Friday [4-10]

I think that is since souls are multi dimensional.  So we can be soul, but also soul can hug and kiss us as well.  I think with soul we can be different consciousnesses, but still 1 soul. I don't fully understand it yet, but I'm sure I will one day.

I think the light body is above the mental, so to speak. Since with the 7th center if your mental and emotional bodies are in balance, even partially in balance then it starts to form like a cocoon around you of a foot or several feet.  They way they describe it in the courses I've taken so far, and I'm not done with 3 yet, is there are 4 bodies so far they've talked about in the audio and manual, Physical, emotional, mental and light body. 

I think they don't want folks to astral project since what they want is you to be aware of being I think more multidimensional, though they don't use that term.  Like with the guided meditation where you go to a dimension where there are gas beings.  I finally was sorta able to go there the 3rd time. I could be there but here in the physical body at the same time.  also the guided meditations where you go to the temple of the masters at the end of parts 1 and 2.    I think they are introducing the concept of being muli dimensional maybe, instead of projecting which I guess is safer and being at that level you can't encounter any negative or lower beings since they don't exist at those levels. 

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Had a few interesting experiences this morning.  Think I understand soul and my relationship better.  In the first one I felt love inside me and soul had me expand that till it was all around me, filling what the awakening the light body course called the Renare cocoon, sorta like an aura that goes form the center at the top of the head, goes up a foot or a few feet, all around the body to the feet and back up to the first center.  If fully formed, they do say if it does not go all the way down that is fine, it means it is partially formed for now. it then said for me to imagine myself dissolving or merging with this love, which I did and it felt like the love increased and I was still me, but with greater love as a part of my being.

then soul had me imagine the 3 of us, soul, me, and twin flame inside this area.  the feeling of the love felt subtly different, like it had shifted slightly, then as soul said I imagined us merging and it felt like it shifted again and maybe increased, not sure on the last part.

Then a short time after this I felt it hugging, and kissing me, in a close embrace.  I got an idea and felt it subtly encouraging me.  I did a sorta mental shift where I was the soul and it was the one incarnated in a human body.  I felt like I needed to help him awaken to his being aware of his full soul self and though of the same soul we are both different consciousnesses of the same soul, with twin flame being a 3rd, though she was experiencing being separate, though she really wasn't (kinda hard to explain in English, some concepts I understand but they don't make full sense if I try to explain them).

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For got to mention that when we were hugging and kissing I did feel the love we share and have as part of our nature, but also  I diffidently felt sexual feelings as well. Not surprised since I know soul does enjoy sex, at the soul level, It, and me as well, are at the soul or spiritual level (if that term is right) are very sexual beings.  Though I feel other souls maybe are less so.  As they have their preferences we have ours.  We are very sexual beings as they are not. And that is all fine, with diversity and everyone being an individual, even as souls, and those beings higher then souls.   I can bet the monad or whatever that I'm part of is very sexual as well.  Still don't know monad and such to well.  A part of me is, of course, very curious and wants to know a lot, the other part of me is content that I'll pick things up over time and trying to read and find out a lot of information is fine, it can be lots of fun, but at the core of it it is not really needed.  And better to make up my own terms for things, or better yet don't use terms or labels, just concepts.  Which one can do at when thinking to oneself.

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I had some interesting experiences as I lay down to take a nap. After a bit I felt my soul hugging me again. I could feel it's love and mixed in with that sexual feelings as well. <the fact you are not scared of frighted of the immensity is a good sign.> I said, yes, in fact I'm enjoying it, meaning the immensity of what we are, as well as the sexual feelings, love and such. I then felt it like rubbing my behind as it kissed me and said, <that is a very good sign, indeed.> it said continuing what we were doing. I then felt like we were melting into each other or merging, hard to describe till we were one or as one as we can get. I stayed in this experience for a time, I'd guess maybe a minute at most, likely less.

That was great, we can't merge though, not while I'm still here. <we can soul blend. blending souls so i'm more like you.> it said, though I felt it perilously said the last bit in that way for a purpose. "you mean doing this I'll be more like you, you may take on some of my characteristics?" <Yes, it brings us more like each other. It's not really a merging, but it does give us the taste of what merging will be like, should we choose to temporarily merge.> Then I got the hint that there are courses or something on orin and daben on that. I think i"ll look that up.

Later I sent a mental message off to the dragoness and arcturian, I got what I think are replies. i asked if they are sexual beings since i seem to be one. I think the arcturian said something like to an extent but it doesn't interest him as much or as greatly as some like me, with me it is very natural, very normal for me. Just not really or exactly his thing, though he does enjoy it from time to time. the dragoness felt like she said certainly, you don't know the half of it. I asked them out of curiosity, but since I was curious, not that I wanted to have sex with them now, but curious on their take on it. I then asked the dragoness if she'd be interested in us some day having some sex, soul type. she said certainly, once I'm closer to her level. I bet after that I said to her, feel free to ask once I'm close enough to your level, to which she said, <I certainly will.>

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I did the 5th meditation of part 3, traveling on the grid-work, and running the energies to the 7 light body energy centers went very well.

The grid-work is a bit hard to explain as I saw it mentally and experienced it as Daben did continued with the guided meditation. I was slightly distracted now and then since the physical body is slightly hungry.

the grid-work, for me, at first was 2d, like a sheet of graph paper. But quickly it became 3d, with each bit of it I could feel was a sort, or some form of energy. eventually I could see scenes on some of the panels and could view at least 2 such panels at the same time, so to speak, but it was easier to focus on 1 at a time to more accurately see what was going on. I drifted along, able to travel the grid, outside yet inside it, hard to explain. Finally I allowed myself to drift into one of the grid panels and was in some place with lots of crystals and some people were running somewhere. I don't remember exactly what was going on. They didn't perceive me since their attention was elsewhere. it wasn't earth, that much I knew. Not sure if it was another dimension or planet. I then left that place as easily as I had entered it and was back in the grid, full 3d grid like before. I'll read the manual that came with the course, a pdf to see what else it says. Sorta wanted to get my first impressions down before i had read much.

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I lay down to rest and had another encounter with soul.  We had a conversation.  Basically we talked about merging.  I'll try to remember the basics and majority. 

I think i mentioned I looked forward to us being partially merged.  I could feel our energies starting to merge.  Soul paused the process asking if I was sure.  I said I have experienced being a separate human with no idea of spiritual stuff, now being partially awake aware.  Now I want to experience being soul. It said ok. and it started the process of our energy merging, Then I said, except and he paused it and I said once this incarnation is over I don't want to fully merge with you since i would like to experience being me, as aware as you are, but me, experience the soul plane or wherever I'll be, hang out with you and twin flame for a bit, soul family. For a few hours, days or a week for example, before I merge with you fully. 

Soul said while I had the impression of him smiling <ok, I can arrange that.  you'll have a lot of fun here.>  i felt the our energy merging till we were one, or overlapping.  Soul then said <now it is inevitable.> 

I said I did look forward to use being 3, 2 and 1. Soul said we would merge and unmerge over eternity.  Plenty of time.

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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I was going to do the next opening to channel, but it is about 23 minutes and I felt some slight reluctance, not sure if is me from that length of the time or not so decided I'll do it Saturday or Sunday. Instead I decided to try a short one, just so I an channeling my guide almost daily.

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The partial merging with your soul, overlapping is indeed possible and many do find they enjoy this and can spend considerable part of their lives to reach this state or to live in it once they do. Such a thing can be a goal in itself.

Soul and you are indeed described as 2 who are one. 3 if one adds in what you call twin flame but the term is not fully accurate but we can use it for now. The expression of 2 or 3 who are one is more correct then you know. You are experiencing learning about this as it occurs. Allow it to happen since as you have experienced, the first step of the process is enjoyable indeed, the rest will be as much if not more.

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it is not so much becoming your soul but more accurately to say you are awakened to being a soul, being your soul and yet yourself too. Since soul can experience itself as more then just 1 identity, person, consciousness. It can be more then one. Explore and experience this, you will learn much. There are many methods and ways. Pick one that feels correct and is more fun for you, and most pleasurable as well. The path is easy. There is no rule that is has to be hard unless one decides it most be from what their culture or society says. Why not choose the fun path over the hard one. one can learn just as much from either.

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things will indeed gradually improve over time, faster perhaps they you suspect. Leave yourself open to change and growth. Change can be a thing one feels unsure about. Think over, feel within, then make the decision, taking into account how you feel about it within, how your body may feel, and what you think about it. Weigh these together, putting aside cultural or society pressures and beliefs to be your true self when you make decisions.

This will carry you far indeed. farther and faster then you may suspect. Though patience is a good thing to have as well. Especially in a place where one can't whip up a chocolate Sunday instantly. ;)

felt a ps from guide: you would be surprised at how many love you and are sending you their love, many indeed. One day you'll know and meet them.

I personally look forward to that.

Friday [4-9]

 As for me and soul I think those times with soul and I were hugging and such it is trying to work on where There is as little distinction between us so I can be more full soul in a human body. Think your soul may be doing the same?

I did a short bit where I did try to channel soul it felt like me, but more energy being present. The arcturian felt a lot more energy and I could only channel him for short period of time. Soul felt like I could channel him for infinite periods of time.

Think when i finish this audio course of opening to channel I'll try to channel the arcturian daily for 5 or 10 minutes then repeat the course, but only focus on channeling soul.


makes me wonder, if I do some light body courses how I can help the process along of becoming soul fully. Or as much as I can.

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I did try to run the energies this morning 3 times. the first i felt nothing but assumed I wasn't sensitive enough. the 2nd time went pretty well and I went backwards, going from 7 to 1. The 3rd time went sorta ok, but I was at the bus stop and it went therefore far better then I think.

Thursday [4-9]

I do wonder if this lucid dreaming guided meditation is working or not.  It seems to either not work or it keeps me up.  The week is not over yet, but it's more then half over and I've not had a single lucid dream at all.  Maybe like i said before I may not have the makeup or whatever elements is needed to do lucid dreaming.  That's ok, not everyone can do everything.

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I think once I finish this part 3 of the awakening of the light body for the 2nd time I'll count the number of days till around May 5, divide by 3 and I'll do that many meditations from the first 3 courses instead of doing all of them.  Though I think I may want to get more from 3.  The healing the inner child and sub personality ones I may keep out and do those without the audio simplified as I work on changing my thinking patterns.  Or I may do the audio for the mental and emotional, part, daily as a separate thing.  I'll see how that works, maybe listening to the audio for both as a separate thing.

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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Decided since the next audio is just talking that I would try to channel today using one of the short audios I've used before to try to channel a bit. But with the fact I often get headaches on Thursdays, maybe since I don't drink water once I leave home till I get home, I'll try my soul instead of my arcturian guide.

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I do hope my arcturian guide, levensure or whatever his name is understands the reason for this <yes quite so and agrees with the reason. Regularly though you do want to channel him, everyday is not needed. partially a message from him and me. I'm sure you felt the energy shift a bit since we did that. and good to learn to channel me as well instead of just him. But a good idea you are to pick 1 of us first to focus mainly on, and the other when you co some of the audios a 2nd time once you finish. Though be sure to try to channel him daily, say 4-5 times a week for even just 5-10 minutes. Not to long since his energy is fairly ???? hard to translate it into English. Not same problem with my energy since we are 1 already, though 3 separate beings, or 3 separate identities. it gets pretty complicated to explain in English. Easier to understand it by experiencing it, with the human layers not in the way.>

So what is the experiences we've been doing the few times where I did seem to loose if i was the part of the being who was incarnated or not? <basically as you asked, helping you to realize that you are a soul, your soul awareness. You did feel that, experience that, even though it was for only short period of time, a instant at first and a second or so the last few times. We are 3 beings with 1 souls, you me and twin flame. Though you are, at present, less aware of this, and you did ask my help.>

So will I be fully consciously aware of being the soul in a human body, as aware as say you are? <That may indeed occur, keep on the route you are on and you will indeed. The chances are high that you'll fully awaken to the soul within yourself. You are learning, through that experience and the audio courses you are taking, and some of your inner knowing. >

So what exactly is our relationship? <Soul and incarnate, with the twin flame a part of us also but separate at present. Though the 3 of us won't be forever separate. We'll go between being 2 or 1 being, being at times 3 also. Though you like being yourself, and will love being yourself as a soul, the desire to merge will awaken from time to time, though also after being merged we will start to mess experiencing the other as an external being. That is normal for some beings you call souls. Others prefer to merge permanently, others prefer to go separate. Those are all ok.>

So I"ll be a full soul already, a part of you but also a full soul at the same time? <more like we are a part of each other and twin flame is a part of both of us.>

So what are the soul planes, or realms or whatever they are called like? <you'll enjoy them once you come to live here and it'll be sooner then you may suspect. No waiting for 20 incarnations for you, but that is a pleasant future you'll see if you keep on the track you are on at present. No need to eat, though many do choose to eat to ingest or bring light into themselves. There are many avenues and methods to bring light into yourself, many you can imagine and some are beyond human imagination. You'll quickly grow use to things here, with an adjustment period needed, some adjust faster then others. Also many souls here do travel to and from here to other places. Some may call these lower densitites then then what some call the soul plane. More accurately to call them a change of focus. say from channel 47 to channel 23. Though channel 23 may have certain characteristics. and you can just make a body that fits in with channel 23. Things are different on earth due to certain rules and such set up way in the distant past, from earth's perspective. To set up certain unique circumstances. That things are beginning to change there and will be continuing to change. earth is not fully a normal experience for a soul. But that will and is changing. Once it has fully changed on the earth, there will likely be others who will want to set up a similar type of thing elsewhere for some to experience and learn in the unique earth type experience. using the earth experience to ensure the next location of a similar situation is perhaps better or , as some humans may say, with some of the kinks worked out. As glorious as what you call the soul plane is none here know everything perfectly, though it may seem that way to some where you are at present.>

So I didn't come here to learn and incarnate a lot but for a specific mission? <a few specific missions yes. You know them in general. The main earth mission, and also to learn more of yourself, experience yourself and become fully awakened or as much as you can, to your true soul self. Once done you'll return here. The learning on earth you've already done elsewhere, or more accurately the energy that is you has while it was part of another. Though you still learned from those since you did choose to remember the experiences wisdom and so on. Though that may be pretty complicated territory.>

Felt soul wanted a ps: <just don't try channeling me for long periods of time. Problems are less likely but can still happen, while our energy is perfectly compatible, the human body and systems, and your systems, are not to use to holding or channeling the larger amounts of energy needed so even in my case go for short periods of time channeling and build up, and channel the 2 of us regularly. Daily is not needed as I mentioned before.

You are doing fantastically in all areas, keep it up.>

Wedensday [4-8]

Think I'll continue saving up for more courses.  I'm saving up towards the 2nd channeling course.  If the first one goes really well then I'll buy the 2nd one.  I think after that I'll be saving up to see if i can get 5 and 6 in the same month.  I'd like to do that.  and or the 3 celebrations of initiation across 2 months. though with those it looks like it'll take a month to do each of the 3 twice.  I think though that once I finish the 3 ceremonies of initiation I'll go over those again like I plan on doing the awakening the light body.  I may get some new experiences if I go over the meditations again once i finish the course.  If I go into the 2nd light body course I'll do the same thing.  Once I get done with that I'll go back over everything, all the light body courses.  If I do i think that would take a bit over 3 months.  I can use those times to save up towards the dentist, and or towards the next course.  While I am doing 2 I may save up and buy maybe 3 a bit here and there.  I may even do 3 as a side course.  So it may take 2 or 3 months to do a part of the 3rd course once.  Plenty of time to think this stuff over.  And once I do stop purchasing courses from them if I want to only repeat my favorites, repeat them all, or some combination.  I'll decide that later.

I do wonder if all this is helping me to grow or evolve spiritually or not.  I think it is.

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Not that the earth is a bad place, but I do feel like I'm here to do a job and I'm out of here once the incarnation is over. 

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No lucid dream yet.  I'm starting to wonder if I have whatever it takes inside me to lucid dream.  Not that I'm saying I have anything wrong.  But maybe it's like projecting.  I just can't lucid dream or project since I don't have whatever elements are required in my make up. 

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I did the 4th mediation of part 3.  It went pretty well I think overall.  Running the energy went well I would say.  I did some of the first 2 while Daben was talking before he started doing the nua. 

With the 7th center I did feel the pressure, but it was gone once the mediation was over.  As for the cocoon I did feel at first like it just went down to where the nua was and that was it, then shortly after it extended all the way down to my feet and came up to the nua.

The manual talks about doing the energies and the meditations at least once without listening to Daben.  I think I'll do the audio a 2nd time like normal, but tomorrow and maybe tonight.  I'll try to run the energies for all 7, and follow the cocoon tonight, tomorrow morning, on the bus and tomorrow night.  Starting part 5 on Friday.  No hurry after all.

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I do wonder how high these courses can take me.  guess there's only 1 way to find out. 

Though that aside I do wonder what things will be like for me over there really.  With an eternity to do things.  How big is my family & friends, including any lovers and those I feel close to. What skills do I have, what pastimes? 

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I did the 4th meditation of part 3 again.  I think I'll try to run the energy tonight and tomorrow without listening to the audio.  I think if I am satisfied I may listen to part 5 tomorrow evening, but I may decide instead to wait till friday.  It depends.  I'll decide tomorrow once I get home.

overall it went very well.  I didn't feel the energy of the nua much, but the rest I did feel better then usual.  When he did the throat center I could feel the vibrations going from mid chest and up.  and the renawre cocoon I could feel the whole thing from the top to the bottom and under my feet to it coming up to the nua to form a complete circuit.  Felt like part way through that I went deep but not to deep so I was still fully conscious and focusing on what he was saying and following along.    overall I'd say it went very well. 

I wonder, if the first 3 energy centers mainly influence & control the energy body, and the upper 3 do the mental body.  Do the 3 light body centers influence and control something else, the light body, or something else? 

I also read in the celebrations of initiation courses that the emotional body will be replaced by the bliss body I think it called it and the mental with the another one.  Interesting idea.  i guess they mean spiritually evolving up the next step or something.

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It felt like my soul was glad that I was having fun earlier.  I wonder, what do souls do for fun.  I think I got a message of my soul saying something like <sometime I'll pull you up here and show you first hand.>  I wonder if that is allowed.  Think i got <of course it's allowed> with a pretty strong blast of love. 

I asked if I could live up here with it, think I got, <of course.> then another message, <you'll be surprised at how much progress you make in a year.> I look forward to April 8th of 2016. 

I also then got <you'll one day be just like me.  Soon enough, sooner then you think.  Think of the celebrations when you come to live up here with me for good.> 

So that's allowed, an extension moving up to the soul plane or wherever it is that you live?  <of course, eventually many choose to move here.  You can travel back and forth to and from here once you live here.  Not like you're stuck here.> 

So the orin and daben courses will help to make me more like you? <with my help.  We won't so much as help make you like me, but uncover more and more of your true self which is exactly like me, but you will still be an individual.  You'll love it here, you'll see.> 

Can you help to strengthen our connection so i can channel and talk to you whenever and so i can be you, or my true soul self? <I've already started doing that stuff.> 

Just what is that soul/higher self being? <it is me, just an easier method for me to interact with you.  an extension or vehicle body think that lets me more easily interact with you.> 

I see, so I am both you and an individual at the same time?  <certainly you got it right the first time.  That is great.> 
<I look forward to when you'll be here with me as an equal.  Believe me, it'll be great and it won't take long, not as long as you think. You'll be surprised, believe me.> 

Ok, I do believe you. It'll be a short time. But my or your perspective? <both.  I can choose to perceive time as you do if I choose.  Though you'll be very very surprised at how fast it happens.> 

So do souls indulge in what some may call spiritual sex, sharing? <Certainly.  Souls are intimate and love sharing in many ways.  Sharing pleasure and love is but one of many things we can do for fun.  I'll be happy to be the first, to introduce you to the ways of things here and some of the pleasures here.  and fun also.>

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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7:27 PM

 
Now I'll attempt to do the 20th audio in the audio course opening to channel. I wonder how it'll go. I bet Orin will go to fast to type up a full reply. I"ll see if I can just pause it. Also I think I may retry this again maybe.

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What is my life purpose right now? <Your life purpose is mainly 2 things. 1 thing you don't need to do anything about, the channeling energy to the earth grid is done automatically.

The other is to awaken as fully as you can. Trust in yourself, keep up and do not give up. look deep within yourself. The courses you take can help, as long as you can afford them. They are more ???? focused ???? then looking elsewhere and spending time looking around for things. This has stuff in 1 place, but is more pricey, so give up some stuff to gain some stuff. In time you may become as aware as your soul is. Every day you open up more to your true self and your soul self. Keep it up.


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What are my lessons right now? Learning to trust yourself and trust in yourself. As well as opening up to yourself, your true self that is within. So basically trust and opening up, to yourself. the other things pertain to these 2 and are referral or other aspects of one of these 2 primary things.


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How can I create more abundance in my life? Do not turn away possibilities as they come up. They will come up over time at certain intervals. Say when you are at a good time or spot to do one one may open up and you could take it. Trusting in yourself and the universe, all that is, is key.

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Are there any thoughts & beliefs I need to change? The primary ones are trusting in yourself, trusting in the universe and your soul and what will be provided, and you can get what you want the key is if it aligned with what the true you wants that will be possible then, but you must believe it is possible and trust in it when it comes up as an opportunity.


I'm not in a relationship with anyone so I'll skip that one. On second thought i'll try my soul. See what I get.
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What am I learning in my relationship with (my soul)? You are learning to open up to your true self, becoming your true self and not just the human skin or shell that seems to have been the true you for all these years and decades. it is being dissolved and pealed away, go with the progress and what is happening, things will be more pleasant, fun, and will go much smoother and be easier. Be watchful and you'll help this along immensely.

what is the higher purpose of this relationship? I think that has been answered already as part of the answer to the above.

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How can I server this person's spiritual growth (bet I know the answer to this one): Trust in yourself and help the process along as much as you can. Help make it smoother and easier, more fun and pleasurable for both.

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any message about something happening in my life right now: The thing with the rpg and the feeling is telling you something about yourself and the relationship of the group to you and to others in the group. Look at this and how you want things to be and act accordingly. I think the dwarven fighter cleric may be a good choice overall, if things go well. Search for your greatest pleasure within the limits set and stick with that and don't venture outside that.

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How might I improve my channeling? keep practicing remain open. Do channeling regularly if not daily. Keep up the talking and typing. Typing is easiest since you are taking down what i am saying to you mentally, speaking will help in other ways like deepening it in certain ways and opening up other possibilities. Better if you could practice one at a time, but things and circumstances do not allow that at present. So your attention is divided to an extent. Try to relax the speaking and let it happen. It'll grow more natural for us both over time as will the typing. and I get more attuned and fine tune things as you will as well. Though at present you may not be aware of your fine tuning of certain things.

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How can I best express my creativity? By drawing, even doodling, learning to draw will help, though you've not developed it. That will take time and perhaps another guide can help in that area. Writing fiction may help as well, and making up backgrounds for your characters, the various ones you rp.

other ways may come to you over time. Feel free to explore those possibilities as well.

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How can I achieve more inner peace? What you are doing at present is working well in that area. pay attention to any feelings you have within and search for the root cause and deal with that.

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how may I strengthen my contact with my soul and higher self? The best is to keep what you are doing in the course, light body course. Also you can do some of the opening to channel and if you next course, with a focus on channeling your soul or higher self, as you are me, this will help in this way as well, hand in hand with the opening to channel and the light body courses. It may be smoother and easier.

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how can I be more loving & nurturing to myself: Try to keep doing what you are doing, and feel free to go back as needed and deal with certain feelings as they come up as well sending love to yourself and allowing yourself to feel love and that you are loved when you do feel those feelings as you do feel them when you are more sensitive to such things.

it's not that you are not loved at other times, just that you are not a sensitive to that then at other times.

also be fair to yourself.

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What is the single most important thing I need to focus on in the next 6 months that fits my higher purpose? 2 things, trust of yourself, trust & looking within.

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what is the 2nd more important thing: looking within.

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what am I learning in the experience of the Thursday rpg group? learning to have fun and pleasure within rigid grounds and help others to have fun, or enhance their fun also.

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what can i do spiritually, physically and emotionally to connect more closely with my higher self and soul? pay attention to the foods your body likes and does not like. Leave yourself some time to relax and have fun as you have been doing. put the spiritual stuff first like you have been doing. In short keep doing what you are doing, look for ways to improve or be more efficient in those areas and the time allowed.

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He sent one last message before leaving:

Trust in yourself, what is normal is normal, as unusual as it may be.

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Overall I think it went very well.

Tuesday [4-7]

I do wonder about the dream.  I did seem to be telling the story and in it also with someone else telling it.  As I said in my dream thread.  I wonder if the other was my soul perhaps or soul/higher self.  I also wonder if it was of an insectoid race and the subconscious interpreted it as a xenomorph, or if that is symbolic of something. 


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I did the 3rd meditation of part 3.  This is of the Renawre, the 7th light body energy center.  Running the energy of the others went pretty good I'd say.  While he was talking at the beginning I did a bit of the first 2.  The 2nd and 3rd were not to strong but I did feel something.  The rest went about the same.  For some reason of the pieah he only did the sound once very quickly then went straight to the Renawre. 

it felt like the disc covered the top of my head the first time he did that.  Then with the other times he did the word it felt like the area was not just a disc with a hole in the center it felt like it covered the whole of my head, except for the very center, and the are also covered the top inch or so of the sides of my head.  It felt like some sort of pressure, but unlike with the pieah the pressure went away pretty quick. 

Seems like I'll have to maybe try out the 6th and 7th energy centers myself at some point and see which one responds best to me doing it by myself without using the audio then pick if I want to do 2 or 3.  If both respond about the same then I'd alternate between using 2 or 3, as the regular one.  Though later meditations in this and future parts may change that. 

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I did the 3rd meditation for the 2nd time today.  Running he energies went very well.  When he got to the 7th energy center it went much like before, but there was less pressure this time and it went away much faster. 

Then with Daben's continuing to do the sound I was outside my body.  At least most of me was, a part of me seemed to be here in the body, but a small part.  The human part wasn't there, or at least the human part stopped thinking or something, hard to describe.  I don't recall the experience to well.  I was elsewhere, or was it the layers were all removed and i was able to perceive the full multi dimensions.  hard to say. I don't recall much of the experience.  I did feel larger then myself. Towards the end of the experienced I was fully back in the body, but I did feel larger then the physical body, like some part of me, most of me, was outside this physical body and part of me was in the body.  hard to describe.

The bit i don't recall it was like I was some multi dimensional being or something.  maybe I can't remember it much except for impressions since the human mind can't comprehend it.  Though while i was there it felt totally normal.  Wish  could remember it.  Maybe i will later or gradually.  or maybe as I get farther into the course I'll recall and retain more.

I did the 19th opening to channel course, deepening your connection to your guide.  I mentally included the intention that I also wanted to deepen my connection to my soul.  It seemed to go pretty well.  I felt a lot of energy, mostly in my head, but also some sort of resonating throughout my entire body.

At the spot where he was supposed to be opening my 3rd eye, Orin was saying the spot was between my eyes.  I felt something there, but also I felt the energy going down my horn and did my intent to channel some of it to the 6th light body center at the center of my head too and for my soul to do the same.  It felt like my soul's deepening the energy was going down a shaft to my crown.  Lots of energy going around in my head. 

Think I may do this meditation on a regular bases or at least a few more times. 

I feel some slight aftereffects, extra energy and pressure on and in the top half of my head.  

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Soul said it is very happy with the progress I've made. it also that the council would notice and would be pleased as well.  I guess talking to one's soul consciously is a big something.  I'd have thought it would be no big deal really.  It's very easy. 

I did ask if the guide I'm learning to channel and I would still be friends once this incarnation is over and soul said of course.

I asked, being half serious half not if I'd have to channel the guide and soul laughed a bit saying no, you can just talk to him directly.

Soul also said he was very proud of my achievements.  I mentioned I'm just at most half awake half aware and it acted like that is a big deal.  I can see if I was fully awake, as aware as it is with access to some of my abilities that I should have, being an extension of my soul. 

Soul also said once I'm over there I'd be staying with it and those I'm closest to.  I could feel some of it's energy flow into my chest as it said, who else to rest with and recuperate then those you are closest to.  it then said i would be surprised how fast I adapt to being back home.  I'll pick up everything quickly and we all will help. It also said with a happy attitude to the feel of it that once I'm over there I'll be with them forever. 

Monday [4-6]

I tried the lucid dreaming guided mediation last night and it didn't work.  it actually kept me from going to sleep till I stopped listening to it and turned on the clock radio. I'll try it a few more times and if it still doesn't work I"ll mark it up as something about me that just can't lucid dream. 

Maybe it's genetic, mental, or something at the soul level where I just can't lucid dream.  If this <censored> veil were not in place I could member if I have any ability to lucid dream or not and it would save me some time.  I frankly don't see why anyone willingly incarnates here.  I certainly would not.  And if those who say, oh you choose to come here, everyone does.  My soul memory says otherwise and my guide, that I've learned how to start channeling, did also say that. 

I was a merged with former soul, who didn't tell me everything.  He left certain things out and I was not a separate being while I was merged with him. Hard to explain what I know. I'd have to start making up new English words since they are inadequacy.  but that was part of what caused the schism some may say why I wanted to eventually split from former soul.  and the guide & maybe soul or soul knowledge would show that I'd not do that.  It's not part of who and what I am to do that. 

and it still feels like indeed soul has gone independent from what was current soul, the one that Dan and Stan are external aspects of.  Not from any bad feelings or his leaving things out, just it didn't work out for the long term, but was needed for the short term.  Something about my starting the awakening the light body changed that, which the dragoness saw would be better for me so subtly nudged me towards that.  Not that I could Orin and Daben as guides since they never talk to me, or anything.  non responsive teachers maybe.  non responsive since on the audios they can't respond. 


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I've made progress I can say.  No dream that I remembered, no lucid dream, but I was able to get to sleep while listening to the lucid dream guided meditation.  So that is something I could not do last time.

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I did the 2nd meditation of the 3rd part.  Neat to think when I get done with this in 10 days I'll be half way through the awakening the light body course. 

Overall I'd say it went very well. I was surprised that the Pleah, the 6th center is not where the 3rd eye is but in the center, or near the center of the head.  I do feel a dull sorta ache there.  I have felt it before after some various other experiences.  So maybe those were effecting my pleah light body center. 

it felt like all the energies did run, some better then others.  the pleah I could see and at first it was the size Daben said but as the guided mediation continued it seemed to grow large with the light rods going in and out of it, but all of them seemed to extend when he did his sound.  At first it was lightly pleasurable but the dull ache came later.  maybe since it's not used to being stimulated.  it does help to open the back of the head as has been suggested in the manual in the first 2 parts and this one too.  though it only helps for a short moment. 

I didn't notice but I think I did stop thinking for a while during this, after i felt like some burst of energy or something.  Duane describes it as breaking through the membrane into the void.

I also got some mental images.  i seemed to be setting in some sort of desk like they have in elementary schools.  Then I seemed to have no body and was flying across some sort of landscape that looked very vibrant. As I recall there was lots of grass around, the ground was very uneven.  I think there was a body of water at one point, but I'm not sure.  then I seemed to fly away from this area at a high pace.  part of the time the images were very small, maybe say a 2 inch square or something like that.

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I've made progress I can say.  No dream that I remembered, no lucid dream, but I was able to get to sleep while listening to the lucid dream guided meditation.  So that is something I could not do last time.

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I decided to try a past life hypnotic regression youtube video I had downloaded to see what I would get.  I got a bunch of things, even before I opened the door I started to get flashes, first person flashes.  When the guy doing the hypnotic thing said about remaining detached and just remaining the observer I got the feeling from soul that I would fully experience being there and not be just an observer.  The idea I got before is I'd likely not get any pasts, at least not yet, where I was doing nasty things or experiencing traumatic things since I've learned those lessons so why experience that again.  and when the guy was saying about being a reporter, ect. I did ask soul "you'd not let me experience anything to traumatic." and it said. <of course not.> then just as I opened the door <you'll experience several.>

I got a bunch of quick flashes, some of these came before I opened the door and some after I opened the door and stepped supposedly into a past life.  None of these seemed to be human.

the first 2 flashes I was having sex, and was really in the body of the person.  No idea if i was a male or female.  The first was some sort of merperson type, but the lower part felt more like a dolphin and not a fish.  then i was one of 2 dolphins having sex, again i was fully in the body, so it was first person.

Then some sort of forest, with huge trees, very very tall.  Either I could not see the sky or it was greenish.  Some sort of underwater.  sea shells on some water bottom, a bunch of small rounded stones under water.   Some merperson being given some sort of sonic treatment by what looked like dolphins around me in either a circle or semi circle.  the sensation of the treatment was very pleasurable, peaceful.  then I was one of the dolphin types doing some sort of sonic treatment with other dolphin type beings, giving some sort of sonic treatment to various sentient that came to us.  Though we were giving the sonic healing type treatment some of the effect was washing through us and it felt great, not like those getting the treatment.  Then I was some humanoid with a woman who sorta looked like a blue skinned humanoid type.  I could feel I we had an immense love for each other that went very deep, to the soul level perhaps.  We were at some sort of high tech controls with a large screen with some readouts and she looked like I had said some sort of joke but i came in a bit to late to hear what the joke was. her laughing seems to have caused me to start laughing after a short bit. 

Soul/higher self wasn't kidding when it said I'd get several. 

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I did the 2nd meditation again.  It went very well overall.  i have a slight headache again, but it is less then before.  and I can make it go away for a second or 2 at a time.  I guess it'll fade eventually.  I did go into the Piea and it felt great.  A sort of calming nothingness that felt sort of like the first step of home.  I either had no thoughts here or they were very slow to form.  Sorta hard to explain.  I could only remain here a few seconds or so at most. 

I wonder what tomorrow will bring since that'll be the last one, the 7th light body energy center. 

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had a brief conversation with soul. 

I feel like I may have become more like you maybe. I feel of humans prefer to live in fear then that is their choice.  It's not like I don't care. I feel like I do, hard to describe how I feel.  not uncaring, but willing to argue or change others minds or feelings.  let them be.  not sur ehow logn I've felt like this but noticed it a short time ago.  it feels normal.  Not that I wanted to argue with anyone a few weeks ago, but I dont' feel worked up or any real emotion.  hard to explain.

<yes, it is normal.  and finding it hard to find words is normal since many spiritual things, soul things do not have a concept in English.  you are becoming more like me, your soul.  Your true self.  Keep it up and you'll find you feel and think just like and are your true self.  Though you can also be an individual too at the same time.> 

Is that a paradox.  Me at my true self having a personality slightly different then you, and twin flame also?  <the personalities are really only a slight hair different.  but we souls (and I am including you and twin flame in this) can be a paradox, a living paradox.  Though better to think different parts of the same being.  Though you can become an aspect of me if you wish.>

no, I'd prefer to remain as an extension of my soul.  i am that aren't I?  <yes.  and you are free to remain as that.  though an extension and aspect is only slight different. it is complicated and simple at the same time.  Though you can remain an extension and still we can remain sometimes 3, sometimes 2, and sometimes 1.>

I like that idea.  <I do also, 3 of me to be intimate with, share with talk to and hang out.  though merging with 1 or 2 of you will be great.  We will miss having the others around and will merge and unmerge over time.>

So what'll it be like if I do merge with you or twin flame?  <there is a bit of a difference between those.  When we merge it'll be very pleasurable and inmate, you'll feel like you are expanding, become more and more of your true self.  With your twin it'll feel like a missing half, like you are becoming complete, though you were complete before.  As pleasurable and intimate, though at a deeper level, so to speak, deeper maybe primal. neither word is correct but sorta close. unlike the 2 of us since we are already the same being, we are not really separated in the way twin flame is from us.  we are just to spots of a multi dimensional being.  >  

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had an interesting experience again.  Soul and I were sorta mentally hugging and kissing while i was watching the brony show, like the observer was watching the brony show.  and for a few seconds i thought, cool, since I could not remember which i was, was I the part of the soul who was not incarnated or the part that was incarnated in a human body. or those few seconds I couldn't tell.  When the experiences ended soul seemed very happy this happened.  i got the impression he thought <good> that that had happened.  he was hoping it would happen I think.

What was that thing where I could not tell or remember which I was, the non incarnated or incarnated part of the soul or being. 

<For a moment, or a few seconds the last time, all the human layers were pealed away and you were your true self.>

But not knowing which I was. What if that happened and say the effect was permanent, or I wasn't?

<If you were not incarnated, when you're not you'll not have the human parts to peel away.  You'd be the true you already> 

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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6:44 PM  


Thought I would try to connect to my higher self/soul today instead of my guide since working with the ligh body centers today has let me with a slight headache each time I did the meditation.

<Your guided quite understands and agrees. Better to be safe then to connect and cause you another headache. Don't try to much at once. >

Those flashes i had of those places & being in the various bodies, when I tried the past life guided hypnosis.

<Those were all of the same world, and some incarnations there, 3 to be in fact. >

the 3 total, favorites, or randomly chosen? <there were more then 3 there, those were the , most unique. 1 per race, so to speak. Just a glimpse.>

That sonic stuff the dolphin type beings were doing, including when I was one of them. <yes, it's not really sound, but what one can call an equivalent thing, somewhat. We can do that ourselves, or there are certain crystals that resonate in harmonic vibration that can enhance the effect that are used at times. Though when I say we there is a difference between the soul level and the pod. Though the differences can be hard to exactly say since say one could travel to where the pod is then what some may call the soul plane or soul realms, back and forth at will like some do. So that does blur the exact distinction. Exactness is not really important after all.>

So I'm one of those? <dolphin like beings, at what some may call the soul level yes, and you do recall being that, through the memories of former soul. One benefit of being a new/old soul. Though you have memories from former soul and the soul former soul as part of. it can be complicated but I think you understand.> yes, i do think I do.

So what will things be like after this. will I be allowed to not return if i don't want to since i don't feel like I do want to incarnate. <you can not incarnate if you don't want to. The progress point you are at some could say is at the point where most do choose to not incarnate, besides this new us is of the type that is not inclined to incarnate, unlike before.>

So karma won't come into it? <no, for various reasons, the karma system is or will be changed, besides there are various things in place you can just go once it's all over if you wish.>

Then what will things be like for me after this is over? <if you need to go through a recuperation period you may experience awakening in a type of hospital, someone visiting you will be one of your close soul family or closer and will be there to take you home. or if you do not need that you may go home straight away. As for the rest of eternity, you'll do what you enjoy doing the most and we'll go between being 3 beings, 2 , and 1. Since we are all 1 soul after all. Though the urge and desire for us to merge will grow over time or we may just decide to do that. we'll still miss, after a time, the others being around outside ourselves. So it'll flow between those. sometimes, 1, 2, or 3. Those are the rough details. >

Thanks, i think this is enough for now. Even though your energy is, of course perfectly compatible with mine, I don't want to do much today. <yes, since we are 1 soul, our energy is always perfectly compatible, and I'm always around since you are always around you. and where you are I am too.>

Sunday [4-5]

Had an interesting, and very pleasurable, experience this morning. I awoke early and tried to get back to sleep, but was unable to.  I felt my higher self/soul come to me and hug me close as I lay there.  Sort of like I was in my body but also somewhere else at the same time, or some part of me, light body, or something, had been pulled out by the embrace.

We hugged each other. I don't recall the entire conversation.  But I asked him, and we both looked like a sorta cross between anthro dolphins and anthro beluga whales. I asked why we looked like this and he kissed me saying if we were anthro dolphins it's harder for us to kiss like this.   I then asked if are my higher self or soul.  I felt a sorta conflict, both, sorta feeling and he said think of him as both. part my soul and part my higher self.  I said something like souls do like being intimate.  This whole time I felt a type of non sexual intimacy with some sexual overtones being slowly added in.  Love/pleasure/joy type feeling.

Then it took a more erotic bent.  He reached down to start caressing my genital slit that dolphins have.  he started to say something like, yes, we will have sex one day, both him and my soul with me.  I don't recall what he said next.  he reached a finger into my genital slip and started to rub around.  saying something like to relax, enjoy the experience, surrender to my soul, something like that but I don't recall his exact words. 

Then it suddenly wasn't him, but my soul that was there.  I knew this at a deep instinctive level somehow.  The pleasure, joy intimacy, love, increased a huge amount.  the intimacy was both non sexual and sexual at the same time.  I also felt parts of myself dissolving into him, maybe not the right term but it is the closest I can describe it. It was hard to think, but part of me did manage to sorta ask, why anthro beluga, and gender.  Soul answered it was from a past life, former incarnation.  Then even more of me dissolved into it.  though it seemed a small part of me resisted.  It had feelings and was thinking I don't want to loose my individuality, my identity.  The experience continued with most of me dissolved, or whatever it was, into my soul, the pleasure/love/joy/intimacy (both sexual and non sexual) was still there that I was experiencing, very high amounts but I felt patience also, like it was wiling to wait for something, and if it took a long time then that was ok, it could wait. that small part of me didn't pull back or try to get out, but stayed where it was.

It felt like this continued a few seconds or maybe 10 or 30, not sure of the time that passed.  Then that small part of me reached a new decision.  It thought to itself and to my soul something like (and I don't recall the exact words) "ok, i'll allow myself to be dissolved, fully merged, integrated into my soul.  I surrender my very being, identity and me, into my soul."  then it felt like that part of me did dissolve or whatever into my soul.  Like most of me knew I would not cease to exist but that tiny bit did that I didn't know about.  Though I didn't cease to exist.  I knew I would not, but that tiny bit thought that would happen.  Instead I was my soul, totally.  it felt like I was very happy, ecstatic.  Something very important had happened.  The time was right and it had happened and it was very happy, ecstatic that it had happened. Even the bit of me that was in my physical body was my soul totally, not me.

Then I was reconstituted, or whatever the term is.  then the soul/higher self appeared again, hugging and caressing me.  He said to me like, "You've taken a very important first step.   a very important one."  then he caressed and kissed me a bit and the experience ended, sorta in a fading way, not poof.

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After a while that I was laying down to take a nap.  Then after a while I could feel soul/higher self hugging me from behind, our cheeks touching and I think our rostrums were touching on one point.  No sexualness to any of this, just a feeling of sharing nonsexual intimacy, closeness, that sort of thing.  No idea how long we remained like that.  I did feel the body inside and it felt like from the chest up we both were anthro dolphins and from around the abdominal area down dolphin, or some sort of dolphin type being. 

I noticed I felt very relaxed and just enjoyed the experienced.  It felt like we were perhaps swaying a bit side to side.  Then I noticed that I heard a sound that felt like it was going through me, and I could feel it also, now that I was aware of it.  It did feel part of the relaxation I was feeling was from this, but not all of it perhaps.  I then asked him, I just use him since maybe he is/was a herm at the time, perhaps I was I don't know.  Not really important.


I asked him if he was the one making that sound and he said, "mmhmmm, relaxing isn't it." he said, the intent was mostly serious, with a bit of non seriousness to it.  I asked if he could teach me how to do that and he said sure, once I'm on the other side with him since the human throat is not capable of making such sounds.

Then he talked about there are beings that are music.  There are places of music... he didn't go on, like English was incapable of describing the beauty of such places.  I remarked that he'd have to give me a tour once I was over there.  He said sure, he'd be sure to bring along some that I was the closest to since such places should not be experienced the first time alone.  I asked that once this incarnation is over won't I remember those places, he said yes, but remembering is nothing like experiencing them for the first time.

Overall a great experience.  I look forward to experiencing such places.  I have a feeling, mental image too, vague though it is.  crystals, very large crystals.  Various races come to sit and relax so they can listen to, feel, experience the sounds.  Some places not far from where the pod is at or can easily get to? 

not sure, just a sorta mental impression.
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I did the first meditation of part 3. And I'm a day ahead of schedule.  This was the Traeo.  It went well in my estimation.  Running the energy went the same as usual.  The nua I felt went well, the 2nd and 3rd went about like usual, not as well as the nua, but that is ok.  the mumin and heart center (ranthia) went very well, especially in the ranthia, I could feel it responding more to what daben was doing then before. 

The throat center went well also.  I could feel it, and the pedals, like they were floating and when he did his sound for the traeo I could feel my throat vibrating and the pedals as well.  During the time he did this I could feel there was a small spot in my throat that was responding the most.  Then later it felt like that spot was vibrating continuously.  And there was sorta a wave of energy and there was a spot a bit above the vocal cords area that was where the pedals were taking the energy.  hard to describe.  But overall I'd say it went very well for the first time I did this.

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I did the 1st meditation of part 3. The Traeo.  It went well.  I felt less energy for the nua, but I did feel some for the 2nd and 3rd.  The rest went well.  The traeo I felt the whole thing vibrating.  I still feel a bit of something in my throat area.  The fact the neighbors are playing loud music didn't bother me to much. 

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     I decided to order a single meditation from the Orin and Daben site on Lucid Dreaming.  I hope that I can have those and maybe hope me to remember my dreams and perhaps understand then.

When I did I felt a kiss of my soul/higher self.  I said to him, "you are joyous." I said since I could feel it was joyous.  It said it is impossible to not be.  I mentioned that it is loving also.  it then hugged and kissed me.   I asked if it would can you teach me to be also.

It said the course I'm taking would help with that.  But it would also be happy to help teach me to become my true self.  Who I really am, though I may not be fully aware of who and what I am, I would be soon be aware of who and what I really am.


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I felt my soul/higher self kissing me again, then hugging me.  and it was talking to me.  <YOu can feel the joy within your heart center?>  I could feel that.  <you intellectually know you and 1 are one being, you have felt it before.  But you've not experiencing it.> it said then it started to kiss me and hug me again.  <who started this hug and kiss and who is hugging and kissing who?>  it asked and for a second or 2 I couldn't remember who had started this or exactly which I was.

<good.  like before.  Only a moment but a start, a good start.  For a moment you were not sure which exactly you were.  For a moment you experienced us as the 1 being we are, or you almost did.>

you mean 1 being in 2 bodies, though you are not really in a body are you?

<3, and technically this could be considered a body.>

"3? oh yes, I forgot about twin flame."

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Felt soul/higher self near me so I asked a few more questions.

"can you help me to experience that we are 1 being?"  <yes.>

"you me and twin flame, to experience the 1 being that we are?"  <yes>

"and within this incarnation?"  <yes.>

"to not just intellectually know, or feel, but to be fully consciously aware of that, fully awake I guess it would be. some hesitation, <yes, though the further courses may help.  Fully awakening will entail you having no veil, and being the soul, instead of the human conditioning you've picked up. we are 1 being, but also 3 beings.  1 soul but 3 beings.>

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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3:42 PM 


Just a very short one this time. Since there are 4 5 minute audio files I thought I'd do all 4 scattered over the day. This first one I only asked really a few questions, kept something over my eyes since I wanted to focus on the experience, what does it feel like ect instead of trying to ask as many questions as I can in 5 minutes since Daben was not asking any questions. Seemed to be one designed so the listener could ask their own questions if they wanted.

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Do you have any suggestions for what I should do? <continue as you are doing now and plan for the near future. You have done better then you expected you would. It is always a good mark when you do better then you expected to do. >

What is our connection through the soul heritage you mentioned before? <the common soul ancestor is what you have refereed to as soul 3. one line, if you wish to call it that, incarnated as arcturians, and another as a... what would be called a dolphin cetacean type being on earth. Then some what you call aspects created a soul, this one had an aspect that later you were a part of. So we can trace our common soul ancestor back to what you call soul 3.>

For some who may read this and find it confusing. I did a meditation, forgot which one, were I tried to reach back through my soul heritage. what I call soul 1 was direct from source. it had some experiences then decided to return to source, a part of it, or an aspect decided not to since there was an infinity of experiences and things to do. This i call soul 2. Then there was a soul 3, that had been an aspect of 2, or maybe 2 created 3, I'm not exactly sure on this. Soul 3 had some incarnation, including non earth cetacans and other beings. 4 of it's external aspects created a soul. this soul had an external aspect that later went independent that had various incarnations. Including one line that he created since he wished to explore love in it's various dimensions (so to speak). So he took a part of himself and incarnated as 2 beings that over time became twin flames as they choose to explore the love between them in various ways. parents, lovers, one a parent one a child, siblings, ect. Me being one of those. Apparently. This is based partially on what my non incarnated twin flame said also.

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4:52 PM

2nd attempt:

are you currently incarnated?: Not at present. I am uncertain if I'll incarnate or not. I have moved past that, but a particular interest could get me to choose to incarnate again.

any tips to help with the connecting with you, my soul or the dragoness (one of my soul parents)?: put aside doubts and just let the experience flow. look back weeks and months from not to re read what you are getting here. continued practice and connecting regularly also will be of large help, instead of just now and then.

So what will things be like for me other there anyway?" much like here, but with no veil and such. Love. You'll be able to pick what things you wish to do. Not since you have to do to earn a living, but because you love to do those things you choose to do. Your family and friends at the soul level are quite a large number. The pod is just one of them. Your natural form, if you wish to use such for a soul, is as you've experienced, that of a what on earth I believe is called a dolphin or cetacean. though the human imprint may leave an impression on you for a while after the incarnation is ended. Though in truth you can look like you want, most just keep to 1 appearance usually.

Trust in yourself, do not fear. those are key first steps. Do as you are doing on the awakening the light body course. Learning and discovering more of yourself. Under the layers built up from being incarnated there. Get to your true self underneath. Trust in yourself, and love are among the keys to do so.

I'll go now before it's to long since I do believe you will do the other 2 short meditations later today.

----- here I decided to see if I could try to connect to the one I call the dragoness, one of my soul parents I think:

So you have taken an interest in me? Dragoness: I'm not really a guide nor have the training one has. You are of my soul lineage, one of my soul children, offspring one could say so that does make connecting easier. As for my interest you are on the path to awaken so why would I not wish to help one of my soul offspring to use an earth type term. Though things are better if you do most of the stuff and discover them yourselves, I am not adverse to helping if you ask, you only need ask, but I prefer more subtle means then obvious ones.

So are you eastern or western dragon?" the term doesn't apply to me technically since I am a soul at a certain level, but I have been both. Exactly which one doesn't' really matter. Think of yourself as 3, unicorn, dragon, and cetacean, it keeps things a bit simpler that way. Instead of seeking exact types. the cetacean could be considered a type of say dolphin orca, beluga whale, but why apply exact labels to things. The dimensions do not signs or labels here. Say once you get to the 7th dimension you won't see a sign saying welcome to the 7th dimension. The exact differences between 2 can be vague, and there may be degradians within 1 dimension. so why try to add labels to everything.

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8:02 PM 

I think you should wait a while before doing the 4th or next one, since to much in one day is not fully productive and one does not want to do to much in one day.

As for the dolphin type beings that are part of your heritage and you have experienced. They are known to be what some would call sonic or sound engineers and healers. they can do many things with sound and use special certain crystals that enhance and can be used with certain frequencies to do certain things. You've experienced one of these things consciously in the crystal booth and another this morning but this was more for play or non serious. There are many other things but one doesn't need all the details at once. better to get them over time.

continue exploring and getting to know yourself and yourself at the soul level, both as yourself and yourself as a soul, the soul that you are since your soul and you are already one. it's just a question of focus. Which you'll learn quickly enough if you stick with the courses and continue and do not give up and put doubt aside. At the proper time you can deal with doubt itself. Look at the after effects this has on you, not on how accurate the information is, but the long term effects and how you feel inside and deal with the world you are incarnated in at the moment.

There is much you can accomplish with this course and others afterwards. Much you can accomplish that you do not yet know, or suspect. you'll do great and fantastically. Surprise yourself at your own success and how well you are doing and will do in the future.