems one can have 1 of 2 types of twin flames, or one may have 2 or more twin flames. One I'll call the monad twin flame since the split may happen at the monad level. Though also a split can happen, or a 2nd one may happen, more at what some would call the soul level. So one may have 2 twin flames, what I call a monad twin flame and a soul twin flame. if one wishes to label stuff, but one doesn't need to, but to understand stuff it can be a help. It may be more detailed but that is enough for me for now and that is all my soul knowledge covers.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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I think a full soul being is what some are, but not all. I think in many areas one can make a body, manifest one if they are in an area of physicality. There is an area, or area, dimension or something of non physicality. The default appearance of souls are a point of consciousness with a ball of what looks like color around it.
Most prefer to be, at least partially, in the physicality areas. Some, or many, areas one can just manifest a body for themselves from the local stuff. Just poof, I think. & unicorns are not incarnations. if one is an incarnation say then they'd have a lifespan likely, the length would be based on perhaps technology, or healing rejuvenating abilities perhaps too. But also on the density of the place. So I feel 4th density beings have a longer lifespan then say 3rd density beings like humans. 5th longer then 4th. Though at higher densities one can just keep renewing one's body so the distinction may be a bit of a blur since one could, at higher densities, I think, put your body into a trance, project most of yourself out, and go around like a regular soul, and return later.
Though in many areas one doesn't have to be an incarnation but can be a full ensouled being, and be thus immortal, or non aging. Also I think being an incarnation usually means a more linear existence.
Hard to put into words what I seem to know, also the fine details I don't recall yet.
being incarnated may have some different sensations for certain things like sex, maybe one may need to eat, and a full ensouled being may not need to, but could comsume light. though I'm not sure if higher densities above 3 need to eat or not.
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Neat, I've never known anyone to be a dolphin type being except for me
Since I was re-created perhaps Maribelle considered me a possible first mate since part of my soul heritage included being a unicorn, whereas perhaps in the first timeline she may have either not asked, or perhaps asked me after she had a unicorn mate first.
Spitfire and I may have been just friends or maybe just acquaintances, but in the altered timeline, being a unicorn, among other things I've said, I became a possible mate. I Was her first perhaps since, as I think my soul memories revealed, she was a bit shy especially in that area, she was good friends and Maribelle may have suggested me since I'm older and wouldn't be over eager, but could take my time. And she and I became lovers maybe, and later she asked if we could be mates. maybe she had time to think things over since I was incarnated here. Not sure if time is passing the same there as here, or if the part of me that's not incarnated here visits and spends time with her and she came to me since that part of me was willing and she came to ask this part of me since part of me is incarnated here and part is not incarnated.
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Had a conversation with Spitfire since I could feel sexual desire and urges not just within myself but coming from external and it did feel like it was coming from 3, Spitfire the most, some from Maribelle and my Twin Flame. Spitfire said it was because she prefers to be monogamous, but understands that's not my way, I'm the focus of her sexual urges and desires. With Maribelle she has lovers and one day may have mates so though Maribelle and I have special places in each other's hearts since we are mates, her lovers can satisfy her to an extent. I guess she means for Maribelle her sexual desires and urges have multiple focuses and Twin Flame's does, though Twin Flame and I share a special relationship obviously. Though I'll get all of Spitfire's since I'm the sole focus. Makes sense.
That may make for interesting times once I'm back home fully. I did ask Spitfire how about her and Maribelle, I'd not mind if the 2 of them want to have some fun. Spitfire said she may be interested if I'd be present to watch. I mentioned I may like that, but after a bit I may want to join in and participate, which I got the feeling Spitfire would really like.
I did ask Spitfire if the part of me that is not incarnated is capable of satisfying her since I can't be there fully and she said it isn't the same since I'm not fully there. part of me is there, where I am, incarnated in this body. I think I do understand. Her mate is in 2 places so perhaps 2 focuses, if that makes sense. It does to me.
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I think I'll do the soul linking meditation. it's only 15 minutes and one of the free ones, and the shortest of the long meditations. I think I'll try it with Spitfire first to see what happens. Then later on today maybe Maribelle & Twin Flame later. I think starting Sunday I'll do 1 free longer meditation and 1 category of the short free meditations (those tend to have 2-5 meditations that are 2-4 minutes long each. If I do this, on Thursday I'll be doing the last ones and Friday I can start on part 5 of the awaken the light body.
I may also go back to the 7th meditation of part 4 at some point , seeing a relationship as energy, to see what i get if I try it with Spitfire, Maribelle, then Twin Flame. Hmm.
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I did the soul linking. The first thing Orin had me do is bring my soul in as a ball. It's color was a very dark blue, almost black. Then for the soul linking I choose Spitfire. I felt we had a strong connection already at my light body heart energy center. I did feel some slight very slight pains there, as blocks maybe or something. Though I did feel we had a strong connection and our love was a bit intense, even with all the sexualness not being present. And our love as deep perhaps. With the solar light she had in the meditation too, I used that to dissolve most of the blocks or whatever was causing the faint pain, till it was basically just a faint bit left.
Then she had us bring in a 2nd person. I choose Maribelle. I felt our connection to be as strong as Spitfire, but our love was very gentle, or had a very gentle feel to it, hard to describe. i felt like it was deep as well. at the end I added in Twin Flame though she was saying for me to return. I felt with Twin flame, as I expected, our connection and love went very deep and was more intense then Maribelle's, but more gentle and the level of intensity was more gentle then Spitfire and our love.
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I awoke feeling more tired then when I went to bed to take a nap. Though I got up anyway.
I tried the short free meditation Receiving Solar Light. It seemed like I could indeed see the solar light above me, shining down. It's the source of some sort of very high light energy with some love mixed in. Hard to describe what it feels like. The shining light did cause me to be able to feel my unicorn horn, and, like yesterday when I did a meditation, forgot which one, that my horn is connected to my 6th light body energy center at the center of my head. Anyway the meditation included breathing in the solar light. I added in that as I exhaled it went to the various parts of my bodies, light, mental, emotional, etheric & physical bodies, and I added in any others I may not know of yet, as well as seeing the solar light shining a path to my highest path for today which I walked in. I do feel much lighter, like I am filled with some higher light energy stuff. hard to describe how it feels, and like I am radiating this light too.
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Next I did the very short free Shower of Light Meditation. It was interesting. This mediation was about 4 minutes, but it felt like it was at most 1 minute. This was about a shower of light, different colors of light of rainbow colors. I could feel the different colors as they were like a shower of color on me and as I breathed them in. Each felt slightly different then the one before. A very pleasant
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I was talking to Scarlett and after she went to bed I was thinking and an idea popped into my head and some sort of soul knowledge popped into my head.
It seems one can have 1 of 2 types of twin flames, or one may have 2 or more twin flames. One I'll call the monad twin flame since the split may happen at the monad level. Though also a split can happen, or a 2nd one may happen, more at what some would call the soul level. So one may have 2 twin flames, what I call a monad twin flame and a soul twin flame. if one wishes to label stuff, but one doesn't need to, but to understand stuff it can be a help. It may be more detailed but that is enough for me for now and that is all my soul knowledge covers.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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11:15 AM
I think a full soul being is what some are, but not all. I think in many areas one can make a body, manifest one if they are in an area of physicality. There is an area, or area, dimension or something of non physicality. The default appearance of souls are a point of consciousness with a ball of what looks like color around it.
Most prefer to be, at least partially, in the physicality areas. Some, or many, areas one can just manifest a body for themselves from the local stuff. Just poof, I think. & unicorns are not incarnations. if one is an incarnation say then they'd have a lifespan likely, the length would be based on perhaps technology, or healing rejuvenating abilities perhaps too. But also on the density of the place. So I feel 4th density beings have a longer lifespan then say 3rd density beings like humans. 5th longer then 4th. Though at higher densities one can just keep renewing one's body so the distinction may be a bit of a blur since one could, at higher densities, I think, put your body into a trance, project most of yourself out, and go around like a regular soul, and return later.
Though in many areas one doesn't have to be an incarnation but can be a full ensouled being, and be thus immortal, or non aging. Also I think being an incarnation usually means a more linear existence.
Hard to put into words what I seem to know, also the fine details I don't recall yet.
being incarnated may have some different sensations for certain things like sex, maybe one may need to eat, and a full ensouled being may not need to, but could comsume light. though I'm not sure if higher densities above 3 need to eat or not.
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Neat, I've never known anyone to be a dolphin type being except for me
Friday, May 29, 2015
Friday [5-29]
I awoke this morning and felt tired as usual, like I had never slept. I went back to sleep then awoke after 10 minutes or so. Oddly what I seemed to have is gotten, though likely just a fantasy dream thing, was a past life where I was an adult woman of some group of beings who were bipedal and mostly covered in fur. I lived apart from the group, as was the custom since I was a seer, prophet, mystic type. I helped the others through a transition from either 3rd to 4th or maybe 2nd to 3rd. They didn't develop technology, but instead developed their mental abilities instead of technology. just putting it here in case it's not a dream thing. I'm not sure myself. Also supposedly I would channel Orin. I highly doubt this is a past live since I can't channel and certainly not a high level being like Orin.
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I'm still pissed at original soul for imprisoning me here. I'm sure he's gloating where ever he is, either glad to be rid of me or gloating & enjoying my being imprisoned here, the asshole. What a fucking asshole he is. As well as the other stuff he did like removing the chips so I can't project anymore. Never could channel,. So claiming one of the chips was to help with communication was likely a lie, and if it wasn't a lie he removed it too just so i couldn't do real channeling and it would become a fake imaginary channeling, not real channeling. the fucking asshole. He is such an ass. What a god damn fucking asshole he is. That is the nicest way I can put it.
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I lay down for an hour but was unable to get any sleep. I got up since I think an hour is long enough to lay down and not get any sleep. I am unsure if I'll do any more of the awaken the light body courses since I feel the same now as I did 4 months ago. This place is a hellworld and I'm stuck here imprisoned forever due to the karma rules here. What an ass that original soul was for imprisoning me here, likely out of glee. That ass.
I bet no one wants to be here, and like me their souls just imprisoned them here to be done with them like my original one did me.
Looking over the free meditations I can't do the soul linking since I have no one to link with and linking with myself is pointless. I'll try another one though I doubt I'll get anything.
what a fucking hellworld this place is an what a fucking asshole for original soul to imprison me here. Wish there were laws against that, but obviously there are not. I really hate him as much as I do hate being here.
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I tried the receiving and radiating divine love free meditation. Didn't listen to all of it since most of it is bullshit. There are no angels, they don't exist. Angels of love don't exist since angels don't exist. There are no such a thing as radiant ones. There are no teachers of love, I have no connection to anyone, no relationships with anyone. I don't see that I'll do this meditation a 2nd time. Glad I didn't pay for it. it's a total gyp, calling on beings that don't exist. and people don't have connections with each other, some like me have no relationship with anyone. only the first few minutes worked, feeling and receiving your soul's love. the rest of the meditation is all bullshit, for the reasons I said previous. How I hate being in this hellworld.
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I tried the a new chapter in your life. I can't say if it did anything or not since for the whole mediation I was either at the medium meditative trance, or I was unconscious. I kept going back and forth between the 2 states. No idea why, nor if it did anything or not.
I'm also not sure if I want to spend the money to get parts 5 then 6 of the awaken the light body and if it's doing anything for me. Since their expensive, from my point of view and I'm not sure if I'm getting anything out of it or if its been benefiting me at all over the past 4 months.
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I ran the energies before doing the violet flame meditation and it went very well, much better then earlier when I tried it and was left tired before I could finish it.
The violet flame meditation went well. Though I know and don't believe in any ascended masters, not having seen any evidence for any. I instead choose the ultraviolet colored soul I saw a few times 10 or 20 years ago when I could project. No idea if it would count as one, but I'd guess being ultra violet he'd be higher then me who am a very dark blue, almost black. I also don't believe in this soul ray stuff. But the violet flame is not dependent on that I'd guess.
I feel much the same as before, maybe a bit different, a bit lighter maybe. My abdominal area had some strong cramps in it in a few spots. but that is not anything new. It enjoys doing that for some reason. I just put myself into the violet flame.
During that I seemed to have this physical body, my soul body (that looked like a ball that was a very dark blue of a shade that looks almost black), and a dolphin like body. Similar to an earth dolphin, but not an earth dolphin, hard to describe since I can't see it well enough to tell what the differences are, the colors it is I can't see, ect. Never have been able to and likely never will be. I'm sure my abdominal cramps will go away, they always have before.
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I forgot to put in that the 2 times I ran the energies that when I was able to run the energy to the 6th light body center, at the center of the head, I could feel a horn like thing connected to that and protruding form my forhead, hard to describe.
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I'm still pissed at original soul for imprisoning me here. I'm sure he's gloating where ever he is, either glad to be rid of me or gloating & enjoying my being imprisoned here, the asshole. What a fucking asshole he is. As well as the other stuff he did like removing the chips so I can't project anymore. Never could channel,. So claiming one of the chips was to help with communication was likely a lie, and if it wasn't a lie he removed it too just so i couldn't do real channeling and it would become a fake imaginary channeling, not real channeling. the fucking asshole. He is such an ass. What a god damn fucking asshole he is. That is the nicest way I can put it.
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I lay down for an hour but was unable to get any sleep. I got up since I think an hour is long enough to lay down and not get any sleep. I am unsure if I'll do any more of the awaken the light body courses since I feel the same now as I did 4 months ago. This place is a hellworld and I'm stuck here imprisoned forever due to the karma rules here. What an ass that original soul was for imprisoning me here, likely out of glee. That ass.
I bet no one wants to be here, and like me their souls just imprisoned them here to be done with them like my original one did me.
Looking over the free meditations I can't do the soul linking since I have no one to link with and linking with myself is pointless. I'll try another one though I doubt I'll get anything.
what a fucking hellworld this place is an what a fucking asshole for original soul to imprison me here. Wish there were laws against that, but obviously there are not. I really hate him as much as I do hate being here.
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I tried the receiving and radiating divine love free meditation. Didn't listen to all of it since most of it is bullshit. There are no angels, they don't exist. Angels of love don't exist since angels don't exist. There are no such a thing as radiant ones. There are no teachers of love, I have no connection to anyone, no relationships with anyone. I don't see that I'll do this meditation a 2nd time. Glad I didn't pay for it. it's a total gyp, calling on beings that don't exist. and people don't have connections with each other, some like me have no relationship with anyone. only the first few minutes worked, feeling and receiving your soul's love. the rest of the meditation is all bullshit, for the reasons I said previous. How I hate being in this hellworld.
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I tried the a new chapter in your life. I can't say if it did anything or not since for the whole mediation I was either at the medium meditative trance, or I was unconscious. I kept going back and forth between the 2 states. No idea why, nor if it did anything or not.
I'm also not sure if I want to spend the money to get parts 5 then 6 of the awaken the light body and if it's doing anything for me. Since their expensive, from my point of view and I'm not sure if I'm getting anything out of it or if its been benefiting me at all over the past 4 months.
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I ran the energies before doing the violet flame meditation and it went very well, much better then earlier when I tried it and was left tired before I could finish it.
The violet flame meditation went well. Though I know and don't believe in any ascended masters, not having seen any evidence for any. I instead choose the ultraviolet colored soul I saw a few times 10 or 20 years ago when I could project. No idea if it would count as one, but I'd guess being ultra violet he'd be higher then me who am a very dark blue, almost black. I also don't believe in this soul ray stuff. But the violet flame is not dependent on that I'd guess.
I feel much the same as before, maybe a bit different, a bit lighter maybe. My abdominal area had some strong cramps in it in a few spots. but that is not anything new. It enjoys doing that for some reason. I just put myself into the violet flame.
During that I seemed to have this physical body, my soul body (that looked like a ball that was a very dark blue of a shade that looks almost black), and a dolphin like body. Similar to an earth dolphin, but not an earth dolphin, hard to describe since I can't see it well enough to tell what the differences are, the colors it is I can't see, ect. Never have been able to and likely never will be. I'm sure my abdominal cramps will go away, they always have before.
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I forgot to put in that the 2 times I ran the energies that when I was able to run the energy to the 6th light body center, at the center of the head, I could feel a horn like thing connected to that and protruding form my forhead, hard to describe.
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Thursday, May 28, 2015
Thursday [5-28]
Since I'm done with the 4th part of the awaken the light body I think for the rest of the time I have till I have enough saved up, Friday of next week, I'll do the free meditations. I think today through Sunday I'll do the longer free meditations and Monday through Thursday I'll do the short meditations. I'll do all the ones in a category and count those as 1 meditation. Though I'll do each short one, 2-3 minutes, then type up my experiences, do the next, type that up, ect till I'm done with the category. The total time for 4 of the 5 categories is about 18 or so minutes I think. So about the length of a normal light body meditation. I think today and tomorrow I may do an extra 3rd mediation, both of the solar light ones since those to combined are about 8 minutes. Then I can start part 5 of the awaken the light body course Friday of next week.
I still wish I could channel and get real information, but I guess I'm not high or developed enough to do that yet. No idea what level I am or how developed I am, I do wish i could find out somehow.
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I did the opening to your true identity meditation. Unlike what Orin describes in the guided meditation there were no guides, nor any other beings, it was just me alone. So since no one was there I imagined a box I would reach into get pull out a smaller box and each of these smaller boxes did have a sphere of light that I used first on my emotional body, the 2nd sphere I used on my mental body. to transmute each to as high of a level as they could be transmuted to. Then I did see the light of my divine self. We couldn't talk since I'm not able to canon. So instead I merged with it. Both first in my emotional, then mental bodies. Then my Light body, then my physical body. Then the center of my true being, whatever that is, so a true permanent link could be formed, even though we can't communicate.
Part of the time I looked like a dolphin, but with a coloring pattern similar to an orca, but instead or black and white my colors were blue based. The black was an extremely dark blue that looked black if you glanced at it. The white part was instead blue.
The time I was teaching into a box, taking out a smaller box, and out of that taking out a small sphere of light, my hands and arms were not human, but I couldn't see them to well.
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I had fun at the rpg group. I finished the book I was reading. interestingly one of the folks in the book mentions a planet where there seems to be a planet with anthro dolphin or porpoise, that look like a mix between dolphin or porpoise and humans. Interesting. They said the planet is named Hasnib I think. guess it would be in the 5th density since Treb is there and it was one of his species that mentioned that. I find it interesting not only because I have some sort of a connection to dolphins, among other things. But also some of my past lives that I've seen glimpses of have been of, not just dolphins and others, but also some sort of anthro dolphin. I wonder if it was one of these. And from the 5th density. Hmm. Wonder if I started to delve into my past lives if I could learn from that, since I can't channel. In one of the awaken the light body courses that did deal with past lives instead of remembering it he and I were able to have a short conversation. I may try to use some of the past life stuff I downloaded later to see if I can start recalling some past lives or between lives stuff. Since i can't channel that may well be an alternative to learn, as well as the light body courses.
For now I'll do a short rest, then do the meditation I did earlier, then take a nap. Then I'll look into seeing about starting to delve into my past lives. if that one is 5th density perhaps he can teach me some stuff. Time being non linear it should be theoretically possible.
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I did the Opening To Your True Identity. It seemed to go ok. I went very deep and went unconscious for a minute or 2. I'll assume some stuff was going on on a non conscious level. I do feel better overall. I wonder what happened. I know something happened since I feel some stuff happened. I imagined at first that my divine self was inside me shining like a star, it's energy and light effecting me. Effecting my emotional, mental, light, soul, bodies, and perhaps physical too.
Then I imagined I was dissolved into my divine self and had all my separate elements, transmuted into the highest reflection, highest vibration that I could be transmuted into.
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I first tried a 1 hour guided hypnosis for the past live, but it didn't work. I think part of the reason is because some of the suggestions I didn't like, as well as it being suggested the past live was on the earth.
I tried a 2nd one that worked better. I only got a brief thing since my right knee started to bother me like it had to much energy and I had to move it. This did cause me to have to keep moving my right knee which kept me out of it. it happens but usually it is my left knee, and I have no idea how to do anything about it but to stop the meditation and move my leg.
I did get a short view. I was an anthro dolphin looking type being and he was inside his home. It looked high technological from the very brief view I got. Not sure of the color he was. I did get the feeling he was a male. I also got that he was also a very dark blue sphere. No idea what was up with that. maybe like I was seeing 2 bodies that he had. I didn't get a good look at him due to my knee. He was differently an anthro dolphin. That much I could see.
at least I did get something, though a brief. Unlike with channeling, which I got only fake imaginary stuff. Think I got something about the world was moving from 4th density to 5th density, I think. It was very brief, an instant so I can't be sure of that.
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I want nothing to do with the asshole original soul. What a fucking asshole, trapping me here forever. Now I'm stick in this hellworld and in the fucking wheel of karma with no way out. What a god damn asshole. To put my feelings about original soul as nicely as I can.
I still wish I could channel and get real information, but I guess I'm not high or developed enough to do that yet. No idea what level I am or how developed I am, I do wish i could find out somehow.
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I did the opening to your true identity meditation. Unlike what Orin describes in the guided meditation there were no guides, nor any other beings, it was just me alone. So since no one was there I imagined a box I would reach into get pull out a smaller box and each of these smaller boxes did have a sphere of light that I used first on my emotional body, the 2nd sphere I used on my mental body. to transmute each to as high of a level as they could be transmuted to. Then I did see the light of my divine self. We couldn't talk since I'm not able to canon. So instead I merged with it. Both first in my emotional, then mental bodies. Then my Light body, then my physical body. Then the center of my true being, whatever that is, so a true permanent link could be formed, even though we can't communicate.
Part of the time I looked like a dolphin, but with a coloring pattern similar to an orca, but instead or black and white my colors were blue based. The black was an extremely dark blue that looked black if you glanced at it. The white part was instead blue.
The time I was teaching into a box, taking out a smaller box, and out of that taking out a small sphere of light, my hands and arms were not human, but I couldn't see them to well.
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I had fun at the rpg group. I finished the book I was reading. interestingly one of the folks in the book mentions a planet where there seems to be a planet with anthro dolphin or porpoise, that look like a mix between dolphin or porpoise and humans. Interesting. They said the planet is named Hasnib I think. guess it would be in the 5th density since Treb is there and it was one of his species that mentioned that. I find it interesting not only because I have some sort of a connection to dolphins, among other things. But also some of my past lives that I've seen glimpses of have been of, not just dolphins and others, but also some sort of anthro dolphin. I wonder if it was one of these. And from the 5th density. Hmm. Wonder if I started to delve into my past lives if I could learn from that, since I can't channel. In one of the awaken the light body courses that did deal with past lives instead of remembering it he and I were able to have a short conversation. I may try to use some of the past life stuff I downloaded later to see if I can start recalling some past lives or between lives stuff. Since i can't channel that may well be an alternative to learn, as well as the light body courses.
For now I'll do a short rest, then do the meditation I did earlier, then take a nap. Then I'll look into seeing about starting to delve into my past lives. if that one is 5th density perhaps he can teach me some stuff. Time being non linear it should be theoretically possible.
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I did the Opening To Your True Identity. It seemed to go ok. I went very deep and went unconscious for a minute or 2. I'll assume some stuff was going on on a non conscious level. I do feel better overall. I wonder what happened. I know something happened since I feel some stuff happened. I imagined at first that my divine self was inside me shining like a star, it's energy and light effecting me. Effecting my emotional, mental, light, soul, bodies, and perhaps physical too.
Then I imagined I was dissolved into my divine self and had all my separate elements, transmuted into the highest reflection, highest vibration that I could be transmuted into.
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I first tried a 1 hour guided hypnosis for the past live, but it didn't work. I think part of the reason is because some of the suggestions I didn't like, as well as it being suggested the past live was on the earth.
I tried a 2nd one that worked better. I only got a brief thing since my right knee started to bother me like it had to much energy and I had to move it. This did cause me to have to keep moving my right knee which kept me out of it. it happens but usually it is my left knee, and I have no idea how to do anything about it but to stop the meditation and move my leg.
I did get a short view. I was an anthro dolphin looking type being and he was inside his home. It looked high technological from the very brief view I got. Not sure of the color he was. I did get the feeling he was a male. I also got that he was also a very dark blue sphere. No idea what was up with that. maybe like I was seeing 2 bodies that he had. I didn't get a good look at him due to my knee. He was differently an anthro dolphin. That much I could see.
at least I did get something, though a brief. Unlike with channeling, which I got only fake imaginary stuff. Think I got something about the world was moving from 4th density to 5th density, I think. It was very brief, an instant so I can't be sure of that.
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I want nothing to do with the asshole original soul. What a fucking asshole, trapping me here forever. Now I'm stick in this hellworld and in the fucking wheel of karma with no way out. What a god damn asshole. To put my feelings about original soul as nicely as I can.
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