Last night Think I got a reward from soul for my channeling. I was watching a multi picarto stream and I felt soul kissing me and hugging me. It said it is half of the reward. I did very well in my channeling today. I asked what the other half was as I visualized my intent to kiss him back. I felt a bit of a mix of pleasure/joy/love. I felt it was screening a bit I asked if I could feel all of the love we share for each other. it said I'd find it distracting. I should say he since soul feels male. though that may be since I'm in a male body. but I do recall when I could project where the pod is i was usually in a male body. now and then a herm or a a female a few times.
I felt more of the love/joy/pleasure. Felt it increased a bit, then a bit more. Then the full of it. it was so intense that I did literally roll the eyes in the back of my head and my mouth did hang open for the minute or so I felt it, not able to think even. Though I knew Soul didn't intend for it to last to long so I didn't mind.
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also last night had another brief conversation with soul as we caressed. I asked, to be sure, if we could remain like we are now, after this incarnation is over, with us not merging. he said mmhmm, then said we'd be in relationship similar to twin flames. He then put the tip of his rostrum to mine saying but we're not twin flames. Then we started to kiss. I asked him I wonder what it would be like if we had a 3some with twin flame and he said very intense. I find that an interesting thing.
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I was thinking as I lay down to take my nap. What I would like to do, if the universe would provide the money, is once I'm finished with the awakening the light body course, is to likely do the celebrations of initiation, that deal with the heart, throat and crown centers. Then I'd like to take courses 2-4. Though 3 and 4 are expensive. then do the side light body courses after that.
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I did the 11th meditation of course 2, forgiveness. Though I went off the script to say at first that I forgave everyone from this incarnation, all past incarnations , present and any future ones (though I don't plan on doing any incarnations, but in case).
Then I decided to go farther and just forgive everyone everywhere, not just earth but everywhere. and of course myself.
The course has you forgive 1 person, then a 2nd person, then a family member, but I modified it as above, figuring since I was doing it before, and had done it so often before, why not do it this way.
I did feel different for a bit. It has a bit about releasing their energy that you may have anywhere in your body, my intent instead was to release any of their energy I needed to forgive from anywhere in my body, aura, energy, ect. I did feel some energy streams coming in where she talked about receiving light. and i do feel a bit different. Slightly. Not like before when I felt disoriented when I did it the first time I forgave everyone from this, all past, present, parallel and possible future lives. I do feel a little lighter. Think I'll continue doing the forgiving everyone everywhere, and myself, on a regular basis, it is pretty quick to do. Though the audio is a long one, a bit over 30 minutes.
The rest of it went as well, talking to the dna, cells, atoms, physical body emotional body. I added in the mental and light body, though Orin didn't mention the last 2. Think I may add this one in the favorites, at least for the last 10 or 15 minutes where you talk to your dna, send love to cells. it did feel like the dna was resonating, and that spread to the cells and such, and the light and love i sent as well.
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Forgot to put in a conversation I had with soul this morning. Don't recall if I had this conversation before I got out of bed, while I was walking or at some other time.
I asked soul about the feeling I had that my guide would suggest I not incarnate again here though there is or are one person or many who would want me to. My soul asked how would I feel if say i had another incarnation where I was totally 100% aware from the soul and spiritual sense. if I were as aware as say he, a soul was, with all of his memories I could consciously access. And consider eve if I had an easy life if I were rich in the next incarnation. I thought about it and I would not like it since even if I had all that, I'd not want to be here. I'd be stuck here for say 60 or 80 years, even worst if say humans would live 120 or 200 years. at best I'd find it being very annoying being here, or even worst then being annoyed. Though he did say yes, there are others who will want me to come here again, preferably to incarnate or at the least to be on the other side helping out with this project. I asked if they would try to use trickery.
he said they would try to be subtle, but they'd not lie, but they may leave things out. and they would offer certain incentives, but they can't be sure certain things would happen. I then asked if he and twin could be there to ensure they don't sway or trick me, he said if I wanted we could. i did say i wanted and did demand that they be there, and whether it would be better if we merged or were there as 3 separate.
Soul then said something like, "yea, we don't want to go through all this again." and i felt he meant the lessons that the earth souls come here to learn. I do feel I've learned those lessens, but i don't remember that of course and have to relearn it. Due to that stupid veil. So if I have any say I don't want to incarnated again. interesting I don't' want to, I feel the guide, arcturian or whatever he incarnated as a lot, soul I feel would prefer if i didn't, but it is my choice.
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I didn't have time to put down the bit from my guide yesterday since orin went pretty fast. But i got also that some see this karma, and amnesia veil as a failure since we had to come in to help. They could not do it themselves. Some say it's not that you can expect some adjustment and retooling to be needed. But some could say that if such is needed it is really a type of a failure since they could not do it themselves and some had to come in to interfere from the inside.
He also said, as I remembered at the age of 15, everyone gets some distortion. No matter how careful you are to try to have none, being incarnated on earth some distortion will happen. Some get more distortion then others. But one can try to consciously try to not have any distortion, like some do try, like I do, trying to put any preconceived notions aside, but some distortion does come through, even those who use very deep hypnosis like michael newton's and delores cannon's techniques. and me as well. Though we do try to have as little as possible.
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another bit I got was also that those coming here were not adequately prepared, especially the first 2, or first few waves. many on the councils now see that they should have incarnated here themselves BEFORE they formulated their plan and asked for volunteers. Many now see that those who came here earlier on like me were not adequately prepared before coming here. That includes former soul and through him me.
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I had some feelings that my soul, and maybe me also, have gone independent from what was current soul. I got the feeling maybe it wasn't working out with the former guides of Dan and Stan, since they had never dealt or worked with anyone on as dense of a place as earth. Not sure if any of this is true, or any of the following. But the dragoness, one of my soul parents, suggested, sorta subtly nudged me towards the awakening the light body course. And through that orin & daben. So I still have a sort of support through the course, and also now the guide that I'm learning to guide. And I get the feeling, like the guide said, that there are maybe other guides that I may deal with, more they are either specialists and or ones that are higher still but I can't connect with quite yet. the current guide's energy is pretty powerful and I can't keep it in for to long. At least not as of yet.
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I lay down to rest and did try to do a meditative and relaxing type and I was curious about something so decided to ask soul about what gender my soul body normally had. I had assumed that it was usually male but I could switch it to other genders if i wanted.
From what I recall what soul said was that mine is usually a herm. it feels more male since I'm in a male body currently, and if your not using it you are not aware that your soul body has a vagina. Though souls do not normally have gender soul said we have an interest in sex so we do. My soul knowledge and from what I've experienced, it is also very pliable and we can shift it as we want. So I guess I could be a male or female gender if I wish.
Soul also said as for experiencing gay sex that is possible as well. One way is to shift it lower. if the other person prefers this type then if you are willing you can shift it lower and alter the feel of it. Though also what you prefer to perceive and them also will effect the experience as well.
Soul also said that the pod can choose to create a soul either the way souls are usually created, or more like unicorns do, and have a sort of pregnancy where the mother, the created soul and source together decide how long the pregnancy will last. Though this is not decided all at once. At creation or conception (if you want to use that term) the 3 don't decide, ok, we agree 6 months.
he said also a soul such as me could experience what it's like to be a soul type embryo, so to speak, say involving twin flame or my soul itself. Free will being what it is, if both are willing it's possible. Though one would not have to go through the entire process. one could do that for say a few hours, a day, or whatever, go off and do some stuff as they normally are, then return to being that if one wishes. or also shrink down the size of one's soul body to experience being like a kid or younger.
makes sense, the soul body being pliable to one's will, but I did learn some stuff.
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I did the 12th meditation, and am finished with the 2nd awakening the light body course. It went very well. I felt the energy flowing and such. I tried taking the cone that is supposed to be connected to the Nua and had it connected to both the nua and ranthia and i felt energy flowing into both.
as for the temple of the masters it shifted. at first it looked like some sort of greek thing, then an outdoor thing, then something else, and something else after that. One of the versions I did see some writing around but had no idea what the language was.
i felt my soul was helping me with the experience as I helped it with. though for some reason part way through it felt like I was there but also on a ship again, like I was in 3 places. the body here, and the light body or whatever was in 2 places. in the temple of the masters thing but also on the ship having a short procedure done. I did ask a few questions. Seemed the thing inside me, container thing, was depleted and they needed to fill it with more light. The person did say they were sirian, as i thought the person said. The person said the arcturians don't usually do this sort of procedure. and the person did mention when I asked that I was a colleague of his/her. not sure if was a male or female, couldn't see them very clearly except for their head and part of the upper chest area.
Felt what they did was put a tentacle thing into me at around the navel area and go inside. and something being filled. I guess that thing that was put into me earlier. It did feel somewhat pleasurable. then it withdrew and I felt a much thinner one inserted and the person said they were doing another procedure, minor adjustments.
Felt odd seeing 2 places at once while meditating, not done that before. the procedure room I seemed to be on a cushioned bed thing and at a slight angle facing the sirian and I seemed to be in a dolphin type body as i usually was before. I could see the tendrils/tentacle things were connected to some sort of device the sirian was behind and operating controls with a sorta small crystal or glass like window so they could see through and I could see them.
in the temple of the light I had some ascended master appear I couldn't see. all this happening at the same time. i had my guide, the arcturian guy appear again. again his color seemed darker then the sirian, maybe blue or blue-green, not sure. and he was shorter then I was.
I got lots of light energy. Hope I don't get a minor headache. all the guide said of my purposes, and i know both of them. Though i still say I'm no healer, leader, teacher, master, nor guide. Despite Orin saying I'm a master, healer leader and teacher.
My purposes are to hold the energy here, with them fine tuning it, to help with the shifting of vibrations, also to awaken as much as I can. also he said to trust myself, have faith in myself and try to awaken as much as I can. and the feeling was not to try to hard. though he didn't say that.
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I decided to go ahead and buy the 3rd part of the awakening the light
body. I don't plan on starting it till tomorrow, but if something
happens to my connection I'll have it downloaded already. Don't plan on
starting it tonght, but depending on what happens I may. Though likely
not.
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Think i"ll post my channelings as I learn the in another thread so i can
easily find and look them over. Otherwise I'd have to bookmark every
one to find it and folks are only allowed to have 1 yourspace. So I
guess channeled messages is ok. On my blog I'll keep it as it's own
separate labeled thing. No idea if you can do menus to put channeled
stuff into 1 and my experiences into another.
Channeling 2 in this case. as for aftereffects I do feel a slight pressure headache, a mild one.
Not sure if I put down that my arcturian guide I got the feeling that he's sorta like a soul older cousin. That along my soul heritage he and I share a common soul ancestor.
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I was curious if Hok is the leader of all unicorns like he said he is and someone on here says. I tried to channel my guide, it felt not as easy to reach, i guess since orin wasn't helping. i did get something. feels like I have bit of a pressure headache.
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So is Hok the leader of all unicorns? That depends, do you feel he is your leader or not?
not all unicorns everywhere, just a group of them who live all in one area. Unicorns are individuals and some do not acknowledge any single leader. the unicorns family that yours is and Mirabelle is are among those who do not acknowledge any single leader, so no hok is not a leader of all unicorns everywhere, certainly not one of your leaders. creation or the realms is huge, there is no single leader of any type of people. It is far to immense for that. the only single true leader of any group is the source. The pod does not have any single leader, unicorns do not, we arcturians do not, none do.
dragoness: what has been spoken before is true. even dragons have no single leader.
? no idea who: no one group of people can have 1 single leader. not in the soul realms as you call them. and that is an immense place. each group has councils, and the councils have councils.
You will be on one if you are not already. if you are on one already or not is a secret you'll pleasantly find out one day. ;)
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I felt a lot of love coming in from 1 or more sources. I wonder what the source or sources is. Is it my soul, the arcturian guide, others maybe?
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simpliest way to put the older posts in.
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8:37 PM
Thought I'd start this so I can put my practicing at channeling. I did
my 3rd attempt a short time ago so thought I'd summarize my first one
here, then copy and past my 2nd one, then put my 3rd one here. For one
thing this'll make it easier to find then having to bookmark every
channeling message from my yourspace pages.
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To summarize the first one. It was a very short one to meet your guide.
I got the feeling and visual that it would be both my soul/higher self
(not sure which it is) and an Arcturian, with others near him that are
indistinct. He said the others I may work with later on. Some of them
are specialists and such. He and my soul/higher self would be my
general guides, at least for now. I got that he was an arcturian and my
soul and him had shared an incarnation before so my soul had asked him
to be a guide during the upcoming incarnation, and he said he would if I
would get up to that level. I got the feeling that he's sorta like a
soul older cousin. That along my soul heritage he and I share a common
soul ancestor.
A name he had in a past incarnation, the closest it can be rendered into
English at this time and the name may get clearer later on as the
connection grows stronger and fine tuning is done. The name is
something like Lavensure, Lavenshure. Something like that.
This is from a opening to channel I'm studying form done by Orin and
Daben, channeled by Sanaya and Daune, I think their names are spelled.
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I'll put channeling 1 here. Then 2 following, so it's not one huge
thing to read, and also so it's easier for me to find later on and read.
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I did the first channel and it did feel like i was making it up at
times, but I put the doubt aside. I did try talking while I was typing,
and I did keep my eyes closed this whole time. I'll correct the typos
before and boy were there a lot. The energy felt very concentrated. It
did feel like several were helping in this. I did feel like I was
reaching upwards and a guide did connect and like very early on my soul
had put part of it's energy or something into part of me, I guess to
help make and hold the connection. After a bit it did feel like the
rest of it's energy was in my head and was focusing on certain areas of
the head, so to speak. Hard to describe it. Not sure if it was the
guide, or maybe orin doing that or several someone's. No fear on my
side, it felt like a part of me knew what they were doing to make a
stable connection. it did feel like a lot of energy was in my head
during most of it, a high concentration of energy that wasn't my energy.
It's presence was pleasurable, especially towards the very end.
Though not over powering or anything like that. More like the pleasure
was a side effect, so to speak.
Orin was speaking to fast as she asked the questions so I could not get
the questions down, just the answers that the guide seemed to want.
I'll try to remember the questions but if I can't i'll leave the
statement by itself.
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08:38
are you the guide I'm to channel are you of the light? :yes to both.
some doubts are normal. put them aside and see how things go, us your
inner feeling.
do you wish to verbally channel or other?: we can try both verbal and typing and you getting the words.
how will you communicate? into your mind and you typing would be
easiest . but type while saying will help you to get over the shyness,
bashfulness and such feelings. do the misspelling fixes after.
speaking, telepathic, and typing. full spectrum.
verbal speaking will take later as adjustment and fine tuning are done.
as needed. tying will be easier since I just send the messages to you
telepathically. try speaking with the worlds, it'll help in the long
run.
we can work on emotional and mental body as well at the same time.
the incarnation was one that was truly not wanted. former soul choose
to incarnate anyway even thought he did not know the conditions of
Incarnating on the earth since he had not incarnated there before. part
of why you choose to part with him after the incarnation. you were a
part of it at that time and didn't really choose one can say, but former
soul choose to for the mission.
What is your name?: lavensure is the closest that can be transmitted and
revived at this time, the closest to be rendered in English at this
time find tuning will come later. lavensure, lavenshore ?
how can he tell when you are ready to channel?: there will be a feeling
the energy is different then his energy. a different perspective at
time will be felt, different of energy.
what is your primary purpose?": Work together, will be in his self
development spiritually as a soul at this time, general stuff for now,
more specific later and more specialists will work with us and him
later on.
What is your primary purpose?: assist with him getting to know his true
self and working to envelop and awaken fully or as fully as he can in
the tie left if this incarnation.
have you connected to this person before? connected before I had to an
extent before, when he wanted a high level guide. former soul had
asked since he and I had shared an incarnation before so this was a
possible thing that could have happened.
anything you want to say to the person right now: Keep trying to do this
so our connection can get deeper , stronger, and better, and we can
learn a lot g together, also continue the courses you are doing as long
as o wan easily afford them since they will help immeasurably, will help
a lot. to much may cause a headache at this time.
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8:38
2:
I did feel his energy more strongly.
happy to work with me again.
pleasure in my head is what i feel and more peace, calmer.
awakening 3rd eye felt more like my horn had press pressure inside it.
I feel pressure between my eyebrows too, but horn feels more pressure.
He comments he's worked with orin before.
feel some pleasure, slight and faint.
below is my typing some answers to general questions orin is asking....
I can feel like his energy body is overlaying or inside, mine, inter meshed.
I'll try it with my eyes open to see if it effects the trance, feels like it does not.
feels like I'm sorta 3 in 1. some pleasure felt.
I'll close my eyes at times but they'll remain open mainly.
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Channeling Starts below:
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for posture be as relaxed as you can. you relaxing is the key, that is more important then exact posture.
one can spiritually progress with ease and through joy, pleasure, and fun. work is a human culture concept.
something positive on humanity. there is much progress as the shift is happening at this moment.
the crisis is normal, <? thon ?> go if the current as a growth
type pains, different vibratory beings together in one world, some
clashes will happen as is the conditions on earth. <no idea what
the thon typo is a word of so can't correct it.>
to align with your divine plan look within to yourself.
how to tell this is an abundant and friendly universe. which feels
right ot your inner being. that is the way to tell. not a harsh judge
filled with nastiness. (I paused the audio since orin doesn't leave
time to type)
ways folks can contact their higher selves and souls: listen to the
guidance and wisdom within, it can be hard to hear at first and may be
the first initial idea that gets pushed aside.
at this point i started also speaking the answer,I forgot to do that
above. i want to not just type but speak also since it may help with my
speaking or be handy for later on.
the ways thoughts and feelings of others are affecting them and what
they may do bout it: oen way is to recognize such is possible and it
may have effected you. Try looking within to see if that is really one
of your own feelings. do you normally feel this way about this
situation or is it something from outside oneself?
about the earth (several questions in one): the earth is indeed a
sentient being, at the soul or spirit level, a planetary type of being.
think of it as a type of incarnation. not exactly the way a human
incarnation works, but similar. it/she does wish the inhabitants would
wizen up to the fact they are all interconnected and stop what they are
doing, plundering, poisoning, and so forth. Though they are not yet
aware, yet being the key term. The earth evolves like human souls do,
but slower in most cases. she is going on to the next vibrational
level, and content to leave behind whoever does not go along. Though
she is pleased with the help of the outsiders, like us, and does hope we
stay around even after the shift if fully over. commencement of the end
the project that is.
channel on the animal kingdom: animals are more aware and self aware
the most humans think, especially certain species. this will come to
light for some in the near futureish and some somewhat has. Though many
humans do not know what ot look for and expect all intelligences to be
and think like them. Though many species operate on a different level.
not superior or inferior to humans, but different. as for how to help,
treat them as one would any fellow being, with love and respect. and
the earth as well.
higher community of beings living in the higher dimensions: there are
families of such beings, not family in the genetic sense, but family in
the sense that they are close to each other emotionally and a the soul
level. Some types do form what may be seen as a family type like on
earth. With mates and such and some do still have an interest in what
some would call soul sex. Though referring it to sharing intimacy is
more accurate of a term. Others have little to no interest, seeing what
some may call mathematics or theoretical physics as what they love
more, or producing and experiencing music or experiences. There are
some races (as humans would use the term) who think in musical notes and
music itself is their being.
they are assisting humanity in various ways, subtle ways since we can't
just appear on earth and do stuff. Certainly not like the the movie The
Day the Earth Stood Still, a movie the person typing this, the one I'm
working with has seen. That would be interference. though some would
like to do what the guy does in the the movie, that would cause far
more fear and have long lasting repercussions then the way we are
helping currently.
What can be done to bring about world peace: that will take time as the
human cultures grows and matures. a step at at time. for example
human females were seen as property no to many centuries ago, now look
at their status. steps must be taken and are being taken by humans, but
the progress must happen at 1 step at a time. One can't jump over the
steps.
Changes humans can do to contribute to world peace: be true to their
true selves and not give into to fear, or anger. make your own
decisions don't let others think and feel for you or control you.
what is the purpose of channeling & how will it help to serve
humanity: It can give one a guide to inner wisdom, another perspective
and ideas one may not have thought of before or by oneself. Even if one
channels their higher self this can do those things also. as for how
it'll help humanity there are many ways. even if you use it only for
yourself you are helping others through a ripple effect that will effect
others even if you don't perceive it yourself. and those comfortable
can channel to try to aid others to aid themselves. since one can't
force help on another, ultimately each has to help themselves.
how to deepen and strengthen this connection: remain relaxed and
continue this. trust yourself and what you are doing, put aside doubt.
keep practicing this and doing it regularly. not to long at a time
since it may give you a headache if done for to long of a time,
especially at first.
I did ask about reptiles while Orin was talking before it ended. As she
talked of ending it he left. but before he did say that not all are as
most humans say. some are quite nice and sentient, but don't interact
with humans much as the insect types don't for the same reason. it
would cause fear among humans. and he mentioned i did see one, a
praying mantis type. I do recall seeing one and posting about it on my
yourspace but no idea how far back it was or in what relation it was or
the context. His energy did feel much more concentrated then mine. And
I did get the idea it may be a good idea to post it outside of
yourspace since it may help me get over some shyness, unsureness, ect.
Saturday, April 4, 2015
Friday, April 3, 2015
Friday [4-3]
I do find I do really dislike being here
on earth. it goes from a dislike to a very strong dislike. I've no
idea why anyone would willingly come here. I certainly wouldn't.
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I do wonder if current soul was the previous one or if it is the one that was re-created. I am fairly sure it was re-created and we were re-created as one being with me being the part that is in this physical body (unfortunately) and it is the rest of the same being.
Just gets me to feeling how I dislike being here. why would anyone come here willingly? I would not.
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I did the 7th meditation of part 2. the 1st energy center went ok. the 2nd and 3rd didn't go very well, but that does seem to be common. I did feel more from the 4th center. I don't think I got much out of the meditation. But that happens.
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I do hope the mess of the amerigroup works out.
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I do wonder if current soul was the previous one or if it is the one that was re-created. I am fairly sure it was re-created and we were re-created as one being with me being the part that is in this physical body (unfortunately) and it is the rest of the same being.
Just gets me to feeling how I dislike being here. why would anyone come here willingly? I would not.
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I did the 7th meditation of part 2. the 1st energy center went ok. the 2nd and 3rd didn't go very well, but that does seem to be common. I did feel more from the 4th center. I don't think I got much out of the meditation. But that happens.
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I do hope the mess of the amerigroup works out.
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Had a few short experiences where soul first sent me some energy, it was very pleasurable. Then a short bit later it felt like it stepped into where I was and that was extremely pleasurable, bliss sorta feeling, brief.
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I've been getting hungry this afternoon. I don't mind eating a snack here and there. I figure if this body gets hungry there must be a reason.
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I did the 8th mediation. The running the energy went ok at best. I didnt feel the 2nd or 3rd. the 4th I felt some of it. I went very deep, lost the experience a few times, but as able to get it back. I decided to focus on me for this one. Not sure if that is why i went deep or not, or if it were other reasons. I did feel like soul or higher self was, at least, partially where I was, so maybe it was doing something and that is why I slipped pretty deep for a while there.
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I think the next time I try to channel, verbally channeling your guide, or in my case guides maybe. I'll try to verbally do that, but I do hope, since I have no way to record my voice, I can type the experience also. I don't want to just type, but I want to type at the same time. Since I think my speaking may help with if I need help speaking or with throat center issues.
I think what I'll do is I'll do post it in yourspace, but if it goes really well the next time I'll summarize the first time, put a link to the specific post and I may try to put it in the channeled messages, since if I do start posting a lot that would make my yourspace to big, or I may leave it in yourspace. if I did that the yourspace would be very long and finding the channeled messages would be hard to find those unless I bookmark the specific posts. starting a thread in the channeled messages section may get folks asking questions, which I may not mind after a while, but I'd be very early in the learning to channel, though that may help in certain ways. I'll think it over and decide, though may may give some suggestions too.
I think on my blog I'd mark those specifically something like Channeled 01 [date] and such like that. Unless I can do a sub section. but that is the future.
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I decided to go ahead and do the 9th meditation, though I wasn't going to do it till tomorrow. I think I'll try to do 10-12 tomorrow. The idea is I can be at least a day ahead of schedule. 10 Is the inter-dimensional travel to the universe of the gas beings, and if I get nothing, early on, like I didn't the first 2 times I did it, I'll just end it early and go right into 11. As i recall I ended it early the 2nd time I tried it. The first I toughed it out I got absolutely nothing, except for the master gas being I could mentally hear him humming as he blended his energy with mine, but I got nothing else whatsoever. I think it may be cause either I'm not sensitive enough or something. I'm not sure. I'll retry it after tomorrow when it comes up next when I redo all the meditations of the first 3 parts of awakening the light body when I redo them all after I finish part 3 for the second time, then again when I redo all the meditations for the entire 6 part awakening the light body.
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Seems there won't be the Friday livestream show i usually watch. that means I'll go ahead and try to do meditation 10, the gas beings one. as I said before if I feel or get nothing early on I'll just quit it early. I would do the next one also but that one, 11, is a bit over 30 minutes, so I'll do that one tomorrow with 12, putting me a day ahead of schedule.
I just have to decide if I want to try to do several channeling audios Sunday, take a day off from the awakening the light body, or buy the 3rd part and start it a day early. I'll decide that tomorrow.
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I did the 10th meditation, the inter-dimensional journey - gas beings one. It went very well overall. This puts me a whole day ahead of schedule. I felt the first 3 lb energy centers, though the 2nd and 3rd I only faintly felt. Not sure why, maybe they are to faint for me to feel at this time? No idea. The mumin and Ranthia went like usual. i didn't feel any energy flowing into them but I felt
something as Daben sent me the energy. also a times a bit of love.
The journey to the gas beings went far better then before, a success overall. I got a few mental images. Sort of like their realm, or I got a non color type of colors, if that makes any sense. it does to me since if i get mental images that is how I usually get them. For me to get colors is very rare. Other then maybe white.
Their dimension has no gravity. It feels like they have no planets and can go wherever they want. An immense place. Earth measurements have no meaning there, it felt like. I went through several blending. Felt like my energy changed each time. They use blending to share each others experiences, and I guess retain some energy from each other. it was a pleasant experience. The master I blended with felt like an immense being, very large
i guess since my energy felt different with each of the blending we shared experiences, though i don't recall any of theirs. It has left me with a very slight pressure headache. I'll try using the inner healer thing I learned in this part to see if it can help long term with it since it is a very mild headache, no idea why I got it. Guess I'll get use to the way my energy feels a bit different.
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Had a few short experiences where soul first sent me some energy, it was very pleasurable. Then a short bit later it felt like it stepped into where I was and that was extremely pleasurable, bliss sorta feeling, brief.
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I've been getting hungry this afternoon. I don't mind eating a snack here and there. I figure if this body gets hungry there must be a reason.
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I did the 8th mediation. The running the energy went ok at best. I didnt feel the 2nd or 3rd. the 4th I felt some of it. I went very deep, lost the experience a few times, but as able to get it back. I decided to focus on me for this one. Not sure if that is why i went deep or not, or if it were other reasons. I did feel like soul or higher self was, at least, partially where I was, so maybe it was doing something and that is why I slipped pretty deep for a while there.
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I think the next time I try to channel, verbally channeling your guide, or in my case guides maybe. I'll try to verbally do that, but I do hope, since I have no way to record my voice, I can type the experience also. I don't want to just type, but I want to type at the same time. Since I think my speaking may help with if I need help speaking or with throat center issues.
I think what I'll do is I'll do post it in yourspace, but if it goes really well the next time I'll summarize the first time, put a link to the specific post and I may try to put it in the channeled messages, since if I do start posting a lot that would make my yourspace to big, or I may leave it in yourspace. if I did that the yourspace would be very long and finding the channeled messages would be hard to find those unless I bookmark the specific posts. starting a thread in the channeled messages section may get folks asking questions, which I may not mind after a while, but I'd be very early in the learning to channel, though that may help in certain ways. I'll think it over and decide, though may may give some suggestions too.
I think on my blog I'd mark those specifically something like Channeled 01 [date] and such like that. Unless I can do a sub section. but that is the future.
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I decided to go ahead and do the 9th meditation, though I wasn't going to do it till tomorrow. I think I'll try to do 10-12 tomorrow. The idea is I can be at least a day ahead of schedule. 10 Is the inter-dimensional travel to the universe of the gas beings, and if I get nothing, early on, like I didn't the first 2 times I did it, I'll just end it early and go right into 11. As i recall I ended it early the 2nd time I tried it. The first I toughed it out I got absolutely nothing, except for the master gas being I could mentally hear him humming as he blended his energy with mine, but I got nothing else whatsoever. I think it may be cause either I'm not sensitive enough or something. I'm not sure. I'll retry it after tomorrow when it comes up next when I redo all the meditations of the first 3 parts of awakening the light body when I redo them all after I finish part 3 for the second time, then again when I redo all the meditations for the entire 6 part awakening the light body.
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Seems there won't be the Friday livestream show i usually watch. that means I'll go ahead and try to do meditation 10, the gas beings one. as I said before if I feel or get nothing early on I'll just quit it early. I would do the next one also but that one, 11, is a bit over 30 minutes, so I'll do that one tomorrow with 12, putting me a day ahead of schedule.
I just have to decide if I want to try to do several channeling audios Sunday, take a day off from the awakening the light body, or buy the 3rd part and start it a day early. I'll decide that tomorrow.
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I did the 10th meditation, the inter-dimensional journey - gas beings one. It went very well overall. This puts me a whole day ahead of schedule. I felt the first 3 lb energy centers, though the 2nd and 3rd I only faintly felt. Not sure why, maybe they are to faint for me to feel at this time? No idea. The mumin and Ranthia went like usual. i didn't feel any energy flowing into them but I felt
something as Daben sent me the energy. also a times a bit of love.
The journey to the gas beings went far better then before, a success overall. I got a few mental images. Sort of like their realm, or I got a non color type of colors, if that makes any sense. it does to me since if i get mental images that is how I usually get them. For me to get colors is very rare. Other then maybe white.
Their dimension has no gravity. It feels like they have no planets and can go wherever they want. An immense place. Earth measurements have no meaning there, it felt like. I went through several blending. Felt like my energy changed each time. They use blending to share each others experiences, and I guess retain some energy from each other. it was a pleasant experience. The master I blended with felt like an immense being, very large
i guess since my energy felt different with each of the blending we shared experiences, though i don't recall any of theirs. It has left me with a very slight pressure headache. I'll try using the inner healer thing I learned in this part to see if it can help long term with it since it is a very mild headache, no idea why I got it. Guess I'll get use to the way my energy feels a bit different.
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Thursday, April 2, 2015
Thursday [4-2]
The primary purpose I can do doing nothing literally. Anchoring the energy, which I guess is to help the new wave indigo and maybe crystal folks, and help with increasing the earth's vibration, I guess with some adjustments and tooling done here and there. Not sure how my awakening as much as I can helps the human collective, but my awakening as much as I can is more of a side thing.
The light body courses are fun, but it feels a bit like work. Like work that is fun to do or enjoyable. It feels like, though I may be wrong, I'm here to work. Once this incarnation is over, I'll still be working but it feels like then I'll be much more laid back and relaxed then here. No idea if that is true or not.
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I listened to the 10th and 11th audio files of awakening to channel. The first was just Duane talking and the 2nd was Daben doing a short guided mediation to help you get into the proper meditate state to channel, but not to channel. The next one is verbally channeling your guide. I have no way to record my voice so I think what I"ll do is try to verbally channel and type at the same time, maybe start a file in the channeled messages section so I'll have a place to put those, the yourspace my general experiences, thoughts feelings, mystical and spiritually types.
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I'm a bit bummed out with what happened in the rpg group today and the letter I got yesterday about the amerigroup parent company got security hacked. I'll call tomorrow, once i got a list of questions and see what I can do to project Identity. Think I"ll do the 2 awaken the light body, but delay the channeling meditation till tomorrow.
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I did 5, inner healer. Felt like it maybe did something about the areas where there is pain, but i"m no healer so not as effective as a true healer. To bad. I do hope there are courses on healing in parts 4-6 and the 2nd course since I would like to get up to marginal are barely minimum healing standards. I did listen to the inner healer at the spots where we are to ask questions, but I never did get an answer. same with certain body parts like the twitching eyelid and other problem spots, they don't say anything ot me nor does the inner healer, likely since I'm no healer. I don't really have any special gifts except for maybe feeling energy running inside my body, but if it is outside my skin even a billionth of an inch I can't feel it. That is not any signs of a gifted person, certainly no person who's supposed to be a master, leader, healer, guide type.
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Think once I do the changing one's thoughts to more positive, or whatever that one is I'll do the sub personality meditation right afterwards, without listening to the audio to speed things up. maybe do this over a week to see what it does, doing both 2-3 times a day without the audio to see if i can change a lot of the stuff on my list.
I think once I get course 3 finished the 2nd time, since this'll finish late April I'll use the opportunity to just redo the first 3 awakening the light body again. That'll take me into early may and I can get the 4th course. at the end once I have finished the 6th one for the 2nd time I'll first redo the opening to channel maybe and if i get the sequel receiving a clear channel I'll do that one 2nd, then do the entire 6 part awakening to channel course. This'll take 7-8 weeks. Which means i can put 1 month's money towards the dentist, which I have to do since i have to pay for the dentist, despite my limited money per month.
I think on Sunday I'll pick out some meditations to do regularly, then some of my favorites. And I'll go back over part 1 to see if I've changed my mind about which ones to do as needed, my favorites, do on a regular basis.
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I did 6, self healer. Didn't work to well. I focused on my head since I have the usual headache. A mild one. Think I may have to re-listen to this one and the previous one often to get the hang of it. 1 has a thing on healing, 2 does. I wonder if 3-6 will. i do hope so. I think it didn't do to well since partially I seem not a sensitive today.
Think I'll pick out the healer meditations and do a special category for self healing.
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Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Wedensday [4-1]
Was thinking and I I may like being like this, once this incarnation is
over. Me and soul unmerged, for a while at least, but me not going
separate. We can certainly enjoy being together, in more ways then one.
Also we could do 2 things at once. Though I guess like a twin flame
the desire for us to merge would always be there and it would grow at
times till it is very strong and we do merge. Though I guess we'd
unmerge at a later point. I also find it interesting that soul did say
if we did this we'd not be the first.
Also had another encounter with soul this morning. I imagined that we kissed for a bit then he did some oral sex on me. can't be sure it happened or not, but I didn't feel a full intensity. Though for a bit I couldn't tell which I was nor remember which had started what. I do recall after soul saying something like soul does like to be intimate with itself. So maybe it didn't really happen but was a shared imagination, shared fantasy thing.
I do get the main goal wasn't just to have fun and share pleasure, intimacy, affection, but for me to get to the point where I experienced not being able to remember which had started it and which one I was, the incarnate or the non incarnate part of the being.
A bit later before I got out of bed I experienced us both being unicorn stallions and our horns touching and us sharing love, affection, peace, sort of feelings, with maybe a few more I don't recall.
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I can feel, I guess as a result of what we've been doing, the kissing, caressing, that we are one being, but experiencing itself as 2 beings. i guess since the human body can't contain all of the soul. Though it does feel like this single being found it enjoys being sorta 2. we are still one but enjoy experiencing being sorta 2 beings. one plus is we can be intimate, share intimacy, including non sexual intimacy, with ourselves. Similar to us being twin flames, but not twin flames.
I do feel the urge to merge with him, like I do feel it with twin flame, though the urge to merge with twin flame is more deeply sleep, for now. So I think at some point after this incarnation is over, we'd experience being unmerged, but at some point we will merge. Then after a while I'd be thinking I am starting to miss having a 2nd me around so I'd manifest another me, unmerge, or whatever the term is,can't think of the right term. I think like with twin flame we'd do this, being 1 for a while, then being 2 for a while, since we would like having and experiencing both.
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I lay down to take a nap. Did get some sleep, but the beginning and end of it I was awake. Soul was talking to me and it felt like more procedures were being done to me. At one point I though I heard either soul or someone saying to someone else something like "remove the leeches." something like that anyway.
the procedures mainly seemed to be a tentacle type thing being inserted in the back of my neck and shortly after a feeling like metal scraping on bone. Something being s******* from the channel the kundalni travels down. Something being inserted into my navel, another tentacle type thing. He said it was to refill the device with light they had put into me, and to do some other work. He said the device is keyed to release light from the inside of me at certain intervals, a timed release. The other stuff felt like mainly somethings being removed or things jabbed into me at certain points maybe. I was in my bed this whole time, not pulled onto the ship like I had been before.
I felt like something was put onto my head and soul said something like I needed to be unconscious for the next part of the procedure. I felt a tingling type sensation around my head. I didn't go unconscious for a short time. He again reminded me to get the rest of the awakening the light body course. continue the opening to channel course. after the awakening the light body course getting the 2nd course then the 3rd would be excellent, if I could afford that. Before I get any of the side courses. I did ask about the sequel to opening to channel and the celebration in initiation which is 3 audio courses about the heart, throat and crown centers. he said those would be excellent to get either before or during the time I'm getting the 2nd course.
Forgot when but I asked who's doing these procedures to me and he said the arcturans, or was it said arcturians, something like that, with the sirians assisting and doing certain things themselves.
I then awoke and it felt like a few more procedures were done. 1 was something attached to my navel area and some fluid pumped into it till it felt like my abdominal area had swollen up pretty large. The other was something large inserted into the end of my spine then run all the way up the channel where kundalini travels up, then with drawn. Then some sort of very warm sensation at the end of the spine area. The channel feels maybe around 5 inches, and the same width all the way.
I do wonder if he is my soul or higher self, not that it really matters, just my curiosity. I know he is me since it feels totally like me. as i've described in previous posts.
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I did the opening to channel course. the 9th audio. It went very well. I met the first 2 guides. There were others but they were indistinct. He said I would be working with them later, for now he and what I call my soul/higher self would be my primary guides. That may change in the future. The others are more, think of them as specialists.
My higher self/soul went into me, it felt like a dimly pleasurable sensation. He, the guide, said it was to help maintain my connection here. he said he was of above 5th d and certainly of the light (this is in response to some questions that orin asks during the meditation). He also said he had been mainly an acrturian during most of his incarnations. i say he though he didn't really feel male. More genderless with maybe a slight male feel. Maybe since I'm in a male body may be the reason. I do have a slight sorta headache. But that is due to orin saying in the guided mediation to ask your guide to strengthen the connection, or something, forgot orin's exact wording. The arcturian guide did do something that felt like energy somethings with the top of my head. There were brief moments of slight pain that he said was an unfortunate side effect and towards the end he said I may experience some temporary side effects. The sorta headache feels sorta like the top part of my head contains to much energy or something, hard to explain. It did feel like his energy was warm, also more concentrated then mine. hard to explain. As I said he said he and what I consider to be my soul/higher self are to be our primary or at least initial primary guides. he said he had connected before. he was the one that had gotten through the arcturian bits I had said before, arcturian, arcturian council, bit, and that Lavensure is a very rough English of one of his past names. not really. it is very rough but refining may be done later to get it better. As well as he saying he and what I regard as my soul/higher self would refine and tune the connection, readjust it in the future. I guess as we connect, me to 1 or both of them, as orin, daben, Sanaya and Duane say it'll continue to grow stronger over time as I reconnect. Also the various light body courses, by doing them may help also, or so i read in some of the reviews on the website.
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I was going to post in a few threads on this forum outside the yourspace, but decided not to. My experiences seem to far out there or strange compared to the vast majority who post on this forum. I don't find them far out there or bizarre. I find them totally normal. But that is, I think, cause I'm not an earth soul. And the vast majority on this forum are earth souls.
One place I was going to post to was I think the starseeds thread. One person there said that I think she said her guides, forgot who she said, but she's supposed to have fun here and her guides say she's taking it to seriously she's supped to have fun here. To me this place feels like a workplace. Sure I can have some fun here, but I'm here primarily to do work, not to have fun. The fun will come after this incarnation is over. Though as I said before it feels like someone, not sure who, maybe gaia, the unicorn great mother, someone else, not sure who, likes having me around and doesn't want me to leave right when this incarnation is over, but to perhaps incarnate again, or at the very least stick around on the other side. Though whoever it or they are they'll have to offer some huge incentives for me to stay & likely some demands of my own as well, even staying just on the other side as a non incarnate. to get me to incarnate again it would have to be HUGE HUGE incentives since I don't want to be here. I want to get my job done, once the incarnation is over go home, be introduced to the homes and places, unless I'll get my full memory back.
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I did the 3rd mediation again, it went pretty well. Not a lot to tell. I didn't feel the Leow to well. That one seems the most difficult one to feel, often feeling nothing. Not sure if that means i need extra work, or I'm just not sensitive enough to feel that. The rest went well. I did feel a floating sensation and the energy around me. The first time I think i felt, or the 2nd, of the Ranthia generating some energy. This energy felt like it went through 1 or more energy bodies into the area around me. maybe the same energy body or aura. Think I'll try to run the energies later today or tonight on my own.
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Think I'll try to do the healing every day. I figure it can't hurt. Only to the areas that seem to need work and then the whole body. Maybe a few times a day if I can do it all fairly fast, in a few minutes or so each. Maybe add it as a type of meditation.
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Also had another encounter with soul this morning. I imagined that we kissed for a bit then he did some oral sex on me. can't be sure it happened or not, but I didn't feel a full intensity. Though for a bit I couldn't tell which I was nor remember which had started what. I do recall after soul saying something like soul does like to be intimate with itself. So maybe it didn't really happen but was a shared imagination, shared fantasy thing.
I do get the main goal wasn't just to have fun and share pleasure, intimacy, affection, but for me to get to the point where I experienced not being able to remember which had started it and which one I was, the incarnate or the non incarnate part of the being.
A bit later before I got out of bed I experienced us both being unicorn stallions and our horns touching and us sharing love, affection, peace, sort of feelings, with maybe a few more I don't recall.
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I can feel, I guess as a result of what we've been doing, the kissing, caressing, that we are one being, but experiencing itself as 2 beings. i guess since the human body can't contain all of the soul. Though it does feel like this single being found it enjoys being sorta 2. we are still one but enjoy experiencing being sorta 2 beings. one plus is we can be intimate, share intimacy, including non sexual intimacy, with ourselves. Similar to us being twin flames, but not twin flames.
I do feel the urge to merge with him, like I do feel it with twin flame, though the urge to merge with twin flame is more deeply sleep, for now. So I think at some point after this incarnation is over, we'd experience being unmerged, but at some point we will merge. Then after a while I'd be thinking I am starting to miss having a 2nd me around so I'd manifest another me, unmerge, or whatever the term is,can't think of the right term. I think like with twin flame we'd do this, being 1 for a while, then being 2 for a while, since we would like having and experiencing both.
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I lay down to take a nap. Did get some sleep, but the beginning and end of it I was awake. Soul was talking to me and it felt like more procedures were being done to me. At one point I though I heard either soul or someone saying to someone else something like "remove the leeches." something like that anyway.
the procedures mainly seemed to be a tentacle type thing being inserted in the back of my neck and shortly after a feeling like metal scraping on bone. Something being s******* from the channel the kundalni travels down. Something being inserted into my navel, another tentacle type thing. He said it was to refill the device with light they had put into me, and to do some other work. He said the device is keyed to release light from the inside of me at certain intervals, a timed release. The other stuff felt like mainly somethings being removed or things jabbed into me at certain points maybe. I was in my bed this whole time, not pulled onto the ship like I had been before.
I felt like something was put onto my head and soul said something like I needed to be unconscious for the next part of the procedure. I felt a tingling type sensation around my head. I didn't go unconscious for a short time. He again reminded me to get the rest of the awakening the light body course. continue the opening to channel course. after the awakening the light body course getting the 2nd course then the 3rd would be excellent, if I could afford that. Before I get any of the side courses. I did ask about the sequel to opening to channel and the celebration in initiation which is 3 audio courses about the heart, throat and crown centers. he said those would be excellent to get either before or during the time I'm getting the 2nd course.
Forgot when but I asked who's doing these procedures to me and he said the arcturans, or was it said arcturians, something like that, with the sirians assisting and doing certain things themselves.
I then awoke and it felt like a few more procedures were done. 1 was something attached to my navel area and some fluid pumped into it till it felt like my abdominal area had swollen up pretty large. The other was something large inserted into the end of my spine then run all the way up the channel where kundalini travels up, then with drawn. Then some sort of very warm sensation at the end of the spine area. The channel feels maybe around 5 inches, and the same width all the way.
I do wonder if he is my soul or higher self, not that it really matters, just my curiosity. I know he is me since it feels totally like me. as i've described in previous posts.
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I did the opening to channel course. the 9th audio. It went very well. I met the first 2 guides. There were others but they were indistinct. He said I would be working with them later, for now he and what I call my soul/higher self would be my primary guides. That may change in the future. The others are more, think of them as specialists.
My higher self/soul went into me, it felt like a dimly pleasurable sensation. He, the guide, said it was to help maintain my connection here. he said he was of above 5th d and certainly of the light (this is in response to some questions that orin asks during the meditation). He also said he had been mainly an acrturian during most of his incarnations. i say he though he didn't really feel male. More genderless with maybe a slight male feel. Maybe since I'm in a male body may be the reason. I do have a slight sorta headache. But that is due to orin saying in the guided mediation to ask your guide to strengthen the connection, or something, forgot orin's exact wording. The arcturian guide did do something that felt like energy somethings with the top of my head. There were brief moments of slight pain that he said was an unfortunate side effect and towards the end he said I may experience some temporary side effects. The sorta headache feels sorta like the top part of my head contains to much energy or something, hard to explain. It did feel like his energy was warm, also more concentrated then mine. hard to explain. As I said he said he and what I consider to be my soul/higher self are to be our primary or at least initial primary guides. he said he had connected before. he was the one that had gotten through the arcturian bits I had said before, arcturian, arcturian council, bit, and that Lavensure is a very rough English of one of his past names. not really. it is very rough but refining may be done later to get it better. As well as he saying he and what I regard as my soul/higher self would refine and tune the connection, readjust it in the future. I guess as we connect, me to 1 or both of them, as orin, daben, Sanaya and Duane say it'll continue to grow stronger over time as I reconnect. Also the various light body courses, by doing them may help also, or so i read in some of the reviews on the website.
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I was going to post in a few threads on this forum outside the yourspace, but decided not to. My experiences seem to far out there or strange compared to the vast majority who post on this forum. I don't find them far out there or bizarre. I find them totally normal. But that is, I think, cause I'm not an earth soul. And the vast majority on this forum are earth souls.
One place I was going to post to was I think the starseeds thread. One person there said that I think she said her guides, forgot who she said, but she's supposed to have fun here and her guides say she's taking it to seriously she's supped to have fun here. To me this place feels like a workplace. Sure I can have some fun here, but I'm here primarily to do work, not to have fun. The fun will come after this incarnation is over. Though as I said before it feels like someone, not sure who, maybe gaia, the unicorn great mother, someone else, not sure who, likes having me around and doesn't want me to leave right when this incarnation is over, but to perhaps incarnate again, or at the very least stick around on the other side. Though whoever it or they are they'll have to offer some huge incentives for me to stay & likely some demands of my own as well, even staying just on the other side as a non incarnate. to get me to incarnate again it would have to be HUGE HUGE incentives since I don't want to be here. I want to get my job done, once the incarnation is over go home, be introduced to the homes and places, unless I'll get my full memory back.
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I did the 3rd mediation again, it went pretty well. Not a lot to tell. I didn't feel the Leow to well. That one seems the most difficult one to feel, often feeling nothing. Not sure if that means i need extra work, or I'm just not sensitive enough to feel that. The rest went well. I did feel a floating sensation and the energy around me. The first time I think i felt, or the 2nd, of the Ranthia generating some energy. This energy felt like it went through 1 or more energy bodies into the area around me. maybe the same energy body or aura. Think I'll try to run the energies later today or tonight on my own.
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Think I'll try to do the healing every day. I figure it can't hurt. Only to the areas that seem to need work and then the whole body. Maybe a few times a day if I can do it all fairly fast, in a few minutes or so each. Maybe add it as a type of meditation.
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Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Tuesday [3-31]
I did ask a question as I lay down to take my nap, asking what exactly am I, an extension, aspect, something else?
After a short bit of time I felt like soul was sorta hugging me again, but this time I experienced an intense love/pleasure that went right through me to my core. I foud I couldn't think that feeling was so intense.
Soul talked a bit, saying it isn't developed enough to have any external aspects. pausing to say to me something like, come on it's not that distracting. Not that I could respond or even think since that love/pleasure was to intense for me to even think. I could only experience it, hard to describe.
Soul then went on and said I wasn't an extension either. What he was was the bit of the energy that could not all fit in the physical body. When we were recreated do you think all of the energy could fit in the physical body? I'm the part of the energy that could not fit into the physical body. over time, who knows, more of me may be integrated into the physical body, maybe even all of it one day, though I somewhat think that may be to much for the physical body to contain, even taking time. Though time will tell.
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As for the next opening to channel audio course. part of it I can't do since I have no plant in this apartment anywhere. I do have crystals so I may have to jump around to find the right spot past the plant part. This is typed up before I fully listen to it. I don't have high expectations of this audio. No idea why they have it. I'm not trying to learn to channel a plant or mineral guide.
I did the mineral part. Having no plants in the apartment makes the first part impossible. I did feel a slight difference in the way my energy of my hands and forearms felt when they were interacting with the 2 crystals. they were some amethyst (I think they are) a cluster of slightly purple crystals on some sort of rock, and a rose quartz. I held first the amethyst in one hand for a while, then the rose quarts in the other, then both in different hands at the same time. Each gave the energy around my hands and forearms a slightly different feel, hard to describe. It was a slight change, but I could feel it, even though it as very very slight.
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The orin and daben awaken the light body uses the term sub personality. Which I think is what some call aspects.
Some aspects may in time decide to become souls themselves. And find they have aspects that may in time become souls themselves.
I think the term external aspect and separate soul can be confusing since really external aspects are souls. Just that they are aware of the link or connection, wearas I think a being who has gone independent has the same link but it's dormant. So they have to do more themselves, but don't have the influence of the soul the are part of coming in. Complicated and maybe should not mention it here.
Though I would assume a soul that has gone independent could make the link or connection active or open again.
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I redid the 1st meditation or part 2 of awakening the light body. Went well. Though my mind did wonder at times during the 2nd half, it only did so for a few seconds at most before I was able to bring it back to the guided meditation. It felt like during part of it I went medium or a bit past medium state. maybe briefly deep, not sure.
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Maybe forget I mentioned any of that.
I feel I am an extension so to speak.
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As I lay down to meditate my soul, or the other part of me, not sure what to call it. Came again. We did some kissing and hugging. It was intense the first few seconds, but not as much, then it was toned down. What he wanted me to feel was we are one, and it did work. I could feel we are 1 being. I'm the part in the body and he's the part who's not in the body. For an instant it was almost as if I couldn't tell which one I was. He seemed happy with the result and I think that went well. Even if only for an instant, that is enough for a start. And for several seconds, or longer, I could feel we were 1 being, just, as I said, I'm the bit of the single being in the physical body and he's the bit that is not. If that makes any sense, it does to me.
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I did the 2nd mediation of part 2 and it went very well. I could feel the running of the energy and the mumin. Also I could feel the floating like sensation of me floating like I was floating on energy that was all around me. As Daben said, the energy I had raised as well as the Ranthia (light body heart energy center) generated. I could feel the currents and it was an interesting experience.
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Forgot to mention I did Qi Gong for over 10 minutes today without noticing. A good thing. I read somewhere where some suggest doing it for say 30 minutes 5 times a week. I'm going to try to slowly up the time. Say around mid April I will try to up it to around 15 minutes. My eventual goal being 30 minutes at a time.
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I did have several conversations with soul or higher self, whichever one it is. We were doing some hugging and at times kissing and it was done over hours, with a few minutes here, a minute there.
Basically what it was was was we can merge, I could go independent (which I don't want to do. We can also merge and I could be recreated later, or maybe a better word would be re manifested later. not sure of the right term. But the combined us could re manifest me or we could split. Like if twin and I merged we could split.
another idea I had a few hours later was if we could remain like this sorta. not merged, but neither of us going separate. Soul said <mmhmmm>. Raising an eye brow ridge sorta, that was the mental impression I got. then he said we'd be in a relationship something like twin flames.
I did say I could always change my mind and we could merge. Then unmerge like twin flame mentioned, which soul agreed. I could tell he liked the idea. I rubbed his chest and in a kidding fashion said "you'd like it even if I said I want to merge permanently wouldn't you." to which soul said mmhmmm and we kissed.
I guess I do have plenty of time to decide. and with the path I'm on i'm sure I'll eventually be aware of being him, and we're already 1, that sort of thing. I asked soul that since I feel kinda pulled in 2 directions. I do feel an inner desire to merge with him, but I also like being like this. I'd enjoy it far better if I were not in this physical body .
I find I like the idea of not going separate, but I do feel pulled to both merge, but also remain not merged. I think we can have it both ways, or I mean I can. I think Soul said something like <if we do that we'd not be the first.>
My guess if is do that we'd likely merge and unmerge since after some point the urge to merge may grow but we'd decide to give in, with a sort of promise to unmerge at some point. after all we'd have a special relationship. And our caressing, kissing, hugging and likely sex would be fairly intense. So we can have it both ways it seems. taking turns being merged and unmerged.
I did ask if i choose that, who's mate would be who's mate. For example is Mirabelle your mate or mine. Soul said, <well in that case I'd consider all your mates to be mine and mine to be yours, same with her (meaning twin flame) since we're all the same soul i would consider our mates all the same, shared so to speak,but we can ask them what they think." I'd guess the same goes for lovers, friends, ect.
Interesting idea. Though I do have plenty of time to think it over. Not like I have to decide right now.
I do wonder which one Great mother will want to talk to when this incarnation is over. Me, soul, or both of us?
I guess what makes it possible is free will and intention.
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Monday, March 30, 2015
Monday [3-30]
I guess my awakening was delayed till enough of something had been
cleared from the collective. A certain percentage I think. Maybe full
awakening not mandatory. if I partially awaken that is enough for a
personal soul goal, full awakening would be preferred but not necessary
to reach the personal goal for coming here?
The anchoring the new energy here is partially for the new wave indigos, but also to help raise the vibration of the earth or earth grid and those who live here. It would need fine tuning, maybe increasing the vibration at certain intervals at a safe rate. Think it's this, not sure.
Not sure about the spreading light. Maybe something about my aura, or vibrations or something.
I wonder if I'll get much information from channeling or if they'll keep a lot of information not being said.
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Also some more sorta impressions of or around the previous mentioned 4th option. Though I may be wrong about this also.
I'm not sure. Someone wants me to stay around and or likes having me here. Not sure if it is Gaia, my unicorn mother, other beings, a mix of this. I will still have the 3 options I mentioned before.
The feel I get is maybe if I choose option 1, or if I choose 3 then I change and decide to do 1 after all the next incarnation may be easier then this one. Maybe a normal or good childhood and go to a good school. more of an easier life. 1 or both parents may be fully awake or partially at least who are into the spiritual line of work. I'd be maybe guaranteed to be fully awake by late teens or early 20's maybe. Likely with the parent's helping.
I could also choose maybe option 1 and 2, and I'd be the higher self type being or a guide to an extension of myself that I send down to incarnate. with whatever guide or guides i may have in this life as guides for the next one, with me being either the higher self or the soul. and the previous said thing may happen, but instead of to this me its an extension of me.
one of the incentive could be 1 or more soul family members may incarnate as a sibbling, friend, cousin, parent and or a future husband/wife, or we'd be a same sex couple. maybe with some of the other mentioned incentives mentioned before.
Or if I choose option 2, 1 and 2. I, or the me that'll remain on the other side, will help with the earth project but also something else. This something else I think that maybe my unicorn mother, the great mother, the dragoness, and maybe gaia, not sure if she's involved or not. have in mind. Something to do with, and if i recall the vague sorta impression I got before:
something like go between, adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type. Maybe more then 1 council.
So the vague impression is if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 then I'd be helping out on the earth project, but also this, maybe like having several part time jobs or side jobs that one does. Or if I do 3 but they get me to agree then I may be doing the various side jobs full time. if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 I'd be doing the project idea of theirs full time once the earth project is over?
Just a sorta impression I got this morning as i was doing various things around home. Not sure if I have any of it right. And is great mother the 1st unicorn, the or one of the oldest, or something else?
Though if I do end up choosing 1 or 1 and 2, then I'd demand, if i have an energy sheath thing that I heard about, that prevents karma from sticking that I or my extension has it as well in the next incarnation. Unless karma has totally been removed by then, and or the veil thing also. I feel no real desire to incarnate and really don't want to.
I did the opening to channel audios 5-7. 5 and 6 were just short talks so I listened to them then went straight to 7 and did that as well. I think it went pretty well. Though I could not hold the focus for 5 minutes, I"ll take a lot of practice. 1 problem with what he said was with the practice if one keeps trying without listening to that section and keeps peeking at the clock then 1 is not really holding focus a fully as one can. So I think I"ll listen to that audio and try to memorize where a good spot to jump is. I'll practice several times a day if I can.
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The next door neighbor's kids are very loud after I started listening to the next guided mediation and one hit my front door very loudly. not sure if this is part of why the in my estimation this mediation was largely a failure. i was supposed to go to the temple of the masters and i saw nothing, though the neighbor's kids were not to loud yet. I saw nothing. heard nothing. I could not hear my soul's tone, which the said was being sent to me, not even when they said it was getting louder, I heard nothing at all. Couldn't see my guide, nor hear him/her/it. Nor any such message. just a vague energy feeling as I was sent light, a message from my guide, what my life purpose was. I heard and got nothing but a faint feeling I was being sent energy.
Also despite what orin said I am not a leader, healer, teacher. I'm none of those things. It's not due to my having a bad self image, nor my being depressed. I'm not any of those things, nor anything similar. Not everyone can be. The vast majority like me are not.
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the most I got from the meditation was a headache. If I were a master I'd not be incarnating here. Maybe I'd be one of those beings who gets channeled, but I'd certainly would not be incarnated. if I were a master you'd not catch me anywhere near incarnating. At most I'd be one of those channeled beings, as I mentioned before. I'd also not be mystically blind, be nearly deaf and having barely a sense of touch. and I'd not have amnesia. I'd be fully awakened and aware. No idea why those 2 are lieing. It's a well meaning lieing, but it is still lieing.
I'm not teacher, I can't be around other people for long periods of time. i need to be along a lot. Not a mark of a teacher, nor the mark of a leader either. If I were a healer I'd be able to heal myself. Like being allergic to the earth, and other things I could heal myself of. So nope, I'm no master, no, healer, leader, or a teacher.
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I did the sub personality meditation again. At the end I felt odd, sorta like I was fully integrated into one. I feel better also.
I still say if I were a master I'd not be incarnated here,and if i were incarnated here. and if I were a master incarnated I'd not have this veil, I'd not be blind, almost deaf, with slight sense of touch, and other senses. I'd have fully intact spiritual or mystic senses. I'd also no be as messed up as I am.
Which is further proof I'm not a master, unlike what Orin & Daben say in their audios I'm also not a healer, teacher, nor a leader, as I stated before the reasons why I'll not repeat myself here.
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I can say t the core of me I do not like incarnating here. The veil giving you total amnesia, blocks put on so you wind up totally blind, almost totally deaf, barely with a sense of touch, spiritually and mystically speaking, and all of your other abilities blocked.
I don't understand why anyone comes to this place. I just hope I'm not trapped here due to that karma thing. I do try to take steps every day, everything I can think of and have come across to not accumulate karma, though i'll have no idea if it works until this incarnation is over.
I try to remember to forgive everyone, even those I don't remember,and forgive myself. Also to send love to myself. Take an idea from the dolores cannon video where i visualize contracts in my hands and i say to everyone, let's tear these contracts up and go out separate ways, we'll all/both be happier for it.
Can't fully enjoy myself since I have to try to fully awaken if possible and prevent the accumulation of karma as much as I can so I don't have to return here again. If I were an incarnated master I'd know what I said above, including if I need to be concerned about karma or not.
Pretty stupid system they have here on earth, assuming it's not like this everywhere. It feels like it's not like this everywhere. If I had my choice I'd not have come here. Soul did this while I was a part of it so I had no say. I'm glad it's not my soul anymore. I'd never do that to myself.
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I think I can hold a focus decently. I'll keep practicing but I'll go on to the next audio tomorrow in the opening to channel. I think it's about tuning into crystals and plants. I'm no enthusiastic about my ability to connect to those.
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I had an unusual, but pleasant, experience. I did a meditation based on one I had listened to before, but I made a few changes. Receiving love from your soul.
What I got was a quick glance of my soul, not the one that stan and dan are an external aspect of, but the soul I'm part of. Maybe it was my higher self instead of my soul, but maybe it was my soul, but not the other guy, the one I became an external aspect of.
I only got a quick glance since he and I started to kiss, and caress each other. No sex was involved nor any sex feelings, even soul sex feelings. The quick glace looked like, from what I recall, a mix of an anthro beluga whale and an anhro dolphin. I don't recall the color. Though as we kissed and caressed I could feel like we both had unicorn horns. Not sure how long we kissed and caressed each other. I started the conversation after a while.
to summarize the conversation I asked if I'd have to choose if i wanted to split off from him since unlike previous soul I didn't think like I wanted to split off from him. He promised that before this incarnation was over I'd be aware of being him so when the time came I would have first hand experience before I made my decision of what is like to be him. So I would have knowledge before I made my decision if i wanted to merge with him or not.
He also suggested i get the rest of the awakening the light body course and continue the opening the channel audio course.
I asked why were we not unicorns, since it felt like I had the same appearance he did. Though as I said above I didn't get a good look. He said we could have, but unicorns don't' have hands and don't have mouth structures to kiss very well.
I mentioned I thought you'd want sex or something to him. he smiled saying plenty of time for sex later. Not that I wanted sex. I had no desire for it at the time. I mentioned I thought you'd be the higher self not the soul. He said well you are a multidimensional being.
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I wasn't expecting my soul to appear, not for us both to be kissing and caressing. Even as far as having his tongue in my mouth. I was expecting to just get some energy or the flow of love, not this. Not that I am complaining. It was a pleasant surprise.
It felt diffidently like my soul, not former soul, nor the soul I am, or was, and external aspect of. No idea of my soul went independent or not. Not that it really matters. I wonder why it choose to do that. I wonder if it'll happen again. I do hope so. It was pleasant.
Just now I relaxed and closed my eyes, this time we were both unicorns and touched horns. Felt like love was flowing from each of us into the other.
The anchoring the new energy here is partially for the new wave indigos, but also to help raise the vibration of the earth or earth grid and those who live here. It would need fine tuning, maybe increasing the vibration at certain intervals at a safe rate. Think it's this, not sure.
Not sure about the spreading light. Maybe something about my aura, or vibrations or something.
I wonder if I'll get much information from channeling or if they'll keep a lot of information not being said.
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Also some more sorta impressions of or around the previous mentioned 4th option. Though I may be wrong about this also.
I'm not sure. Someone wants me to stay around and or likes having me here. Not sure if it is Gaia, my unicorn mother, other beings, a mix of this. I will still have the 3 options I mentioned before.
The feel I get is maybe if I choose option 1, or if I choose 3 then I change and decide to do 1 after all the next incarnation may be easier then this one. Maybe a normal or good childhood and go to a good school. more of an easier life. 1 or both parents may be fully awake or partially at least who are into the spiritual line of work. I'd be maybe guaranteed to be fully awake by late teens or early 20's maybe. Likely with the parent's helping.
I could also choose maybe option 1 and 2, and I'd be the higher self type being or a guide to an extension of myself that I send down to incarnate. with whatever guide or guides i may have in this life as guides for the next one, with me being either the higher self or the soul. and the previous said thing may happen, but instead of to this me its an extension of me.
one of the incentive could be 1 or more soul family members may incarnate as a sibbling, friend, cousin, parent and or a future husband/wife, or we'd be a same sex couple. maybe with some of the other mentioned incentives mentioned before.
Or if I choose option 2, 1 and 2. I, or the me that'll remain on the other side, will help with the earth project but also something else. This something else I think that maybe my unicorn mother, the great mother, the dragoness, and maybe gaia, not sure if she's involved or not. have in mind. Something to do with, and if i recall the vague sorta impression I got before:
something like go between, adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type. Maybe more then 1 council.
So the vague impression is if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 then I'd be helping out on the earth project, but also this, maybe like having several part time jobs or side jobs that one does. Or if I do 3 but they get me to agree then I may be doing the various side jobs full time. if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 I'd be doing the project idea of theirs full time once the earth project is over?
Just a sorta impression I got this morning as i was doing various things around home. Not sure if I have any of it right. And is great mother the 1st unicorn, the or one of the oldest, or something else?
Though if I do end up choosing 1 or 1 and 2, then I'd demand, if i have an energy sheath thing that I heard about, that prevents karma from sticking that I or my extension has it as well in the next incarnation. Unless karma has totally been removed by then, and or the veil thing also. I feel no real desire to incarnate and really don't want to.
I did the opening to channel audios 5-7. 5 and 6 were just short talks so I listened to them then went straight to 7 and did that as well. I think it went pretty well. Though I could not hold the focus for 5 minutes, I"ll take a lot of practice. 1 problem with what he said was with the practice if one keeps trying without listening to that section and keeps peeking at the clock then 1 is not really holding focus a fully as one can. So I think I"ll listen to that audio and try to memorize where a good spot to jump is. I'll practice several times a day if I can.
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The next door neighbor's kids are very loud after I started listening to the next guided mediation and one hit my front door very loudly. not sure if this is part of why the in my estimation this mediation was largely a failure. i was supposed to go to the temple of the masters and i saw nothing, though the neighbor's kids were not to loud yet. I saw nothing. heard nothing. I could not hear my soul's tone, which the said was being sent to me, not even when they said it was getting louder, I heard nothing at all. Couldn't see my guide, nor hear him/her/it. Nor any such message. just a vague energy feeling as I was sent light, a message from my guide, what my life purpose was. I heard and got nothing but a faint feeling I was being sent energy.
Also despite what orin said I am not a leader, healer, teacher. I'm none of those things. It's not due to my having a bad self image, nor my being depressed. I'm not any of those things, nor anything similar. Not everyone can be. The vast majority like me are not.
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Forgot to mention before. Part of the
mediation of going to the temple of the masters was them removing the
veil. I felt something being removed and my crown chakra opening up,
but I don't feel any more aware then I was before.
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I do wonder if I'll get details if I get good enough at channeling and have a solid strong connection. Details like about unicorns, whatever dragon I am, the pod, and other details. Like that 4th option.
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did the 12th mediation again. it went slightly better. No noisy neighbor kids this time. The energy of the first 4 energy centers & the mumin went average I'd say.
As for being at the temple of the masters. I really could not see or hear anything. during the whole thing. Just me reviving energy is all I could feel and that didn't feel like much energy at various points. Could not see or hear my guide or any ascended masters. the veil thing being lifted off was like before, i felt something being removed, but I'm no more aware then I was before. I'm no leader, teacher nor healer. Certainly not a master.
And as for my life purpose i can accomplish that sitting on my ***, literally. it is, like I have found out before, to anchor some sort of energy here to the earth grid and there'll be adjustments at times. that is the main purpose and I can do that literally sitting on my ***. The other, to awaken as fully as I can. Seems I'm accomplished that since I'm no more awake now then I was before, so that is finished.
Overall a very disappointing mediation. Don't see why I should do this one ever again, like the gas beings one, but that one went ever worst then this one.
If I am a master, leader, teacher or healer, they'll have to prove it. I'm starting to wonder if the ascended masters exist and if i do have any guides or not. and it felt like my crown chakra opened up a lot, very very wide, but I don't feel any different then before, no more aware though it is opened very wide, the veil was removed and I received a lot of light and energy from the ascended masters and guide.
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I do wonder if I'll get details if I get good enough at channeling and have a solid strong connection. Details like about unicorns, whatever dragon I am, the pod, and other details. Like that 4th option.
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did the 12th mediation again. it went slightly better. No noisy neighbor kids this time. The energy of the first 4 energy centers & the mumin went average I'd say.
As for being at the temple of the masters. I really could not see or hear anything. during the whole thing. Just me reviving energy is all I could feel and that didn't feel like much energy at various points. Could not see or hear my guide or any ascended masters. the veil thing being lifted off was like before, i felt something being removed, but I'm no more aware then I was before. I'm no leader, teacher nor healer. Certainly not a master.
And as for my life purpose i can accomplish that sitting on my ***, literally. it is, like I have found out before, to anchor some sort of energy here to the earth grid and there'll be adjustments at times. that is the main purpose and I can do that literally sitting on my ***. The other, to awaken as fully as I can. Seems I'm accomplished that since I'm no more awake now then I was before, so that is finished.
Overall a very disappointing mediation. Don't see why I should do this one ever again, like the gas beings one, but that one went ever worst then this one.
If I am a master, leader, teacher or healer, they'll have to prove it. I'm starting to wonder if the ascended masters exist and if i do have any guides or not. and it felt like my crown chakra opened up a lot, very very wide, but I don't feel any different then before, no more aware though it is opened very wide, the veil was removed and I received a lot of light and energy from the ascended masters and guide.
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the most I got from the meditation was a headache. If I were a master I'd not be incarnating here. Maybe I'd be one of those beings who gets channeled, but I'd certainly would not be incarnated. if I were a master you'd not catch me anywhere near incarnating. At most I'd be one of those channeled beings, as I mentioned before. I'd also not be mystically blind, be nearly deaf and having barely a sense of touch. and I'd not have amnesia. I'd be fully awakened and aware. No idea why those 2 are lieing. It's a well meaning lieing, but it is still lieing.
I'm not teacher, I can't be around other people for long periods of time. i need to be along a lot. Not a mark of a teacher, nor the mark of a leader either. If I were a healer I'd be able to heal myself. Like being allergic to the earth, and other things I could heal myself of. So nope, I'm no master, no, healer, leader, or a teacher.
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I did the sub personality meditation again. At the end I felt odd, sorta like I was fully integrated into one. I feel better also.
I still say if I were a master I'd not be incarnated here,and if i were incarnated here. and if I were a master incarnated I'd not have this veil, I'd not be blind, almost deaf, with slight sense of touch, and other senses. I'd have fully intact spiritual or mystic senses. I'd also no be as messed up as I am.
Which is further proof I'm not a master, unlike what Orin & Daben say in their audios I'm also not a healer, teacher, nor a leader, as I stated before the reasons why I'll not repeat myself here.
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I can say t the core of me I do not like incarnating here. The veil giving you total amnesia, blocks put on so you wind up totally blind, almost totally deaf, barely with a sense of touch, spiritually and mystically speaking, and all of your other abilities blocked.
I don't understand why anyone comes to this place. I just hope I'm not trapped here due to that karma thing. I do try to take steps every day, everything I can think of and have come across to not accumulate karma, though i'll have no idea if it works until this incarnation is over.
I try to remember to forgive everyone, even those I don't remember,and forgive myself. Also to send love to myself. Take an idea from the dolores cannon video where i visualize contracts in my hands and i say to everyone, let's tear these contracts up and go out separate ways, we'll all/both be happier for it.
Can't fully enjoy myself since I have to try to fully awaken if possible and prevent the accumulation of karma as much as I can so I don't have to return here again. If I were an incarnated master I'd know what I said above, including if I need to be concerned about karma or not.
Pretty stupid system they have here on earth, assuming it's not like this everywhere. It feels like it's not like this everywhere. If I had my choice I'd not have come here. Soul did this while I was a part of it so I had no say. I'm glad it's not my soul anymore. I'd never do that to myself.
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I think I can hold a focus decently. I'll keep practicing but I'll go on to the next audio tomorrow in the opening to channel. I think it's about tuning into crystals and plants. I'm no enthusiastic about my ability to connect to those.
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I had an unusual, but pleasant, experience. I did a meditation based on one I had listened to before, but I made a few changes. Receiving love from your soul.
What I got was a quick glance of my soul, not the one that stan and dan are an external aspect of, but the soul I'm part of. Maybe it was my higher self instead of my soul, but maybe it was my soul, but not the other guy, the one I became an external aspect of.
I only got a quick glance since he and I started to kiss, and caress each other. No sex was involved nor any sex feelings, even soul sex feelings. The quick glace looked like, from what I recall, a mix of an anthro beluga whale and an anhro dolphin. I don't recall the color. Though as we kissed and caressed I could feel like we both had unicorn horns. Not sure how long we kissed and caressed each other. I started the conversation after a while.
to summarize the conversation I asked if I'd have to choose if i wanted to split off from him since unlike previous soul I didn't think like I wanted to split off from him. He promised that before this incarnation was over I'd be aware of being him so when the time came I would have first hand experience before I made my decision of what is like to be him. So I would have knowledge before I made my decision if i wanted to merge with him or not.
He also suggested i get the rest of the awakening the light body course and continue the opening the channel audio course.
I asked why were we not unicorns, since it felt like I had the same appearance he did. Though as I said above I didn't get a good look. He said we could have, but unicorns don't' have hands and don't have mouth structures to kiss very well.
I mentioned I thought you'd want sex or something to him. he smiled saying plenty of time for sex later. Not that I wanted sex. I had no desire for it at the time. I mentioned I thought you'd be the higher self not the soul. He said well you are a multidimensional being.
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I wasn't expecting my soul to appear, not for us both to be kissing and caressing. Even as far as having his tongue in my mouth. I was expecting to just get some energy or the flow of love, not this. Not that I am complaining. It was a pleasant surprise.
It felt diffidently like my soul, not former soul, nor the soul I am, or was, and external aspect of. No idea of my soul went independent or not. Not that it really matters. I wonder why it choose to do that. I wonder if it'll happen again. I do hope so. It was pleasant.
Just now I relaxed and closed my eyes, this time we were both unicorns and touched horns. Felt like love was flowing from each of us into the other.
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Sunday [3-29]
Awoke from my nap and was resonating with energy being sent. Maybe by unicorn mother, the elder who created me not adopted mother. I guess she's either increasing my vibration, helping me to get ready to channel, helping me to fully awaken, or some combination of these or other things perhaps I've not thought of.
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I think of feel the soul elements or types picked for me to be were picked for specific reasons. cetacean since I had been introduced to the pod, or at least a few of the pod, and current soul was mostly that and former soul too it seems. But also they can be classified as an ET type, fae type being in the unicorn, eastern or western dragon is maybe fae type or magical, or maybe elemental as well. eastern may be more air and or water and western maybe more fire. Though those guesses may be wrong and there may be water western types and fire eastern types.
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Once I'm done with the awakening the light body course I do plan on spending say around 36 days going back through all the meditations again while deciding what, if any, courses to get next, what frequency ect. not sure if I'll add the opening to channel meditations into those or not. I may do them separately now and then to try to deepen or strengthen the connection. There is also the receiving a clear channel course I may or may not save up to buy in may that has more meditations to strengthen the link, channel. I'll wait till late April, seeing how my channeling is going to see if I feel the need for a 2nd course or not.
For the light body course there are side courses i can get from the 2nd course category as well as 3-5, categories. I may look in those and pick what interests me the most, maybe up to 6-8, then maybe get the 2nd course, maybe. I'll decide all that later during that 36 day period when I redo the whole course.
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I did the 4th audio of the opening to channel audio course and It went very well. it was another guided mediation, one getting into a relaxed state. it did leave me very very relaxed. the bit about seeing a white light I did see one, to an extent behind the white specs or whatever I see when my eyes are closed. also the bit about your guide's energy coming into you to revitalize your body, i felt like it was more then 1 source, could not tell how many. Maybe like the guy/or girl said yesterday that i saw, there may be more then 1, maybe either specialists, or each one for specific purposes.
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I've removed meat from what I eat. I've no desire to eat meat. Also it seems my body prefers now 4 meals instead of 6 so I'll just remove the 2 meals where I use to eat white rice. I'll see if this goes ok or of my body would prefer me to eat maybe 8 very very small meals instead of 4 small ones. With the adding in trail mix into 1 of the meals and maybe a 2nd type of cereal, I may eat less oatmeal also. The frozen juice I may just drink half of it at half a cup at a time, and the other cup I will likely add to the cerial oatmeal mix like normal. So 2 meals it seems may remain the same as before with the other 2 changed and white rice maybe cut out of my eating plan. This will be maybe an increase in fat, but it'll all be about 99% poly and mono unsaturated types of fat, so maybe healthier then being almost fat free I had been for years and lately the fat being 2/3 from poly & mono with a small amount from meat. This may accompany with drinking more water then before.
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I did the 11th meditation of the 2nd part of awaken the light body course. Its called Journey of forgiveness or something like that. After the initial 4 energy centers of the light body and the mummin done by Daben (which went very well), Orin then takes over and has you bring in a person from your past you want to forgive then your forgive yourself. She does this 4 times. For the 3rd time I just visualized all my relatives, to save time, to forgive. and for the 4th one I imagined being in a huge auditorium and forgiving everyone. Felt a bit disoriented during that and a lot of energy moving out and light moving in, think i did anyway. I did feel much lighter immediately afterwards and during it. Think I still do.
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i was thinking that while some souls may prefer to do things non linearly, I can see some preferring a more linear way of doing things since it does keep things simpler. Though I think I prefer doing at least some things non linearly. Also if you add in multi dimensional selves and if souls can be in a number of places doing multiple things at once and be equally aware, more or less. That adds in a lot one can do.
So say having a bunch of mates, lovers, and friends with benefits that may sound like a lot if one has say 100 total, but with non linear one can hang out with friends, family , and get to do a lot stuff. Like one could be doing several projects at once, get bored of one pop to another, or pop off to visit or hang out with some soul family, friends, mates, lovers, ect and then pop back days or weeks later at their point of view, an instant later and its almost as if no time had passed in these projects. Though I can see others preferring to do just 1 thing at a time. And others may have different aspects doing things or utilize their being multidimensional selves to maybe be in several places at once.
Not sure if I got any of this right, all of it, or parts, or some of it.
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so soul 1 would do things in a linear fashion for the most part, easier since everything is 1 at a time, but he can't zip off to do a thing or 2 and pop back.
soul 2 can zip around as his interest takes him, going in a totally non linear fashion, though he would have to remember all the various things he was doing to be sure to pop back on instant later or a few hours, or whatever, later.
3 may focus on his multi dimensional so he may be doing 10 things at once but maybe each 1 only he only can get like 10% so he could be less distracted by this so it's only say 3%, but another demands more of his attention so it is 20% of his attention. Some bits maybe can't benefit as much from his split attention so to speak. So the 3% can't maybe befit as easily from the soul's experiences, ect as the 20%, and or the soul is not as aware of the 3% as he is of the 20%.
Though I don't think most souls do just 1 of these. I feel most souls do a mix of these, but primarily being of 1 type or 2, with maybe elements of the other, at least sometimes.
Though again not sure if i got any of this right.
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I lay down to sleep and I think my unicorn mother came. I felt her energy sorta overlay mine partially. maybe due to m not being as sensitive maybe she did it to be sure she could talk to me or something.
She said I was indeed a member of 2 unicorn families, the one that had adopted me and hers as well since she was one of my soul parents, though it was different then the way unicorns are normally made. Her 2 mates considered me as full a member of the family as she did and the rest of her family also did. I asked, only partially serious, that that means they'd not have an interest in the possibility of sex, unlike my adopted family. I felt like she had smiled and she said, in a humorous tone <I didn't say anything about that. I am one of your soul parents true, but neither of them are. You are related to the rest of my family but not them.>
She then got serious, saying the great mother wanted to talk to me. I said fine, just pull me out and take me to her and she said , no not now. When the incarnation is over and it's time to talk to you about the 4th option. She wants to discuss it with you then.
I asked what the 4th option was and she didn't say anything. I tried to reach in to see if I could get soul knowledge and got a vague type impression. adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type maybe. Just a vague sorta non specific impression. Not sure what that means.
I woke up from my nap with slight resonating energy corsing through me slightly, in a different pattern then before, but it stopped a short while after i awoke.
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I did the 11th meditation, this time not listening to the audio. Decided I'd do it faster without that. I did run the energies of the first 3 light body energy centers and the mumin, but I had to look up the name of the 4th one. They all went well in my opinion. Then I visualized a huge auditorium type place with no walls but support arches lots of seats everywhere and I stood on a stage with a microphone in had and said I had asked them all here, being from the past present and future of this life, all past and parallel lives and any future ones I may have, though I did say i don't plan on incarnating any more, but just in case. Then I said I forgive everyone. We do make mistakes but instead of holding onto the negative emotions, let's let them go and instead allow our selves to feel unconditional love for each other and towards each other. Then I said and in addition I forgive myself as well and sent unconditional love to myself. I stopped it there since I for some reason I gave myself a mild headache. Not sure why. Maybe a coincidence.
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I did a free 3.5 minute mediation. One on receiving clear guidance from your soul. I did see the sun of my soul as in the guided mediation and the light was very bright, I could feel the heat from it too. Funny thing though the ascended
master that appeared to send energy to my 3rd eye, as I asked, as said in the guided mediation looked a lot like that guy from Saturday's meditation. same race anyway. Some part of me knew he was an Arcturian, I'll have to look that race
up. The beam he sent both went down my horn and also to a spot slightly above the middle of my eyebrows and below my horn. No idea why. I heard a comment about my wondering about ascension, embodying my soul self, removing the human condition and programming ect a voice that sounded like me.
Which if it was my soul or higher self, would sound like me. It would be strange if my higher self or soul sounded like someone else totally different. But he said <not as much needs to be cleared away as you think.> it did leave me thirsty for some reason.
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I did the cellular activation one Very positive experience, like a light energy shining into every cell, dna, and molecule. Interesting I may try 2 more for tonight, solar light ones.
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I also tried the living your higher purpose. Very positive I'd say.
? help with the shift by being here, spread light, awaken as fully as I can to my true self.
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Went to the sf chat again. Was having fun. Someone said in private that they thought I was going insane by going into my own mind and I wasn't sharing right. I just said sorry and left. not feeling bad or anything but if someone doesn't' want me somewhere I leave. better all around. I'll stay away from the sf chat from now on. My stuff is likely to far out there . Doubt I'm insane since the stuff I've experienced I've come across similar stuff, scattered around on the net but never in any 1 place. So think I'll stay only in my own yourspace and maybe Scarlette's and perhaps Shinshoo's and no where else on the SF forum at all.
My experiences may be way to far out there for those here. Not that I think I'm surperior to anyone on the forum. It may be due to the fact I'm nt an earth soul and everyone on sf but a very few likely are so there are different types of experiences. Plus whatever soul is when I'm not here may also play into it. it could be soul is use to hanging out with ET's, unicorns, non earth cetaceans, dragons, and who knows what else. But earth souls here on SF may not experience any of that stuff, even if they are awakening.
Just my thoughts.
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I think of feel the soul elements or types picked for me to be were picked for specific reasons. cetacean since I had been introduced to the pod, or at least a few of the pod, and current soul was mostly that and former soul too it seems. But also they can be classified as an ET type, fae type being in the unicorn, eastern or western dragon is maybe fae type or magical, or maybe elemental as well. eastern may be more air and or water and western maybe more fire. Though those guesses may be wrong and there may be water western types and fire eastern types.
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Once I'm done with the awakening the light body course I do plan on spending say around 36 days going back through all the meditations again while deciding what, if any, courses to get next, what frequency ect. not sure if I'll add the opening to channel meditations into those or not. I may do them separately now and then to try to deepen or strengthen the connection. There is also the receiving a clear channel course I may or may not save up to buy in may that has more meditations to strengthen the link, channel. I'll wait till late April, seeing how my channeling is going to see if I feel the need for a 2nd course or not.
For the light body course there are side courses i can get from the 2nd course category as well as 3-5, categories. I may look in those and pick what interests me the most, maybe up to 6-8, then maybe get the 2nd course, maybe. I'll decide all that later during that 36 day period when I redo the whole course.
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I did the 4th audio of the opening to channel audio course and It went very well. it was another guided mediation, one getting into a relaxed state. it did leave me very very relaxed. the bit about seeing a white light I did see one, to an extent behind the white specs or whatever I see when my eyes are closed. also the bit about your guide's energy coming into you to revitalize your body, i felt like it was more then 1 source, could not tell how many. Maybe like the guy/or girl said yesterday that i saw, there may be more then 1, maybe either specialists, or each one for specific purposes.
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I've removed meat from what I eat. I've no desire to eat meat. Also it seems my body prefers now 4 meals instead of 6 so I'll just remove the 2 meals where I use to eat white rice. I'll see if this goes ok or of my body would prefer me to eat maybe 8 very very small meals instead of 4 small ones. With the adding in trail mix into 1 of the meals and maybe a 2nd type of cereal, I may eat less oatmeal also. The frozen juice I may just drink half of it at half a cup at a time, and the other cup I will likely add to the cerial oatmeal mix like normal. So 2 meals it seems may remain the same as before with the other 2 changed and white rice maybe cut out of my eating plan. This will be maybe an increase in fat, but it'll all be about 99% poly and mono unsaturated types of fat, so maybe healthier then being almost fat free I had been for years and lately the fat being 2/3 from poly & mono with a small amount from meat. This may accompany with drinking more water then before.
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I did the 11th meditation of the 2nd part of awaken the light body course. Its called Journey of forgiveness or something like that. After the initial 4 energy centers of the light body and the mummin done by Daben (which went very well), Orin then takes over and has you bring in a person from your past you want to forgive then your forgive yourself. She does this 4 times. For the 3rd time I just visualized all my relatives, to save time, to forgive. and for the 4th one I imagined being in a huge auditorium and forgiving everyone. Felt a bit disoriented during that and a lot of energy moving out and light moving in, think i did anyway. I did feel much lighter immediately afterwards and during it. Think I still do.
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i was thinking that while some souls may prefer to do things non linearly, I can see some preferring a more linear way of doing things since it does keep things simpler. Though I think I prefer doing at least some things non linearly. Also if you add in multi dimensional selves and if souls can be in a number of places doing multiple things at once and be equally aware, more or less. That adds in a lot one can do.
So say having a bunch of mates, lovers, and friends with benefits that may sound like a lot if one has say 100 total, but with non linear one can hang out with friends, family , and get to do a lot stuff. Like one could be doing several projects at once, get bored of one pop to another, or pop off to visit or hang out with some soul family, friends, mates, lovers, ect and then pop back days or weeks later at their point of view, an instant later and its almost as if no time had passed in these projects. Though I can see others preferring to do just 1 thing at a time. And others may have different aspects doing things or utilize their being multidimensional selves to maybe be in several places at once.
Not sure if I got any of this right, all of it, or parts, or some of it.
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so soul 1 would do things in a linear fashion for the most part, easier since everything is 1 at a time, but he can't zip off to do a thing or 2 and pop back.
soul 2 can zip around as his interest takes him, going in a totally non linear fashion, though he would have to remember all the various things he was doing to be sure to pop back on instant later or a few hours, or whatever, later.
3 may focus on his multi dimensional so he may be doing 10 things at once but maybe each 1 only he only can get like 10% so he could be less distracted by this so it's only say 3%, but another demands more of his attention so it is 20% of his attention. Some bits maybe can't benefit as much from his split attention so to speak. So the 3% can't maybe befit as easily from the soul's experiences, ect as the 20%, and or the soul is not as aware of the 3% as he is of the 20%.
Though I don't think most souls do just 1 of these. I feel most souls do a mix of these, but primarily being of 1 type or 2, with maybe elements of the other, at least sometimes.
Though again not sure if i got any of this right.
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I lay down to sleep and I think my unicorn mother came. I felt her energy sorta overlay mine partially. maybe due to m not being as sensitive maybe she did it to be sure she could talk to me or something.
She said I was indeed a member of 2 unicorn families, the one that had adopted me and hers as well since she was one of my soul parents, though it was different then the way unicorns are normally made. Her 2 mates considered me as full a member of the family as she did and the rest of her family also did. I asked, only partially serious, that that means they'd not have an interest in the possibility of sex, unlike my adopted family. I felt like she had smiled and she said, in a humorous tone <I didn't say anything about that. I am one of your soul parents true, but neither of them are. You are related to the rest of my family but not them.>
She then got serious, saying the great mother wanted to talk to me. I said fine, just pull me out and take me to her and she said , no not now. When the incarnation is over and it's time to talk to you about the 4th option. She wants to discuss it with you then.
I asked what the 4th option was and she didn't say anything. I tried to reach in to see if I could get soul knowledge and got a vague type impression. adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type maybe. Just a vague sorta non specific impression. Not sure what that means.
I woke up from my nap with slight resonating energy corsing through me slightly, in a different pattern then before, but it stopped a short while after i awoke.
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I did the 11th meditation, this time not listening to the audio. Decided I'd do it faster without that. I did run the energies of the first 3 light body energy centers and the mumin, but I had to look up the name of the 4th one. They all went well in my opinion. Then I visualized a huge auditorium type place with no walls but support arches lots of seats everywhere and I stood on a stage with a microphone in had and said I had asked them all here, being from the past present and future of this life, all past and parallel lives and any future ones I may have, though I did say i don't plan on incarnating any more, but just in case. Then I said I forgive everyone. We do make mistakes but instead of holding onto the negative emotions, let's let them go and instead allow our selves to feel unconditional love for each other and towards each other. Then I said and in addition I forgive myself as well and sent unconditional love to myself. I stopped it there since I for some reason I gave myself a mild headache. Not sure why. Maybe a coincidence.
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I did a free 3.5 minute mediation. One on receiving clear guidance from your soul. I did see the sun of my soul as in the guided mediation and the light was very bright, I could feel the heat from it too. Funny thing though the ascended
master that appeared to send energy to my 3rd eye, as I asked, as said in the guided mediation looked a lot like that guy from Saturday's meditation. same race anyway. Some part of me knew he was an Arcturian, I'll have to look that race
up. The beam he sent both went down my horn and also to a spot slightly above the middle of my eyebrows and below my horn. No idea why. I heard a comment about my wondering about ascension, embodying my soul self, removing the human condition and programming ect a voice that sounded like me.
Which if it was my soul or higher self, would sound like me. It would be strange if my higher self or soul sounded like someone else totally different. But he said <not as much needs to be cleared away as you think.> it did leave me thirsty for some reason.
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I did the cellular activation one Very positive experience, like a light energy shining into every cell, dna, and molecule. Interesting I may try 2 more for tonight, solar light ones.
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I also tried the living your higher purpose. Very positive I'd say.
? help with the shift by being here, spread light, awaken as fully as I can to my true self.
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Went to the sf chat again. Was having fun. Someone said in private that they thought I was going insane by going into my own mind and I wasn't sharing right. I just said sorry and left. not feeling bad or anything but if someone doesn't' want me somewhere I leave. better all around. I'll stay away from the sf chat from now on. My stuff is likely to far out there . Doubt I'm insane since the stuff I've experienced I've come across similar stuff, scattered around on the net but never in any 1 place. So think I'll stay only in my own yourspace and maybe Scarlette's and perhaps Shinshoo's and no where else on the SF forum at all.
My experiences may be way to far out there for those here. Not that I think I'm surperior to anyone on the forum. It may be due to the fact I'm nt an earth soul and everyone on sf but a very few likely are so there are different types of experiences. Plus whatever soul is when I'm not here may also play into it. it could be soul is use to hanging out with ET's, unicorns, non earth cetaceans, dragons, and who knows what else. But earth souls here on SF may not experience any of that stuff, even if they are awakening.
Just my thoughts.
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