Since I'm done with the 4th part of the awaken the light body I think for the rest of the time I have till I have enough saved up, Friday of next week, I'll do the free meditations. I think today through Sunday I'll do the longer free meditations and Monday through Thursday I'll do the short meditations. I'll do all the ones in a category and count those as 1 meditation. Though I'll do each short one, 2-3 minutes, then type up my experiences, do the next, type that up, ect till I'm done with the category. The total time for 4 of the 5 categories is about 18 or so minutes I think. So about the length of a normal light body meditation. I think today and tomorrow I may do an extra 3rd mediation, both of the solar light ones since those to combined are about 8 minutes. Then I can start part 5 of the awaken the light body course Friday of next week.
I still wish I could channel and get real information, but I guess I'm not high or developed enough to do that yet. No idea what level I am or how developed I am, I do wish i could find out somehow.
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I did the opening to your true identity meditation. Unlike what Orin describes in the guided meditation there were no guides, nor any other beings, it was just me alone. So since no one was there I imagined a box I would reach into get pull out a smaller box and each of these smaller boxes did have a sphere of light that I used first on my emotional body, the 2nd sphere I used on my mental body. to transmute each to as high of a level as they could be transmuted to. Then I did see the light of my divine self. We couldn't talk since I'm not able to canon. So instead I merged with it. Both first in my emotional, then mental bodies. Then my Light body, then my physical body. Then the center of my true being, whatever that is, so a true permanent link could be formed, even though we can't communicate.
Part of the time I looked like a dolphin, but with a coloring pattern similar to an orca, but instead or black and white my colors were blue based. The black was an extremely dark blue that looked black if you glanced at it. The white part was instead blue.
The time I was teaching into a box, taking out a smaller box, and out of that taking out a small sphere of light, my hands and arms were not human, but I couldn't see them to well.
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I had fun at the rpg group. I finished the book I was reading. interestingly one of the folks in the book mentions a planet where there seems to be a planet with anthro dolphin or porpoise, that look like a mix between dolphin or porpoise and humans. Interesting. They said the planet is named Hasnib I think. guess it would be in the 5th density since Treb is there and it was one of his species that mentioned that. I find it interesting not only because I have some sort of a connection to dolphins, among other things. But also some of my past lives that I've seen glimpses of have been of, not just dolphins and others, but also some sort of anthro dolphin. I wonder if it was one of these. And from the 5th density. Hmm. Wonder if I started to delve into my past lives if I could learn from that, since I can't channel. In one of the awaken the light body courses that did deal with past lives instead of remembering it he and I were able to have a short conversation. I may try to use some of the past life stuff I downloaded later to see if I can start recalling some past lives or between lives stuff. Since i can't channel that may well be an alternative to learn, as well as the light body courses.
For now I'll do a short rest, then do the meditation I did earlier, then take a nap. Then I'll look into seeing about starting to delve into my past lives. if that one is 5th density perhaps he can teach me some stuff. Time being non linear it should be theoretically possible.
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I did the Opening To Your True Identity. It seemed to go ok. I went very deep and went unconscious for a minute or 2. I'll assume some stuff was going on on a non conscious level. I do feel better overall. I wonder what happened. I know something happened since I feel some stuff happened. I imagined at first that my divine self was inside me shining like a star, it's energy and light effecting me. Effecting my emotional, mental, light, soul, bodies, and perhaps physical too.
Then I imagined I was dissolved into my divine self and had all my separate elements, transmuted into the highest reflection, highest vibration that I could be transmuted into.
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I first tried a 1 hour guided hypnosis for the past live, but it didn't work. I think part of the reason is because some of the suggestions I didn't like, as well as it being suggested the past live was on the earth.
I tried a 2nd one that worked better. I only got a brief thing since my right knee started to bother me like it had to much energy and I had to move it. This did cause me to have to keep moving my right knee which kept me out of it. it happens but usually it is my left knee, and I have no idea how to do anything about it but to stop the meditation and move my leg.
I did get a short view. I was an anthro dolphin looking type being and he was inside his home. It looked high technological from the very brief view I got. Not sure of the color he was. I did get the feeling he was a male. I also got that he was also a very dark blue sphere. No idea what was up with that. maybe like I was seeing 2 bodies that he had. I didn't get a good look at him due to my knee. He was differently an anthro dolphin. That much I could see.
at least I did get something, though a brief. Unlike with channeling, which I got only fake imaginary stuff. Think I got something about the world was moving from 4th density to 5th density, I think. It was very brief, an instant so I can't be sure of that.
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I want nothing to do with the asshole original soul. What a fucking asshole, trapping me here forever. Now I'm stick in this hellworld and in the fucking wheel of karma with no way out. What a god damn asshole. To put my feelings about original soul as nicely as I can.
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