Wedensday [4-8]

Think I'll continue saving up for more courses.  I'm saving up towards the 2nd channeling course.  If the first one goes really well then I'll buy the 2nd one.  I think after that I'll be saving up to see if i can get 5 and 6 in the same month.  I'd like to do that.  and or the 3 celebrations of initiation across 2 months. though with those it looks like it'll take a month to do each of the 3 twice.  I think though that once I finish the 3 ceremonies of initiation I'll go over those again like I plan on doing the awakening the light body.  I may get some new experiences if I go over the meditations again once i finish the course.  If I go into the 2nd light body course I'll do the same thing.  Once I get done with that I'll go back over everything, all the light body courses.  If I do i think that would take a bit over 3 months.  I can use those times to save up towards the dentist, and or towards the next course.  While I am doing 2 I may save up and buy maybe 3 a bit here and there.  I may even do 3 as a side course.  So it may take 2 or 3 months to do a part of the 3rd course once.  Plenty of time to think this stuff over.  And once I do stop purchasing courses from them if I want to only repeat my favorites, repeat them all, or some combination.  I'll decide that later.

I do wonder if all this is helping me to grow or evolve spiritually or not.  I think it is.

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Not that the earth is a bad place, but I do feel like I'm here to do a job and I'm out of here once the incarnation is over. 

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No lucid dream yet.  I'm starting to wonder if I have whatever it takes inside me to lucid dream.  Not that I'm saying I have anything wrong.  But maybe it's like projecting.  I just can't lucid dream or project since I don't have whatever elements are required in my make up. 

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I did the 4th mediation of part 3.  It went pretty well I think overall.  Running the energy went well I would say.  I did some of the first 2 while Daben was talking before he started doing the nua. 

With the 7th center I did feel the pressure, but it was gone once the mediation was over.  As for the cocoon I did feel at first like it just went down to where the nua was and that was it, then shortly after it extended all the way down to my feet and came up to the nua.

The manual talks about doing the energies and the meditations at least once without listening to Daben.  I think I'll do the audio a 2nd time like normal, but tomorrow and maybe tonight.  I'll try to run the energies for all 7, and follow the cocoon tonight, tomorrow morning, on the bus and tomorrow night.  Starting part 5 on Friday.  No hurry after all.

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I do wonder how high these courses can take me.  guess there's only 1 way to find out. 

Though that aside I do wonder what things will be like for me over there really.  With an eternity to do things.  How big is my family & friends, including any lovers and those I feel close to. What skills do I have, what pastimes? 

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I did the 4th meditation of part 3 again.  I think I'll try to run the energy tonight and tomorrow without listening to the audio.  I think if I am satisfied I may listen to part 5 tomorrow evening, but I may decide instead to wait till friday.  It depends.  I'll decide tomorrow once I get home.

overall it went very well.  I didn't feel the energy of the nua much, but the rest I did feel better then usual.  When he did the throat center I could feel the vibrations going from mid chest and up.  and the renawre cocoon I could feel the whole thing from the top to the bottom and under my feet to it coming up to the nua to form a complete circuit.  Felt like part way through that I went deep but not to deep so I was still fully conscious and focusing on what he was saying and following along.    overall I'd say it went very well. 

I wonder, if the first 3 energy centers mainly influence & control the energy body, and the upper 3 do the mental body.  Do the 3 light body centers influence and control something else, the light body, or something else? 

I also read in the celebrations of initiation courses that the emotional body will be replaced by the bliss body I think it called it and the mental with the another one.  Interesting idea.  i guess they mean spiritually evolving up the next step or something.

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It felt like my soul was glad that I was having fun earlier.  I wonder, what do souls do for fun.  I think I got a message of my soul saying something like <sometime I'll pull you up here and show you first hand.>  I wonder if that is allowed.  Think i got <of course it's allowed> with a pretty strong blast of love. 

I asked if I could live up here with it, think I got, <of course.> then another message, <you'll be surprised at how much progress you make in a year.> I look forward to April 8th of 2016. 

I also then got <you'll one day be just like me.  Soon enough, sooner then you think.  Think of the celebrations when you come to live up here with me for good.> 

So that's allowed, an extension moving up to the soul plane or wherever it is that you live?  <of course, eventually many choose to move here.  You can travel back and forth to and from here once you live here.  Not like you're stuck here.> 

So the orin and daben courses will help to make me more like you? <with my help.  We won't so much as help make you like me, but uncover more and more of your true self which is exactly like me, but you will still be an individual.  You'll love it here, you'll see.> 

Can you help to strengthen our connection so i can channel and talk to you whenever and so i can be you, or my true soul self? <I've already started doing that stuff.> 

Just what is that soul/higher self being? <it is me, just an easier method for me to interact with you.  an extension or vehicle body think that lets me more easily interact with you.> 

I see, so I am both you and an individual at the same time?  <certainly you got it right the first time.  That is great.> 
<I look forward to when you'll be here with me as an equal.  Believe me, it'll be great and it won't take long, not as long as you think. You'll be surprised, believe me.> 

Ok, I do believe you. It'll be a short time. But my or your perspective? <both.  I can choose to perceive time as you do if I choose.  Though you'll be very very surprised at how fast it happens.> 

So do souls indulge in what some may call spiritual sex, sharing? <Certainly.  Souls are intimate and love sharing in many ways.  Sharing pleasure and love is but one of many things we can do for fun.  I'll be happy to be the first, to introduce you to the ways of things here and some of the pleasures here.  and fun also.>

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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7:27 PM

 
Now I'll attempt to do the 20th audio in the audio course opening to channel. I wonder how it'll go. I bet Orin will go to fast to type up a full reply. I"ll see if I can just pause it. Also I think I may retry this again maybe.

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What is my life purpose right now? <Your life purpose is mainly 2 things. 1 thing you don't need to do anything about, the channeling energy to the earth grid is done automatically.

The other is to awaken as fully as you can. Trust in yourself, keep up and do not give up. look deep within yourself. The courses you take can help, as long as you can afford them. They are more ???? focused ???? then looking elsewhere and spending time looking around for things. This has stuff in 1 place, but is more pricey, so give up some stuff to gain some stuff. In time you may become as aware as your soul is. Every day you open up more to your true self and your soul self. Keep it up.


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What are my lessons right now? Learning to trust yourself and trust in yourself. As well as opening up to yourself, your true self that is within. So basically trust and opening up, to yourself. the other things pertain to these 2 and are referral or other aspects of one of these 2 primary things.


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How can I create more abundance in my life? Do not turn away possibilities as they come up. They will come up over time at certain intervals. Say when you are at a good time or spot to do one one may open up and you could take it. Trusting in yourself and the universe, all that is, is key.

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Are there any thoughts & beliefs I need to change? The primary ones are trusting in yourself, trusting in the universe and your soul and what will be provided, and you can get what you want the key is if it aligned with what the true you wants that will be possible then, but you must believe it is possible and trust in it when it comes up as an opportunity.


I'm not in a relationship with anyone so I'll skip that one. On second thought i'll try my soul. See what I get.
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What am I learning in my relationship with (my soul)? You are learning to open up to your true self, becoming your true self and not just the human skin or shell that seems to have been the true you for all these years and decades. it is being dissolved and pealed away, go with the progress and what is happening, things will be more pleasant, fun, and will go much smoother and be easier. Be watchful and you'll help this along immensely.

what is the higher purpose of this relationship? I think that has been answered already as part of the answer to the above.

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How can I server this person's spiritual growth (bet I know the answer to this one): Trust in yourself and help the process along as much as you can. Help make it smoother and easier, more fun and pleasurable for both.

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any message about something happening in my life right now: The thing with the rpg and the feeling is telling you something about yourself and the relationship of the group to you and to others in the group. Look at this and how you want things to be and act accordingly. I think the dwarven fighter cleric may be a good choice overall, if things go well. Search for your greatest pleasure within the limits set and stick with that and don't venture outside that.

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How might I improve my channeling? keep practicing remain open. Do channeling regularly if not daily. Keep up the talking and typing. Typing is easiest since you are taking down what i am saying to you mentally, speaking will help in other ways like deepening it in certain ways and opening up other possibilities. Better if you could practice one at a time, but things and circumstances do not allow that at present. So your attention is divided to an extent. Try to relax the speaking and let it happen. It'll grow more natural for us both over time as will the typing. and I get more attuned and fine tune things as you will as well. Though at present you may not be aware of your fine tuning of certain things.

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How can I best express my creativity? By drawing, even doodling, learning to draw will help, though you've not developed it. That will take time and perhaps another guide can help in that area. Writing fiction may help as well, and making up backgrounds for your characters, the various ones you rp.

other ways may come to you over time. Feel free to explore those possibilities as well.

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How can I achieve more inner peace? What you are doing at present is working well in that area. pay attention to any feelings you have within and search for the root cause and deal with that.

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how may I strengthen my contact with my soul and higher self? The best is to keep what you are doing in the course, light body course. Also you can do some of the opening to channel and if you next course, with a focus on channeling your soul or higher self, as you are me, this will help in this way as well, hand in hand with the opening to channel and the light body courses. It may be smoother and easier.

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how can I be more loving & nurturing to myself: Try to keep doing what you are doing, and feel free to go back as needed and deal with certain feelings as they come up as well sending love to yourself and allowing yourself to feel love and that you are loved when you do feel those feelings as you do feel them when you are more sensitive to such things.

it's not that you are not loved at other times, just that you are not a sensitive to that then at other times.

also be fair to yourself.

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What is the single most important thing I need to focus on in the next 6 months that fits my higher purpose? 2 things, trust of yourself, trust & looking within.

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what is the 2nd more important thing: looking within.

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what am I learning in the experience of the Thursday rpg group? learning to have fun and pleasure within rigid grounds and help others to have fun, or enhance their fun also.

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what can i do spiritually, physically and emotionally to connect more closely with my higher self and soul? pay attention to the foods your body likes and does not like. Leave yourself some time to relax and have fun as you have been doing. put the spiritual stuff first like you have been doing. In short keep doing what you are doing, look for ways to improve or be more efficient in those areas and the time allowed.

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He sent one last message before leaving:

Trust in yourself, what is normal is normal, as unusual as it may be.

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Overall I think it went very well.