Saturday [4-4]

Last night Think I got a reward from soul for my channeling.  I was watching a multi picarto stream and I felt soul kissing me and hugging me.  It said it is half of the reward.  I did very well in my channeling today.  I asked what the other half was as I visualized my intent to kiss him back.  I felt a bit of a mix of pleasure/joy/love.  I felt it was screening a bit I asked if I could feel all of the love we share for each other.  it said I'd find it distracting.  I should say he since soul feels male.  though that may be since I'm in a male body.  but I do recall when I could project where the pod is i was usually in a male body.  now and then a herm or a a female a few times. 

I felt more of the love/joy/pleasure.  Felt it increased a bit, then a bit more.  Then the full of it.  it was so intense that I did literally roll the eyes in the back of my head and my mouth did hang open for the minute or so I felt it, not able to think even.  Though I knew Soul didn't intend for it to last to long so I didn't mind. 

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also last night had another brief conversation with soul as we caressed.  I asked, to be sure, if we could remain like we are now, after this incarnation is over, with us not merging.  he said mmhmm, then said we'd be in relationship similar to twin flames.  He then put the tip of his rostrum to mine saying but we're not twin flames.  Then we started to kiss.  I asked him I wonder what it would be like if we had a 3some with twin flame and he said very intense.  I find that an interesting thing. 

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I was thinking as I lay down to take my nap.  What I would like to do, if the universe would provide the money, is once I'm finished with the awakening the light body course, is to likely do the celebrations of initiation, that deal with the heart, throat and crown centers.  Then I'd like to take courses 2-4.  Though 3 and 4 are expensive.  then do the side light body courses after that. 

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I did the 11th meditation of course 2, forgiveness.  Though I went off the script to say at first that I forgave everyone from this incarnation, all past incarnations , present and any future ones (though I don't plan on doing any incarnations, but in case). 

Then I decided to go farther and just forgive everyone everywhere, not just earth but everywhere.  and of course myself. 

The course has you forgive 1 person, then a 2nd person, then a family member, but I modified it as above, figuring since I was doing it before, and had done it so often before, why not do it this way. 

I did feel different for a bit.  It has a bit about releasing their energy that you may have anywhere in your body, my intent instead was to release any of their energy I needed to forgive from anywhere in my body, aura, energy, ect.  I did feel some energy streams coming in where she talked about receiving light.  and i do feel a bit different.  Slightly.  Not like before when I felt disoriented when I did it the first time I forgave everyone from this, all past, present, parallel and possible future lives.  I do feel a little lighter.  Think I'll continue doing the forgiving everyone everywhere, and myself, on a regular basis, it is pretty quick to do.  Though the audio is a long one, a bit over 30 minutes.

The rest of it went as well, talking to the dna, cells, atoms, physical body emotional body.  I added in the mental and light body, though Orin didn't mention the last 2.  Think I may add this one in the favorites, at least for the last 10 or 15 minutes where you talk to your dna, send love to cells.   it did feel like the dna was resonating, and that spread to the cells and such, and the light and love i sent as well.

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Forgot to put in a conversation I had with soul this morning.  Don't recall if I had this conversation before I got out of bed, while I was walking or at some other time.

I asked soul about the feeling I had that my guide would suggest I not incarnate again here though there is or are one person or many who would want me to.  My soul asked how would I feel if say i had another incarnation where I was totally 100% aware from the soul and spiritual sense.  if I were as aware as say he, a soul was, with all of his memories I could consciously access. And consider eve if I had an easy life if I were rich in the next incarnation.   I thought about it and I would not like it since even if I had all that, I'd not want to be here.  I'd be stuck here for say 60 or 80 years, even worst if say humans would live 120 or 200 years.  at best I'd find it being very annoying being here, or even worst then being annoyed.  Though he did say yes, there are others who will want me to come here again, preferably to incarnate or at the least to be on the other side helping out with this project.  I asked if they would try to use trickery.

he said they would try to be subtle, but they'd not lie, but they may leave things out.  and they would offer certain incentives, but they can't be sure certain things would happen.  I then asked if he and twin could be there to ensure they don't sway or trick me, he said if I wanted we could.  i did say i wanted and did demand that they be there, and whether it would be better if we merged or were there as 3 separate. 

Soul then said something like, "yea, we don't want to go through all this again." and i felt he meant the lessons that the earth souls come here to learn.  I do feel I've learned those lessens, but i don't remember that of course and have to relearn it.  Due to that stupid veil.  So if I have any say I don't want to incarnated again.  interesting I don't' want to, I feel the guide, arcturian or whatever he incarnated as a lot, soul I feel would prefer if i didn't, but it is my choice. 

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I didn't have time to put down the bit from my guide yesterday since orin went pretty fast.  But i got also that some see this karma, and amnesia veil as a failure since we had to come in to help.  They could not do it themselves. Some say it's not that you can expect some adjustment and retooling to be needed.  But some could say that if such is needed it is really a type of a failure since they could not do it themselves and some had to come in to interfere from the inside.

He also said, as I remembered at the age of 15, everyone gets some distortion.  No matter how careful you are to try to have none, being incarnated on earth some distortion will happen.  Some get more distortion then others.  But one can try to consciously try to not have any distortion, like some do try, like I do, trying to put any preconceived notions aside, but some distortion does come through, even those who use very deep hypnosis like michael newton's and delores cannon's techniques.  and me as well.  Though we do try to have as little as possible.

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another bit I got was also that those coming here were not adequately prepared, especially the first 2, or first few waves.  many on the councils now see that they should have incarnated here themselves BEFORE they formulated their plan and asked for volunteers.  Many now see that those who came here earlier on like me were not adequately prepared before coming here.  That includes former soul and through him me. 

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I had some feelings that my soul, and maybe me also, have gone independent from what was current soul.  I got the feeling maybe it wasn't working out with the former guides of Dan and Stan, since they had never dealt or worked with anyone on as dense of a place as earth.  Not sure if any of this is true, or any of the following.  But the dragoness, one of my soul parents, suggested, sorta subtly nudged me towards the awakening the light body course.  And through that orin & daben. So I still have a sort of support through the course, and also now the guide that I'm learning to guide.  And I get the feeling, like the guide said, that there are maybe other guides that I may deal with, more they are either specialists and or ones that are higher still but I can't connect with quite yet.  the current guide's energy is pretty powerful and I can't keep it in for to long.  At least not as of yet.

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I lay down to rest and did try to do a meditative and relaxing type and I was curious about something so decided to ask soul about what gender my soul body normally had. I had assumed that it was usually male but I could switch it to other genders if i wanted. 

From what I recall what soul said was that mine is usually a herm.  it feels more male since I'm in a male body currently, and if your not using it you are not aware that your soul body has a vagina.  Though souls do not normally have  gender soul said we have an interest in sex so we do.  My soul knowledge and from what I've experienced, it is also very pliable and we can shift it as we want.  So I guess I could be a male or female gender if I wish. 

Soul also said as for experiencing gay sex that is possible as well.  One way is to shift it lower.  if the other person prefers this type then if you are willing you can shift it lower and alter the feel of it.  Though also what you prefer to perceive and them also will effect the experience as well.

Soul also said that the pod can choose to create a soul either the way souls are usually created, or more like unicorns do, and have a sort of pregnancy where the mother, the created soul and source together decide how long the pregnancy will last.  Though this is not decided all at once.  At creation or conception (if you want to use that term) the 3 don't decide, ok, we agree 6 months. 

he said also a soul such as me could experience what it's like to be a soul type embryo, so to speak, say involving twin flame or my soul itself.  Free will being what it is, if both are willing it's possible.  Though one would not have to go through the entire process. one could do that for say a few hours, a day, or whatever, go off and do some stuff as they normally are, then return to being that if one wishes.  or also shrink down the size of one's soul body to experience being like a kid or younger. 

makes sense, the soul body being pliable to one's will, but I did learn some stuff.

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I did the 12th meditation, and am finished with the 2nd awakening the light body course.  It went very well.  I felt the energy flowing and such.  I tried taking the cone that is supposed to be connected to the Nua and had it connected to both the nua and ranthia and i felt energy flowing into both. 

as for the temple of the masters it shifted.  at first it looked like some sort of greek thing, then an outdoor thing, then something else, and something else after that.  One of the versions I did see some writing around but had no idea what the language was. 

i felt my soul was helping me with the experience as I helped it with.  though for some reason part way through it felt like I was there but also on a ship again, like I was in 3 places.  the body here, and the light body or whatever was in 2 places.  in the temple of the masters thing but also on the ship having a short procedure done.  I did ask a few questions.  Seemed the thing inside me, container thing, was depleted and they needed to fill it with more light.  The person did say they were sirian, as i thought the person said.  The person said the arcturians don't usually do this sort of procedure.  and the person did mention when I asked that I was a colleague of his/her. not sure if was a male or female, couldn't see them very clearly except for their head and part of the upper chest area.

Felt what they did was put a tentacle thing into me at around the navel area and go inside.  and something being filled.  I guess that thing that was put into me earlier.  It did feel somewhat pleasurable.  then it withdrew and I felt a much thinner one inserted and the person said they were doing another procedure, minor adjustments. 

Felt odd seeing 2 places at once while meditating, not done that before.  the procedure room I seemed to be on a cushioned bed thing and at a slight angle facing the sirian and I seemed to be in a dolphin type body as i usually was before.  I could see the tendrils/tentacle things were connected to some sort of device the sirian was behind and operating controls with a sorta small crystal or glass like window so they could see through and I could see them. 

in the temple of the light I had some ascended master appear I couldn't see. all this happening at the same time.  i had my guide, the arcturian guy appear again.  again his color seemed darker then the sirian, maybe blue or blue-green, not sure.  and he was shorter then I was. 

I got lots of light energy.  Hope I don't get a minor headache.  all the guide said of my purposes, and i know both of them.  Though i still say I'm no healer, leader, teacher, master, nor guide.  Despite Orin saying I'm a master, healer leader and teacher.

My purposes are to hold the energy here, with them fine tuning it, to help with the shifting of vibrations, also to awaken as much as I can.   also he said to trust myself, have faith in myself and try to awaken as much as I can. and the feeling was not to try to hard. though he didn't say that.

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I decided to go ahead and buy the 3rd part of the awakening the light body. I don't plan on starting it till tomorrow, but if something happens to my connection I'll have it downloaded already. Don't plan on starting it tonght, but depending on what happens I may. Though likely not.

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Think i"ll post my channelings as I learn the in another thread so i can easily find and look them over. Otherwise I'd have to bookmark every one to find it and folks are only allowed to have 1 yourspace. So I guess channeled messages is ok. On my blog I'll keep it as it's own separate labeled thing. No idea if you can do menus to put channeled stuff into 1 and my experiences into another.

Channeling 2 in this case. as for aftereffects I do feel a slight pressure headache, a mild one.

Not sure if I put down that my arcturian guide  I got the feeling that he's sorta like a soul older cousin.  That along my soul heritage he and I share a common soul ancestor. 

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I was curious if Hok is the leader of all unicorns like he said he is and someone on here says.  I tried to channel my guide, it felt not as easy to reach, i guess since orin wasn't helping.  i did get something.  feels like I have  bit of a pressure headache. 

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So is Hok the leader of all unicorns? That depends, do you feel he is your leader or not?

not all unicorns everywhere, just a group of them who live all in one area.  Unicorns are individuals and some do not acknowledge any single leader.  the unicorns family that yours is and Mirabelle is are among those who do not acknowledge any single leader, so no hok is not a leader of all unicorns everywhere, certainly not one of your leaders.  creation or the realms is huge, there is no single leader of any type of people.  It is far to immense for that.  the only single true leader of any group is the source.  The pod does not have any single leader, unicorns do not, we arcturians do not, none do.

dragoness: what has been spoken before is true.  even dragons have no single leader. 

? no idea who: no one group of people can have 1 single leader.   not in the soul realms as you call them.  and that is an immense place.  each group has councils, and the councils have councils. 

You will be on one if you are not already.  if you are on one already or not is a secret you'll pleasantly find out one day.   ;)

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I felt a lot of love coming in from 1 or more sources.  I wonder what the source or sources is.  Is it my soul, the arcturian guide, others maybe?

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simpliest way to put the older posts in. 
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8:37 PM

Thought I'd start this so I can put my practicing at channeling. I did my 3rd attempt a short time ago so thought I'd summarize my first one here, then copy and past my 2nd one, then put my 3rd one here. For one thing this'll make it easier to find then having to bookmark every channeling message from my yourspace pages.

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To summarize the first one. It was a very short one to meet your guide. I got the feeling and visual that it would be both my soul/higher self (not sure which it is) and an Arcturian, with others near him that are indistinct. He said the others I may work with later on. Some of them are specialists and such. He and my soul/higher self would be my general guides, at least for now. I got that he was an arcturian and my soul and him had shared an incarnation before so my soul had asked him to be a guide during the upcoming incarnation, and he said he would if I would get up to that level. I got the feeling that he's sorta like a soul older cousin. That along my soul heritage he and I share a common soul ancestor.

A name he had in a past incarnation, the closest it can be rendered into English at this time and the name may get clearer later on as the connection grows stronger and fine tuning is done. The name is something like Lavensure, Lavenshure. Something like that.

This is from a opening to channel I'm studying form done by Orin and Daben, channeled by Sanaya and Daune, I think their names are spelled.

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I'll put channeling 1 here. Then 2 following, so it's not one huge thing to read, and also so it's easier for me to find later on and read.

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I did the first channel and it did feel like i was making it up at times, but I put the doubt aside. I did try talking while I was typing, and I did keep my eyes closed this whole time. I'll correct the typos before and boy were there a lot. The energy felt very concentrated. It did feel like several were helping in this. I did feel like I was reaching upwards and a guide did connect and like very early on my soul had put part of it's energy or something into part of me, I guess to help make and hold the connection. After a bit it did feel like the rest of it's energy was in my head and was focusing on certain areas of the head, so to speak. Hard to describe it. Not sure if it was the guide, or maybe orin doing that or several someone's. No fear on my side, it felt like a part of me knew what they were doing to make a stable connection. it did feel like a lot of energy was in my head during most of it, a high concentration of energy that wasn't my energy. It's presence was pleasurable, especially towards the very end. Though not over powering or anything like that. More like the pleasure was a side effect, so to speak.

Orin was speaking to fast as she asked the questions so I could not get the questions down, just the answers that the guide seemed to want. I'll try to remember the questions but if I can't i'll leave the statement by itself.

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08:38

are you the guide I'm to channel are you of the light? :yes to both. some doubts are normal. put them aside and see how things go, us your inner feeling.

do you wish to verbally channel or other?: we can try both verbal and typing and you getting the words.

how will you communicate? into your mind and you typing would be easiest . but type while saying will help you to get over the shyness, bashfulness and such feelings. do the misspelling fixes after.

speaking, telepathic, and typing. full spectrum.

verbal speaking will take later as adjustment and fine tuning are done. as needed. tying will be easier since I just send the messages to you telepathically. try speaking with the worlds, it'll help in the long run.

we can work on emotional and mental body as well at the same time.

the incarnation was one that was truly not wanted. former soul choose to incarnate anyway even thought he did not know the conditions of Incarnating on the earth since he had not incarnated there before. part of why you choose to part with him after the incarnation. you were a part of it at that time and didn't really choose one can say, but former soul choose to for the mission.

What is your name?: lavensure is the closest that can be transmitted and revived at this time, the closest to be rendered in English at this time find tuning will come later. lavensure, lavenshore ?

how can he tell when you are ready to channel?: there will be a feeling the energy is different then his energy. a different perspective at time will be felt, different of energy.

what is your primary purpose?": Work together, will be in his self development spiritually as a soul at this time, general stuff for now, more specific later and more specialists will work with us and him later on.

What is your primary purpose?: assist with him getting to know his true self and working to envelop and awaken fully or as fully as he can in the tie left if this incarnation.

have you connected to this person before? connected before I had to an extent before, when he wanted a high level guide. former soul had asked since he and I had shared an incarnation before so this was a possible thing that could have happened.

anything you want to say to the person right now: Keep trying to do this so our connection can get deeper , stronger, and better, and we can learn a lot g together, also continue the courses you are doing as long as o wan easily afford them since they will help immeasurably, will help a lot. to much may cause a headache at this time.

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8:38

2:

I did feel his energy more strongly.

happy to work with me again.

pleasure in my head is what i feel and more peace, calmer.

awakening 3rd eye felt more like my horn had press pressure inside it. I feel pressure between my eyebrows too, but horn feels more pressure.

He comments he's worked with orin before.

feel some pleasure, slight and faint.

below is my typing some answers to general questions orin is asking....

I can feel like his energy body is overlaying or inside, mine, inter meshed.

I'll try it with my eyes open to see if it effects the trance, feels like it does not.

feels like I'm sorta 3 in 1. some pleasure felt.

I'll close my eyes at times but they'll remain open mainly.

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Channeling Starts below:

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for posture be as relaxed as you can. you relaxing is the key, that is more important then exact posture.

one can spiritually progress with ease and through joy, pleasure, and fun. work is a human culture concept.

something positive on humanity. there is much progress as the shift is happening at this moment.

the crisis is normal, <? thon ?> go if the current as a growth type pains, different vibratory beings together in one world, some clashes will happen as is the conditions on earth. <no idea what the thon typo is a word of so can't correct it.>

to align with your divine plan look within to yourself.

how to tell this is an abundant and friendly universe. which feels right ot your inner being. that is the way to tell. not a harsh judge filled with nastiness. (I paused the audio since orin doesn't leave time to type)

ways folks can contact their higher selves and souls: listen to the guidance and wisdom within, it can be hard to hear at first and may be the first initial idea that gets pushed aside.

at this point i started also speaking the answer,I forgot to do that above. i want to not just type but speak also since it may help with my speaking or be handy for later on.

the ways thoughts and feelings of others are affecting them and what they may do bout it: oen way is to recognize such is possible and it may have effected you. Try looking within to see if that is really one of your own feelings. do you normally feel this way about this situation or is it something from outside oneself?

about the earth (several questions in one): the earth is indeed a sentient being, at the soul or spirit level, a planetary type of being. think of it as a type of incarnation. not exactly the way a human incarnation works, but similar. it/she does wish the inhabitants would wizen up to the fact they are all interconnected and stop what they are doing, plundering, poisoning, and so forth. Though they are not yet aware, yet being the key term. The earth evolves like human souls do, but slower in most cases. she is going on to the next vibrational level, and content to leave behind whoever does not go along. Though she is pleased with the help of the outsiders, like us, and does hope we stay around even after the shift if fully over. commencement of the end the project that is.

channel on the animal kingdom: animals are more aware and self aware the most humans think, especially certain species. this will come to light for some in the near futureish and some somewhat has. Though many humans do not know what ot look for and expect all intelligences to be and think like them. Though many species operate on a different level. not superior or inferior to humans, but different. as for how to help, treat them as one would any fellow being, with love and respect. and the earth as well.

higher community of beings living in the higher dimensions: there are families of such beings, not family in the genetic sense, but family in the sense that they are close to each other emotionally and a the soul level. Some types do form what may be seen as a family type like on earth. With mates and such and some do still have an interest in what some would call soul sex. Though referring it to sharing intimacy is more accurate of a term. Others have little to no interest, seeing what some may call mathematics or theoretical physics as what they love more, or producing and experiencing music or experiences. There are some races (as humans would use the term) who think in musical notes and music itself is their being.

they are assisting humanity in various ways, subtle ways since we can't just appear on earth and do stuff. Certainly not like the the movie The Day the Earth Stood Still, a movie the person typing this, the one I'm working with has seen. That would be interference. though some would like to do what the guy does in the the movie, that would cause far more fear and have long lasting repercussions then the way we are helping currently.

What can be done to bring about world peace: that will take time as the human cultures grows and matures. a step at at time. for example human females were seen as property no to many centuries ago, now look at their status. steps must be taken and are being taken by humans, but the progress must happen at 1 step at a time. One can't jump over the steps.

Changes humans can do to contribute to world peace: be true to their true selves and not give into to fear, or anger. make your own decisions don't let others think and feel for you or control you.

what is the purpose of channeling & how will it help to serve humanity: It can give one a guide to inner wisdom, another perspective and ideas one may not have thought of before or by oneself. Even if one channels their higher self this can do those things also. as for how it'll help humanity there are many ways. even if you use it only for yourself you are helping others through a ripple effect that will effect others even if you don't perceive it yourself. and those comfortable can channel to try to aid others to aid themselves. since one can't force help on another, ultimately each has to help themselves.

how to deepen and strengthen this connection: remain relaxed and continue this. trust yourself and what you are doing, put aside doubt. keep practicing this and doing it regularly. not to long at a time since it may give you a headache if done for to long of a time, especially at first.

I did ask about reptiles while Orin was talking before it ended. As she talked of ending it he left. but before he did say that not all are as most humans say. some are quite nice and sentient, but don't interact with humans much as the insect types don't for the same reason. it would cause fear among humans. and he mentioned i did see one, a praying mantis type. I do recall seeing one and posting about it on my yourspace but no idea how far back it was or in what relation it was or the context. His energy did feel much more concentrated then mine. And I did get the idea it may be a good idea to post it outside of yourspace since it may help me get over some shyness, unsureness, ect.