Not sure who it was but as I lay down I did feel we shared a lot of love between us, with love energy flowing both ways and we also kissed and caressed each other. We seemed to be both in anthro dolphin forms. Not sure if was soul, another aspect of soul or me, possible future self, a aspect of him. not sure, apart from it did feel like the same energy as me. So another me. Perhaps twin flame or an aspect of hers.
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I did the 3rd meditatio of part 4. Overall a very mediocre meditation. Some of the light body emery centers didn't respond at all or only very slightly when I ran the energies and the main 2 for the mediation, the pieah, and the renawre either didn't respond at all or only feebly. It's happened before where I've had the 1st meditation of the day has been largely a dud, so no biggie. The next one should be better, but if it is a did too then still no biggie.
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I'm feeling better, though I've been sneezing a lot this afternoon. Also I get odd momentary pains around my left knee area, but it's not localized I think to the joint or any specific area. maybe on of those transitory thing.
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I do feel out of place everywhere. I guess a side effect of awakening to your true self more and more.
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let's see if I can get this typed up before the power goes out again. twice now the power has gone out for half a second. The first time I was listening to the 3rd guided meditation of part 4 of awaken the light body. it was a total dud. Though some past meditations have been a total dud the first time I did them so it's not a big surprise since it has happened before. I hope it is better when I do the 2nd pass. I think instead of doing the 2nd pass identical to the 1st pass I may instead do the 2nd pass like I use to, then do a 3rd pass. I'll decide when I've finished this one.
if the power goes out again I will just do strictly non pc stuff. I'm also not going to fix the time of an of the clock radios for at least the rest of the night.
I still feel slightly sick, but better then before. The main annoying thing is having to blow my nose & the coughing fits. Not sure if I'll feel well enough to go to the rpg group tomorrow. I'll let how i feel tomorrow morning decide. Hope I do feel well enough to go since it is just once a week.
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Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Tuesday [5-5]
was sitting here watching a youtube, a bit tired, eyes closed. soul aspect or another aspect of us came to me mentally and we did some hugging and kissing, this time we both had unicorn horns as well as being an anthro orca types. We mainly had some hugging, kissing and caressing, with a little rubbing of our malenesses.
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Then shortly later I was with a naga female and I was a naga male. Not sure if this was me, an incident from a soul parent's past, or some aspect of me or soul showing me something. As I recall we were coiled around each other and she took both of my malenesses inside her and I had started to thrust but she stopped me since there was no need. She had some sort of internal muscles that massaged and caressed my twin malenesses from the inside.
As with the previous incident I was only partially there, hard to describe what I meant and not sure what was going on. Maybe soul or aspects of soul or us wanting some affection or something.
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also as was taking a nap I had a dream. Not sure if it was a real dream or was something else, a past life memory or a soul parent's memory.
As far as I can recall I was a different me, I think, and I was using some sort of energy or solidified energy to construct a world, and set up the physics of that world so souls could go into the world to play and have fun. Once I was done Some invited me to join them in there as among the first ones to have fun in there and I did. or whoever the me was did. This didn't feel like this me, but another me, if it makes any sense, and was at first person point of view.
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I am feeling better. No real throat pain, except a little. I'm coughing a little, sometimes productive, but often not. I still feel weak and feels like I may have a bit of a fever. Guess I'm past most of it. I think most of the coughs are caused by when I inhale it slightly irritates the back of my throat in that one spot. Makes sense since it is still a bit over sensitive.
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I did the 2nd mediation of part 4. This is about the 7th light both energy center as well as the 4th one. Over all it went well. I was only able to, at most, be relaxed in a very light meditative state since I had to cough a number of times during it. Running the energies went very well. With doing the ranthia and renawre, light body energy centers, 4th and 7th, I did feel various emotions. with the ranthia i felt love and after a while it was mixed with compassion (I think), and some of another maybe. With the 7th renawre I felt some slight excitement as well as an emotion I can't really put a name to. To faint or ephemeral for me to put into words, or maybe it was a mix of 2 or more emotions so I can't put to words yet. very all a very good experience.
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I did the 2nd meditation for part 4 a 2nd time. It went pretty well, very well I'd say, taking into account the fact I still had to cough at times during the guided meditation. And other distractions on how I'm feeling, though I do feel much better then this morning.
With the ranthia, 4th light body energy center, I could feel a mix of love/joy/some pleasure, the 7th one, is still hard to describe. There is some excitement to the feel of the energy and some other positive emotions that I still can't describe. This time I could feel the energy of the 2 light body centers combine, so they were sort of combined light body energy centers, but at the same time individual. Sort of like me and soul aspect. We're both different individuals, but also 1 being. Hard to describe the feel of the energy of the Ranthia and Renawre combined. Positive feel to the energy and positive emotions, but I can't describe them any more then positive and maybe of a higher vibration then the Ranthia and Renawre separately.
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As I lay down to take my 2nd nap the female naga appeared mentally again. I was in a male naga form again and we were coiled around each other again. This time it felt like what she wanted to do was some sort of energy work. There was no sex involved this time, but we had our groins pressed tightly against each other. Felt like the genitals were all internal. Also she had no breasts as I recall. She mainly did some light massaging and rubbing of my upper body, felt like she was doing some sort of energy work. I did try to talk a few times but once she put a finger to the tip of my snout, muzzle or whatever the term is. then I tried to talk to her mentally a short time later and after I got part of the first word out she put a finger to the tip of my forehead. I guess she wanted to do what she wanted to do with us not talking.
I asked soul and he said at the soul level she is my sister.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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12:05 AM
So I decided to try a short channel. Left me feeling very tired, mentally and physically.
So am I well enough to channel? <A short one. You're mainly over what you had but not fully yet.>
Ok, So, is my current guide connected to a monad or divine self? <indeed, it is similar to our relationship. The future possible us is what you call a reflection, for now at least. In time it'll be what you call the divine self. I have both as a guide you can say. >
Is this due to my choosing to remember all of my soul parent's memories and accumulated wisdom and experience? <indeed it is.>
So you recall all of our soul parent's memories? <Indeed I do, and in response to your next question, you can recall the memories and wisdom, but you have to do so slowly and you don't really need super detail of past lives. the accumulated wisdom will server you better and it does include soul knowledge as you've labeled it. Though you've gotten more like me and label things less exactly. Though since you've reached 5d way of being, or as much as you can there, it does make sense. You are fully aware of us both being the same being, just 2 different aspects of the same being. and yes if you were to have full access to all the memories we have it would, blow or burn through what you could call circuits. your circuits currently are far to delicate for that. Though you can ease into it bit by bit as your delicate systems can hold steadily more and more. You'll have full access like I do once you're over here. Then we'll be basically twins. It'll be cool.>
I guess twin flame is more like you then me since she's not incarnated? <correct, but such details are not important.>
<You shouldn't try to channel to much more. I'd say 1 question then you should stop for tonight.>
Ok, what is that solid light solid energy stuff of how to construct universes? <you've tapped into a slight but of our knowledge. we do know and understand how some realities are constructed. you can try to get more, but don't to to far into it since it'll distract. A bit is interesting, but no much wouldn't do you much good..>
So, are we part of any soul group or family since we are new/old souls? <we are, we can claim membership of our soul parent's soul families and groups. We can hang out with a few groups. They are related to the same one that Scarlett is a member of, and you can say descended or part of a larger group. I'd go into detail but this is enough.> I agree, feeling a bit tired to channel thanks.
< we can talk anytime you want, just don't try to channel for a while .>
Monday, May 4, 2015
Channel 27 [soul 5-5]
So I decided to try a short channel. Left me feeling very tired, mentally and physically.
So am I well enough to channel? <A short one. You're mainly over what you had but not fully yet.>
Ok, So, is my current guide connected to a monad or divine self? <indeed, it is similar to our relationship. The future possible us is what you call a reflection, for now at least. In time it'll be what you call the divine self. I have both as a guide you can say. >
Is this due to my choosing to remember all of my soul parent's memories and accumulated wisdom and experience? <indeed it is.>
So you recall all of our soul parent's memories? <Indeed I do, and in response to your next question, you can recall the memories and wisdom, but you have to do so slowly and you don't really need super detail of past lives. the accumulated wisdom will server you better and it does include soul knowledge as you've labeled it. Though you've gotten more like me and label things less exactly. Though since you've reached 5d way of being, or as much as you can there, it does make sense. You are fully aware of us both being the same being, just 2 different aspects of the same being. and yes if you were to have full access to all the memories we have it would, blow or burn through what you could call circuits. your circuits currently are far to delicate for that. Though you can ease into it bit by bit as your delicate systems can hold steadily more and more. You'll have full access like I do once you're over here. Then we'll be basically twins. It'll be cool.>
I guess twin flame is more like you then me since she's not incarnated? <correct, but such details are not important.>
<You shouldn't try to channel to much more. I'd say 1 question then you should stop for tonight.>
Ok, what is that solid light solid energy stuff of how to construct universes? <you've tapped into a slight but of our knowledge. we do know and understand how some realities are constructed. you can try to get more, but don't to to far into it since it'll distract. A bit is interesting, but no much wouldn't do you much good..>
So, are we part of any soul group or family since we are new/old souls? <we are, we can claim membership of our soul parent's soul families and groups. We can hang out with a few groups. They are related to the same one that Scarlett is a member of, and you can say descended or part of a larger group. I'd go into detail but this is enough.> I agree, feeling a bit tired to channel thanks.
<we can talk anytime you want, just don't try to channel for a while.>
So am I well enough to channel? <A short one. You're mainly over what you had but not fully yet.>
Ok, So, is my current guide connected to a monad or divine self? <indeed, it is similar to our relationship. The future possible us is what you call a reflection, for now at least. In time it'll be what you call the divine self. I have both as a guide you can say. >
Is this due to my choosing to remember all of my soul parent's memories and accumulated wisdom and experience? <indeed it is.>
So you recall all of our soul parent's memories? <Indeed I do, and in response to your next question, you can recall the memories and wisdom, but you have to do so slowly and you don't really need super detail of past lives. the accumulated wisdom will server you better and it does include soul knowledge as you've labeled it. Though you've gotten more like me and label things less exactly. Though since you've reached 5d way of being, or as much as you can there, it does make sense. You are fully aware of us both being the same being, just 2 different aspects of the same being. and yes if you were to have full access to all the memories we have it would, blow or burn through what you could call circuits. your circuits currently are far to delicate for that. Though you can ease into it bit by bit as your delicate systems can hold steadily more and more. You'll have full access like I do once you're over here. Then we'll be basically twins. It'll be cool.>
I guess twin flame is more like you then me since she's not incarnated? <correct, but such details are not important.>
<You shouldn't try to channel to much more. I'd say 1 question then you should stop for tonight.>
Ok, what is that solid light solid energy stuff of how to construct universes? <you've tapped into a slight but of our knowledge. we do know and understand how some realities are constructed. you can try to get more, but don't to to far into it since it'll distract. A bit is interesting, but no much wouldn't do you much good..>
So, are we part of any soul group or family since we are new/old souls? <we are, we can claim membership of our soul parent's soul families and groups. We can hang out with a few groups. They are related to the same one that Scarlett is a member of, and you can say descended or part of a larger group. I'd go into detail but this is enough.> I agree, feeling a bit tired to channel thanks.
<we can talk anytime you want, just don't try to channel for a while.>
Monday [5-4]
it does feel like before we, came here and started to interfere from within, that the earth project/experiment, not sure which it was, maybe both, was largely headed down and declared a failure. But we did some stuff, including what some here would see as going into the past, to do certain things, and certain folks agreed to come here to help deflect earth down more positive possible futures. Some of these actions would be seen by everyone as evil or atrocious, but for the long term they did serve a lot of good. and the thing about being good or evil is one should look at the long term not so much the short term. Some incarnates do get lost and go down certain less positive lines, by their choosing for a variety of reasons, but some of this is also for the individual's greater good. Also some atrocious stuff do serve the greater good as well.
Also to have duality some have to volunteer to be the ones to do the more evil things. Though some souls do wonder down certain lines when their original intent before coming into the incarnation here was most positive. it gets complicated and i'd have to contemplate on it when i feel better to fully understand and get a larger picture I think.
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Also it seems that some realities are constructed so souls can grow, learn and play in. They are all constructed using energy, since everything is energy, then some have sections of their construction or reality with the vibrations lowered and become more solid forms of energy, that some see as matter or experience as matter. Some of these larger projects require souls within the construct in order to aid in the lowering of the vibrations so that reality will be more solid and the vibrations can be lowered gradually to the desired level, since it can't be done all at once poof. And also a realities vibratioins can be increased, but it must also be done gradually. very gradually if some souls are incarnated within that reality at the same time or it may cause what some here may call psychological damage, including at an energy level.
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I feel ready to graduate out of these realities to go back to the reality behind this reality or the one behind that one. So to speak. Hard to speak in 6, 7 or 10 dimensions using 3d English.
I feel that perhaps my divine self has noticed me, so to speak, and the monad, collective were helping to to remember and be aware that I am at their level, and since i have experienced that, me being equal to the beings, some of which look like balls of bright light, like small suns. Now what maybe is my divine self has somewhat taken over but for now uses a reflection of a possible future self, that is also real as well as being a reflection, the paradox thing doesn't' apply to souls. I think that is for now and since it'll be fun for all of us involved. I asked twin flame a few days ago and she said she is experiencing the same, though it is her possible future self. I got the feeling at the time that as a fun thing they may decide to switch so maybe once I may get a future reflection of my twin and she may get mine. Though it feels that sooner or later the divine self will be speaking directly.
As it's put on the Orin & Daben website, it goes Source (or whatever you want to call it), Divine self, soul, incarnate self.
I'm still sick with a sore throat, and feeling a bit weak, but it could be much worst. The pain is mild, really at the annoying level. and I do have iboprofen to put a dent in it, and some cough suppressant and anesthetic candy like stuff I can use. Though its' a bit past the use by date, they are not as effective, and only once very 2 hours. I also suck on an ice cube as well, which helps a little.
I'm excited and about to do the 1st meditation for part 4. I think parts 1-3 were dealing with the first 3 light body energy centers, 4th, then the upper 3. this one I think deals with the light body energy centers in different combinations, and though the earlier courses did have meditations to help with the energy body and the mental body, I feel this one is about balancing them, or harmonizing them to each other.
Talking to my soul feels exactly like talking to myself, though a me that has full access to my soul memories and knowledge. Hard to explain. it feels like we're basically on the same level. Though he has more energy then me since i'd guess this body is very fragile, compared to soul.
It feels like taking these light body courses perhaps I'm awakening or becoming aware of where I already am, instead of making headway, which is fine with me.
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I did the 1st meditation of part 4 of awaken the light body and overall it went very well. Running the energy did as well. This meditation he focused on the Traeo and Dinia energy centers. I felt the usual love/pleasure form the ranthia, and from the traeo and dinia centers, since he focused on just those 2 for most of the guided meditations I did feel more. The dinia I did fee. the waves he talked about, after a while. the traeo also I felt some waves and felt a bit more then I had before. I think the next time I do this I may spend part of the time with both active at the same time.
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I did the 1st meditation for the 2nd time today. I think it went well. After a bit I did feel like I did feel the harmony between the emotional and mental bodies that Daben was talking about. Though part of the experience I was distracted by how my throat feels. Though it does feel better and I do feel a bit weak also. Overall a pretty good experience. I guess, like I thought, this part is about experiencing and helping to be sure there is harmony between your emotional and mental bodies. Makes sense you'd focus on that after doing the 7 light body centers. Next part & month will be the first 2 of the 3 light body centers.
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Sunday, May 3, 2015
Sunday [5-3]
I do wonder if I'll understand why Maribelle's mom and family has been
acting the way they have. maybe never. It is rather odd. I can
understand her whole family, the few i've met so far, and she may have
more then I've met. So anyway I can understand her parents, sister and 2
brothers being open about sex.
But why does Maribelle's mother want to have kids with me when she already has a mate? And why did she do what she did earlier today? and why her remark that since I didn't give in my exteem in the eyes of the unicorns there have increased, and what does it mean? Not sure if I'll ever understand any of it.
I was going to try channeling but since I have a mild sore throat and feel a bit weak I decided not to. Not sure how long I"ll have this sore throat, and I do hope it stays only mild like this and doesn't get worst. I'll find out sooner or later. Getting sore throats seems to be a very common thing with me for some reason. annoying, but it'll get better sooner or later.
at least I know to go to no more spirit fairs at that book store. Hope the sore throat doesn't last to long and it doesn't become a cold. Time will tell. I'll continue to run the energies and do the healing thing. Let's see if it does anything or not. this will be a real test. if it works i'll do it daily to try to keep healthier. if it doesn't' work I'll know it's worthless and never to use it ever again and that there is no such thing as an inner healer despite what orin & daben say. This'll be a real test.
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But why does Maribelle's mother want to have kids with me when she already has a mate? And why did she do what she did earlier today? and why her remark that since I didn't give in my exteem in the eyes of the unicorns there have increased, and what does it mean? Not sure if I'll ever understand any of it.
I was going to try channeling but since I have a mild sore throat and feel a bit weak I decided not to. Not sure how long I"ll have this sore throat, and I do hope it stays only mild like this and doesn't get worst. I'll find out sooner or later. Getting sore throats seems to be a very common thing with me for some reason. annoying, but it'll get better sooner or later.
at least I know to go to no more spirit fairs at that book store. Hope the sore throat doesn't last to long and it doesn't become a cold. Time will tell. I'll continue to run the energies and do the healing thing. Let's see if it does anything or not. this will be a real test. if it works i'll do it daily to try to keep healthier. if it doesn't' work I'll know it's worthless and never to use it ever again and that there is no such thing as an inner healer despite what orin & daben say. This'll be a real test.
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I did the 10th mediation of part 3 and I think everything went very well.
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I am feeling better. Not fully recovered, but better, so that is a big plus.
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I did the 11th guided meditation for part 3. It's the one where you get skills from a past life. I think it has 2 that you get. Think I'll try for claircognasance (clair knowing), or however you spell it, and clair feeling, or whatever those are called. think I have those so may as well try to get some skill. I think I may do this a 2nd time today. if so I may then try for self healing, and maybe do a 2nd one for claircognazance or clair knowing.
I did it and got interesting stuff. The clair cognizance, or however you spell it, the clair know. The lifetime before this one, the dolphin being, had the skill, but it was developed in another lifetime, that of a naga type being. he would retreat into a cave or some dark isolated area, and meditate or something and would write books or scrolls. Not sure on the details. he also had clear feeling but didn't use it much, that was developed in a female dolphin type being, anthro like the previous dolphin type being, or at least they were anthro in the flashes I've seen. She had developed her ability to feel energy, energy fields, and so on, to a very high skill level, though I felt i wasn't sensitive enough compared to her. I do have it to some degree. She was an ok healer, maybe mediocre some would say, though her main thing was the clear sensing thing. the healing was very much a side thing. Think she'd use some crystals and some sort of sound maybe. Though usualy for healing she was paired with another who had developed skills sort of in reverse of hers. The other being's healing was highly skilled, but her energy sensing not anywhere as much as this past life one. They worked in a healing center of some sort and she would take notes on the energy stuff she'd feel then if the patient would be refereed to the other one the other one would have her notes to read over and would be in a better case to use the knowledge.
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I am feeling better. Not fully recovered, but better, so that is a big plus.
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I did the 11th guided meditation for part 3. It's the one where you get skills from a past life. I think it has 2 that you get. Think I'll try for claircognasance (clair knowing), or however you spell it, and clair feeling, or whatever those are called. think I have those so may as well try to get some skill. I think I may do this a 2nd time today. if so I may then try for self healing, and maybe do a 2nd one for claircognazance or clair knowing.
I did it and got interesting stuff. The clair cognizance, or however you spell it, the clair know. The lifetime before this one, the dolphin being, had the skill, but it was developed in another lifetime, that of a naga type being. he would retreat into a cave or some dark isolated area, and meditate or something and would write books or scrolls. Not sure on the details. he also had clear feeling but didn't use it much, that was developed in a female dolphin type being, anthro like the previous dolphin type being, or at least they were anthro in the flashes I've seen. She had developed her ability to feel energy, energy fields, and so on, to a very high skill level, though I felt i wasn't sensitive enough compared to her. I do have it to some degree. She was an ok healer, maybe mediocre some would say, though her main thing was the clear sensing thing. the healing was very much a side thing. Think she'd use some crystals and some sort of sound maybe. Though usualy for healing she was paired with another who had developed skills sort of in reverse of hers. The other being's healing was highly skilled, but her energy sensing not anywhere as much as this past life one. They worked in a healing center of some sort and she would take notes on the energy stuff she'd feel then if the patient would be refereed to the other one the other one would have her notes to read over and would be in a better case to use the knowledge.
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Saturday, May 2, 2015
Saturday [5-2]
I did the 3rd part of awaken the light body guided meditation for changing your thoughts. it did feel like it went very well. I chose a number or thoughts that I changed to from a lower vibration to a higher vibration as well as adding higher vibration thoughts. I think it all went very well indeed. Think I'll redo a quick version of this as Orin suggests if I do have any lower vibration thoughts. Forgot about that little detail.
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Had an unusual thing happen as I was laying down to try to take a nap. Maribelle's mother came to me and guess it was my multidimensional being or something. But I could feel like she was under me. I seemed to be in a unicorn form in the spirit, light or whatever body. She did do some come ons, and sexual hints that she wanted us to have some sex then. I did want to try to take a nap and resisted. Then she took the light body, spiritual body or whatever it was, my maleness and put it direct touching her female entrance, but I resisted still.
Then she seemed pleased that I had resisted, saying something about if I had given in that the unicorns would not have thought any less of me but they, Maribelle and her family, assumed I would not give in, and by not giving in I had risen in the esteem of the unicorns there, including Maribelle and her family, but she'd not say what that was about and she did mention that she did want to and was willing to, later on when I'm back fully after this incarnation is over, have kids with me, as she had mentioned before. and her mate knows of this and approves of it. She didn't say why he did or why she wants to. If there is Something special about me she wouldn't say then, not even a hint. No idea why it happened.
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I'll be going out now to a mind, body, spirit fair thing. I only plan on staying an hour or so, but due to the buses I'll be there 30 minutes early and maybe will see someone I know from a meet up group I've talked to online & met once when the group met once.
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Went to the bookstore that was going to have the spirit, mind, body fair and it was a dud. Didn't see anyone from the illumine darma (or however you spell it) meet up group and didn't see any of them there. There was suposed to be a class at 2 about intuition. I was interested since I thought maybe I could get some ideas on how to develop mine better instead of the untrained that I have had it all my life. I've scratched off going to any fairs in the future. Doubt I'll go to the bookstore except for Illumine Darma (or however you spell it) meet ups.
the only interesting thing I had happen was I almost walked through some non incarnate there. he felt like he was very tall, like Lurch from the 60's Adams family tv show. Though I doubt anyone from me has seen that show.
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I have a mild sore throat. That seems to be very common, no idea why. Maybe 1 of those things I just have to live with during the time I'm incarnated here.
I did the 8th mediation of part 3 and it want ok overall. I was a bit distracted towards the end by my knees. Had to keep moving my legs towards the end. Maybe a sign I do need to rest which i"ll do soon after I type this up. Also during it I had a very strong pull or desire to go home, Soul's home I guess that is. I basically told the feeling, ok, find a way for me to learn to project so i can visit home, or fix it so I can permanently go home. after I said that it quieted down. And by project I meant not just astral but also maybe light body project, mental, soul. whatever would be appropriate. I guess it decided to go back to sleep or something.
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I did the 9th meditation of part 3 and it went ok. I was partially distracted by my mild sore throat, feeling weak. but running the energies went well. Especially that is all this mediation was about basically. It focused mainly on the upper 4 Light Body energy centers, with the usual starting at the 1st one and working up. So overall it went well I think.
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I do wonder if I'll understand why Maribelle's mom and family has been acting the way they have. maybe never. It is rather odd. I can understand her whole family, the few i've met so far, and she may have more then I've met. So anyway I can understand her parents, sister and 2 brothers being open about sex.
But why does Maribelle's mother want to have kids with me when she already has a mate? And why did she do what she did earlier today? and why her remark that since I didn't give in my exteem in the eyes of the unicorns there have increased, and what does it mean? Not sure if I'll ever understand any of it.
I was going to try channeling but since I have a mild sore throat and feel a bit weak I decided not to. Not sure how long I"ll have this sore throat, and I do hope it stays only mild like this and doesn't get worst. I'll find out sooner or later. Getting sore throats seems to be a very common thing with me for some reason. annoying, but it'll get better sooner or later.
at least I know to go to no more spirit fairs at that book store. Hope the sore throat doesn't last to long and it doesn't become a cold. Time will tell. I'll continue to run the energies and do the healing thing. Let's see if it does anything or not. this will be a real test. if it works i'll do it daily to try to keep healthier. if it doesn't' work I'll know it's worthless and never to use it ever again and that there is no such thing as an inner healer despite what orin & daben say. This'll be a real test.
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Had an unusual thing happen as I was laying down to try to take a nap. Maribelle's mother came to me and guess it was my multidimensional being or something. But I could feel like she was under me. I seemed to be in a unicorn form in the spirit, light or whatever body. She did do some come ons, and sexual hints that she wanted us to have some sex then. I did want to try to take a nap and resisted. Then she took the light body, spiritual body or whatever it was, my maleness and put it direct touching her female entrance, but I resisted still.
Then she seemed pleased that I had resisted, saying something about if I had given in that the unicorns would not have thought any less of me but they, Maribelle and her family, assumed I would not give in, and by not giving in I had risen in the esteem of the unicorns there, including Maribelle and her family, but she'd not say what that was about and she did mention that she did want to and was willing to, later on when I'm back fully after this incarnation is over, have kids with me, as she had mentioned before. and her mate knows of this and approves of it. She didn't say why he did or why she wants to. If there is Something special about me she wouldn't say then, not even a hint. No idea why it happened.
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I'll be going out now to a mind, body, spirit fair thing. I only plan on staying an hour or so, but due to the buses I'll be there 30 minutes early and maybe will see someone I know from a meet up group I've talked to online & met once when the group met once.
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Went to the bookstore that was going to have the spirit, mind, body fair and it was a dud. Didn't see anyone from the illumine darma (or however you spell it) meet up group and didn't see any of them there. There was suposed to be a class at 2 about intuition. I was interested since I thought maybe I could get some ideas on how to develop mine better instead of the untrained that I have had it all my life. I've scratched off going to any fairs in the future. Doubt I'll go to the bookstore except for Illumine Darma (or however you spell it) meet ups.
the only interesting thing I had happen was I almost walked through some non incarnate there. he felt like he was very tall, like Lurch from the 60's Adams family tv show. Though I doubt anyone from me has seen that show.
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I have a mild sore throat. That seems to be very common, no idea why. Maybe 1 of those things I just have to live with during the time I'm incarnated here.
I did the 8th mediation of part 3 and it want ok overall. I was a bit distracted towards the end by my knees. Had to keep moving my legs towards the end. Maybe a sign I do need to rest which i"ll do soon after I type this up. Also during it I had a very strong pull or desire to go home, Soul's home I guess that is. I basically told the feeling, ok, find a way for me to learn to project so i can visit home, or fix it so I can permanently go home. after I said that it quieted down. And by project I meant not just astral but also maybe light body project, mental, soul. whatever would be appropriate. I guess it decided to go back to sleep or something.
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I did the 9th meditation of part 3 and it went ok. I was partially distracted by my mild sore throat, feeling weak. but running the energies went well. Especially that is all this mediation was about basically. It focused mainly on the upper 4 Light Body energy centers, with the usual starting at the 1st one and working up. So overall it went well I think.
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I do wonder if I'll understand why Maribelle's mom and family has been acting the way they have. maybe never. It is rather odd. I can understand her whole family, the few i've met so far, and she may have more then I've met. So anyway I can understand her parents, sister and 2 brothers being open about sex.
But why does Maribelle's mother want to have kids with me when she already has a mate? And why did she do what she did earlier today? and why her remark that since I didn't give in my exteem in the eyes of the unicorns there have increased, and what does it mean? Not sure if I'll ever understand any of it.
I was going to try channeling but since I have a mild sore throat and feel a bit weak I decided not to. Not sure how long I"ll have this sore throat, and I do hope it stays only mild like this and doesn't get worst. I'll find out sooner or later. Getting sore throats seems to be a very common thing with me for some reason. annoying, but it'll get better sooner or later.
at least I know to go to no more spirit fairs at that book store. Hope the sore throat doesn't last to long and it doesn't become a cold. Time will tell. I'll continue to run the energies and do the healing thing. Let's see if it does anything or not. this will be a real test. if it works i'll do it daily to try to keep healthier. if it doesn't' work I'll know it's worthless and never to use it ever again and that there is no such thing as an inner healer despite what orin & daben say. This'll be a real test.
Friday, May 1, 2015
Friday [5-1]
I think next week when I have time to do an extra 3rd or even a 4th meditation, that is when I'll go back over the Opening to channel & receiving clear guidance and do some of those meditations a 2nd time. After that is finished I'll spend the extra time either meditating, doing longer channeling for myself, or something else. I'll also, most days, do short meditation sessions.
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as I lay down to take a nap I had a conversation with twin flame again. It wasn't the intensity, I guess since we were not physically present but talking mentally, or maybe I was doing a channel talking, though i didn't feel the pressure on my head. Maybe it was a very light channel. Anyway the experience was pleasant and I did feel a strong or intense love/pleasure, during our conversation. She did say that I've reached a point when there would be no more large purging, just minor stuff I'd do or that may come up now and then, and to remember the emotion switching technique that I did before, if I need it. And also the feeling I was feeling was a sign of my getting close to being my real true self.
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I did the 4th meditation and I Think it went very well. Running the energies went very well and I did feel, experience the renawre cocoon, even better then the first 2 times I did this the first pass. the cocoon feels complete and properly formed any everything. hard to describe what the experience is like or how it feels. Floating is one thing I may mention as part of the description of the experience as well.
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While I was laying down I felt some energy work being done on me. Not sure why. I guess some needed stuff being done by soul, guide, or a mix of those 2. Maybe others also.
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I did the 5th meditation for the 3rd course and it went pretty well. I didn't use any cover over my eyes, i try to when I meditate aroound half the time. diffidently the first time i do these meditations. It went very well. i went pretty deep. Down to least medium and maybe very deep since i don't recall part of the meditation. It happens but not to often. I do wish I was conscious for the whole thing but I think I got most of it, though I did get most of it. it as the gridwork of I assume the universal mind they have talked about during this course & will in future courses. i did see it. Though I couldn't fully understand what I was seeing. Think unlike before I experienced seeing the universal mind as it really is, which may be why I feel like I can only partially remember what I saw. could be i saw the 5 or more dimensions of it maybe. if I have time I'll see if I can do it again tonight after I do the 6th one. though this was the first time it took me a while to come back. Usually when I've done these meditations I'm poof, back just that fast.
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I did the 6th meditation of the 3rd part. It went well. I felt all the energies as it was being run. Didn't see anything. Seems my thing isn't seeing energy maybe but feeling it, which is fine. Also this one took me a while to come back. Not long, like the previous one it took less then a minute. But it wasn't poof I'm back. Also felt like a bit of energy work was being done also. Some slight pain in my abdominal areas. Very slight and 2, maybe 3 isolated small spots.
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I did the 5th one again. Was able to return fairly quickly. The universal mind gridwork did feel like it was infinite insize, and like graph paper, but in 3d, and if you looked at the lines they were smaller grids that you could percieve. I swam around the area for a bit, as a dolphin. Willed myself to pop over to where I am in the universal grid thing. Twin flame popped in for a second or so. Not sure if she did it as a sorta fun tease or popped in, knew I was listening to a guided meditation and popped out. Was fun to see her. Diffidently felt the pleasant intisity, for the second that it lasted.
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As I see it there are 2 main benefits to doing an audio course all over again once I've finished it, or an unofficial. The first is I may get some experiences that I did not have the first time I did the various parts since I finished an audio course that means I will have grown since I did the individual guided meditation. Also there is the financial reason as well. If it takes a month to quickly redo all the guided meditations in a completed course that month I can put the money i have towards saving up for the dentist, and other things.
Still not sure if I'll get anything that is over A certain price limit I may set. I may say that is the wall I'll not go past. Or I may say anything over the max price I set. I may get say 1 every 4-6 months maybe. Or maybe not. I may just say, nope, nothing over X price. Plenty of time to decide. I'll decide when I'm on the last course of a certain price I picked out, which is 2 years or more from now, so plenty of time to decide if I want to go past that price or not.
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I had an interesting experience while watching a livestream show. Soul popped in mentally and we did some mental, or maybe it was another aspect of me, being a multi dimensional being. We did some kissing and caressing, mostly hugging and kissing, while our deep love for each other poured back and forth. I assume it was soul. Felt like another me. Could have been an aspect. I don't mind either way if it was soul or another aspect of me. Either is fine. it wasn't twin flame, that I'm sure of. we were both in anthro orca forms as I recall. Though briefly I found I could choose to perceive us as bright balls of light. I did that for a few seconds then switched back.
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as I lay down to take a nap I had a conversation with twin flame again. It wasn't the intensity, I guess since we were not physically present but talking mentally, or maybe I was doing a channel talking, though i didn't feel the pressure on my head. Maybe it was a very light channel. Anyway the experience was pleasant and I did feel a strong or intense love/pleasure, during our conversation. She did say that I've reached a point when there would be no more large purging, just minor stuff I'd do or that may come up now and then, and to remember the emotion switching technique that I did before, if I need it. And also the feeling I was feeling was a sign of my getting close to being my real true self.
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I did the 4th meditation and I Think it went very well. Running the energies went very well and I did feel, experience the renawre cocoon, even better then the first 2 times I did this the first pass. the cocoon feels complete and properly formed any everything. hard to describe what the experience is like or how it feels. Floating is one thing I may mention as part of the description of the experience as well.
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While I was laying down I felt some energy work being done on me. Not sure why. I guess some needed stuff being done by soul, guide, or a mix of those 2. Maybe others also.
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I did the 5th meditation for the 3rd course and it went pretty well. I didn't use any cover over my eyes, i try to when I meditate aroound half the time. diffidently the first time i do these meditations. It went very well. i went pretty deep. Down to least medium and maybe very deep since i don't recall part of the meditation. It happens but not to often. I do wish I was conscious for the whole thing but I think I got most of it, though I did get most of it. it as the gridwork of I assume the universal mind they have talked about during this course & will in future courses. i did see it. Though I couldn't fully understand what I was seeing. Think unlike before I experienced seeing the universal mind as it really is, which may be why I feel like I can only partially remember what I saw. could be i saw the 5 or more dimensions of it maybe. if I have time I'll see if I can do it again tonight after I do the 6th one. though this was the first time it took me a while to come back. Usually when I've done these meditations I'm poof, back just that fast.
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I did the 6th meditation of the 3rd part. It went well. I felt all the energies as it was being run. Didn't see anything. Seems my thing isn't seeing energy maybe but feeling it, which is fine. Also this one took me a while to come back. Not long, like the previous one it took less then a minute. But it wasn't poof I'm back. Also felt like a bit of energy work was being done also. Some slight pain in my abdominal areas. Very slight and 2, maybe 3 isolated small spots.
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I did the 5th one again. Was able to return fairly quickly. The universal mind gridwork did feel like it was infinite insize, and like graph paper, but in 3d, and if you looked at the lines they were smaller grids that you could percieve. I swam around the area for a bit, as a dolphin. Willed myself to pop over to where I am in the universal grid thing. Twin flame popped in for a second or so. Not sure if she did it as a sorta fun tease or popped in, knew I was listening to a guided meditation and popped out. Was fun to see her. Diffidently felt the pleasant intisity, for the second that it lasted.
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As I see it there are 2 main benefits to doing an audio course all over again once I've finished it, or an unofficial. The first is I may get some experiences that I did not have the first time I did the various parts since I finished an audio course that means I will have grown since I did the individual guided meditation. Also there is the financial reason as well. If it takes a month to quickly redo all the guided meditations in a completed course that month I can put the money i have towards saving up for the dentist, and other things.
Still not sure if I'll get anything that is over A certain price limit I may set. I may say that is the wall I'll not go past. Or I may say anything over the max price I set. I may get say 1 every 4-6 months maybe. Or maybe not. I may just say, nope, nothing over X price. Plenty of time to decide. I'll decide when I'm on the last course of a certain price I picked out, which is 2 years or more from now, so plenty of time to decide if I want to go past that price or not.
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I had an interesting experience while watching a livestream show. Soul popped in mentally and we did some mental, or maybe it was another aspect of me, being a multi dimensional being. We did some kissing and caressing, mostly hugging and kissing, while our deep love for each other poured back and forth. I assume it was soul. Felt like another me. Could have been an aspect. I don't mind either way if it was soul or another aspect of me. Either is fine. it wasn't twin flame, that I'm sure of. we were both in anthro orca forms as I recall. Though briefly I found I could choose to perceive us as bright balls of light. I did that for a few seconds then switched back.
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