Sunday [4-5]

Had an interesting, and very pleasurable, experience this morning. I awoke early and tried to get back to sleep, but was unable to.  I felt my higher self/soul come to me and hug me close as I lay there.  Sort of like I was in my body but also somewhere else at the same time, or some part of me, light body, or something, had been pulled out by the embrace.

We hugged each other. I don't recall the entire conversation.  But I asked him, and we both looked like a sorta cross between anthro dolphins and anthro beluga whales. I asked why we looked like this and he kissed me saying if we were anthro dolphins it's harder for us to kiss like this.   I then asked if are my higher self or soul.  I felt a sorta conflict, both, sorta feeling and he said think of him as both. part my soul and part my higher self.  I said something like souls do like being intimate.  This whole time I felt a type of non sexual intimacy with some sexual overtones being slowly added in.  Love/pleasure/joy type feeling.

Then it took a more erotic bent.  He reached down to start caressing my genital slit that dolphins have.  he started to say something like, yes, we will have sex one day, both him and my soul with me.  I don't recall what he said next.  he reached a finger into my genital slip and started to rub around.  saying something like to relax, enjoy the experience, surrender to my soul, something like that but I don't recall his exact words. 

Then it suddenly wasn't him, but my soul that was there.  I knew this at a deep instinctive level somehow.  The pleasure, joy intimacy, love, increased a huge amount.  the intimacy was both non sexual and sexual at the same time.  I also felt parts of myself dissolving into him, maybe not the right term but it is the closest I can describe it. It was hard to think, but part of me did manage to sorta ask, why anthro beluga, and gender.  Soul answered it was from a past life, former incarnation.  Then even more of me dissolved into it.  though it seemed a small part of me resisted.  It had feelings and was thinking I don't want to loose my individuality, my identity.  The experience continued with most of me dissolved, or whatever it was, into my soul, the pleasure/love/joy/intimacy (both sexual and non sexual) was still there that I was experiencing, very high amounts but I felt patience also, like it was wiling to wait for something, and if it took a long time then that was ok, it could wait. that small part of me didn't pull back or try to get out, but stayed where it was.

It felt like this continued a few seconds or maybe 10 or 30, not sure of the time that passed.  Then that small part of me reached a new decision.  It thought to itself and to my soul something like (and I don't recall the exact words) "ok, i'll allow myself to be dissolved, fully merged, integrated into my soul.  I surrender my very being, identity and me, into my soul."  then it felt like that part of me did dissolve or whatever into my soul.  Like most of me knew I would not cease to exist but that tiny bit did that I didn't know about.  Though I didn't cease to exist.  I knew I would not, but that tiny bit thought that would happen.  Instead I was my soul, totally.  it felt like I was very happy, ecstatic.  Something very important had happened.  The time was right and it had happened and it was very happy, ecstatic that it had happened. Even the bit of me that was in my physical body was my soul totally, not me.

Then I was reconstituted, or whatever the term is.  then the soul/higher self appeared again, hugging and caressing me.  He said to me like, "You've taken a very important first step.   a very important one."  then he caressed and kissed me a bit and the experience ended, sorta in a fading way, not poof.

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After a while that I was laying down to take a nap.  Then after a while I could feel soul/higher self hugging me from behind, our cheeks touching and I think our rostrums were touching on one point.  No sexualness to any of this, just a feeling of sharing nonsexual intimacy, closeness, that sort of thing.  No idea how long we remained like that.  I did feel the body inside and it felt like from the chest up we both were anthro dolphins and from around the abdominal area down dolphin, or some sort of dolphin type being. 

I noticed I felt very relaxed and just enjoyed the experienced.  It felt like we were perhaps swaying a bit side to side.  Then I noticed that I heard a sound that felt like it was going through me, and I could feel it also, now that I was aware of it.  It did feel part of the relaxation I was feeling was from this, but not all of it perhaps.  I then asked him, I just use him since maybe he is/was a herm at the time, perhaps I was I don't know.  Not really important.


I asked him if he was the one making that sound and he said, "mmhmmm, relaxing isn't it." he said, the intent was mostly serious, with a bit of non seriousness to it.  I asked if he could teach me how to do that and he said sure, once I'm on the other side with him since the human throat is not capable of making such sounds.

Then he talked about there are beings that are music.  There are places of music... he didn't go on, like English was incapable of describing the beauty of such places.  I remarked that he'd have to give me a tour once I was over there.  He said sure, he'd be sure to bring along some that I was the closest to since such places should not be experienced the first time alone.  I asked that once this incarnation is over won't I remember those places, he said yes, but remembering is nothing like experiencing them for the first time.

Overall a great experience.  I look forward to experiencing such places.  I have a feeling, mental image too, vague though it is.  crystals, very large crystals.  Various races come to sit and relax so they can listen to, feel, experience the sounds.  Some places not far from where the pod is at or can easily get to? 

not sure, just a sorta mental impression.
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I did the first meditation of part 3. And I'm a day ahead of schedule.  This was the Traeo.  It went well in my estimation.  Running the energy went the same as usual.  The nua I felt went well, the 2nd and 3rd went about like usual, not as well as the nua, but that is ok.  the mumin and heart center (ranthia) went very well, especially in the ranthia, I could feel it responding more to what daben was doing then before. 

The throat center went well also.  I could feel it, and the pedals, like they were floating and when he did his sound for the traeo I could feel my throat vibrating and the pedals as well.  During the time he did this I could feel there was a small spot in my throat that was responding the most.  Then later it felt like that spot was vibrating continuously.  And there was sorta a wave of energy and there was a spot a bit above the vocal cords area that was where the pedals were taking the energy.  hard to describe.  But overall I'd say it went very well for the first time I did this.

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I did the 1st meditation of part 3. The Traeo.  It went well.  I felt less energy for the nua, but I did feel some for the 2nd and 3rd.  The rest went well.  The traeo I felt the whole thing vibrating.  I still feel a bit of something in my throat area.  The fact the neighbors are playing loud music didn't bother me to much. 

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     I decided to order a single meditation from the Orin and Daben site on Lucid Dreaming.  I hope that I can have those and maybe hope me to remember my dreams and perhaps understand then.

When I did I felt a kiss of my soul/higher self.  I said to him, "you are joyous." I said since I could feel it was joyous.  It said it is impossible to not be.  I mentioned that it is loving also.  it then hugged and kissed me.   I asked if it would can you teach me to be also.

It said the course I'm taking would help with that.  But it would also be happy to help teach me to become my true self.  Who I really am, though I may not be fully aware of who and what I am, I would be soon be aware of who and what I really am.


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I felt my soul/higher self kissing me again, then hugging me.  and it was talking to me.  <YOu can feel the joy within your heart center?>  I could feel that.  <you intellectually know you and 1 are one being, you have felt it before.  But you've not experiencing it.> it said then it started to kiss me and hug me again.  <who started this hug and kiss and who is hugging and kissing who?>  it asked and for a second or 2 I couldn't remember who had started this or exactly which I was.

<good.  like before.  Only a moment but a start, a good start.  For a moment you were not sure which exactly you were.  For a moment you experienced us as the 1 being we are, or you almost did.>

you mean 1 being in 2 bodies, though you are not really in a body are you?

<3, and technically this could be considered a body.>

"3? oh yes, I forgot about twin flame."

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Felt soul/higher self near me so I asked a few more questions.

"can you help me to experience that we are 1 being?"  <yes.>

"you me and twin flame, to experience the 1 being that we are?"  <yes>

"and within this incarnation?"  <yes.>

"to not just intellectually know, or feel, but to be fully consciously aware of that, fully awake I guess it would be. some hesitation, <yes, though the further courses may help.  Fully awakening will entail you having no veil, and being the soul, instead of the human conditioning you've picked up. we are 1 being, but also 3 beings.  1 soul but 3 beings.>

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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3:42 PM 


Just a very short one this time. Since there are 4 5 minute audio files I thought I'd do all 4 scattered over the day. This first one I only asked really a few questions, kept something over my eyes since I wanted to focus on the experience, what does it feel like ect instead of trying to ask as many questions as I can in 5 minutes since Daben was not asking any questions. Seemed to be one designed so the listener could ask their own questions if they wanted.

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Do you have any suggestions for what I should do? <continue as you are doing now and plan for the near future. You have done better then you expected you would. It is always a good mark when you do better then you expected to do. >

What is our connection through the soul heritage you mentioned before? <the common soul ancestor is what you have refereed to as soul 3. one line, if you wish to call it that, incarnated as arcturians, and another as a... what would be called a dolphin cetacean type being on earth. Then some what you call aspects created a soul, this one had an aspect that later you were a part of. So we can trace our common soul ancestor back to what you call soul 3.>

For some who may read this and find it confusing. I did a meditation, forgot which one, were I tried to reach back through my soul heritage. what I call soul 1 was direct from source. it had some experiences then decided to return to source, a part of it, or an aspect decided not to since there was an infinity of experiences and things to do. This i call soul 2. Then there was a soul 3, that had been an aspect of 2, or maybe 2 created 3, I'm not exactly sure on this. Soul 3 had some incarnation, including non earth cetacans and other beings. 4 of it's external aspects created a soul. this soul had an external aspect that later went independent that had various incarnations. Including one line that he created since he wished to explore love in it's various dimensions (so to speak). So he took a part of himself and incarnated as 2 beings that over time became twin flames as they choose to explore the love between them in various ways. parents, lovers, one a parent one a child, siblings, ect. Me being one of those. Apparently. This is based partially on what my non incarnated twin flame said also.

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4:52 PM

2nd attempt:

are you currently incarnated?: Not at present. I am uncertain if I'll incarnate or not. I have moved past that, but a particular interest could get me to choose to incarnate again.

any tips to help with the connecting with you, my soul or the dragoness (one of my soul parents)?: put aside doubts and just let the experience flow. look back weeks and months from not to re read what you are getting here. continued practice and connecting regularly also will be of large help, instead of just now and then.

So what will things be like for me other there anyway?" much like here, but with no veil and such. Love. You'll be able to pick what things you wish to do. Not since you have to do to earn a living, but because you love to do those things you choose to do. Your family and friends at the soul level are quite a large number. The pod is just one of them. Your natural form, if you wish to use such for a soul, is as you've experienced, that of a what on earth I believe is called a dolphin or cetacean. though the human imprint may leave an impression on you for a while after the incarnation is ended. Though in truth you can look like you want, most just keep to 1 appearance usually.

Trust in yourself, do not fear. those are key first steps. Do as you are doing on the awakening the light body course. Learning and discovering more of yourself. Under the layers built up from being incarnated there. Get to your true self underneath. Trust in yourself, and love are among the keys to do so.

I'll go now before it's to long since I do believe you will do the other 2 short meditations later today.

----- here I decided to see if I could try to connect to the one I call the dragoness, one of my soul parents I think:

So you have taken an interest in me? Dragoness: I'm not really a guide nor have the training one has. You are of my soul lineage, one of my soul children, offspring one could say so that does make connecting easier. As for my interest you are on the path to awaken so why would I not wish to help one of my soul offspring to use an earth type term. Though things are better if you do most of the stuff and discover them yourselves, I am not adverse to helping if you ask, you only need ask, but I prefer more subtle means then obvious ones.

So are you eastern or western dragon?" the term doesn't apply to me technically since I am a soul at a certain level, but I have been both. Exactly which one doesn't' really matter. Think of yourself as 3, unicorn, dragon, and cetacean, it keeps things a bit simpler that way. Instead of seeking exact types. the cetacean could be considered a type of say dolphin orca, beluga whale, but why apply exact labels to things. The dimensions do not signs or labels here. Say once you get to the 7th dimension you won't see a sign saying welcome to the 7th dimension. The exact differences between 2 can be vague, and there may be degradians within 1 dimension. so why try to add labels to everything.

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8:02 PM 

I think you should wait a while before doing the 4th or next one, since to much in one day is not fully productive and one does not want to do to much in one day.

As for the dolphin type beings that are part of your heritage and you have experienced. They are known to be what some would call sonic or sound engineers and healers. they can do many things with sound and use special certain crystals that enhance and can be used with certain frequencies to do certain things. You've experienced one of these things consciously in the crystal booth and another this morning but this was more for play or non serious. There are many other things but one doesn't need all the details at once. better to get them over time.

continue exploring and getting to know yourself and yourself at the soul level, both as yourself and yourself as a soul, the soul that you are since your soul and you are already one. it's just a question of focus. Which you'll learn quickly enough if you stick with the courses and continue and do not give up and put doubt aside. At the proper time you can deal with doubt itself. Look at the after effects this has on you, not on how accurate the information is, but the long term effects and how you feel inside and deal with the world you are incarnated in at the moment.

There is much you can accomplish with this course and others afterwards. Much you can accomplish that you do not yet know, or suspect. you'll do great and fantastically. Surprise yourself at your own success and how well you are doing and will do in the future.