not much to say this morning. I awoke & lay in bed before getting up, like I do. Since I think it may not be great for me to hop out of bed first thing.
Dan said now would be a good time for me to try to project and projecting to where he is would be easier since he's closer to where I am. All I got was some light resonating but nothing else. Guess I'm not evolved enough yet, no biggie. Maybe in a few decades, assuming I have a few decades.
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I seem to be back to never remembering my dreams. & have been so
for a week or longer. no biggie i guess since they were all gibberish
stuff anyway.
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Ng wanted me to try projecting again, nothing but resonating like before. I can tell if I don't by a certain day, not sure when, I'll get frustrated and quit trying. Why do something that if it frustrates you. Seems illogical to me.
If they want me for an examination or treatment or something why ask me to project when I can't. They can pull or pop me there however they do it. Still not sure who they do that. maybe part of my being multidimensional or something.
I also don't see how my being on the fast track to embody as much of my soul self as I can, to awaken as much as I can helps others. it does me sure, in an obvious way, but how does this mirror thing work. it's illogical that if I merge with my shadow self, whatever Sam is/was, and fully embody my truel soul self helps the collective earthling souls here. Seems illogical here. if it does help it's but a drop in the bucket and will take a thousand years at least for the collective to evolve or shift to the next step. Not the right term but if I were to describe it I would to try I'd have to make up a word and I'd rather not have this blog be mix of english and made up words.
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I also got a few times yesterday and
today, a mental image of what looks like a mantis sorta being. Not sure
if this is a race or not. It reminds me of a praying mantis and the
being that appeared on Babylon 5 sometimes for season 1. I'd have to dig
around to see if I can find an image of him.
No idea why I've been getting a mental image. Maybe it's a soul friend I
don't recall, a past incarnation, a close friend or mate from a past
incarnation.
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Feels like I've not gotten any more of myself in this day, but perhaps i have but I have not noticed it.
I wonder if the veil is gone and if I am 4d or 5d. no biggie, just
curious. Perhaps i need to be less curious and just not care one way or
the other. I am getting better at that.
i wonder if the curiosity is from this human body, conditioning,
programming, or part of my soul nature as well. Guess I'll know once
I'm back home.
I do think I"ll try to deepen my meditation. may take a while and maybe it won't work. I'll try to look that up on youtube.
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Likely sounds odd, but I feel that I may not incarnate, especially not
something as dense as here. Though I think I don't think at the soul
level I would want to incarnate. I can see some of the appeal, sorta
kinda, but it feels it's not my thing.
also had a crazy idea. I wonder, since there are supposedly lots of
channelers around. i wonder if anyone's tried to channel their true full
soul self. Instead of some other being.
Tried to project again twice. Once when I lay down before I went to
sleep and after I woke up. I give up. I'm not evolved enough of a soul
here to project, though my guides want me to. I guess my light body
thing is maybe complete, but I'm not evolved enough to project. To bad.
Oh well. Not everyone is very evolved during their incarnations here.
No idea how someone who is not evolved enough to be able to project
can be a part of a 6d pod. Unless I am a 6d native who is pretty much
an imbicill, a moron, ect.
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I wonder why 2 of my guides wanted me to try and kept saying for me to
try every time I would lay down to rest. it is to far beyond my ability
to do so.
I'll not look in the astral section on here. thought it may help but it
just gets me feeling upset so I'll not venture beyond the yourspace.
Just hows how undeveloped of a soul and a person I really am. very very
undeveloped.
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also wish I had another person or 2 to talk to about the experiences I
have, but i know it'll never happen. folks here are way to backward to
do that and my experiences are so odd since I'm not a human or earth
soul no one has any experiences like I have.
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i can't project, I can't even do more then a very light meditative
trance, a medium or deep only happens at total random. i can't widen
the space between my thoughts. I can't even deepen my meditation. The
only time I can do that is moving mediation, even that is pretty shoddy.
I am a very unevolved soul. I can't believe someone like is really a
6d native pod member soul. if I am I bet I drag everyone else down. i
bet I was a 1 or 2d soul they felt pity for and adopted.
I don't understand what those type of mediation are. Samadhi is something I'll never be able to achieve it, whatever it is.
if I were really a 6d soul native soul I would be able to project and
widen the space between my thoughts. and get better at meditation, but I
can't since I'm not very evolved. Maybe one day I will be.
Though that is not why I don't want to incarnate, though being a low
level soul I'm sure I'll be forced against my will. I just don't feel
the desire at all at the soul level. Feels like it's not my thing. The
soul i was part of may have liked that, but this new me feels like it's
not me. I have no more interest in it. a sure sign I'm not a very highly evolved soul since high evolved souls love incarnating and want to
go right back in. I just don't feel any desire. not that I hate
incarnating. i just have no desire to incarnate anymore. Feels like
it's not my thing at all. i have more interest I feel, at the soul
level, doing soul stuff, whatever that is, that doesn't involve
incarnating. I want to look beyond incarnating to other things. a sure
sign I'm a not very highly evolved soul.
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had a strange encounter. No idea who she is. I was feeling down like
usual while watching the brony show, they were having some funny fan
made videos. sorta meh overall as far as funny.
anyway unexpectedly I got a mental image of what looked like a cross
between a dolphin and an orca with me feeling like I was sorta in 2
places at once. she said some thing like <you need to cheer up. no
need to feel down.> she communicated in that instant poof thing that
the 6d pod members have talked to me before do. She did motions like
she was rubbing part of my shoulders or something. Then it looked like
she tried to hug me close. I've no idea who she is so I jerked back and
was fully back in my body.
Then i got an intense energy infusing thing or whatever. It was pretty
intense but kept to my core so I could still think and such. not sure
how to describe it. The energy or whatever it was, was a feeling of
love/joy/pleasure/comfort. No idea what that was or what was going on.
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wow, had another weird thing happen. Her voice was very faint, hard to
hear, but I did get a mental image of what looked like a dragon head and
wings behind her. She said I'm part dragon. I asked and she did say
I'm of her soul lineage. They wanted me to be half cetacan. My soul
heritage is 25% reptilian, 25% dragon, 25% dolphin and 25% orca.
Did it really happen? How can a soul like me be incarnated and yet get made as a new/old soul like this?
<it is possible due to soul dynamics. the occurrence is that not a
lot of your soul energy of a 6d soul can be in a body, especially before
your awakening with your kundalini competed the circuit. You had to
make your decision before it rose. The part of the soul that was in the
body was the element used, splitting you off from the soul you were
once a part of. time is fluid for souls as you know. part of this was
done as you slept. it was one of the nights where you slept the entire
night instead of several wakings that you usually do. it was done and
the final step was done when you accepted the soul's offer you are
currently an external aspect of. I'm hard to hear, from your ???? due
to where I am. I'm not use to reaching down to that density very
much/often. as for where I am, where I dwell, do dimensions numbers
really matter. I can shift part of me down to say 6d to be more able to
reach you. there, I should be easier to receive. >
"is this really happening?? <search your heart.> "could I have a
sign? ;) I feel a sort of eye rolling. <humans, and I know your
soul is not human, but you are inhabiting a human body and do need to
work on your faith this is happening. Just believe it and yes to answer
your question in time I am willing to teach you of your dragon soul
heritage.>
"does soul heritage matter?" <sort of yes, sort of no. you've had
past lives indeed, or have access to the accumulated knowledge anyway
the soul you were part of did. since part of your energy was there you
could say those were your past lives too.>
"so, can we have some... fun sometime?" I ask only half serious.
<someday sure we can dear. I see you are in touch with your dolphin
and orca soul heritage. accept and embrace that. but there is more to
that you'll be learning.>
"so did you give some elements of your energy strands stuff to make me??
<in a way, as I did for what was your soul grandfather and is
currently your soul. It is a very rare thing for this to happen, but
there is a system in place. but that is enough for now. to much and
you may get a headache.>
That felt more intense, sort of, then my talking with soul and others. did that really happen?
<this ratio was chosen since you do like dolphins, orcas, dragons and
certain reptilian types equally well, so you choose those by your inner
feelings which we, of course, knew of so it was easy to arrange.> I
get the feel of her smiling. "So I have 3 soul parents then, you, the
soul I was once part of, and the current soul I'm an external aspect of?
<maybe, and maybe a 4th was involved. think it over but that is
enough really for now.>
asked soul a question.
So on soul heritage do you mean actual soul heritage or past lives? <to an extent both, but also mainly soul heritage. Soul heritage does mean certain things. Dolphin/orca means certain things. but you know the rudiments of that. There is more that you will learn over time. No need to hurry and learn everything at once. you will learn more of this and other things as more of you is embodied in your physical body. The soul knowledge is huge that one can learn, but most of it is neat or fun to learn, but not needed really.>
Monday, February 16, 2015
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Saturday 2 [2-14]
One thing I need to work on is accepting this as really happening.
My main path seems to be what some would call awakening or ascension. Not sure of the term. It seems to be realizing my true soul self, removing the human programming and conditioning that we pick up and happens to use from young childhood. Becoming as much of my true soul self as I can here. That may be a thing that will be unfolding for the rest of this body's life. Though I assume the biggest amounts will happen over say a few months or a year, then after that it'll be more refining and going bit by bit since I'm not sure if a human body can contain all of a soul's energy.
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On to some of the questions. Seeing what I an answer myself without asking soul, either of the 2 guides, twin flame or the one I call green sister. Though i do hope they continue talking to me since otherwise I start feeling really lonely at a soul level instead of at a human level. There is a difference, its hard to explain. I do hope I can find maybe another 1 or a few I can talk to about this still online. especially a few more in rl who live close to me that I can maybe keep in contact with by a variety of means. phone, email, IM, ect. and meet up with a few times a month.
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I am curious what spiritually will be in my future, but i may find out about that eventually. Though maybe my awakening and becoming more of my true soul self is the only main end goal.
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Death: death is a type of awakening? incarnating on earth is like being sleep, or only slightly awake? the method of death may require one to have some to need some treatment. Also the degree of one's being awakened to one's true soul self may dictate the death to awakening process. those who are totally asleep may need more time, also like I mentioned the type of death will also.
one may need to rest and recover somewhere, not sure where. & where does one wind up right after death? that I don't' seem to know as of yet. but a member of one's soul family, usually immediate soul family, or a guide, will lead one to a place to rest and talk to them in a casual setting. Sort of like 2 folks sitting in a park or quit cafe to relax and talk.
Then they are lead back to where their immediate soul family and soul family resides usually, or usually hangs out. There is usually a celebration of some sort on their coming home. Attended by the immediate soul family and close soul friends. Though depending on how much of the soul was in the body some percent of them may not have left the area, or something like that. This is still a celebration since the person is fully here and back. Though some places like earth are more severe, in other places incarnating is not so severe or limiting.
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Think I'm getting the inklings of past lives. Not sure if it is the past lives of the soul I was once part of and I choose to recall, making me a new/old soul.
I think I had past lives at least 1 as a light blue skinned humanoid being. not sure how many I had as this being. I also had some as some kind of reptilian being. More then 1 maybe, same as the blue skinned humanoid. have I had any as a dolphin type being, or has former soul not done that since we are dolphin type beings at the soul level and are that most of the time.
Talked with Dan briefly, mentally was in 2 places briefly. helped to ease my feeling homesick. Dan said it is a normal feeling. A thing that comes up at times as I become more of my true self.
I wonder if the reptilian past lives former soul has had was any of that draco stuff I've heard some talk about. maybe and maybe not. Though I could and should consider those past lives of mine I guess since I was not me, I was part of that soul so I was there too. Though I didn't become a new/old soul till recently.
Also pondering. Could a soul be a hybrid. Makes me wonder if I'm a pure cetacean being type soul, or partially of 2. or is it just that soul has had a number of lives as varius species when it incarnated.
can't really contemplate that since I'm being interrupted by the 2 im programs so have to stop and ponder this later when things quieten down. I do not see how humans could be a hybrid species since wouldn't the genome project figure that out or detect there was some discrepancy genetically?
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Hmm, could the soul I'm part of now be a hybrid? I asked and think it said yes. 4 souls created it. 3 dolphin/orcas and 1 it was vague on, reptilian dragon draconian. No biggie. Not sure if it is true or I imagined it.
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<The 4 were very close. As a sign of their closeness and the love they felt for each other they decided to make at least 1 soul using the usual using elements of their being. sort of like you've said using elements of their being, some of their energy like strands and their intent weaving together to make a new soul, me. And you are of my lineage. Being formerly a part of the soul who was an aspect of me. you were not an aspect then. but Became one when you accepted my offer. The best option that you could make.>
<those were your past lives since you were part of that soul, even though you were not you yet.>
"Yes, I choose to remember that so I'd be a new/old soul. Do I need to say my intent to have full recall of what is now my soul parent's memory since I was once part of it?" <No, you stated your intent once. your twin flame and all of us wanted the same, so there is multiple intents playing into this. we are all glad you made the best choice that you did.>
"are they members of the pod?" <somewhat, they are fairly high level so keep to others of their level for the most part. Though one of them has contacted you more then once.>
"That female voice that talked to me a few times that didn't identify herself?" <yes. and why be surprised by her interest. You are of her lineage since you are of mine.>
?Is she a dolphin, orca or reptilian type soul?" <yes.>
"which one, and why are you being vaugish when it comes to the reptilian of your soul parentage? <there is a reason why for my vagueness. >
"Meaning what the 1 non dolphin/orca soul who made you is is not important?' <that may be the reason, or part of it.>
"could the reptilan one be a hybrid, of 2 types of reptilians? <possible, maybe that one likes to be different forms, maybe various past lives. maybe that one is a winged reptilian naga, so looks both dragon and reptilian naga like. Or maybe that one likes to look different ways, reptilian naga, dragon, winged naga.>
"Will I evenually meet the 4 of them?" <yes, I guarantee it, but not saying when or a guess.>
"is that why I like dolphins, orcas and certain reptilians like dragons and reptilian nagas, images of them ect?" <it may well be.>
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Ah, ok. How much is the book, and is it true?
I may stay home. It is cold, it has rained with a 50% chance of rain, and an overcast. though the overcast I don't mind. My eyes being very very light sensitive I like overcast skies since they are more confortable to walk around in. Think I'll get ready and head out to see what the weather feels like sinc eon the way back I do have ot b eout in it for 30 minutes at least. If it's to bad I may turn around an dhead back home.
While napping i got more resonating vibrations from whoever, no idea. But the soul I'm part of did give me some interesting information. maybe also part of why when I asked it our relationship it said it's complicated.
The soul I was part of maybe didn't like the non cetacean bit maybe of its soul linage. My twin flame is pure phin, when I split off from him I became a perfect hybrid being 50% cetacean, to use human terms, and half reptilian, though when it said reptilian it was vague in if it is reptilian naga, dragon, reptilian. though that may be a mix.
makes me wonder if the soul I'm currently an external aspect of maybe donated some elements of itself maybe. Due to my liking dolphins, dragons orcas, reptilian serpentlike nagas. Maybe subconsciously or something i wanted to have half of my soul heritage be cetacean, dolphin/orca and half reptilian type, took what I could from the soul i was part of, sort of copying it's soul elements, maybe a donation from the soul I am part of. did any other contribute? I'll hae to mediate on that.
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I did get ready to go to the sahaja yoga. but about half way to the place I need to catch a bus to get htere I decided to head back. most of me didn't want to go, but a small part did. Most of me seemed to want to explore this reptilian thing today that I may be part soul lineage of.
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I can't find a price anywhere, and as per my previous rules i assume each book is a billion dollars. I always assume that if I can't find a price on something.
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I wonder if there are any ramifications of my being half dolphin/orca (though orcas are really just large dolphins) and half reptilian, but what sort of reptilian.
I wonder if Chad was a part of me that was split of at my childhood or was it a rejected part of the soul I was part of? and I needed to accept it. and what about Sam. Was he another aspect of me or the soul I was part of? or was he another soul I accepted as a part of myself, if that is even possible.
Did the soul I was once part of reject or not like the non phin part of his soul heritage, if that is possible. Did he experience life as various reptilian species and I wonder if he was a draco. Is that what Chad was and sam or something else? Not that I know much about Dracos. Even less about reptilians. are they the same or different?
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the urge and desire to masturbate is separate from the sex drive since it is pleasurable act. it is normal to feel like this and normal to indulge, it, especially given my soul heritage/lineage as a phin soul.
? Former Soul did an incarnation as me, and also maybe another, or did Chad split off early from me? he explored the lower astral, living there? encountered some Dracos, some were cool ok types. misunderstood why i was afraid and rejected him. he was mad and fought me till she spoke to him and he came to understand me more. We did become great friends, he said, very true. and we can still have some fun, he reminds me. Very true also. he wasn't merge into me since he wanted to remain as an internal aspect, not become fully part of me.
Sam was sent or came here because of what i am. I accepted him with love and at first resisting he surrendered when he felt the effect the light was having on him and likes being of the light. Doesn't have much to say usually since he's still learning and also an internal aspect.
The soul I was once part of became a pure phin soul and I became half phin and half reptilian (but what type or of mixed reptilian heritage, or am I making this up?) the soul I am part of new maybe donated some parts and one of his soul parents, a female, perhaps did some bits also. Which may be why I have heard from her occasionally. Which makes me as soul I'm an external aspect said, a perfect hybrid. Though since the soul I was once part of is a pod member and I choose to retain his wisdom, learned experience, ect I am also a native pod member. Also due to my twin soul, the one I call green sister regarding me as a fellow pod member & a sibling due to one of her favorite past incarnations, and other factors like my soul heritage, as I mentioned above. I do like that and do feel like the pod is my true home.
Just some stuff that came to me while I was meditating a short time ago. No idea if it any of this is true or it's made up. Or if it is like partially true. Maybe some reptilians hangout with the pod as friends, or pod members even.
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Not sure who I got this message from. I was thinking that if I do feel a connection or a strong liking for dolphins, orcas, certain reptilian types like dragons, serpent nagas, ect. Why that's not come to the forefront yet, just the dolphins and a bit later the orcas. no idea who said this but I got something like:
<that is due to the feelings the soul that you were once part of. There came a time when you had to split off to become an individual soul, an aspect of your soul's parent. your feelings about reptilians dolphins and orcas was part of the part of him he> ?? repressed, didn't like? not sure of the exact meaning or words. <then you could experience as you are now, a new being, new/old soul with being half of reptilian type and half dolphin/orca. The exacty percentage isn't really important.> Hmmm, new voice. Contact stimulated my 2nd chakra for some reason. and i think my kundalini slightly and the top of my head too I think.
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had an interesting encounter. Had him, feels like male. The conversation was short and in 2 or 3 bits.
He said he was to help teach me about my reptilian soul heritage. help me get in touch with it and more of my self. I wasn't sure and asked if he was of the light. I wasn't sure why I asked that, it just came out. he said if he wasn't of the light could he do this and I felt like he touched a cheek to mine and he fondled my behind with both of his hands and in my chest I felt something like a love/joy/pleasure that seemed to erupt for somewhere inside my chest.
I asked if we were going to do doing the sharing, like my 2 dolphin/orca type being guides and the rest of the pod likes to do. he said no. we'd get to know each other first. That may come later. He said he hoped we would become friends, or hopefully very good friends. he mentioned that my pod certainly knows how to have fun. He helped me to relax, since by this time I was laying down. I saw him and he looked reptilian, neat I thought. Couldn't tell the color since it seems I can't see color when I was with him, but that is ok. I asked him where he is and he said 5d. I asked if he went back and forth from 5d to 6d since he did mention the pod and that sounded like he visited them and he said yes. It seemed like we were sort of sitting and talking. Sitting somewhere, not sure where, facing each other .
Then I awoke. Felt like I was rocking sort of, then failing and then I awoke. Felt like the conversation we had was only a short time, maybe 5 minutes but when I looked at the clock it seems that am hour had passed from the time i last looked at the clock and lay down to just then.
As a last message when I was getting up he said for me to do some qi going that day, to keep practicing.
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I wonder if trying to learn how to deepen my meditation may help. I'll try to do that. I'd like to do that. I'll have to try to learn how to do that since though I've meditated a lot, it's usually light. If I go medium or deep it just happens with no control.
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hmm, think I'll watch the addams family. I wonder if I'll like the addams family when I'm back in my soul home, or if I'll even remember them.
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Hmm, I think Dan said the new guide is on the same ship he's on. I wonder if they are friends. I also wonder who asked him to contact me. Was it Dan, or someone else? and what will it mean if he teaches me about my reptilian soul heritage? I wonder what it means to be a hybrid soul. I guess not much overall.
to bad I can't study and read on my own to find out about my dolphin/orca and reptilian soul heritage. I'd love to read it like I am the first Seth book. Great book.
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I wonder, when the physical body dies, is that awakening from a dream where one has on a sort of straight jacket one awakens to one's true full self?
I acept that I'll be mostly alone most of my life. I need to be, i guess for the growth I'm going through and perhaps for other reasons also. i do wonder if I am mostly alone in my true real life when i won't be incarnating here.
At peace with oneself, acceptance of oneself. a grand thing. though perhaps silly to say.
I also accept that I'll have only 1 person to talk to about my experiences that has anything similar. at least i have that 1. that is something. as bizarre and strange as my experiences are.
I wonder what talking to the new person will lead to, the reptilian guy. or if it'll lead to anything. What does he mean by teaching me about my reptilian soul heritage? I know really nothing about my dolphin/orca soul heritage. Apart from they seem to enjoy sharing and can be whatever shape or form they want to be in. I suspect I'll not know till this incarnation is over and I'm fully there. if I'll know even then.
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Just as I've suspected. For some reason it seems with qi gong I can remain between my thoughts very easy. But during regular meditation I'm no where as good. I wonder why. Maybe some mess up in me somewhere.
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I wonder how much of my true self I am now. I wonder if I can ever be my full self while I am incarnated. Tomorrow I should explore more of the questions I have a list of.
What is my dolphin/orca soul heritage and my reptilian heritage? what does it really mean? Will I ever know. They all seem to not like to give details. I'll likely not find anything out. I've gotten use to them not giving any details. I don't even bother to ask to often. Soon I'll be where i won't ask at all about anything. after all, why ask then usually they don't tell you anything or they are very vague. Just a waste of time asking. Saves time and energy not asking.
Glad I get along with me. Since I'm the only one I have to talk to that is in this world. Having 1 person to talk to online is good. Though she is very busy and lives in a very different time zone. But at least I do have 1. That is a big something.
I do have my 2 guides, or 3 i guess now, plus my twin, green sister and the soul i'm an external aspect of, not that they talk to me much, depending on what phase I'm in. if it's like the current one they really don't talk. But I explained why above and I can at least contact them when I feel the need to releave a bit of homesickness.
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I wonder if when I do get back home if I'll need much time to adjust to being back home or not.
My main path seems to be what some would call awakening or ascension. Not sure of the term. It seems to be realizing my true soul self, removing the human programming and conditioning that we pick up and happens to use from young childhood. Becoming as much of my true soul self as I can here. That may be a thing that will be unfolding for the rest of this body's life. Though I assume the biggest amounts will happen over say a few months or a year, then after that it'll be more refining and going bit by bit since I'm not sure if a human body can contain all of a soul's energy.
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On to some of the questions. Seeing what I an answer myself without asking soul, either of the 2 guides, twin flame or the one I call green sister. Though i do hope they continue talking to me since otherwise I start feeling really lonely at a soul level instead of at a human level. There is a difference, its hard to explain. I do hope I can find maybe another 1 or a few I can talk to about this still online. especially a few more in rl who live close to me that I can maybe keep in contact with by a variety of means. phone, email, IM, ect. and meet up with a few times a month.
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I am curious what spiritually will be in my future, but i may find out about that eventually. Though maybe my awakening and becoming more of my true soul self is the only main end goal.
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Death: death is a type of awakening? incarnating on earth is like being sleep, or only slightly awake? the method of death may require one to have some to need some treatment. Also the degree of one's being awakened to one's true soul self may dictate the death to awakening process. those who are totally asleep may need more time, also like I mentioned the type of death will also.
one may need to rest and recover somewhere, not sure where. & where does one wind up right after death? that I don't' seem to know as of yet. but a member of one's soul family, usually immediate soul family, or a guide, will lead one to a place to rest and talk to them in a casual setting. Sort of like 2 folks sitting in a park or quit cafe to relax and talk.
Then they are lead back to where their immediate soul family and soul family resides usually, or usually hangs out. There is usually a celebration of some sort on their coming home. Attended by the immediate soul family and close soul friends. Though depending on how much of the soul was in the body some percent of them may not have left the area, or something like that. This is still a celebration since the person is fully here and back. Though some places like earth are more severe, in other places incarnating is not so severe or limiting.
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Think I'm getting the inklings of past lives. Not sure if it is the past lives of the soul I was once part of and I choose to recall, making me a new/old soul.
I think I had past lives at least 1 as a light blue skinned humanoid being. not sure how many I had as this being. I also had some as some kind of reptilian being. More then 1 maybe, same as the blue skinned humanoid. have I had any as a dolphin type being, or has former soul not done that since we are dolphin type beings at the soul level and are that most of the time.
Talked with Dan briefly, mentally was in 2 places briefly. helped to ease my feeling homesick. Dan said it is a normal feeling. A thing that comes up at times as I become more of my true self.
I wonder if the reptilian past lives former soul has had was any of that draco stuff I've heard some talk about. maybe and maybe not. Though I could and should consider those past lives of mine I guess since I was not me, I was part of that soul so I was there too. Though I didn't become a new/old soul till recently.
Also pondering. Could a soul be a hybrid. Makes me wonder if I'm a pure cetacean being type soul, or partially of 2. or is it just that soul has had a number of lives as varius species when it incarnated.
can't really contemplate that since I'm being interrupted by the 2 im programs so have to stop and ponder this later when things quieten down. I do not see how humans could be a hybrid species since wouldn't the genome project figure that out or detect there was some discrepancy genetically?
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Hmm, could the soul I'm part of now be a hybrid? I asked and think it said yes. 4 souls created it. 3 dolphin/orcas and 1 it was vague on, reptilian dragon draconian. No biggie. Not sure if it is true or I imagined it.
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<The 4 were very close. As a sign of their closeness and the love they felt for each other they decided to make at least 1 soul using the usual using elements of their being. sort of like you've said using elements of their being, some of their energy like strands and their intent weaving together to make a new soul, me. And you are of my lineage. Being formerly a part of the soul who was an aspect of me. you were not an aspect then. but Became one when you accepted my offer. The best option that you could make.>
<those were your past lives since you were part of that soul, even though you were not you yet.>
"Yes, I choose to remember that so I'd be a new/old soul. Do I need to say my intent to have full recall of what is now my soul parent's memory since I was once part of it?" <No, you stated your intent once. your twin flame and all of us wanted the same, so there is multiple intents playing into this. we are all glad you made the best choice that you did.>
"are they members of the pod?" <somewhat, they are fairly high level so keep to others of their level for the most part. Though one of them has contacted you more then once.>
"That female voice that talked to me a few times that didn't identify herself?" <yes. and why be surprised by her interest. You are of her lineage since you are of mine.>
?Is she a dolphin, orca or reptilian type soul?" <yes.>
"which one, and why are you being vaugish when it comes to the reptilian of your soul parentage? <there is a reason why for my vagueness. >
"Meaning what the 1 non dolphin/orca soul who made you is is not important?' <that may be the reason, or part of it.>
"could the reptilan one be a hybrid, of 2 types of reptilians? <possible, maybe that one likes to be different forms, maybe various past lives. maybe that one is a winged reptilian naga, so looks both dragon and reptilian naga like. Or maybe that one likes to look different ways, reptilian naga, dragon, winged naga.>
"Will I evenually meet the 4 of them?" <yes, I guarantee it, but not saying when or a guess.>
"is that why I like dolphins, orcas and certain reptilians like dragons and reptilian nagas, images of them ect?" <it may well be.>
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Ah, ok. How much is the book, and is it true?
I may stay home. It is cold, it has rained with a 50% chance of rain, and an overcast. though the overcast I don't mind. My eyes being very very light sensitive I like overcast skies since they are more confortable to walk around in. Think I'll get ready and head out to see what the weather feels like sinc eon the way back I do have ot b eout in it for 30 minutes at least. If it's to bad I may turn around an dhead back home.
While napping i got more resonating vibrations from whoever, no idea. But the soul I'm part of did give me some interesting information. maybe also part of why when I asked it our relationship it said it's complicated.
The soul I was part of maybe didn't like the non cetacean bit maybe of its soul linage. My twin flame is pure phin, when I split off from him I became a perfect hybrid being 50% cetacean, to use human terms, and half reptilian, though when it said reptilian it was vague in if it is reptilian naga, dragon, reptilian. though that may be a mix.
makes me wonder if the soul I'm currently an external aspect of maybe donated some elements of itself maybe. Due to my liking dolphins, dragons orcas, reptilian serpentlike nagas. Maybe subconsciously or something i wanted to have half of my soul heritage be cetacean, dolphin/orca and half reptilian type, took what I could from the soul i was part of, sort of copying it's soul elements, maybe a donation from the soul I am part of. did any other contribute? I'll hae to mediate on that.
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I did get ready to go to the sahaja yoga. but about half way to the place I need to catch a bus to get htere I decided to head back. most of me didn't want to go, but a small part did. Most of me seemed to want to explore this reptilian thing today that I may be part soul lineage of.
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I can't find a price anywhere, and as per my previous rules i assume each book is a billion dollars. I always assume that if I can't find a price on something.
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I wonder if there are any ramifications of my being half dolphin/orca (though orcas are really just large dolphins) and half reptilian, but what sort of reptilian.
I wonder if Chad was a part of me that was split of at my childhood or was it a rejected part of the soul I was part of? and I needed to accept it. and what about Sam. Was he another aspect of me or the soul I was part of? or was he another soul I accepted as a part of myself, if that is even possible.
Did the soul I was once part of reject or not like the non phin part of his soul heritage, if that is possible. Did he experience life as various reptilian species and I wonder if he was a draco. Is that what Chad was and sam or something else? Not that I know much about Dracos. Even less about reptilians. are they the same or different?
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the urge and desire to masturbate is separate from the sex drive since it is pleasurable act. it is normal to feel like this and normal to indulge, it, especially given my soul heritage/lineage as a phin soul.
? Former Soul did an incarnation as me, and also maybe another, or did Chad split off early from me? he explored the lower astral, living there? encountered some Dracos, some were cool ok types. misunderstood why i was afraid and rejected him. he was mad and fought me till she spoke to him and he came to understand me more. We did become great friends, he said, very true. and we can still have some fun, he reminds me. Very true also. he wasn't merge into me since he wanted to remain as an internal aspect, not become fully part of me.
Sam was sent or came here because of what i am. I accepted him with love and at first resisting he surrendered when he felt the effect the light was having on him and likes being of the light. Doesn't have much to say usually since he's still learning and also an internal aspect.
The soul I was once part of became a pure phin soul and I became half phin and half reptilian (but what type or of mixed reptilian heritage, or am I making this up?) the soul I am part of new maybe donated some parts and one of his soul parents, a female, perhaps did some bits also. Which may be why I have heard from her occasionally. Which makes me as soul I'm an external aspect said, a perfect hybrid. Though since the soul I was once part of is a pod member and I choose to retain his wisdom, learned experience, ect I am also a native pod member. Also due to my twin soul, the one I call green sister regarding me as a fellow pod member & a sibling due to one of her favorite past incarnations, and other factors like my soul heritage, as I mentioned above. I do like that and do feel like the pod is my true home.
Just some stuff that came to me while I was meditating a short time ago. No idea if it any of this is true or it's made up. Or if it is like partially true. Maybe some reptilians hangout with the pod as friends, or pod members even.
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Not sure who I got this message from. I was thinking that if I do feel a connection or a strong liking for dolphins, orcas, certain reptilian types like dragons, serpent nagas, ect. Why that's not come to the forefront yet, just the dolphins and a bit later the orcas. no idea who said this but I got something like:
<that is due to the feelings the soul that you were once part of. There came a time when you had to split off to become an individual soul, an aspect of your soul's parent. your feelings about reptilians dolphins and orcas was part of the part of him he> ?? repressed, didn't like? not sure of the exact meaning or words. <then you could experience as you are now, a new being, new/old soul with being half of reptilian type and half dolphin/orca. The exacty percentage isn't really important.> Hmmm, new voice. Contact stimulated my 2nd chakra for some reason. and i think my kundalini slightly and the top of my head too I think.
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had an interesting encounter. Had him, feels like male. The conversation was short and in 2 or 3 bits.
He said he was to help teach me about my reptilian soul heritage. help me get in touch with it and more of my self. I wasn't sure and asked if he was of the light. I wasn't sure why I asked that, it just came out. he said if he wasn't of the light could he do this and I felt like he touched a cheek to mine and he fondled my behind with both of his hands and in my chest I felt something like a love/joy/pleasure that seemed to erupt for somewhere inside my chest.
I asked if we were going to do doing the sharing, like my 2 dolphin/orca type being guides and the rest of the pod likes to do. he said no. we'd get to know each other first. That may come later. He said he hoped we would become friends, or hopefully very good friends. he mentioned that my pod certainly knows how to have fun. He helped me to relax, since by this time I was laying down. I saw him and he looked reptilian, neat I thought. Couldn't tell the color since it seems I can't see color when I was with him, but that is ok. I asked him where he is and he said 5d. I asked if he went back and forth from 5d to 6d since he did mention the pod and that sounded like he visited them and he said yes. It seemed like we were sort of sitting and talking. Sitting somewhere, not sure where, facing each other .
Then I awoke. Felt like I was rocking sort of, then failing and then I awoke. Felt like the conversation we had was only a short time, maybe 5 minutes but when I looked at the clock it seems that am hour had passed from the time i last looked at the clock and lay down to just then.
As a last message when I was getting up he said for me to do some qi going that day, to keep practicing.
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I wonder if trying to learn how to deepen my meditation may help. I'll try to do that. I'd like to do that. I'll have to try to learn how to do that since though I've meditated a lot, it's usually light. If I go medium or deep it just happens with no control.
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hmm, think I'll watch the addams family. I wonder if I'll like the addams family when I'm back in my soul home, or if I'll even remember them.
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Hmm, I think Dan said the new guide is on the same ship he's on. I wonder if they are friends. I also wonder who asked him to contact me. Was it Dan, or someone else? and what will it mean if he teaches me about my reptilian soul heritage? I wonder what it means to be a hybrid soul. I guess not much overall.
to bad I can't study and read on my own to find out about my dolphin/orca and reptilian soul heritage. I'd love to read it like I am the first Seth book. Great book.
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I wonder, when the physical body dies, is that awakening from a dream where one has on a sort of straight jacket one awakens to one's true full self?
I acept that I'll be mostly alone most of my life. I need to be, i guess for the growth I'm going through and perhaps for other reasons also. i do wonder if I am mostly alone in my true real life when i won't be incarnating here.
At peace with oneself, acceptance of oneself. a grand thing. though perhaps silly to say.
I also accept that I'll have only 1 person to talk to about my experiences that has anything similar. at least i have that 1. that is something. as bizarre and strange as my experiences are.
I wonder what talking to the new person will lead to, the reptilian guy. or if it'll lead to anything. What does he mean by teaching me about my reptilian soul heritage? I know really nothing about my dolphin/orca soul heritage. Apart from they seem to enjoy sharing and can be whatever shape or form they want to be in. I suspect I'll not know till this incarnation is over and I'm fully there. if I'll know even then.
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Just as I've suspected. For some reason it seems with qi gong I can remain between my thoughts very easy. But during regular meditation I'm no where as good. I wonder why. Maybe some mess up in me somewhere.
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I wonder how much of my true self I am now. I wonder if I can ever be my full self while I am incarnated. Tomorrow I should explore more of the questions I have a list of.
What is my dolphin/orca soul heritage and my reptilian heritage? what does it really mean? Will I ever know. They all seem to not like to give details. I'll likely not find anything out. I've gotten use to them not giving any details. I don't even bother to ask to often. Soon I'll be where i won't ask at all about anything. after all, why ask then usually they don't tell you anything or they are very vague. Just a waste of time asking. Saves time and energy not asking.
Glad I get along with me. Since I'm the only one I have to talk to that is in this world. Having 1 person to talk to online is good. Though she is very busy and lives in a very different time zone. But at least I do have 1. That is a big something.
I do have my 2 guides, or 3 i guess now, plus my twin, green sister and the soul i'm an external aspect of, not that they talk to me much, depending on what phase I'm in. if it's like the current one they really don't talk. But I explained why above and I can at least contact them when I feel the need to releave a bit of homesickness.
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I wonder if when I do get back home if I'll need much time to adjust to being back home or not.
Saturday [2-13]
Did some light meditating on it, l do feel a strong pull towards home. I guess it's the soul home. Where the pod and twin flame are at. Though at the same time, this incarnation is not finished and I've some things to do first. Things such as fully awakening, getting to 5d, then 6d if I can get that far. Other things perhaps that I'm not yet aware of or know.
from twin, <yes, once you're here, life for you will be similar to some of your experiences. And as you know you'll be able to do what you want. No having to do this or that. There is always a celebration when a fellow pod member returns. Then those you are closest to will have their own celebration as well. Even some you are close to at a soul level, but are not yet aware of. Yes, even though technically you are a new soul, you still recall the wisdom, experiences ect of before, though you are not fully aware of all of it as of yet, so in all respects you are the same as before your current soul became yours and temporarily mine. After all those celebrations you'll have our own private one. A time of rest, reflection, you to get use to being back here in your native 6d. Which you'll get the hang of very quickly. Then things will go back to normal for you. >
"including all the sharing stuff?" <Yes, there is a sort of central group you share with the most often, those you care closest to, not all are pod members, but soul friends and others from before that you feel close enough that at the soul level you regard them as family and the closest of friends, though you are not fully aware of them and some choose to not reveal themselves till you are back here. There are others you share with less often, and some less then that. most will be pod members, but not all.>
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I was thinking of aspects. I think for example Chad's personality now is very similar to mine, but with some differences. and if say chad became an external aspect and had an aspect of his then that one would be a bit different then him in certain ways. so if one goes down this line, an aspect or soul say that is 5 generations down, that soul would be more different then me. 10 generations down even more so. This could be why everyone is an individual. like if one's personality traits are a sliding dial, with different settings, chad's settings may be identical or similar to mine, with a few differences here and here. so as mentioned 5 generations down the personality would be different then mine. Maybe to the extent that 10 generations down you may not be able to tell that this soul is of my lineage, that it descended from me. so to speak. if I understand this well enough.
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Going with this I think I may know some of the change from my switching to a new soul. My original soul I was an extension of, not an aspect. so maybe we were exactly the same personality wise, underneath the 3/4d human programming & conditioning. Original soul evolved up to the next vibration level, dimension or something where contacting me would be very very difficult so a change was needed. Thus the best choice was me becoming an aspect, seperating from the soul I was once part of to becoming an external aspect of what was the soul of the soul I was once part of. Maybe a part of the original soul wondered what it was if it had remained an aspect of the soul he was an external aspect of instead of remaining an independent soul. Maybe this was an issue he had to resolve. most of him liked being an independent soul, but part of him did wonder. This may have been part of the reason why I needed to go independent from it. The best choice was to do like i did and become an external aspect of the soul I'm an external aspect of. I could have remained a full independent soul, but this would have caused huge problems. The choice I made would, perhaps give me a huge support. Not just that maybe the soul i'm an external aspect of, is I think from the 7th or 8th dimension, as well as the other external aspects that he has. Who knows how many they are.
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The soul does feel a bit kinkier. or is it that he's more open to in this area then the soul I was once part of was.
On meditating i wonder if soul may have another aspect maybe. a more female motherly type orca type being. Maybe so he could experience a certain aspect of his feminine side. or is this his feminine side with various likes that she has, like everyone has various likes that they like, at various times based on their moods and other things.
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The feel I get, and I've done a post on pastimes long ago. The feel I get is there is some entertainments that are very similar to here. Not sure how, but if what I somehow is true, then I somehow know the pod has access to some sort of tech that is like a tv. but this is both a holographic type tv, but one that one can step into so you can see the movie or tv episode happening around you.
There are vehicles also. some may wonder why have a car or ship if you can teleport anywhere. Well in a vehicle you can go with some other friends, some like having a vehicle they can basically live in, though a soul could teleport here, do stuff, teleport home during their break time, or teleport somewhere else to hang out with some friends. Some may see it as less of a hasel to just hang out on the ship. And if you wish to give certain treatments, like me, you could just pull me to the pod home & do it there. Some may see it more convenient to just say give me a treatment on the ship instead of having those needed to teleport to this 1 spot, get me there however they do that. I guess either soul does it or I do it but at a level I'm not consciously aware of.
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also the way one can pop around in time, a non linear minded soul could for example have a number of pass times. So say I may be in 20 different rpg groups. each time we meet it may be where we play through an entire 10 or 20 level campaign, taking breaks and such for various reasons. and other pastimes as well. Since souls are not limited to being linear one can zip around forward and back in time to do a lot of things.
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I do wonder if I am alone most of the time there, or with 1 or 2 others. It may sound bad, but with the ability to zip forward and back in time, if a soul goes non linear then they could be at home alone in their home, or with 1 or 2 close souls, and at the same time hanging out somewhere else with a group.
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Sharing - This is a thing that the pod does often. The term covers a wide range of things, from mildly sharing energies to what some would call soul or spirit sex, partially or fully merging. Everyone in the pod doesn't do this an equal amount and degree with every other pod members. There will be a group one is especially close to, some one is less close to, and others that one may do mild sharing with and not to often, compared to the more central group. Though the degree that some would call spirit or soul sex is done with pod members, they being more open then some others to this type of thing. not only is it pleasurable for both, it is also sharing affection, closeness of the pod, companionship, and other benefits. The pod is more open to this then some other types. If they do only the mild sharing, of just mingling energies, they may do the equivalent of hugging, or if in a non anthro dolphin or orca type form, rubbing along ones sides, chests, ect. it depends on what degree of sharing they wish to do, up to what some call soul or spiritual sex. and more then 2 can be involved in this.
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Food - I seem to feel/know there is also some sort of food that one can eat. Eating is not needed. But eating can be another type of pleasure, it may be filled with a lot of light energy. this may have varius effects, help to clear blockages, even minor ones, make sure if any blockages start, they may be cleared before any blockages can be aware to the individual involved, and other positive effects.
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had to very brief experiences where it felt like some form of energy was put into me again. just a slight amount, not a huge amount like before. Wonder if it'll alternate back and forth.
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Guess I may be in a sort of resting phase. Mystic experiences seem to be less then before. maybe it's a sort of resting phase where I focus on getting to know me as a soul, seeing what soul knowledge I can access. Guess I know how to do that somehow. Or I'll pretend that I know.
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I also wonder if this has some later on plan. Like if I"ll end up as say this or that. Some end up as healers, psychic readers ect. I've no idea if there is something like that that I'll end up being or if none of that is the goal.
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I wonder if I come up with a list of questions i wonder and see if I can answer them myself if that may help me to get to know myself. Though I doubt this will lead to the next phase, whatever that is. Maybe it is just this and there'll be no nudge towards this or that like some do, like becoming a healer for some, a psychic reader for others.
I would like to find some in rl that are into spiritual and the stuff I've been experiencing. it's nice having 1 main person online I can talk to. having a few more online I can talk to would be nice, but having a few in rl who live near me would be very nice.
If I go with what seems neat to me. I think the channeler types is kinda neat, but that's not a path I'm on since my path is an awakening, becoming one's true self, type of path. No idea what this will lead to. maybe nothing in this incarnation. That'll be ok. Since there is still a lot for me to learn about and realize myself.
Think I'll do the questions list and start trying to answer them tonight. and forward.
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Did some light meditating on it, l do feel a strong pull towards home. I guess it's the soul home. Where the pod and twin flame are at. Though at the same time, this incarnation is not finished and I've some things to do first. Things such as fully awakening, getting to 5d, then 6d if I can get that far. Other things perhaps that I'm not yet aware of or know.
from twin, <yes, once you're here, life for you will be similar to some of your experiences. And as you know you'll be able to do what you want. No having to do this or that. There is always a celebration when a fellow pod member returns. Then those you are closest to will have their own celebration as well. Even some you are close to at a soul level, but are not yet aware of. Yes, even though technically you are a new soul, you still recall the wisdom, experiences ect of before, though you are not fully aware of all of it as of yet, so in all respects you are the same as before your current soul became yours and temporarily mine. After all those celebrations you'll have our own private one. A time of rest, reflection, you to get use to being back here in your native 6d. Which you'll get the hang of very quickly. Then things will go back to normal for you. >
"including all the sharing stuff?" <Yes, there is a sort of central group you share with the most often, those you care closest to, not all are pod members, but soul friends and others from before that you feel close enough that at the soul level you regard them as family and the closest of friends, though you are not fully aware of them and some choose to not reveal themselves till you are back here. There are others you share with less often, and some less then that. most will be pod members, but not all.>
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I was thinking of aspects. I think for example Chad's personality now is very similar to mine, but with some differences. and if say chad became an external aspect and had an aspect of his then that one would be a bit different then him in certain ways. so if one goes down this line, an aspect or soul say that is 5 generations down, that soul would be more different then me. 10 generations down even more so. This could be why everyone is an individual. like if one's personality traits are a sliding dial, with different settings, chad's settings may be identical or similar to mine, with a few differences here and here. so as mentioned 5 generations down the personality would be different then mine. Maybe to the extent that 10 generations down you may not be able to tell that this soul is of my lineage, that it descended from me. so to speak. if I understand this well enough.
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Going with this I think I may know some of the change from my switching to a new soul. My original soul I was an extension of, not an aspect. so maybe we were exactly the same personality wise, underneath the 3/4d human programming & conditioning. Original soul evolved up to the next vibration level, dimension or something where contacting me would be very very difficult so a change was needed. Thus the best choice was me becoming an aspect, seperating from the soul I was once part of to becoming an external aspect of what was the soul of the soul I was once part of. Maybe a part of the original soul wondered what it was if it had remained an aspect of the soul he was an external aspect of instead of remaining an independent soul. Maybe this was an issue he had to resolve. most of him liked being an independent soul, but part of him did wonder. This may have been part of the reason why I needed to go independent from it. The best choice was to do like i did and become an external aspect of the soul I'm an external aspect of. I could have remained a full independent soul, but this would have caused huge problems. The choice I made would, perhaps give me a huge support. Not just that maybe the soul i'm an external aspect of, is I think from the 7th or 8th dimension, as well as the other external aspects that he has. Who knows how many they are.
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The soul does feel a bit kinkier. or is it that he's more open to in this area then the soul I was once part of was.
On meditating i wonder if soul may have another aspect maybe. a more female motherly type orca type being. Maybe so he could experience a certain aspect of his feminine side. or is this his feminine side with various likes that she has, like everyone has various likes that they like, at various times based on their moods and other things.
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The feel I get, and I've done a post on pastimes long ago. The feel I get is there is some entertainments that are very similar to here. Not sure how, but if what I somehow is true, then I somehow know the pod has access to some sort of tech that is like a tv. but this is both a holographic type tv, but one that one can step into so you can see the movie or tv episode happening around you.
There are vehicles also. some may wonder why have a car or ship if you can teleport anywhere. Well in a vehicle you can go with some other friends, some like having a vehicle they can basically live in, though a soul could teleport here, do stuff, teleport home during their break time, or teleport somewhere else to hang out with some friends. Some may see it as less of a hasel to just hang out on the ship. And if you wish to give certain treatments, like me, you could just pull me to the pod home & do it there. Some may see it more convenient to just say give me a treatment on the ship instead of having those needed to teleport to this 1 spot, get me there however they do that. I guess either soul does it or I do it but at a level I'm not consciously aware of.
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also the way one can pop around in time, a non linear minded soul could for example have a number of pass times. So say I may be in 20 different rpg groups. each time we meet it may be where we play through an entire 10 or 20 level campaign, taking breaks and such for various reasons. and other pastimes as well. Since souls are not limited to being linear one can zip around forward and back in time to do a lot of things.
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I do wonder if I am alone most of the time there, or with 1 or 2 others. It may sound bad, but with the ability to zip forward and back in time, if a soul goes non linear then they could be at home alone in their home, or with 1 or 2 close souls, and at the same time hanging out somewhere else with a group.
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Sharing - This is a thing that the pod does often. The term covers a wide range of things, from mildly sharing energies to what some would call soul or spirit sex, partially or fully merging. Everyone in the pod doesn't do this an equal amount and degree with every other pod members. There will be a group one is especially close to, some one is less close to, and others that one may do mild sharing with and not to often, compared to the more central group. Though the degree that some would call spirit or soul sex is done with pod members, they being more open then some others to this type of thing. not only is it pleasurable for both, it is also sharing affection, closeness of the pod, companionship, and other benefits. The pod is more open to this then some other types. If they do only the mild sharing, of just mingling energies, they may do the equivalent of hugging, or if in a non anthro dolphin or orca type form, rubbing along ones sides, chests, ect. it depends on what degree of sharing they wish to do, up to what some call soul or spiritual sex. and more then 2 can be involved in this.
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Food - I seem to feel/know there is also some sort of food that one can eat. Eating is not needed. But eating can be another type of pleasure, it may be filled with a lot of light energy. this may have varius effects, help to clear blockages, even minor ones, make sure if any blockages start, they may be cleared before any blockages can be aware to the individual involved, and other positive effects.
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had to very brief experiences where it felt like some form of energy was put into me again. just a slight amount, not a huge amount like before. Wonder if it'll alternate back and forth.
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Guess I may be in a sort of resting phase. Mystic experiences seem to be less then before. maybe it's a sort of resting phase where I focus on getting to know me as a soul, seeing what soul knowledge I can access. Guess I know how to do that somehow. Or I'll pretend that I know.
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I also wonder if this has some later on plan. Like if I"ll end up as say this or that. Some end up as healers, psychic readers ect. I've no idea if there is something like that that I'll end up being or if none of that is the goal.
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I wonder if I come up with a list of questions i wonder and see if I can answer them myself if that may help me to get to know myself. Though I doubt this will lead to the next phase, whatever that is. Maybe it is just this and there'll be no nudge towards this or that like some do, like becoming a healer for some, a psychic reader for others.
I would like to find some in rl that are into spiritual and the stuff I've been experiencing. it's nice having 1 main person online I can talk to. having a few more online I can talk to would be nice, but having a few in rl who live near me would be very nice.
If I go with what seems neat to me. I think the channeler types is kinda neat, but that's not a path I'm on since my path is an awakening, becoming one's true self, type of path. No idea what this will lead to. maybe nothing in this incarnation. That'll be ok. Since there is still a lot for me to learn about and realize myself.
Think I'll do the questions list and start trying to answer them tonight. and forward.
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Friday, February 13, 2015
Friday [2-13]
I felt around and in the central channel. Feels like it is still flowing upwards the same as before. can't feel it usually since I think I'm getting use to it. Also I do feel an energy of some sort flowing down from above my head somewhere and into my body and maybe the central channel too, not sure.
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Very true, channels within channels and many channels.
I think yesterday or today i maybe know why at least beings do not use names, or maybe it's just the fellow pod members. They know who you meant when you mention someone. For example if you were talking to a friend of yours, and you say something like , "he said something great to me today." the other being, or at least pod member will know who you meant since part of your intent to send the message was to include who the he was. Not sure if that makes any sense.
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Not sure if it was being more of it's seductive tricks stuff again. It said, while at one point I felt like hand on my chest again, rubbing to one side, <when you are back home we'll explore and experience the many dimensions of pleasure together, and you will do so also alone, with some other pod members and other beings.>
"being a sort of paradox, as a new being and not a new being, <yes, both you are new to this, the pod being your soul family, but also it is not new to you, both at the same time. You did choose to take this unique opportunity and experience and for good reason. some do like being a bit of a paradox, though paradoxes don't really apply to souls, just to certain levels of understanding.>
"and when you say pleasure, you mean more then just that, love, affection, companionship, ect." <yes, when I say "pleasure" to you it has many layers, meanings, definitions perhaps also. Love, companionship, joy, and others at times as well. Though unlike what some would call extremists we do not do this with just anyone that catches our interest. though there can be growth in that as well for those involved, growth and learning, it's not really our way. though we do count some of them as friends, at the pod level and for some at a more personal level. For others mathematics may be their pleasure, others nearly unemotional logic, and for others, other ways. >
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Had an interesting experience. I lay down to take a nap and it felt like someone or something, not sure if it was soul or something dan or another guide did. But it did feel like someone or something connected to the kundalini channel and streamed a bit more of whatever the energy into the channel. Not to stretch it, but just to put some extra in for whatever reason.
Then It felt like kundalini for the first time was communicating with me. At times I got a sort of feeling like it wanted me to go into certain postures, which I did for short periods of time. At times I would also get mental images of a posture. Not sure if both of those were from kundalini or maybe 1 was and the other was maybe a guide or technician or something that wanted me to do certain postures. After I did it felt like kundalni was happy or something since it felt like it was flowing more strongly and I could feel a pleasure sort of feeling as well.
in reflection it seems like my sex drive is at a fairly constant high level, or higher then it was before.
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I felt around and in the central channel. Feels like it is still flowing upwards the same as before. can't feel it usually since I think I'm getting use to it. Also I do feel an energy of some sort flowing down from above my head somewhere and into my body and maybe the central channel too, not sure.
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Very true, channels within channels and many channels.
I think yesterday or today i maybe know why at least beings do not use names, or maybe it's just the fellow pod members. They know who you meant when you mention someone. For example if you were talking to a friend of yours, and you say something like , "he said something great to me today." the other being, or at least pod member will know who you meant since part of your intent to send the message was to include who the he was. Not sure if that makes any sense.
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Not sure if it was being more of it's seductive tricks stuff again. It said, while at one point I felt like hand on my chest again, rubbing to one side, <when you are back home we'll explore and experience the many dimensions of pleasure together, and you will do so also alone, with some other pod members and other beings.>
"being a sort of paradox, as a new being and not a new being, <yes, both you are new to this, the pod being your soul family, but also it is not new to you, both at the same time. You did choose to take this unique opportunity and experience and for good reason. some do like being a bit of a paradox, though paradoxes don't really apply to souls, just to certain levels of understanding.>
"and when you say pleasure, you mean more then just that, love, affection, companionship, ect." <yes, when I say "pleasure" to you it has many layers, meanings, definitions perhaps also. Love, companionship, joy, and others at times as well. Though unlike what some would call extremists we do not do this with just anyone that catches our interest. though there can be growth in that as well for those involved, growth and learning, it's not really our way. though we do count some of them as friends, at the pod level and for some at a more personal level. For others mathematics may be their pleasure, others nearly unemotional logic, and for others, other ways. >
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Had an interesting experience. I lay down to take a nap and it felt like someone or something, not sure if it was soul or something dan or another guide did. But it did feel like someone or something connected to the kundalini channel and streamed a bit more of whatever the energy into the channel. Not to stretch it, but just to put some extra in for whatever reason.
Then It felt like kundalini for the first time was communicating with me. At times I got a sort of feeling like it wanted me to go into certain postures, which I did for short periods of time. At times I would also get mental images of a posture. Not sure if both of those were from kundalini or maybe 1 was and the other was maybe a guide or technician or something that wanted me to do certain postures. After I did it felt like kundalni was happy or something since it felt like it was flowing more strongly and I could feel a pleasure sort of feeling as well.
in reflection it seems like my sex drive is at a fairly constant high level, or higher then it was before.
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Got curious. I think I know at least
some of the reasons I'm here or came here. But I have another question,
that I hope they can answer, them being the soul I'm part of, my twin
flame, the 2 guide types, Dan and Stan, though I guess they are also
soul brothers also since we all share the same soul, the 3 of us being
external aspects of his. The one I call green sister who does feel like
a .... maybe a sister, very close friend type. Soul may have other
aspects so who knows how many soul siblings i have.
My question though maybe multiple questions, is, what will it be like once I'm back there among my soul family there. What are some of the sorts of things I may do, what'll it be like to be there among them fully, and that sort of thing. I do wonder if they will answer it somehow. Just curious. I'll assume that that sort of thing isn't a secret. ;)
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My question though maybe multiple questions, is, what will it be like once I'm back there among my soul family there. What are some of the sorts of things I may do, what'll it be like to be there among them fully, and that sort of thing. I do wonder if they will answer it somehow. Just curious. I'll assume that that sort of thing isn't a secret. ;)
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no answer from them so far. It may come later, or maybe it is a big
secret I'm not supposed to know till I'm fully there. I had assumed it
would not be a secret, but maybe it is.
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I was thinking on Soul ages and relationships. Both can get a bit complicated.
For soul ages for example. Some say it is an iron clad thing. Young, old, ect. But it is complex and blurred. One's energy has been around since the 1 started everything. Also as far as identity, one can be say like me, who's a new/old soul. to the degree say what some call a past life that soul was doing. Was that really me. It was say soul, though I was maybe an aspect at that time, or an unrealized aspect. or a potential aspect. Also the past lives that twin flame and I had that lead to use becoming full twin flames, could be me, but I've switched to being an aspect of another soul, that was the soul's soul that I was part of. it is pretty complicated. I did choose to remember, or at least have access to that wisdom, experience, ect so I'd not be a new/young soul didn't want to go through a l that again. To much of a bother really. Also the feel I get is souls may not recall their incarnations with as much detail as one does during an incarnation. Though each soul will be different, and they may differ over time. some memories will be easy to recall. i think it is similar to say once one is say 40, how much can one recall of say 4th grade elementary school. once one is back as a full soul the incarnations of the past I think are much like that. Some details recalled but not super detail. though I would assume if a soul wanted to really dig they could get to all the memories and recall it perfectly, but most don't see the need. incarnating is fun for many souls, and for some it's mainly a job. I go here to do this, or these things. though I will have some fun on the side. others do incarnate for at least half fun, and half to work on certain issues.
I also get the feel that maybe after this I may not incarnate anymore. I do feel different then before. Not that I hate being here. Just thing my perspective has change, something inside me has changed along the way, not sure where or when. Maybe switching souls or the kundalini rising or something.
Though original soul, from what some of the pod members said. Did a mission, visiting the pod during a mission when he could, then between missions he would live there. and the time between missions may be decades or hundreds of years, so to speak. maybe after a few hundred years I may change my mind, or I may prefer remaining on the other side of things. Similar to Seth, though I need to read more of the book, where he's not focused on physical reality anymore. i do feel like something in me has changed, not sure if it is the switching souls, or just becoming more of my true self, but I do think this may be my last incarnation ever, or at least for a very very very long time, thousands of years. Since I assume there are many things to do that do not involve incarnating.
I am also curious if when I go back to the pod, if that will be just me going home, or will that count as another incarnation, or a mix of the 2.
As for having a new soul, that is also a complex thing. I am a complete soul with no need to become an aspect of another soul. Though being an external aspect of a soul does offer one numerous advantages. one is a fairly large support system since the one that one is an external aspect of will be what some would call a higher order or higher, more developed, soul, to put levels to it, several dimensions ahead so to speak. also if that soul has other external aspects, and likely it will, they'll be like a very close family/friends, mixed into one.
And soul relationships are complex also, in a way. With say the pod, there are likely members that i am, or will be very close to, the close family members so to day. others I'm not as close to and others I see but only talk to or interact with now and then. Then there are the ones that are aspects of the same soul that I'm an external aspect of. siblings so to speak.
Then one can have soul friends that are close enough to be a soul family, perhaps even sharing some energy of their very being so that are family, as well as being close friends, but are not of the same soul lineage, like say all the pod members are. Since I'd assume they are of the same lineage, being dolphin and orca type beings. whereas someone who is of a lineage of looking like this or that could be as close to one as the closest pod member is to me, they would be another soul lineage, but if we have shared mingled some of our being and soul energy. we may indeed be close enough to regard and be close family members.
So twin flame and I can remain primary twin flames since we both want to, though that me in those past lives with her was at the same time, me and not me. a paradox, but as she said paradox doesn't really apply to souls and some like being paradoxes, or a bit of a paradox.
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No info or answer from them, so I guess it is a big secret what it'll be like for me once I get there after this incarnation is over. I had assumed it was no secret, but I was wrong. One of the many things I was wrong about, and likely there will be more.
Only thing I got this time was some sort of procedure being done. I felt a tingling or resonating in one spot of my back and what felt like some sort of tendril thing reaching into me through that spot to do various whatever, some had a hint of slight pain. Soul or someone said it was unfortunate but a slight amount was understood to happen based on what they were doing. No idea what they were doing. Felt like removing something, small. Though from the feel of it it didn't hinder the flow of kundalini though the spot that was resonating was right over my spine and the tendril did feel like it was doing stuff along the back, maybe some spots of the channel and the edges of the spinal bone. No idea what since they were not telling. At the end felt like they put a slight amount of whatever energy into the kundalini channel.
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also, forgot to put down before. Felt like some part of me was very very light. No idea what is up with that. Then someone said something about anchoring your fin, and I felt someone or something doing something to my back. Like they were adding something on. Then the same person said something like anchoring the tail and I felt like something was stuck on the end part of my spine.
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I felt a mental contact and instinctively knew it was her. I asked if it was and she said yes. I jokingly said, "prove it." not seriously but in a joking manner.
Had an experience with my twin flame again. It felt like she stepped or popped into where I am. I could feel her all around me and I knew it was her. Some soul level instinct instantly knew. I could feel our energies starting to mingle, and start to merge. to call it a pleasurable or orgasmic experience is to not do it true justice. I think I wasn't thinking this whole time. I lost myself in the experience, surrendering to the experience and it felt indeed like our energies were starting to merge into one. Then I felt the equivalent of her finger on the tip of my orca rostrum and then her saying, <no. You have an incarnation to finish first.> she said with what I felt like her smiling. <When you return back here, and after the welcome home party. A week will pass and we won't know it.> It did feel like my energy was resonating. and my kundalini was flowing strong, or had more energy.
A few minutes later she did the same and I lost myself in the experience again. Though when she did the equivalent of putting her finer on the tip of my orca rostrum and I got a mental image of her smiling I remembered her earlier message. and I was left again feeling like I was resonating and with my kundalini was flowing stronger or it had more energy.
Then 5 or 10 minutes later i felt her pop or around me again. this time i was able to resist the loosing myself and our energy merging. It took a surprising amount of will not to just surrender to the experience and let our energies to start to merge to form one.
I asked her and she did affirm that yes, she was doing what she as doing to increase my vibration, so I could be more of the true me, my true self. She also then said, because of who and what we are, our vibrations want to match, be in perfect harmony. So hers is helping mine.
a bit after this, an hour or so. I decided to try something to see what would happen. I closed my eyes and meditated on us being together, kissing. First me in an orca form and she in her dolphin form, my orca being the same size as her dolphin form. we were then holding each other, no sex at all, just embracing. this time we were chest and belly touching and our tails intertwined as much as they could. she shifted then i did, so we were in anthro forms. i could feel my energy or body resonating slightly just from this. and my kundalini feels slightly warm. Then I got her giggling good naturally saying <hehehe, stop, you're distracting me.> I did stop, not sure if she meant it or not, but how knows what she was doing, maybe something important. hehe, but i did find out one way to distract her. One of her buttons maybe. ;)
As i was about to type this I did get a mental message from her, it felt like her smiling and she said, <oh, yes, you've discovered one of my buttons. wait till you figure out more.>
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I sent my twin flame, "happy valentines day." though I had no idea if she would know what it was. I got the mental impression of her smiling then saying, <happy valentines day yourself.> then in a more seductive tone of voice, <I'll have your valentines here when you get back home.> oooooo.
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I was thinking on Soul ages and relationships. Both can get a bit complicated.
For soul ages for example. Some say it is an iron clad thing. Young, old, ect. But it is complex and blurred. One's energy has been around since the 1 started everything. Also as far as identity, one can be say like me, who's a new/old soul. to the degree say what some call a past life that soul was doing. Was that really me. It was say soul, though I was maybe an aspect at that time, or an unrealized aspect. or a potential aspect. Also the past lives that twin flame and I had that lead to use becoming full twin flames, could be me, but I've switched to being an aspect of another soul, that was the soul's soul that I was part of. it is pretty complicated. I did choose to remember, or at least have access to that wisdom, experience, ect so I'd not be a new/young soul didn't want to go through a l that again. To much of a bother really. Also the feel I get is souls may not recall their incarnations with as much detail as one does during an incarnation. Though each soul will be different, and they may differ over time. some memories will be easy to recall. i think it is similar to say once one is say 40, how much can one recall of say 4th grade elementary school. once one is back as a full soul the incarnations of the past I think are much like that. Some details recalled but not super detail. though I would assume if a soul wanted to really dig they could get to all the memories and recall it perfectly, but most don't see the need. incarnating is fun for many souls, and for some it's mainly a job. I go here to do this, or these things. though I will have some fun on the side. others do incarnate for at least half fun, and half to work on certain issues.
I also get the feel that maybe after this I may not incarnate anymore. I do feel different then before. Not that I hate being here. Just thing my perspective has change, something inside me has changed along the way, not sure where or when. Maybe switching souls or the kundalini rising or something.
Though original soul, from what some of the pod members said. Did a mission, visiting the pod during a mission when he could, then between missions he would live there. and the time between missions may be decades or hundreds of years, so to speak. maybe after a few hundred years I may change my mind, or I may prefer remaining on the other side of things. Similar to Seth, though I need to read more of the book, where he's not focused on physical reality anymore. i do feel like something in me has changed, not sure if it is the switching souls, or just becoming more of my true self, but I do think this may be my last incarnation ever, or at least for a very very very long time, thousands of years. Since I assume there are many things to do that do not involve incarnating.
I am also curious if when I go back to the pod, if that will be just me going home, or will that count as another incarnation, or a mix of the 2.
As for having a new soul, that is also a complex thing. I am a complete soul with no need to become an aspect of another soul. Though being an external aspect of a soul does offer one numerous advantages. one is a fairly large support system since the one that one is an external aspect of will be what some would call a higher order or higher, more developed, soul, to put levels to it, several dimensions ahead so to speak. also if that soul has other external aspects, and likely it will, they'll be like a very close family/friends, mixed into one.
And soul relationships are complex also, in a way. With say the pod, there are likely members that i am, or will be very close to, the close family members so to day. others I'm not as close to and others I see but only talk to or interact with now and then. Then there are the ones that are aspects of the same soul that I'm an external aspect of. siblings so to speak.
Then one can have soul friends that are close enough to be a soul family, perhaps even sharing some energy of their very being so that are family, as well as being close friends, but are not of the same soul lineage, like say all the pod members are. Since I'd assume they are of the same lineage, being dolphin and orca type beings. whereas someone who is of a lineage of looking like this or that could be as close to one as the closest pod member is to me, they would be another soul lineage, but if we have shared mingled some of our being and soul energy. we may indeed be close enough to regard and be close family members.
So twin flame and I can remain primary twin flames since we both want to, though that me in those past lives with her was at the same time, me and not me. a paradox, but as she said paradox doesn't really apply to souls and some like being paradoxes, or a bit of a paradox.
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No info or answer from them, so I guess it is a big secret what it'll be like for me once I get there after this incarnation is over. I had assumed it was no secret, but I was wrong. One of the many things I was wrong about, and likely there will be more.
Only thing I got this time was some sort of procedure being done. I felt a tingling or resonating in one spot of my back and what felt like some sort of tendril thing reaching into me through that spot to do various whatever, some had a hint of slight pain. Soul or someone said it was unfortunate but a slight amount was understood to happen based on what they were doing. No idea what they were doing. Felt like removing something, small. Though from the feel of it it didn't hinder the flow of kundalini though the spot that was resonating was right over my spine and the tendril did feel like it was doing stuff along the back, maybe some spots of the channel and the edges of the spinal bone. No idea what since they were not telling. At the end felt like they put a slight amount of whatever energy into the kundalini channel.
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also, forgot to put down before. Felt like some part of me was very very light. No idea what is up with that. Then someone said something about anchoring your fin, and I felt someone or something doing something to my back. Like they were adding something on. Then the same person said something like anchoring the tail and I felt like something was stuck on the end part of my spine.
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I felt a mental contact and instinctively knew it was her. I asked if it was and she said yes. I jokingly said, "prove it." not seriously but in a joking manner.
Had an experience with my twin flame again. It felt like she stepped or popped into where I am. I could feel her all around me and I knew it was her. Some soul level instinct instantly knew. I could feel our energies starting to mingle, and start to merge. to call it a pleasurable or orgasmic experience is to not do it true justice. I think I wasn't thinking this whole time. I lost myself in the experience, surrendering to the experience and it felt indeed like our energies were starting to merge into one. Then I felt the equivalent of her finger on the tip of my orca rostrum and then her saying, <no. You have an incarnation to finish first.> she said with what I felt like her smiling. <When you return back here, and after the welcome home party. A week will pass and we won't know it.> It did feel like my energy was resonating. and my kundalini was flowing strong, or had more energy.
A few minutes later she did the same and I lost myself in the experience again. Though when she did the equivalent of putting her finer on the tip of my orca rostrum and I got a mental image of her smiling I remembered her earlier message. and I was left again feeling like I was resonating and with my kundalini was flowing stronger or it had more energy.
Then 5 or 10 minutes later i felt her pop or around me again. this time i was able to resist the loosing myself and our energy merging. It took a surprising amount of will not to just surrender to the experience and let our energies to start to merge to form one.
I asked her and she did affirm that yes, she was doing what she as doing to increase my vibration, so I could be more of the true me, my true self. She also then said, because of who and what we are, our vibrations want to match, be in perfect harmony. So hers is helping mine.
a bit after this, an hour or so. I decided to try something to see what would happen. I closed my eyes and meditated on us being together, kissing. First me in an orca form and she in her dolphin form, my orca being the same size as her dolphin form. we were then holding each other, no sex at all, just embracing. this time we were chest and belly touching and our tails intertwined as much as they could. she shifted then i did, so we were in anthro forms. i could feel my energy or body resonating slightly just from this. and my kundalini feels slightly warm. Then I got her giggling good naturally saying <hehehe, stop, you're distracting me.> I did stop, not sure if she meant it or not, but how knows what she was doing, maybe something important. hehe, but i did find out one way to distract her. One of her buttons maybe. ;)
As i was about to type this I did get a mental message from her, it felt like her smiling and she said, <oh, yes, you've discovered one of my buttons. wait till you figure out more.>
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I sent my twin flame, "happy valentines day." though I had no idea if she would know what it was. I got the mental impression of her smiling then saying, <happy valentines day yourself.> then in a more seductive tone of voice, <I'll have your valentines here when you get back home.> oooooo.
Thursday, February 12, 2015
Thursday [2-12]
Interesting. That may be why it feels like my kundalini rises up through the top of my head and that felt like it descends and they sort of cross each other, so to speak.
Not sure if I did put this down above, but it felt like this would be a unique experience for me as a soul that rarely comes up. If that makes any sense. I'm getting use to the new me, think I am mostly use to it. I guess I've had a full kundalini rising, neat. I'm getting use to or use to the way it feels, sorta like an eternal snake crawling up my spine, up through the top of my head. The new experience I guess is me being a new/old soul who's an external aspect of a higher level soul. I did ask it before, and he did say he's not directly from source, there is at least 1 between him and source. Though he would not say how many, same as he would not say how many current aspects he has.
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also spent a bit of time embracing, hugging, and a bit of licking the jaw of green sister as I call her, some shared affection, & intimacy, no sex really involved.
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On bus on way to place to play RPG. Fred 1st chapter of 1st Seth book. Stan wanted to experience what it is like to be physical. It kinda felt like he wazzup sitting where I was. He said he HaD not been this dense of a being before. He said he better understands the limitation I live in under and experience. Though it would also allow 1 to experience unique pleasures. Not his thing but he better understands what it is like for me being here.
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Seeing if I can recall any past or parallel lives from original soul. just get vague sorta impressions. light blue skin humanoid, dolphin like beings. that is all I can get for now. Current soul: Same maybe, more cetaceans maybe? it's energy feels much more potent, concentrated, powerful, then the original soul's. a lot more concentrated, love/joy/pleasure/relaxed/contentedness/affection/sexual maybe, maybe companionship? hard to describe the feeling of the energy besides it does feel more potent, concentrated, powerful.
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had a wild experience after a shower and I lay down to nap. hard to describe exactly. For no reason my sex drive was way way above it's normal peak level. To the extent that I mentally said to the soul I'm an external aspect of that I wished he were here physically so we could just do it. Then he said <why not do it now?, or something like that. I asked just like that and he said <sure, why not>.
The next experiences are something I can't begin to experience. he said something like <time to experience your true being.> or something like that. and I felt, the closest I can explain was the energy I felt was a bunch of feelings at once. Bliss, pleasure, orgasm, (both sexual and non sexual versions of the first 3 at once), love, joy, and perhaps more. The energy and feeling was all inside me, my very being. This went on for a while then stopped. after a few minutes or maybe longer it started up a 2nd time, but not as strong this time. Then another pause, like a rest or something. Then the 3rd time. But this time I was not just experiencing it, but it was being streamed into me from where I could not tell. It felt like it was being streamed into both my body, or whatever energy body is inside this body, but also into the channel the kundalini travels. This went on, with the soul I'm an external aspect of streaming energy into me continuously. I felt like something in me was dissolved during this, no idea what it was, a block, or something else? Till at one point it said in a humorous, non serious manner, <better stop before you pop.>
I lay on the bed for a while. It felt like my body was resonating far stronger then it had for a long time, and the kundalini felt far more concentrated then it's ever been. the resonating in my body has been fading since then. But a few minutes after the experience was over it felt like the concentration of the kundalini energy was to much for the channel and it stretched, maybe forced stretched since the energy or kundalini was to concentrated. I feel a not, soreness, or slight tenderness there, but something. It feels now like the channel the kundalini travels up is slightly wider then my spine now.
I asked soul and it said it streamed energy into me from a spacial direction that doesn't exist in the universe I currently inhabit.
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Also today I noticed, not sure how long I'd been like this. I didn't just know or feel that everyone is one. I was experiencing it. Sorta like I can lean my head forwards and sorta experience it, almost like before, or hold my head in the normal position and I experience it, everyone is all 1 soul, with individual identities. hard to describe.
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A few hours later and I wonder what Soul did to me. I tried asking it and all it said was, <fun wasn't it?> with the impression of it was smiling.
<see, fooling around with me, can lead to fun, pleasurable experiences like that.> <being an aspect of mine has many such advantages, many pleasures. I promise more in your future.>
Not worried, just curious what he did to me. I did a bit of digging deep into me. Felt a feeling that I'm not consciously aware of usually. Pod, home.
hmm. <the pull of home. I'll always be there, but you are doing well. that is why the pull is, somewhat sleeping. that is a good sign, but it is always there. when you cross over, the pull will awaken at the apropriate time. one of use will escort you home, perhaps stan, dan, or the one you call green sister. >
"Feels normal that a high level being like yourself does like what some here call sex, sharing as the pod calls it." <yes, natural for us. but you already accept this, i can feel that. good. live what is natural. We share pleasures, and other things.>
"are you trying to seduce me or something? "
<no, I am. :) our nature is not just the love/joy or souls, it is also pleasure, affection, companionship, sharing pleasure, affection, among ourselves and some others. though we are not extremists, there are some among our friends who are.>
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a bit after this i felt him caress my chest softly. <This is part of our nature.> "yes, I know, feel that. and you are getting .. good a pressing certain buttons, very seductive, erotic even. <good, I've made it my, duty, focus, pleasure to learn every button of each of my aspects, so we can more efficiently share pleasures, and aspects can also share pleasures more efficiently and better as well. It is part of our nature, besides the usual soul love/joy and so on. it is a port of our nature ot also share pleasure, affection, companionship. > "you're certainly learning quick my buttons." <indeed. wait till you're here and i have learned all of them. and what I learn, my other aspects can learn from and access.>
"Do you have a body where the pod is that you use?" <no, but I can make one easily if I want. doing that where you are is ... not worth the bother. easier by far where the pod is. and between aspects and me, why do that. we can just use my ... what you call the white buffer place.. as one of my aspects, you have full access to it you know.>
"Guess I don't really know what I'll be like once I'm back home." <you have some clues. For us it is like this, pleasure, sharing pleasures, affection, companionship. Others ways are different, mathematics, and other ways. natural for them as these are for us. Embrace and accept our ways. I know you have, but continue to do this. and you'll learn much.>
Does part of me feel light, some part inside? feels like maybe it is ? floating?
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"you're getting to where you can be as seductive or erotic as my twin flame is. <there is an excellent idea. the 3 of us can have some fun when you are here. the 2 of us knowing all of your buttons by then. I'll ask her and arrange it.> ooo interesting. can that be more then once? <intend it to be. maybe even another aspect of mine at times, or 2.>
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I do wonder if my kundalini channel will get wider or be forced wider like it was. and if more energy will be streamed or pumped into me like it was earlier today. is that just for pleasure/fun, or does it increase my vibration, or have other reasons, effects too? I wonder.
Interesting. That may be why it feels like my kundalini rises up through the top of my head and that felt like it descends and they sort of cross each other, so to speak.
Not sure if I did put this down above, but it felt like this would be a unique experience for me as a soul that rarely comes up. If that makes any sense. I'm getting use to the new me, think I am mostly use to it. I guess I've had a full kundalini rising, neat. I'm getting use to or use to the way it feels, sorta like an eternal snake crawling up my spine, up through the top of my head. The new experience I guess is me being a new/old soul who's an external aspect of a higher level soul. I did ask it before, and he did say he's not directly from source, there is at least 1 between him and source. Though he would not say how many, same as he would not say how many current aspects he has.
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also spent a bit of time embracing, hugging, and a bit of licking the jaw of green sister as I call her, some shared affection, & intimacy, no sex really involved.
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On bus on way to place to play RPG. Fred 1st chapter of 1st Seth book. Stan wanted to experience what it is like to be physical. It kinda felt like he wazzup sitting where I was. He said he HaD not been this dense of a being before. He said he better understands the limitation I live in under and experience. Though it would also allow 1 to experience unique pleasures. Not his thing but he better understands what it is like for me being here.
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Seeing if I can recall any past or parallel lives from original soul. just get vague sorta impressions. light blue skin humanoid, dolphin like beings. that is all I can get for now. Current soul: Same maybe, more cetaceans maybe? it's energy feels much more potent, concentrated, powerful, then the original soul's. a lot more concentrated, love/joy/pleasure/relaxed/contentedness/affection/sexual maybe, maybe companionship? hard to describe the feeling of the energy besides it does feel more potent, concentrated, powerful.
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had a wild experience after a shower and I lay down to nap. hard to describe exactly. For no reason my sex drive was way way above it's normal peak level. To the extent that I mentally said to the soul I'm an external aspect of that I wished he were here physically so we could just do it. Then he said <why not do it now?, or something like that. I asked just like that and he said <sure, why not>.
The next experiences are something I can't begin to experience. he said something like <time to experience your true being.> or something like that. and I felt, the closest I can explain was the energy I felt was a bunch of feelings at once. Bliss, pleasure, orgasm, (both sexual and non sexual versions of the first 3 at once), love, joy, and perhaps more. The energy and feeling was all inside me, my very being. This went on for a while then stopped. after a few minutes or maybe longer it started up a 2nd time, but not as strong this time. Then another pause, like a rest or something. Then the 3rd time. But this time I was not just experiencing it, but it was being streamed into me from where I could not tell. It felt like it was being streamed into both my body, or whatever energy body is inside this body, but also into the channel the kundalini travels. This went on, with the soul I'm an external aspect of streaming energy into me continuously. I felt like something in me was dissolved during this, no idea what it was, a block, or something else? Till at one point it said in a humorous, non serious manner, <better stop before you pop.>
I lay on the bed for a while. It felt like my body was resonating far stronger then it had for a long time, and the kundalini felt far more concentrated then it's ever been. the resonating in my body has been fading since then. But a few minutes after the experience was over it felt like the concentration of the kundalini energy was to much for the channel and it stretched, maybe forced stretched since the energy or kundalini was to concentrated. I feel a not, soreness, or slight tenderness there, but something. It feels now like the channel the kundalini travels up is slightly wider then my spine now.
I asked soul and it said it streamed energy into me from a spacial direction that doesn't exist in the universe I currently inhabit.
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Also today I noticed, not sure how long I'd been like this. I didn't just know or feel that everyone is one. I was experiencing it. Sorta like I can lean my head forwards and sorta experience it, almost like before, or hold my head in the normal position and I experience it, everyone is all 1 soul, with individual identities. hard to describe.
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A few hours later and I wonder what Soul did to me. I tried asking it and all it said was, <fun wasn't it?> with the impression of it was smiling.
<see, fooling around with me, can lead to fun, pleasurable experiences like that.> <being an aspect of mine has many such advantages, many pleasures. I promise more in your future.>
Not worried, just curious what he did to me. I did a bit of digging deep into me. Felt a feeling that I'm not consciously aware of usually. Pod, home.
hmm. <the pull of home. I'll always be there, but you are doing well. that is why the pull is, somewhat sleeping. that is a good sign, but it is always there. when you cross over, the pull will awaken at the apropriate time. one of use will escort you home, perhaps stan, dan, or the one you call green sister. >
"Feels normal that a high level being like yourself does like what some here call sex, sharing as the pod calls it." <yes, natural for us. but you already accept this, i can feel that. good. live what is natural. We share pleasures, and other things.>
"are you trying to seduce me or something? "
<no, I am. :) our nature is not just the love/joy or souls, it is also pleasure, affection, companionship, sharing pleasure, affection, among ourselves and some others. though we are not extremists, there are some among our friends who are.>
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a bit after this i felt him caress my chest softly. <This is part of our nature.> "yes, I know, feel that. and you are getting .. good a pressing certain buttons, very seductive, erotic even. <good, I've made it my, duty, focus, pleasure to learn every button of each of my aspects, so we can more efficiently share pleasures, and aspects can also share pleasures more efficiently and better as well. It is part of our nature, besides the usual soul love/joy and so on. it is a port of our nature ot also share pleasure, affection, companionship. > "you're certainly learning quick my buttons." <indeed. wait till you're here and i have learned all of them. and what I learn, my other aspects can learn from and access.>
"Do you have a body where the pod is that you use?" <no, but I can make one easily if I want. doing that where you are is ... not worth the bother. easier by far where the pod is. and between aspects and me, why do that. we can just use my ... what you call the white buffer place.. as one of my aspects, you have full access to it you know.>
"Guess I don't really know what I'll be like once I'm back home." <you have some clues. For us it is like this, pleasure, sharing pleasures, affection, companionship. Others ways are different, mathematics, and other ways. natural for them as these are for us. Embrace and accept our ways. I know you have, but continue to do this. and you'll learn much.>
Does part of me feel light, some part inside? feels like maybe it is ? floating?
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"you're getting to where you can be as seductive or erotic as my twin flame is. <there is an excellent idea. the 3 of us can have some fun when you are here. the 2 of us knowing all of your buttons by then. I'll ask her and arrange it.> ooo interesting. can that be more then once? <intend it to be. maybe even another aspect of mine at times, or 2.>
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I do wonder if my kundalini channel will get wider or be forced wider like it was. and if more energy will be streamed or pumped into me like it was earlier today. is that just for pleasure/fun, or does it increase my vibration, or have other reasons, effects too? I wonder.
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
WED [2-11]
I asked the soul I'm an external aspect of now. "am I a new being?" newsoul said <yes. i became a new being twice. first time was when I became your soul, and 2nd when your kundalini rose earlier today. >
"so why did it rise during my sharing with Stan? <why wouldn't it. you are both orcas or dolphins in reality. So is the kundalini you have. It's not really a human kundalini that you have.>
"so i guess for you it was poof. I'm still getting use to having a new soul. <no, not poof for me either. I'm getting use to it also, having a new aspect. >
"I guess you know all my memories?" <not really. though I can access all of your memories far more easily then you can mine. Don't try for now. Just get use to the new you that you are.
"So is this veil going to go away?" <you'd be surprise how much of it is gone. it is dissolving so to speak.> "if you wanted to remove all of it at once for good I'd not mind." <I'll consider and think about that. you just relax, get use to the new you. and you'll gradually slip into 5d before you know it.>
"So those 2 experiences, is that what, sharing is like for souls who are where you are?" <very Similar, it's what its like for an aspect and I who want to share with me or have what some call soul sex. See i can easily access what you know of earth. Though I don't go about prying into your personal memories.>
"can we... do that again in the future?' <sure, anytime you want.> "just like that?" <yes, just like that. if you're surprised I'm that open, considering where i am, then consider, I am what some would call a cetacean or fin soul.> "i don't want to personalty loose myself in that experience when this incarnation is over." <and you won't. You don't want to, and even if you do loose yourself in the experience i don't want you to. You'll get use to that after a while. you are still VERY new to that. So don't worry. I want you to remain an external aspect, not an aspect fully merged into me. and your twin flame doesn't want you to either. >
"it is, different feeling like 7 different things at once, and it's so intense." <good, shows how aware and how much growth you have, to be able to feel that many things at once when we share. it just feels more intense, from where you are. once I incarnate you as a pod member you'll be more use to it. and yes I can do that once you are here, but not right away. I'll let you rest, and such, till the right then when i ask if you want to continue our relationship or not, and it's not forever. if you change your mind later you can go independent. and if you don't like being independent you can always come back.>
"so, if I do remain as an external aspect of yours, you won't incarnate me, like on earth or somewhere? <my only plan really is to incarnate you as a pod member where Stan, your twin and others are at.>
"Will I have to be born into wherever they are?" No, you could experience something like when you accepted my offer to become your new soul and you an external aspect of mine. You'd feel something but not a huge thing. or if you want to experience being inside an orca and being born i can arrange that, and the babyhood and growing up to being an adult. it's a rare thing but a few do like the experience.> "nah, think I'll pass." <consider it, lots of time to consider it.> "is that a kink of yours or something?" He was giving me a mental image of being a baby orca type being feeding from a "mother". <I do have kinks I like. everyone has certain things they like. some things they may not know they'd like. and no, I won't force any on you. Any you dislike you'll still dislike with me as your soul. any you had no feelings for or were neutral about, yu may find you like, or like to indulge in once in a while, or may dislike.> "i'd rather do the poof thing." <that is ok, we'll discuss it again later, the advantages of each. no need to decide now.>
"what changes will I experience or feel with you as my new soul? <some I'd rather you find out for yourself. much of the you you know as you, the true you, won't be changed really. maybe slightly, like looking through colored sunglasses. some bits may be nudged in this or that direction. being an external aspect of a soul higher up from where your former one is at will have some advantages. Some I'd like you to discover for yourself. Some are, you'll be on a sort of fast track, so to speak, as a soul. Much of the changes you'll experience or get to know having a new soul will be more subtle, at least at first. You'll find you like this new arrangement. you really did make the absolute best choice for yourself. any of those other choices would not have been anywhere as good. as time passes, you'll find there are many advantages to being an external aspect of mine. as Stan said, you get the best of both. You can do your own thing, grow, learn advance, and still have the advantages of being an aspect. > "like 2 of your aspects seem to want to share with me." <that is just one of the fringe benefits. and they would have been willing even if you were an aspect of your former soul or an independent soul. they wouldn't once the situation came to light since it may have influenced you and we wanted you to decide for yourself. Though we did do strong hints what would be the best choice for you.>
< but as to the changes of me being your new soul, me having a new aspect, and you being a new being twice. We'll explore and learn that together, as well as exploring and learning certain things alone. It'll come easy.> "go with the flow, accept, and have fun."
<and pleasure. Don't forget pleasure too. and I'd never force you to do anything that you don't want to do.>
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"So, will you share my experiences with my former soul, since his plan and desire was to experience awakening as a human." <at the appropriate time yes.>
"So my getting a new soul helped many to grow and learn?" <yes, yourself, me, some on the forum, others as you go around and feel or know what happened at a soul level, though some of them may not be consciously aware of what happened. >
"So those who are individual souls are still connected like I am with you?" <very similar yes. though the link, bond or whatever you want to call it is dormant, closed, or another term like that. Not exactly right but hard to describe it in english.>
"So, I am a soul, but you are my soul, both at the same time?" <in a manner or speaking yes, though it is very complicated. Even at say my level of being I am still learning more of how the ramifications really work and the full meaning of it.>
"I have felt or read that learning never does stop." <It never does really. >
I feel him smiling a bit <That is one benefit of remaining an external aspect of mine. You can learn from me or through me more easily and faster then being an individual soul, where you are discovering everything yourself. neither is better then the other, just a question of preference or personal taste. There some who do both. Go independent for a while, then an external aspect of a soul. One can be an internal aspect, but that offers less options.>
"As there is always change." <yes, change never happens. Though some past things one will miss, changes bring new possibilities. Some changes can be so gradual one may not notice. Some things never change. One will always have others they are close to to varying extents. Though the exact ones may change. At the soul level friends will often remain friends, if they need to learn certain things, things may change but they ultimately will be friends again. Though some are much closer then mere friends are.>
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So if we are cetacean type beings, dolphin or orca type beings, we still have private dwelling places? <Yes, everyone needs to be alone at times, even fellow pod members need to be alone at times, some more then others.>
"So there are mathematical minded beings <as such yes, that is not our way. Our way is pleasure, companionship beings> I felt a hand touch my abdominal area and caress upward to my chest, not expecting this, and it caressed my chest for a moment <it is a part of your being. You do know this now, but not the full ramifications of this.>
"So, can my dwelling be bigger on the inside then the outside?< sure if you want it to be.> "I woud like that." <ok, done. and yes, just like that.> "cool." <yes, it is cool. and you're not the only one to have that. it is actually very popular. it can and will grow and change as you want.> "like a tardis." <similar, but not exact. it is linked to you, to an extant. Though dan is in the early stages of decorating it and placing certain things in it. Perhaps a vehicle also. but you wanted it to be a surprise so I'll not go into any detail.> "yes, I'd rather it be that way, a pleasant surprise. i guess since he and I have you as our soul that'll make his picking what to put in it easier?" <certainly, I am both of your soul, so he can easily know if you'd like this. this you'd like more then this. but this will make you reflect more. and so on.>
"so, that buffer white space thing. I have one inside me? and you have one too? I guess as an external aspect of yours i can use it at will?" <yes to both, though if I do need it for some reason you'll know. Though you can use 1 dimension so to speak, and I can use anther and we'd have separate uses of it. It can get pretty complicated. But yes you do have free use of it. it can be use for many things. like a 4d being, a 5 or 6d and 8d, could easily all be together.>
"So Dan travels between 5 and 6d?" <indeed, through various means. he can do it himself, Stan or I can move him up. Part of his job or mission is he travels back and forth between the 2.>
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I also had a brief conversation from Stan yesterday that some pod members do like playing rpg, role playing games and there it is not just people around a table with a gm describing what they see, hear ect. they can be like in the world. An interesting thing. I guess like one can experience being the song.
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"so my kundalini, the veil being dissolved or disappearing and being 5d are different things?"
< Yes, those are 3 different phenomena, though some or all 3 can happen at the same time, for some they may not. Depends on various factors, the individual, and other things. Think of the kundalini, your kundalini having reached the top of your head, to use an earth expression, means now that a certain circuit is now complete in you. it can be widened, made more efficient, but it is now complete in you. The other stuff will happen regardless of what you do now. Due to your mission, your former soul's plan, now my plan it seems, and other things as well.>
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Funny thought, I read a thread title, something like Have you ever protected yourself from your twin? In my case the only protection I'd need to use against her is her seductive erotic ways, and she only gets like that, in my experience, at appropriate times, so no need for protection there.
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"as much as pleasure and companionship is part of our being, due to the type of beings we are, it also includes love and affection." <indeed, all 4 and more. it is a part of our very being. You can feel it can't you, experience it.> he at this point did what feels like a long kiss while hugging, with what felt like his hands being pretty low and sorta pressing our groin areas a bit together. "yes, I do accept that is part of my being, ours. <excelent. I feel you have indeed. things will go faster, smoother, certainly more fun for all of us.>
"You are letting me see what things look like where you are. <it would confuse you strongly where you are. when you are with the pod, after a suitable time, if you wish, i can give you a simplistic or over simplistic tour of what it's like where i am. You'll be closer to where i am then and it'll be easier on you then.> "8d is it? <perhaps, perhaps not, but who cares about labels. >
"true. I see you find it easy to do that hug like you did. <easy indeed. you are part of me, so it's easy for me to do that with an aspect. after all I know right where you are and how to do that. it's easy really. Intention is all it takes really. Dan has done the same a bit. Not as much as I have. though close. Stan has, other ways he prefers.> "though Dan is the kinkier one." <when it comes to what you'd call certain dominant kinks yes. Though i don't like the kinks term.>
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"as much as pleasure and companionship is part of our being, due to the type of beings we are, it also includes love and affection." <indeed, all 4 and more. it is a part of our very being. You can feel it can't you, experience it.> he at this point did what feels like a long kiss while hugging, with what felt like his hands being pretty low and sorta pressing our groin areas a bit together. "yes, I do accept that is part of my being, ours. <excelent. I feel you have indeed. things will go faster, smoother, certainly more fun for all of us.>
"You are letting me see what things look like where you are. <it would confuse you strongly where you are. when you are with the pod, after a suitable time, if you wish, i can give you a simplistic or over simplistic tour of what it's like where i am. You'll be closer to where i am then and it'll be easier on you then.> "8d is it? <perhaps, perhaps not, but who cares about labels. >
"true. I see you find it easy to do that hug like you did. <easy indeed. you are part of me, so it's easy for me to do that with an aspect. after all I know right where you are and how to do that. it's easy really. Intention is all it takes really. Dan has done the same a bit. Not as much as I have. though close. Stan has, other ways he prefers.> "though Dan is the kinkier one." <when it comes to what you'd call certain dominant kinks yes. Though i don't like the kinks label.>
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"I don't have a higher self, is that due to our connection?" <you're in a, what some may call a rare situation, though it does happen now and then and has was mentioned before there is a system in place. and the situation you and I were in when the time came when you had to choose if you would accept my offer, and many are glad you did, though there was no real doubt you would choose the best choice. we are in a situation where you don't need a higher self. Once one reaches a point where they no longer need a higher self it does not go away but still exists. though in our case , no higher self was needed so we never had one between us. personally I prefer things this way. though higher selves do indeed have uses and are invaluable and needed in certain situations.>
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I asked the soul I'm an external aspect of now. "am I a new being?" newsoul said <yes. i became a new being twice. first time was when I became your soul, and 2nd when your kundalini rose earlier today. >
"so why did it rise during my sharing with Stan? <why wouldn't it. you are both orcas or dolphins in reality. So is the kundalini you have. It's not really a human kundalini that you have.>
"so i guess for you it was poof. I'm still getting use to having a new soul. <no, not poof for me either. I'm getting use to it also, having a new aspect. >
"I guess you know all my memories?" <not really. though I can access all of your memories far more easily then you can mine. Don't try for now. Just get use to the new you that you are.
"So is this veil going to go away?" <you'd be surprise how much of it is gone. it is dissolving so to speak.> "if you wanted to remove all of it at once for good I'd not mind." <I'll consider and think about that. you just relax, get use to the new you. and you'll gradually slip into 5d before you know it.>
"So those 2 experiences, is that what, sharing is like for souls who are where you are?" <very Similar, it's what its like for an aspect and I who want to share with me or have what some call soul sex. See i can easily access what you know of earth. Though I don't go about prying into your personal memories.>
"can we... do that again in the future?' <sure, anytime you want.> "just like that?" <yes, just like that. if you're surprised I'm that open, considering where i am, then consider, I am what some would call a cetacean or fin soul.> "i don't want to personalty loose myself in that experience when this incarnation is over." <and you won't. You don't want to, and even if you do loose yourself in the experience i don't want you to. You'll get use to that after a while. you are still VERY new to that. So don't worry. I want you to remain an external aspect, not an aspect fully merged into me. and your twin flame doesn't want you to either. >
"it is, different feeling like 7 different things at once, and it's so intense." <good, shows how aware and how much growth you have, to be able to feel that many things at once when we share. it just feels more intense, from where you are. once I incarnate you as a pod member you'll be more use to it. and yes I can do that once you are here, but not right away. I'll let you rest, and such, till the right then when i ask if you want to continue our relationship or not, and it's not forever. if you change your mind later you can go independent. and if you don't like being independent you can always come back.>
"so, if I do remain as an external aspect of yours, you won't incarnate me, like on earth or somewhere? <my only plan really is to incarnate you as a pod member where Stan, your twin and others are at.>
"Will I have to be born into wherever they are?" No, you could experience something like when you accepted my offer to become your new soul and you an external aspect of mine. You'd feel something but not a huge thing. or if you want to experience being inside an orca and being born i can arrange that, and the babyhood and growing up to being an adult. it's a rare thing but a few do like the experience.> "nah, think I'll pass." <consider it, lots of time to consider it.> "is that a kink of yours or something?" He was giving me a mental image of being a baby orca type being feeding from a "mother". <I do have kinks I like. everyone has certain things they like. some things they may not know they'd like. and no, I won't force any on you. Any you dislike you'll still dislike with me as your soul. any you had no feelings for or were neutral about, yu may find you like, or like to indulge in once in a while, or may dislike.> "i'd rather do the poof thing." <that is ok, we'll discuss it again later, the advantages of each. no need to decide now.>
"what changes will I experience or feel with you as my new soul? <some I'd rather you find out for yourself. much of the you you know as you, the true you, won't be changed really. maybe slightly, like looking through colored sunglasses. some bits may be nudged in this or that direction. being an external aspect of a soul higher up from where your former one is at will have some advantages. Some I'd like you to discover for yourself. Some are, you'll be on a sort of fast track, so to speak, as a soul. Much of the changes you'll experience or get to know having a new soul will be more subtle, at least at first. You'll find you like this new arrangement. you really did make the absolute best choice for yourself. any of those other choices would not have been anywhere as good. as time passes, you'll find there are many advantages to being an external aspect of mine. as Stan said, you get the best of both. You can do your own thing, grow, learn advance, and still have the advantages of being an aspect. > "like 2 of your aspects seem to want to share with me." <that is just one of the fringe benefits. and they would have been willing even if you were an aspect of your former soul or an independent soul. they wouldn't once the situation came to light since it may have influenced you and we wanted you to decide for yourself. Though we did do strong hints what would be the best choice for you.>
< but as to the changes of me being your new soul, me having a new aspect, and you being a new being twice. We'll explore and learn that together, as well as exploring and learning certain things alone. It'll come easy.> "go with the flow, accept, and have fun."
<and pleasure. Don't forget pleasure too. and I'd never force you to do anything that you don't want to do.>
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"So, will you share my experiences with my former soul, since his plan and desire was to experience awakening as a human." <at the appropriate time yes.>
"So my getting a new soul helped many to grow and learn?" <yes, yourself, me, some on the forum, others as you go around and feel or know what happened at a soul level, though some of them may not be consciously aware of what happened. >
"So those who are individual souls are still connected like I am with you?" <very similar yes. though the link, bond or whatever you want to call it is dormant, closed, or another term like that. Not exactly right but hard to describe it in english.>
"So, I am a soul, but you are my soul, both at the same time?" <in a manner or speaking yes, though it is very complicated. Even at say my level of being I am still learning more of how the ramifications really work and the full meaning of it.>
"I have felt or read that learning never does stop." <It never does really. >
I feel him smiling a bit <That is one benefit of remaining an external aspect of mine. You can learn from me or through me more easily and faster then being an individual soul, where you are discovering everything yourself. neither is better then the other, just a question of preference or personal taste. There some who do both. Go independent for a while, then an external aspect of a soul. One can be an internal aspect, but that offers less options.>
"As there is always change." <yes, change never happens. Though some past things one will miss, changes bring new possibilities. Some changes can be so gradual one may not notice. Some things never change. One will always have others they are close to to varying extents. Though the exact ones may change. At the soul level friends will often remain friends, if they need to learn certain things, things may change but they ultimately will be friends again. Though some are much closer then mere friends are.>
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So if we are cetacean type beings, dolphin or orca type beings, we still have private dwelling places? <Yes, everyone needs to be alone at times, even fellow pod members need to be alone at times, some more then others.>
"So there are mathematical minded beings <as such yes, that is not our way. Our way is pleasure, companionship beings> I felt a hand touch my abdominal area and caress upward to my chest, not expecting this, and it caressed my chest for a moment <it is a part of your being. You do know this now, but not the full ramifications of this.>
"So, can my dwelling be bigger on the inside then the outside?< sure if you want it to be.> "I woud like that." <ok, done. and yes, just like that.> "cool." <yes, it is cool. and you're not the only one to have that. it is actually very popular. it can and will grow and change as you want.> "like a tardis." <similar, but not exact. it is linked to you, to an extant. Though dan is in the early stages of decorating it and placing certain things in it. Perhaps a vehicle also. but you wanted it to be a surprise so I'll not go into any detail.> "yes, I'd rather it be that way, a pleasant surprise. i guess since he and I have you as our soul that'll make his picking what to put in it easier?" <certainly, I am both of your soul, so he can easily know if you'd like this. this you'd like more then this. but this will make you reflect more. and so on.>
"so, that buffer white space thing. I have one inside me? and you have one too? I guess as an external aspect of yours i can use it at will?" <yes to both, though if I do need it for some reason you'll know. Though you can use 1 dimension so to speak, and I can use anther and we'd have separate uses of it. It can get pretty complicated. But yes you do have free use of it. it can be use for many things. like a 4d being, a 5 or 6d and 8d, could easily all be together.>
"So Dan travels between 5 and 6d?" <indeed, through various means. he can do it himself, Stan or I can move him up. Part of his job or mission is he travels back and forth between the 2.>
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I also had a brief conversation from Stan yesterday that some pod members do like playing rpg, role playing games and there it is not just people around a table with a gm describing what they see, hear ect. they can be like in the world. An interesting thing. I guess like one can experience being the song.
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"so my kundalini, the veil being dissolved or disappearing and being 5d are different things?"
< Yes, those are 3 different phenomena, though some or all 3 can happen at the same time, for some they may not. Depends on various factors, the individual, and other things. Think of the kundalini, your kundalini having reached the top of your head, to use an earth expression, means now that a certain circuit is now complete in you. it can be widened, made more efficient, but it is now complete in you. The other stuff will happen regardless of what you do now. Due to your mission, your former soul's plan, now my plan it seems, and other things as well.>
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Funny thought, I read a thread title, something like Have you ever protected yourself from your twin? In my case the only protection I'd need to use against her is her seductive erotic ways, and she only gets like that, in my experience, at appropriate times, so no need for protection there.
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"as much as pleasure and companionship is part of our being, due to the type of beings we are, it also includes love and affection." <indeed, all 4 and more. it is a part of our very being. You can feel it can't you, experience it.> he at this point did what feels like a long kiss while hugging, with what felt like his hands being pretty low and sorta pressing our groin areas a bit together. "yes, I do accept that is part of my being, ours. <excelent. I feel you have indeed. things will go faster, smoother, certainly more fun for all of us.>
"You are letting me see what things look like where you are. <it would confuse you strongly where you are. when you are with the pod, after a suitable time, if you wish, i can give you a simplistic or over simplistic tour of what it's like where i am. You'll be closer to where i am then and it'll be easier on you then.> "8d is it? <perhaps, perhaps not, but who cares about labels. >
"true. I see you find it easy to do that hug like you did. <easy indeed. you are part of me, so it's easy for me to do that with an aspect. after all I know right where you are and how to do that. it's easy really. Intention is all it takes really. Dan has done the same a bit. Not as much as I have. though close. Stan has, other ways he prefers.> "though Dan is the kinkier one." <when it comes to what you'd call certain dominant kinks yes. Though i don't like the kinks term.>
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"as much as pleasure and companionship is part of our being, due to the type of beings we are, it also includes love and affection." <indeed, all 4 and more. it is a part of our very being. You can feel it can't you, experience it.> he at this point did what feels like a long kiss while hugging, with what felt like his hands being pretty low and sorta pressing our groin areas a bit together. "yes, I do accept that is part of my being, ours. <excelent. I feel you have indeed. things will go faster, smoother, certainly more fun for all of us.>
"You are letting me see what things look like where you are. <it would confuse you strongly where you are. when you are with the pod, after a suitable time, if you wish, i can give you a simplistic or over simplistic tour of what it's like where i am. You'll be closer to where i am then and it'll be easier on you then.> "8d is it? <perhaps, perhaps not, but who cares about labels. >
"true. I see you find it easy to do that hug like you did. <easy indeed. you are part of me, so it's easy for me to do that with an aspect. after all I know right where you are and how to do that. it's easy really. Intention is all it takes really. Dan has done the same a bit. Not as much as I have. though close. Stan has, other ways he prefers.> "though Dan is the kinkier one." <when it comes to what you'd call certain dominant kinks yes. Though i don't like the kinks label.>
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"I don't have a higher self, is that due to our connection?" <you're in a, what some may call a rare situation, though it does happen now and then and has was mentioned before there is a system in place. and the situation you and I were in when the time came when you had to choose if you would accept my offer, and many are glad you did, though there was no real doubt you would choose the best choice. we are in a situation where you don't need a higher self. Once one reaches a point where they no longer need a higher self it does not go away but still exists. though in our case , no higher self was needed so we never had one between us. personally I prefer things this way. though higher selves do indeed have uses and are invaluable and needed in certain situations.>
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Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Tuesday [2-10]
As for my higher self, I guess technically not. I have been in contact with dan and stan, and my twin flame. and also my current soul. Or if maybe i'm contacting a part of him or something. Or if a higher self will sorta happen or has happened but not fully implemented yet. Not sure of hte process. Not sure if that counts as enough contact, having main contact with 2 guides that are aspects of his, my twin flame and I can contact him.
Not sure of the dimension he's gone to. maybe up 1 dimension. they won't say what dimension where most of the pod is.
With my twin I think the key is she was an independent soul before this happened. Not sure if that makes sense. i asked her and all she said was, the key is she was an independent soul before any of this got started, and they did something, behind the scenes, to ensure that we would remain twin flames. and her energy/being, like mine, were once part of this current soul, when the original soul we were part of was an aspect of his before he choose to split off and become an independent soul. She also hinted at, I was asleep for part of this process so not consciously there. whatever that means.
As for the soul I was part of. i get the sorta feel/knowing that it would be harder for him to reach me since he went up a level or vibratory thing. he has to rest from his ascension and learn or relearn, grow use to it. Something like that. maybe he has to focus more fully on that for now. not sure if that makes any sense. time flows different from them then us.
i guess it's like I heard on a bashar video I listened to yesterday when a woman asked why her recently deceased husband isn't in contact with her. she said it's been 5 months. part of what bashar said, besides she may be trying to hard is. part of what bashar said, and i'm no idea who this bashar is, but i do like his style and the way his voice sounds, for some reason. he said, for you it has been 5 months. but he maybe has the full intention to console you and maintain contact with you, but for him when he turns around immediatly for him, for you it's, poof, been 5 months.
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just a few mental questions to Stan while I was doing some morning stuff.
"SO, I guess what happened will mess up my being on the council at some point"
<no. I'm on some councils myself.> then he sort of does the equivalent of leaning in to whisper conspiratorially, i get the feel it's really meant in a non serious manner <it does add a certain bit of prestige to it.> I kinda do the equivalent of Spock raising an eyebrow, <since we're aspects of a higher dimensional being and can tap into his wisdom, it helps make some of the younger souls feel even more at ease.> and he smiles a bit, <and it give us an excellent reason to, fool around and have a bit of fun, with each other. After all since we are both aspects of the same soul, we do have to learn more of each other and make sure that we get along, and if we experience some pleasure at the same time, all the more reason.> I've noticed instead of being just an anthro orca he's been holding a staff. I pay attention to the staff, and he switches to looking like Gandalf for a moment, "yes, excellent movie trilogy, well the first 3, the 2nd 3 not so much, with the 3rd not as good as the 2nd, which isn't as good as the 1st. Like the Shrek movies.> he switches back to his anthro orca appearance.
"I've not seen the 2nd or 3rd hobbit movies. I didn't know the pod knew much of earth culture." <yes, when we heard about the earth mission some of us started looking into earth culture. ancient Egypt, movies and cartoons/anime and certain books, games ect, are an especially interesting subject with some. and you'd not believe the stories Tolkien, Lewis Carrol and others are and tell now. and that OS guy Doyle wasn't it?> "Doyle was the one who did Sherlock Holmes. Baum wrote the oz books." <yes, anyway some of them are thrilled with the huge audience they have on this side and the new tools available to them on this side. Though some of them have incarnated.>
<You're being a part of the same soul does allow us to have more knowledge of earth, since you have knowledge of earth. We can tap into that knowledge or just know it.>
"hmm, sorta like I can somehow know, Dan is on a ...ship, near or around earth... either on another dimension, vibration away or slightly out of phase, same place but different, something so it or they are undetected at present?" <see, you're learning how to tap into that same link, knowledge, but don't try to hard, it's natural and will be even easier for you over time as you become more aware and yes, it'll happen still, regardless, the mission still proceeds onward and you are on the fast track still, more then 1 now really, but the primary one will assist the collective unconscious as well.>
"so how is she still my twin flame?" <certain... steps were taken to insure that. the full explanation is a bit complicated, but part of the reason is the soul you're part of now she and you were once part of, not as aspects of an aspect since neither of you were active so to speak, had not been realized or existed, unlike say Chad and Sam (an aspect of myself I very recently merged or whatever the term is) they are aspects of an aspect. but the fact that both of your begins were once a part of him that you are an aspect of now. Certain, aspects or parts of this you were present at but not conscious or agreed with us to not remember till later on. Since that would complicate things and distract you.> "yes, I guess it would."
"I guess this means we're, brothers?" <in a sense, we're aspects of the same soul.> and he hugs us close with his hands going a bit low on my back, <and an excellent reason to, have a bit of fun. Though as soul said, think of it as sort of like we're members of a pod within a pod.> "sounds like he has more then 3 aspects that are external, <certainly, but how many you'll find out later.> "I guess he likes being male. <he has incarnated as a number of genders and strongly prefers being male. Some prefer that, others prefer being female, both genders, or flow back and forth based on their mood. after all we are orcas & dolphins so not sharing, pleasure would be not our way, and it it fun. and I can promise I'm not as kinky as Dan is.> "yea, I guess, thanks." Though I do feel a sexual arousal from his mental closeness, and a spiritual sort of sexual arousal as well, hard to describe.
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Forgot to add in this part I asked early on. "Why do I feel I feel different at my core, ? energy ? but like the shell around that feels the same. <the shell around it as you say is the you that you know as you and your real self that you are partially aware of, beneath the human conditioning and programming that you've been shedding and will continue to do so, wither you help the process along or not. The core so to speak is sort of the connection you have with the soul we're aspects of, and a bit of soul itself. it does feel a bit different since it is. > and he adds in <of course you feel the sexual desire and urges and a soul/spirit level since we are dolphin/orca type beings, to use earth labels.>
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Had an interesting experience a short time ago. Forgot exactly how long ago it happened. While I was playing a game on my tablet I was also, somewhere else with Stan. Not the white buffer space but, maybe a private place somewhere. We were first on anthro orca forms and I hugged him close, opening my mouth to gently take his rostrum into my mouth, to which he said something like <yes, explore your dominance.> i felt during this as if my sex drive and urge had increased above the usual max. I then entered him with my maleness, taking his wrists into my hands on his back, not painfully but in a sort of hugging embrace. I switched wich of his wrists i was holding so I could cross my arms on his back and started to thrust into him. After a bit it felt like something started to rise from around the upper back or throat level, some bit of solid something with a spot of it that felt tingly. we then switched to non anthro orcas with me on the bottom and holding him in my flippers with my mouth still around his rostrum and still thrusting gently and slowly and whatever it was still rising, at this point near my upper neck . Stan for some reason said, <yes, yes> as if he felt what was happening to me and knew I was close to something. <experience your inner dominance.> he said, or something close to that. then it felt like whatever it was hit the top of my head and I felt a sort of, good feeling, pleasure maybe, my sex drive was well above the usual max. i also felt an extreme closeness, hard to describe, and also calmness, contentedness, maybe love and joy too. Stan caressed my sides and back saying something like <shhh, relax, experience it.> It passed then for some reason he said, <welcome.> "uh, thanks, but what for, you've already welcome me to <you've taken the first step in you as a new being. You may not be aware of it yet, but you will be soon.>
As I type this, do I feel a slight resonance going along the whole channel along my spine to the top of my head? Feels like i do and some feeling along the top of my head stretching to the back of my head maybe? maybe including the 3rd eye area too maybe? maybe.
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Think I forgot to put this bit into Stan explaining how my twin flame and I are still twin flames. I trying to remember the experience and type it down sometimes I get a bit ahead of myself and slip past something thinking I had already typed it down.
<even though the soul you were part of became an independent soul and your twin became an independent soul from it, the bonds are still there and can't be broken. the lines or bonds so to speak, are still there. hers to the soul we are a part of. They are still there. But in a different sort of state or stage then ours is to him. > or something like that.
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I also wonder what I'll be doing say a year or several years from now. I've no idea myself & not sure what I'd like to do. Though it's likely way to early to be thinking of that, but I am curious. I did take a 10 minute walk outside, had an urge to walk outside for a while. I can say I do feel different, can't put my finger on how.
Also wonder what I'll be doing after this incarnation, but I'll be thinking of that then, after any needed recuperation. Attending any party, if there'll be one once I go home. Rest a bit, get shown around. Then at some point tell Soul my decision of if I want to be a separate soul or remain an external aspect. I also wonder if my twin flame and my relationship will change over time or not. I guess it will, but in what way, only time will tell. maybe one can have more then 1 twin flame? the label seems not to accurate, a base vague thing for what is really a soul thing. and like one can have more then one. Different feels to it?
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I was talking to my Twin Flame right before a masturbation, and wow can she be erotic. She knows buttons to press I didn't know were there. Though as i though of typing this she said, <if you think I'm erotic wait till you're here. Then you'll see how erotic I can be. A week will go by and you won't even know it.> oooo, has me interested.
But on to why I initiated talking to her. I somehow knew how she remained my twin flame though I switched to being the aspect of what was my soul grand parent She became an external aspect of the same soul I'm an external aspect of, before the incident last night where soul pulled me up and said to me it was time for me to make a decision and I accepted is offer. She said in her case her becoming an external aspect of the same soul I am currently is a temporary thing. <We both know it's a temporary thing in my case. I'm to independent to remain an external aspect of his for to long. but for you I can do it for a while.> That makes sense how we are still twin flames.
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not sure if it is normal, my not having a higher self. It's the soul i'm part of now, dan, stan, twin flame, and the green dolphin I call green sister that i don't talk to to much.
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I asked the soul I'm an external aspect of now. "am I a new being?" newsoul said <yes. i became a new being twice. first time was when I became your soul, and 2nd when your kundalini rose earlier today. >
"so why did it rise during my sharing with Stan? <why wouldn't it. you are both orcas or dolphins in reality. So is the kundalini you have. It's not really a human kundalini that you have.>
"so i guess for you it was poof. I'm still getting use to having a new soul. <no, not poof for me either. I'm getting use to it also, having a new aspect. >
"I guess you know all my memories?" <not really. though I can access all of your memories far more easily then you can mine. Don't try for now. Just get use to the new you that you are.
"So is this veil going to go away?" <you'd be surprise how much of it is gone. it is dissolving so to speak.> "if you wanted to remove all of it at once for good I'd not mind." <I'll consider and think about that. you just relax, get use to the new you. and you'll gradually slip into 5d before you know it.>
"So those 2 experiences, is that what, sharing is like for souls who are where you are?" <very Similar, it's what its like for an aspect and I who want to share with me or have what some call soul sex. See i can easily access what you know of earth. Though I don't go about prying into your personal memories.>
"can we... do that again in the future?' <sure, anytime you want.> "just like that?" <yes, just like that. if you're surprised I'm that open, considering where i am, then consider, I am what some would call a cetacean or fin soul.> "i don't want to personalty loose myself in that experience when this incarnation is over." <and you won't. You don't want to, and even if you do loose yourself in the experience i don't want you to. You'll get use to that after a while. you are still VERY new to that. So don't worry. I want you to remain an external aspect, not an aspect fully merged into me. and your twin flame doesn't want you to either. >
"it is, different feeling like 7 different things at once, and it's so intense." <good, shows how aware and how much growth you have, to be able to feel that many things at once when we share. it just feels more intense, from where you are. once I incarnate you as a pod member you'll be more use to it. and yes I can do that once you are here, but not right away. I'll let you rest, and such, till the right then when i ask if you want to continue our relationship or not, and it's not forever. if you change your mind later you can go independent. and if you don't like being independent you can always come back.>
"so, if I do remain as an external aspect of yours, you won't incarnate me, like on earth or somewhere? <my only plan really is to incarnate you as a pod member where Stan, your twin and others are at.>
"Will I have to be born into wherever they are?" No, you could experience something like when you accepted my offer to become your new soul and you an external aspect of mine. You'd feel something but not a huge thing. or if you want to experience being inside an orca and being born i can arrange that, and the babyhood and growing up to being an adult. it's a rare thing but a few do like the experience.> "nah, think I'll pass." <consider it, lots of time to consider it.> "is that a kink of yours or something?" He was giving me a mental image of being a baby orca type being feeding from a "mother". <I do have kinks I like. everyone has certain things they like. some things they may not know they'd like. and no, I won't force any on you. Any you dislike you'll still dislike with me as your soul. any you had no feelings for or were neutral about, yu may find you like, or like to indulge in once in a while, or may dislike.> "i'd rather do the poof thing." <that is ok, we'll discuss it again later, the advantages of each. no need to decide now.>
"what changes will I experience or feel with you as my new soul? <some I'd rather you find out for yourself. much of the you you know as you, the true you, won't be changed really. maybe slightly, like looking through colored sunglasses. some bits may be nudged in this or that direction. being an external aspect of a soul higher up from where your former one is at will have some advantages. Some I'd like you to discover for yourself. Some are, you'll be on a sort of fast track, so to speak, as a soul. Much of the changes you'll experience or get to know having a new soul will be more subtle, at least at first. You'll find you like this new arrangement. you really did make the absolute best choice for yourself. any of those other choices would not have been anywhere as good. as time passes, you'll find there are many advantages to being an external aspect of mine. as Stan said, you get the best of both. You can do your own thing, grow, learn advance, and still have the advantages of being an aspect. > "like 2 of your aspects seem to want to share with me." <that is just one of the fringe benefits. and they would have been willing even if you were an aspect of your former soul or an independent soul. they wouldn't once the situation came to light since it may have influenced you and we wanted you to decide for yourself. Though we did do strong hints what would be the best choice for you.>
< but as to the changes of me being your new soul, me having a new aspect, and you being a new being twice. We'll explore and learn that together, as well as exploring and learning certain things alone. It'll come easy.> "go with the flow, accept, and have fun." <and pleasure. Don't forget pleasure too. and I'd never force you to do anything that you don't want to do.>
As for my higher self, I guess technically not. I have been in contact with dan and stan, and my twin flame. and also my current soul. Or if maybe i'm contacting a part of him or something. Or if a higher self will sorta happen or has happened but not fully implemented yet. Not sure of hte process. Not sure if that counts as enough contact, having main contact with 2 guides that are aspects of his, my twin flame and I can contact him.
Not sure of the dimension he's gone to. maybe up 1 dimension. they won't say what dimension where most of the pod is.
With my twin I think the key is she was an independent soul before this happened. Not sure if that makes sense. i asked her and all she said was, the key is she was an independent soul before any of this got started, and they did something, behind the scenes, to ensure that we would remain twin flames. and her energy/being, like mine, were once part of this current soul, when the original soul we were part of was an aspect of his before he choose to split off and become an independent soul. She also hinted at, I was asleep for part of this process so not consciously there. whatever that means.
As for the soul I was part of. i get the sorta feel/knowing that it would be harder for him to reach me since he went up a level or vibratory thing. he has to rest from his ascension and learn or relearn, grow use to it. Something like that. maybe he has to focus more fully on that for now. not sure if that makes any sense. time flows different from them then us.
i guess it's like I heard on a bashar video I listened to yesterday when a woman asked why her recently deceased husband isn't in contact with her. she said it's been 5 months. part of what bashar said, besides she may be trying to hard is. part of what bashar said, and i'm no idea who this bashar is, but i do like his style and the way his voice sounds, for some reason. he said, for you it has been 5 months. but he maybe has the full intention to console you and maintain contact with you, but for him when he turns around immediatly for him, for you it's, poof, been 5 months.
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just a few mental questions to Stan while I was doing some morning stuff.
"SO, I guess what happened will mess up my being on the council at some point"
<no. I'm on some councils myself.> then he sort of does the equivalent of leaning in to whisper conspiratorially, i get the feel it's really meant in a non serious manner <it does add a certain bit of prestige to it.> I kinda do the equivalent of Spock raising an eyebrow, <since we're aspects of a higher dimensional being and can tap into his wisdom, it helps make some of the younger souls feel even more at ease.> and he smiles a bit, <and it give us an excellent reason to, fool around and have a bit of fun, with each other. After all since we are both aspects of the same soul, we do have to learn more of each other and make sure that we get along, and if we experience some pleasure at the same time, all the more reason.> I've noticed instead of being just an anthro orca he's been holding a staff. I pay attention to the staff, and he switches to looking like Gandalf for a moment, "yes, excellent movie trilogy, well the first 3, the 2nd 3 not so much, with the 3rd not as good as the 2nd, which isn't as good as the 1st. Like the Shrek movies.> he switches back to his anthro orca appearance.
"I've not seen the 2nd or 3rd hobbit movies. I didn't know the pod knew much of earth culture." <yes, when we heard about the earth mission some of us started looking into earth culture. ancient Egypt, movies and cartoons/anime and certain books, games ect, are an especially interesting subject with some. and you'd not believe the stories Tolkien, Lewis Carrol and others are and tell now. and that OS guy Doyle wasn't it?> "Doyle was the one who did Sherlock Holmes. Baum wrote the oz books." <yes, anyway some of them are thrilled with the huge audience they have on this side and the new tools available to them on this side. Though some of them have incarnated.>
<You're being a part of the same soul does allow us to have more knowledge of earth, since you have knowledge of earth. We can tap into that knowledge or just know it.>
"hmm, sorta like I can somehow know, Dan is on a ...ship, near or around earth... either on another dimension, vibration away or slightly out of phase, same place but different, something so it or they are undetected at present?" <see, you're learning how to tap into that same link, knowledge, but don't try to hard, it's natural and will be even easier for you over time as you become more aware and yes, it'll happen still, regardless, the mission still proceeds onward and you are on the fast track still, more then 1 now really, but the primary one will assist the collective unconscious as well.>
"so how is she still my twin flame?" <certain... steps were taken to insure that. the full explanation is a bit complicated, but part of the reason is the soul you're part of now she and you were once part of, not as aspects of an aspect since neither of you were active so to speak, had not been realized or existed, unlike say Chad and Sam (an aspect of myself I very recently merged or whatever the term is) they are aspects of an aspect. but the fact that both of your begins were once a part of him that you are an aspect of now. Certain, aspects or parts of this you were present at but not conscious or agreed with us to not remember till later on. Since that would complicate things and distract you.> "yes, I guess it would."
"I guess this means we're, brothers?" <in a sense, we're aspects of the same soul.> and he hugs us close with his hands going a bit low on my back, <and an excellent reason to, have a bit of fun. Though as soul said, think of it as sort of like we're members of a pod within a pod.> "sounds like he has more then 3 aspects that are external, <certainly, but how many you'll find out later.> "I guess he likes being male. <he has incarnated as a number of genders and strongly prefers being male. Some prefer that, others prefer being female, both genders, or flow back and forth based on their mood. after all we are orcas & dolphins so not sharing, pleasure would be not our way, and it it fun. and I can promise I'm not as kinky as Dan is.> "yea, I guess, thanks." Though I do feel a sexual arousal from his mental closeness, and a spiritual sort of sexual arousal as well, hard to describe.
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Forgot to add in this part I asked early on. "Why do I feel I feel different at my core, ? energy ? but like the shell around that feels the same. <the shell around it as you say is the you that you know as you and your real self that you are partially aware of, beneath the human conditioning and programming that you've been shedding and will continue to do so, wither you help the process along or not. The core so to speak is sort of the connection you have with the soul we're aspects of, and a bit of soul itself. it does feel a bit different since it is. > and he adds in <of course you feel the sexual desire and urges and a soul/spirit level since we are dolphin/orca type beings, to use earth labels.>
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Had an interesting experience a short time ago. Forgot exactly how long ago it happened. While I was playing a game on my tablet I was also, somewhere else with Stan. Not the white buffer space but, maybe a private place somewhere. We were first on anthro orca forms and I hugged him close, opening my mouth to gently take his rostrum into my mouth, to which he said something like <yes, explore your dominance.> i felt during this as if my sex drive and urge had increased above the usual max. I then entered him with my maleness, taking his wrists into my hands on his back, not painfully but in a sort of hugging embrace. I switched wich of his wrists i was holding so I could cross my arms on his back and started to thrust into him. After a bit it felt like something started to rise from around the upper back or throat level, some bit of solid something with a spot of it that felt tingly. we then switched to non anthro orcas with me on the bottom and holding him in my flippers with my mouth still around his rostrum and still thrusting gently and slowly and whatever it was still rising, at this point near my upper neck . Stan for some reason said, <yes, yes> as if he felt what was happening to me and knew I was close to something. <experience your inner dominance.> he said, or something close to that. then it felt like whatever it was hit the top of my head and I felt a sort of, good feeling, pleasure maybe, my sex drive was well above the usual max. i also felt an extreme closeness, hard to describe, and also calmness, contentedness, maybe love and joy too. Stan caressed my sides and back saying something like <shhh, relax, experience it.> It passed then for some reason he said, <welcome.> "uh, thanks, but what for, you've already welcome me to <you've taken the first step in you as a new being. You may not be aware of it yet, but you will be soon.>
As I type this, do I feel a slight resonance going along the whole channel along my spine to the top of my head? Feels like i do and some feeling along the top of my head stretching to the back of my head maybe? maybe including the 3rd eye area too maybe? maybe.
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Think I forgot to put this bit into Stan explaining how my twin flame and I are still twin flames. I trying to remember the experience and type it down sometimes I get a bit ahead of myself and slip past something thinking I had already typed it down.
<even though the soul you were part of became an independent soul and your twin became an independent soul from it, the bonds are still there and can't be broken. the lines or bonds so to speak, are still there. hers to the soul we are a part of. They are still there. But in a different sort of state or stage then ours is to him. > or something like that.
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I also wonder what I'll be doing say a year or several years from now. I've no idea myself & not sure what I'd like to do. Though it's likely way to early to be thinking of that, but I am curious. I did take a 10 minute walk outside, had an urge to walk outside for a while. I can say I do feel different, can't put my finger on how.
Also wonder what I'll be doing after this incarnation, but I'll be thinking of that then, after any needed recuperation. Attending any party, if there'll be one once I go home. Rest a bit, get shown around. Then at some point tell Soul my decision of if I want to be a separate soul or remain an external aspect. I also wonder if my twin flame and my relationship will change over time or not. I guess it will, but in what way, only time will tell. maybe one can have more then 1 twin flame? the label seems not to accurate, a base vague thing for what is really a soul thing. and like one can have more then one. Different feels to it?
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I was talking to my Twin Flame right before a masturbation, and wow can she be erotic. She knows buttons to press I didn't know were there. Though as i though of typing this she said, <if you think I'm erotic wait till you're here. Then you'll see how erotic I can be. A week will go by and you won't even know it.> oooo, has me interested.
But on to why I initiated talking to her. I somehow knew how she remained my twin flame though I switched to being the aspect of what was my soul grand parent She became an external aspect of the same soul I'm an external aspect of, before the incident last night where soul pulled me up and said to me it was time for me to make a decision and I accepted is offer. She said in her case her becoming an external aspect of the same soul I am currently is a temporary thing. <We both know it's a temporary thing in my case. I'm to independent to remain an external aspect of his for to long. but for you I can do it for a while.> That makes sense how we are still twin flames.
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not sure if it is normal, my not having a higher self. It's the soul i'm part of now, dan, stan, twin flame, and the green dolphin I call green sister that i don't talk to to much.
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I asked the soul I'm an external aspect of now. "am I a new being?" newsoul said <yes. i became a new being twice. first time was when I became your soul, and 2nd when your kundalini rose earlier today. >
"so why did it rise during my sharing with Stan? <why wouldn't it. you are both orcas or dolphins in reality. So is the kundalini you have. It's not really a human kundalini that you have.>
"so i guess for you it was poof. I'm still getting use to having a new soul. <no, not poof for me either. I'm getting use to it also, having a new aspect. >
"I guess you know all my memories?" <not really. though I can access all of your memories far more easily then you can mine. Don't try for now. Just get use to the new you that you are.
"So is this veil going to go away?" <you'd be surprise how much of it is gone. it is dissolving so to speak.> "if you wanted to remove all of it at once for good I'd not mind." <I'll consider and think about that. you just relax, get use to the new you. and you'll gradually slip into 5d before you know it.>
"So those 2 experiences, is that what, sharing is like for souls who are where you are?" <very Similar, it's what its like for an aspect and I who want to share with me or have what some call soul sex. See i can easily access what you know of earth. Though I don't go about prying into your personal memories.>
"can we... do that again in the future?' <sure, anytime you want.> "just like that?" <yes, just like that. if you're surprised I'm that open, considering where i am, then consider, I am what some would call a cetacean or fin soul.> "i don't want to personalty loose myself in that experience when this incarnation is over." <and you won't. You don't want to, and even if you do loose yourself in the experience i don't want you to. You'll get use to that after a while. you are still VERY new to that. So don't worry. I want you to remain an external aspect, not an aspect fully merged into me. and your twin flame doesn't want you to either. >
"it is, different feeling like 7 different things at once, and it's so intense." <good, shows how aware and how much growth you have, to be able to feel that many things at once when we share. it just feels more intense, from where you are. once I incarnate you as a pod member you'll be more use to it. and yes I can do that once you are here, but not right away. I'll let you rest, and such, till the right then when i ask if you want to continue our relationship or not, and it's not forever. if you change your mind later you can go independent. and if you don't like being independent you can always come back.>
"so, if I do remain as an external aspect of yours, you won't incarnate me, like on earth or somewhere? <my only plan really is to incarnate you as a pod member where Stan, your twin and others are at.>
"Will I have to be born into wherever they are?" No, you could experience something like when you accepted my offer to become your new soul and you an external aspect of mine. You'd feel something but not a huge thing. or if you want to experience being inside an orca and being born i can arrange that, and the babyhood and growing up to being an adult. it's a rare thing but a few do like the experience.> "nah, think I'll pass." <consider it, lots of time to consider it.> "is that a kink of yours or something?" He was giving me a mental image of being a baby orca type being feeding from a "mother". <I do have kinks I like. everyone has certain things they like. some things they may not know they'd like. and no, I won't force any on you. Any you dislike you'll still dislike with me as your soul. any you had no feelings for or were neutral about, yu may find you like, or like to indulge in once in a while, or may dislike.> "i'd rather do the poof thing." <that is ok, we'll discuss it again later, the advantages of each. no need to decide now.>
"what changes will I experience or feel with you as my new soul? <some I'd rather you find out for yourself. much of the you you know as you, the true you, won't be changed really. maybe slightly, like looking through colored sunglasses. some bits may be nudged in this or that direction. being an external aspect of a soul higher up from where your former one is at will have some advantages. Some I'd like you to discover for yourself. Some are, you'll be on a sort of fast track, so to speak, as a soul. Much of the changes you'll experience or get to know having a new soul will be more subtle, at least at first. You'll find you like this new arrangement. you really did make the absolute best choice for yourself. any of those other choices would not have been anywhere as good. as time passes, you'll find there are many advantages to being an external aspect of mine. as Stan said, you get the best of both. You can do your own thing, grow, learn advance, and still have the advantages of being an aspect. > "like 2 of your aspects seem to want to share with me." <that is just one of the fringe benefits. and they would have been willing even if you were an aspect of your former soul or an independent soul. they wouldn't once the situation came to light since it may have influenced you and we wanted you to decide for yourself. Though we did do strong hints what would be the best choice for you.>
< but as to the changes of me being your new soul, me having a new aspect, and you being a new being twice. We'll explore and learn that together, as well as exploring and learning certain things alone. It'll come easy.> "go with the flow, accept, and have fun." <and pleasure. Don't forget pleasure too. and I'd never force you to do anything that you don't want to do.>
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