Using the new hemi-sync cd I got and ripped to flac so I can listen to it on my tablet while sleeping worked great. Had to delete the guided meditation I had in the same folder since the app kept wanting to play both audio files 1 after the other so at first I kept waking up sometime when it was in the guided meditation. Couldn't figure out how to get it to play only Sleeping through the rain so I deleted the other one. Sleeping Through The Rain worked great. I slept overall about5 hours or 5.5 hours across 6 hours from around 12:30 to around 6:30. I took off about 30 minutes since I did keep waking up but I could go right back to sleep using the Sleeping Through the Rain and be asleep within a minute or 2 at most in my estimation.
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I did have a few dreams that I recall parts or all of. The 2 reptilian beings I could feel love coming from them as I was awake during one of my waking up times. I do recall talking to them during 1 or more of the dream bits I recall.
I recall they talked about we do help worlds going through a shift, usually higher less dense. I guess they mean like shifting 4-5th dimension or 5th to 6th, for example. We normally don't go anywhere near this level of density where the earth is at present. Though I'm of 2 royal lineages and they do have special permission to have created me and they are master geneticists and can do this. It's sort of expected that I will have offspring, children, create new beings with both species, but there is no hurry since we're immortal and not of a limited lifespan like earth human vehicles, though for earth humans that'll change since they'll stop using their vehicles that are their current bodies at present.
It'll be true love that'll decide who I end up having offspring or creating new beings with, not me being assigned to breed with this individual. Both species will benefit from my doing this but again no hurry, let true love decide which of the other royals of both species I have true love for and will create new beings with. Also creating new beings, offspring, whatever you wish to term it is not like on earth. With them the way it is is for example let's say a naga royal and I create an offspring together, the offspring wishes to be a healer but let's say neither of us is a healer so they'll go off to be with a healer to study under them just as in the future a younger naga I'm not related to at all may come to me to be a guide to them and learn from me. and they did say I'm more of a mystic sort, to use earth type labeling. Though we all do what we want really.
My guide type popped up saying he's not been around as much since though I can call on him for help I'm more indipendant and my learning from the gateway and hemi-sync and some light body stuff, picking out what interests me, is a great idea, but that means he doesn't need to be around as much, but I can call on him for help, advice ect. and he still looked like an biped reptilian, no idea on the race of his or my biped reptilian parent. who I do recall has wings on his or her back, though not sure of the genders of my parents, but I guess it doesn't matter.
I think either they (1 or both of my true self's parents) or the guide mentioned that sex is much more open and not like it is on earth. What some may see as 'sex' is sharing love, & pleasure in a fun sensual pleasurable way which is normal and natural, not the way it is seen on the earth. and it is normal for some beings who care for each other to share with each other in this manner.
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Also had another dream I vaguely recall that my grandmother, the one who raised me and died when I was about 17. Don't recall much but her being in my apartment saying positive stuff, how we really use to have some fun together. Good times then. I'm doing well and what they are saying (she meant the 2 reptilian parents of my true being) are saying is true.
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I did the advanced focus 10 audio for the 1st time today and not a lot to report this time. It was relaxing. Think I got down deeper in my relaxation the 2nd time I was taken down. Wasn't surprised this time when he brought me out of being at the focus 10. No real experiences and my mind did wonder, but that is ok. I would guess being very relaxed is the main point of this exercise. So all in all not a bad experience. it was relaxing being at focus 10 and i guess that is the main point of the exercise so in that it did succeed. I did feel my REBAL which like yesterday did feel very strong and fully formed.
Tuesday, November 3, 2015
Monday, November 2, 2015
Monday 11-2
I only slept an hour and that was 3 hours ago that I awoke. During the hour I slept I did have a dream. I remember the general constant of the dream, I'll copy down my notes below:
I was talking to my reptilian parent, still not sure if it's a male, female or a herm. the other reptilian being who said he or she was a guide was there also and the 3 of us were talking. The parent acknowledged that I am his, her or hir, son and we are royalty of the royal line. both of us had wings folded on our backs my notes say. We talk about my being or having light, I don't' recall and my notes are not clear on this. like a sun or star. I have been incarnated on other worlds. & I have other heritages also. I'm more of a mystic sort. I think it was mentioned the guide present is also. I've been to other worlds and incarnated. Normally I don't go anywhere near places as dense as the earth is, but the earth is a special case.
I have friends and lovers across multiple species across numerous worlds and levels of being.
I do remember some lines said, in a kidding sort of fashion.
"one of the perks of being royalty of a royal line." meaning in relation to my having friends and lovers across multiple species across numerous worlds & levels of being.
"you have an interesting heritage."
not sure, got the feeling maybe I was created or when I was created as a non physical being specific genes (or whatever the non physical equivalent is) were purposely picked and chosen.
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I did the advance focus 10 exercise today. it went ok to well. I was caught by surprise when he said it was over. I had taken off the thing I had over my eyes and just figured it had gone by quicker then I had thought. Then I noticed it had about 11 minutes left and I did put the stuff back over my eyes & reclined. The first time I was in focus 10 I felt very relaxed, very aware of my breathing but dimly aware of the rest of my body. The 2nd time While I didn't feel as relaxed I did feel light I was floating and had like 2 bodies with 1 of them resonating and energy flowing quickly or strongly.
I did get a message from 2 reptilian beings both times I went to focus 10 during this exercise. I'll put them together into this as 1 and condense and summarize it. The Rebal, forgot what that stands for, something ball, resonance ball or something like that, felt fully formed and strong. I could feel the energy and it coming out of my head and into the soles of my feet making the bottoms of my feet sorta tingle.
1 was what looked like a naga, reptilian from the waist up and the other looked like a biped reptilian. they both felt positive and like they were mentally smiling warmly to me. I couldn't tell the genders of either. I did comment that 1 looked like a Naga and what species was the other. I think I got alpha draconian but then one of them said that their species doesn't really matter. They did say they were both my parents and they are both of royal lines. They got, special permission to have children since it would benefit both species since it would add diversity and both would benefit. Thought they did say that part of the deal was, and they were smiling a bit at this, that I was expected to have children, breed, with some of both species, but when I asked about any pressure like I remember Dianna mentioning she had that and they said no, no pressure really. We don't have to hurry and produce heirs since we'll die in under a decade and need replacements. While it's expected that you'll eventually do this, and some may see it a a duty, you can take all the time you need. It has to be true love, not like we or anyone is going to assign you some to produce offspring or new beings with. and when I asked they did say that they and I are indeed immortal so I literally had forever to do this, all the time I wanted and remember it has to be true love.
I asked about a female dolphin since I felt I had remembered some stuff about her or something and they did say the yes there was a female dolphin in a previous incarnation or mission (not sure which word they used or if it was both) that I had reached resonance with and was lovers with, while not planned it was not unexpected since we have close ties with, and the term i got was Sirius dolphins. and this just gives closer ties since our relationship, hers and mine, are build on true love. that is why our energy resonates so perfectly or closely, not sure which terms they said or exactly what they said. Think they also said that there is that Sirius dolphin pod that considers me a full member of the pod.
I did ask where the guide who had appeared before was and one of them said he is with one of his other charges.
The 2 times we talked I felt like I was maybe only 10 or 15% there at most.
Sunday, November 1, 2015
Sun 11-1
I did the intro to focus 10 for the 1st time today and it didn't go as well as yesterday, but that is ok. I don't expect it to be always as great as the past 2 times went and I'm still early on in the gateway experienced, not even half way done with wave 1 yet. I feel I may have reached focus 10 maybe, but I slipped back up to being fully awake, that is if I was able to ever reach focus 10. I maybe was somewhere between focus 3 and 10, but again that is ok, I don't expect it to be the exact same every time.
I was able to briefly have a conversation with the biped reptilian being. She was either a female or a herm and she did say that I am her son and we are of royal linage, though again no idea what species she is or her name, or hir name. I could feel she was proud of me and she did love me and is a loving being, but maybe not the same way that a mammal may love. She did hug me close to her again and this time I was able to see that she did have wings on her back and a tail. Felt like I had wings and a tail and was the same species as her. if I recall things correctly and I wasn't exactly attempting to see what I felt or looked like, just impressions I had. So all in all it went at best as ok I'd say. I'll do this a 2nd time later on and see how the 2nd time goes.
Saturday, October 31, 2015
Saturday 10-31
I did intro focus 10 for the first time today and it went very well. I was dimly aware of my body during the focus 10 part. I focused on remaining relaxed, inhaling and as I exhaled I focused on remaining relaxed and becoming even more relaxed.
I did partially pop somewhere. . I was semi in 2 places at once. I was like on a beach somewhere or maybe it wasn't a beach. I think a beach was nearby. There was a large boulder and on it was a robed humanoid with a hood on so one could not see it's features. I could see it was twirling what looked like a ray gun like from one of the 1950's style sci-fi magazine cover pictures and the figure was twirling it like some gunslingers do in some western movies. I remember remarking that the hand I could see twirling the gun looked maybe reptilian.
I watched him for a second or so and looked around a bit and he hopped off the boulder in front of me but not close. I didn't see what he did with the ray gun, maybe it was unmanifested. I got a feeling it was a male being. After he hopped off of the boulder in front of me, but as I said not to close, he was a few feet away. he raised his hands and pulled his hood back, revealing he was a reptilian. which I found to be cool.
He said he was one of my guides and to continue to focus on remaining relaxed and to keep doing what I was doing. he said we'd talk later, another time. he said he would bring in my higher self to explain and it switched to where I was elsewhere or in a space in my mind. It seemed a featureless dark area. I felt like the message would be a brief one so there was no need for a setting nor furniture. the reptilian part of me appeared and was at first a large naga like he was before, though not human from the waist up, but humanoid reptilian. he said it was best if I would continue focusing on relaxation just as I had been doing using my breathing. also to do this intro focus 10 for a 2nd time today as I had been planning and twice tomorrow and do it for the next few days before I move on to the next one. he said this would help me immensely.
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I did the intro focus 10 for the 2nd time today. One of my eyelids kept flicking open, which is normal. It was a minor thing since if I keep my eyes rolled up as high as I comfortably can it usually won't happen and I was able to remain relaxed. I'll have to remember to make sure the thing I tie over my eyes puts light pressure on both of the eyelids of both eyes, or maybe I can put cotton balls on each of my eyes to help with that.
I was able to use my breathing like before to help with my relaxation. I was briefly in 2 places at once again, shorter then before. But with the distractions like one of my eyelids flicking open for a quarter second or so, and some other sensations like a spot or 2 itching, it's ok.
I was very close to a biped reptilian being that to me felt like he was positive and I could feel not only that he, or was it she. Anyway I could feel that the being was not only positive but also proud of the fact I had reached this level and I did feel love, not the same as from some other beings, but love. The being hugged me close saying, "my son, you're of my lineage. I'm so proud of you for achieving this, reaching here." not sure if I got the exact quote, but I'm sure I got pretty close and once again I was in like 2 places at once briefly, though not 100% in both locations.
I asked, "you're not another part of me or my full self?"
Being: "not in the way you're thinking no. you are of my lineage, my bloodline. We'll talk again later. You're doing great."
The being was large, well we were the same size. if they were larger then me it was not by that much. They were a biped reptilian and very muscled. I didn't get to see much of it since we were very close together and the being did hug me close. I hugged then back without thinking. In hindsight I do think we both had tails and wings folded on our backs.
An interesting but brief experience. Lots of reptilian experiences, not that I mind. I find it interesting. Though I do also feel that I have cetacean heritage also. Maybe that is it or maybe I have 1-2 others also. I'm sure I'll find out all in due time. Since I'm doing The Gateway Experience. I'm kinda pretending I don't know the stuff I learned of before. and I wonder what my future experiences will be.
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Gaia sent me a mental message to say were are still lovers and what I'm doing with the gateway and pretending to start over, is a good idea and some things coming up again. as I'm sure certain things will. This likely offers some advantages and we'll see where it goes and leads to.
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I can say I don't dislike being incarnated on earth, though I do not like the limitations, but that'll change, well after my incarnation is over. There are some fun I do have, every day. Though some annoyances like when my sleep is messed up. I highly doubt that I"ll incarnate on earth again, not cause I hate it, just cause all the freedom that isn't here, no teleporting, changing your appearance, form, ect. But I do understand many love it here. though I'm sure when ever this incarnation ends I'll likely miss certain aspects about being here, that doesn't mean I want to incarnate again. the annoyances would outweigh fun aspects so I don't plan on incarnating here again. Even if I stopped aging at 20 and lived to be say 1,000 before some accident got me, I'd still both miss certain aspects about being incarnated here, but also would be glad to be back on the other side and decide I'm not going to incarnate here again. Not that that's negative. one can look at the fun and positive aspects of say living in a certain area and once you move back home decide you're not going back to that location again since though you did have fun there, there are a lot of annoyances.
I did partially pop somewhere. . I was semi in 2 places at once. I was like on a beach somewhere or maybe it wasn't a beach. I think a beach was nearby. There was a large boulder and on it was a robed humanoid with a hood on so one could not see it's features. I could see it was twirling what looked like a ray gun like from one of the 1950's style sci-fi magazine cover pictures and the figure was twirling it like some gunslingers do in some western movies. I remember remarking that the hand I could see twirling the gun looked maybe reptilian.
I watched him for a second or so and looked around a bit and he hopped off the boulder in front of me but not close. I didn't see what he did with the ray gun, maybe it was unmanifested. I got a feeling it was a male being. After he hopped off of the boulder in front of me, but as I said not to close, he was a few feet away. he raised his hands and pulled his hood back, revealing he was a reptilian. which I found to be cool.
He said he was one of my guides and to continue to focus on remaining relaxed and to keep doing what I was doing. he said we'd talk later, another time. he said he would bring in my higher self to explain and it switched to where I was elsewhere or in a space in my mind. It seemed a featureless dark area. I felt like the message would be a brief one so there was no need for a setting nor furniture. the reptilian part of me appeared and was at first a large naga like he was before, though not human from the waist up, but humanoid reptilian. he said it was best if I would continue focusing on relaxation just as I had been doing using my breathing. also to do this intro focus 10 for a 2nd time today as I had been planning and twice tomorrow and do it for the next few days before I move on to the next one. he said this would help me immensely.
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I did the intro focus 10 for the 2nd time today. One of my eyelids kept flicking open, which is normal. It was a minor thing since if I keep my eyes rolled up as high as I comfortably can it usually won't happen and I was able to remain relaxed. I'll have to remember to make sure the thing I tie over my eyes puts light pressure on both of the eyelids of both eyes, or maybe I can put cotton balls on each of my eyes to help with that.
I was able to use my breathing like before to help with my relaxation. I was briefly in 2 places at once again, shorter then before. But with the distractions like one of my eyelids flicking open for a quarter second or so, and some other sensations like a spot or 2 itching, it's ok.
I was very close to a biped reptilian being that to me felt like he was positive and I could feel not only that he, or was it she. Anyway I could feel that the being was not only positive but also proud of the fact I had reached this level and I did feel love, not the same as from some other beings, but love. The being hugged me close saying, "my son, you're of my lineage. I'm so proud of you for achieving this, reaching here." not sure if I got the exact quote, but I'm sure I got pretty close and once again I was in like 2 places at once briefly, though not 100% in both locations.
I asked, "you're not another part of me or my full self?"
Being: "not in the way you're thinking no. you are of my lineage, my bloodline. We'll talk again later. You're doing great."
The being was large, well we were the same size. if they were larger then me it was not by that much. They were a biped reptilian and very muscled. I didn't get to see much of it since we were very close together and the being did hug me close. I hugged then back without thinking. In hindsight I do think we both had tails and wings folded on our backs.
An interesting but brief experience. Lots of reptilian experiences, not that I mind. I find it interesting. Though I do also feel that I have cetacean heritage also. Maybe that is it or maybe I have 1-2 others also. I'm sure I'll find out all in due time. Since I'm doing The Gateway Experience. I'm kinda pretending I don't know the stuff I learned of before. and I wonder what my future experiences will be.
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Gaia sent me a mental message to say were are still lovers and what I'm doing with the gateway and pretending to start over, is a good idea and some things coming up again. as I'm sure certain things will. This likely offers some advantages and we'll see where it goes and leads to.
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I can say I don't dislike being incarnated on earth, though I do not like the limitations, but that'll change, well after my incarnation is over. There are some fun I do have, every day. Though some annoyances like when my sleep is messed up. I highly doubt that I"ll incarnate on earth again, not cause I hate it, just cause all the freedom that isn't here, no teleporting, changing your appearance, form, ect. But I do understand many love it here. though I'm sure when ever this incarnation ends I'll likely miss certain aspects about being here, that doesn't mean I want to incarnate again. the annoyances would outweigh fun aspects so I don't plan on incarnating here again. Even if I stopped aging at 20 and lived to be say 1,000 before some accident got me, I'd still both miss certain aspects about being incarnated here, but also would be glad to be back on the other side and decide I'm not going to incarnate here again. Not that that's negative. one can look at the fun and positive aspects of say living in a certain area and once you move back home decide you're not going back to that location again since though you did have fun there, there are a lot of annoyances.
Friday, October 30, 2015
Friday 10-30
I did the 2nd audio of wave 1 again and it went well. I got very relaxed. Think I did reach focus 10. While I was able to feel my body it was pretty dim, faint, as was my feeling the chair I was sitting on. I was aware of it only to the dimmest extint, as I was my body.
I had an aspect of myself, or so it or he said. it looked like a snake. It said that it was me, representing my reptilian side, my reptilian heritage and yes I do have naga heritage. It represents that which most humans suppress, keep to the shadows, though that doesn't apply to me since I've merged with my former shadow aspect. a part of my sexuality, though my cetacean heritage also represents part of that. and it did confirm it is a part of me me, this me here incarnated in this human body, not of my main multi dimensional self. It said that we, meaning my whole full self, various multi dimensional selves, felt it's better for now that it be my aspects, other selves of me, this me here incarnated in this human body, be the ones to talk to me since I coudl then get to know myself better. I said the connection didn't feel to strong and he said that the Gateway System will help with that. So our connection would be stronger.
Interesting experience. and how it did mention sexuality. I guess it can have 2 parts or dimensions, represented by the cetacean and the reptilian, snake in this manner and it did say I had naga and cetacean heritage. Nice. Though I channeled that before, with Gateway I'd like to start over, pretending I've not really channeled before. I do get the feeling later on it may be willing to deepen our relationship, but that'll come in time, all in due time. Think I may try this audio later today, if I have time and don't get to distracted.
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I get the feeling that he also would say he's not just an aspect of myself, but my higher self also. he's part of both and this'll let me get to know myself and he can also be a guide also, an initial guide or something I guess, or maybe a full guide. The Cetacean he said is also a part of myself and my higher self as he is. I guess the unicorn may be also, or maybe not as much as the naga and cetacean are. It does seem interesting. naga and cetacean being parts of myself and my higher self. This should be an interesting experience as time goes on.
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I feel maybe I'm part of 1 or more groups or collectives maybe. they may have had little knowledge or direct knowledge of earth before I came here. Just the general impressions or feelings I'm getting.
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I did the 2nd audio of wave 1, intro focus 10. I talked to a being that said it was another part of me. part of my larger self, like part of my higher self and the part of me not incarnated here. Think of myself as part of it, the incarnated as an earth human self and it is part of our larger self. I could and still do feel love from it as well. It was at first like a large snake, then I got a view of a reptilian humanoid. and it said we're of the royal line. I got the feeling I'm part of a collective and when it said royal line it mean more then just naga. it did say of the naga type we're cobra type and the royal line isn't only naga but reptilian royal line. he didn't have to much time to tell me stuff since I guess it was Robert Monroe's voice that does the audio stuff. he kept interrupting. my reptilian self did say we'd have more time to talk in the free form audio. and I should do the intro to focus 10 for at least several more days before continuing to the next audio file.
He also said it was normal when I asked, that it was normal for me to find him sexually attractive since we are a sexual being and this was not only normal for us but also a good sign that i did find him such. I felt that he feels the same as I do about him.
He spend a good part of the short conversations we had as a reptilian biped looking being. He said cetacean was another part of who and what we were. He also said we're more then just being cobra nagas, and we are natural shape shifters. I felt he didn't go into detail since the time was short but I diffidently go the feeling he meant more types of species of reptilian. I felt a resonating around in my torso area briefly and he said this was his using this to deepen our connection and as I continued doing the Gateway our connection would deepen and I would be able to feel that.
I can feel that he's a loving being, that he loves and and we love each other as well as finding each other sexually attractive, which I guess since we are both the same being which I did ask and he said yes we are the same being. I guess this is normal. A very interesting encounter.
I also go the feeling I'm part of 1 or more collectives. I'm not sure if it is 1 that has multiple species like reptilians, cetaceans. though I do expect I'll find out eventually. No hurry.
I had an aspect of myself, or so it or he said. it looked like a snake. It said that it was me, representing my reptilian side, my reptilian heritage and yes I do have naga heritage. It represents that which most humans suppress, keep to the shadows, though that doesn't apply to me since I've merged with my former shadow aspect. a part of my sexuality, though my cetacean heritage also represents part of that. and it did confirm it is a part of me me, this me here incarnated in this human body, not of my main multi dimensional self. It said that we, meaning my whole full self, various multi dimensional selves, felt it's better for now that it be my aspects, other selves of me, this me here incarnated in this human body, be the ones to talk to me since I coudl then get to know myself better. I said the connection didn't feel to strong and he said that the Gateway System will help with that. So our connection would be stronger.
Interesting experience. and how it did mention sexuality. I guess it can have 2 parts or dimensions, represented by the cetacean and the reptilian, snake in this manner and it did say I had naga and cetacean heritage. Nice. Though I channeled that before, with Gateway I'd like to start over, pretending I've not really channeled before. I do get the feeling later on it may be willing to deepen our relationship, but that'll come in time, all in due time. Think I may try this audio later today, if I have time and don't get to distracted.
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I get the feeling that he also would say he's not just an aspect of myself, but my higher self also. he's part of both and this'll let me get to know myself and he can also be a guide also, an initial guide or something I guess, or maybe a full guide. The Cetacean he said is also a part of myself and my higher self as he is. I guess the unicorn may be also, or maybe not as much as the naga and cetacean are. It does seem interesting. naga and cetacean being parts of myself and my higher self. This should be an interesting experience as time goes on.
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I feel maybe I'm part of 1 or more groups or collectives maybe. they may have had little knowledge or direct knowledge of earth before I came here. Just the general impressions or feelings I'm getting.
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I did the 2nd audio of wave 1, intro focus 10. I talked to a being that said it was another part of me. part of my larger self, like part of my higher self and the part of me not incarnated here. Think of myself as part of it, the incarnated as an earth human self and it is part of our larger self. I could and still do feel love from it as well. It was at first like a large snake, then I got a view of a reptilian humanoid. and it said we're of the royal line. I got the feeling I'm part of a collective and when it said royal line it mean more then just naga. it did say of the naga type we're cobra type and the royal line isn't only naga but reptilian royal line. he didn't have to much time to tell me stuff since I guess it was Robert Monroe's voice that does the audio stuff. he kept interrupting. my reptilian self did say we'd have more time to talk in the free form audio. and I should do the intro to focus 10 for at least several more days before continuing to the next audio file.
He also said it was normal when I asked, that it was normal for me to find him sexually attractive since we are a sexual being and this was not only normal for us but also a good sign that i did find him such. I felt that he feels the same as I do about him.
He spend a good part of the short conversations we had as a reptilian biped looking being. He said cetacean was another part of who and what we were. He also said we're more then just being cobra nagas, and we are natural shape shifters. I felt he didn't go into detail since the time was short but I diffidently go the feeling he meant more types of species of reptilian. I felt a resonating around in my torso area briefly and he said this was his using this to deepen our connection and as I continued doing the Gateway our connection would deepen and I would be able to feel that.
I can feel that he's a loving being, that he loves and and we love each other as well as finding each other sexually attractive, which I guess since we are both the same being which I did ask and he said yes we are the same being. I guess this is normal. A very interesting encounter.
I also go the feeling I'm part of 1 or more collectives. I'm not sure if it is 1 that has multiple species like reptilians, cetaceans. though I do expect I'll find out eventually. No hurry.
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Thursday 10-29
Wednesday night before I get ready for bed: a bit of a intuitive message after I did a bit of the Sahaja meditation yoga thing, not very long since it says 10-15 minutes but I'm easing into it very slowly. but I got a few minutes later.
The reason the earth experience is hitting me and effecting me so hard is not only am I clearing for myself but some of the collective as well. and since I normally do not come anywhere near places or planes of this density this is my first time in such a dense place or plane so it has effected me very hard since I'm a first timer here, though I am in fact not a young being but an old or ancient one.
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Think I slept 5 or 6 hours, nice. sleep is getting backish to normal, but I still look forward to getting Sleeping Through the Rain since it should help to keep my sleep at normal. Next week I"ll get some sleep phones, designed to be worn while sleeping so I won't have to use the in ear earphones anymore while sleeping, that'll be a plus.
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So far the day is going great. I'm about an hour or so behind when I use to do certain things, but that is ok. Far better. Also I wonder if I may choose to go back to doing some light body stuff after I've finished gateway or I've done gateway for a while I may do some light body courses now and then. I'll decide later on.
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I did the wave 1 intro phase 10. I was able to reach it and felt very relaxed and was able to remain there for a while but I slipped up to phase 3, but was able to get myself somewhere between phase 3 and 10 by inhaling and slowly exhaling, and stayed there for the rest of the exercise. this one may take me more then a week to do.
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This evening was mostly fun overall. things went well overall.
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I do feel that I have friends and loved ones on the other side. not sure of the exact nature of them. I feel they are there, relatives perhaps, not in the human way but maybe from the same parent or parents that created the being I'm part of. Hard to explain what I mean, but that is a close approximation. Very close friends and lovers also, perhaps.
Just an intuitive feeling. I do feel they miss me. Miss talking or me being with them. Not sure which or maybe both. Though I do feel they do love me still. it is a pleasant feeling, the love I mean. I'm sure I'll be able to communicate with them soon. No hurry I guess.
The reason the earth experience is hitting me and effecting me so hard is not only am I clearing for myself but some of the collective as well. and since I normally do not come anywhere near places or planes of this density this is my first time in such a dense place or plane so it has effected me very hard since I'm a first timer here, though I am in fact not a young being but an old or ancient one.
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Think I slept 5 or 6 hours, nice. sleep is getting backish to normal, but I still look forward to getting Sleeping Through the Rain since it should help to keep my sleep at normal. Next week I"ll get some sleep phones, designed to be worn while sleeping so I won't have to use the in ear earphones anymore while sleeping, that'll be a plus.
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So far the day is going great. I'm about an hour or so behind when I use to do certain things, but that is ok. Far better. Also I wonder if I may choose to go back to doing some light body stuff after I've finished gateway or I've done gateway for a while I may do some light body courses now and then. I'll decide later on.
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I did the wave 1 intro phase 10. I was able to reach it and felt very relaxed and was able to remain there for a while but I slipped up to phase 3, but was able to get myself somewhere between phase 3 and 10 by inhaling and slowly exhaling, and stayed there for the rest of the exercise. this one may take me more then a week to do.
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This evening was mostly fun overall. things went well overall.
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I do feel that I have friends and loved ones on the other side. not sure of the exact nature of them. I feel they are there, relatives perhaps, not in the human way but maybe from the same parent or parents that created the being I'm part of. Hard to explain what I mean, but that is a close approximation. Very close friends and lovers also, perhaps.
Just an intuitive feeling. I do feel they miss me. Miss talking or me being with them. Not sure which or maybe both. Though I do feel they do love me still. it is a pleasant feeling, the love I mean. I'm sure I'll be able to communicate with them soon. No hurry I guess.
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Wedensday 10-28
Feels like another sleepless night. I thought that Dreamcatcher hemi-sync was good since it seems to have been semi working, but it's not been working for about the past almost 12 hours. Maybe it's a come and go thing or something or there is some other reason.
Think since i can't sleep I'll do some web surfing then try the Gateway thing, but this time I may try the Focus 10 which is the 2nd audio for wave 1 of Gateway. I was going to wait till Friday but I figured since I can't sleep and I've been doing the 1st audio for 5 days & I can't sleep, why not give the 2nd audio that is Focus 10 a try. Can't hurt.
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hmm, wonder if I should save up and buy a usb mic, then I can use some of my spending or savings to pay for a channeler to ask them some questions. I am in need of guidance. and I am unable to channel at present. That may change in the future. but as of right now I am unable to.
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Though I do have fun here at times, I do also feel lonely at times. and most of me really doesn't want to be here. Not that I hate being here, just I don't like it here. it feels so restrictive, limiting, a sadness all around, and I'm sad being here. unable to ... well I'll stop here. Not negative just thought I'd write down some of my feelings I am feeling at this moment.
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Let's do the focus 10 and see what happens. it went sorta ok. I talked to a part of me that feels like I do. it and I just don't want to be here. It feels, well felt since we talked it's sadness went away, well most of it. it's sad on still being here and just doesn't want to be here on the earth. I don't either, so in that we're in agreement. it feels as limited, constrained as I do and it greatly wants to be on the other side, where the vastness will be available to us both. In that I do agree. Not that we can do anything about it, which it did agree to. We both wish we were on the other side instead of here. Though we do have some fun on earth, we just don't want to be here.
I got pretty relaxed but wasn't in the body asleep mind awake state. maybe that takes a great deal of time. I felt some odd feelings in both of my knees, which happens, not to bad but distracting. after being in the focus 10 for a while I slipped out of it and back into just being a bit relaxed. So not sure how to classify this experience. I'll go ahead and say sorta ok since I'm not sure.
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Went to the grocery store today. Everything went super. I didn't have to wait very long at all. Hit everything perfectly well.
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only slept 4.5 hours so far. I should take a nap soon. Got a feeling or memory piece that maybe before some part of me came here some guide or other being said that I'd not like it here, not one bit. I'd find it very annoying indeed since I'm not use to anything like it is here. Not sure if it is true or imaginary.
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The person that was an online friend of mine is well I'll no go there. But part of it is I do feel that her viewpoint and thinking are totally different then mine. She sees the fact I don't want to be here as being very negative. when it's not. I don't hate being here, it's just that I don't like being here, even deep down. My guess is it's due to I normally don't come anywhere near as dense of a place as earth is. maybe I don't go down past 4th dimension or maybe not past 5th dimension. and not liking being here, even deep down, is not a negative thing. it's like a human say sent to the middle east or who goes there for this specific reason, but just doesn't like being there. The weather, temperature, desert air, the way some of the people are, ect. But he's there to do 1 thing, then once that is done, as soon as he can, he's out and going back home. That is not negativity. Some who enjoy being here or enjoy the idea of hanging around for several incarnations to help other folks & light workers and the shift as part of phase 2 have a totally different outlook and feeling to us phase 1 folks who are here for 1 thing, then we're out. We're not here for the long haul over a number of incarnations to do several things. Those are 2 totally different viewpoints and I can see how the wave 2 folks would see the viewpoint of the wave 1 folks as negative the fact they just don't like being here even deep down. Since they really don't understand the wave 1 viewpoint, likely since they never have done that sort of thing before.
I do have a feeling that she and I don't get along to well on the other side, not that we hate each other or are mad, just we really don't get along and don't talk except when needed for specific reasons, Which is fine since not everyone will get along with everyone else.
and deep down I really don't like being here. there are fun times I have yes, but all the limitations and such. and that is not negativity since I'm part of wave 1, in to anchor the energies then out as soon as everything checks off which being earth means things will be much more complicated as to when I can have an exit point and go. it may cause sadness and what some may perceive as depression, but that is part of not being native to here and not being here for the long term like the wave 2 folks who will likely be here for several incarnations or perhaps for the entire shift, unlike us wave 1 folks who are here for 1 mission, 1 incarnation, then we're out of here.
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I did the short version of the hemi-sync chakra meditation thing. Felt it went pretty well. I differently felt most or all of my chakras spinning. I think I figured out what the resonating type feeling in my legs were, it was at least in part the negativity energy and such flowing into the Earth. maybe in small amounts, but the long and short versions of the mediation had it flow more so I could feel an increase. There may be more blocks, negativity left since I've only done the long one yesterday and the short one today, but it feels like it's better. Not sure if there is a lot left. I think for the rest of this month and all of November I"ll do the long version a few times a week and the short version a few times a week. Then starting in December I may cut back to just doing the short version once or a few times a week.
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I had fun. there was a stream but I only half watched it since it was of marginal interest. Think I found the 2 google group chat places that I've been on may be fun to continue to chat on.
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I've one some chakra clearing and do feel better. think I'll continue to do this. maybe listen to the hour long one a few times a week and the short 2? minute one a few times a week. if I feel ok by say mid november I may cut back to doing the long one once a month and the shorter ones a few times a week.
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feeling a bit lonely. I think that is I've stopped channeling. Wasn't sure if what I was getting was clear, distorted or not. Want to wait till I am sure I've been clear most of the day for a few days. Maybe till I get half way done with the wave 1. I'll decide then. No hurry. part of it also is I'm still here on earth.
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I found some places that have free reiki attunements, 1 with basic reiki, some with all sorts of different types. and they have manuals. Think I may start to study this as a side thing. and I may try the tapping thing, the EFT, to help clear myself and keep myself clear. can't hurt. Emotional freedom techniques I'll do daily and try for a few weeks to see if it works. 1 person I met a few times suggested youtube videos by Brad Yates so I'll focus on those. I figure at the very least the positive affirmations and relaxing will do me some good.
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I may get back into Sahaja yoga meditation since it may help and it is free to go to, I may learn and if I go say once or a few times a month I'd meet some folks, though they scatter once the class ends, better then nothing. I can be on the lookout for other things to try to make some friends in rl. It'll take time. I do hope it works out.
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I'm feeling lonely, maybe a sign I'm clear enough to try channeling a bit again tomorrow. i do hope the gateway will help me to get a better connection. but time will tell.
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Even if I found the perfect friends, most of me still wouldn't like being here on Earth. Yes it can be fun at times. but it is so restrictive, so limiting. I feel deep down I miss my freedom. Maybe a sign i don't normally come to places this dense. I'm sure I'll find out sooner or later. I can also feel an excitement that I will one day be back home. No idea when, but it'll happen one day.
Think since i can't sleep I'll do some web surfing then try the Gateway thing, but this time I may try the Focus 10 which is the 2nd audio for wave 1 of Gateway. I was going to wait till Friday but I figured since I can't sleep and I've been doing the 1st audio for 5 days & I can't sleep, why not give the 2nd audio that is Focus 10 a try. Can't hurt.
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hmm, wonder if I should save up and buy a usb mic, then I can use some of my spending or savings to pay for a channeler to ask them some questions. I am in need of guidance. and I am unable to channel at present. That may change in the future. but as of right now I am unable to.
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Though I do have fun here at times, I do also feel lonely at times. and most of me really doesn't want to be here. Not that I hate being here, just I don't like it here. it feels so restrictive, limiting, a sadness all around, and I'm sad being here. unable to ... well I'll stop here. Not negative just thought I'd write down some of my feelings I am feeling at this moment.
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Let's do the focus 10 and see what happens. it went sorta ok. I talked to a part of me that feels like I do. it and I just don't want to be here. It feels, well felt since we talked it's sadness went away, well most of it. it's sad on still being here and just doesn't want to be here on the earth. I don't either, so in that we're in agreement. it feels as limited, constrained as I do and it greatly wants to be on the other side, where the vastness will be available to us both. In that I do agree. Not that we can do anything about it, which it did agree to. We both wish we were on the other side instead of here. Though we do have some fun on earth, we just don't want to be here.
I got pretty relaxed but wasn't in the body asleep mind awake state. maybe that takes a great deal of time. I felt some odd feelings in both of my knees, which happens, not to bad but distracting. after being in the focus 10 for a while I slipped out of it and back into just being a bit relaxed. So not sure how to classify this experience. I'll go ahead and say sorta ok since I'm not sure.
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Went to the grocery store today. Everything went super. I didn't have to wait very long at all. Hit everything perfectly well.
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only slept 4.5 hours so far. I should take a nap soon. Got a feeling or memory piece that maybe before some part of me came here some guide or other being said that I'd not like it here, not one bit. I'd find it very annoying indeed since I'm not use to anything like it is here. Not sure if it is true or imaginary.
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The person that was an online friend of mine is well I'll no go there. But part of it is I do feel that her viewpoint and thinking are totally different then mine. She sees the fact I don't want to be here as being very negative. when it's not. I don't hate being here, it's just that I don't like being here, even deep down. My guess is it's due to I normally don't come anywhere near as dense of a place as earth is. maybe I don't go down past 4th dimension or maybe not past 5th dimension. and not liking being here, even deep down, is not a negative thing. it's like a human say sent to the middle east or who goes there for this specific reason, but just doesn't like being there. The weather, temperature, desert air, the way some of the people are, ect. But he's there to do 1 thing, then once that is done, as soon as he can, he's out and going back home. That is not negativity. Some who enjoy being here or enjoy the idea of hanging around for several incarnations to help other folks & light workers and the shift as part of phase 2 have a totally different outlook and feeling to us phase 1 folks who are here for 1 thing, then we're out. We're not here for the long haul over a number of incarnations to do several things. Those are 2 totally different viewpoints and I can see how the wave 2 folks would see the viewpoint of the wave 1 folks as negative the fact they just don't like being here even deep down. Since they really don't understand the wave 1 viewpoint, likely since they never have done that sort of thing before.
I do have a feeling that she and I don't get along to well on the other side, not that we hate each other or are mad, just we really don't get along and don't talk except when needed for specific reasons, Which is fine since not everyone will get along with everyone else.
and deep down I really don't like being here. there are fun times I have yes, but all the limitations and such. and that is not negativity since I'm part of wave 1, in to anchor the energies then out as soon as everything checks off which being earth means things will be much more complicated as to when I can have an exit point and go. it may cause sadness and what some may perceive as depression, but that is part of not being native to here and not being here for the long term like the wave 2 folks who will likely be here for several incarnations or perhaps for the entire shift, unlike us wave 1 folks who are here for 1 mission, 1 incarnation, then we're out of here.
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I did the short version of the hemi-sync chakra meditation thing. Felt it went pretty well. I differently felt most or all of my chakras spinning. I think I figured out what the resonating type feeling in my legs were, it was at least in part the negativity energy and such flowing into the Earth. maybe in small amounts, but the long and short versions of the mediation had it flow more so I could feel an increase. There may be more blocks, negativity left since I've only done the long one yesterday and the short one today, but it feels like it's better. Not sure if there is a lot left. I think for the rest of this month and all of November I"ll do the long version a few times a week and the short version a few times a week. Then starting in December I may cut back to just doing the short version once or a few times a week.
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I had fun. there was a stream but I only half watched it since it was of marginal interest. Think I found the 2 google group chat places that I've been on may be fun to continue to chat on.
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I've one some chakra clearing and do feel better. think I'll continue to do this. maybe listen to the hour long one a few times a week and the short 2? minute one a few times a week. if I feel ok by say mid november I may cut back to doing the long one once a month and the shorter ones a few times a week.
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feeling a bit lonely. I think that is I've stopped channeling. Wasn't sure if what I was getting was clear, distorted or not. Want to wait till I am sure I've been clear most of the day for a few days. Maybe till I get half way done with the wave 1. I'll decide then. No hurry. part of it also is I'm still here on earth.
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I found some places that have free reiki attunements, 1 with basic reiki, some with all sorts of different types. and they have manuals. Think I may start to study this as a side thing. and I may try the tapping thing, the EFT, to help clear myself and keep myself clear. can't hurt. Emotional freedom techniques I'll do daily and try for a few weeks to see if it works. 1 person I met a few times suggested youtube videos by Brad Yates so I'll focus on those. I figure at the very least the positive affirmations and relaxing will do me some good.
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I may get back into Sahaja yoga meditation since it may help and it is free to go to, I may learn and if I go say once or a few times a month I'd meet some folks, though they scatter once the class ends, better then nothing. I can be on the lookout for other things to try to make some friends in rl. It'll take time. I do hope it works out.
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I'm feeling lonely, maybe a sign I'm clear enough to try channeling a bit again tomorrow. i do hope the gateway will help me to get a better connection. but time will tell.
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Even if I found the perfect friends, most of me still wouldn't like being here on Earth. Yes it can be fun at times. but it is so restrictive, so limiting. I feel deep down I miss my freedom. Maybe a sign i don't normally come to places this dense. I'm sure I'll find out sooner or later. I can also feel an excitement that I will one day be back home. No idea when, but it'll happen one day.
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