Thursday [2-12]
Interesting. That may be why it feels like my kundalini rises up through the top of my head and that felt like it descends and they sort of cross each other, so to speak.

Not sure if I did put this down above, but it felt like this would be a unique experience for me as a soul that rarely comes up. If that makes any sense. I'm getting use to the new me, think I am mostly use to it. I guess I've had a full kundalini rising, neat. I'm getting use to or use to the way it feels, sorta like an eternal snake crawling up my spine, up through the top of my head. The new experience I guess is me being a new/old soul who's an external aspect of a higher level soul. I did ask it before, and he did say he's not directly from source, there is at least 1 between him and source. Though he would not say how many, same as he would not say how many current aspects he has.

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also spent a bit of time embracing, hugging, and a bit of licking the jaw of green sister as I call her, some shared affection, & intimacy, no sex really involved.

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On bus on way to place to play RPG. Fred 1st chapter of 1st Seth book. Stan wanted to experience what it is like to be physical. It kinda felt like he wazzup sitting where I was. He said he HaD not been this dense of a being before. He said he better understands the limitation I live in under and experience. Though it would also allow 1 to experience unique pleasures. Not his thing but he better understands what it is like for me being here.

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Seeing if I can recall any past or parallel lives from original soul. just get vague sorta impressions. light blue skin humanoid, dolphin like beings. that is all I can get for now. Current soul: Same maybe, more cetaceans maybe? it's energy feels much more potent, concentrated, powerful, then the original soul's. a lot more concentrated, love/joy/pleasure/relaxed/contentedness/affection/sexual maybe, maybe companionship? hard to describe the feeling of the energy besides it does feel more potent, concentrated, powerful. 

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had a wild experience after a shower and I lay down to nap. hard to describe exactly. For no reason my sex drive was way way above it's normal peak level. To the extent that I mentally said to the soul I'm an external aspect of that I wished he were here physically so we could just do it. Then he said <why not do it now?, or something like that. I asked just like that and he said <sure, why not>.

The next experiences are something I can't begin to experience. he said something like <time to experience your true being.> or something like that. and I felt, the closest I can explain was the energy I felt was a bunch of feelings at once. Bliss, pleasure, orgasm, (both sexual and non sexual versions of the first 3 at once), love, joy, and perhaps more. The energy and feeling was all inside me, my very being. This went on for a while then stopped. after a few minutes or maybe longer it started up a 2nd time, but not as strong this time. Then another pause, like a rest or something. Then the 3rd time. But this time I was not just experiencing it, but it was being streamed into me from where I could not tell. It felt like it was being streamed into both my body, or whatever energy body is inside this body, but also into the channel the kundalini travels. This went on, with the soul I'm an external aspect of streaming energy into me continuously. I felt like something in me was dissolved during this, no idea what it was, a block, or something else? Till at one point it said in a humorous, non serious manner, <better stop before you pop.>

I lay on the bed for a while. It felt like my body was resonating far stronger then it had for a long time, and the kundalini felt far more concentrated then it's ever been. the resonating in my body has been fading since then. But a few minutes after the experience was over it felt like the concentration of the kundalini energy was to much for the channel and it stretched, maybe forced stretched since the energy or kundalini was to concentrated. I feel a not, soreness, or slight tenderness there, but something. It feels now like the channel the kundalini travels up is slightly wider then my spine now.

I asked soul and it said it streamed energy into me from a spacial direction that doesn't exist in the universe I currently inhabit.

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Also today I noticed, not sure how long I'd been like this.  I didn't just know or feel that everyone is one. I was experiencing it.  Sorta  like I can lean my head forwards and sorta experience it, almost like before, or hold my head in the normal position and I experience it, everyone is all 1 soul, with individual identities.  hard to describe.

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A few hours later and I wonder what Soul did to me.  I tried asking it and all it said was, <fun wasn't it?> with the impression of it was smiling. 

<see, fooling around with me, can lead to fun, pleasurable experiences like that.>    <being an aspect of mine has many such advantages, many pleasures.  I promise more in your future.> 

Not worried, just curious what he did to me.  I did a bit of digging deep into me.  Felt a feeling that I'm not consciously aware of usually.  Pod, home. 

hmm.   <the pull of home.  I'll always be there, but you are doing well.  that is why the pull is, somewhat sleeping.  that is a good sign, but it is always there.  when you cross over, the pull will awaken at the apropriate time.  one of use will escort you home, perhaps stan, dan, or the one  you call green sister. >

"Feels normal that a high level being like yourself does like what some here call sex, sharing as the pod calls it."  <yes, natural for us.  but you already accept this, i can feel that.   good.  live what is natural.  We share pleasures, and other things.>  

"are you trying to seduce me or something? "

<no, I am. :)    our nature is not just the love/joy or souls, it is also pleasure, affection, companionship, sharing pleasure, affection, among ourselves and some others.  though we are not extremists, there are some among our friends who are.> 

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a bit after this i felt him caress my chest softly.  <This is part of our nature.>  "yes, I know, feel that.  and you are getting .. good a pressing certain buttons, very seductive, erotic even.  <good, I've made it my, duty, focus, pleasure to learn every button of each of my aspects, so we can more efficiently share pleasures, and aspects can also share pleasures more efficiently and better as well.  It is part of our nature, besides the usual soul love/joy and so on.  it is a port of our nature ot also share pleasure, affection, companionship. >   "you're certainly learning quick my buttons."   <indeed.  wait till you're here and i have learned all of them.  and what I learn, my other aspects can learn from and access.> 

"Do you have a body where the pod is that you use?" <no, but I can make one easily if I want.  doing that where you are is ... not worth the bother.  easier by far where the pod is.  and between aspects and me, why do that.  we can just use my ... what you call the white buffer place..  as one of my aspects, you have full access to it you know.> 

"Guess I don't really know what I'll be like once I'm back home."  <you have some clues.  For us it is like this, pleasure, sharing pleasures, affection, companionship.  Others ways are different, mathematics, and other ways.  natural for them as these are for us.  Embrace and accept our ways.  I know you have, but continue to do this. and you'll learn much.> 

Does part of me feel light, some part inside? feels like maybe it is ? floating?

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"you're getting to where you can be as seductive or erotic as my twin flame is. <there is an excellent idea. the 3 of us can have some fun when you are here. the 2 of us knowing all of your buttons by then. I'll ask her and arrange it.> ooo interesting. can that be more then once? <intend it to be. maybe even another aspect of mine at times, or 2.>

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I do wonder if my kundalini channel will get wider or be forced wider like it was. and if more energy will be streamed or pumped into me like it was earlier today. is that just for pleasure/fun, or does it increase my vibration, or have other reasons, effects too? I wonder.