I did the 11th meditation for part 3 for the 2nd pass. It went overall pretty well. My twin flame popped up during the early part of my running the energy saying it was a further lesson on how to focus while we're together. She mainly just stayed close to me, laying on top a bit since I recline my chair to do the guided meditations. I did find her presence distracting, but not as much as before, being able to focus very well I thought. She did put her hand on my chest during the ranthia part of running the energies, increasing the love I could feel. She did comment she knew I'd do well and I was ahead of their schedule, though she further commented they set their schedules over conservative so if you do get ahead of it, and most do, then that is a good thing. I think meaning you feel better about yourself. Thought there really should not be any real schedule, just go at your own pace. Though on earth I can see some making a schedule since many things on earth are based around a schedule of some sort. She further commented she was doing this for a future thing. I guess some training of me for some stuff she and I will be doing together. I wonder if it'll be during this incarnation, after it's over. Hopefully not all while I'm asleep since I very seldom remember any dreams. She left before the main part of the guided meditation started.
The main part of the guided meditation was relaxing and peaceful, being in the quiet place of the pieah. Thoughts came slower and less so. I should try to mediate there, say for short meditations, maybe daily. perhaps a few minutes here or there through the day.
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I did the 11th meditation for part 3, for the 2nd pass. running the energies went mostly ok. Then the main meditation for it was going into past lives to get a certain skill that you had developed and transfer that skill into this life and transfer some of your skills back into that past life.
My twin flame popped up for part of this. and What I wanted was a past life where I became a master channeler and become one with my soul and had full awareness and access to all of my soul's memories. what I was was in a past life where I seemed to be an anthro orca. Twin flame said it was the lifetime before this one. And oddly that me and this me talked a bit. It seems he knew of earth but didn't know all of the conditions of incarnating here, and I told him of that. We transferred some skills back and forth.
Then for the 2nd one I got a future me. not soul but a future version of this me here. The skill I wanted was if I became 1 with the monad, collective or whatever the term is, and become fully aware, and such of being a member of the collective, and so forth. This future me did look like from the chest up an anthro orca and a non anthro one from the belly down and I was in the same form. he did say after this incarnation he has not yet incarnated. He doubted he would in the future. though there was a chance he may someday, he highly doubted it. Then to transfer the skills he had me relax and he put me into some sort of trance type state and transferred some emergy or did energy work on me mentally, or something. He did diffidently did some energy work on me. Not sure if I feel different. He did say I may notice the changes later or gradually over time. I did ask if we'd meet again and he said at least once more, maybe more then that. he then did some sort of deep telepathic thing where he said <remember!> to me a few times before leaving.
Overall an interesting experience both times. I was not expecting a future me to pop up like that. I do wonder what the energy work he did on me was for.
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I did the 7th guided meditation of receiving clear guidance. it was about reeving clear guidance general process and 1 specific issue. As well as having blockages, doubts and such removed. For the specific issue I wanted guidance on I just asked if they could do something so I, soul, and twin flame, could get as close to being 1 with all of them as well as being a crystal clear channel. One of them said ok. The session felt like they were doing mostly energy work. I could feel the energy work they, or someone, was doing. Though it did feel like they, would pause at times. It did feel like my soul, like usual, was involved. and I did feel small bolts of pleasure at times. One of them said it was due to more of my true nature being uncovered, that was why it felt like pleasure. Over all I think it went very well. I do feel changed a bit, lighter, fresher, more clear? hard to describe.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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11:46 AM
Thought I'd ask what soul meant by I am one with soul. I'll try asking both soul, twin and the collective.
So what did soul mean by that? <]What
soul meant by referring to this and saying you are one with your soul
is that you are not just intellectually aware the you are soul and soul
is you but by surrendering to soul you have uncovered your true being
and are true, in a sense, more you. You are your soul self in a human
body, so in a sense a new you. That is why you felt different upon
awakening yesterday. Explore what this means, and go at it at an even
pace, no need for speed. Just as you can only do certain things at a
certain pace in the human body soul matters have a certain pace that is
comfortable for you. Go at this pace and don't seek to go faster since
that may bring discomfort, and other problems, some minor and some not.
Also one can work on oneself forever, spending an eternity doing fine
adjustments. You have reached a point where only very minor fine
adjustments may be needed now and then as you notice thoughts, feelings
or other such that may annoy you or you want a higher vibration
reflection of that thought or feeling instead of it in it's current
form. Do so at these times or if you know of them beforehand or do not
experience them at the moment. Some may be of a habit that one has long
had of thinking in a certain way or feeling in a certain way, accept and
love this but act and purposely think in the new way you want to. This
will accomplish much as well as gently very fine tuning if you feel the
need while also taking into account one does not need to be doing this
forever, and some of the work will be done, behind the scenes, so to
speak as you continue to channel and explore yourself, learn, and take
more audio courses and as time passes.
you have really accomplished a lot, more then some may suspect, you
being one of them. There is still far you can go since one can grow and
learn forever. >
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Monday, April 20, 2015
Monday [4-20]
I awoke to feeling different. not sure how to describe it. But I did hear soul say when I realized I felt different, <you are a new you, you have become one with your soul.>
Not sure why I then asked the collective and not soul about that. I got from them something like, <You have indeed become one with your soul, merging with your soul is a different ??? > forgot the word, maybe mechanic, procedure? one of those words or close to it.
Then I had twin flame pop in, or maybe I asked for her opinion. She looked like an anthro orca female. And as usual when she was, wherever that mental place is that part of me was when I talked to the collective, I felt immediate strong feelings and instincts that ran deep to my very core. Like instantly knowing this is my twin flame, feeling her femaleness, as apposed to my maleness. Feeling that we would merge fully eventually, but not today. We would merge and unmerge over eternity. The strong desire to have soul type sex with her, but not right then. <I see you have some doubt don't you?> She asked I started to say, "well.." then she said, <here, let me remove that for you.> she said then we started to passionately cares fondle me and I started doing the same with her, not even realizing it fully consciously, it just felt totally normal. She did pause for a moment and commented that I had a grain of doubt left and continued. Eventually we stopped and it did feel like I had all my doubt removed, just maybe uncertainty. <it is a different mechanism and experience merging. You have indeed become one with our soul, but you've not merged with it yet.> "and have you become one with it? <yes>
I embraced her, "Though I do wish we could spend more time together, I'll let you get back to what you were doing. Thanks. though I do feel I look forward to merging with you, I don't want to do it to soon. and I do look forward to merging and unmerging since I feel I'd like to experience both and not just one." She caressed my chest with one hand, <and I feel exactly the same way about you and agree, you should experience being an individual here for a while.> Then she smiled, <and we do have all of eternity to merge and unmerge. Being at times 3, sometimes 2, and sometimes 1.> She said then went back to wherever she was doing whatever she had been doing. So an unusual morning for me overall. Pleasant though.
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Had a very brief conversation with Twin flame as i lay down to take a nap. I briefly mediated on the intense feelings I feel for twin whenever she pops up. and that I do enjoy the feelings and their intensity.
<I sometimes meditate on the intensity of our relationship, the energy soul level of it. That is what is causing it. >
It's a bit difficult to explain in English. I'm not sure if she shared with me or I just know myself but when she mentioned that and looking back, I do understand why there are those intense feelings, but it is hard to put into English why or explain exactly what they are or the mechanics behind them.
So do you enjoy the feel and the intensity? <yes, I sure do I enjoy all of it, like you do.>
Will be able to do any work together once I'm with you after this incarnation? <yes, we just have to have the intent. Though we will be taking a lot of breaks just to spend time together, and for other reasons too.> here she gave me a knowing smile. And I think she was in an female anthro orca type appearance. <besides, there are some things that only primary twin flames can do. certain actions, activities. Certain types of energy work only we can do as primary twin flames.> Ooh, interesting, can you teach me some of that stuff? <when you are here sure, if you don't remember it, though perhaps before that, during this incarnation perhaps, though you may recall that during this incarnation.>
Could we create souls, just the 2 of us and wouldn't they be twin flames to us since they would have only our energy? <It depends on our intent. at the very least they would be secondary twin flames to the both of us, or primary. Depending on our intent. and perhaps theirs too.> You mean if they exist like both of our former shadow aspects? <indeed. The 2 of them could be primary twin flames, thus we'd be 4, or they could be secondary twin flames to the 2 of us, and primary with only each other.>
Do we have anything between us that I should be working on? <no, there is nothing between us that needs any work or resolution. Apart from us having to wait till your incarnation is over to be fully together. Though we can still communicate, spend time together, have fun and fool around.> she said smiling. the fun and fool around I know she meant in also sexual ways. Also looking back at this as I type it I never realized but we were touching, each other with our hands, caressing each other, touching bodies at times. Not in a sexual way, but affection, togetherness, non sexual intimacy, that all promised future sex as an undercurrent thing. I didn't mention it before since it was all so natural to be doing it that I never noticed till I was looking back. I do still say yes, I thoroughly enjoy our relationship, the intensity of it. Though she's not here with me now, I can feel her inside me, so to speak, hard to say, and after all she is just a thought away. And I think I'd know if she was very busy focusing on something so I'd know not to bother her. We don't Need to be together, like some couples I've seen or heard of. We are fully content as we are. hard to explain.
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I did the 8th guided meditation of part 3 as part of the 2nd pass (it is the one about interdimensional travel) and twin flame as present for part of the guided meditation. She mentioned to look at this as a fun type lesson in my being able to focus on doing something even with her present. I did ok I think, though she did have to remind me to focus if my attention did start to wonder. Either to the usual way the mind wonders, or if I started to think of her. Before she left I did get to where I could pretty much focus my attention back and I didn't really miss anything, or if I did it was 1 tiny section. I didn't feel the intense feelings I usually feel when I'm with twin flame or she is with me. She said it is due to our focused intent was not on us being together and the fun that could lead to. Though at some spots where Orin or Daben paused she did kiss me once or twice, a quick one and a quick caress we both shared with her saying that when we are together doing something we do take frequent breaks. I asked if it was ok for us to do that during a project or us doing something and she said source like it when we do stuff like this, so with it's ok we don't need anyone else's. She did leave after a while and I noticed there was an immediate change. I could focus far more easily and We were both in orca forms that were normal from the abdominal area down and anthro from the chest up. and again only now as I type this and remember, remember we were touching and caressing, not constantly but a lot.
Toward the end were I'm supposed to give the universal gridwork beings something in return, the master in this case and he wanted love, to send love into the universal gridwork I asked if she could come back and she did saying something like let this be a taste of some energy work type that only we as primary twin flames can do. I was able to hold onto the focus of me being connected to the universal grid and sending the love light energy stuff, or whatever it was we, or at least I, was emitting while we kissed and caressed.
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I did the 9th guided meditation in part 3, about exploring frequencies and Running the energies went very well. The rest of the meditation went ok at best. The main reason was part of this to experience the difference frequencies of the energies of the different light body centers. And the energy of the first 3 feel exactly the same, those for the 4 through 7th feel different, but the same to each other, and I can barely feel them at all. I assume either I'll get better at feeling how the different frequencies are for the first 3 are different over time, or I won't. I accept either and don't really mind if I never can tell the difference. I do hope I get better at feeling the upper 4-7 then the current being able to just barely feel them.
maybe things are just to dense here and or to much of my abilities are blocked here. Another thing I dislike about incarnating. All the blocks, though I do seem to know some places have much fewer blocks then here, due to the characteristics of the area? projection? something, not sure of the right word or maybe not accessing all of my soul knowledge quite yet.
I'm past being interested in incarnating. I do feel the appeal of incarnating, but really it all feels like a big bother to me. I feel like I've moved on past that.
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i asked soul if he'd try to get me to incarnate after this. At first he was joking then turned serious after a bit when i guess he felt I was indeed being serious. He said he would not, trick, force, or talk me into it, even if I am merged with him. He promised. saying it was wrong what he did. i guess he's referring to original soul.
He said something I was not expecting, talking about he would not separate us, meaning me and twin flame. I mentioned we're not fully separated since I can talk to her and he said we are partially separated and he can feel it. He said I'm not quite sensitive enough to feel it.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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12:25 AM
Decided to do a short channel to see what I'd get.
So what did my soul mean when it said it was the next step and by surrendering and thereby giving my power to him I had reclaimed some more of my own power mean? <The lesson was could you be your true self, the soul, instead of just the human or a mix of part human and part soul. Being part human and part soul is a great achievement, but being your true soul self is even better since you are your true self. By doing what you did you took a step closer to being your true self and will see the benefits over the next few hours and days. keep doing this. you are doing great and surpassing indeed the expectations of certain ones.>
Will I need or have to incarnate after this? <No indeed. the choice will be yours and your soul's alone. you can remain here among us if you wish and many do. Some souls do love incarnating. Some one 1 world or others on various worlds as their interest takes them, or for other reasons. Some like your former soul enjoys doing this for specific missions for the group who does help other worlds. You'll have many options indeed open to you on this side. And you can even do more then 1 thing at once, being a mufti-dimensional being. As time progresses you'll begin to really understand what this means.
And as you were wondering earlier yes you have been what you term a solar engineer and planetary engineer, or something close to what you were imagining. There are some who do similar things to this. A noble among many noble professions, but that can be said about any of them. Though you were not, obviously, human. you've been many races. The Sirius races numbers among the earliest you've been, and among your favorites, since some are very similar to the soul family called the pod, as they call themselves and some of us do so. >
What are some options that'll be open to me once I'm over there? <remaining among us here and never incarnating is one. You can do something similar to what you are doing, but on the other side, if you wish to pursue that. others would be to teach others what humans are like, what you call dolphins and such, since you have been a human. That is perhaps a more future thing, preparing some to understand humans, as time progresses. many creative pursuits, music, art, beyond what you can imagine. Though you can imagine some of them. You could become a being who gets channeled. The possibilities, even taking into account what you'd like are endless. Though we do have an eternity so plenty of time.>
I've heard some say when the incarnation is over it's like waking from a dream and it won't be recalled to much. <similar to what does happen. You'll remember this live. An idea is look back over your live and how much do you really recall. Though as a soul you could dig the slightest bit and recall it all. or you could visit certain places to relive the whole life in a few seconds if you wish. Or do it yourself. You'll quickly become your true self. We'll all be here to help you to recover and recall your true self, us, your soul family, friends, and others.>
What about this is a hologram? <a bit over simplification, but in certain things true. Could be said about many things. The earth and that universe is a projection of energy, very dense and vibrationally created and some elements, lowered to where it currently is. Though things do progress over time and move to higher dimensions, to use English terms. The exact process is complicated and you have looked into it, or your former soul has, to understand the process.
A part of the soul injects itself into the projection, though the projection is real in and of itself, it is not fake, like a hologram one of your companies makes. Though one could say that a movie, is a reality of itself. That is another area.
These projections are done for a variety of reasons, often to give some souls places and time to explore, learn more of themselves, experience new things, and other reasons. The reality is in an of itself real. Though a different vibrational plane to where we are. Though we can adjust our resonance to bring ourselves closer to you like you can raise yours a bit to get closer to use so we can meet somewhere half way, though not exactly half way. the rough analogy does fit. When the incarnation ends the part of you there will be fully free and the blocks and veil, if you do even have a veil or any blocks, will instantly fall way. Though some things will still remain even if you do have all the veil gone, which is very probable in your case. We can say a certainty, but you can choose to change your mind. And at least some blocks will fall way, some have already started to, like the veil has. You would not be able to pop around at will, like we can,due to the characteristics of the realm where you currently inhabit. and the time remaining to you may seem long since you do have to experience time in a linear fashion, whereas we here on this side do not.>
I guess that is enough for now. <indeed, don't want to do do much, though this does seem much smoother and easier on your various energy systems and bodies, us working as a collective instead of individual. and other benefits as well as we have mentioned. continue up the good work and do schedule yourself some fun and time to relax. you don't need to work as long or as hard as you think you do. You'd be surprised how close you are. Bye for now.>
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7:01 PM
How do I access consciously my soul knowledge & memories and is there anything else I need to do in the time I have left to go farther along the path I'm on? A bit later on I asked about how I could be a better more clear channel and get stuff from the collective more clear and better. Not sure where I asked for this so I'll just leave all the messages in place as is. The audio I listened to was more about clearing and letting go of various things that prevent you from being a clear channel.
You have achieved much in the time of your live up till now. relax, you do not need to work as hard as you think you do. the courses you have picked out will help. Believe in yourself, that is part of the key that you need to d do. as well as perseverance, and continuing along the path you have chosen to be on.
things are clearer then you think. Believe in your self, continue, perseverance, these are the key.
Believe in yourself and perseverance. as well as relaxing.
Release as well, what is within you that is not clear and of your true self.
Not sure why I then asked the collective and not soul about that. I got from them something like, <You have indeed become one with your soul, merging with your soul is a different ??? > forgot the word, maybe mechanic, procedure? one of those words or close to it.
Then I had twin flame pop in, or maybe I asked for her opinion. She looked like an anthro orca female. And as usual when she was, wherever that mental place is that part of me was when I talked to the collective, I felt immediate strong feelings and instincts that ran deep to my very core. Like instantly knowing this is my twin flame, feeling her femaleness, as apposed to my maleness. Feeling that we would merge fully eventually, but not today. We would merge and unmerge over eternity. The strong desire to have soul type sex with her, but not right then. <I see you have some doubt don't you?> She asked I started to say, "well.." then she said, <here, let me remove that for you.> she said then we started to passionately cares fondle me and I started doing the same with her, not even realizing it fully consciously, it just felt totally normal. She did pause for a moment and commented that I had a grain of doubt left and continued. Eventually we stopped and it did feel like I had all my doubt removed, just maybe uncertainty. <it is a different mechanism and experience merging. You have indeed become one with our soul, but you've not merged with it yet.> "and have you become one with it? <yes>
I embraced her, "Though I do wish we could spend more time together, I'll let you get back to what you were doing. Thanks. though I do feel I look forward to merging with you, I don't want to do it to soon. and I do look forward to merging and unmerging since I feel I'd like to experience both and not just one." She caressed my chest with one hand, <and I feel exactly the same way about you and agree, you should experience being an individual here for a while.> Then she smiled, <and we do have all of eternity to merge and unmerge. Being at times 3, sometimes 2, and sometimes 1.> She said then went back to wherever she was doing whatever she had been doing. So an unusual morning for me overall. Pleasant though.
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Had a very brief conversation with Twin flame as i lay down to take a nap. I briefly mediated on the intense feelings I feel for twin whenever she pops up. and that I do enjoy the feelings and their intensity.
<I sometimes meditate on the intensity of our relationship, the energy soul level of it. That is what is causing it. >
It's a bit difficult to explain in English. I'm not sure if she shared with me or I just know myself but when she mentioned that and looking back, I do understand why there are those intense feelings, but it is hard to put into English why or explain exactly what they are or the mechanics behind them.
So do you enjoy the feel and the intensity? <yes, I sure do I enjoy all of it, like you do.>
Will be able to do any work together once I'm with you after this incarnation? <yes, we just have to have the intent. Though we will be taking a lot of breaks just to spend time together, and for other reasons too.> here she gave me a knowing smile. And I think she was in an female anthro orca type appearance. <besides, there are some things that only primary twin flames can do. certain actions, activities. Certain types of energy work only we can do as primary twin flames.> Ooh, interesting, can you teach me some of that stuff? <when you are here sure, if you don't remember it, though perhaps before that, during this incarnation perhaps, though you may recall that during this incarnation.>
Could we create souls, just the 2 of us and wouldn't they be twin flames to us since they would have only our energy? <It depends on our intent. at the very least they would be secondary twin flames to the both of us, or primary. Depending on our intent. and perhaps theirs too.> You mean if they exist like both of our former shadow aspects? <indeed. The 2 of them could be primary twin flames, thus we'd be 4, or they could be secondary twin flames to the 2 of us, and primary with only each other.>
Do we have anything between us that I should be working on? <no, there is nothing between us that needs any work or resolution. Apart from us having to wait till your incarnation is over to be fully together. Though we can still communicate, spend time together, have fun and fool around.> she said smiling. the fun and fool around I know she meant in also sexual ways. Also looking back at this as I type it I never realized but we were touching, each other with our hands, caressing each other, touching bodies at times. Not in a sexual way, but affection, togetherness, non sexual intimacy, that all promised future sex as an undercurrent thing. I didn't mention it before since it was all so natural to be doing it that I never noticed till I was looking back. I do still say yes, I thoroughly enjoy our relationship, the intensity of it. Though she's not here with me now, I can feel her inside me, so to speak, hard to say, and after all she is just a thought away. And I think I'd know if she was very busy focusing on something so I'd know not to bother her. We don't Need to be together, like some couples I've seen or heard of. We are fully content as we are. hard to explain.
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I did the 8th guided meditation of part 3 as part of the 2nd pass (it is the one about interdimensional travel) and twin flame as present for part of the guided meditation. She mentioned to look at this as a fun type lesson in my being able to focus on doing something even with her present. I did ok I think, though she did have to remind me to focus if my attention did start to wonder. Either to the usual way the mind wonders, or if I started to think of her. Before she left I did get to where I could pretty much focus my attention back and I didn't really miss anything, or if I did it was 1 tiny section. I didn't feel the intense feelings I usually feel when I'm with twin flame or she is with me. She said it is due to our focused intent was not on us being together and the fun that could lead to. Though at some spots where Orin or Daben paused she did kiss me once or twice, a quick one and a quick caress we both shared with her saying that when we are together doing something we do take frequent breaks. I asked if it was ok for us to do that during a project or us doing something and she said source like it when we do stuff like this, so with it's ok we don't need anyone else's. She did leave after a while and I noticed there was an immediate change. I could focus far more easily and We were both in orca forms that were normal from the abdominal area down and anthro from the chest up. and again only now as I type this and remember, remember we were touching and caressing, not constantly but a lot.
Toward the end were I'm supposed to give the universal gridwork beings something in return, the master in this case and he wanted love, to send love into the universal gridwork I asked if she could come back and she did saying something like let this be a taste of some energy work type that only we as primary twin flames can do. I was able to hold onto the focus of me being connected to the universal grid and sending the love light energy stuff, or whatever it was we, or at least I, was emitting while we kissed and caressed.
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I did the 9th guided meditation in part 3, about exploring frequencies and Running the energies went very well. The rest of the meditation went ok at best. The main reason was part of this to experience the difference frequencies of the energies of the different light body centers. And the energy of the first 3 feel exactly the same, those for the 4 through 7th feel different, but the same to each other, and I can barely feel them at all. I assume either I'll get better at feeling how the different frequencies are for the first 3 are different over time, or I won't. I accept either and don't really mind if I never can tell the difference. I do hope I get better at feeling the upper 4-7 then the current being able to just barely feel them.
maybe things are just to dense here and or to much of my abilities are blocked here. Another thing I dislike about incarnating. All the blocks, though I do seem to know some places have much fewer blocks then here, due to the characteristics of the area? projection? something, not sure of the right word or maybe not accessing all of my soul knowledge quite yet.
I'm past being interested in incarnating. I do feel the appeal of incarnating, but really it all feels like a big bother to me. I feel like I've moved on past that.
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i asked soul if he'd try to get me to incarnate after this. At first he was joking then turned serious after a bit when i guess he felt I was indeed being serious. He said he would not, trick, force, or talk me into it, even if I am merged with him. He promised. saying it was wrong what he did. i guess he's referring to original soul.
He said something I was not expecting, talking about he would not separate us, meaning me and twin flame. I mentioned we're not fully separated since I can talk to her and he said we are partially separated and he can feel it. He said I'm not quite sensitive enough to feel it.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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12:25 AM
Decided to do a short channel to see what I'd get.
So what did my soul mean when it said it was the next step and by surrendering and thereby giving my power to him I had reclaimed some more of my own power mean? <The lesson was could you be your true self, the soul, instead of just the human or a mix of part human and part soul. Being part human and part soul is a great achievement, but being your true soul self is even better since you are your true self. By doing what you did you took a step closer to being your true self and will see the benefits over the next few hours and days. keep doing this. you are doing great and surpassing indeed the expectations of certain ones.>
Will I need or have to incarnate after this? <No indeed. the choice will be yours and your soul's alone. you can remain here among us if you wish and many do. Some souls do love incarnating. Some one 1 world or others on various worlds as their interest takes them, or for other reasons. Some like your former soul enjoys doing this for specific missions for the group who does help other worlds. You'll have many options indeed open to you on this side. And you can even do more then 1 thing at once, being a mufti-dimensional being. As time progresses you'll begin to really understand what this means.
And as you were wondering earlier yes you have been what you term a solar engineer and planetary engineer, or something close to what you were imagining. There are some who do similar things to this. A noble among many noble professions, but that can be said about any of them. Though you were not, obviously, human. you've been many races. The Sirius races numbers among the earliest you've been, and among your favorites, since some are very similar to the soul family called the pod, as they call themselves and some of us do so. >
What are some options that'll be open to me once I'm over there? <remaining among us here and never incarnating is one. You can do something similar to what you are doing, but on the other side, if you wish to pursue that. others would be to teach others what humans are like, what you call dolphins and such, since you have been a human. That is perhaps a more future thing, preparing some to understand humans, as time progresses. many creative pursuits, music, art, beyond what you can imagine. Though you can imagine some of them. You could become a being who gets channeled. The possibilities, even taking into account what you'd like are endless. Though we do have an eternity so plenty of time.>
I've heard some say when the incarnation is over it's like waking from a dream and it won't be recalled to much. <similar to what does happen. You'll remember this live. An idea is look back over your live and how much do you really recall. Though as a soul you could dig the slightest bit and recall it all. or you could visit certain places to relive the whole life in a few seconds if you wish. Or do it yourself. You'll quickly become your true self. We'll all be here to help you to recover and recall your true self, us, your soul family, friends, and others.>
What about this is a hologram? <a bit over simplification, but in certain things true. Could be said about many things. The earth and that universe is a projection of energy, very dense and vibrationally created and some elements, lowered to where it currently is. Though things do progress over time and move to higher dimensions, to use English terms. The exact process is complicated and you have looked into it, or your former soul has, to understand the process.
A part of the soul injects itself into the projection, though the projection is real in and of itself, it is not fake, like a hologram one of your companies makes. Though one could say that a movie, is a reality of itself. That is another area.
These projections are done for a variety of reasons, often to give some souls places and time to explore, learn more of themselves, experience new things, and other reasons. The reality is in an of itself real. Though a different vibrational plane to where we are. Though we can adjust our resonance to bring ourselves closer to you like you can raise yours a bit to get closer to use so we can meet somewhere half way, though not exactly half way. the rough analogy does fit. When the incarnation ends the part of you there will be fully free and the blocks and veil, if you do even have a veil or any blocks, will instantly fall way. Though some things will still remain even if you do have all the veil gone, which is very probable in your case. We can say a certainty, but you can choose to change your mind. And at least some blocks will fall way, some have already started to, like the veil has. You would not be able to pop around at will, like we can,due to the characteristics of the realm where you currently inhabit. and the time remaining to you may seem long since you do have to experience time in a linear fashion, whereas we here on this side do not.>
I guess that is enough for now. <indeed, don't want to do do much, though this does seem much smoother and easier on your various energy systems and bodies, us working as a collective instead of individual. and other benefits as well as we have mentioned. continue up the good work and do schedule yourself some fun and time to relax. you don't need to work as long or as hard as you think you do. You'd be surprised how close you are. Bye for now.>
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7:01 PM
How do I access consciously my soul knowledge & memories and is there anything else I need to do in the time I have left to go farther along the path I'm on? A bit later on I asked about how I could be a better more clear channel and get stuff from the collective more clear and better. Not sure where I asked for this so I'll just leave all the messages in place as is. The audio I listened to was more about clearing and letting go of various things that prevent you from being a clear channel.
You have achieved much in the time of your live up till now. relax, you do not need to work as hard as you think you do. the courses you have picked out will help. Believe in yourself, that is part of the key that you need to d do. as well as perseverance, and continuing along the path you have chosen to be on.
things are clearer then you think. Believe in your self, continue, perseverance, these are the key.
Believe in yourself and perseverance. as well as relaxing.
Release as well, what is within you that is not clear and of your true self.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Sunday [4-19]
I did the 5th meditation for part 3. Running the energies went ok to very good.
As for the experience itself, I get a huge mix of stuff. To briefly summarize it, I saw the grid as graph paper, then 3 dimensional graph paper type of grids. then all around me in a sphere. a cube in front of me. very densely packed stars, or points of light. The inside of my apartment from another angle. Images of dolphins, anthro dolphins. 2 dolphins belly to belly, an anthro orca in a somewhat seductive pose. No idea what to make of all of it. I may have forgotten some images, but I think I got all of them. Though I listed them may be a bit out of order. I think I got the images listed mainly in order.
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Not a lot to report on doing the 6th meditation of part 3. If I do 2 more today that'll put me 2 days ahead of schedule. That is ok. During the very early part of the guided meditation soul appeared mentally to me, but this time as an anthro orca, saying he was in an orca mood today, we did a very short kiss then stopped before the meditation started.
Running the energies went well. The rest of the meditation was focused on the pieah and renawre, switching between the 2. Not sure of the point of it, watching the thoughts happen without trying to control or stop them. I got various images and things. Unlike with the piea, the fewest thoughts seemed to happen with the renawre, not the pieah which seems to be the way it should be. No biggie. That may be with earth humans that that is normal, but not being a native earth soul my light body energy system may be also non human or changed and different.
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Think I had a message from soul saying I'll shed the human skin once this incarnation is over. The humaness is just like the skin of a snake. Think soul says <yes.> I would like to do that. Be my true self in the human body.
Also looking ahead on the receiving a clear channel audio course it looks like the next one is talking, then releasing fears & doubts to receive clear guidance. and since the next light body guided meditation is changing your thoughts I'll target doubt and fear. Not sure if I have any fear, but maybe, below my level of consciousness. I think before I do those I may do a quick sub personality, without using the audio, meditation to deal with those 2, to see if together that helps bring about any changes in me. Though I may not notice the changes immediately.
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I was thinking. Souls may have 2 paths that end up at the same point. Some species of incarnates or souls go for more tech lines, and some more for innate powers of the soul. Some blend the 2. eventually even the tech folks, or at least many species, bring in abilities of the soul, using tech to do certain things, or enhance it, thinking they may need it or other things.
Also I was thinking, I don't recall any details, but I seem to know I have had incarnations in Sirius, Pleiades, Arcturus. maybe other places. Sirius may be the first one or maybe one where I had the most maybe. not sure about insect or reptilian races. maybe 1 incarnation, maybe in incarnations I had friends, co workers of these races. Maybe some of the soul family incarnated as these, but I didn't. Not sure on the exact details as of yet.
I can feel the appeal of incarnation souls feel for this. But also I feel at the soul level, or at least I believe it's at the soul level, that while inaugurating had an appeal to original soul, and I can feel that appeal and understand it. I don't really wish to incarnate. incarnating has some fun aspects to them, sure ,but it is a huge bother to do so to help others, and not right to incarnate just to have fun there, with side stuff. This me feels I'd rather remain on the other side, once this incarnation is over and help from the other side, since there are ways. I've incarnated a lot, let's move on, is how i feel. Let's focus on stuff we can do on the other side to learn and do to help others. There are more then enough opportunities on the other side to never need to incarnate again.
Some may say that incarnating helps one to evolve fast. But it is a question of what do you really want to do. Since no 1 way is better of faster then other. Those here on earth think earth is a great place to incarcerate since they are here. Also while there are certain characteristics about earth that may allow certain things, other places have other advantages, and remaining in the soul realms, also has certain advantages, so no place is better then any other.
I choose, if I have a choice at all, of never incarnating anymore, it's a big bother and I'd rather remain on the other side doing stuff and exploring some of the infinite possibilities there.
I do feel like while it had fun aspects. I'd rather put incarnating behind me, and move on to the next phase where I'm focused on doing stuff in the soul realms, having fun, doing stuff, learning, ect.
Yes, this me does feel that I want to move on, put incarnating behind me and focus on the opportunities on the other side in the soul realms to have fun, learn, do stuff, ect.
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I think soul has something to say on this, <Indeed we do have that choice if you should choose to pursue it. many opportunities indeed on this side to learn, have fun, do stuff. Plenty indeed and an eternity to explore all of them, the ones that interest you and us indeed. >
So I can choose to never incarnate again? <Indeed, and I feel tired with incarnating myself. it seems you also have no desire to do any of that either, so we are in agreement over and concerning this.>
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For example if I was say a Solar engineer, stabilizing stars so some inhabited planets would have a few more thousand years, or longer, before their sun died or went nova. I'd still be stuck in the incarnation, even if I was able to say project or somehow visit where the pod is, where my soul family lives, twin flame, or other beings on the other side. Even if multi dimensionally I could visit them, I'd still be stuck most of the time in the incarnation of the person who is a solar engineer for say a 500 year lifespan. And having to go through childhood, being born,or hatching from an egg, or whatever. A big bother, though it would be helping many beings.
Same if I was a planetary engineer. Terra forming worlds for others to live on, so live could start and evolve on the world, or others could be moved to, ect. same thing.
maybe I was a solar and planetary engineers in past or other incarnations who knows. I'd really rather not incarnate anymore. I can feel the appeal and attraction of incarnating, but I feel I'd rather just move on. Feels like I've done that and what interests me more is the stuff that lies on the other side.
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Had an interesting, and somewhat kinky, encounter with soul as I was laying down.
He was in an anthro orca form and I was also. We were hugging each other and kissing. I felt Some positive feelings, hard to describe. I also did what may seem odd but feels like the right thing to do at that time. I said to soul that as long as it for my greater good and you really are my soul that I surrender to you totally. Soul asked if I really meant it, and I said, while I pulled his head up so I was looking into his eyes, as long as both conditions are met. He then kissed me saying that both conditions are already met.
Then I felt some pleasurable sensations, maybe he was mingling energies with me or something. We did some quick mutual oral sex. Then what seemed odd to me soul switched position instantly and started to lick then suck on each of my nipples in turn, I found it odd, but sorta shrugged, saying I'm a male so why are you doing that, not like I have breasts much to speak of, being totally flat chested. Soul continued and I did feel some sort of warmth come through each into soul, in turn as he sucked on 1 then the other. He commented that they are just undeveloped.
Then he, or I should say shi, cupped one of hir breasts that shi didn't have before saying for me to suck on them. I did mention it being a bit kinky wasn't it. Shi said a fun type of kink and go ahead. I mentally shrugged and did so, feeling some sort of warmth enter my mouth. I assumed it was some form of light energy. Shi said to swallow as shi rubbed my back and I did, figuring why not. I did feel some warmth go down my throat into my stomach and soul wanted me to continue this with 1 breast then the other till shi said I had had enough. I did feel a bit full, not fully full but maybe mostly full. Shi said something like what passes for a sort of equivalent of a stomach in my energy bodies, isn't use to having much in it yet so can't hold much. I did feel a resonating, asking if it was high vibration light energy and shi said yes, the rate of resonance is higher then my own resonance of my various energy bodies including my light body, which is still in the process of awakening. I did ask about the device in me and wouldn't that put light energy into me and shi said it was a different mechanism and different purpose. What I had swallowed was pure high resonance light energy that would only sorta get digested, in a way, and circulate into my light and various other energy bodies. The device is designed to leak light at timed intervals into me, those who are around me and into the earth's energy grid.
I asked why have me suck on hir breasts, she said besides being fun, it was also symbolic. it appeared to a certain inner part of me. I guessed my inner child and shi said yes. Also shi said it was symbolic, <though I prefer to see us as equals and would prefer to do so, some souls see their incarnates as their children, so tectonically I could say you are a child of mine, but I prefer, as I said, to continue to see us both as perfect equals.> I mentioned I do prefer that also.
I asked if it was proper for me to surrender to him/hir, since didn't I give my power way to you. Shi said shi is me, and I said I'm you, so what does that mean? Shi said i had surrendered my power to myself, an important step & by surrendering to hir I had thereby reclaimed more of my original power.
Not sure if I fully understand it. I think I partially do.
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I did the 5th guided meditation about releasing doubts & fears to receive clear guidance. I was in an orca form swimming higher up into a very bright light and ended up in a place of extremely bright light. Light that I could see and feel. It did feel wonderful. The collective helped to raise me up to this level, wherever it is, and their energy entered into me. As their energy entered into me it felt like I was growing larger. And during this i could feel them and I guess my soul, i did ask that he be included in this too, were doing energy work on me. I could feel a lot of it was mainly in my head and abdominal areas and they did shine light, love, & joy on certain thoughts as they came up, dissolving or transmuting them to a higher reflection, as well as continuing whatever energy work they were doing. They paused at times. I guess to maybe let me, or my energy systems relax, recover, cool down, or whatever the term is.
At one point I did feel like I was raising higher in whatever the bright light place was. The light, as I mentioned before, was all around me and shining through me as well. The collective's light was a bright and was shining from inside me outward as well, at the same time, during most of this. From a bit after I arrived through the ending.
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I did the 7th meditation of part 3. Changing your thoughts. Think I'll refrain from doing 8 tonight. I'll end up with a day with just 12 alone to do, but I'll do that meditation 2 or maybe 3 times that day. Maybe twice with adding in changing my thoughts as well, and any sub personality that I feel the need for. Overall it went very well. I feel better,
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As for the experience itself, I get a huge mix of stuff. To briefly summarize it, I saw the grid as graph paper, then 3 dimensional graph paper type of grids. then all around me in a sphere. a cube in front of me. very densely packed stars, or points of light. The inside of my apartment from another angle. Images of dolphins, anthro dolphins. 2 dolphins belly to belly, an anthro orca in a somewhat seductive pose. No idea what to make of all of it. I may have forgotten some images, but I think I got all of them. Though I listed them may be a bit out of order. I think I got the images listed mainly in order.
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Not a lot to report on doing the 6th meditation of part 3. If I do 2 more today that'll put me 2 days ahead of schedule. That is ok. During the very early part of the guided meditation soul appeared mentally to me, but this time as an anthro orca, saying he was in an orca mood today, we did a very short kiss then stopped before the meditation started.
Running the energies went well. The rest of the meditation was focused on the pieah and renawre, switching between the 2. Not sure of the point of it, watching the thoughts happen without trying to control or stop them. I got various images and things. Unlike with the piea, the fewest thoughts seemed to happen with the renawre, not the pieah which seems to be the way it should be. No biggie. That may be with earth humans that that is normal, but not being a native earth soul my light body energy system may be also non human or changed and different.
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Think I had a message from soul saying I'll shed the human skin once this incarnation is over. The humaness is just like the skin of a snake. Think soul says <yes.> I would like to do that. Be my true self in the human body.
Also looking ahead on the receiving a clear channel audio course it looks like the next one is talking, then releasing fears & doubts to receive clear guidance. and since the next light body guided meditation is changing your thoughts I'll target doubt and fear. Not sure if I have any fear, but maybe, below my level of consciousness. I think before I do those I may do a quick sub personality, without using the audio, meditation to deal with those 2, to see if together that helps bring about any changes in me. Though I may not notice the changes immediately.
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I was thinking. Souls may have 2 paths that end up at the same point. Some species of incarnates or souls go for more tech lines, and some more for innate powers of the soul. Some blend the 2. eventually even the tech folks, or at least many species, bring in abilities of the soul, using tech to do certain things, or enhance it, thinking they may need it or other things.
Also I was thinking, I don't recall any details, but I seem to know I have had incarnations in Sirius, Pleiades, Arcturus. maybe other places. Sirius may be the first one or maybe one where I had the most maybe. not sure about insect or reptilian races. maybe 1 incarnation, maybe in incarnations I had friends, co workers of these races. Maybe some of the soul family incarnated as these, but I didn't. Not sure on the exact details as of yet.
I can feel the appeal of incarnation souls feel for this. But also I feel at the soul level, or at least I believe it's at the soul level, that while inaugurating had an appeal to original soul, and I can feel that appeal and understand it. I don't really wish to incarnate. incarnating has some fun aspects to them, sure ,but it is a huge bother to do so to help others, and not right to incarnate just to have fun there, with side stuff. This me feels I'd rather remain on the other side, once this incarnation is over and help from the other side, since there are ways. I've incarnated a lot, let's move on, is how i feel. Let's focus on stuff we can do on the other side to learn and do to help others. There are more then enough opportunities on the other side to never need to incarnate again.
Some may say that incarnating helps one to evolve fast. But it is a question of what do you really want to do. Since no 1 way is better of faster then other. Those here on earth think earth is a great place to incarcerate since they are here. Also while there are certain characteristics about earth that may allow certain things, other places have other advantages, and remaining in the soul realms, also has certain advantages, so no place is better then any other.
I choose, if I have a choice at all, of never incarnating anymore, it's a big bother and I'd rather remain on the other side doing stuff and exploring some of the infinite possibilities there.
I do feel like while it had fun aspects. I'd rather put incarnating behind me, and move on to the next phase where I'm focused on doing stuff in the soul realms, having fun, doing stuff, learning, ect.
Yes, this me does feel that I want to move on, put incarnating behind me and focus on the opportunities on the other side in the soul realms to have fun, learn, do stuff, ect.
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I think soul has something to say on this, <Indeed we do have that choice if you should choose to pursue it. many opportunities indeed on this side to learn, have fun, do stuff. Plenty indeed and an eternity to explore all of them, the ones that interest you and us indeed. >
So I can choose to never incarnate again? <Indeed, and I feel tired with incarnating myself. it seems you also have no desire to do any of that either, so we are in agreement over and concerning this.>
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For example if I was say a Solar engineer, stabilizing stars so some inhabited planets would have a few more thousand years, or longer, before their sun died or went nova. I'd still be stuck in the incarnation, even if I was able to say project or somehow visit where the pod is, where my soul family lives, twin flame, or other beings on the other side. Even if multi dimensionally I could visit them, I'd still be stuck most of the time in the incarnation of the person who is a solar engineer for say a 500 year lifespan. And having to go through childhood, being born,or hatching from an egg, or whatever. A big bother, though it would be helping many beings.
Same if I was a planetary engineer. Terra forming worlds for others to live on, so live could start and evolve on the world, or others could be moved to, ect. same thing.
maybe I was a solar and planetary engineers in past or other incarnations who knows. I'd really rather not incarnate anymore. I can feel the appeal and attraction of incarnating, but I feel I'd rather just move on. Feels like I've done that and what interests me more is the stuff that lies on the other side.
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Had an interesting, and somewhat kinky, encounter with soul as I was laying down.
He was in an anthro orca form and I was also. We were hugging each other and kissing. I felt Some positive feelings, hard to describe. I also did what may seem odd but feels like the right thing to do at that time. I said to soul that as long as it for my greater good and you really are my soul that I surrender to you totally. Soul asked if I really meant it, and I said, while I pulled his head up so I was looking into his eyes, as long as both conditions are met. He then kissed me saying that both conditions are already met.
Then I felt some pleasurable sensations, maybe he was mingling energies with me or something. We did some quick mutual oral sex. Then what seemed odd to me soul switched position instantly and started to lick then suck on each of my nipples in turn, I found it odd, but sorta shrugged, saying I'm a male so why are you doing that, not like I have breasts much to speak of, being totally flat chested. Soul continued and I did feel some sort of warmth come through each into soul, in turn as he sucked on 1 then the other. He commented that they are just undeveloped.
Then he, or I should say shi, cupped one of hir breasts that shi didn't have before saying for me to suck on them. I did mention it being a bit kinky wasn't it. Shi said a fun type of kink and go ahead. I mentally shrugged and did so, feeling some sort of warmth enter my mouth. I assumed it was some form of light energy. Shi said to swallow as shi rubbed my back and I did, figuring why not. I did feel some warmth go down my throat into my stomach and soul wanted me to continue this with 1 breast then the other till shi said I had had enough. I did feel a bit full, not fully full but maybe mostly full. Shi said something like what passes for a sort of equivalent of a stomach in my energy bodies, isn't use to having much in it yet so can't hold much. I did feel a resonating, asking if it was high vibration light energy and shi said yes, the rate of resonance is higher then my own resonance of my various energy bodies including my light body, which is still in the process of awakening. I did ask about the device in me and wouldn't that put light energy into me and shi said it was a different mechanism and different purpose. What I had swallowed was pure high resonance light energy that would only sorta get digested, in a way, and circulate into my light and various other energy bodies. The device is designed to leak light at timed intervals into me, those who are around me and into the earth's energy grid.
I asked why have me suck on hir breasts, she said besides being fun, it was also symbolic. it appeared to a certain inner part of me. I guessed my inner child and shi said yes. Also shi said it was symbolic, <though I prefer to see us as equals and would prefer to do so, some souls see their incarnates as their children, so tectonically I could say you are a child of mine, but I prefer, as I said, to continue to see us both as perfect equals.> I mentioned I do prefer that also.
I asked if it was proper for me to surrender to him/hir, since didn't I give my power way to you. Shi said shi is me, and I said I'm you, so what does that mean? Shi said i had surrendered my power to myself, an important step & by surrendering to hir I had thereby reclaimed more of my original power.
Not sure if I fully understand it. I think I partially do.
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I did the 5th guided meditation about releasing doubts & fears to receive clear guidance. I was in an orca form swimming higher up into a very bright light and ended up in a place of extremely bright light. Light that I could see and feel. It did feel wonderful. The collective helped to raise me up to this level, wherever it is, and their energy entered into me. As their energy entered into me it felt like I was growing larger. And during this i could feel them and I guess my soul, i did ask that he be included in this too, were doing energy work on me. I could feel a lot of it was mainly in my head and abdominal areas and they did shine light, love, & joy on certain thoughts as they came up, dissolving or transmuting them to a higher reflection, as well as continuing whatever energy work they were doing. They paused at times. I guess to maybe let me, or my energy systems relax, recover, cool down, or whatever the term is.
At one point I did feel like I was raising higher in whatever the bright light place was. The light, as I mentioned before, was all around me and shining through me as well. The collective's light was a bright and was shining from inside me outward as well, at the same time, during most of this. From a bit after I arrived through the ending.
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I did the 7th meditation of part 3. Changing your thoughts. Think I'll refrain from doing 8 tonight. I'll end up with a day with just 12 alone to do, but I'll do that meditation 2 or maybe 3 times that day. Maybe twice with adding in changing my thoughts as well, and any sub personality that I feel the need for. Overall it went very well. I feel better,
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Saturday, April 18, 2015
Saturday [4-18]
Not sure where to put this but I guess here since I was just talking to soul and not trying to channel him.
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I awoke and asked soul what our relationship was. Soul said to imagine a dumbbell with one side larger then the other and when I merge with him the handle and other weight merge together and becomes larger and more complete. he said this wasn't exactly correct. Partially since we are multi dimensional and are 1 being experiencing itself as 2 beings. Though there is little separation since I am aware of him and we do talk.
We are the same being, multi-dimensional beings? <1 multi-dimensional being to be exact.>
So why the excitement that we'll merge? <we'll be fully 1 being, all our energy in 1 being. It is easier to make transitions like that, but not necessary and many do that once the incarnation is over. Though not everyone. It's hard to explain exactly why it is great and special. >
I ask humorously. So if we , you know, have fun or share, would that count as masturbation? <not technically. Though I've not considered it before. Though 1 soul we are 2 identities, personalities.>
But we are 1 being, a multidimensional being, so technically it could mean that it is. <it could. But I'd prefer to think of it as sharing when we do share.>
So you admit we will in the future, <sure, just not immediately since you're a bit busy at the moment.>
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Thinking instead of just 2 I may do part 3 2n pass 3 meditations a day for some days. Using the extra days to do some more channeling guided meditations or other guided meditations from part 2 or 3 for a 4th time. I'll decide later.
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any last minute tips before I do the 1st mediation of 3 again. <Don't be in such a hurry to do as much as you can in one day. You are we are more advanced then you know or suspect and you don't need to work a lot every day to get a lot of progress . try to relax, have more fun an do less of any 1 thing in one day. We'll do just fine if you stick to doing this twice a day and some channeling guided medition most days when you have time.>
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I did the 1st meditation of part 3 again. This will mark the beginning of the 2nd pass.
Running the energies went average. So decent overall. This one was about the 5th light body energy center. It went pretty well. During part of it I saw what looked like a stone temple or some other stone structure and the opening, in the usual non color color. It seemed something wanted me to enter. I said mentally "I am not entering since I don't see the point in entering." this was going on while daben was doing the Traeo verbalization. Some force then pushed or pulled me, not sure with, or maybe it was both, into the entrance. I saw a square tunnel that was properly shored up, or were structural supports to support the weights, but they were rectangular shape and not arches. I could see the tunnel went on, going slightly down, and there was a side tunnel I could see. It did feel like I was heading pretty far underground, being pushed or pulled. I was unemotional, just like I said, earlier, I didn't see the point in this so didn't cooperate, nor did i fight it. it ended as the environment seemed to fade out and i was fully back in my body instead of being in 2 places at once, both in my body and whatever that place was. No idea why that happened.
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he blog thing is way to confusing, so for now I won't post there, only here. Like I've not been posting there at all since last night.
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I did the 2nd meditation of part 3 as part of the 2nd pass and running the energies went well overall. The pieah I still didn't experience as a void. I was very relaxed in mind and body and the thoughts that did come where slower forming and mainly visual in nature. Don't recall the visual images I got. but I do recall I was very very relaxed mentally and in body also.
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I did the 3rd mediation of part 3 for the 2nd pass. This puts me slightly ahead of schedule.
Running the energies went overall ok. I did feel the renawre cocoon during this. Like it is fully formed. I also got some other images. No idea why. a female anthro dolphin type being sad about something also doing the light body center vocalizations. then vehicles with lots of large windows but no drivers. vaguely similar to some earth vehicles, but different.
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I awoke and asked soul what our relationship was. Soul said to imagine a dumbbell with one side larger then the other and when I merge with him the handle and other weight merge together and becomes larger and more complete. he said this wasn't exactly correct. Partially since we are multi dimensional and are 1 being experiencing itself as 2 beings. Though there is little separation since I am aware of him and we do talk.
We are the same being, multi-dimensional beings? <1 multi-dimensional being to be exact.>
So why the excitement that we'll merge? <we'll be fully 1 being, all our energy in 1 being. It is easier to make transitions like that, but not necessary and many do that once the incarnation is over. Though not everyone. It's hard to explain exactly why it is great and special. >
I ask humorously. So if we , you know, have fun or share, would that count as masturbation? <not technically. Though I've not considered it before. Though 1 soul we are 2 identities, personalities.>
But we are 1 being, a multidimensional being, so technically it could mean that it is. <it could. But I'd prefer to think of it as sharing when we do share.>
So you admit we will in the future, <sure, just not immediately since you're a bit busy at the moment.>
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Thinking instead of just 2 I may do part 3 2n pass 3 meditations a day for some days. Using the extra days to do some more channeling guided meditations or other guided meditations from part 2 or 3 for a 4th time. I'll decide later.
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any last minute tips before I do the 1st mediation of 3 again. <Don't be in such a hurry to do as much as you can in one day. You are we are more advanced then you know or suspect and you don't need to work a lot every day to get a lot of progress . try to relax, have more fun an do less of any 1 thing in one day. We'll do just fine if you stick to doing this twice a day and some channeling guided medition most days when you have time.>
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I did the 1st meditation of part 3 again. This will mark the beginning of the 2nd pass.
Running the energies went average. So decent overall. This one was about the 5th light body energy center. It went pretty well. During part of it I saw what looked like a stone temple or some other stone structure and the opening, in the usual non color color. It seemed something wanted me to enter. I said mentally "I am not entering since I don't see the point in entering." this was going on while daben was doing the Traeo verbalization. Some force then pushed or pulled me, not sure with, or maybe it was both, into the entrance. I saw a square tunnel that was properly shored up, or were structural supports to support the weights, but they were rectangular shape and not arches. I could see the tunnel went on, going slightly down, and there was a side tunnel I could see. It did feel like I was heading pretty far underground, being pushed or pulled. I was unemotional, just like I said, earlier, I didn't see the point in this so didn't cooperate, nor did i fight it. it ended as the environment seemed to fade out and i was fully back in my body instead of being in 2 places at once, both in my body and whatever that place was. No idea why that happened.
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he blog thing is way to confusing, so for now I won't post there, only here. Like I've not been posting there at all since last night.
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I did the 2nd meditation of part 3 as part of the 2nd pass and running the energies went well overall. The pieah I still didn't experience as a void. I was very relaxed in mind and body and the thoughts that did come where slower forming and mainly visual in nature. Don't recall the visual images I got. but I do recall I was very very relaxed mentally and in body also.
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I did the 3rd mediation of part 3 for the 2nd pass. This puts me slightly ahead of schedule.
Running the energies went overall ok. I did feel the renawre cocoon during this. Like it is fully formed. I also got some other images. No idea why. a female anthro dolphin type being sad about something also doing the light body center vocalizations. then vehicles with lots of large windows but no drivers. vaguely similar to some earth vehicles, but different.
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I did the 4th meditation for part 3.
This puts me a full day ahead of schedule for doing the 2nd pass. Not
much to say. Running the energies went ok. I could feel the renawre
cocoon the entire time Daben was doing the renawre vocalizations. No
real images this time. Was relaxing and peaceful.
Think I'll take a short break & do the receiving clear guidance audio next.
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I did the Receiving Clear Guidance 3rd audio. it was about strengthening my ability to receive guidance. I felt very relaxed, but didn't really feel much, if any energy work, unless it was being done very subtly below my level of sensitivity to feel it, maybe fully subconscious work or something. I can see that being to subtle for me to feel.
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Oddly had Soul ask me if I love myself. Seems we were both in anthro dolphin forms again. I said, "yes."
<are you sure?>
I kissed him as passionately as I could as i said to him, "you tell me." he said. <not this me, I mean you you> I gain said, "you tell me." as I continued kissing him.
He continued the kiss, after a pause he said, <I see you have accepted and do love yourself, that is very good.> he said breaking the kiss and s
"Why is that?" <Few people do that, accept themselves, let alone love themselves.>
"nah, everyone accepts themselves. even fewer love themselves. I mean themselves, not their soul selves. Fewer still can talk to their souls.>
<Nah, everyone accepts and loves themselves and talks to their souls like we do>
<no, really they don't. I'm not kidding, really they don't. Especially not as easily as we can.>
We then kissed for a bit.
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after a bit I was leaning back in my chair relaxing with my eyes closed while listening to a song playing on a artstream and for a few seconds I had the image of the 2 of us, me and soul, as anthro dolphins, one behind the other with the one in back had their arms around the one in front and the one in front resting their hands on top of the one on back's hands and we were swaying slowly side to side. For the few seconds that it lasted I could not tell if I was the one in back or front, or if we were merged and had 2 bodies we were using. the experience was broken when someone in the chat of the live art stream started talking. No idea what to make of it.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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Think I'll take a short break & do the receiving clear guidance audio next.
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I did the Receiving Clear Guidance 3rd audio. it was about strengthening my ability to receive guidance. I felt very relaxed, but didn't really feel much, if any energy work, unless it was being done very subtly below my level of sensitivity to feel it, maybe fully subconscious work or something. I can see that being to subtle for me to feel.
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Oddly had Soul ask me if I love myself. Seems we were both in anthro dolphin forms again. I said, "yes."
<are you sure?>
I kissed him as passionately as I could as i said to him, "you tell me." he said. <not this me, I mean you you> I gain said, "you tell me." as I continued kissing him.
He continued the kiss, after a pause he said, <I see you have accepted and do love yourself, that is very good.> he said breaking the kiss and s
"Why is that?" <Few people do that, accept themselves, let alone love themselves.>
"nah, everyone accepts themselves. even fewer love themselves. I mean themselves, not their soul selves. Fewer still can talk to their souls.>
<Nah, everyone accepts and loves themselves and talks to their souls like we do>
<no, really they don't. I'm not kidding, really they don't. Especially not as easily as we can.>
We then kissed for a bit.
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after a bit I was leaning back in my chair relaxing with my eyes closed while listening to a song playing on a artstream and for a few seconds I had the image of the 2 of us, me and soul, as anthro dolphins, one behind the other with the one in back had their arms around the one in front and the one in front resting their hands on top of the one on back's hands and we were swaying slowly side to side. For the few seconds that it lasted I could not tell if I was the one in back or front, or if we were merged and had 2 bodies we were using. the experience was broken when someone in the chat of the live art stream started talking. No idea what to make of it.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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Are you sure we'll be able to join the
monad collective before this incarnation ends? <indeed, very likely
if you stick to the plan and your interests. We are higher and more
developed then you think or suspect>
really, are we really all that high or developed at the soul level? I don't feel to developed or high. <that is since you have only us to compare to and some other non incarnates you've talked to. Not a good guide overall. compared to most on earth we are fairly high indeed. not far from being able t fully join the monad as they call themselves and some others do>
could they be classified as a monad, whatever that is?? <as with many things on earth there are no exact labels for what certain things are. Especially non things science has accepted. in this case their label is accurate. it somewhat of a big deal among some souls to join them. it's like you've gone up a large step in your goal to ascend upwards as you learn and grow. That is why I'm so excited about being so close. We are very close. That is part of why they first contacted you since we are so close. they want to help us to the rest of the way, some subtle help, but we'll need to do most of the work still. not hard. it can be fun. and large amounts of it, all perhaps that you need to do, are in certain light body courses. use your inner guidance intuition interest guide you to which ones to take, which i think you've pretty settled on. Some good choices you've made.>
any tips? <Continue as you are doing, with the courses and working on yourself, but less emphases on working on yourself since you can work on yourself forever, literally. no need for that. The occasional fine tuning now and then is fine. No need for that to be the main focus or a big thing. The courses can teach you a lot and let you discover a lot about us. >
So are we really masters like orin and daben keep saying in their courses? here I felt a bit of a reluctance to fully answer, <well technically after a fashion yes, we could be labeled like that. Some indeed would consider us that. I don't like the term or label myself since there are far more here and many things indeed for us to learn. We'll spend an eternity learning, growing, having fun of various ways and methods. You'll grow and learn a lot over the next year. You'll be surprised at how much you've changed on your birthday, then on January 1st of next year. Surprised indeed.>
Why are you always, when you do look like you have a body or feel like you do, look like an anthro cetacean, often a dolphin or young beluga whale? <one of many forms forms many of the pod has and often adopt. it is a comfortable form and one we've had in many, or some, incarnations of the past. >
talk to you next time. channeling seems far to easy. <it is for you since we've developed the skill across more then one lifetime, as some of them you've glimpses. Even worked with orin once, though he used a different name then. But this is indeed enough for now. I look forward to our next talk, channel. let's let it be more like a conversation then a channel.
why the excitement when i said ok to us merging? <we're already 1 experiencing ourselves as 2. our twin soul being a special case. we'll grow even more once we merge. You'll thoroughly enjoy it, and from your point of view you'll become more of yourself. from my point of view I'll be becoming complete, fully whole. even if you are fully awake and as aware as I am, it is still a great experience and one learns a lot. though as i mentioned we don't need to be merge forever. I like the idea of a we, at times instead of just me. many souls feel the same.> thanks bye for now, <till next we talk, whether you post it or not.>
really, are we really all that high or developed at the soul level? I don't feel to developed or high. <that is since you have only us to compare to and some other non incarnates you've talked to. Not a good guide overall. compared to most on earth we are fairly high indeed. not far from being able t fully join the monad as they call themselves and some others do>
could they be classified as a monad, whatever that is?? <as with many things on earth there are no exact labels for what certain things are. Especially non things science has accepted. in this case their label is accurate. it somewhat of a big deal among some souls to join them. it's like you've gone up a large step in your goal to ascend upwards as you learn and grow. That is why I'm so excited about being so close. We are very close. That is part of why they first contacted you since we are so close. they want to help us to the rest of the way, some subtle help, but we'll need to do most of the work still. not hard. it can be fun. and large amounts of it, all perhaps that you need to do, are in certain light body courses. use your inner guidance intuition interest guide you to which ones to take, which i think you've pretty settled on. Some good choices you've made.>
any tips? <Continue as you are doing, with the courses and working on yourself, but less emphases on working on yourself since you can work on yourself forever, literally. no need for that. The occasional fine tuning now and then is fine. No need for that to be the main focus or a big thing. The courses can teach you a lot and let you discover a lot about us. >
So are we really masters like orin and daben keep saying in their courses? here I felt a bit of a reluctance to fully answer, <well technically after a fashion yes, we could be labeled like that. Some indeed would consider us that. I don't like the term or label myself since there are far more here and many things indeed for us to learn. We'll spend an eternity learning, growing, having fun of various ways and methods. You'll grow and learn a lot over the next year. You'll be surprised at how much you've changed on your birthday, then on January 1st of next year. Surprised indeed.>
Why are you always, when you do look like you have a body or feel like you do, look like an anthro cetacean, often a dolphin or young beluga whale? <one of many forms forms many of the pod has and often adopt. it is a comfortable form and one we've had in many, or some, incarnations of the past. >
talk to you next time. channeling seems far to easy. <it is for you since we've developed the skill across more then one lifetime, as some of them you've glimpses. Even worked with orin once, though he used a different name then. But this is indeed enough for now. I look forward to our next talk, channel. let's let it be more like a conversation then a channel.
why the excitement when i said ok to us merging? <we're already 1 experiencing ourselves as 2. our twin soul being a special case. we'll grow even more once we merge. You'll thoroughly enjoy it, and from your point of view you'll become more of yourself. from my point of view I'll be becoming complete, fully whole. even if you are fully awake and as aware as I am, it is still a great experience and one learns a lot. though as i mentioned we don't need to be merge forever. I like the idea of a we, at times instead of just me. many souls feel the same.> thanks bye for now, <till next we talk, whether you post it or not.>
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anything you wish to tell me? This may be a short one. I'll
experiment in leaving my text black and change theirs to a dark blue.
them being my soul or the collective monad group.
<That is fine, short is ok. when you're less distracted and can fully focus on this we are thinking we may try lifting a part of you up to where we are. perhaps not all the way at first, somewhere in-between to start with and a part of you, so to speak since you are a multi dimensional being. you've experienced a taste of that, and the fact you and your soul are 1, but experiencing themselves as 2. Which can lead to some rather pleasureful fun, which we guarantee you'll experience. Also it could be said to be the ultimate multi tasking.
You'll be dong the typing since you know ho to type, though it is a kinetic memory, you being a touch typist. you do no need as much work on yourself as you think. at this present stage it's really just fine tuning so focus on what fine tuning you feel you need to do or wish to do. Though one can be fine tuning forever, so no need to focus on the fine tuning only. >
any particular side effects or sensations I may feel form this channeling technique you may try? <you may feel some energy, light, like your body is very heavy, pleasure (from the energy flowing into you from a higher state then you are normally use to. the longer term effect may be more subtle. your lower vibration energy emotions less low.>
can you help in transmuting them to higher reflections of themselves? <indeed, if you do some work in this area. both of us, you and us(the collective and your soul) together can do this, any 1 of us can't get much benefit alone. Be careful what you decide to work on since some of the emotions and thoughts you have may be either past habits of thinking patterns that need light fine tuning, or it may be normal personality for you. Since even if we were to say super evolve you, not possible really, where you are your systems are to delicate for that, you'd still find you have pretty much the same personality once you are fully here among us. So use discretion when you do that. No harm done if you try to work with and transmute a thought to a higher vibration reflection if it's not needed, and it may have some side benefits. >
<That is fine, short is ok. when you're less distracted and can fully focus on this we are thinking we may try lifting a part of you up to where we are. perhaps not all the way at first, somewhere in-between to start with and a part of you, so to speak since you are a multi dimensional being. you've experienced a taste of that, and the fact you and your soul are 1, but experiencing themselves as 2. Which can lead to some rather pleasureful fun, which we guarantee you'll experience. Also it could be said to be the ultimate multi tasking.
You'll be dong the typing since you know ho to type, though it is a kinetic memory, you being a touch typist. you do no need as much work on yourself as you think. at this present stage it's really just fine tuning so focus on what fine tuning you feel you need to do or wish to do. Though one can be fine tuning forever, so no need to focus on the fine tuning only. >
any particular side effects or sensations I may feel form this channeling technique you may try? <you may feel some energy, light, like your body is very heavy, pleasure (from the energy flowing into you from a higher state then you are normally use to. the longer term effect may be more subtle. your lower vibration energy emotions less low.>
can you help in transmuting them to higher reflections of themselves? <indeed, if you do some work in this area. both of us, you and us(the collective and your soul) together can do this, any 1 of us can't get much benefit alone. Be careful what you decide to work on since some of the emotions and thoughts you have may be either past habits of thinking patterns that need light fine tuning, or it may be normal personality for you. Since even if we were to say super evolve you, not possible really, where you are your systems are to delicate for that, you'd still find you have pretty much the same personality once you are fully here among us. So use discretion when you do that. No harm done if you try to work with and transmute a thought to a higher vibration reflection if it's not needed, and it may have some side benefits. >
Friday, April 17, 2015
Friday [4-17]
Last night I felt a burst of love and a few seconds after that soul saying <I'm so proud of your progress.> Nice. i wonder what progress.
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A bit after I awoke I felt what I had felt before, a sort of fever, weakness, ect. Though less so, and it passed before to long. I wonder if it was an energy adjustment thing like I've been told it was before, and if so what sort of energy adjustment?
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I do wonder, as much fun as as the Thursday rpg group is, why I need to recover from that. The rest of Thursday night I feel some effects, and part of Friday as well. It can't be just that I mess my first nap time since I was with a group that met Saturday evenings and I needed a good part of Sunday to recover.
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Also, just curious, why this body prefers to get it's sleep across 2 or 3 sessions instead of 1. Instead of sleeping for say 8, or a bit less hours, it's instead around 6 roughly, then 1 or 2 naps. I say 1 or 2 since the 2nd one often i don't go to sleep but instead may slip into a medium or deep meditative state. not sure if it is something genetic, I have sleep problems or some sort, no biggie overall.
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Today I'll be finished with part 3 of awaken the light body body. Starting Saturday I'll go back through the 12 meditations twice a day, though I'm tempted to maybe do 3 a day for a few, like the weekend. Then I'll pick out my 24, or so, favorite meditations from the 3 awaken courses and I may add in some from the opening to channel and receiving clear guidance. Though I may do those meditations from those 2 courses separate at 1 a day, picking out my favorites. Maybe my 12 or 16 favorites and do those a 2nd time, or maybe twice more. Plenty of time to decide that.
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I see, so I sleep a more natural normal way, ok, thanks.
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I wonder if I can make a sub section onmy blog for just the channeling stuff. Maybe do separate sub sections for year and month for past posts. And it is very bare-bones. No idea how to have it look better, though I'm use to the way it looks, and though very bare-bones it is easy to find stuff.
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I did the 12th and last mediation for part 3 of awakening the light body. It was about rewriting your conception, being in the womb, birth, childhood and teenage years. I made it all up since she did suggest you could I saw my parents as anthro dolphins, then decided to go with it, with a, why not. And she was silent at times, so one time after she said something about being your higher self, soul said I don't have a higher self. It said something about I'm at the development point where I don't need one since I can talk directly to it. And when she kept saying about you are a master, through the guided meditation at times, I'd put in the other bit of, no, ascended master, since i as thinking, if I'm visualizing myself as a master, with fully aware and awake parents, friends around, guides, ect, why not go a bit farther and say ascended master. Though being an anthro dolphin with anthro dolphin parents, it doesn't really fit into earth. not sure if it'll take time to assimilate, having no veils or block. maybe something I may need to do several time. next time I'll attempt to do it with fully human parents. the 3rd time maybe a human and phin parent.
I think the goal and point is to rewrite your parents, in the womb, birth, child, teenage, and adulthood life up to your current age, so you have always been the fully aware, conscious, radiant master, or ascended master.
I'm going to go with the belief this really happened. Either in a past, parallel life, alternate dimension. Silly maybe, but let's see where it takes me.
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I think with the 2 channeling courses I am doing I'll re do them twice more once i finish this one. My hope & intent is by working on making the connection with the collective monad stronger, and as crystal clear as I can get, that it'll as a side effect do the same for soul and me. Plus I'll channel soul on a semi regular bases here and there. And if I have extra time, I'll do some of the mediation a 2nd time with soul. The 3rd time I do the guided meditations from both courses I'll be doing it with soul only. though I do hope that soul and I do become perfect twins, at the conscious level so then the next step is maybe get that with the monad or I'll become a full conscious member of the monad collective group thing. Nice that they are all individuals and are not stuck just being there all the time but can go elsewhere.
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I do wonder how much of an incarnation does a soul remember. Is it like the way the average adult, say may age, remembers say the 4th grade they had at elementary school, which is not a lot of memories, or do they immediately remember everything instantly. Or is it they can remember everything perfectly, but they have to dig a bit?
I can remember when I've gotten past life stuff it's only flashes since it's not really important for me to recall all of this life on this world, or even to know what species it was. Though i do wonder if souls remember past lives like that or if it's different. no biggie, just curious.
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I'm about to do the 12th meditation for the 2nd time today , which will finish the first pass, as I call it , of part 3 of awakening the light body. I'll try keeping it to only humans. Though I'll have to heavily fictionalize my childhood since I wasn't raised by my parents. let's see how it goes. The first time I did it the 34 minutes seemed like 4 minutes at most.
I just finished doing the mediation and it went very well, running the energy and everything else. I did fictionalize most of my life, but that is ok. i did merge that me from the guided meditation and the earlier me also, replacing their memories with mine. though the guided mediation said to do that with this me from this guided meditation. being born a master who is radiant & remained so, no veil in place. Though I'd shorten that to a radiant master. Though soul did say, several times, during the meditation when orin/sanaya mentioned my higher self that I don't have one. Since I don't need one. I can talk directly to soul and other reasons too.
The details are unimportant but i do know, I have had past, or is it parallel, lives on other places like Sirius, Pleiades, Arcturus, and other worlds and places. been more not incarnated then incarnated. and unlike former soul, don't really feel the pull to do so. it does have it's nice and good points, unique to each place, but I'd rather remain non incarnated. Since my taste has changed I feel.
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Had an interesting experience with soul. I lay down to mediate and felt some energy something. think soul was doing some sort of energy work, on the edges so to speak.
I don't recall the full conversation we had. I did hug him and he said enough time for fun later, fun meaning soul type sex, sharing. he was in an anthro dolphin type form and I was as well, as best as I could tell. or sometimes human and sometimes anthro dolphin.
I did ask about Mirabelle and he said she is busy, hours to her are like days to you.
I asked about twin flame and he said she is busy too. He said as I am busy in certain ways she is doing similar work. I asked if she is my or your twin flame. he said both. i asked why he appears to me as a male and he said since I'm a male. i asked if you appear to twin as you do to me and he said yes. i asked if you are a female to her as a male to me, and he gave me a knowing smile and said, sometimes.
I asked if what he's doing with energy is something to bring us closer or something. he said its something like that. Then I got an idea and said to him, if you are really my soul, I give you permission to enter into me and do what you want and need to do. he seemed happy about that. Not sure why I got the idea. he did enter into me. Felt like my energy, but he felt very warm. Then the energy stuff he was doing became much more powerful. Extremely pleasurable. he said something like <there, isn't this better then sex.> in a humorous fashion. This energy work, whatever he was doing, was very pleasurable indeed and I did feel an intense love inside myself. Telling him how I felt that I did love him completely with all my being, and what did that mean since I am you and you are me. he said it means that you love yourself that much, which is a very good thing.
The energy stuff went on for a bit then slowly died down. I then asked curiously if I could do a sort of trance channel while channeling him and he said technically we can, but that is not our path and he'd rather merge with me. I said ok. he asked <do you really mean it.> and I could feel he was very very excited about it. No idea why he was. I caressed his cheek and rostrum in as seductive a manner as I could saying "as long as you promise I can experience being an individual now and then." he said <its a deal.> I asked if it's done. He said yes, just like that. I did say by my getting to experience being an individual now and then I mean as a soul like him, not only while I was incarnated. not that I was worried, Just wanted to be sure that was clear. he said he knows what my intent was, he said it in an humorous tone, adding, after all I am telepathic.
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I did the 2nd guided meditation for receiving a clear channel. I asked that my soul be involved as well. This one was about removing any blockages, doubts, fears, ect that would prevent you from being able to channel your guide. I added in collective and guides since the group who's a collective apparently my current highest level master guides I can channel and we're family at the soul level, family and extremely very close friends.
The place they pulled me up into was very bright and some of them looked like small suns, as bright as looking into earth's sun. Some of them were vaguely humanoid but the vast majority were the small suns. First soul stepped into where I was so both of us were in the same place at the same time then some of those collective members that looked like suns entered into me and some into soul. I did say to them that I give my soul and them, as long as they are the highest level master guides I can attract and are of the light. I said i gave my soul and them permission to do whatever they need to do to do what she said this guided meditation is for and also to help me to be as clear of a channel for them and my soul, to strengthen our link/bond/connection and with my soul too. One of them and I talked in mainly idle talk while the others stayed inside me and soul doing some sort of energy work.
that one did say a good thing would be if my soul and I were to merge. then i asked, then I'd be a full concussion member after that and he said that is part of the process. I feel I don't need or have to merge with my soul to become a member, but like i said to soul earlier. I think I would like to experience being an individual now and then, but I'd like to merge with him at least once. I'm curious what that experience would be like.
I then asked something about, then I'd eventually experience being a member of you then experience being you, all of you merged into one. he said something about, that is getting ahead of myself.
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I do recall more of the idle conversation. I did ask about Scarlett and the showed me soul groups. We, the collective soul and me were of one. Scarlett was of another nearby, and we were connected to a common larger soul group? I asked this since I had read part of her post before doing doing this meditation. not sure if both of the soul groups were connected directly to the main larger soul group or if there were some in between, not that details really manner.
he also said I would really love small form factor pc's like the mini itx, and android pc on a stick and I should continue looking into those. Eventually set aside a hundred or a bit more to eventually purchase 1 or both. Though if I did a mini itx I think I'd rather assemble one myself instead of a pre built one.
This was one guy who talked to me during the experience. he was a a vaguely humanoid type shape. Soul and I were in anthro dolphin type of forms as I recall.
A bit later I experienced soul and us kissing, in anthro dolphin type forms.
"So is our merging a important process or will help it along?" <mmhmm.>
"to me fully awakening and becoming a full conscious member of the collective monad group thing?" <both of us, yes.>
I asked soul if we've started the merging process and he kissed me as he said, <mmhmmm.>
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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A bit after I awoke I felt what I had felt before, a sort of fever, weakness, ect. Though less so, and it passed before to long. I wonder if it was an energy adjustment thing like I've been told it was before, and if so what sort of energy adjustment?
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I do wonder, as much fun as as the Thursday rpg group is, why I need to recover from that. The rest of Thursday night I feel some effects, and part of Friday as well. It can't be just that I mess my first nap time since I was with a group that met Saturday evenings and I needed a good part of Sunday to recover.
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Also, just curious, why this body prefers to get it's sleep across 2 or 3 sessions instead of 1. Instead of sleeping for say 8, or a bit less hours, it's instead around 6 roughly, then 1 or 2 naps. I say 1 or 2 since the 2nd one often i don't go to sleep but instead may slip into a medium or deep meditative state. not sure if it is something genetic, I have sleep problems or some sort, no biggie overall.
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Today I'll be finished with part 3 of awaken the light body body. Starting Saturday I'll go back through the 12 meditations twice a day, though I'm tempted to maybe do 3 a day for a few, like the weekend. Then I'll pick out my 24, or so, favorite meditations from the 3 awaken courses and I may add in some from the opening to channel and receiving clear guidance. Though I may do those meditations from those 2 courses separate at 1 a day, picking out my favorites. Maybe my 12 or 16 favorites and do those a 2nd time, or maybe twice more. Plenty of time to decide that.
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I see, so I sleep a more natural normal way, ok, thanks.
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I wonder if I can make a sub section onmy blog for just the channeling stuff. Maybe do separate sub sections for year and month for past posts. And it is very bare-bones. No idea how to have it look better, though I'm use to the way it looks, and though very bare-bones it is easy to find stuff.
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I did the 12th and last mediation for part 3 of awakening the light body. It was about rewriting your conception, being in the womb, birth, childhood and teenage years. I made it all up since she did suggest you could I saw my parents as anthro dolphins, then decided to go with it, with a, why not. And she was silent at times, so one time after she said something about being your higher self, soul said I don't have a higher self. It said something about I'm at the development point where I don't need one since I can talk directly to it. And when she kept saying about you are a master, through the guided meditation at times, I'd put in the other bit of, no, ascended master, since i as thinking, if I'm visualizing myself as a master, with fully aware and awake parents, friends around, guides, ect, why not go a bit farther and say ascended master. Though being an anthro dolphin with anthro dolphin parents, it doesn't really fit into earth. not sure if it'll take time to assimilate, having no veils or block. maybe something I may need to do several time. next time I'll attempt to do it with fully human parents. the 3rd time maybe a human and phin parent.
I think the goal and point is to rewrite your parents, in the womb, birth, child, teenage, and adulthood life up to your current age, so you have always been the fully aware, conscious, radiant master, or ascended master.
I'm going to go with the belief this really happened. Either in a past, parallel life, alternate dimension. Silly maybe, but let's see where it takes me.
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I think with the 2 channeling courses I am doing I'll re do them twice more once i finish this one. My hope & intent is by working on making the connection with the collective monad stronger, and as crystal clear as I can get, that it'll as a side effect do the same for soul and me. Plus I'll channel soul on a semi regular bases here and there. And if I have extra time, I'll do some of the mediation a 2nd time with soul. The 3rd time I do the guided meditations from both courses I'll be doing it with soul only. though I do hope that soul and I do become perfect twins, at the conscious level so then the next step is maybe get that with the monad or I'll become a full conscious member of the monad collective group thing. Nice that they are all individuals and are not stuck just being there all the time but can go elsewhere.
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I do wonder how much of an incarnation does a soul remember. Is it like the way the average adult, say may age, remembers say the 4th grade they had at elementary school, which is not a lot of memories, or do they immediately remember everything instantly. Or is it they can remember everything perfectly, but they have to dig a bit?
I can remember when I've gotten past life stuff it's only flashes since it's not really important for me to recall all of this life on this world, or even to know what species it was. Though i do wonder if souls remember past lives like that or if it's different. no biggie, just curious.
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I'm about to do the 12th meditation for the 2nd time today , which will finish the first pass, as I call it , of part 3 of awakening the light body. I'll try keeping it to only humans. Though I'll have to heavily fictionalize my childhood since I wasn't raised by my parents. let's see how it goes. The first time I did it the 34 minutes seemed like 4 minutes at most.
I just finished doing the mediation and it went very well, running the energy and everything else. I did fictionalize most of my life, but that is ok. i did merge that me from the guided meditation and the earlier me also, replacing their memories with mine. though the guided mediation said to do that with this me from this guided meditation. being born a master who is radiant & remained so, no veil in place. Though I'd shorten that to a radiant master. Though soul did say, several times, during the meditation when orin/sanaya mentioned my higher self that I don't have one. Since I don't need one. I can talk directly to soul and other reasons too.
The details are unimportant but i do know, I have had past, or is it parallel, lives on other places like Sirius, Pleiades, Arcturus, and other worlds and places. been more not incarnated then incarnated. and unlike former soul, don't really feel the pull to do so. it does have it's nice and good points, unique to each place, but I'd rather remain non incarnated. Since my taste has changed I feel.
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Had an interesting experience with soul. I lay down to mediate and felt some energy something. think soul was doing some sort of energy work, on the edges so to speak.
I don't recall the full conversation we had. I did hug him and he said enough time for fun later, fun meaning soul type sex, sharing. he was in an anthro dolphin type form and I was as well, as best as I could tell. or sometimes human and sometimes anthro dolphin.
I did ask about Mirabelle and he said she is busy, hours to her are like days to you.
I asked about twin flame and he said she is busy too. He said as I am busy in certain ways she is doing similar work. I asked if she is my or your twin flame. he said both. i asked why he appears to me as a male and he said since I'm a male. i asked if you appear to twin as you do to me and he said yes. i asked if you are a female to her as a male to me, and he gave me a knowing smile and said, sometimes.
I asked if what he's doing with energy is something to bring us closer or something. he said its something like that. Then I got an idea and said to him, if you are really my soul, I give you permission to enter into me and do what you want and need to do. he seemed happy about that. Not sure why I got the idea. he did enter into me. Felt like my energy, but he felt very warm. Then the energy stuff he was doing became much more powerful. Extremely pleasurable. he said something like <there, isn't this better then sex.> in a humorous fashion. This energy work, whatever he was doing, was very pleasurable indeed and I did feel an intense love inside myself. Telling him how I felt that I did love him completely with all my being, and what did that mean since I am you and you are me. he said it means that you love yourself that much, which is a very good thing.
The energy stuff went on for a bit then slowly died down. I then asked curiously if I could do a sort of trance channel while channeling him and he said technically we can, but that is not our path and he'd rather merge with me. I said ok. he asked <do you really mean it.> and I could feel he was very very excited about it. No idea why he was. I caressed his cheek and rostrum in as seductive a manner as I could saying "as long as you promise I can experience being an individual now and then." he said <its a deal.> I asked if it's done. He said yes, just like that. I did say by my getting to experience being an individual now and then I mean as a soul like him, not only while I was incarnated. not that I was worried, Just wanted to be sure that was clear. he said he knows what my intent was, he said it in an humorous tone, adding, after all I am telepathic.
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I did the 2nd guided meditation for receiving a clear channel. I asked that my soul be involved as well. This one was about removing any blockages, doubts, fears, ect that would prevent you from being able to channel your guide. I added in collective and guides since the group who's a collective apparently my current highest level master guides I can channel and we're family at the soul level, family and extremely very close friends.
The place they pulled me up into was very bright and some of them looked like small suns, as bright as looking into earth's sun. Some of them were vaguely humanoid but the vast majority were the small suns. First soul stepped into where I was so both of us were in the same place at the same time then some of those collective members that looked like suns entered into me and some into soul. I did say to them that I give my soul and them, as long as they are the highest level master guides I can attract and are of the light. I said i gave my soul and them permission to do whatever they need to do to do what she said this guided meditation is for and also to help me to be as clear of a channel for them and my soul, to strengthen our link/bond/connection and with my soul too. One of them and I talked in mainly idle talk while the others stayed inside me and soul doing some sort of energy work.
that one did say a good thing would be if my soul and I were to merge. then i asked, then I'd be a full concussion member after that and he said that is part of the process. I feel I don't need or have to merge with my soul to become a member, but like i said to soul earlier. I think I would like to experience being an individual now and then, but I'd like to merge with him at least once. I'm curious what that experience would be like.
I then asked something about, then I'd eventually experience being a member of you then experience being you, all of you merged into one. he said something about, that is getting ahead of myself.
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I do recall more of the idle conversation. I did ask about Scarlett and the showed me soul groups. We, the collective soul and me were of one. Scarlett was of another nearby, and we were connected to a common larger soul group? I asked this since I had read part of her post before doing doing this meditation. not sure if both of the soul groups were connected directly to the main larger soul group or if there were some in between, not that details really manner.
he also said I would really love small form factor pc's like the mini itx, and android pc on a stick and I should continue looking into those. Eventually set aside a hundred or a bit more to eventually purchase 1 or both. Though if I did a mini itx I think I'd rather assemble one myself instead of a pre built one.
This was one guy who talked to me during the experience. he was a a vaguely humanoid type shape. Soul and I were in anthro dolphin type of forms as I recall.
A bit later I experienced soul and us kissing, in anthro dolphin type forms.
"So is our merging a important process or will help it along?" <mmhmm.>
"to me fully awakening and becoming a full conscious member of the collective monad group thing?" <both of us, yes.>
I asked soul if we've started the merging process and he kissed me as he said, <mmhmmm.>
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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1:20 PM
As I lay down to take a nap I decided to
try to do a quick channel and ask soul a question. I'll try to type
down that I recall of the answer.
So what exactly is a soul? <a soul is an individual expression of source. It is the part that is not limited unlike the portion that is incarnated in a human body in this system. As unfortunate as that may be. being multi dimensional I can experience myself as you, as myself and as another, at the same time. We are twins, you and I, identical twins. Just currently you have certain blocks in place. here let me show you.> and then I felt like a shift or a something, and I experienced myself as an exact identical twin to soul, except I had certain blocks blocking off most of my memories and abilities.
So what exactly is a soul? <a soul is an individual expression of source. It is the part that is not limited unlike the portion that is incarnated in a human body in this system. As unfortunate as that may be. being multi dimensional I can experience myself as you, as myself and as another, at the same time. We are twins, you and I, identical twins. Just currently you have certain blocks in place. here let me show you.> and then I felt like a shift or a something, and I experienced myself as an exact identical twin to soul, except I had certain blocks blocking off most of my memories and abilities.
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Thursday [4-16]
I did the 11th meditation, from part 3, for the 1st time today and running the energies went ok. Some better then others.
This one was on past lives. During the meditation I visited 2 of them. Not sure how authentic it was. In the first I was a anthro male dolphin type being and twin flame and I did something similar to what Sanaya and Duane are doing, teaching others, though in this one I never went above channeling soul, either not seeing the need or thinking I couldn't, not sure which or maybe both. The 2 of us resisted our feelings for each other for a while, thinking it would interfere with our work, but eventually gave in and were happier for it. Also in this one I fully awoke spiritually.
In another, and I doubt this one even more, I was a woman, non human but not sure what species. maybe sirian, or maybe not, not sure what the species was. Again I highly doubt this one since in this one I channeled the being some know as Orin, but in this life he called himself Dunarii, Sunarii, something like that and my name was something similar to Daarin, Daarik, something like that.
We transferred our skilled to each other , in both past lives I visited.
Not sure if it was the same, but I got an impression of another one where I was a woman, regarded as a prophet type, and I channeled some high level being, maybe one known as Orin or maybe another. Lived much more secluded.
Doubt these happened since they are to familiar to Sanaya and Daben and others, and the one or 2 channeling the one called Orin here, though under a different name.
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As I was laying down and tried to get as relaxed as I could felt some energy flowing into me. before I took a shower I think I got a whispered message about laying on my back, not sure if it was from them or not.
I felt energy flowing into me. Felt like I got to medium relaxed state. Was a pleasant sensation. After it ended I did rest a bit before trying to get up and my arms felt pretty heavy for a short time.
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I did the 11th meditation for part 3. About past lives and gaining skills from them. No idea if it works or not.
The first one I asked to see someone who was a fluid, proficient, skilled speaker, since I was hoping it may help with my slight intermittent stuttering problem. No idea what the species was. it was a guy who was what's called a crystal speaker. He was in a high tech society that used crystals to store information and what he did as a crystal speaker was look up information that folks didn't want to spend time looking up themselves and find it then telepathically speak it into their minds. Don't see how it'll help me, neat concept though. seems like something from a sci-fi anime or something.
The second one I got was a woman who was a crystal clear channeler and used it to channel, no idea on species or anything else. I did get that she adored talking to whoever she normally channeled and spend a great deal of time just talking to them when she wasn't channeling in other circumstances and learned a lot, getting to full awakeness through this.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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This one was on past lives. During the meditation I visited 2 of them. Not sure how authentic it was. In the first I was a anthro male dolphin type being and twin flame and I did something similar to what Sanaya and Duane are doing, teaching others, though in this one I never went above channeling soul, either not seeing the need or thinking I couldn't, not sure which or maybe both. The 2 of us resisted our feelings for each other for a while, thinking it would interfere with our work, but eventually gave in and were happier for it. Also in this one I fully awoke spiritually.
In another, and I doubt this one even more, I was a woman, non human but not sure what species. maybe sirian, or maybe not, not sure what the species was. Again I highly doubt this one since in this one I channeled the being some know as Orin, but in this life he called himself Dunarii, Sunarii, something like that and my name was something similar to Daarin, Daarik, something like that.
We transferred our skilled to each other , in both past lives I visited.
Not sure if it was the same, but I got an impression of another one where I was a woman, regarded as a prophet type, and I channeled some high level being, maybe one known as Orin or maybe another. Lived much more secluded.
Doubt these happened since they are to familiar to Sanaya and Daben and others, and the one or 2 channeling the one called Orin here, though under a different name.
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As I was laying down and tried to get as relaxed as I could felt some energy flowing into me. before I took a shower I think I got a whispered message about laying on my back, not sure if it was from them or not.
I felt energy flowing into me. Felt like I got to medium relaxed state. Was a pleasant sensation. After it ended I did rest a bit before trying to get up and my arms felt pretty heavy for a short time.
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I did the 11th meditation for part 3. About past lives and gaining skills from them. No idea if it works or not.
The first one I asked to see someone who was a fluid, proficient, skilled speaker, since I was hoping it may help with my slight intermittent stuttering problem. No idea what the species was. it was a guy who was what's called a crystal speaker. He was in a high tech society that used crystals to store information and what he did as a crystal speaker was look up information that folks didn't want to spend time looking up themselves and find it then telepathically speak it into their minds. Don't see how it'll help me, neat concept though. seems like something from a sci-fi anime or something.
The second one I got was a woman who was a crystal clear channeler and used it to channel, no idea on species or anything else. I did get that she adored talking to whoever she normally channeled and spend a great deal of time just talking to them when she wasn't channeling in other circumstances and learned a lot, getting to full awakeness through this.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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12:39 AM
Decided to try a 2nd short session.
based on some energy work I think soul or a monad was doing earlier
tonight. It was a pleasant experience.
You're not her (dragoness). <no, I'm another one, member of the monad. I have quite a bit of experience being a guide so this is old hat, to use a human expression. though not in this exact way do most of the folks I guide. the individual soul pegged to be come a conscious monad member, but you're not the first I've helped in this way. Though your doing more practice and such will help since the 2 of us have to each do half the work needed. >
so I am close then ? <likely to succedd in becoming a conscioius member of this monad, yes, very likely within your current incarnation and if you continue along the path you plan, very probable, in the possible futures I've looked over. The future being not set in stone, but fluid. Though the possible futures can be shaped. We don't need to get into those sorts of discussions, not yet anyway.>
Was that you I felt earlier? <yes, i was doing some prep work. The connection is better and less likely to cause you any diffiulty, though tonight it is faint, not to secure or as deep as it an be, it is an excellent first time. I'll be doing more fine tuning. and I was picked and choose to volunteer since our energy is the most compatable, among those who volunteered to help, as well as our personalities, and taking into account who has among the most guide experience. teh dragoness as you call her has not really had stricttly guide training, but she has had experience guiding her personalities, aspects, and such when they were incarnating, as well as extensions, so she has some experience in that way and since she was one of the ones directly involved in your creation, or recreation is the more accurate term, you have some of her energy so that makes her able to contact you more easily. Since the relationship is not dissimular to like your soul and you.>
and the prep work and my channeling you folks will help me to get closer to you , as well as the other benefits for me and those one the earth? <indeed. your energy bodies will benefit by receiving and being exposed to our energy, you'll evolve and grow faster, progress along certain lines faster, like becoming closer to us vibrationally. we'll help also in you becoming a clearer receiver as well as orin and daben's various courses if you get those and once we have good experience and a good deep connection we can guide you with some exercises and ideas also. Things will proceed and progress at an ever accelerated pace, one that you may not notice at first or be fully aware of but we are here. You have made a surprising amount of progress, surprising to some, but not to some of us here who have talked to your soul and looked over your energy and such like that. Some of us have been helping you, behind the scenes, so to speak, up till now. Often it is only a small sliver of the ones helping that you become consciously aware of. For various reasons for this can be many. some like being in the background, or they do their best work that way, the nature of their work is best done that way, and other reasons.>
<Things will continue well and fast. but this should be enough for tonight, no need to push it to much and considering the time too. >
You're not her (dragoness). <no, I'm another one, member of the monad. I have quite a bit of experience being a guide so this is old hat, to use a human expression. though not in this exact way do most of the folks I guide. the individual soul pegged to be come a conscious monad member, but you're not the first I've helped in this way. Though your doing more practice and such will help since the 2 of us have to each do half the work needed. >
so I am close then ? <likely to succedd in becoming a conscioius member of this monad, yes, very likely within your current incarnation and if you continue along the path you plan, very probable, in the possible futures I've looked over. The future being not set in stone, but fluid. Though the possible futures can be shaped. We don't need to get into those sorts of discussions, not yet anyway.>
Was that you I felt earlier? <yes, i was doing some prep work. The connection is better and less likely to cause you any diffiulty, though tonight it is faint, not to secure or as deep as it an be, it is an excellent first time. I'll be doing more fine tuning. and I was picked and choose to volunteer since our energy is the most compatable, among those who volunteered to help, as well as our personalities, and taking into account who has among the most guide experience. teh dragoness as you call her has not really had stricttly guide training, but she has had experience guiding her personalities, aspects, and such when they were incarnating, as well as extensions, so she has some experience in that way and since she was one of the ones directly involved in your creation, or recreation is the more accurate term, you have some of her energy so that makes her able to contact you more easily. Since the relationship is not dissimular to like your soul and you.>
and the prep work and my channeling you folks will help me to get closer to you , as well as the other benefits for me and those one the earth? <indeed. your energy bodies will benefit by receiving and being exposed to our energy, you'll evolve and grow faster, progress along certain lines faster, like becoming closer to us vibrationally. we'll help also in you becoming a clearer receiver as well as orin and daben's various courses if you get those and once we have good experience and a good deep connection we can guide you with some exercises and ideas also. Things will proceed and progress at an ever accelerated pace, one that you may not notice at first or be fully aware of but we are here. You have made a surprising amount of progress, surprising to some, but not to some of us here who have talked to your soul and looked over your energy and such like that. Some of us have been helping you, behind the scenes, so to speak, up till now. Often it is only a small sliver of the ones helping that you become consciously aware of. For various reasons for this can be many. some like being in the background, or they do their best work that way, the nature of their work is best done that way, and other reasons.>
<Things will continue well and fast. but this should be enough for tonight, no need to push it to much and considering the time too. >
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10:05 PM
<greetings brother, we are the
collective. we hve spoken to o you earlier today. best to keep the
eyeys closed at this early junction of our leanring to connect. <
some questions Orin or Sanaya ask. are you of the light? <my dear brother we are the light, we are of light and are light. you'll feel free when, but we are getting ahead of ourselves.> feels like several voices, but not talking over each other. the pressure on my head is much easier to take, much smoother.
are you the guide I'm to work with to receive clear guidance? <indeed we are. and to work on a smooth transition as you fully awaken and joing among us here as a full member. you are already but are not yet fully aware of it. that will occur in time as you continue to awaken to who and what you fully are. celebrate and have fun. This does indeed feel like a smoother transition then us trying to work with you individually. and yes the one you refereed to as the dragoness is among us, though that is not an accurate term really. but that is fine. labels, what is it with labels. it's a human thing> here I'll just include the voices as one, instead of separating them out. <yes, better for you that way, smoother, easier.>
now for a question of my own. is that energy stuff you? <yes it is us indeed. smoothing out the transition and making further contact easier and smoother. we're having a goal of it eventually being as easy for us to communicate as you talking to another human, so no trances, even light needed. Indeed and as you continue to work on this course and other courses you have though of it'll ease things much . make things easier to work with and you to fully awaken and transition to your full true self. It'll go smoother and faster then you think. no need to do the hard work as some humans thing, but that is their choice. no wrong path, short or long, easy or hard. >
so you are the monad? <a monad, there are others, if one must use labels. we could use other labels too, we are the may who are one, the one who are many, but that is more labels and would describe many such groups, soul families, ect. pick what label you like for us, and yourself as well since you'll be among us as a full equal member, but we've already mentioned that.>
< we have really fun parties here. over here on this side it's all about what do you want to do. no needing to roll up the sleeves and go on to a work you dislike.>
back to the orin/sanaya questions:
Are you a new guide or one I've worked with in the past? <both. we have worked with you in the past, some of us, and some of us have without your conscious knowledge, like when you were asleep and so on. >
can this connectioin be strengthened and deepened? <certainly, we are working on that. unfortunately there things do take time, so no poof I have a brand new hat, or poof my dance partner has teleported to where I am from where they were before.>
is there a name? <names, you pick some if you wish to use names. we don't use names here. no need really in a telepathic society if one thinks about it. >
i'll ask the next one though I know the answer to this one. Are you a single guide or a collective guide or any other info? <we are a collective 1 can say, a soul family, soul group, monad, and other such things, though we are each an individual as well. some would say we are high level beings of light, but really everyone is equal to us and we don't see ourselves any better then any other, nor any higher. After all some have skills, like typing, that none of us have. that is cause there is no type writers or keyboards here. that's beside the point, there are something like that, with the telepathic input equipment. don't want to give to much advanced technology ideas yet. this is just ideas not detailed schematics on how to make one.>
what is your nature and who am I connecting to? <we are beings of light, put simply, souls, who are part of a family of souls who are related to each other and have been together for, ages, beyond ages. Methuselah would call us old, to use a phrase. some of us, at least one of us, is what you could call soul parents of yours, so thus you are of this family. Though some of the family are not as awake or as aware or far along as we are. we still consider them family though. We do help the transition into becoming a full member here and helping any who need help if they will accept it, family or not.>
another of my questions, are you always together? <no, we can come & go as we please and want. though some places we don't manifest since it's just not done there, for various reasons, but many or some places we can, like where the pod is, any of us can manifest there just fine, just we don't usualy do so in the open common area. there are homes or the equivalent, more private areas we would manifest into then walk, or move out of to the more common areas. >
I feel a sense of ? peace, love, compassion, wisdom, light, some things hard to describe. <repeat this course as long as you feel is necessary, and any others.>
What can I do right now and in the future to connect to you? <try to remain relaxed, focused intent, put any doubts aside, continue working on your self as you have been doing. The wonderful good work you have done helps a lot and will continue as you continue to do this and more.>
<you'll get to know us better over time, no need to try to do that all at once. certainly not. Just relax, have fun, try to always do your best and continue the work you are doing on yourself, but in a fun manner, keep finding it fun as you have been so far and you'll do very well indeed, surpassing what you think or imagine you can do.>
<we'll talk again very soon. you've done very well and will continue to do so in the future we're sure.>
some questions Orin or Sanaya ask. are you of the light? <my dear brother we are the light, we are of light and are light. you'll feel free when, but we are getting ahead of ourselves.> feels like several voices, but not talking over each other. the pressure on my head is much easier to take, much smoother.
are you the guide I'm to work with to receive clear guidance? <indeed we are. and to work on a smooth transition as you fully awaken and joing among us here as a full member. you are already but are not yet fully aware of it. that will occur in time as you continue to awaken to who and what you fully are. celebrate and have fun. This does indeed feel like a smoother transition then us trying to work with you individually. and yes the one you refereed to as the dragoness is among us, though that is not an accurate term really. but that is fine. labels, what is it with labels. it's a human thing> here I'll just include the voices as one, instead of separating them out. <yes, better for you that way, smoother, easier.>
now for a question of my own. is that energy stuff you? <yes it is us indeed. smoothing out the transition and making further contact easier and smoother. we're having a goal of it eventually being as easy for us to communicate as you talking to another human, so no trances, even light needed. Indeed and as you continue to work on this course and other courses you have though of it'll ease things much . make things easier to work with and you to fully awaken and transition to your full true self. It'll go smoother and faster then you think. no need to do the hard work as some humans thing, but that is their choice. no wrong path, short or long, easy or hard. >
so you are the monad? <a monad, there are others, if one must use labels. we could use other labels too, we are the may who are one, the one who are many, but that is more labels and would describe many such groups, soul families, ect. pick what label you like for us, and yourself as well since you'll be among us as a full equal member, but we've already mentioned that.>
< we have really fun parties here. over here on this side it's all about what do you want to do. no needing to roll up the sleeves and go on to a work you dislike.>
back to the orin/sanaya questions:
Are you a new guide or one I've worked with in the past? <both. we have worked with you in the past, some of us, and some of us have without your conscious knowledge, like when you were asleep and so on. >
can this connectioin be strengthened and deepened? <certainly, we are working on that. unfortunately there things do take time, so no poof I have a brand new hat, or poof my dance partner has teleported to where I am from where they were before.>
is there a name? <names, you pick some if you wish to use names. we don't use names here. no need really in a telepathic society if one thinks about it. >
i'll ask the next one though I know the answer to this one. Are you a single guide or a collective guide or any other info? <we are a collective 1 can say, a soul family, soul group, monad, and other such things, though we are each an individual as well. some would say we are high level beings of light, but really everyone is equal to us and we don't see ourselves any better then any other, nor any higher. After all some have skills, like typing, that none of us have. that is cause there is no type writers or keyboards here. that's beside the point, there are something like that, with the telepathic input equipment. don't want to give to much advanced technology ideas yet. this is just ideas not detailed schematics on how to make one.>
what is your nature and who am I connecting to? <we are beings of light, put simply, souls, who are part of a family of souls who are related to each other and have been together for, ages, beyond ages. Methuselah would call us old, to use a phrase. some of us, at least one of us, is what you could call soul parents of yours, so thus you are of this family. Though some of the family are not as awake or as aware or far along as we are. we still consider them family though. We do help the transition into becoming a full member here and helping any who need help if they will accept it, family or not.>
another of my questions, are you always together? <no, we can come & go as we please and want. though some places we don't manifest since it's just not done there, for various reasons, but many or some places we can, like where the pod is, any of us can manifest there just fine, just we don't usualy do so in the open common area. there are homes or the equivalent, more private areas we would manifest into then walk, or move out of to the more common areas. >
I feel a sense of ? peace, love, compassion, wisdom, light, some things hard to describe. <repeat this course as long as you feel is necessary, and any others.>
What can I do right now and in the future to connect to you? <try to remain relaxed, focused intent, put any doubts aside, continue working on your self as you have been doing. The wonderful good work you have done helps a lot and will continue as you continue to do this and more.>
<you'll get to know us better over time, no need to try to do that all at once. certainly not. Just relax, have fun, try to always do your best and continue the work you are doing on yourself, but in a fun manner, keep finding it fun as you have been so far and you'll do very well indeed, surpassing what you think or imagine you can do.>
<we'll talk again very soon. you've done very well and will continue to do so in the future we're sure.>
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Wedensday [4-15]
I did the 10th meditation of the 3rd course. Running the energies went pretty well overall. The experience of the guided meditation itself was totally meh. There is no void I can tell in the center of my pieah that the manual talks about. The most I felt there was a shadow of the state or whatever it is I get into whenever I do Qi Gong where everything is relaxed, mind, body, emotional, bodies, energy stuff. This was at most a shadow of that. So overall totally meh, and my pieah has no void at all, as I mentioned before.
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I lay down to take a nap and the dragoness showed up. She sent me a pretty intense amount of love and a pleasurable other bit that she said was light. She said for me to take her love and light she was sending to me and use it to transform some of the personality traits I wanted to work on to more positive reflections. I did that, adding in to send it to my emotional, mind, physical and whatever else bodies to smooth them out, get out any kinks or other things I wanted or needed to and some other stuff to I may not remember.
An interesting experience. I do hope it happens more in the future. Feels like I did get some benefits from this experience.
Felt like I went very deep in the trance or whatever I was in. Though I was conscious the whole time. The 20 or so minutes it lasted felt like only a minute or 2.
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I did the 10th meditation for part 3 for the 2nd time and running the energies went well. The rest of the guided meditation went better. I experienced a relaxing peace and type of relaxation similar to what I get when do Qi Gong. I did experience a sort or type of void. My thoughts were much slower, similar to when I do Qi Gong.
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I've been thinking. If I do a light body course twice, it'll take 18 days. Which is less then a month. I can't afford to go faster then 1 course a month, not for now anyway, in the future maybe. So I think I"ll take an idea from what I'll do when I get done with doing part 3 of awakening the light body for the 2nd time. I'll count the number of days till say the 3rd or 5th of next month then divide those number of days left by the number of light body courses. in this case 3. next month by 4. Think I may pick some from opening to channel and or receiving a clear channel.
I think 24 meditations. I can pick out my favorites from the first 3. maybe adding some from opening to channel. Then as I get more courses I'll swap some with my 24 favorites. So that way, I shouldn't get to bored with swapping some with others as I get more courses.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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2:58 AM
I tried to channel the dragoness briefly, though I suspected the answers I figured at worst it'll be good channeling practice. and 1 minute has left me with a very mild pressure headache, but it'll pass very soon.
I asked her, if I want to become a full monad member what should I do? <Continue doing just as you are doing. And continue to get and do what you are thinking and planning to do in the future.>
<I've been keeping an eye on you and you are doing very well. You've attracted the attention of some other members. We'll help you to gradually become a member.>
Will I enjoy being a full monad member? <yes you will. Lots of fun, options. You'll love it.>
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later:
I thought to myself, so the monad are sexual beings, I wasn't directing it at her but i did get, <you don't know the half of it.>
<and you should start saying we monad members since soon enough you'll be a full member.>
So the others won't mind that? <not the ones keeping an eye on you and helping. > and the others, <they wouldn't care either. Their attitude, would be you're a member, but one who's not consciously aware of being a full member yet.. > So they are aware of me then? <Yes, just not paying much attention to you since you're being helped by me, and soon a few others. think the human expression to many cooks....>
Makes sense. can't have 40 all trying to help me like you are. <very true, that would be counter productive.>
<continue as you are doing, and stick to or close to your plan, and i guarantee before the incarnation ends you'll be a full member.>
Though I call her the dragoness, that is just a term I use since when she first contacted me months ago she sent me a mental image of a dragon's head and wings behind the head.
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8:17 PM
Thought I'd try to channel the dragoness for a short time today instead of any inter mum or intermediaries. Lets see how it goes.
So, anything to say? <This first session should be a short one. pausing often is a good idea as well. doing this with continued regular practice and non practice is key. Also not to long>
Thanks for what you did a short time ago with the energy and love light. <no thanks needed, it was to help you to smooth out more of yourself, transmute more of the traits you wish to to more positive reflections, the human traits you've picked up, to help you become more and closer to your true self. Also you'll become clearer as a channel as a side effect as well. >
Will you do that again, I hope so. <certainly we can in the future, when you lay down to rest/nap/meditate, also if you are doing any guided meditation along the same lines to work on yourself soul, I, and or some others will come to help as well if you wish.>
Yes, I would like that, thanks. <we're glad to help. help you and also through you the others who live on the earth. And the changes in you will be permanent, not temporary.>
<No talking needed, just focus on being a clear channel, typing and receiving. As well as faith in yourself and what the courses will help you with and the separate meditations as well.>
Anything else to say? <You're doing well. Continue the good work you are doing. You're well on your way to becoming a full member of this monad, the one I'm already a member of. This is enough for now. if you don't' mind resting a bit I'll interface, overlap some of my energy with yours to help in various ways, so we can interact, channel better, your energy and mine will be more compatible so you can more easily and better channel me, it'll help bring you closer to being a full monad member. >
So this will help? <yes, over the short, medium and long term.>
Maybe we should do this a bit here and there. <Sure.>
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It feels like it went ok overall. Not as potent or intense as I thought. Though perhaps she was holding back, the connection may not have been fully clear, or maybe it was an ok or good connection since earlier she had me use some of the love and light she was sending me to, as she mentions above. Maybe that had a 2ndary effect in helping our connection so I can both channel her better and be closer to true self.
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I lay down to take a nap and the dragoness showed up. She sent me a pretty intense amount of love and a pleasurable other bit that she said was light. She said for me to take her love and light she was sending to me and use it to transform some of the personality traits I wanted to work on to more positive reflections. I did that, adding in to send it to my emotional, mind, physical and whatever else bodies to smooth them out, get out any kinks or other things I wanted or needed to and some other stuff to I may not remember.
An interesting experience. I do hope it happens more in the future. Feels like I did get some benefits from this experience.
Felt like I went very deep in the trance or whatever I was in. Though I was conscious the whole time. The 20 or so minutes it lasted felt like only a minute or 2.
============================
I did the 10th meditation for part 3 for the 2nd time and running the energies went well. The rest of the guided meditation went better. I experienced a relaxing peace and type of relaxation similar to what I get when do Qi Gong. I did experience a sort or type of void. My thoughts were much slower, similar to when I do Qi Gong.
-------------------------------------------------------
I've been thinking. If I do a light body course twice, it'll take 18 days. Which is less then a month. I can't afford to go faster then 1 course a month, not for now anyway, in the future maybe. So I think I"ll take an idea from what I'll do when I get done with doing part 3 of awakening the light body for the 2nd time. I'll count the number of days till say the 3rd or 5th of next month then divide those number of days left by the number of light body courses. in this case 3. next month by 4. Think I may pick some from opening to channel and or receiving a clear channel.
I think 24 meditations. I can pick out my favorites from the first 3. maybe adding some from opening to channel. Then as I get more courses I'll swap some with my 24 favorites. So that way, I shouldn't get to bored with swapping some with others as I get more courses.
===================================
[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
==========================================
2:58 AM
I tried to channel the dragoness briefly, though I suspected the answers I figured at worst it'll be good channeling practice. and 1 minute has left me with a very mild pressure headache, but it'll pass very soon.
I asked her, if I want to become a full monad member what should I do? <Continue doing just as you are doing. And continue to get and do what you are thinking and planning to do in the future.>
<I've been keeping an eye on you and you are doing very well. You've attracted the attention of some other members. We'll help you to gradually become a member.>
Will I enjoy being a full monad member? <yes you will. Lots of fun, options. You'll love it.>
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later:
I thought to myself, so the monad are sexual beings, I wasn't directing it at her but i did get, <you don't know the half of it.>
<and you should start saying we monad members since soon enough you'll be a full member.>
So the others won't mind that? <not the ones keeping an eye on you and helping. > and the others, <they wouldn't care either. Their attitude, would be you're a member, but one who's not consciously aware of being a full member yet.. > So they are aware of me then? <Yes, just not paying much attention to you since you're being helped by me, and soon a few others. think the human expression to many cooks....>
Makes sense. can't have 40 all trying to help me like you are. <very true, that would be counter productive.>
<continue as you are doing, and stick to or close to your plan, and i guarantee before the incarnation ends you'll be a full member.>
Though I call her the dragoness, that is just a term I use since when she first contacted me months ago she sent me a mental image of a dragon's head and wings behind the head.
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8:17 PM
Thought I'd try to channel the dragoness for a short time today instead of any inter mum or intermediaries. Lets see how it goes.
So, anything to say? <This first session should be a short one. pausing often is a good idea as well. doing this with continued regular practice and non practice is key. Also not to long>
Thanks for what you did a short time ago with the energy and love light. <no thanks needed, it was to help you to smooth out more of yourself, transmute more of the traits you wish to to more positive reflections, the human traits you've picked up, to help you become more and closer to your true self. Also you'll become clearer as a channel as a side effect as well. >
Will you do that again, I hope so. <certainly we can in the future, when you lay down to rest/nap/meditate, also if you are doing any guided meditation along the same lines to work on yourself soul, I, and or some others will come to help as well if you wish.>
Yes, I would like that, thanks. <we're glad to help. help you and also through you the others who live on the earth. And the changes in you will be permanent, not temporary.>
<No talking needed, just focus on being a clear channel, typing and receiving. As well as faith in yourself and what the courses will help you with and the separate meditations as well.>
Anything else to say? <You're doing well. Continue the good work you are doing. You're well on your way to becoming a full member of this monad, the one I'm already a member of. This is enough for now. if you don't' mind resting a bit I'll interface, overlap some of my energy with yours to help in various ways, so we can interact, channel better, your energy and mine will be more compatible so you can more easily and better channel me, it'll help bring you closer to being a full monad member. >
So this will help? <yes, over the short, medium and long term.>
Maybe we should do this a bit here and there. <Sure.>
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It feels like it went ok overall. Not as potent or intense as I thought. Though perhaps she was holding back, the connection may not have been fully clear, or maybe it was an ok or good connection since earlier she had me use some of the love and light she was sending me to, as she mentions above. Maybe that had a 2ndary effect in helping our connection so I can both channel her better and be closer to true self.
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