Thursday [4-2]

The primary purpose I can do doing nothing literally. Anchoring the energy, which I guess is to help the new wave indigo and maybe crystal folks, and help with increasing the earth's vibration, I guess with some adjustments and tooling done here and there. Not sure how my awakening as much as I can helps the human collective, but my awakening as much as I can is more of a side thing.

The light body courses are fun, but it feels a bit like work. Like work that is fun to do or enjoyable. It feels like, though I may be wrong, I'm here to work. Once this incarnation is over, I'll still be working but it feels like then I'll be much more laid back and relaxed then here. No idea if that is true or not.

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I listened to the 10th and 11th audio files of awakening to channel. The first was just Duane talking and the 2nd was Daben doing a short guided mediation to help you get into the proper meditate state to channel, but not to channel. The next one is verbally channeling your guide. I have no way to record my voice so I think what I"ll do is try to verbally channel and type at the same time, maybe start a file in the channeled messages section so I'll have a place to put those, the yourspace my general experiences, thoughts feelings, mystical and spiritually types.
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I'm a bit bummed out with what happened in the rpg group today and the letter I got yesterday about the amerigroup parent company got security hacked. I'll call tomorrow, once i got a list of questions and see what I can do to project Identity. Think I"ll do the 2 awaken the light body, but delay the channeling meditation till tomorrow.

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I did 5, inner healer. Felt like it maybe did something about the areas where there is pain, but i"m no healer so not as effective as a true healer. To bad. I do hope there are courses on healing in parts 4-6 and the 2nd course since I would like to get up to marginal are barely minimum healing standards. I did listen to the inner healer at the spots where we are to ask questions, but I never did get an answer. same with certain body parts like the twitching eyelid and other problem spots, they don't say anything ot me nor does the inner healer, likely since I'm no healer. I don't really have any special gifts except for maybe feeling energy running inside my body, but if it is outside my skin even a billionth of an inch I can't feel it. That is not any signs of a gifted person, certainly no person who's supposed to be a master, leader, healer, guide type.

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Think once I do the changing one's thoughts to more positive, or whatever that one is I'll do the sub personality meditation right afterwards, without listening to the audio to speed things up. maybe do this over a week to see what it does, doing both 2-3 times a day without the audio to see if i can change a lot of the stuff on my list.

I think once I get course 3 finished the 2nd time, since this'll finish late April I'll use the opportunity to just redo the first 3 awakening the light body again. That'll take me into early may and I can get the 4th course. at the end once I have finished the 6th one for the 2nd time I'll first redo the opening to channel maybe and if i get the sequel receiving a clear channel I'll do that one 2nd, then do the entire 6 part awakening to channel course. This'll take 7-8 weeks. Which means i can put 1 month's money towards the dentist, which I have to do since i have to pay for the dentist, despite my limited money per month.

I think on Sunday I'll pick out some meditations to do regularly, then some of my favorites. And I'll go back over part 1 to see if I've changed my mind about which ones to do as needed, my favorites, do on a regular basis.

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I did 6, self healer. Didn't work to well. I focused on my head since I have the usual headache. A mild one. Think I may have to re-listen to this one and the previous one often to get the hang of it. 1 has a thing on healing, 2 does. I wonder if 3-6 will. i do hope so. I think it didn't do to well since partially I seem not a sensitive today.

Think I'll pick out the healer meditations and do a special category for self healing.

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