I did the 5th meditation for part 3. Running the energies went ok to very good.
As for the experience itself, I get a huge mix of stuff. To briefly summarize it, I saw the grid as graph paper, then 3 dimensional graph paper type of grids. then all around me in a sphere. a cube in front of me. very densely packed stars, or points of light. The inside of my apartment from another angle. Images of dolphins, anthro dolphins. 2 dolphins belly to belly, an anthro orca in a somewhat seductive pose. No idea what to make of all of it. I may have forgotten some images, but I think I got all of them. Though I listed them may be a bit out of order. I think I got the images listed mainly in order.
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Not a lot to report on doing the 6th meditation of part 3. If I do 2
more today that'll put me 2 days ahead of schedule. That is ok. During
the very early part of the guided meditation soul appeared mentally to
me, but this time as an anthro orca, saying he was in an orca mood
today, we did a very short kiss then stopped before the meditation
started.
Running the energies went well. The rest of the meditation was focused
on the pieah and renawre, switching between the 2. Not sure of the
point of it, watching the thoughts happen without trying to control or
stop them. I got various images and things. Unlike with the piea, the
fewest thoughts seemed to happen with the renawre, not the pieah which
seems to be the way it should be. No biggie. That may be with earth
humans that that is normal, but not being a native earth soul my light
body energy system may be also non human or changed and different.
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Think I had a message from soul saying I'll shed the human skin once this incarnation is over. The humaness is just like the skin of a snake. Think soul says <yes.> I would like to do that. Be my true self in the human body.
Also looking ahead on the receiving a clear channel audio course it looks like the next one is talking, then releasing fears & doubts to receive clear guidance. and since the next light body guided meditation is changing your thoughts I'll target doubt and fear. Not sure if I have any fear, but maybe, below my level of consciousness. I think before I do those I may do a quick sub personality, without using the audio, meditation to deal with those 2, to see if together that helps bring about any changes in me. Though I may not notice the changes immediately.
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I was thinking. Souls may have 2 paths that end up at the same point. Some species of incarnates or souls go for more tech lines, and some more for innate powers of the soul. Some blend the 2. eventually even the tech folks, or at least many species, bring in abilities of the soul, using tech to do certain things, or enhance it, thinking they may need it or other things.
Also I was thinking, I don't recall any details, but I seem to know I have had incarnations in Sirius, Pleiades, Arcturus. maybe other places. Sirius may be the first one or maybe one where I had the most maybe. not sure about insect or reptilian races. maybe 1 incarnation, maybe in incarnations I had friends, co workers of these races. Maybe some of the soul family incarnated as these, but I didn't. Not sure on the exact details as of yet.
I can feel the appeal of incarnation souls feel for this. But also I feel at the soul level, or at least I believe it's at the soul level, that while inaugurating had an appeal to original soul, and I can feel that appeal and understand it. I don't really wish to incarnate. incarnating has some fun aspects to them, sure ,but it is a huge bother to do so to help others, and not right to incarnate just to have fun there, with side stuff. This me feels I'd rather remain on the other side, once this incarnation is over and help from the other side, since there are ways. I've incarnated a lot, let's move on, is how i feel. Let's focus on stuff we can do on the other side to learn and do to help others. There are more then enough opportunities on the other side to never need to incarnate again.
Some may say that incarnating helps one to evolve fast. But it is a question of what do you really want to do. Since no 1 way is better of faster then other. Those here on earth think earth is a great place to incarcerate since they are here. Also while there are certain characteristics about earth that may allow certain things, other places have other advantages, and remaining in the soul realms, also has certain advantages, so no place is better then any other.
I choose, if I have a choice at all, of never incarnating anymore, it's a big bother and I'd rather remain on the other side doing stuff and exploring some of the infinite possibilities there.
I do feel like while it had fun aspects. I'd rather put incarnating behind me, and move on to the next phase where I'm focused on doing stuff in the soul realms, having fun, doing stuff, learning, ect.
Yes, this me does feel that I want to move on, put incarnating behind me and focus on the opportunities on the other side in the soul realms to have fun, learn, do stuff, ect.
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I think soul has something to say on this, <Indeed we do have that choice if you should choose to pursue it. many opportunities indeed on this side to learn, have fun, do stuff. Plenty indeed and an eternity to explore all of them, the ones that interest you and us indeed. >
So I can choose to never incarnate again? <Indeed, and I feel tired with incarnating myself. it seems you also have no desire to do any of that either, so we are in agreement over and concerning this.>
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For example if I was say a Solar engineer, stabilizing stars so some inhabited planets would have a few more thousand years, or longer, before their sun died or went nova. I'd still be stuck in the incarnation, even if I was able to say project or somehow visit where the pod is, where my soul family lives, twin flame, or other beings on the other side. Even if multi dimensionally I could visit them, I'd still be stuck most of the time in the incarnation of the person who is a solar engineer for say a 500 year lifespan. And having to go through childhood, being born,or hatching from an egg, or whatever. A big bother, though it would be helping many beings.
Same if I was a planetary engineer. Terra forming worlds for others to live on, so live could start and evolve on the world, or others could be moved to, ect. same thing.
maybe I was a solar and planetary engineers in past or other incarnations who knows. I'd really rather not incarnate anymore. I can feel the appeal and attraction of incarnating, but I feel I'd rather just move on. Feels like I've done that and what interests me more is the stuff that lies on the other side.
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Had an interesting, and somewhat kinky, encounter with soul as I was laying down.
He was in an anthro orca form and I was also. We were hugging each other and kissing. I felt Some positive feelings, hard to describe. I also did what may seem odd but feels like the right thing to do at that time. I said to soul that as long as it for my greater good and you really are my soul that I surrender to you totally. Soul asked if I really meant it, and I said, while I pulled his head up so I was looking into his eyes, as long as both conditions are met. He then kissed me saying that both conditions are already met.
Then I felt some pleasurable sensations, maybe he was mingling energies with me or something. We did some quick mutual oral sex. Then what seemed odd to me soul switched position instantly and started to lick then suck on each of my nipples in turn, I found it odd, but sorta shrugged, saying I'm a male so why are you doing that, not like I have breasts much to speak of, being totally flat chested. Soul continued and I did feel some sort of warmth come through each into soul, in turn as he sucked on 1 then the other. He commented that they are just undeveloped.
Then he, or I should say shi, cupped one of hir breasts that shi didn't have before saying for me to suck on them. I did mention it being a bit kinky wasn't it. Shi said a fun type of kink and go ahead. I mentally shrugged and did so, feeling some sort of warmth enter my mouth. I assumed it was some form of light energy. Shi said to swallow as shi rubbed my back and I did, figuring why not. I did feel some warmth go down my throat into my stomach and soul wanted me to continue this with 1 breast then the other till shi said I had had enough. I did feel a bit full, not fully full but maybe mostly full. Shi said something like what passes for a sort of equivalent of a stomach in my energy bodies, isn't use to having much in it yet so can't hold much. I did feel a resonating, asking if it was high vibration light energy and shi said yes, the rate of resonance is higher then my own resonance of my various energy bodies including my light body, which is still in the process of awakening. I did ask about the device in me and wouldn't that put light energy into me and shi said it was a different mechanism and different purpose. What I had swallowed was pure high resonance light energy that would only sorta get digested, in a way, and circulate into my light and various other energy bodies. The device is designed to leak light at timed intervals into me, those who are around me and into the earth's energy grid.
I asked why have me suck on hir breasts, she said besides being fun, it was also symbolic. it appeared to a certain inner part of me. I guessed my inner child and shi said yes. Also shi said it was symbolic, <though I prefer to see us as equals and would prefer to do so, some souls see their incarnates as their children, so tectonically I could say you are a child of mine, but I prefer, as I said, to continue to see us both as perfect equals.> I mentioned I do prefer that also.
I asked if it was proper for me to surrender to him/hir, since didn't I give my power way to you. Shi said shi is me, and I said I'm you, so what does that mean? Shi said i had surrendered my power to myself, an important step & by surrendering to hir I had thereby reclaimed more of my original power.
Not sure if I fully understand it. I think I partially do.
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I did the 5th guided meditation about releasing doubts & fears to receive clear guidance. I was in an orca form swimming higher up into a very bright light and ended up in a place of extremely bright light. Light that I could see and feel. It did feel wonderful. The collective helped to raise me up to this level, wherever it is, and their energy entered into me. As their energy entered into me it felt like I was growing larger. And during this i could feel them and I guess my soul, i did ask that he be included in this too, were doing energy work on me. I could feel a lot of it was mainly in my head and abdominal areas and they did shine light, love, & joy on certain thoughts as they came up, dissolving or transmuting them to a higher reflection, as well as continuing whatever energy work they were doing. They paused at times. I guess to maybe let me, or my energy systems relax, recover, cool down, or whatever the term is.
At one point I did feel like I was raising higher in whatever the bright light place was. The light, as I mentioned before, was all around me and shining through me as well. The collective's light was a bright and was shining from inside me outward as well, at the same time, during most of this. From a bit after I arrived through the ending.
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I did the 7th meditation of part 3. Changing your thoughts. Think I'll refrain from doing 8 tonight. I'll end up with a day with just 12 alone to do, but I'll do that meditation 2 or maybe 3 times that day. Maybe twice with adding in changing my thoughts as well, and any sub personality that I feel the need for. Overall it went very well. I feel better,
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