The anchoring the new energy here is partially for the new wave indigos, but also to help raise the vibration of the earth or earth grid and those who live here. It would need fine tuning, maybe increasing the vibration at certain intervals at a safe rate. Think it's this, not sure.
Not sure about the spreading light. Maybe something about my aura, or vibrations or something.
I wonder if I'll get much information from channeling or if they'll keep a lot of information not being said.
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Also some more sorta impressions of or around the previous mentioned 4th option. Though I may be wrong about this also.
I'm not sure. Someone wants me to stay around and or likes having me here. Not sure if it is Gaia, my unicorn mother, other beings, a mix of this. I will still have the 3 options I mentioned before.
The feel I get is maybe if I choose option 1, or if I choose 3 then I change and decide to do 1 after all the next incarnation may be easier then this one. Maybe a normal or good childhood and go to a good school. more of an easier life. 1 or both parents may be fully awake or partially at least who are into the spiritual line of work. I'd be maybe guaranteed to be fully awake by late teens or early 20's maybe. Likely with the parent's helping.
I could also choose maybe option 1 and 2, and I'd be the higher self type being or a guide to an extension of myself that I send down to incarnate. with whatever guide or guides i may have in this life as guides for the next one, with me being either the higher self or the soul. and the previous said thing may happen, but instead of to this me its an extension of me.
one of the incentive could be 1 or more soul family members may incarnate as a sibbling, friend, cousin, parent and or a future husband/wife, or we'd be a same sex couple. maybe with some of the other mentioned incentives mentioned before.
Or if I choose option 2, 1 and 2. I, or the me that'll remain on the other side, will help with the earth project but also something else. This something else I think that maybe my unicorn mother, the great mother, the dragoness, and maybe gaia, not sure if she's involved or not. have in mind. Something to do with, and if i recall the vague sorta impression I got before:
something like go between, adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type. Maybe more then 1 council.
So the vague impression is if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 then I'd be helping out on the earth project, but also this, maybe like having several part time jobs or side jobs that one does. Or if I do 3 but they get me to agree then I may be doing the various side jobs full time. if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 I'd be doing the project idea of theirs full time once the earth project is over?
Just a sorta impression I got this morning as i was doing various things around home. Not sure if I have any of it right. And is great mother the 1st unicorn, the or one of the oldest, or something else?
Though if I do end up choosing 1 or 1 and 2, then I'd demand, if i have an energy sheath thing that I heard about, that prevents karma from sticking that I or my extension has it as well in the next incarnation. Unless karma has totally been removed by then, and or the veil thing also. I feel no real desire to incarnate and really don't want to.
I did the opening to channel audios 5-7. 5 and 6 were just short talks so I listened to them then went straight to 7 and did that as well. I think it went pretty well. Though I could not hold the focus for 5 minutes, I"ll take a lot of practice. 1 problem with what he said was with the practice if one keeps trying without listening to that section and keeps peeking at the clock then 1 is not really holding focus a fully as one can. So I think I"ll listen to that audio and try to memorize where a good spot to jump is. I'll practice several times a day if I can.
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The next door neighbor's kids are very loud after I started listening to the next guided mediation and one hit my front door very loudly. not sure if this is part of why the in my estimation this mediation was largely a failure. i was supposed to go to the temple of the masters and i saw nothing, though the neighbor's kids were not to loud yet. I saw nothing. heard nothing. I could not hear my soul's tone, which the said was being sent to me, not even when they said it was getting louder, I heard nothing at all. Couldn't see my guide, nor hear him/her/it. Nor any such message. just a vague energy feeling as I was sent light, a message from my guide, what my life purpose was. I heard and got nothing but a faint feeling I was being sent energy.
Also despite what orin said I am not a leader, healer, teacher. I'm none of those things. It's not due to my having a bad self image, nor my being depressed. I'm not any of those things, nor anything similar. Not everyone can be. The vast majority like me are not.
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Forgot to mention before. Part of the
mediation of going to the temple of the masters was them removing the
veil. I felt something being removed and my crown chakra opening up,
but I don't feel any more aware then I was before.
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I do wonder if I'll get details if I get good enough at channeling and have a solid strong connection. Details like about unicorns, whatever dragon I am, the pod, and other details. Like that 4th option.
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did the 12th mediation again. it went slightly better. No noisy neighbor kids this time. The energy of the first 4 energy centers & the mumin went average I'd say.
As for being at the temple of the masters. I really could not see or hear anything. during the whole thing. Just me reviving energy is all I could feel and that didn't feel like much energy at various points. Could not see or hear my guide or any ascended masters. the veil thing being lifted off was like before, i felt something being removed, but I'm no more aware then I was before. I'm no leader, teacher nor healer. Certainly not a master.
And as for my life purpose i can accomplish that sitting on my ***, literally. it is, like I have found out before, to anchor some sort of energy here to the earth grid and there'll be adjustments at times. that is the main purpose and I can do that literally sitting on my ***. The other, to awaken as fully as I can. Seems I'm accomplished that since I'm no more awake now then I was before, so that is finished.
Overall a very disappointing mediation. Don't see why I should do this one ever again, like the gas beings one, but that one went ever worst then this one.
If I am a master, leader, teacher or healer, they'll have to prove it. I'm starting to wonder if the ascended masters exist and if i do have any guides or not. and it felt like my crown chakra opened up a lot, very very wide, but I don't feel any different then before, no more aware though it is opened very wide, the veil was removed and I received a lot of light and energy from the ascended masters and guide.
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I do wonder if I'll get details if I get good enough at channeling and have a solid strong connection. Details like about unicorns, whatever dragon I am, the pod, and other details. Like that 4th option.
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did the 12th mediation again. it went slightly better. No noisy neighbor kids this time. The energy of the first 4 energy centers & the mumin went average I'd say.
As for being at the temple of the masters. I really could not see or hear anything. during the whole thing. Just me reviving energy is all I could feel and that didn't feel like much energy at various points. Could not see or hear my guide or any ascended masters. the veil thing being lifted off was like before, i felt something being removed, but I'm no more aware then I was before. I'm no leader, teacher nor healer. Certainly not a master.
And as for my life purpose i can accomplish that sitting on my ***, literally. it is, like I have found out before, to anchor some sort of energy here to the earth grid and there'll be adjustments at times. that is the main purpose and I can do that literally sitting on my ***. The other, to awaken as fully as I can. Seems I'm accomplished that since I'm no more awake now then I was before, so that is finished.
Overall a very disappointing mediation. Don't see why I should do this one ever again, like the gas beings one, but that one went ever worst then this one.
If I am a master, leader, teacher or healer, they'll have to prove it. I'm starting to wonder if the ascended masters exist and if i do have any guides or not. and it felt like my crown chakra opened up a lot, very very wide, but I don't feel any different then before, no more aware though it is opened very wide, the veil was removed and I received a lot of light and energy from the ascended masters and guide.
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the most I got from the meditation was a headache. If I were a master I'd not be incarnating here. Maybe I'd be one of those beings who gets channeled, but I'd certainly would not be incarnated. if I were a master you'd not catch me anywhere near incarnating. At most I'd be one of those channeled beings, as I mentioned before. I'd also not be mystically blind, be nearly deaf and having barely a sense of touch. and I'd not have amnesia. I'd be fully awakened and aware. No idea why those 2 are lieing. It's a well meaning lieing, but it is still lieing.
I'm not teacher, I can't be around other people for long periods of time. i need to be along a lot. Not a mark of a teacher, nor the mark of a leader either. If I were a healer I'd be able to heal myself. Like being allergic to the earth, and other things I could heal myself of. So nope, I'm no master, no, healer, leader, or a teacher.
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I did the sub personality meditation again. At the end I felt odd, sorta like I was fully integrated into one. I feel better also.
I still say if I were a master I'd not be incarnated here,and if i were incarnated here. and if I were a master incarnated I'd not have this veil, I'd not be blind, almost deaf, with slight sense of touch, and other senses. I'd have fully intact spiritual or mystic senses. I'd also no be as messed up as I am.
Which is further proof I'm not a master, unlike what Orin & Daben say in their audios I'm also not a healer, teacher, nor a leader, as I stated before the reasons why I'll not repeat myself here.
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I can say t the core of me I do not like incarnating here. The veil giving you total amnesia, blocks put on so you wind up totally blind, almost totally deaf, barely with a sense of touch, spiritually and mystically speaking, and all of your other abilities blocked.
I don't understand why anyone comes to this place. I just hope I'm not trapped here due to that karma thing. I do try to take steps every day, everything I can think of and have come across to not accumulate karma, though i'll have no idea if it works until this incarnation is over.
I try to remember to forgive everyone, even those I don't remember,and forgive myself. Also to send love to myself. Take an idea from the dolores cannon video where i visualize contracts in my hands and i say to everyone, let's tear these contracts up and go out separate ways, we'll all/both be happier for it.
Can't fully enjoy myself since I have to try to fully awaken if possible and prevent the accumulation of karma as much as I can so I don't have to return here again. If I were an incarnated master I'd know what I said above, including if I need to be concerned about karma or not.
Pretty stupid system they have here on earth, assuming it's not like this everywhere. It feels like it's not like this everywhere. If I had my choice I'd not have come here. Soul did this while I was a part of it so I had no say. I'm glad it's not my soul anymore. I'd never do that to myself.
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I think I can hold a focus decently. I'll keep practicing but I'll go on to the next audio tomorrow in the opening to channel. I think it's about tuning into crystals and plants. I'm no enthusiastic about my ability to connect to those.
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I had an unusual, but pleasant, experience. I did a meditation based on one I had listened to before, but I made a few changes. Receiving love from your soul.
What I got was a quick glance of my soul, not the one that stan and dan are an external aspect of, but the soul I'm part of. Maybe it was my higher self instead of my soul, but maybe it was my soul, but not the other guy, the one I became an external aspect of.
I only got a quick glance since he and I started to kiss, and caress each other. No sex was involved nor any sex feelings, even soul sex feelings. The quick glace looked like, from what I recall, a mix of an anthro beluga whale and an anhro dolphin. I don't recall the color. Though as we kissed and caressed I could feel like we both had unicorn horns. Not sure how long we kissed and caressed each other. I started the conversation after a while.
to summarize the conversation I asked if I'd have to choose if i wanted to split off from him since unlike previous soul I didn't think like I wanted to split off from him. He promised that before this incarnation was over I'd be aware of being him so when the time came I would have first hand experience before I made my decision of what is like to be him. So I would have knowledge before I made my decision if i wanted to merge with him or not.
He also suggested i get the rest of the awakening the light body course and continue the opening the channel audio course.
I asked why were we not unicorns, since it felt like I had the same appearance he did. Though as I said above I didn't get a good look. He said we could have, but unicorns don't' have hands and don't have mouth structures to kiss very well.
I mentioned I thought you'd want sex or something to him. he smiled saying plenty of time for sex later. Not that I wanted sex. I had no desire for it at the time. I mentioned I thought you'd be the higher self not the soul. He said well you are a multidimensional being.
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I wasn't expecting my soul to appear, not for us both to be kissing and caressing. Even as far as having his tongue in my mouth. I was expecting to just get some energy or the flow of love, not this. Not that I am complaining. It was a pleasant surprise.
It felt diffidently like my soul, not former soul, nor the soul I am, or was, and external aspect of. No idea of my soul went independent or not. Not that it really matters. I wonder why it choose to do that. I wonder if it'll happen again. I do hope so. It was pleasant.
Just now I relaxed and closed my eyes, this time we were both unicorns and touched horns. Felt like love was flowing from each of us into the other.
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