not much to say this morning. I awoke & lay in bed before getting up, like I do. Since I think it may not be great for me to hop out of bed first thing.
Dan said now would be a good time for me to try to project and projecting to where he is would be easier since he's closer to where I am. All I got was some light resonating but nothing else. Guess I'm not evolved enough yet, no biggie. Maybe in a few decades, assuming I have a few decades.
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I seem to be back to never remembering my dreams. & have been so
for a week or longer. no biggie i guess since they were all gibberish
stuff anyway.
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Ng wanted me to try projecting again, nothing but resonating like before. I can tell if I don't by a certain day, not sure when, I'll get frustrated and quit trying. Why do something that if it frustrates you. Seems illogical to me.
If they want me for an examination or treatment or something why ask me to project when I can't. They can pull or pop me there however they do it. Still not sure who they do that. maybe part of my being multidimensional or something.
I also don't see how my being on the fast track to embody as much of my soul self as I can, to awaken as much as I can helps others. it does me sure, in an obvious way, but how does this mirror thing work. it's illogical that if I merge with my shadow self, whatever Sam is/was, and fully embody my truel soul self helps the collective earthling souls here. Seems illogical here. if it does help it's but a drop in the bucket and will take a thousand years at least for the collective to evolve or shift to the next step. Not the right term but if I were to describe it I would to try I'd have to make up a word and I'd rather not have this blog be mix of english and made up words.
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I also got a few times yesterday and
today, a mental image of what looks like a mantis sorta being. Not sure
if this is a race or not. It reminds me of a praying mantis and the
being that appeared on Babylon 5 sometimes for season 1. I'd have to dig
around to see if I can find an image of him.
No idea why I've been getting a mental image. Maybe it's a soul friend I
don't recall, a past incarnation, a close friend or mate from a past
incarnation.
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Feels like I've not gotten any more of myself in this day, but perhaps i have but I have not noticed it.
I wonder if the veil is gone and if I am 4d or 5d. no biggie, just
curious. Perhaps i need to be less curious and just not care one way or
the other. I am getting better at that.
i wonder if the curiosity is from this human body, conditioning,
programming, or part of my soul nature as well. Guess I'll know once
I'm back home.
I do think I"ll try to deepen my meditation. may take a while and maybe it won't work. I'll try to look that up on youtube.
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Likely sounds odd, but I feel that I may not incarnate, especially not
something as dense as here. Though I think I don't think at the soul
level I would want to incarnate. I can see some of the appeal, sorta
kinda, but it feels it's not my thing.
also had a crazy idea. I wonder, since there are supposedly lots of
channelers around. i wonder if anyone's tried to channel their true full
soul self. Instead of some other being.
Tried to project again twice. Once when I lay down before I went to
sleep and after I woke up. I give up. I'm not evolved enough of a soul
here to project, though my guides want me to. I guess my light body
thing is maybe complete, but I'm not evolved enough to project. To bad.
Oh well. Not everyone is very evolved during their incarnations here.
No idea how someone who is not evolved enough to be able to project
can be a part of a 6d pod. Unless I am a 6d native who is pretty much
an imbicill, a moron, ect.
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I wonder why 2 of my guides wanted me to try and kept saying for me to
try every time I would lay down to rest. it is to far beyond my ability
to do so.
I'll not look in the astral section on here. thought it may help but it
just gets me feeling upset so I'll not venture beyond the yourspace.
Just hows how undeveloped of a soul and a person I really am. very very
undeveloped.
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also wish I had another person or 2 to talk to about the experiences I
have, but i know it'll never happen. folks here are way to backward to
do that and my experiences are so odd since I'm not a human or earth
soul no one has any experiences like I have.
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i can't project, I can't even do more then a very light meditative
trance, a medium or deep only happens at total random. i can't widen
the space between my thoughts. I can't even deepen my meditation. The
only time I can do that is moving mediation, even that is pretty shoddy.
I am a very unevolved soul. I can't believe someone like is really a
6d native pod member soul. if I am I bet I drag everyone else down. i
bet I was a 1 or 2d soul they felt pity for and adopted.
I don't understand what those type of mediation are. Samadhi is something I'll never be able to achieve it, whatever it is.
if I were really a 6d soul native soul I would be able to project and
widen the space between my thoughts. and get better at meditation, but I
can't since I'm not very evolved. Maybe one day I will be.
Though that is not why I don't want to incarnate, though being a low
level soul I'm sure I'll be forced against my will. I just don't feel
the desire at all at the soul level. Feels like it's not my thing. The
soul i was part of may have liked that, but this new me feels like it's
not me. I have no more interest in it. a sure sign I'm not a very highly evolved soul since high evolved souls love incarnating and want to
go right back in. I just don't feel any desire. not that I hate
incarnating. i just have no desire to incarnate anymore. Feels like
it's not my thing at all. i have more interest I feel, at the soul
level, doing soul stuff, whatever that is, that doesn't involve
incarnating. I want to look beyond incarnating to other things. a sure
sign I'm a not very highly evolved soul.
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had a strange encounter. No idea who she is. I was feeling down like
usual while watching the brony show, they were having some funny fan
made videos. sorta meh overall as far as funny.
anyway unexpectedly I got a mental image of what looked like a cross
between a dolphin and an orca with me feeling like I was sorta in 2
places at once. she said some thing like <you need to cheer up. no
need to feel down.> she communicated in that instant poof thing that
the 6d pod members have talked to me before do. She did motions like
she was rubbing part of my shoulders or something. Then it looked like
she tried to hug me close. I've no idea who she is so I jerked back and
was fully back in my body.
Then i got an intense energy infusing thing or whatever. It was pretty
intense but kept to my core so I could still think and such. not sure
how to describe it. The energy or whatever it was, was a feeling of
love/joy/pleasure/comfort. No idea what that was or what was going on.
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wow, had another weird thing happen. Her voice was very faint, hard to
hear, but I did get a mental image of what looked like a dragon head and
wings behind her. She said I'm part dragon. I asked and she did say
I'm of her soul lineage. They wanted me to be half cetacan. My soul
heritage is 25% reptilian, 25% dragon, 25% dolphin and 25% orca.
Did it really happen? How can a soul like me be incarnated and yet get made as a new/old soul like this?
<it is possible due to soul dynamics. the occurrence is that not a
lot of your soul energy of a 6d soul can be in a body, especially before
your awakening with your kundalini competed the circuit. You had to
make your decision before it rose. The part of the soul that was in the
body was the element used, splitting you off from the soul you were
once a part of. time is fluid for souls as you know. part of this was
done as you slept. it was one of the nights where you slept the entire
night instead of several wakings that you usually do. it was done and
the final step was done when you accepted the soul's offer you are
currently an external aspect of. I'm hard to hear, from your ???? due
to where I am. I'm not use to reaching down to that density very
much/often. as for where I am, where I dwell, do dimensions numbers
really matter. I can shift part of me down to say 6d to be more able to
reach you. there, I should be easier to receive. >
"is this really happening?? <search your heart.> "could I have a
sign? ;) I feel a sort of eye rolling. <humans, and I know your
soul is not human, but you are inhabiting a human body and do need to
work on your faith this is happening. Just believe it and yes to answer
your question in time I am willing to teach you of your dragon soul
heritage.>
"does soul heritage matter?" <sort of yes, sort of no. you've had
past lives indeed, or have access to the accumulated knowledge anyway
the soul you were part of did. since part of your energy was there you
could say those were your past lives too.>
"so, can we have some... fun sometime?" I ask only half serious.
<someday sure we can dear. I see you are in touch with your dolphin
and orca soul heritage. accept and embrace that. but there is more to
that you'll be learning.>
"so did you give some elements of your energy strands stuff to make me??
<in a way, as I did for what was your soul grandfather and is
currently your soul. It is a very rare thing for this to happen, but
there is a system in place. but that is enough for now. to much and
you may get a headache.>
That felt more intense, sort of, then my talking with soul and others. did that really happen?
<this ratio was chosen since you do like dolphins, orcas, dragons and
certain reptilian types equally well, so you choose those by your inner
feelings which we, of course, knew of so it was easy to arrange.> I
get the feel of her smiling. "So I have 3 soul parents then, you, the
soul I was once part of, and the current soul I'm an external aspect of?
<maybe, and maybe a 4th was involved. think it over but that is
enough really for now.>
asked soul a question.
So on soul heritage do you mean actual soul heritage or past lives? <to an extent both, but also mainly soul heritage. Soul heritage does mean certain things. Dolphin/orca means certain things. but you know the rudiments of that. There is more that you will learn over time. No need to hurry and learn everything at once. you will learn more of this and other things as more of you is embodied in your physical body. The soul knowledge is huge that one can learn, but most of it is neat or fun to learn, but not needed really.>
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