Friday [2-13]


I felt around and in the central channel. Feels like it is still flowing upwards the same as before. can't feel it usually since I think I'm getting use to it. Also I do feel an energy of some sort flowing down from above my head somewhere and into my body and maybe the central channel too, not sure.

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 Very true, channels within channels and many channels.

I think yesterday or today i maybe know why at least beings do not use names, or maybe it's just the fellow pod members. They know who you meant when you mention someone. For example if you were talking to a friend of yours, and you say something like , "he said something great to me today." the other being, or at least pod member will know who you meant since part of your intent to send the message was to include who the he was. Not sure if that makes any sense.

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Not sure if it was being more of it's seductive tricks stuff again. It said, while at one point I felt like hand on my chest again, rubbing to one side, <when you are back home we'll explore and experience the many dimensions of pleasure together, and you will do so also alone, with some other pod members and other beings.>

"being a sort of paradox, as a new being and not a new being, <yes, both you are new to this, the pod being your soul family, but also it is not new to you, both at the same time. You did choose to take this unique opportunity and experience and for good reason. some do like being a bit of a paradox, though paradoxes don't really apply to souls, just to certain levels of understanding.>

"and when you say pleasure, you mean more then just that, love, affection, companionship, ect." <yes, when I say "pleasure" to you it has many layers, meanings, definitions perhaps also. Love, companionship, joy, and others at times as well. Though unlike what some would call extremists we do not do this with just anyone that catches our interest. though there can be growth in that as well for those involved, growth and learning, it's not really our way. though we do count some of them as friends, at the pod level and for some at a more personal level. For others mathematics may be their pleasure, others nearly unemotional logic, and for others, other ways. >

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 Had an interesting experience. I lay down to take a nap and it felt like someone or something, not sure if it was soul or something dan or another guide did. But it did feel like someone or something connected to the kundalini channel and streamed a bit more of whatever the energy into the channel. Not to stretch it, but just to put some extra in for whatever reason.

Then It felt like kundalini for the first time was communicating with me. At times I got a sort of feeling like it wanted me to go into certain postures, which I did for short periods of time. At times I would also get mental images of a posture. Not sure if both of those were from kundalini or maybe 1 was and the other was maybe a guide or technician or something that wanted me to do certain postures. After I did it felt like kundalni was happy or something since it felt like it was flowing more strongly and I could feel a pleasure sort of feeling as well.

in reflection it seems like my sex drive is at a fairly constant high level, or higher then it was before.

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Got curious. I think I know at least some of the reasons I'm here or came here. But I have another question, that I hope they can answer, them being the soul I'm part of, my twin flame, the 2 guide types, Dan and Stan, though I guess they are also soul brothers also since we all share the same soul, the 3 of us being external aspects of his. The one I call green sister who does feel like a .... maybe a sister, very close friend type. Soul may have other aspects so who knows how many soul siblings i have.

My question though maybe multiple questions, is, what will it be like once I'm back there among my soul family there. What are some of the sorts of things I may do, what'll it be like to be there among them fully, and that sort of thing. I do wonder if they will answer it somehow. Just curious. I'll assume that that sort of thing isn't a secret. ;)

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 no answer from them so far. It may come later, or maybe it is a big secret I'm not supposed to know till I'm fully there. I had assumed it would not be a secret, but maybe it is.

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I was thinking on Soul ages and relationships. Both can get a bit complicated.

For soul ages for example. Some say it is an iron clad thing. Young, old, ect. But it is complex and blurred. One's energy has been around since the 1 started everything. Also as far as identity, one can be say like me, who's a new/old soul. to the degree say what some call a past life that soul was doing. Was that really me. It was say soul, though I was maybe an aspect at that time, or an unrealized aspect. or a potential aspect. Also the past lives that twin flame and I had that lead to use becoming full twin flames, could be me, but I've switched to being an aspect of another soul, that was the soul's soul that I was part of. it is pretty complicated. I did choose to remember, or at least have access to that wisdom, experience, ect so I'd not be a new/young soul didn't want to go through a l that again. To much of a bother really. Also the feel I get is souls may not recall their incarnations with as much detail as one does during an incarnation. Though each soul will be different, and they may differ over time. some memories will be easy to recall. i think it is similar to say once one is say 40, how much can one recall of say 4th grade elementary school. once one is back as a full soul the incarnations of the past I think are much like that. Some details recalled but not super detail. though I would assume if a soul wanted to really dig they could get to all the memories and recall it perfectly, but most don't see the need. incarnating is fun for many souls, and for some it's mainly a job. I go here to do this, or these things. though I will have some fun on the side. others do incarnate for at least half fun, and half to work on certain issues.

I also get the feel that maybe after this I may not incarnate anymore. I do feel different then before. Not that I hate being here. Just thing my perspective has change, something inside me has changed along the way, not sure where or when. Maybe switching souls or the kundalini rising or something.

Though original soul, from what some of the pod members said. Did a mission, visiting the pod during a mission when he could, then between missions he would live there. and the time between missions may be decades or hundreds of years, so to speak. maybe after a few hundred years I may change my mind, or I may prefer remaining on the other side of things. Similar to Seth, though I need to read more of the book, where he's not focused on physical reality anymore. i do feel like something in me has changed, not sure if it is the switching souls, or just becoming more of my true self, but I do think this may be my last incarnation ever, or at least for a very very very long time, thousands of years. Since I assume there are many things to do that do not involve incarnating.

I am also curious if when I go back to the pod, if that will be just me going home, or will that count as another incarnation, or a mix of the 2.

As for having a new soul, that is also a complex thing. I am a complete soul with no need to become an aspect of another soul. Though being an external aspect of a soul does offer one numerous advantages. one is a fairly large support system since the one that one is an external aspect of will be what some would call a higher order or higher, more developed, soul, to put levels to it, several dimensions ahead so to speak. also if that soul has other external aspects, and likely it will, they'll be like a very close family/friends, mixed into one.

And soul relationships are complex also, in a way. With say the pod, there are likely members that i am, or will be very close to, the close family members so to day. others I'm not as close to and others I see but only talk to or interact with now and then. Then there are the ones that are aspects of the same soul that I'm an external aspect of. siblings so to speak.

Then one can have soul friends that are close enough to be a soul family, perhaps even sharing some energy of their very being so that are family, as well as being close friends, but are not of the same soul lineage, like say all the pod members are. Since I'd assume they are of the same lineage, being dolphin and orca type beings. whereas someone who is of a lineage of looking like this or that could be as close to one as the closest pod member is to me, they would be another soul lineage, but if we have shared mingled some of our being and soul energy. we may indeed be close enough to regard and be close family members.

So twin flame and I can remain primary twin flames since we both want to, though that me in those past lives with her was at the same time, me and not me. a paradox, but as she said paradox doesn't really apply to souls and some like being paradoxes, or a bit of a paradox.

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No info or answer from them, so I guess it is a big secret what it'll be like for me once I get there after this incarnation is over. I had assumed it was no secret, but I was wrong. One of the many things I was wrong about, and likely there will be more.

Only thing I got this time was some sort of procedure being done. I felt a tingling or resonating in one spot of my back and what felt like some sort of tendril thing reaching into me through that spot to do various whatever, some had a hint of slight pain. Soul or someone said it was unfortunate but a slight amount was understood to happen based on what they were doing. No idea what they were doing. Felt like removing something, small. Though from the feel of it it didn't hinder the flow of kundalini though the spot that was resonating was right over my spine and the tendril did feel like it was doing stuff along the back, maybe some spots of the channel and the edges of the spinal bone. No idea what since they were not telling. At the end felt like they put a slight amount of whatever energy into the kundalini channel.

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also, forgot to put down before. Felt like some part of me was very very light. No idea what is up with that. Then someone said something about anchoring your fin, and I felt someone or something doing something to my back. Like they were adding something on. Then the same person said something like anchoring the tail and I felt like something was stuck on the end part of my spine.

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I felt a mental contact and instinctively knew it was her.  I asked if it was and she said yes.  I jokingly said, "prove it." not seriously but in a joking manner.

Had an experience with my twin flame again.  It felt like she stepped or popped into where I am.  I could feel her all around me and I knew it was her. Some soul level instinct instantly knew.  I could feel our energies starting to mingle, and start to merge.  to call it a pleasurable or orgasmic experience is to not do it true justice.  I think I wasn't thinking this whole time.  I lost myself in the experience, surrendering to the experience and it felt indeed like our energies were starting to merge into one.  Then I felt the equivalent of her finger on the tip of my orca rostrum and then her saying, <no.  You have an incarnation to finish first.> she said with what I felt like her smiling.  <When you return back here, and after the welcome home party.  A week will pass and we won't know it.>  It did feel like my energy was resonating.  and my kundalini was flowing strong, or had more energy. 

A few minutes later she did the same and I lost myself in the experience again.  Though when she did the equivalent of putting her finer on the tip of my orca rostrum and I got a mental image of her smiling I remembered her earlier message. and I was left again feeling like I was resonating and with my kundalini  was flowing stronger or it had more energy.

Then 5 or 10 minutes later i felt her pop or around me again. this time i was able to resist the loosing myself and our energy merging.  It took a surprising amount of will not to just surrender to the experience and let our energies to start to merge to form one. 

I asked her and she did affirm that yes, she was doing what she as doing to increase my vibration, so I could be more of the true me, my true self. She also then said, because of who and what we are, our vibrations want to match, be in perfect harmony.  So hers is helping mine.


a bit after this, an hour or so.  I decided to try something to see what would happen. I closed my eyes and meditated on us being together, kissing.  First me in an orca form and she in her dolphin form, my orca being the same size as her dolphin form.  we were then holding each other, no sex at all, just embracing.  this time we were chest and belly touching and our tails intertwined as much as they could.  she shifted then i did, so we were in anthro forms.  i could feel my energy or body resonating slightly just from this.  and my kundalini feels slightly warm.  Then I got her giggling good naturally saying <hehehe, stop, you're distracting me.>  I did stop, not sure if she meant it or not, but how knows what she was doing, maybe something important.  hehe, but i did find out one way to distract her. One of her buttons maybe. ;)

As i was about to type this I did get a mental message from her, it felt like her smiling and she said, <oh, yes, you've discovered one of my buttons.  wait till you figure out more.> 

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I sent my twin flame, "happy valentines day." though I had no idea if she would know what it was. I got the mental impression of her smiling then saying, <happy valentines day yourself.> then in a more seductive tone of voice, <I'll have your valentines here when you get back home.> oooooo.

Thursday [2-12]
Interesting. That may be why it feels like my kundalini rises up through the top of my head and that felt like it descends and they sort of cross each other, so to speak.

Not sure if I did put this down above, but it felt like this would be a unique experience for me as a soul that rarely comes up. If that makes any sense. I'm getting use to the new me, think I am mostly use to it. I guess I've had a full kundalini rising, neat. I'm getting use to or use to the way it feels, sorta like an eternal snake crawling up my spine, up through the top of my head. The new experience I guess is me being a new/old soul who's an external aspect of a higher level soul. I did ask it before, and he did say he's not directly from source, there is at least 1 between him and source. Though he would not say how many, same as he would not say how many current aspects he has.

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also spent a bit of time embracing, hugging, and a bit of licking the jaw of green sister as I call her, some shared affection, & intimacy, no sex really involved.

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On bus on way to place to play RPG. Fred 1st chapter of 1st Seth book. Stan wanted to experience what it is like to be physical. It kinda felt like he wazzup sitting where I was. He said he HaD not been this dense of a being before. He said he better understands the limitation I live in under and experience. Though it would also allow 1 to experience unique pleasures. Not his thing but he better understands what it is like for me being here.

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Seeing if I can recall any past or parallel lives from original soul. just get vague sorta impressions. light blue skin humanoid, dolphin like beings. that is all I can get for now. Current soul: Same maybe, more cetaceans maybe? it's energy feels much more potent, concentrated, powerful, then the original soul's. a lot more concentrated, love/joy/pleasure/relaxed/contentedness/affection/sexual maybe, maybe companionship? hard to describe the feeling of the energy besides it does feel more potent, concentrated, powerful. 

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had a wild experience after a shower and I lay down to nap. hard to describe exactly. For no reason my sex drive was way way above it's normal peak level. To the extent that I mentally said to the soul I'm an external aspect of that I wished he were here physically so we could just do it. Then he said <why not do it now?, or something like that. I asked just like that and he said <sure, why not>.

The next experiences are something I can't begin to experience. he said something like <time to experience your true being.> or something like that. and I felt, the closest I can explain was the energy I felt was a bunch of feelings at once. Bliss, pleasure, orgasm, (both sexual and non sexual versions of the first 3 at once), love, joy, and perhaps more. The energy and feeling was all inside me, my very being. This went on for a while then stopped. after a few minutes or maybe longer it started up a 2nd time, but not as strong this time. Then another pause, like a rest or something. Then the 3rd time. But this time I was not just experiencing it, but it was being streamed into me from where I could not tell. It felt like it was being streamed into both my body, or whatever energy body is inside this body, but also into the channel the kundalini travels. This went on, with the soul I'm an external aspect of streaming energy into me continuously. I felt like something in me was dissolved during this, no idea what it was, a block, or something else? Till at one point it said in a humorous, non serious manner, <better stop before you pop.>

I lay on the bed for a while. It felt like my body was resonating far stronger then it had for a long time, and the kundalini felt far more concentrated then it's ever been. the resonating in my body has been fading since then. But a few minutes after the experience was over it felt like the concentration of the kundalini energy was to much for the channel and it stretched, maybe forced stretched since the energy or kundalini was to concentrated. I feel a not, soreness, or slight tenderness there, but something. It feels now like the channel the kundalini travels up is slightly wider then my spine now.

I asked soul and it said it streamed energy into me from a spacial direction that doesn't exist in the universe I currently inhabit.

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Also today I noticed, not sure how long I'd been like this.  I didn't just know or feel that everyone is one. I was experiencing it.  Sorta  like I can lean my head forwards and sorta experience it, almost like before, or hold my head in the normal position and I experience it, everyone is all 1 soul, with individual identities.  hard to describe.

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A few hours later and I wonder what Soul did to me.  I tried asking it and all it said was, <fun wasn't it?> with the impression of it was smiling. 

<see, fooling around with me, can lead to fun, pleasurable experiences like that.>    <being an aspect of mine has many such advantages, many pleasures.  I promise more in your future.> 

Not worried, just curious what he did to me.  I did a bit of digging deep into me.  Felt a feeling that I'm not consciously aware of usually.  Pod, home. 

hmm.   <the pull of home.  I'll always be there, but you are doing well.  that is why the pull is, somewhat sleeping.  that is a good sign, but it is always there.  when you cross over, the pull will awaken at the apropriate time.  one of use will escort you home, perhaps stan, dan, or the one  you call green sister. >

"Feels normal that a high level being like yourself does like what some here call sex, sharing as the pod calls it."  <yes, natural for us.  but you already accept this, i can feel that.   good.  live what is natural.  We share pleasures, and other things.>  

"are you trying to seduce me or something? "

<no, I am. :)    our nature is not just the love/joy or souls, it is also pleasure, affection, companionship, sharing pleasure, affection, among ourselves and some others.  though we are not extremists, there are some among our friends who are.> 

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a bit after this i felt him caress my chest softly.  <This is part of our nature.>  "yes, I know, feel that.  and you are getting .. good a pressing certain buttons, very seductive, erotic even.  <good, I've made it my, duty, focus, pleasure to learn every button of each of my aspects, so we can more efficiently share pleasures, and aspects can also share pleasures more efficiently and better as well.  It is part of our nature, besides the usual soul love/joy and so on.  it is a port of our nature ot also share pleasure, affection, companionship. >   "you're certainly learning quick my buttons."   <indeed.  wait till you're here and i have learned all of them.  and what I learn, my other aspects can learn from and access.> 

"Do you have a body where the pod is that you use?" <no, but I can make one easily if I want.  doing that where you are is ... not worth the bother.  easier by far where the pod is.  and between aspects and me, why do that.  we can just use my ... what you call the white buffer place..  as one of my aspects, you have full access to it you know.> 

"Guess I don't really know what I'll be like once I'm back home."  <you have some clues.  For us it is like this, pleasure, sharing pleasures, affection, companionship.  Others ways are different, mathematics, and other ways.  natural for them as these are for us.  Embrace and accept our ways.  I know you have, but continue to do this. and you'll learn much.> 

Does part of me feel light, some part inside? feels like maybe it is ? floating?

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"you're getting to where you can be as seductive or erotic as my twin flame is. <there is an excellent idea. the 3 of us can have some fun when you are here. the 2 of us knowing all of your buttons by then. I'll ask her and arrange it.> ooo interesting. can that be more then once? <intend it to be. maybe even another aspect of mine at times, or 2.>

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I do wonder if my kundalini channel will get wider or be forced wider like it was. and if more energy will be streamed or pumped into me like it was earlier today. is that just for pleasure/fun, or does it increase my vibration, or have other reasons, effects too? I wonder.

WED [2-11]

I asked the soul I'm an external aspect of now. "am I a new being?" newsoul said <yes. i became a new being twice. first time was when I became your soul, and 2nd when your kundalini rose earlier today. >

"so why did it rise during my sharing with Stan? <why wouldn't it. you are both orcas or dolphins in reality. So is the kundalini you have. It's not really a human kundalini that you have.>

"so i guess for you it was poof. I'm still getting use to having a new soul. <no, not poof for me either. I'm getting use to it also, having a new aspect. >

"I guess you know all my memories?" <not really. though I can access all of your memories far more easily then you can mine. Don't try for now. Just get use to the new you that you are.

"So is this veil going to go away?" <you'd be surprise how much of it is gone. it is dissolving so to speak.> "if you wanted to remove all of it at once for good I'd not mind." <I'll consider and think about that. you just relax, get use to the new you. and you'll gradually slip into 5d before you know it.>

"So those 2 experiences, is that what, sharing is like for souls who are where you are?" <very Similar, it's what its like for an aspect and I who want to share with me or have what some call soul sex. See i can easily access what you know of earth. Though I don't go about prying into your personal memories.>

"can we... do that again in the future?' <sure, anytime you want.> "just like that?" <yes, just like that. if you're surprised I'm that open, considering where i am, then consider, I am what some would call a cetacean or fin soul.> "i don't want to personalty loose myself in that experience when this incarnation is over." <and you won't. You don't want to, and even if you do loose yourself in the experience i don't want you to. You'll get use to that after a while. you are still VERY new to that. So don't worry. I want you to remain an external aspect, not an aspect fully merged into me. and your twin flame doesn't want you to either. >

"it is, different feeling like 7 different things at once, and it's so intense." <good, shows how aware and how much growth you have, to be able to feel that many things at once when we share. it just feels more intense, from where you are. once I incarnate you as a pod member you'll be more use to it. and yes I can do that once you are here, but not right away. I'll let you rest, and such, till the right then when i ask if you want to continue our relationship or not, and it's not forever. if you change your mind later you can go independent. and if you don't like being independent you can always come back.>

"so, if I do remain as an external aspect of yours, you won't incarnate me, like on earth or somewhere? <my only plan really is to incarnate you as a pod member where Stan, your twin and others are at.>

"Will I have to be born into wherever they are?" No, you could experience something like when you accepted my offer to become your new soul and you an external aspect of mine. You'd feel something but not a huge thing. or if you want to experience being inside an orca and being born i can arrange that, and the babyhood and growing up to being an adult. it's a rare thing but a few do like the experience.> "nah, think I'll pass." <consider it, lots of time to consider it.> "is that a kink of yours or something?" He was giving me a mental image of being a baby orca type being feeding from a "mother". <I do have kinks I like. everyone has certain things they like. some things they may not know they'd like. and no, I won't force any on you. Any you dislike you'll still dislike with me as your soul. any you had no feelings for or were neutral about, yu may find you like, or like to indulge in once in a while, or may dislike.> "i'd rather do the poof thing." <that is ok, we'll discuss it again later, the advantages of each. no need to decide now.>

"what changes will I experience or feel with you as my new soul? <some I'd rather you find out for yourself. much of the you you know as you, the true you, won't be changed really. maybe slightly, like looking through colored sunglasses. some bits may be nudged in this or that direction. being an external aspect of a soul higher up from where your former one is at will have some advantages. Some I'd like you to discover for yourself. Some are, you'll be on a sort of fast track, so to speak, as a soul. Much of the changes you'll experience or get to know having a new soul will be more subtle, at least at first. You'll find you like this new arrangement. you really did make the absolute best choice for yourself. any of those other choices would not have been anywhere as good. as time passes, you'll find there are many advantages to being an external aspect of mine. as Stan said, you get the best of both. You can do your own thing, grow, learn advance, and still have the advantages of being an aspect. > "like 2 of your aspects seem to want to share with me." <that is just one of the fringe benefits. and they would have been willing even if you were an aspect of your former soul or an independent soul. they wouldn't once the situation came to light since it may have influenced you and we wanted you to decide for yourself. Though we did do strong hints what would be the best choice for you.>

< but as to the changes of me being your new soul, me having a new aspect, and you being a new being twice. We'll explore and learn that together, as well as exploring and learning certain things alone. It'll come easy.> "go with the flow, accept, and have fun."

<and pleasure. Don't forget pleasure too. and I'd never force you to do anything that you don't want to do.>

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"So, will you share my experiences with my former soul, since his plan and desire was to experience awakening as a human."  <at the appropriate time yes.>

"So my getting a new soul helped many to grow and learn?"  <yes, yourself, me, some on the forum, others as you go around and feel or know what happened at a soul level, though some of them may not be consciously aware of what happened. >

"So those who are individual souls are still connected like I am with you?"  <very similar yes. though the link, bond or whatever you want to call it is dormant, closed, or another term like that.  Not exactly right but hard to describe it in english.>

"So, I am a soul, but you are my soul, both at the same time?"  <in a manner or speaking yes, though it is very complicated.  Even at say my level of being I am still learning more of how the ramifications really work and the full meaning of it.>

"I have felt or read that learning never does stop."  <It never does really.  >

I feel him smiling a bit <That is one benefit of remaining an external aspect of mine.  You can learn from me or through me more easily and faster then being an individual soul, where you are discovering everything yourself.  neither is better then the other, just a question of preference or personal taste.  There some who do both.  Go independent for a while, then an external aspect of a soul.  One can be an internal aspect, but that offers less options.>

"As there is always change."  <yes, change never happens.  Though some past things one will miss, changes bring new possibilities.  Some changes can be so gradual one may not notice.  Some things never change.  One will always have others they are close to to varying extents.  Though the exact ones may change.  At the soul level friends will often remain friends, if they need to learn certain things, things may change but they ultimately will be friends again. Though some are much closer then mere friends are.>

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So if we are cetacean type beings, dolphin or orca type beings, we still have private dwelling places?  <Yes, everyone needs to be alone at times, even fellow pod members need to be alone at times, some more then others.>

"So there are mathematical minded beings <as such yes, that is not our way.  Our way is pleasure, companionship beings> I felt a hand touch my abdominal area and caress upward to my chest, not expecting this, and it caressed my chest for a moment <it is a part of your being.  You do know this now, but not the full ramifications of this.>

"So, can my dwelling be bigger on the inside then the outside?< sure if you want it to be.>  "I woud like that." <ok, done. and yes, just like that.> "cool."  <yes, it is cool. and you're not the only one to have that. it is actually very popular.  it can and will grow and change as you want.>  "like a tardis." <similar, but not exact.  it is linked to you, to an extant.  Though dan is in the early stages of decorating it and placing certain things in it.  Perhaps a vehicle also.  but you wanted it to be a surprise so I'll not go into any detail.>  "yes, I'd rather it be that way, a pleasant surprise.  i guess since he and I have you as our soul that'll make his picking what to put in it easier?"  <certainly, I am both of your soul, so he can easily know if you'd like this.  this you'd like more then this.  but this will make you reflect more. and so on.> 

"so, that buffer white space thing.  I have one inside me?  and you have one too?  I guess as an external aspect of yours i can use it at will?"  <yes to both, though if I do need it for some reason you'll know.  Though you can use 1 dimension so to speak, and I can use anther and we'd have separate uses of it.  It can get pretty complicated.  But yes you do have free use of it.  it can be use for many things.  like a 4d being, a 5 or 6d and 8d, could easily all be together.> 

"So Dan travels between 5 and 6d?"  <indeed, through various means.  he can do it himself, Stan or I can move him up.  Part of his job or mission is he travels back and forth between the 2.> 

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I also had a brief conversation from Stan yesterday that some pod members do like playing rpg, role playing games and there it is not just people around a table with a gm describing what they see, hear ect.  they can be like in the world. An interesting thing.  I guess like one can experience being the song.

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 "so my kundalini, the veil being dissolved or disappearing and being 5d are different things?"

< Yes, those are 3 different phenomena, though some or all 3 can happen at the same time, for some they may not.  Depends on various factors, the individual, and other things.  Think of the kundalini, your kundalini having reached the top of your head, to use an earth expression, means now that a certain circuit is now complete in you.  it can be widened, made more efficient, but it is now complete in you.  The other stuff will happen regardless of what you do now.  Due to your mission, your former soul's plan, now my plan it seems, and other things as well.>

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Funny thought, I read a thread title, something like Have you ever protected yourself from  your twin?  In my case the only protection I'd need to use against her is her seductive erotic ways, and she only gets like that, in my experience, at appropriate times, so no need for protection there.

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"as much as pleasure and companionship is part of our being, due to the type of beings we are, it also includes love and affection."   <indeed, all 4 and more.  it is a part of our very being.   You can feel it can't you, experience it.> he at this point did what feels like a long kiss while hugging, with what felt like his hands being pretty low and sorta pressing our groin areas a bit together.  "yes, I do accept that is part of my being, ours.  <excelent. I feel you have indeed.  things will go faster, smoother, certainly more fun for all of us.>

"You are letting me see what things look like where you are.  <it would confuse you strongly where you are.  when you are with the pod, after a suitable time, if you wish, i can give you a simplistic or over simplistic tour of what it's like where i am.  You'll be closer to where i am then and it'll be easier on you then.>   "8d is it?  <perhaps, perhaps not, but who cares about labels. >

"true.  I see you find it easy to do that hug like you did.  <easy indeed.  you are part of me, so it's easy for me to do that with an aspect. after all I know right where you are and how to do that.  it's easy really.  Intention is all it takes really. Dan has done the same a bit.  Not as much as I have.  though close.  Stan has, other ways he prefers.>    "though Dan is the kinkier one."  <when it comes to what you'd call certain dominant kinks yes.  Though i don't like the kinks term.> 

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"as much as pleasure and companionship is part of our being, due to the type of beings we are, it also includes love and affection."   <indeed, all 4 and more.  it is a part of our very being.   You can feel it can't you, experience it.> he at this point did what feels like a long kiss while hugging, with what felt like his hands being pretty low and sorta pressing our groin areas a bit together.  "yes, I do accept that is part of my being, ours.  <excelent. I feel you have indeed.  things will go faster, smoother, certainly more fun for all of us.>

"You are letting me see what things look like where you are.  <it would confuse you strongly where you are.  when you are with the pod, after a suitable time, if you wish, i can give you a simplistic or over simplistic tour of what it's like where i am.  You'll be closer to where i am then and it'll be easier on you then.>   "8d is it?  <perhaps, perhaps not, but who cares about labels. >

"true.  I see you find it easy to do that hug like you did.  <easy indeed.  you are part of me, so it's easy for me to do that with an aspect. after all I know right where you are and how to do that.  it's easy really.  Intention is all it takes really. Dan has done the same a bit.  Not as much as I have.  though close.  Stan has, other ways he prefers.>    "though Dan is the kinkier one."  <when it comes to what you'd call certain dominant kinks yes.  Though i don't like the kinks label.> 

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"I don't have a higher self, is that due to our connection?"  <you're in a, what some may call a rare situation, though it does happen now and then and has was mentioned before there is a system in place. and the situation you and  I were in when the time came when you had to choose if you would accept my offer, and many are glad you did, though there was no real doubt you would choose the best choice.  we are in a situation where you don't need a higher self.  Once one reaches a point where they no longer need a higher self it does not go away but still exists.  though in our case , no higher self was needed so we never had one between us.  personally I prefer things this way.  though higher selves do indeed have uses and are invaluable and needed in certain situations.>

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Tuesday  [2-10]


As for my higher self, I guess technically not. I have been in contact with dan and stan, and my twin flame. and also my current soul. Or if maybe i'm contacting a part of him or something. Or if a higher self will sorta happen or has happened but not fully implemented yet. Not sure of hte process. Not sure if that counts as enough contact, having main contact with 2 guides that are aspects of his, my twin flame and I can contact him.

Not sure of the dimension he's gone to. maybe up 1 dimension. they won't say what dimension where most of the pod is.

With my twin I think the key is she was an independent soul before this happened. Not sure if that makes sense. i asked her and all she said was, the key is she was an independent soul before any of this got started, and they did something, behind the scenes, to ensure that we would remain twin flames. and her energy/being, like mine, were once part of this current soul, when the original soul we were part of was an aspect of his before he choose to split off and become an independent soul. She also hinted at, I was asleep for part of this process so not consciously there. whatever that means.

As for the soul I was part of. i get the sorta feel/knowing that it would be harder for him to reach me since he went up a level or vibratory thing. he has to rest from his ascension and learn or relearn, grow use to it. Something like that. maybe he has to focus more fully on that for now. not sure if that makes any sense. time flows different from them then us.

i guess it's like I heard on a bashar video I listened to yesterday when a woman asked why her recently deceased husband isn't in contact with her. she said it's been 5 months. part of what bashar said, besides she may be trying to hard is. part of what bashar said, and i'm no idea who this bashar is, but i do like his style and the way his voice sounds, for some reason. he said, for you it has been 5 months. but he maybe has the full intention to console you and maintain contact with you, but for him when he turns around immediatly for him, for you it's, poof, been 5 months.

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 just a few mental questions to Stan while I was doing some morning stuff.

"SO, I guess what happened will mess up my being on the council at some point"

<no. I'm on some councils myself.> then he sort of does the equivalent of leaning in to whisper conspiratorially, i get the feel it's really meant in a non serious manner <it does add a certain bit of prestige to it.> I kinda do the equivalent of Spock raising an eyebrow, <since we're aspects of a higher dimensional being and can tap into his wisdom, it helps make some of the younger souls feel even more at ease.> and he smiles a bit, <and it give us an excellent reason to, fool around and have a bit of fun, with each other. After all since we are both aspects of the same soul, we do have to learn more of each other and make sure that we get along, and if we experience some pleasure at the same time, all the more reason.>  I've noticed instead of being just an anthro orca he's been holding a staff.  I pay attention to the staff, and he switches to looking like Gandalf for a moment, "yes, excellent movie trilogy, well the first 3, the 2nd 3 not so much, with the 3rd not as good as the 2nd, which isn't as good as the 1st.  Like the Shrek movies.>  he switches back to his anthro orca appearance.

"I've not seen the 2nd or 3rd hobbit movies.  I didn't know the pod knew much of earth culture."  <yes, when we heard about the earth mission some of us started looking into earth culture.  ancient Egypt, movies and cartoons/anime and certain books, games ect, are an especially interesting subject with some.  and you'd not believe the stories Tolkien, Lewis Carrol and others are and tell now. and that OS guy Doyle wasn't it?>  "Doyle was the one who did Sherlock Holmes.  Baum wrote the oz books."  <yes, anyway some of them are thrilled with the huge audience they have on this side and the new tools available to them on this side.  Though some of them have incarnated.>

<You're being a part of the same soul does allow us to have more knowledge of earth, since you have knowledge of earth.  We can tap into that knowledge or just know it.>

"hmm, sorta like I can somehow know, Dan is on a ...ship, near or around earth... either on another dimension, vibration away or slightly out of phase, same place but different, something so it or they are undetected at present?"  <see, you're learning how to tap into that same link, knowledge, but don't try to hard, it's natural and will be even easier for you over time as you become more aware and yes, it'll happen still, regardless, the mission still proceeds onward and you are on the fast track still, more then 1 now really, but the primary one will assist the collective unconscious as well.>


"so how is she still my twin flame?"  <certain... steps were taken to insure that.  the full explanation is a bit complicated, but part of the reason is the soul you're part of now she and you were once part of, not as aspects of an aspect since neither of you were active so to speak, had not been realized or existed, unlike say Chad and Sam (an aspect of myself I very recently merged or whatever the term is)  they are aspects of an aspect.  but the fact that both of your begins were once a part of him that you are an aspect of now.  Certain, aspects or parts of this you were present at but not conscious or agreed with us to not remember till later on.  Since that would complicate things and distract you.>  "yes, I guess it would."

"I guess this means we're, brothers?" <in a sense, we're aspects of the same soul.> and he hugs us close with his hands going a bit low on my back, <and an excellent reason to, have a bit of fun.  Though as soul said, think of it as sort of like we're members of a pod within a pod.>  "sounds like he has more then 3 aspects that are external, <certainly, but how many you'll find out later.>  "I guess he likes being male.  <he has incarnated as a number of genders and strongly prefers being male.  Some prefer that, others prefer being female, both genders, or flow back and forth based on their mood.  after all we are orcas & dolphins so not sharing, pleasure would be not our way, and it it fun.  and I can promise I'm not as kinky as Dan is.>   "yea, I guess, thanks."  Though I do feel a sexual arousal from his mental closeness, and a spiritual sort of sexual arousal as well, hard to describe.

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Forgot to add in this part I asked early on.  "Why do I feel I feel different at my core, ? energy ? but like the shell around that feels the same.  <the shell around it as you say is the you that you know as you and your real self that you are partially aware of, beneath the human conditioning and programming that you've been shedding and will continue to do so, wither you help the process along or not.  The core so to speak is sort of the connection you have with the soul we're aspects of, and a bit of soul itself.  it does feel a bit different since it is. >  and he adds in <of course you feel the sexual desire and urges and a soul/spirit level since we are dolphin/orca type beings, to use earth labels.>
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Had an interesting experience a short time ago. Forgot exactly how long ago it happened. While I was playing a game on my tablet I was also, somewhere else with Stan. Not the white buffer space but, maybe a private place somewhere. We were first on anthro orca forms and I hugged him close, opening my mouth to gently take his rostrum into my mouth, to which he said something like <yes, explore your dominance.> i felt during this as if my sex drive and urge had increased above the usual max. I then entered him with my maleness, taking his wrists into my hands on his back, not painfully but in a sort of hugging embrace. I switched wich of his wrists i was holding so I could cross my arms on his back and started to thrust into him. After a bit it felt like something started to rise from around the upper back or throat level, some bit of solid something with a spot of it that felt tingly. we then switched to non anthro orcas with me on the bottom and holding him in my flippers with my mouth still around his rostrum and still thrusting gently and slowly and whatever it was still rising, at this point near my upper neck . Stan for some reason said, <yes, yes> as if he felt what was happening to me and knew I was close to something. <experience your inner dominance.> he said, or something close to that. then it felt like whatever it was hit the top of my head and I felt a sort of, good feeling, pleasure maybe, my sex drive was well above the usual max. i also felt an extreme closeness, hard to describe, and also calmness, contentedness, maybe love and joy too. Stan caressed my sides and back saying something like <shhh, relax, experience it.> It passed then for some reason he said, <welcome.> "uh, thanks, but what for, you've already welcome me to <you've taken the first step in you as a new being. You may not be aware of it yet, but you will be soon.>

As I type this, do I feel a slight resonance going along the whole channel along my spine to the top of my head?  Feels like i do and some feeling along the top of my head stretching to the back of my head maybe?   maybe including the 3rd eye area too maybe?  maybe.

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Think I forgot to put this bit into Stan explaining how my twin flame and I are still twin flames.  I trying to remember the experience and type it down sometimes I get a bit ahead of myself and slip past something thinking I had already typed it down.

<even though the soul you were part of became an independent soul and your twin became an independent soul from it, the bonds are still there and can't be broken.  the lines or bonds so to speak, are still there.  hers to the soul we are a part of.  They are still there.  But in a different sort of state or stage then ours is to him. >  or something like that.

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I also wonder what I'll be doing say a year or several years from now. I've no idea myself & not sure what I'd like to do. Though it's likely way to early to be thinking of that, but I am curious. I did take a 10 minute walk outside, had an urge to walk outside for a while. I can say I do feel different, can't put my finger on how.

Also wonder what I'll be doing after this incarnation, but I'll be thinking of that then, after any needed recuperation. Attending any party, if there'll be one once I go home. Rest a bit, get shown around. Then at some point tell Soul my decision of if I want to be a separate soul or remain an external aspect. I also wonder if my twin flame and my relationship will change over time or not. I guess it will, but in what way, only time will tell. maybe one can have more then 1 twin flame? the label seems not to accurate, a base vague thing for what is really a soul thing. and like one can have more then one. Different feels to it?

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I was talking to my Twin Flame right before a masturbation, and wow can she be erotic.  She knows buttons to press I didn't know were there.  Though as i though of typing this she said, <if you think I'm erotic wait till you're here.  Then you'll see how erotic I can be.  A week will go by and you won't even know it.>  oooo, has me interested. 

But on to why I initiated talking to her.  I somehow knew how she remained my twin flame though I switched to being the aspect of what was my soul grand parent  She became an external aspect of the same soul I'm an external aspect of, before the incident last night where soul pulled me up and said to me it was time for me to make a decision and I accepted is offer.  She said in her case her becoming an external aspect of the same soul I am currently is a temporary thing.  <We both know it's a temporary thing in my case.  I'm to independent to remain an external aspect of his for to long.  but for you I can do it for a while.>  That makes sense how we are still twin flames.

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not sure if it is normal, my not having a higher self.  It's the soul i'm part of now, dan, stan, twin flame, and the green dolphin I call green sister that i don't talk to to much. 

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I asked the soul I'm an external aspect of now. "am I a new being?" newsoul said <yes. i became a new being twice. first time was when I became your soul, and 2nd when your kundalini rose earlier today. >

"so why did it rise during my sharing with Stan?  <why wouldn't it. you are both orcas or dolphins in reality.  So is the kundalini you have.  It's not really a human kundalini that you have.> 

"so i guess for you it was poof.  I'm still getting use to having a new soul. <no, not poof for me either. I'm getting use to it also, having a new aspect. >

"I guess you know all my memories?"  <not really.  though I can access all of your memories far more easily then you can mine.  Don't try for now. Just get use to the new you that you are. 

"So is this veil going to go away?"   <you'd be surprise how much of it is gone.  it is dissolving so to speak.> "if you wanted to remove all of it at once for good I'd not mind."  <I'll consider and think about that.  you just relax, get use to the new you. and you'll gradually slip into 5d before you know it.> 

"So those 2 experiences, is that what, sharing is like for souls who are where you are?"  <very Similar, it's what its like for an aspect and I who want to share with me or have what some call soul sex.  See i can easily access what you know of earth.  Though I don't go about prying into your personal memories.> 

"can we... do that again in the future?'  <sure, anytime you want.>  "just like that?"  <yes, just like that.  if you're surprised I'm that open, considering where i am, then consider, I am what some would call a cetacean or fin soul.>  "i don't want to personalty loose myself in that experience when this incarnation is over."  <and you won't.  You don't want to, and even if you do loose yourself in the experience i don't want you to.  You'll get use to that after a while.  you are still VERY new to that.  So don't worry.  I want you to remain an external aspect, not an aspect fully merged into me. and your twin flame doesn't want you to either.  >

"it is, different feeling like 7 different things at once, and it's so intense."  <good, shows how aware and how much growth you have, to be able to feel that many things at once when we share.  it just feels more intense, from where you are. once I incarnate you as a pod member you'll be more use to it.  and yes I can do that once you are here, but not right away. I'll let you rest, and such, till the right then when i ask if you want to continue our relationship or not, and it's not forever.  if you change your mind later you can go independent.  and if you don't like being independent you can always come back.> 

"so, if I do remain as an external aspect of yours, you won't incarnate me, like on earth or somewhere?  <my only plan really is to incarnate you as a pod member where Stan, your twin and others are at.> 

"Will I have to be born into wherever they are?" No, you could experience something like when you accepted my offer to become your new soul and you an external aspect of mine.  You'd feel something but not a huge thing.  or if you want to experience being inside an orca and being born i can arrange that, and the babyhood and growing up to being an adult. it's a rare thing but a few do like the experience.>  "nah, think I'll pass."  <consider it, lots of time to consider it.> "is that a kink of yours or something?"  He was giving me a mental image of being a baby orca type being feeding from a "mother".  <I do have kinks I like.  everyone has certain things they like. some things they may not know they'd like.  and no, I won't force any on you. Any you dislike you'll still dislike with me as your soul. any you had no feelings for or were neutral about, yu may find you like, or like to indulge in once in a while, or may dislike.>   "i'd rather do the poof thing." <that is ok, we'll discuss it again later, the advantages of each.  no need to decide now.> 

"what changes will I experience or feel with you as my new soul?  <some I'd rather you find out for yourself.  much of the you you know as you, the true you, won't be changed really.  maybe slightly, like looking through colored sunglasses.  some bits may be nudged in this or that direction.  being an external aspect of a soul higher up from where your former one is at will have some advantages.  Some I'd like you to discover for yourself.  Some are, you'll be on a sort of fast track, so to speak, as a soul.  Much of the changes you'll experience or get to know having a new soul will be more subtle, at least at first.  You'll find you like this new arrangement.  you really did make the absolute best choice for yourself.  any of those other choices would not have been anywhere as good.  as time passes,  you'll find there are many advantages to being an external aspect of mine.  as Stan said, you get the best of both.  You can do your own thing, grow, learn advance, and still have the advantages of being an aspect.  >   "like 2 of your aspects seem to want to share with me."  <that is just one of the fringe benefits. and they would have been willing even if you were an aspect of your former soul or an independent soul.  they wouldn't once the situation came to light since it may have influenced you and we wanted you to decide for yourself.  Though we did do strong hints what would be the best choice for you.> 

< but as to the changes of me being your new soul, me having a new aspect, and you being a new being twice.  We'll explore and learn that together, as well as exploring and learning certain things alone.  It'll come easy.>  "go with the flow, accept, and have fun."  <and pleasure.  Don't forget pleasure too.  and I'd never force you to do anything that you don't want to do.>

Monday [2-9]

Last night the new aspect I accepted and integrated into myself choose the name of Sam.

I spent a few minutes or so visualizing hugging my aspects, Chad, Sam, and a bit later my inner child, subconscious.

I'm not sure what to make of the the incidents I put down in the Sunday entry.. Not sure if any of you folks have thoughts. Found out I had another aspect and integrated him into myself. He was a reptilian looking type with claws, fangs, and a tail. though when we hugged last night he looked like a human type and momentarily as an anthro orca type.

Also seems from what Dan answered, I'm an aspect of both him and the soul i was part of last week. ? so an aspect of 2 souls? & can and my relationship is complicated, and the other stuff I said. I'm not sure what to make of all this.

Do any of you reading this have your thoughts on the incidents I put down.

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You're not the only one confused Shinshoo. and it does seem I'm on the fast track. Surprisingly Dan, an aspect of the oversoul I call Dansoul, that has made the offer i can soon pick if I want to be an external aspect of his, explained why. surprised I got a clear answer as to why i don't really need to do much. part of it is it's part of the mission parameters. they doing stuff is tailored for me. and helps the collective here. though fan explained it in a very technical way, which I don't remember to much of but found it surprising i perfectly understood everything he said.

a short conversation between me, Stan (he was an anthro orca in this conversation as i recall and twin flame was an anthro as well. Sorta a cross between a dolphin and an orca, or at times more elf like.

Twin flame: "I'm more of an independent sort. You'll be happy with option 3 or 4. You'd better not pick one of the first 2. We start to loose ourselves in just being together. Stan has to remind us why we're there.

Stan: "it's like having a constant open channel in the back of your mind at the very least. The reason it would put you on a fastrack as a soul is you'd have a permanant open channel with a soul of a higher vibration and who is more developed then you are so he can share his knowledge, that you'd have access to.

So I could still grow as an individual, even as an external aspect of his? <yes.>

twin flame: if you go independent you'd have to figure stuff out yourself, though you'd still have, teachers and guides.

<you'd have an inner knowing you can tap into. So certain things would be easier. and yes, you could still grow. Visit higher dimensions if you wish, and return to this one. As you grow he would grow so why wouldn't you be able to. just like when he grows you would as well, or could. So sort of the best of both. as an independent if you grow say to the 7th dimension, it's mainly 1 way. You could have an aspect, or make say a 6d body to experience being here, but the higher you go the less and less you'd be here. Sort of like how you are here or in the buffer space as you call it when you go there while your physical body is awake. >

So, are you, Dan and your soul as interested in sharing as others? <we both are. Soul, would prefer not to influence your decisions and if he shared with you he would, even if only slightly. I would enjoy sharing, but would prefer to wait till you're a bit farther along, and out of the transition period you're in same as with Dan, and preferably once you have made the decision. >

Then why does a part of me like the idea of taking option 3? <i does offer certain advantages. The true you under the layers of conditioning, programming and the viel knows and can feel this.>

and I'd be as aware regardless of which i picked, <well, if you pick to be like me you'd be fully aware yes, but also aware of him as well. Sort of like you'd be a member of a pod within a pod, so to speak, and the pod as well. and with you could be more aware of other dimensions and stuff as well. Though certain things you'd have to learn and do yourself.

twin: and with me, there's only me in here. no one else. Our relationship would be the same. so don't let that change your decision. and if i do choose to incarnate, it would not be me incarnating, but an extension of me, or an aspect.

<and in my case it is me incarnating here. She is fully here, and I am an incarnation here. There are differences, but not a huge amount. >

I didn't know that an aspect could be passed from one soul to anther.

<technically it can't, but the soul you are or were an aspect of was an aspect of the soul I'm an aspect of. so your energy, your being was once a part of him. that si why it is possible. plus. certain circumstances that i'm not a liberty to say, opened up this new option for you. An excellent option I would say.>

Twin flame. "yes, i agree. an excellent option, if you do choose to take it. and you can always choose to fully independent if you wish later."

<certainly.>

So, would I be an orca or a dolphin? <which would you want to be?> i think usually an orca, but with a mailable body so with I'm with the dolphin part of the pod i can look like a dolphin like them instead of being huge compared to them,but able to be how I look. <ah, like the rest of us then.>

and he wouldn't make me incarnate, like on earth or somewhere?" <no, he has offered to incarnate you here. i am an incarnation for example, and an external aspect.>

"if Chad wanted to could I externalize him so he could have some fun or hang our with the pod?" <sure, soul would help you in that case. Where he is certain, options are available that are not yet open to the independent souls who are fully here.>

Had some interesting thoughts this morning, not sure if any of them are true. i did have a short mental conversation with twin flame and like usual as a result of that my kundalini is resonating and my sex drive and urges went from the normal low almost non existent to near peak. But that happens every time we do any sort of contact. Even just a brief conversation. I guess it's normal. I'd ask her why it happens but she'd likely say like she said before, it's because of who and what she is and what we are.

am I at the same time now an aspect of Dan and the soul i was once only a part of a week ago. From no one I'll just say soul for that. Did something happen, some circumstance. or is it so I can grow even faster? I figure this may be possible since soul was once a part of Dan before he split off to be an independent soul, so once i was part of Dan. As a potential aspect so to speak. I do feel when this is over I may have a 4th option and Twin Flame did confirm this. All she'd say, and it did feel like she was reluctant to say much. She said something like what dan said, it's complicated, currently I am sorta yes an aspect of both Dan soul. It's complicated. certain, circumstances happened. but she did confirm I'll have a 4th option.

Instead of just choosing to merge back into soul, or also I can choose to merge with Dan. Be an independent soul with none of their memories, or none of souls memories. not sure if I'd get to pick to have Dan's memories or not. it feels like maybe kinda no if I choose that option once this incarnation ends. A new 4th option is I can choose to be an external aspect of Dan like Stan is, sorta both being an aspect but an independent one, external. it feels like Dan is at some growth or development level that this is possible, but Soul is not yet. if that makes any sense.

it also feels like if say i choose to be an independent soul once this incarnation is over maybe I can only choose to have soul's memories. But say if i choose to be an external aspect of Dan, then at some alter point I choose to be an independent soul then i could pick to retain Dan's memories, and I could choose soul, but I'd have to get soul's permission at that point.

it feels like being an external soul with all of soul's memories is about the same as chooseing to be an external aspect of Dan. Each offers certain advantages and unique things the other may lack or not offer as much or to the same degree. not sure if this is true or not.

I feel this is possible since soul was once an aspect of Dan before it split off to be an independent soul. So therefore I was once part of Dan. maybe as a potential, or dormant, till soul split off and incarnated the aspect that is me. I've no idea what the, circumstances were. They seem reluctant to say. maybe as a result of Sam saying those things to me, Soul could not get involved but Dan could, and or Maybe they talked and if they did this then I could grow faster or something.

Each, as I said, offers some advantages over the other, between being an independent soul with soul parent's memories, and being an external aspect of dan, at least temporarily since I'd choose to be an independent soul sooner or later.

Who knows, maybe all this is helping Dan and soul to grow as it does me, at the same time.

One advantage of being an independent soul is it would be all me, and my decisions would be just me and that is not. with other souls saying their opinion. and i can experience being an independent soul. though i would have to discover some stuff myself, some I can learn from other souls farther along.

being an external aspect of Dan may offer some advantages. since Dan is farther along then soul is i may be aware of certain things that I would not be as an independent soul from soul. Though some disadvantages is Dan's desires and wants may color what I want to do and how I feel. Though that may help with further growth for us both. So for example I may as an independent soul I may choose to not incarnate ever again. dan, who I am not sure if he incarnates any more or not. may choose to incarnate and his intuition may say that, for example, i'm the perfect aspect for that incarnation. If I don't want to I doubt Dan would force me to. but say his wanting to incarnate and my being the perfect aspect for that incarnation may color my thoughts and feelings were I'd sorta feel like I do and don't want to incarnate so I may choose ok at the end. Though again I don't think Dan would force it. I like to think he'd mention he's thinking of incarnating and he feels I'd be the best aspect for it. Then let me decide if I want to or not. Just an example, not sure if Dan incarnates much or not.

As an external aspect of Dan i wonder if Stan is an incarnation. Do some incarnate into 6d or wherever the pod hangs out? if so does it have a specific live span like on earth? and if one does incarnate there as an incarnation does one have to start as a baby here or can one just poof be an adult with the body being fully made from 6d matter?

and Dan did say he himself visits where the pad is. does that mean he can lower his vibrations temporarily, or is it more like he, being multidimensional, can be there and wherever he usually as the same time. Also does that mean he has say a 6d matter body he makes every time he wants to visit, or does he have a 6d body that he keeps at least say a tenth of 1 percent of himself in, sorta asleep somewhere, that he wakes up when he wants to be with the pod. Maybe only able to put 50 or 90% of himself into the body but not fully.

I also think that souls don't all go up to say 7d, 10d+. Some may find what they like, say 6d and remain there. Still able to learn and grow, not be stagnant but still learning and growing.

unless the pod can travel from 6d up to say 7 or 8 and back down. or they may be scattered across several dimensions, just the higher d ones have 6d bodies or something to visit the 6d ones maybe.

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Not sure if Dan is a guide or not, perhaps a temporary one or something.  he does seem big into the Dom thing.

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Think I popped into the real one or the soul that Dan is an aspect of.  The same one that Stan is an aspect of also.  So he as at least 2 external aspects.  I was inside him for a short while.  I say he since his energy diffidently had a male feel to it.  unmistakable since it was all around me while I was inside him.  Didn't fee like I was being dissolved or anything like with Dan. Think I'll cal the soul Dansoul, for want of a better term.  I had some thoughts as I was typing the above which I'll type later.  odd.  Seems to be getting weirder.  not sure if mystic spiritual stuff can get weird at times or if this weirdness is 'normal' for me.  THe conversation I'll type down is a mix of the one I had then and am having as I am typing this.

From what I recall he said that the first option, of merging back into soul, was no longer an option for me.  he'd not allow me to choose that.  2, being an individual soul with no memories, so poof an infant soul, he would strongly suggest against.  i don't like the idea of being an infant soul again. Feel like I've gone through that already, though i can remember that yet.  he said the 3rd and 4th were the only real options he's recommend.  Being an external aspect of his, or being an independent soul.  he wouldn't answer if I'd be able to pick his memories or the soul higher self is part of. 

He did say that if I chose to be an external aspect he'd incarnate me as a pod member.  i said really not believing that.  and he did a sort of shrug, why not, <you're already a pod member why would I not incarnate you as one?>  but how long would the life span be, is it limited like on earth? <how long would you want it to last?>  so you mean the pod pod. the one that I was around a few times with your Stan aspect, my twin flame, the healer <yea, same pod. you're a member of this one, not any other one>  Sounds like you sorta prefer if if I choose to be an external aspect of yours.  <like your twin would say pick which of the LAST 2 you want, but there are certain, advantages and aspects to being an external aspect of mine.  As she said, you would be on the fast track, so to speak, being an external aspect of what she called a high level soul. not high level seeming to me.  But one can never see how high level they are since they are an insider and to close to themselves.> 

So if i did pick that, would i have to start as an infant in the 6d place where the pod hangs out? <that is one of the dimensions, as you call it, where the pod is, and would you want to start as an infant, being born and growing up quickly over a few days, or longer if you prefer?  I can arrange it.  you'd be as aware as you would be as an adult.  and no you'd not have that annoying polarity and veil stuff like in that dimension where you are.  honestly what where the humans and the others around at the time choosing  I never understood why they choose that path.> 

Sounds like you were around then. How long ago whats that? <maybe i was, and maybe I nipped back, to use an expression of yours, to have a look.> 

That Dan aspect is pretty.... kinky, <yes, let's say with him I'm, exploring and experiencing certain, dom aspects, including some of the mild kinkier ones.  after all none can be hurt and it is fun and both parties can learn about themselves or a new side of themselves.> 

So, was i part of another soul and is that changing? <complicated answer.  Think of it as learning a new aspect of yourself, a new unfolding of yourself. Certain circumstances did... require Dan stepping in, so to speak, and myself to a lesser extent aspect till now.  The exact details you can learn later if you wish, but not now.>

So an aspect of a soul can become an aspect of another soul? <you're not an aspect but an extension of a soul. there is a difference.  and it's complicated.  How to simplify it.  It's more like.  your soul is not fully separate from me. none can be totally separate.  but when he choose to be a separate soul he became that as much as is possible.  he wanted to do and experience things him/her self.  you may choose one day to do the same.  It's, a sort of transition.  one can say you have 2 soul parents now.  all that dissolving thing was a kinkier method of dan to align your energies closer to his so we could more easily communicate since for where I am reaching down to the 3d world is not easy.  We have to meet, half way so to speak, like perhaps through what some earthers call a soul bond.  Sort of like a carrier or piggyback wave, but its not that really.> 

higher self did seem sad and not to talkative, <any change brings some sadness.  the 2 of you have had the same sort of relationship for a bit over 3 decades and that is changing. not to much changing before but since what dan did that day it's on the fast track for changing, though you wont' be aware of all the changes for a while.  just relax, we'll be doing say 80% of the stuff, and much of it you may not be aware of it.  just focus on having fun, getting to know yourself, relaxing, incorporating any aspects you discover, like you have the 2 you have already.  >

So you are very high level, my twin flame mentioned that.  <some of the pod, our pod, do call and feel i am that.  i don't feel very high.  perhaps I can see a few things and realized a few things they have not yet or are not aware of.  but very high level?  I'd not use that label.> 

So are all of our pod all in 1 dimension? <no, they are across 2 dimensions, for now at least.  and as your knowledge said the lower dimension ones, not sure of the earther label, do visit the higher one.  and higher ones can visit lower ones, through a variety of means.  but let me ask you, how would you feel about becoming an, external aspect of me?> 

I pause to think this over, I didn't expect a question, "I do feel, an inner part of me does like it, part of me isn't sure of that option. <that is ok, there is still time, no need to pick now. You are in a transition period, more then one.  we'll be showing you the 2 main options and what it'll be like to be each, an independent soul and an external aspect of me so when the time comes you can make the decision from a point of view of having information, instead of just going with your inner feeling only.>

if I did pick to be an external aspect of you what would you do with me?  <once your incarnation ended and you went through ????? rehab, resting? not sure of the term since It's been ages since I had any incarnations incarnating that for down in the vibrations or dimension.  i do vaguely recall some sort of rest or rehab so you rest.  but it's been a long time.  But at the appropriate time a pod member would come for you, one that you are close to, not your twin flame since that would be to intense.  Perhaps the main healer..  that sounds best.  and she'd take you home, perhaps on a slower more scenic route.  then at the appropriate time the 2 of us would talk.  but you shouldn't be in that ? rehab, rest? to long> 

she'd take me to the 6d and if I picked option 3, how would you do that. would I experience ... anything? <depends on what you want to experience.  it can be as simple as, poof done,and you don't feel anything, to as bizzare, perhaps as being an actual sort of baby inside an orca or dolpin being born ect, like mammals on earth adn other places do.> 

I think if I choose that I'd rather do the poof thing, <yes, simpler and faster.  But some do like to indulge certain, kinks or new experiences.  Wouldn't be hard for you to travel perhaps between both places where the pod lives.  only slight difference, hard to explain.  you'd have to experience it to understand it fully.  but your twin and others like Stan do live in what I think earthers would call 6d. not sure how the designate or label stuff.  not fully my area of expertise or department.  >   earther like me? <your not an earther, you're a pod member, big, huge difference..> 

Hmm, could she be one of the doctors or something there, like with green air or some other clue that may trigger my remembering?  <maybe it's possible.  I'd have to inquire into that. Or perhaps Stan.  not sure, that isn't my area of expertise.>

So would my personality change if I became an external aspect of yours? What would it be like, any changes I'd be aware of? as apposed to being an independent soul.

<the real you under the human conditioning and programming, not much really. You'd still be the real you, with an open link to me. I'd have an open link to you. you would be able to rest, become less aware of your surroundings, a type of sleep and experience sort of being inside me, when you are living with the pod. not the real description but it is not easy to describe. When you take another nap or mediate I'll ask Stan to pull you up so you and he can talk. but you'd still be you, able to learn and grow. and if you don't wish to incarnate anywhere else. you can remain with pod. or go on missions, or a bit of both. being an Independent soul you'd have just you. you can have an extension or an aspect of yourself incarnate if you choose to incarnate, but you could not. You'd sort f have to do things yourself, learn yourself. hard to describe exactly. Some may say it's a fine hair of a difference or slight. you'd be in a sorta situation like I am, so to speak. >

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 "So I'll wait till after this incarnation is over to make the decision?"

<no, there'll be 2 times. the first is fast approaching when you'll need to make the decision.  the 2nd time will be after the incarnation is over and you've ... recovered and have been returned by one of us to us here, your true soul family, the pod.  after a short time, the soul I'm part of will pull you up to where he is and the 2 of you will have a private conversation.  He'll not rush you and you'll have all the time you need, no pressure at all.>

"so who'll escort me back here?"

<not sure yet, perhaps me, the one you call green sister, or maybe another.>

what if I don't recognize the one our pod sends?

<you will.  maybe not a first, but like when you first saw  your twin flame here.  Something in you will stir.  at worst it'll be.  I know you. something more will stir.  then you'll start to remember. it's part of the recovery process.  though if you are at least half awake the recovery process will be faster then if you are totally asleep like most humans are.  if you are fully awake, abiding awakening, I think some call it, the recovery process will be easier.  also depending on the process of death of the body will impact that too.  >

"So how long will i be kept there?"  <not long.  after all you'll recover quickly. and what better place then among your true soul family.>

"fast approaching so soon I'll have to decide the first time? <yes, though you can't choose to be an independent soul.  the only option is to be come an external aspect of the soul I'm part of.  If you choose not to, then other options will be considered, but it'll be easier on you and everyone  if you do accept.>

"so, the soul I was part of a week ago.  it's not in trouble or anything?  <no, nothing like that.  just certain, circumstances.  You never considered it but it's not that it doesn't want you as an aspect.  just, certain circumstances.  and it does put you on the fast track, more then before.  Though you may not notice anything different till later, if then.  Though you may notice some things.  like the higher self may be an unusual thing.   it's a not very common thing that you are going through, can't give details, but it has happened so there is already a system in place.>

Hmm, is it official, did it really happen?   I got a request to lean back in my chair, a promise I would not miss the start of the afterparty of the livestream show I watch Mondays. 

It was Dansoul.  He said the time had come.  I would get the choice again after a suitable time after this incarnation had ended.  After my recovery and rest.  I asked if I did choose to remain an external aspect of his if he'd forcibly incarnate me.  at first I didn't like his answer of yes, but then he said as a pod member.  I asked as an orca, with a malleable body so I can change to be a dolphin or other things, he said yes, then I relaxed.  He then said there are other options,but they would complicate things.  I thought it over a bit and the inner part of me wanted to. I said ok, I accept.  I felt him smile.  Then it felt like something in me shifted or clicked, hard to explain.  then he said 'welcome to the family.  the pod within a pod so to speak.  some of my other aspects will want to give you their special welcomes later.  You'll get mine later. Then I heard the afterparty show starting.

Not sure what to make of that.  Right afterwards I felt an inner happiness for some reason.  A joy.  i also feel love all around me and inside me as I type this.  I also feel very very relaxed.  also I got an impression from him of by forcibly incarnate he meant with my will, not against my will.  well if I am to incarnate after this one, i do want to be a pod member.  as i said, as an orca with a malleable body so i can be other forms. 

Hmm, feels like down to my core I made the right choice.  not sure what anyone else may think or say about this.  Searching my inner feelings, it feels like I made the right choice, along with love/joy/? sexual desire?/contentment, pleasure, hard to describe.   Maybe odd but I feel incapable of feeling any negative emotion.  Though this may change later on. I wonder what anyone else reading this may think of all this.  It feels right.

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A short time ago I got a mental image from Dan, in anthro orca form, and he seems to have 6 arms this time. He used his arms to pin my arms. I was on my back in the mental image.  2 of his arms were on my sides and the other 2 were pinning my ankles, firmly.  Though it felt like if I did protest he'd let me go.  he had his mouth open and around the sides of my rostrum. and he said, <welcome brother.>  "brother?" I ask.  <you are a male.> true, I am currently incarnate in a male body, and also being aspects of the same soul makes us siblings. 

next I felt a soul hug from my twin flame and she said something like, <congratulations.  You made an excellent choice.>  "thanks.  what was the circumstance that required this?" I ask, not expecting her to reply, but she did saying something like.  <the soul you were part of evolved to the next vibration level, next dimension, not sure what the proper term is where you are.  He didn't expect it to happen till a bit after your incarnation ended, but it happened to him unexpectedly.>  "So why was this required exactly?"  <it is very complicated to explain.> 

Hmm, guess that explains why? seems a lot of stuff has happened. Stuff I never expected or imagined could.

Guess I have to call Dansoul Soul now, since I'm an aspect of him now.   Not sure if any of my recent experiences make sense to any of you folks? and your thoughts on all this?

Sunday [2]  2-8

I read the book as a pre teen or early teen, and have remembered it ever sense.  As I dimly recall when I read what certain words meant like dorsal fin, rostrum, it was sorta like I was reminded of something I forgot.

Not sure if my recent experiences confirm what your suspicions are, or not.

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Had a few interesting experiences.  When I lay down to nap part of me was on somewhere with maybe the technician and had the same tube thing down my throat, barely able to feel it and the airtight seal somehow in my mouth jaw.  I could feel more of that light stuff being pumped into me, or whatever it's doing.  she did comment this time it would be a bit different.  the next stage would require my being fully unconscious. She pressed buttons or did something and I could feel both bodies seem to start quickly going to sleep.  Before I fully lost consciousness I did ask her if you, meaning plural you, can do something about the abdominal discomfiture and pain.  She commented something like that we'd take that into consideration. 

When I awoke it felt like the tube was sorta in my physical body's throat and i was begin filled again with that light fluid or whatever it was I felt a bit lighter then normal as it seemed to fill the entire inside to the body to the skin, and still more somehow was being pumped in.  Then it felt like after a short time it was being drawn out. 

then poof the tube was gone.  Then it felt like somehow I as being filled with more of that light fluid stuff, from somewhere in my abdominal area.  It went much as before.  Except instead of stopping where my human skin was this time it seemed to expand like a balloon and get larger.  Not sure how large it went to.  Can't tell what it's shape was other then anthro humanoidish.  Though then it felt like whatever that body balloon thing was grew a dorsal fin. it felt like it was triangular, like an adult male orca and then like it grew a tail or a tail was inflated.  though I could only vaguely feel the tail, like it wasn't defined very well.  Though i could move it about a little.  I couldn't tell it's shape, or if it had flukes or not at the end of the tail.  After a few seconds it felt like the it the fluid was being drawn back out and the balloon body deflated and was gone.  Then something felt like it was unconnected from somewhere inside my abdominal area. 

I do feel a slight soreness in the abdominal area, around where the stomach is or a bit lower, but above my navel.  and the same either resonance or energy rushing, not sure which, for the lower half, abdominal area down, sort or pulsing, but not based on my heartbeat.

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A bit bashful and embarrassed at posting this here, but I figure if I don't it may result in issues i'll have to deal with later, or maybe its me working through certain issues now. 

"so, my finding you, sexy is normal and not wrong?"

Felt like 2 hands on my behind and being drawn chest to chest to him, both are at eye level. <I'd find it odd if you did not.> Dan said then

"So the fact I want to, uh, have sex or share with you. I felt then a tingling around my penis.  <We are both dolphins, orcas.  I'd find it odd if you didn't.>  Then I felt what felt like 2 hands on my behind again, <certain things have to happen and be done first.  but i do promise the first time we, share, it can be regular after that if you wish.>

"I like, that." i say pausing and dan smiles. 

"So, I guess i could use the term oversoul or, soul grand parent?"  He seems to pause to think for a moment or just to pause for some reason, <before I'd say yes, now our relationship is,... complicated.> 

"and you did promise to say at the full disclosure time." i said he smiles and brings me close to him. <sure, though you may, feel or know, or even know before then.  but tell me, do you prefer a human or orca?> he asked and as he asked i got a mental image of a close up image of a human then an orca penis.  I'm a but surprise by this sudden question and pause for a moment.  "well, orca if it's my decision." still no idea why he asked this.  he seems to nod.  <good.>  not sure why he suddenly asked that for no reason i can think of.  Then he asked which vulva i prefer, I said orca. <excellent, good, good.> he said, not sure if that was to me or someone else.  or both. 

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<embrace your sexual nature, you are an orca, a dolphin.  Embrace it, in a spiritual sense, not the human sense.>


I feel I have for the most part.  then I get a thought from him before, <great, it is a part of you, natural, accept this.  in the spiritual soul sense.>
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<In fact if a fellow pod member didn't want to share  I'd have a healer look at them to see if they were unwell.>

<Same if they didn't feel the urge.  No need to constantly have the desire.> 
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Had a sorta maybe silly idea.  I still have no idea what that dissolving into Dan my oversoul, or soul grandparent was about or why he wanted to do that.  I do wonder if that means I sorta have 2 soul parents.  The Soul I'm part of and Dan.  I'd guess a soul can't exchange an aspect like the soul I'm part of can't sort of can't say it's ok if I become an aspect of Dan.  Not sure if that is even possible.  or if it is why those 2 would want to do that.  Not that I think the soul I'm part of is ashamed of me or anything.  if it were possible and was done it would be for some plan they have for my greater good or something like that. 

just some silly thoughts I had.  i expect if it were possible to switch being an aspect from this soul to that one, I guess I'd know and would have to agree, though it is also possible that I agreed to not remember or be aware of this like during a dream that I don't recall.  i have remembered a memory from soul's point of view decades later.  Though I mention that in an earlier yourspace page of mine.  Where for a while in my 20's i did loose interest in new age and spiritual, mystic stuff for a while.  and on that page I did say, i had suddenly remembered soul telling me something like, "let's take a break from this and live like a normal human for a while." so it could be something like that where I'll remember later some point.  or that compressed memory I said more recently where I had a certain memory all my life, but remembered the whole thing a week or 2 ago, concerning the chips being put into me at a young age. 

Just some silly ideas I had that I thought, why not put them down.  :)

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Had an unusual experience.

I woke up from my nap and felt like a band of resonance from my kundalini at the stomach level, going around my body at stomach level, like a belt or something.

Then after a bit I think another stage of the whatever process happened. During this I felt unable to move. Not sleep paralysis, felt more like a sort of block where if something happened here they would and could remove it. Besides I've had sleep paralysis before and know exactly how to get out of that. Focus intently on moving 1 finger. I usually pick the index finger. Then when that finger can move, move the next finger, and so on. I find usually after I can move 3 fingers I can move my hand, thumb and all fingers, once I move my hand I find then the sleep paralysis is over.

It felt like something was being put onto my back, small pea sized somethings, maybe sensors or something. They were being put on various spots. I'm guessing the sensor things and the work I describe below was being done to some sort of energy body of mine. No idea if it's true or what energy body or why.

Felt like my genitals were being shaped, or something, penis and external vulva then internal. Don't recall if the anal area felt like it was shaped or not.

That didn't work in this case. I couldn't move 1 finger or anything. Dan did mention that this stage required I be awake and in my body but that it required I not work. It felt like some sort of instruments that had a high resonance to them kept going into my abdominal area and doing stuff. Some of it was momentarily painful, like things were being pulled out, or scooped out. and other times it just felt odd, like those high resonance instruments, medical robot instruments were going into my abdominal and doing different stuff at the same time. at times I felt very light like I could float. Dan did give me a hug a few times during this. On my comment of why all the abdominal work stuff whatever was doing he said the abdominal area is a very important area.

felt like at some point my back was pulled way out, then part of it shaped into a triangular dorsal fin.

The odd thing was i did ask Dan a few questions during this, not sure if I understand the conflict.

I asked if I was an aspect of his and he said yes, and also yes to that i'm an aspect of the soul I was part of say a week ago. my twin flame is still my twin flame, but the intensity may be less or lowered, at least till we first mingle energies or share, then it'll be back to it's normal intensity.

I asked ok so who's my soul parent and he said, it's complicated.

Not sure of this experience, not sure if anyone has any ideas what may have been going on or what energy body they were working on, or the meaning of what Dan said. Dan is my oversoul, grand soul parent, or was a week ago, now I'm not sure exactly what he is. He picked the name Dan as I said above since I felt calling him oversoul was to impersonal.

I say he since he diffidently always feels male to me. As does his aspect who is, or was, one of my guides, though he doesn't like that term.

not sure if it is their preference, or if they are doing it for a specific reason. But Stan the guide guy diffidently seems to like only gay type sex, or at least in my experience. The others I've shared with on a regular basis, like my higher self, twin flame, seem to be bi or pansexual. and in the case of me, higher self and twin flame change their gender, though Twin flame has usually been female. higher self seems to change, i guess based on his/her/hir mood. mine seems based on the situation, but I guess usually it's male. Maybe since I'm incarnate in a male body. Or maybe I'm open to the gender I am between male, female, herm, but may have a preference to be male.


I wonder what other folk's thoughts are on all this.

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had yet another interesting experience.  I heard whoever it is again.  This time it said something like, "don't believe them.  They'll destroy you." 

I asked Dan what I should do.  he said to not listen to him, send him love and accept him.  I did this, then got an idea that maybe it's an aspect of me.  I decided to go a step farther and visualized putting my hands on him.  I got the mental image of a reptilian humanoid with claws and a tail.  I said something like, "we were meant to be 1 whole being, not the fragmented being we are now.  Let's become the whole being we were meant to be.  At first he did slightly move around a bit, saying "no, no.".  Like part of him was slightly reluctant or unsure, but most of him really didn't want to stop what I was doing, and he never had or felt aggressive towards me.  As I visualized pulling him into me, and I was doing a standing open eyed meditation during this, he stopped moving and as I visualized and used my arms too while doing this. As I had him almost pulled into me it felt like he relaxed and as I pulled him into me he said an unemotional "fine." then it felt like he choose to surrender to the process.  Once I had pulled him inside me and he surrendered or what ever he did I felt a burst of warmth inside me.  a second or so later it did feel like he was happy at what happened and sent me a burst of love.  A thing I wasn't expecting.  and I do recall feeling, much happier with what happened.  A bit later I was going over what he said, to be sure I got it fixed in my memory so I could type it here since I was cleaning some stuff in the kitchen at that point.  I felt a sadness from him for what he said.  I said to him which felt like it made him happy, "let's not focus on how our relationship was in the past.  We've forged a new relationships, so let's focus on that and the future."  to which I got a feeling this made him happy and Chad happily said something like, "great a new buddy to play with."  also I think it felt like maybe I had a bit more energy inside me after that, not sure.

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Sunday [2-8]I was at the computer when I got the mental image of Dan kissing and hugging me. I could feel the surge of energy, or resonance or whatever it is start up again for the abdominal area down. a small parcent of me I sent to where ever Dan is to return the hug and kissing, as much as anthro orcas can kiss. the conscious element of me dissolved into Dan again, but it felt like this time a slight amount was left in the body or sent to the body. I could move my eyes around, I was watching a short video, but not think since most of me was dissolved into Dan but not a part of him. this didn't last to long, 10 seconds or longer maybe as long as 20. Then all of me was back in the body but I didn't think a thought for several minutes I'd say. Nice. Still not sure what is going on. And a short time ago it felt like some sort of very concentrated tingling sorta energy came from somewhere below my feet and rippled up through my legs, dissipating once it go to my thighs. That was new.

Some of the discomfiture returned, an almost pain. I did ask Dan if he could do anything about it and got another mental voice saying 'here.' and the mental image of my abdominal area being black and white like an orcas and the mental voice saying, 'don't move." as what looked like rods were inserted through the orca abdominal. Felt like they were resonating on their own. It felt like the discomfiture dissipated and like something inside there relaxed a bit. the rod things were pulled out and I got the mental voice again saying not to move and they were inserted in 2 different spots at the same time. these were also resonating and the discomfiture in these areas passed as well. these were removed after a time and that helped a lot. Then after a bit a cylinder thing that was several inches in diameter came very close to my orca abdominal area in the mental image. it seemed to be doing circles and aiming some sort of resonating think inside me. That helped as well. I feel some discomfort but it's less and only in small spots.

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You are becoming like them. ;) [meant in a joking way, not angry way]

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had a sort of mental conversation with Dan. Didn't expect what turned out.

"So, that sudden knowing a decade or more ago when I did that practice thing in the soul realms or where ever it is and somehow knew I'd been picked as a potential member to be on a soul council one day, is that true? <yes.>

"Just like that, poof?" <there are... certain reasons behind that and your being picked and your knowing you'd been picked for a future potential member of various soul councils didn't hinder your knowing that and that the decision has been reached that one day you will be. Since, it's known your being told this won't hinder you.> he pulls me closer eye to eye sort of, <it doesn't does it? and you do like the idea?> he asked, though knowing the answers already before I think them over briefly.

I look away a bit, doing the human like thing of rubbing the back of my anthro orca head. Don't feel a blowhole, but again i don't recall ever needing to breath in whatever body that is. I do feel a bit bashful and answering such a pointed question. "well, I think I'd like it, and it would help folks. not that I'd want it to be the only thing I do. I'd want to do other things also. Likely other things i don't know of as of yet. But why the pick to be a potential and why the confirmation?"

<You had certain,... qualities shall we say that we saw the potential for a future member and since that time we've talked and no I won't say who the we are, and it's been decided you will be, one day.>

"I'd need training." <no, like in the practice incident, you knew what to do and say then. next time it'll be for real and you'll again know what to say and do. You'll be a natural.>


"Does that come with cool stuff like a flying sports car, a driver/pilot, big screen tv, and such?" i ask in a silly manner. <Do you really want that stuff?>

"Since that sounds like it may come with cool stuff."

at first I didn't notice his tone, till a bit later, like my intuition waving a hand in my face. "you were asking seriously."

<Am I?> I narrow my eyes slightly to concentrate, "Yes, you were. Didn't notice it at first."

<then answer my question.> he said putting the tip of a finger on the tip of my rostrum. I get a silly idea and open my mouth to curl my tongue around that finger. "how about you surprise me, with various gadgets, nick naks, tech, interior decorating, maybe whatever small perks I may be entitled to. not sure if pod members have their own living places or just one large common area."

<we each have our own living areas, with a huge commons area and I'll be sure to surprise you, at the appropriate time.> he said taking his finger out, having left it there since I put my tongue around it.

"I look forward to it. I guess a bit after the welcome thing when my soul officially introduces me to the Pod."

<A bit after that yes. The .... celebrations may take a while.> he says leaving things a bit vague.

"Good, I want all that to be a fun surprise."

<I can guarantee it will be.> he says smiling.

I do try to look back, "I'm curious, what does my fin look like anyway?" I ask, still a but curious, meaning my dorsal fin. <like a bull fin's.>

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I guess whatever the bodies are made of are mailable. I guess from a sorta feeling and on my very limited experience, when some of us are just among ourselves we are orcas, but with the main pod we are sometimes or mostly dolphins? not sure about that. and if we do have private quarters, do they resize themselves if we are dolphin or orca size, or are dolphin and orcas about the same size there. They certainly are not on earth.

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