I awoke this morning and felt tired as usual, like I had never slept. I went back to sleep then awoke after 10 minutes or so. Oddly what I seemed to have is gotten, though likely just a fantasy dream thing, was a past life where I was an adult woman of some group of beings who were bipedal and mostly covered in fur. I lived apart from the group, as was the custom since I was a seer, prophet, mystic type. I helped the others through a transition from either 3rd to 4th or maybe 2nd to 3rd. They didn't develop technology, but instead developed their mental abilities instead of technology. just putting it here in case it's not a dream thing. I'm not sure myself. Also supposedly I would channel Orin. I highly doubt this is a past live since I can't channel and certainly not a high level being like Orin.
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I'm still pissed at original soul for imprisoning me here. I'm sure he's gloating where ever he is, either glad to be rid of me or gloating & enjoying my being imprisoned here, the asshole. What a fucking asshole he is. As well as the other stuff he did like removing the chips so I can't project anymore. Never could channel,. So claiming one of the chips was to help with communication was likely a lie, and if it wasn't a lie he removed it too just so i couldn't do real channeling and it would become a fake imaginary channeling, not real channeling. the fucking asshole. He is such an ass. What a god damn fucking asshole he is. That is the nicest way I can put it.
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I lay down for an hour but was unable to get any sleep. I got up since I think an hour is long enough to lay down and not get any sleep. I am unsure if I'll do any more of the awaken the light body courses since I feel the same now as I did 4 months ago. This place is a hellworld and I'm stuck here imprisoned forever due to the karma rules here. What an ass that original soul was for imprisoning me here, likely out of glee. That ass.
I bet no one wants to be here, and like me their souls just imprisoned them here to be done with them like my original one did me.
Looking over the free meditations I can't do the soul linking since I have no one to link with and linking with myself is pointless. I'll try another one though I doubt I'll get anything.
what a fucking hellworld this place is an what a fucking asshole for original soul to imprison me here. Wish there were laws against that, but obviously there are not. I really hate him as much as I do hate being here.
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I tried the receiving and radiating divine love free meditation. Didn't listen to all of it since most of it is bullshit. There are no angels, they don't exist. Angels of love don't exist since angels don't exist. There are no such a thing as radiant ones. There are no teachers of love, I have no connection to anyone, no relationships with anyone. I don't see that I'll do this meditation a 2nd time. Glad I didn't pay for it. it's a total gyp, calling on beings that don't exist. and people don't have connections with each other, some like me have no relationship with anyone. only the first few minutes worked, feeling and receiving your soul's love. the rest of the meditation is all bullshit, for the reasons I said previous. How I hate being in this hellworld.
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I tried the a new chapter in your life. I can't say if it did anything or not since for the whole mediation I was either at the medium meditative trance, or I was unconscious. I kept going back and forth between the 2 states. No idea why, nor if it did anything or not.
I'm also not sure if I want to spend the money to get parts 5 then 6 of the awaken the light body and if it's doing anything for me. Since their expensive, from my point of view and I'm not sure if I'm getting anything out of it or if its been benefiting me at all over the past 4 months.
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I ran the energies before doing the violet flame meditation and it went very well, much better then earlier when I tried it and was left tired before I could finish it.
The violet flame meditation went well. Though I know and don't believe in any ascended masters, not having seen any evidence for any. I instead choose the ultraviolet colored soul I saw a few times 10 or 20 years ago when I could project. No idea if it would count as one, but I'd guess being ultra violet he'd be higher then me who am a very dark blue, almost black. I also don't believe in this soul ray stuff. But the violet flame is not dependent on that I'd guess.
I feel much the same as before, maybe a bit different, a bit lighter maybe. My abdominal area had some strong cramps in it in a few spots. but that is not anything new. It enjoys doing that for some reason. I just put myself into the violet flame.
During that I seemed to have this physical body, my soul body (that looked like a ball that was a very dark blue of a shade that looks almost black), and a dolphin like body. Similar to an earth dolphin, but not an earth dolphin, hard to describe since I can't see it well enough to tell what the differences are, the colors it is I can't see, ect. Never have been able to and likely never will be. I'm sure my abdominal cramps will go away, they always have before.
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I forgot to put in that the 2 times I ran the energies that when I was able to run the energy to the 6th light body center, at the center of the head, I could feel a horn like thing connected to that and protruding form my forhead, hard to describe.
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