I tried the lucid dreaming guided mediation last night and it didn't work. it actually kept me from going to sleep till I stopped listening to it and turned on the clock radio. I'll try it a few more times and if it still doesn't work I"ll mark it up as something about me that just can't lucid dream.
Maybe it's genetic, mental, or something at the soul level where I just can't lucid dream. If this <censored> veil were not in place I could member if I have any ability to lucid dream or not and it would save me some time. I frankly don't see why anyone willingly incarnates here. I certainly would not. And if those who say, oh you choose to come here, everyone does. My soul memory says otherwise and my guide, that I've learned how to start channeling, did also say that.
I was a merged with former soul, who didn't tell me everything. He left certain things out and I was not a separate being while I was merged with him. Hard to explain what I know. I'd have to start making up new English words since they are inadequacy. but that was part of what caused the schism some may say why I wanted to eventually split from former soul. and the guide & maybe soul or soul knowledge would show that I'd not do that. It's not part of who and what I am to do that.
and it still feels like indeed soul has gone independent from what was current soul, the one that Dan and Stan are external aspects of. Not from any bad feelings or his leaving things out, just it didn't work out for the long term, but was needed for the short term. Something about my starting the awakening the light body changed that, which the dragoness saw would be better for me so subtly nudged me towards that. Not that I could Orin and Daben as guides since they never talk to me, or anything. non responsive teachers maybe. non responsive since on the audios they can't respond.
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I've made progress I can say. No dream that I remembered, no lucid dream, but I was able to get to sleep while listening to the lucid dream guided meditation. So that is something I could not do last time.
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I did the 2nd meditation of the 3rd part. Neat to think when I get done with this in 10 days I'll be half way through the awakening the light body course.
Overall I'd say it went very well. I was surprised that the Pleah, the 6th center is not where the 3rd eye is but in the center, or near the center of the head. I do feel a dull sorta ache there. I have felt it before after some various other experiences. So maybe those were effecting my pleah light body center.
it felt like all the energies did run, some better then others. the pleah I could see and at first it was the size Daben said but as the guided mediation continued it seemed to grow large with the light rods going in and out of it, but all of them seemed to extend when he did his sound. At first it was lightly pleasurable but the dull ache came later. maybe since it's not used to being stimulated. it does help to open the back of the head as has been suggested in the manual in the first 2 parts and this one too. though it only helps for a short moment.
I didn't notice but I think I did stop thinking for a while during this, after i felt like some burst of energy or something. Duane describes it as breaking through the membrane into the void.
I also got some mental images. i seemed to be setting in some sort of desk like they have in elementary schools. Then I seemed to have no body and was flying across some sort of landscape that looked very vibrant. As I recall there was lots of grass around, the ground was very uneven. I think there was a body of water at one point, but I'm not sure. then I seemed to fly away from this area at a high pace. part of the time the images were very small, maybe say a 2 inch square or something like that.
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I've made progress I can say. No dream that I remembered, no lucid dream, but I was able to get to sleep while listening to the lucid dream guided meditation. So that is something I could not do last time.
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I decided to try a past life hypnotic regression youtube video I had downloaded to see what I would get. I got a bunch of things, even before I opened the door I started to get flashes, first person flashes. When the guy doing the hypnotic thing said about remaining detached and just remaining the observer I got the feeling from soul that I would fully experience being there and not be just an observer. The idea I got before is I'd likely not get any pasts, at least not yet, where I was doing nasty things or experiencing traumatic things since I've learned those lessons so why experience that again. and when the guy was saying about being a reporter, ect. I did ask soul "you'd not let me experience anything to traumatic." and it said. <of course not.> then just as I opened the door <you'll experience several.>
I got a bunch of quick flashes, some of these came before I opened the door and some after I opened the door and stepped supposedly into a past life. None of these seemed to be human.
the first 2 flashes I was having sex, and was really in the body of the person. No idea if i was a male or female. The first was some sort of merperson type, but the lower part felt more like a dolphin and not a fish. then i was one of 2 dolphins having sex, again i was fully in the body, so it was first person.
Then some sort of forest, with huge trees, very very tall. Either I could not see the sky or it was greenish. Some sort of underwater. sea shells on some water bottom, a bunch of small rounded stones under water. Some merperson being given some sort of sonic treatment by what looked like dolphins around me in either a circle or semi circle. the sensation of the treatment was very pleasurable, peaceful. then I was one of the dolphin types doing some sort of sonic treatment with other dolphin type beings, giving some sort of sonic treatment to various sentient that came to us. Though we were giving the sonic healing type treatment some of the effect was washing through us and it felt great, not like those getting the treatment. Then I was some humanoid with a woman who sorta looked like a blue skinned humanoid type. I could feel I we had an immense love for each other that went very deep, to the soul level perhaps. We were at some sort of high tech controls with a large screen with some readouts and she looked like I had said some sort of joke but i came in a bit to late to hear what the joke was. her laughing seems to have caused me to start laughing after a short bit.
Soul/higher self wasn't kidding when it said I'd get several.
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I did the 2nd meditation again. It went very well overall. i have a slight headache again, but it is less then before. and I can make it go away for a second or 2 at a time. I guess it'll fade eventually. I did go into the Piea and it felt great. A sort of calming nothingness that felt sort of like the first step of home. I either had no thoughts here or they were very slow to form. Sorta hard to explain. I could only remain here a few seconds or so at most.
I wonder what tomorrow will bring since that'll be the last one, the 7th light body energy center.
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had a brief conversation with soul.
I feel like I may have become more like you maybe. I feel of humans prefer to live in fear then that is their choice. It's not like I don't care. I feel like I do, hard to describe how I feel. not uncaring, but willing to argue or change others minds or feelings. let them be. not sur ehow logn I've felt like this but noticed it a short time ago. it feels normal. Not that I wanted to argue with anyone a few weeks ago, but I dont' feel worked up or any real emotion. hard to explain.
<yes, it is normal. and finding it hard to find words is normal since many spiritual things, soul things do not have a concept in English. you are becoming more like me, your soul. Your true self. Keep it up and you'll find you feel and think just like and are your true self. Though you can also be an individual too at the same time.>
Is that a paradox. Me at my true self having a personality slightly different then you, and twin flame also? <the personalities are really only a slight hair different. but we souls (and I am including you and twin flame in this) can be a paradox, a living paradox. Though better to think different parts of the same being. Though you can become an aspect of me if you wish.>
no, I'd prefer to remain as an extension of my soul. i am that aren't I? <yes. and you are free to remain as that. though an extension and aspect is only slight different. it is complicated and simple at the same time. Though you can remain an extension and still we can remain sometimes 3, sometimes 2, and sometimes 1.>
I like that idea. <I do also, 3 of me to be intimate with, share with talk to and hang out. though merging with 1 or 2 of you will be great. We will miss having the others around and will merge and unmerge over time.>
So what'll it be like if I do merge with you or twin flame? <there is a bit of a difference between those. When we merge it'll be very pleasurable and inmate, you'll feel like you are expanding, become more and more of your true self. With your twin it'll feel like a missing half, like you are becoming complete, though you were complete before. As pleasurable and intimate, though at a deeper level, so to speak, deeper maybe primal. neither word is correct but sorta close. unlike the 2 of us since we are already the same being, we are not really separated in the way twin flame is from us. we are just to spots of a multi dimensional being. >
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had an interesting experience again. Soul and I were sorta mentally hugging and kissing while i was watching the brony show, like the observer was watching the brony show. and for a few seconds i thought, cool, since I could not remember which i was, was I the part of the soul who was not incarnated or the part that was incarnated in a human body. or those few seconds I couldn't tell. When the experiences ended soul seemed very happy this happened. i got the impression he thought <good> that that had happened. he was hoping it would happen I think.
What was that thing where I could not tell or remember which I was, the non incarnated or incarnated part of the soul or being.
<For a moment, or a few seconds the last time, all the human layers were pealed away and you were your true self.>
But not knowing which I was. What if that happened and say the effect was permanent, or I wasn't?
<If you were not incarnated, when you're not you'll not have the human parts to peel away. You'd be the true you already>
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[note
from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going
through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.
This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of
the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts
in.
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6:44 PM
Thought I would try to connect to my higher self/soul today instead of
my guide since working with the ligh body centers today has let me with a
slight headache each time I did the meditation.
<Your guided quite understands and agrees. Better to be safe then to
connect and cause you another headache. Don't try to much at once.
>
Those flashes i had of those places & being in the various bodies, when I tried the past life guided hypnosis.
<Those were all of the same world, and some incarnations there, 3 to be in fact. >
the 3 total, favorites, or randomly chosen? <there were more then 3
there, those were the , most unique. 1 per race, so to speak. Just a
glimpse.>
That sonic stuff the dolphin type beings were doing, including when I
was one of them. <yes, it's not really sound, but what one can call
an equivalent thing, somewhat. We can do that ourselves, or there are
certain crystals that resonate in harmonic vibration that can enhance
the effect that are used at times. Though when I say we there is a
difference between the soul level and the pod. Though the differences
can be hard to exactly say since say one could travel to where the pod
is then what some may call the soul plane or soul realms, back and forth
at will like some do. So that does blur the exact distinction.
Exactness is not really important after all.>
So I'm one of those? <dolphin like beings, at what some may call the
soul level yes, and you do recall being that, through the memories of
former soul. One benefit of being a new/old soul. Though you have
memories from former soul and the soul former soul as part of. it can be
complicated but I think you understand.> yes, i do think I do.
So what will things be like after this. will I be allowed to not return
if i don't want to since i don't feel like I do want to incarnate.
<you can not incarnate if you don't want to. The progress point you
are at some could say is at the point where most do choose to not
incarnate, besides this new us is of the type that is not inclined to
incarnate, unlike before.>
So karma won't come into it? <no, for various reasons, the karma
system is or will be changed, besides there are various things in place
you can just go once it's all over if you wish.>
Then what will things be like for me after this is over? <if you need
to go through a recuperation period you may experience awakening in a
type of hospital, someone visiting you will be one of your close soul
family or closer and will be there to take you home. or if you do not
need that you may go home straight away. As for the rest of eternity,
you'll do what you enjoy doing the most and we'll go between being 3
beings, 2 , and 1. Since we are all 1 soul after all. Though the urge
and desire for us to merge will grow over time or we may just decide to
do that. we'll still miss, after a time, the others being around outside
ourselves. So it'll flow between those. sometimes, 1, 2, or 3. Those
are the rough details. >
Thanks, i think this is enough for now. Even though your energy is, of
course perfectly compatible with mine, I don't want to do much today.
<yes, since we are 1 soul, our energy is always perfectly compatible,
and I'm always around since you are always around you. and where you
are I am too.>
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