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A bit after I awoke I felt what I had felt before, a sort of fever, weakness, ect. Though less so, and it passed before to long. I wonder if it was an energy adjustment thing like I've been told it was before, and if so what sort of energy adjustment?
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I do wonder, as much fun as as the Thursday rpg group is, why I need to recover from that. The rest of Thursday night I feel some effects, and part of Friday as well. It can't be just that I mess my first nap time since I was with a group that met Saturday evenings and I needed a good part of Sunday to recover.
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Also, just curious, why this body prefers to get it's sleep across 2 or 3 sessions instead of 1. Instead of sleeping for say 8, or a bit less hours, it's instead around 6 roughly, then 1 or 2 naps. I say 1 or 2 since the 2nd one often i don't go to sleep but instead may slip into a medium or deep meditative state. not sure if it is something genetic, I have sleep problems or some sort, no biggie overall.
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Today I'll be finished with part 3 of awaken the light body body. Starting Saturday I'll go back through the 12 meditations twice a day, though I'm tempted to maybe do 3 a day for a few, like the weekend. Then I'll pick out my 24, or so, favorite meditations from the 3 awaken courses and I may add in some from the opening to channel and receiving clear guidance. Though I may do those meditations from those 2 courses separate at 1 a day, picking out my favorites. Maybe my 12 or 16 favorites and do those a 2nd time, or maybe twice more. Plenty of time to decide that.
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I see, so I sleep a more natural normal way, ok, thanks.
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I wonder if I can make a sub section onmy blog for just the channeling stuff. Maybe do separate sub sections for year and month for past posts. And it is very bare-bones. No idea how to have it look better, though I'm use to the way it looks, and though very bare-bones it is easy to find stuff.
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I did the 12th and last mediation for part 3 of awakening the light body. It was about rewriting your conception, being in the womb, birth, childhood and teenage years. I made it all up since she did suggest you could I saw my parents as anthro dolphins, then decided to go with it, with a, why not. And she was silent at times, so one time after she said something about being your higher self, soul said I don't have a higher self. It said something about I'm at the development point where I don't need one since I can talk directly to it. And when she kept saying about you are a master, through the guided meditation at times, I'd put in the other bit of, no, ascended master, since i as thinking, if I'm visualizing myself as a master, with fully aware and awake parents, friends around, guides, ect, why not go a bit farther and say ascended master. Though being an anthro dolphin with anthro dolphin parents, it doesn't really fit into earth. not sure if it'll take time to assimilate, having no veils or block. maybe something I may need to do several time. next time I'll attempt to do it with fully human parents. the 3rd time maybe a human and phin parent.
I think the goal and point is to rewrite your parents, in the womb, birth, child, teenage, and adulthood life up to your current age, so you have always been the fully aware, conscious, radiant master, or ascended master.
I'm going to go with the belief this really happened. Either in a past, parallel life, alternate dimension. Silly maybe, but let's see where it takes me.
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I think with the 2 channeling courses I am doing I'll re do them twice more once i finish this one. My hope & intent is by working on making the connection with the collective monad stronger, and as crystal clear as I can get, that it'll as a side effect do the same for soul and me. Plus I'll channel soul on a semi regular bases here and there. And if I have extra time, I'll do some of the mediation a 2nd time with soul. The 3rd time I do the guided meditations from both courses I'll be doing it with soul only. though I do hope that soul and I do become perfect twins, at the conscious level so then the next step is maybe get that with the monad or I'll become a full conscious member of the monad collective group thing. Nice that they are all individuals and are not stuck just being there all the time but can go elsewhere.
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I do wonder how much of an incarnation does a soul remember. Is it like the way the average adult, say may age, remembers say the 4th grade they had at elementary school, which is not a lot of memories, or do they immediately remember everything instantly. Or is it they can remember everything perfectly, but they have to dig a bit?
I can remember when I've gotten past life stuff it's only flashes since it's not really important for me to recall all of this life on this world, or even to know what species it was. Though i do wonder if souls remember past lives like that or if it's different. no biggie, just curious.
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I'm about to do the 12th meditation for the 2nd time today , which will finish the first pass, as I call it , of part 3 of awakening the light body. I'll try keeping it to only humans. Though I'll have to heavily fictionalize my childhood since I wasn't raised by my parents. let's see how it goes. The first time I did it the 34 minutes seemed like 4 minutes at most.
I just finished doing the mediation and it went very well, running the energy and everything else. I did fictionalize most of my life, but that is ok. i did merge that me from the guided meditation and the earlier me also, replacing their memories with mine. though the guided mediation said to do that with this me from this guided meditation. being born a master who is radiant & remained so, no veil in place. Though I'd shorten that to a radiant master. Though soul did say, several times, during the meditation when orin/sanaya mentioned my higher self that I don't have one. Since I don't need one. I can talk directly to soul and other reasons too.
The details are unimportant but i do know, I have had past, or is it parallel, lives on other places like Sirius, Pleiades, Arcturus, and other worlds and places. been more not incarnated then incarnated. and unlike former soul, don't really feel the pull to do so. it does have it's nice and good points, unique to each place, but I'd rather remain non incarnated. Since my taste has changed I feel.
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Had an interesting experience with soul. I lay down to mediate and felt some energy something. think soul was doing some sort of energy work, on the edges so to speak.
I don't recall the full conversation we had. I did hug him and he said enough time for fun later, fun meaning soul type sex, sharing. he was in an anthro dolphin type form and I was as well, as best as I could tell. or sometimes human and sometimes anthro dolphin.
I did ask about Mirabelle and he said she is busy, hours to her are like days to you.
I asked about twin flame and he said she is busy too. He said as I am busy in certain ways she is doing similar work. I asked if she is my or your twin flame. he said both. i asked why he appears to me as a male and he said since I'm a male. i asked if you appear to twin as you do to me and he said yes. i asked if you are a female to her as a male to me, and he gave me a knowing smile and said, sometimes.
I asked if what he's doing with energy is something to bring us closer or something. he said its something like that. Then I got an idea and said to him, if you are really my soul, I give you permission to enter into me and do what you want and need to do. he seemed happy about that. Not sure why I got the idea. he did enter into me. Felt like my energy, but he felt very warm. Then the energy stuff he was doing became much more powerful. Extremely pleasurable. he said something like <there, isn't this better then sex.> in a humorous fashion. This energy work, whatever he was doing, was very pleasurable indeed and I did feel an intense love inside myself. Telling him how I felt that I did love him completely with all my being, and what did that mean since I am you and you are me. he said it means that you love yourself that much, which is a very good thing.
The energy stuff went on for a bit then slowly died down. I then asked curiously if I could do a sort of trance channel while channeling him and he said technically we can, but that is not our path and he'd rather merge with me. I said ok. he asked <do you really mean it.> and I could feel he was very very excited about it. No idea why he was. I caressed his cheek and rostrum in as seductive a manner as I could saying "as long as you promise I can experience being an individual now and then." he said <its a deal.> I asked if it's done. He said yes, just like that. I did say by my getting to experience being an individual now and then I mean as a soul like him, not only while I was incarnated. not that I was worried, Just wanted to be sure that was clear. he said he knows what my intent was, he said it in an humorous tone, adding, after all I am telepathic.
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I did the 2nd guided meditation for receiving a clear channel. I asked that my soul be involved as well. This one was about removing any blockages, doubts, fears, ect that would prevent you from being able to channel your guide. I added in collective and guides since the group who's a collective apparently my current highest level master guides I can channel and we're family at the soul level, family and extremely very close friends.
The place they pulled me up into was very bright and some of them looked like small suns, as bright as looking into earth's sun. Some of them were vaguely humanoid but the vast majority were the small suns. First soul stepped into where I was so both of us were in the same place at the same time then some of those collective members that looked like suns entered into me and some into soul. I did say to them that I give my soul and them, as long as they are the highest level master guides I can attract and are of the light. I said i gave my soul and them permission to do whatever they need to do to do what she said this guided meditation is for and also to help me to be as clear of a channel for them and my soul, to strengthen our link/bond/connection and with my soul too. One of them and I talked in mainly idle talk while the others stayed inside me and soul doing some sort of energy work.
that one did say a good thing would be if my soul and I were to merge. then i asked, then I'd be a full concussion member after that and he said that is part of the process. I feel I don't need or have to merge with my soul to become a member, but like i said to soul earlier. I think I would like to experience being an individual now and then, but I'd like to merge with him at least once. I'm curious what that experience would be like.
I then asked something about, then I'd eventually experience being a member of you then experience being you, all of you merged into one. he said something about, that is getting ahead of myself.
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I do recall more of the idle conversation. I did ask about Scarlett and the showed me soul groups. We, the collective soul and me were of one. Scarlett was of another nearby, and we were connected to a common larger soul group? I asked this since I had read part of her post before doing doing this meditation. not sure if both of the soul groups were connected directly to the main larger soul group or if there were some in between, not that details really manner.
he also said I would really love small form factor pc's like the mini itx, and android pc on a stick and I should continue looking into those. Eventually set aside a hundred or a bit more to eventually purchase 1 or both. Though if I did a mini itx I think I'd rather assemble one myself instead of a pre built one.
This was one guy who talked to me during the experience. he was a a vaguely humanoid type shape. Soul and I were in anthro dolphin type of forms as I recall.
A bit later I experienced soul and us kissing, in anthro dolphin type forms.
"So is our merging a important process or will help it along?" <mmhmm.>
"to me fully awakening and becoming a full conscious member of the collective monad group thing?" <both of us, yes.>
I asked soul if we've started the merging process and he kissed me as he said, <mmhmmm.>
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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1:20 PM
As I lay down to take a nap I decided to
try to do a quick channel and ask soul a question. I'll try to type
down that I recall of the answer.
So what exactly is a soul? <a soul is an individual expression of source. It is the part that is not limited unlike the portion that is incarnated in a human body in this system. As unfortunate as that may be. being multi dimensional I can experience myself as you, as myself and as another, at the same time. We are twins, you and I, identical twins. Just currently you have certain blocks in place. here let me show you.> and then I felt like a shift or a something, and I experienced myself as an exact identical twin to soul, except I had certain blocks blocking off most of my memories and abilities.
So what exactly is a soul? <a soul is an individual expression of source. It is the part that is not limited unlike the portion that is incarnated in a human body in this system. As unfortunate as that may be. being multi dimensional I can experience myself as you, as myself and as another, at the same time. We are twins, you and I, identical twins. Just currently you have certain blocks in place. here let me show you.> and then I felt like a shift or a something, and I experienced myself as an exact identical twin to soul, except I had certain blocks blocking off most of my memories and abilities.
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