Monday [2-9]

Last night the new aspect I accepted and integrated into myself choose the name of Sam.

I spent a few minutes or so visualizing hugging my aspects, Chad, Sam, and a bit later my inner child, subconscious.

I'm not sure what to make of the the incidents I put down in the Sunday entry.. Not sure if any of you folks have thoughts. Found out I had another aspect and integrated him into myself. He was a reptilian looking type with claws, fangs, and a tail. though when we hugged last night he looked like a human type and momentarily as an anthro orca type.

Also seems from what Dan answered, I'm an aspect of both him and the soul i was part of last week. ? so an aspect of 2 souls? & can and my relationship is complicated, and the other stuff I said. I'm not sure what to make of all this.

Do any of you reading this have your thoughts on the incidents I put down.

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You're not the only one confused Shinshoo. and it does seem I'm on the fast track. Surprisingly Dan, an aspect of the oversoul I call Dansoul, that has made the offer i can soon pick if I want to be an external aspect of his, explained why. surprised I got a clear answer as to why i don't really need to do much. part of it is it's part of the mission parameters. they doing stuff is tailored for me. and helps the collective here. though fan explained it in a very technical way, which I don't remember to much of but found it surprising i perfectly understood everything he said.

a short conversation between me, Stan (he was an anthro orca in this conversation as i recall and twin flame was an anthro as well. Sorta a cross between a dolphin and an orca, or at times more elf like.

Twin flame: "I'm more of an independent sort. You'll be happy with option 3 or 4. You'd better not pick one of the first 2. We start to loose ourselves in just being together. Stan has to remind us why we're there.

Stan: "it's like having a constant open channel in the back of your mind at the very least. The reason it would put you on a fastrack as a soul is you'd have a permanant open channel with a soul of a higher vibration and who is more developed then you are so he can share his knowledge, that you'd have access to.

So I could still grow as an individual, even as an external aspect of his? <yes.>

twin flame: if you go independent you'd have to figure stuff out yourself, though you'd still have, teachers and guides.

<you'd have an inner knowing you can tap into. So certain things would be easier. and yes, you could still grow. Visit higher dimensions if you wish, and return to this one. As you grow he would grow so why wouldn't you be able to. just like when he grows you would as well, or could. So sort of the best of both. as an independent if you grow say to the 7th dimension, it's mainly 1 way. You could have an aspect, or make say a 6d body to experience being here, but the higher you go the less and less you'd be here. Sort of like how you are here or in the buffer space as you call it when you go there while your physical body is awake. >

So, are you, Dan and your soul as interested in sharing as others? <we both are. Soul, would prefer not to influence your decisions and if he shared with you he would, even if only slightly. I would enjoy sharing, but would prefer to wait till you're a bit farther along, and out of the transition period you're in same as with Dan, and preferably once you have made the decision. >

Then why does a part of me like the idea of taking option 3? <i does offer certain advantages. The true you under the layers of conditioning, programming and the viel knows and can feel this.>

and I'd be as aware regardless of which i picked, <well, if you pick to be like me you'd be fully aware yes, but also aware of him as well. Sort of like you'd be a member of a pod within a pod, so to speak, and the pod as well. and with you could be more aware of other dimensions and stuff as well. Though certain things you'd have to learn and do yourself.

twin: and with me, there's only me in here. no one else. Our relationship would be the same. so don't let that change your decision. and if i do choose to incarnate, it would not be me incarnating, but an extension of me, or an aspect.

<and in my case it is me incarnating here. She is fully here, and I am an incarnation here. There are differences, but not a huge amount. >

I didn't know that an aspect could be passed from one soul to anther.

<technically it can't, but the soul you are or were an aspect of was an aspect of the soul I'm an aspect of. so your energy, your being was once a part of him. that si why it is possible. plus. certain circumstances that i'm not a liberty to say, opened up this new option for you. An excellent option I would say.>

Twin flame. "yes, i agree. an excellent option, if you do choose to take it. and you can always choose to fully independent if you wish later."

<certainly.>

So, would I be an orca or a dolphin? <which would you want to be?> i think usually an orca, but with a mailable body so with I'm with the dolphin part of the pod i can look like a dolphin like them instead of being huge compared to them,but able to be how I look. <ah, like the rest of us then.>

and he wouldn't make me incarnate, like on earth or somewhere?" <no, he has offered to incarnate you here. i am an incarnation for example, and an external aspect.>

"if Chad wanted to could I externalize him so he could have some fun or hang our with the pod?" <sure, soul would help you in that case. Where he is certain, options are available that are not yet open to the independent souls who are fully here.>

Had some interesting thoughts this morning, not sure if any of them are true. i did have a short mental conversation with twin flame and like usual as a result of that my kundalini is resonating and my sex drive and urges went from the normal low almost non existent to near peak. But that happens every time we do any sort of contact. Even just a brief conversation. I guess it's normal. I'd ask her why it happens but she'd likely say like she said before, it's because of who and what she is and what we are.

am I at the same time now an aspect of Dan and the soul i was once only a part of a week ago. From no one I'll just say soul for that. Did something happen, some circumstance. or is it so I can grow even faster? I figure this may be possible since soul was once a part of Dan before he split off to be an independent soul, so once i was part of Dan. As a potential aspect so to speak. I do feel when this is over I may have a 4th option and Twin Flame did confirm this. All she'd say, and it did feel like she was reluctant to say much. She said something like what dan said, it's complicated, currently I am sorta yes an aspect of both Dan soul. It's complicated. certain, circumstances happened. but she did confirm I'll have a 4th option.

Instead of just choosing to merge back into soul, or also I can choose to merge with Dan. Be an independent soul with none of their memories, or none of souls memories. not sure if I'd get to pick to have Dan's memories or not. it feels like maybe kinda no if I choose that option once this incarnation ends. A new 4th option is I can choose to be an external aspect of Dan like Stan is, sorta both being an aspect but an independent one, external. it feels like Dan is at some growth or development level that this is possible, but Soul is not yet. if that makes any sense.

it also feels like if say i choose to be an independent soul once this incarnation is over maybe I can only choose to have soul's memories. But say if i choose to be an external aspect of Dan, then at some alter point I choose to be an independent soul then i could pick to retain Dan's memories, and I could choose soul, but I'd have to get soul's permission at that point.

it feels like being an external soul with all of soul's memories is about the same as chooseing to be an external aspect of Dan. Each offers certain advantages and unique things the other may lack or not offer as much or to the same degree. not sure if this is true or not.

I feel this is possible since soul was once an aspect of Dan before it split off to be an independent soul. So therefore I was once part of Dan. maybe as a potential, or dormant, till soul split off and incarnated the aspect that is me. I've no idea what the, circumstances were. They seem reluctant to say. maybe as a result of Sam saying those things to me, Soul could not get involved but Dan could, and or Maybe they talked and if they did this then I could grow faster or something.

Each, as I said, offers some advantages over the other, between being an independent soul with soul parent's memories, and being an external aspect of dan, at least temporarily since I'd choose to be an independent soul sooner or later.

Who knows, maybe all this is helping Dan and soul to grow as it does me, at the same time.

One advantage of being an independent soul is it would be all me, and my decisions would be just me and that is not. with other souls saying their opinion. and i can experience being an independent soul. though i would have to discover some stuff myself, some I can learn from other souls farther along.

being an external aspect of Dan may offer some advantages. since Dan is farther along then soul is i may be aware of certain things that I would not be as an independent soul from soul. Though some disadvantages is Dan's desires and wants may color what I want to do and how I feel. Though that may help with further growth for us both. So for example I may as an independent soul I may choose to not incarnate ever again. dan, who I am not sure if he incarnates any more or not. may choose to incarnate and his intuition may say that, for example, i'm the perfect aspect for that incarnation. If I don't want to I doubt Dan would force me to. but say his wanting to incarnate and my being the perfect aspect for that incarnation may color my thoughts and feelings were I'd sorta feel like I do and don't want to incarnate so I may choose ok at the end. Though again I don't think Dan would force it. I like to think he'd mention he's thinking of incarnating and he feels I'd be the best aspect for it. Then let me decide if I want to or not. Just an example, not sure if Dan incarnates much or not.

As an external aspect of Dan i wonder if Stan is an incarnation. Do some incarnate into 6d or wherever the pod hangs out? if so does it have a specific live span like on earth? and if one does incarnate there as an incarnation does one have to start as a baby here or can one just poof be an adult with the body being fully made from 6d matter?

and Dan did say he himself visits where the pad is. does that mean he can lower his vibrations temporarily, or is it more like he, being multidimensional, can be there and wherever he usually as the same time. Also does that mean he has say a 6d matter body he makes every time he wants to visit, or does he have a 6d body that he keeps at least say a tenth of 1 percent of himself in, sorta asleep somewhere, that he wakes up when he wants to be with the pod. Maybe only able to put 50 or 90% of himself into the body but not fully.

I also think that souls don't all go up to say 7d, 10d+. Some may find what they like, say 6d and remain there. Still able to learn and grow, not be stagnant but still learning and growing.

unless the pod can travel from 6d up to say 7 or 8 and back down. or they may be scattered across several dimensions, just the higher d ones have 6d bodies or something to visit the 6d ones maybe.

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Not sure if Dan is a guide or not, perhaps a temporary one or something.  he does seem big into the Dom thing.

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Think I popped into the real one or the soul that Dan is an aspect of.  The same one that Stan is an aspect of also.  So he as at least 2 external aspects.  I was inside him for a short while.  I say he since his energy diffidently had a male feel to it.  unmistakable since it was all around me while I was inside him.  Didn't fee like I was being dissolved or anything like with Dan. Think I'll cal the soul Dansoul, for want of a better term.  I had some thoughts as I was typing the above which I'll type later.  odd.  Seems to be getting weirder.  not sure if mystic spiritual stuff can get weird at times or if this weirdness is 'normal' for me.  THe conversation I'll type down is a mix of the one I had then and am having as I am typing this.

From what I recall he said that the first option, of merging back into soul, was no longer an option for me.  he'd not allow me to choose that.  2, being an individual soul with no memories, so poof an infant soul, he would strongly suggest against.  i don't like the idea of being an infant soul again. Feel like I've gone through that already, though i can remember that yet.  he said the 3rd and 4th were the only real options he's recommend.  Being an external aspect of his, or being an independent soul.  he wouldn't answer if I'd be able to pick his memories or the soul higher self is part of. 

He did say that if I chose to be an external aspect he'd incarnate me as a pod member.  i said really not believing that.  and he did a sort of shrug, why not, <you're already a pod member why would I not incarnate you as one?>  but how long would the life span be, is it limited like on earth? <how long would you want it to last?>  so you mean the pod pod. the one that I was around a few times with your Stan aspect, my twin flame, the healer <yea, same pod. you're a member of this one, not any other one>  Sounds like you sorta prefer if if I choose to be an external aspect of yours.  <like your twin would say pick which of the LAST 2 you want, but there are certain, advantages and aspects to being an external aspect of mine.  As she said, you would be on the fast track, so to speak, being an external aspect of what she called a high level soul. not high level seeming to me.  But one can never see how high level they are since they are an insider and to close to themselves.> 

So if i did pick that, would i have to start as an infant in the 6d place where the pod hangs out? <that is one of the dimensions, as you call it, where the pod is, and would you want to start as an infant, being born and growing up quickly over a few days, or longer if you prefer?  I can arrange it.  you'd be as aware as you would be as an adult.  and no you'd not have that annoying polarity and veil stuff like in that dimension where you are.  honestly what where the humans and the others around at the time choosing  I never understood why they choose that path.> 

Sounds like you were around then. How long ago whats that? <maybe i was, and maybe I nipped back, to use an expression of yours, to have a look.> 

That Dan aspect is pretty.... kinky, <yes, let's say with him I'm, exploring and experiencing certain, dom aspects, including some of the mild kinkier ones.  after all none can be hurt and it is fun and both parties can learn about themselves or a new side of themselves.> 

So, was i part of another soul and is that changing? <complicated answer.  Think of it as learning a new aspect of yourself, a new unfolding of yourself. Certain circumstances did... require Dan stepping in, so to speak, and myself to a lesser extent aspect till now.  The exact details you can learn later if you wish, but not now.>

So an aspect of a soul can become an aspect of another soul? <you're not an aspect but an extension of a soul. there is a difference.  and it's complicated.  How to simplify it.  It's more like.  your soul is not fully separate from me. none can be totally separate.  but when he choose to be a separate soul he became that as much as is possible.  he wanted to do and experience things him/her self.  you may choose one day to do the same.  It's, a sort of transition.  one can say you have 2 soul parents now.  all that dissolving thing was a kinkier method of dan to align your energies closer to his so we could more easily communicate since for where I am reaching down to the 3d world is not easy.  We have to meet, half way so to speak, like perhaps through what some earthers call a soul bond.  Sort of like a carrier or piggyback wave, but its not that really.> 

higher self did seem sad and not to talkative, <any change brings some sadness.  the 2 of you have had the same sort of relationship for a bit over 3 decades and that is changing. not to much changing before but since what dan did that day it's on the fast track for changing, though you wont' be aware of all the changes for a while.  just relax, we'll be doing say 80% of the stuff, and much of it you may not be aware of it.  just focus on having fun, getting to know yourself, relaxing, incorporating any aspects you discover, like you have the 2 you have already.  >

So you are very high level, my twin flame mentioned that.  <some of the pod, our pod, do call and feel i am that.  i don't feel very high.  perhaps I can see a few things and realized a few things they have not yet or are not aware of.  but very high level?  I'd not use that label.> 

So are all of our pod all in 1 dimension? <no, they are across 2 dimensions, for now at least.  and as your knowledge said the lower dimension ones, not sure of the earther label, do visit the higher one.  and higher ones can visit lower ones, through a variety of means.  but let me ask you, how would you feel about becoming an, external aspect of me?> 

I pause to think this over, I didn't expect a question, "I do feel, an inner part of me does like it, part of me isn't sure of that option. <that is ok, there is still time, no need to pick now. You are in a transition period, more then one.  we'll be showing you the 2 main options and what it'll be like to be each, an independent soul and an external aspect of me so when the time comes you can make the decision from a point of view of having information, instead of just going with your inner feeling only.>

if I did pick to be an external aspect of you what would you do with me?  <once your incarnation ended and you went through ????? rehab, resting? not sure of the term since It's been ages since I had any incarnations incarnating that for down in the vibrations or dimension.  i do vaguely recall some sort of rest or rehab so you rest.  but it's been a long time.  But at the appropriate time a pod member would come for you, one that you are close to, not your twin flame since that would be to intense.  Perhaps the main healer..  that sounds best.  and she'd take you home, perhaps on a slower more scenic route.  then at the appropriate time the 2 of us would talk.  but you shouldn't be in that ? rehab, rest? to long> 

she'd take me to the 6d and if I picked option 3, how would you do that. would I experience ... anything? <depends on what you want to experience.  it can be as simple as, poof done,and you don't feel anything, to as bizzare, perhaps as being an actual sort of baby inside an orca or dolpin being born ect, like mammals on earth adn other places do.> 

I think if I choose that I'd rather do the poof thing, <yes, simpler and faster.  But some do like to indulge certain, kinks or new experiences.  Wouldn't be hard for you to travel perhaps between both places where the pod lives.  only slight difference, hard to explain.  you'd have to experience it to understand it fully.  but your twin and others like Stan do live in what I think earthers would call 6d. not sure how the designate or label stuff.  not fully my area of expertise or department.  >   earther like me? <your not an earther, you're a pod member, big, huge difference..> 

Hmm, could she be one of the doctors or something there, like with green air or some other clue that may trigger my remembering?  <maybe it's possible.  I'd have to inquire into that. Or perhaps Stan.  not sure, that isn't my area of expertise.>

So would my personality change if I became an external aspect of yours? What would it be like, any changes I'd be aware of? as apposed to being an independent soul.

<the real you under the human conditioning and programming, not much really. You'd still be the real you, with an open link to me. I'd have an open link to you. you would be able to rest, become less aware of your surroundings, a type of sleep and experience sort of being inside me, when you are living with the pod. not the real description but it is not easy to describe. When you take another nap or mediate I'll ask Stan to pull you up so you and he can talk. but you'd still be you, able to learn and grow. and if you don't wish to incarnate anywhere else. you can remain with pod. or go on missions, or a bit of both. being an Independent soul you'd have just you. you can have an extension or an aspect of yourself incarnate if you choose to incarnate, but you could not. You'd sort f have to do things yourself, learn yourself. hard to describe exactly. Some may say it's a fine hair of a difference or slight. you'd be in a sorta situation like I am, so to speak. >

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 "So I'll wait till after this incarnation is over to make the decision?"

<no, there'll be 2 times. the first is fast approaching when you'll need to make the decision.  the 2nd time will be after the incarnation is over and you've ... recovered and have been returned by one of us to us here, your true soul family, the pod.  after a short time, the soul I'm part of will pull you up to where he is and the 2 of you will have a private conversation.  He'll not rush you and you'll have all the time you need, no pressure at all.>

"so who'll escort me back here?"

<not sure yet, perhaps me, the one you call green sister, or maybe another.>

what if I don't recognize the one our pod sends?

<you will.  maybe not a first, but like when you first saw  your twin flame here.  Something in you will stir.  at worst it'll be.  I know you. something more will stir.  then you'll start to remember. it's part of the recovery process.  though if you are at least half awake the recovery process will be faster then if you are totally asleep like most humans are.  if you are fully awake, abiding awakening, I think some call it, the recovery process will be easier.  also depending on the process of death of the body will impact that too.  >

"So how long will i be kept there?"  <not long.  after all you'll recover quickly. and what better place then among your true soul family.>

"fast approaching so soon I'll have to decide the first time? <yes, though you can't choose to be an independent soul.  the only option is to be come an external aspect of the soul I'm part of.  If you choose not to, then other options will be considered, but it'll be easier on you and everyone  if you do accept.>

"so, the soul I was part of a week ago.  it's not in trouble or anything?  <no, nothing like that.  just certain, circumstances.  You never considered it but it's not that it doesn't want you as an aspect.  just, certain circumstances.  and it does put you on the fast track, more then before.  Though you may not notice anything different till later, if then.  Though you may notice some things.  like the higher self may be an unusual thing.   it's a not very common thing that you are going through, can't give details, but it has happened so there is already a system in place.>

Hmm, is it official, did it really happen?   I got a request to lean back in my chair, a promise I would not miss the start of the afterparty of the livestream show I watch Mondays. 

It was Dansoul.  He said the time had come.  I would get the choice again after a suitable time after this incarnation had ended.  After my recovery and rest.  I asked if I did choose to remain an external aspect of his if he'd forcibly incarnate me.  at first I didn't like his answer of yes, but then he said as a pod member.  I asked as an orca, with a malleable body so I can change to be a dolphin or other things, he said yes, then I relaxed.  He then said there are other options,but they would complicate things.  I thought it over a bit and the inner part of me wanted to. I said ok, I accept.  I felt him smile.  Then it felt like something in me shifted or clicked, hard to explain.  then he said 'welcome to the family.  the pod within a pod so to speak.  some of my other aspects will want to give you their special welcomes later.  You'll get mine later. Then I heard the afterparty show starting.

Not sure what to make of that.  Right afterwards I felt an inner happiness for some reason.  A joy.  i also feel love all around me and inside me as I type this.  I also feel very very relaxed.  also I got an impression from him of by forcibly incarnate he meant with my will, not against my will.  well if I am to incarnate after this one, i do want to be a pod member.  as i said, as an orca with a malleable body so i can be other forms. 

Hmm, feels like down to my core I made the right choice.  not sure what anyone else may think or say about this.  Searching my inner feelings, it feels like I made the right choice, along with love/joy/? sexual desire?/contentment, pleasure, hard to describe.   Maybe odd but I feel incapable of feeling any negative emotion.  Though this may change later on. I wonder what anyone else reading this may think of all this.  It feels right.

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A short time ago I got a mental image from Dan, in anthro orca form, and he seems to have 6 arms this time. He used his arms to pin my arms. I was on my back in the mental image.  2 of his arms were on my sides and the other 2 were pinning my ankles, firmly.  Though it felt like if I did protest he'd let me go.  he had his mouth open and around the sides of my rostrum. and he said, <welcome brother.>  "brother?" I ask.  <you are a male.> true, I am currently incarnate in a male body, and also being aspects of the same soul makes us siblings. 

next I felt a soul hug from my twin flame and she said something like, <congratulations.  You made an excellent choice.>  "thanks.  what was the circumstance that required this?" I ask, not expecting her to reply, but she did saying something like.  <the soul you were part of evolved to the next vibration level, next dimension, not sure what the proper term is where you are.  He didn't expect it to happen till a bit after your incarnation ended, but it happened to him unexpectedly.>  "So why was this required exactly?"  <it is very complicated to explain.> 

Hmm, guess that explains why? seems a lot of stuff has happened. Stuff I never expected or imagined could.

Guess I have to call Dansoul Soul now, since I'm an aspect of him now.   Not sure if any of my recent experiences make sense to any of you folks? and your thoughts on all this?