Sunday, November 29, 2015

Sunday 11-29 + another me & Male Sirius Dolphin

I had a dream where I was a younger unicorn and I we were setting somewhere, sorts of like a picnic and we were eating a slice of cake.  I don't recall much else.  The setting I think was like a part of forest. 

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I had another me pop up and talk to me briefly.  I did ask him to talk to me again here and to add on other stuff if he wanted.  He looked like a sphere of light of a very dark color, at least in my mind's eye image that I saw briefly.

Other me:  yes, I certainly don't mind repeating myself.  Think of me as not your higher self.  It's more accurately to say I'm another facet, say a portion of our selves that has lowered our native resonance frequency of our energy so that in this case I can easily talk to you.  I have lowered my resonance to to able to talk to you.

the dream you had is you recalling a scene from a past life of one of your parallel selves.  It can be complicated but to have it be simple is as you become more aware and expanded you become more aware of yourself as a multi dimensional being and the other selves, some of which are incarnated or have incarnated.  Also when you experienced them merging with you, they experienced you merging with them and what was happening was you were becoming more aware of another aspect of yourself as you trully are.  You were both ready for this to happen.  and basically you & them were at the same level of awareness and personal growth.  All of our selves work hand in hand, even if they are not aware of it, in gaining new experiences, growing, learning, expanding.  But doing so doing things that you enjoy doing, that you love, what excites you, and like that, not like earth that you have to do.  It is different there, but that is changing bit by bit.  and things will be very different as time progresses.

You and we are facets of the same being.  learning, growing, expanding together.  Once this incarnation of yours is over you'll be able to do what you want to do.  We do no need to incarnate, we incarnate either because we wish to help in a specific mission or a certain experience appeals to us.  We do have some other selves that, like you, don't really incarnate after their first one or a few.  They go around, like you will likely find you prefer.  Going around where you want doing what you want, mostly visiting and spending time with family, friends, lovers, both from past and concurrent incarnations as well as what some would regard as soul family members, friends, ect.  as well as going if one of them asks us to help with this or that.  It may sound complicated but it is easy really. one of this things that sound complicated but once you see & do it it's really easy. 

We are indeed from the angelic planes/realms and do return there to stay for periods of time as well as other places especially others such as yourself who don't really incarnate.  Some of us do and some do not.  You'll become more aware of yourself as both a multi dimensional being and as you truly are.  This is part of our, well your, soul contract before we incarnated as you.  As the shift progresses this enables and supports this as well.  We'll talk again later as well as the others you've talked to more recently as well as some others too.


Me: And the color looked like a very dark blue

Other me: Indeed. Think of our color as a very very dark blue, indigo or violet that looks black if you glace at it, but if you look at it for more then a glance you can see it's not black.  Though we can look like whatever we want with whatever color, that is what you may call our default color if we go with our default form, which looks like a sphere of colored light.  Default isn't the right word but it is a handy one and sorta kinda close to what it really is so useful enough for rough basic explanation.

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I did the 2nd audio exercise in the 2nd wave, problem solving.  It went pretty well. I was able to get very relaxed and down to focus 12.

the male Sirius dolphin appeared briefly.  We had a short conversation and he helped me to relax.

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male Sirius Dolphin: indeed.  Just relax and be yourself.  You can use the gateway you did today to do some communicating.  Just practice that and you can try it while typing for say short periods of time and that'll help with communicating and channeling with us.  You'll feel a stronger deeper connection.  Just experiment. 

As for our society we are very sexually open, earth, sadly, is one of the places where it is more of a sexually repressive society, as well as being suppressing in other ways, but that is changing.  But enough about that.

We have been friends indeed, but also lovers as well where usually we were both males, but you've been a female a time or 2 and a herm often between or when you are not incarnated fully, and by fully I mean an incarnation where you plan to be incarnated for a long period of time instead of briefly.  Though with you briefly could be a few hours, days or weeks.  Here where we live usually we can be whatever gender we wish or form even.  Though I usually prefer being male myself.  So yes we've been friends yes but also more then just friends, but as I said lovers as well.  Though with us it's not unusual if one is friends that they are lovers also and for one who has incarnated as one of us, a Sirius dolphin it may be much the same, being friends and lovers.  Though there may be some differences it is a very fine.  We see that as much the same, such as the 2 of us being very close friends and lovers, deep lovers, both at once and the same time.  As are the others you have been talking to recently.

me: I guess the reason names are not used is if you're telepathic you know who the person is talking about if they say something like "I went to the store with him."  Or "he visited me yesterday." and if they don't know the person they get some basic information.

Sirius male dolphin: indeed, some at lower dimensions do use names, but after a certain point of awareness for a collective it's pointless ot use names, though some do still use names either since they do like using names or with some like if they communicate with beings on earth they may know they use names on earth so pick names for themselves or just tell others to pick a name.  And if they have incarnated on a place that uses names they may choose to keep the habit or cause they like certain names.  So there may be a variety of reasons why a being may use 1 or more then 1 name.

So yes we are a very sexually open society, seeing what some call sex as just a part of sharing of love, closeness, comradeship, pleasure, one's being, among other things.  Though we only do this with ones we are very close to, or close to. Not just anyone.  There has to be some connection at the least and the other being has to be open as well, though being telepathic it is easy to know  this.  We are all just being true to ourselves as many other being do try to be, as all beings should be, being true to themselves and their true selves.  Just be true to yourself and you'll be true to your true multi dimensional self to.

Though this is enough for now.  We'll talk again later in the future.

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Saturday 11-28 + Royal Postive Alpha Draconian

I had a lot of fun at the meet up get together.  Lots of great energy there.  Some of the same people and some different ones.  I guess that is normal.  Some only come to some meetings. 

We did a loving & kindness meditation.  I felt like I was in 4 places at once, in my body, somewhere outside space & time & the universe, & also some place where everyone is spheres of light & also some place that was all white that I could not make out to well.

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This morning I had a male being come to me. At the same time I remembered, or something, or maybe from the feel of his energy, that in what may be a concurrent incarnation that another of my multi dimensional selves is doing, he's my older brother & he's a positive royal alpha draconian.  I'm a younger brother of the royal family I felt since it gives me more freedom to do my mission or missions, or reasons for incarnating.  Whereas he as an older brother has more responsibilities

he did the energy equivalent of a very loving hug.  his energy was very loving & he felt like a very loving being.

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Thought I'd have him repeat what he said to me earlier as I was taking a nap. 

male royal alpha draconian: yes, as I said before, in a parallel incarnation you are having I'm your older brother.  since we are positive we are not like our, darker some would say, brother in or kin, though it's more accurate to say they are more self centered, either need to learn certain things, which they will in time when they are ready, or other reasons such as they wish to experience that type of life, or other reasons.  It's not as simple as they are evil, that is to oversimplifying things. 

but that's not why I'm here.  I came here to meet, greet and share some love with another part, another multi dimensional self of my younger brother.  Though we, both the royal family and positive royal alpha draconian collective and positive alpha draconian did recognize you as an angel, of the seraphim type, we were very happy you, well more accurately to say another facet of your multi dimensional self choose our family and collective to incarnate into.  and being a younger brother means you have more freedom to do your mission and do what you want to do since being one of the older offspring I have more duties then your other self who's my younger brother does.  Though I do regard you as my younger brother too.  as for how long the incarnation lasts <here he is talking about the royal alpha draconian incarnation>, it is much like the Sirius dolphin pods you are on VERY good terms with, there is no set lifespan.  As a seraphim type  you prefer to focus on the larger picture, the overall whole, as we ourselves the positive royal alpha draconians prefer to do also.  so it does fit in with the same things that you like doing in that regard.  so yes we are aware and have been aware that you are of the seraphim type of angel origin from the angelic realms.  Now some angels never leave it, some leave it for short periods of time, and some like you have some multi dimensional selves leave it for periods of time to either incarnate or to visit and spend time with other friends and family.  though when you incarnate it is most often for a specific mission.  though not always so.  at first you did incarnate mostly on Sirius at first to get the hang of incarnating, though you can say that was your primary mission.

Once this incarnation is over you will likely prefer to not incarnate and instead you'll likely do as you have posted before, visit friends and family.  Some of these visits will be cause you want to visit with them, other times it may be due to they want your help with this or that.  Visiting your other selves is also allowed in many places and a thing you'll do. 

and indeed you can visit our family when you wish since you are a member of our family.  It matters not if your other self that is incarnated as my younger brother is around or elsewhere doing stuff.  he is sill you, another you.  It may sound complicated my brother, but it is simple really.  as you know the other you's may not be exactly like you, but if you look at all the various moods you've had then you'll get an idea of what some other you's may be like.  it can get quite varied. 

And indeed we do all love you and do regard you as equally a member of our family as your other self. 

as for earth, the existence of aliens will be revealed over time as the human collective is ready for it.  but that doesn't concern us at the present or near future since the less human you are as a race/collective, the later you'll be introduced to the human collective, also the existence of other dimensions will come much later then that as well.  So that will be a later event.  but it'll happen in time.

The so called quarantine is over and it takes time to introduce a collective that has experienced separation as those incarnated on the earth has done.  One can't just stroll up to the earth and say to the human collective on the internet, "hey did you know there are us aliens out here."  imagine the psychological damage that would do, the chaos, many religious earth humans will be proclaiming the aliens are demons and that'll cause more fear, and so forth.  no, these things have to be done slow, custom made at a speed for each collective of each world.  earth's speed will, is, being done at the perfect speed for that world, though of course our conversation doesn't fall under that due to the local rules since I'm talking to you personally and you are much more aware then an earth human is, very aware actually.  remembering and being more aware of your true self over time.  The rate you are doing so is at the best speed for you at the present and moment.  Since you've experienced separation you'll carry that forth and though you'll always be a part of your multidimensional self you'll be an individual also, though more alike and identical then not and very unlikely to merge into your multi dimensional self as some do. 

I'll go for now, remember that we, your positive royal alpha draconian family love you, as does many other beings, countless some may say.  We'll talk again.


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I do wonder at times what that fall on my head at the age of 12 when I feel 15 or 20 feet on my head did.  using today's terminology, I was aware that this universe is like a solid hologram, so to speak. not quite right but hard to say since I am not sure of the right terms, if there are any, I'll say that.  I could feel I was like outside this universe and interfaced with this body that is part of this universe. 

Thought I'd ask if he, the positive royal alpha draconian who seems is my older brother.

Me: so just curious, do you, we have wings? 

Him: indeed, it's a mark of our royalty.  We are bipedal winged and compared to humans very tall.  Tall compared to other non royal positive alpha draconians.  It's a status thing.  Not that we need that, but it's a tradition and we feel, why not.  It's a traditional thing that though we are aware of things, we do have some status and along with tradition you are a bit shorter then me as I'm a bit shorter then my parents.  Though if someone wants to be tall that is ok.  Just as you can sense and know stuff we know who's royalty and not. 

he says he does. It's a mark of being royalty. as is us being taller then non royal alpha draconians, but that is due to tradition.  Though if someone wants to be tall they can, since they can sense who's royalty and not.  Think of it like an employee who comes to work wearing suits like the company president and his children wear.  You'd know he's not one of the family but most would just shrug or maybe look at him oddly at most.

Friday, November 27, 2015

Friday 11-27

I did focus 12 for the 1st time today and it went very well.  I was able to get very relaxed.  Very deeply relaxed and fully mentally alert.  and then on to focus 12 I felt like I was more expanded then I was before, or more expanded then I normally am day to day, more accurately to say.  It does feel like I did get more stuff again this time, as I usually do when I get down to focus 12.

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I did the focus 12 for a 2nd ti without listening to the audio.  I combined this with the release and recharge.  I think it went well overall.  I do feel more like my true elf and with less of the concerns I had before. I do think the gateway is helping me a lot.  I look forward to what wonders I'll do for me next.

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I do feel lik I do have more access to the data that my true multi dimensional self has. In that I am from the angelic realms and am a seraphim type of angel since I do prefer working on the larger scale rather then the small scale, not that I ignore the small scale, but the large scale such as helping the earth go through this shift as well as the human collective is my primary focus, instead of helping folks 1 on 1 a some others are doing.  Both are needed at a good healthy functional balance and neither is more important then the others.  There are other methods as well such as making sure the frequencies and such are more evenly distributed so that the worst of the side effects such as increased volcanic activity, earthquakes, and other things as well as solar activity, are minimized to keep things as close to normal as possible and minimize the effects on the collective of folks incarnated here.

Though this is stuff I have posted on before or been told, it is stuff I do recall now. hard to explain the difference.  It's stuff that I do know. 

What I recall is sorta basic stuff, not many actual memories.  More like data stuff, though like I said with some memories.

I do recall data that I know some gryphon males and females. no real set memories, anthro gyphons, maybe non anthros.  I have a sort of memory of being an avian type, male I'm sure, Carian maybe, or is it another avian species?   Me as a unicorn stallion.  Though I do feel my gender may be either male or herm, or it may flow and switch based on my mood.

I do specific missions, not incarnating for the long term to do specific things are.  I've been a number of species, various Sirius ones, including merfolk, dolphins, blue skinned humanoid, and others, unicorn, Carian.  I do feel like I know myself better today then I have before.  Not sure what else to put down.  Guess this'll be a short post for today.

I'm realy looking forward to tomorrow's meet up with a new age spiritual group.  it's the same group I got together with on the 13th of this month.  I really enjoyed it.  THough a cold front came in with lots of rain, I did manage to get someone who lives close to me say they can give me a ride so that is good.  Though winter is a natural part of the year, I look forward to spring.  Especially since I'm so cold sensitive.  Overall today's gone great. 

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Thursday 11-26

I had a dream when I finally got to sleep. I don't remember all the details.  Something about a creature teacher. 

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I think I recall, diffidently I have the feeling that I only incarnate for specific missions.  Each incarnation is a different mission or a different reason.  I also feel or think I have incarnated on Sirius or the Sirius system/ worlds, or whatever the term is so I'd get the hang of incarnating first, and perhaps for other missions also.

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I did focus 12 for the 1st time today and It went well.  Think it took me longer to relax, but that is ok.  Somedays I can see it taking longer & other days it may be faster to get down to the same level of relaxation.  I did get some stuff I think.  Nowadays I only incarnate for specific missions and reasons.  The annoyances and the sensitivities I have to many things is normal.  It's not a sign of my being a new or any other sign. It is normal for someone of my level if I come to a place as dense as the earth for the first time since I've not incarnated on anyplace as dense as the earth before. 

I also got the feeling that I have incarnated often on Sirius, in part to get the hang to incarnating, and also for minor missions to get the feel of that, before I did other incarnations like the Carian royal male. 

I also got the feeling that I've incarnated as other species.  Also other information Like if I could teleport to a Sirius world to hang out with a dolphin pod and manifest a body there & hang out with them for a few hours or days.  That could count as an incarnation.  if say a friend or lover in another place wanted me to visit there or if they wanted my help with something, then some hanging out time afterwards.  if I then teleported over to be with them, that would count technically as another incarnation. 

choosing to be born into a Sirius pod, Lyran, or other races, or to hatch from an egg, after talking to some that you choose to be your parents, is an option, it's not a requirement like the earth is, though some do prefer doing that.  Picking a linear existence is a thing some folks really enjoy and prefer, picking a linear existence and being in just 1 incarnation for however many centuries the race normally lives and their plan fits into.

I do feel there are options like these and others in places other then earth.

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I did the focus 12 for a 2nd time today, this time not listening to the audio.  Think most of what I got, remember, is mostly the same stuff like before.  This me likely won't do any long incarnating after this one is over.  I'll likely just teleport around to visit friends & lovers as well as likely being asked to help out here for a bit and there for a bit.  I'll do that that interests me and such. May sound odd to some but I do think it is all about doing what really interests you.  also I likely spend some time meditating and seeing if I can ascend as high as I can, I'll make such decisions later after this incarnation is over and I've done any needed adjustments to being back to normal not being incarnated.  I'm not sure if say poping over to visit some friends or lovers on this or that world or realm/plane would count as an incarnation if you manifest a body for yourself and stay for a few hours or days or not.  But I'll not bother trying to figure it out.  Plenty of time to do so at other times. 

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I get the feeling that the female naga I've talked to is royal or some high ranking type and that we've been mates before.  Though I'm sure I've posed on that before.  and I felt her talk.

female naga: yes, we were royal mates in what you and some may regard as a past incarnation.  We, think of our relationship as very close friends, lovers, the full real definition of mate, friends, close friends, lovers, ones who share in what some refer to as sex, though what we share goes far beyond sex.  Though you do share the same relationship with others and we have been other species as well.  our relationship is both simple and complicated.  Think of it simple in the way I've mentioned and the different ways, degrees and methods we can explore this in.

Royals, indeed we are and have been.  unlike the, some of the royals on earth, ours is more like service to others since there use to be hidden knowledge.  This was in ages past when we were, well our species not us ourselves, were more dense and less aware.  So now we see this as more of a duty to share, service to others, though we do share some perks of course.  We don't need to discuss such details at this time.  We've been other reptilians as well.  Their energy is a think you've experienced before, as well as Sirius dolphin and other sirius sentient races, of which there is many.  Think of it like star trek or star wars where any 1 world or city will have more then 1 species on it, a mix of species. 


Me: so, are you also the female royal carian that has talked to me?

Naga royal female, nagess: well due to our past relationship I did agree to be a guide to you, one of many that you have, guides, helpers ect.  As for the female carian royal. That is a bit complicated.  The answer at the same time is yes and no.  same but not the same.  The angel that is talked to you is diffidently another being.  as is the male Sirius dolphin.  and others you've talked to before and have not talked to yet.  Some are helping behind the scenes and others are waiting till you return to this side, as well some of the behind the scenes helpers of yours. 

We've incarnated in a number of species and places, often as reptilians, nagas. Our naga incarnation has lasted quite a while.  and the way we are once you're a royal always a royal, many of the Carians are much the same as are other species and races.

Things are more open here. There is not an unusual thing in your having a number of friends, close friends, lovers ect. 


Me: So are you the female Sirius dolphin who's like a twin flame thing?

royal nagess: no, she's another being, but through you we are close and have become friends.  You are close to more then you suspect.

me: So am I right in my feelings that this me's primary thing is teleporting around, being with this person or friends for a few hours, days or weeks, then go somewhere else, instead of a set incarnation?

Royal nagess: indeed, this is what this specific you prefers and likes to do.  Think of it as a royal or seraphim type angel who teleports around, doesn't like being constricted to just 1 incarnation. Though other you's don't mind this as much.  You, as I, am active across a number of dimensions, planes, realms. Many things we are doing at the same time and indeed you can be yourself doing just what you want to do, and you'll learn, grow, and so on, while I do the same, many of the things we do together as a couple, friends, mates, you do with others.  also not only is this different dimensions, realms, planes, but also various timelines, alternate timelines.  So it is very varied indeed and we are active in more then 1 place at a time.

our love runs deeper then the sun is hot, as does the love you share with others.  you've been various species with them also, including the sirius female dolphin you mentioned.  I've incarnated primarily as nagas, since I prefer this, that race, but there are others I have and do enjoy and have other selves incarnated as.  and by you I mean your whole true multidimensional self. 

We regard you as the same being since you are the same being, just that you are an individual facet of your full true multi dimensional self as I am mine.  So you see based on that how say our relationship can be simple and complex at the same time?


Me: indeed I do think I understand.  much like I can have various relationships with my other selves, friend, acquaintance, lover, ect.

royal nagess:  indeed.  similar but different to yourselves is our relationships, or relationship.  I do think this is enough for now.  go and have fun, we'll talk again as well some others like the male Sirius dolphin, angel and royal carian female. 

Me: Thanks, I enjoyed this conversation.

royal nagess: and the denseness of the earth and your newness to that system is behind many of the problems as well as genetic and other things. as you feel is true, each planet and collective has their own type of energy and feel to the energy which takes some time to get use to and you are more sensitive to this then you know.  but as I said this is enough for now, we, the 2 of us and others who've been talking to you will talk again later.  till then my love.  walk in the light & be true to yourself. 

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Wedensday 11-25

I recall the latter part of a dream I had.  From what I recall I was in a house and knew the folks there. There was someone I knew who's house it was I think.  The person was a trance full body channeler it seems since he could do not only do a trance channel where the person would be sitting but he could walk around while channeling the being.  It seems he did both conscious and full body trance channeling and maybe also did one where he partially or fully merged with the other being.

The dream was 1st person and the me in the dream found out he was a starseed.  Then the me in the dream felt very odd, like I was briefly in 2 places or like I was being pulled or teleported somewhere.  Felt like I was mostly somewhere else then poof I was fully back in my body again.  Then it seems there was a timejump and I was at something like a cafe that had seating near a sidewalk.  The guy walked up or appeared, I'm not sure which.  He came up and said the beings who were my star parents were sorry since they tried to bring me home and everything was in balance but it didn't work.  I said to him that they could try again and he said they would. They were not sure when they could but they would.

No idea what the dream means, or maybe is just a gibberish thing.

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I do think that the you can manifest what you want is true, but what has to be taken into account is what your true self wants, planned, wants to experience, and maybe soul contract is also.  So say in my case it could be that if it's true that my true self normally doesn't go anywhere near this level of density.  Maybe it wanted to experience certain things so I may be able to ask it for stuff and may eventually manifest certain things, but only within certain limits since it wanted to experience living within limited means, but with some flexibility as to what I can do.  Not sure if this is true or I am getting certain things wrong.  I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually or I"ll know once this incarnation is over.  which I do hope doesn't last for lots of decades, maybe less then a decade. Not that I hate being here, there are fun aspects to being here.  It just feels restrictive and limiting, but I guess I'm helping who knows how many just by being here, with anchoring energies/frequencies and who knows in what other ways.

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I did the focus 12 for the 2nd time in 2 days and it went a bit better.  I was very relaxed and for a bit I do think I lost the feeling and awareness of my body, but just for a moment or a short bit, but that is something.  For most of it I wasn't really aware of my body that much except for breathing.  I also got some flashes of memory I think that showed I knew or know some avian type species, as well as anthro biped gryphon and non anthro quadruped gryphons, of both genders.  The feel is perhaps carian and gryphon, with both the biped and quadruped being 2 types of gryphons.  I feel I know some among these species of both genders.  I also felt more expanded then I normally am. 

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I tried the focus 12 after my nap without listening to the audio since I didn't have the time to listen to the audio.  it went well I thought.  I was very relaxed & felt more expanded then just my physical body.

I also remembered I had a brief time earlier today where I think after doing focus 12, a bit later I had seen myself as having avian feet, like a bird of prey type at least from the knees down scaled bird type legs. 

Then I remembered I have been a carian I think the race was.  I was a royal male carian who was an angel who had incarnated to do something.  I had a specific mission in mind.  That much I remembered, but what the mission was I'm not sure since I didn't recall it now, though I knew it then. I did recall I was from the angelic realm or realms and the mission was one that was galactic to some extent or would effect things on a galactic level, at least to some extent, but don't recall the details of any of this.  As I recall it wasn't a huge obvious mission, more like what I'll be doing will effect things on a galactic level, starting out small and growing more over time.  as I think I recall.

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Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Tuesday 11-24 + Angel

Showing affection to yourself, on the other side.  I feel that is quite normal and a proper thing to do.  the ways one does this depends on them personally.  There are a variety of ways to do this.  Each person can and often just do what comes natural to each individual and is proper for them.  The possibilities are huge. One possibility feels like an aspect of yourself could manifest to hang out with you, talk with you or other things.  Or another multi dimensional you can pop up to spend time with you.

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fun on the other side can be varied.  one method is to manifest in an area and have it work like a holodeck type thing like seen in star trek next gen.  Also one can manifest a body and set conditions so it could be like a short term sorta incarnation since the area is manifested and you can manifest a body for yourself, but you are in full control over what is going on. 

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I was taking a nap and was sorta in 2 places at once, but I did succeed sorta in a nap but my body was very relaxed.  I don't recall if it went all the way to sleep or not.  I didn't notice.  What happened is the female carian was there and she wanted to have some 'fun' with me which I played along with since it felt completely right and proper and like a thing we've done before.  We both manifested a small area to set up the scenario and manifested bodies for ourselves.  The closest way I can describe what we looked like is like anthro avians.  The fun we had was more of an adult nature.  

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I did the focus 12 and it went well I think.  It was being very relaxed like focus 10, but I also felt a bit expanded as well.  Hard to explain what I mean, but that is the closest I can explain.  It was like being focus 10 relaxed, but also like more of me was expanded out, but not all of me was.  Though I was still aware of my body.  I think it went well.  Not sure if that is what focus 12 is supposed to be like.  it feels similar to how I feel when I relax to take a nap or go to sleep and one of my guides or friends/lovers talk to me.

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Angel: as you experienced today there are a variety of ways you can have fun on this side.  one of the ways you shared with the royal carian female that you were with today.  The incident did indeed happen though you may not remember experiencing it fully. Though I do feel that you do to an extent, though not as sensitive to it as she may have been since she's fully here and you are in the body, a 3d body, shifting into 4d.  The fact some of your energy, all that you know of as your being but not all of ourself, is within the body you are in.  Though since you are incarnated in the body it does have a tendency, or rather it can at your present level of awareness, it can dull some sensations and senses.  The fact you also are aware is some abilities you have are not supported by the current reality matrix and human collective matrix of where you are presently incarnated and inhabiting. 

all that aside though the 2 of you did have fun and it is not an unusual way for you to have fun with some others since what some call sex is far more open here.  Many are into and open about it in various ways, though some are not.  Some may find it odd that being an angel that you are into this but it is not that unusual.  You've left the angelic realms at times, as some do, and though this you have grown and had experiences and this has helped you to grow, sharing with others is one way. So it is not unusual for some beings, including certain angels such as yourself, to be sexual beings, though as you have experienced and feel it is not just with anyone it has to be with friends or others you have a relationship with and who are equal in the desires to share in the pleasures, love, closeness, being.  What some call sex is but a small piece of this.  As for having offspring it works different once past a certain level of being. Those involved have to be willing to do this, and also to add to things it could be an incarnation so a vehicle is created and the offspring knows what they wish to do instead of starting with a blank slate as they do on earth, though that system does have many flaws, which is why it's being gradually done away with over time.  but enough on that now, it can be discussed later.

One can also decide to incarnate and just make a body and remain there for a lifetime.  or they can come and go as you prefer to do.  Being born or hatched is just 1 option.  not a necessity like it is on earth.  and by vehicle I mean an instrument used to inhabit for an incarnation, that many call a body.  Though above a certain level of being, like where earth is, one's lifespan increases since one can do more and more so lives for centuries, or more then centuries past a certain point.  One is much more free the higher up the dimensions one goes.  Then there are those like who who prefer to come and go, manifesting a body and usually staying above a certain level of being and up.  Normally you don't go anywhere near where the earth is in it's current level of density.  Also one is not locked into a full lifespan, say if a race lives normally 300,, 500, or whatever years you can just decide after a hundred or more, whenever you want, to end the incarnation.  There is not a body left behind since it dissolves, above a certain level of being, like some Jedi bodies do when they die.  this is above a certain level of being. The details are unimportant as to what dimension or density.   Earth will be much like this one day.  


it is all about one's personal choices and what you want to do, what excites you the most, and so on.  and above where earth is, you're more aware then most of those incarnated on the earth since the being phased out system there is set up to give one the illusion of separation from your being and source so you are not aware of it.   as well as dulling one's senses and certain abilities not being not supported or blocked.  This was done for certain reasons, that have past their time.  certain details unimportant to say here.  just rest assured the shift is going well and will eventually be fully over.  Things will change bit by bit, though living through it may not seem like much is changing over a decade of time.  


Your incarnation may seem to be very long since you are living through it day by day, but rest assured it will only feel like a long time.

Monday, November 23, 2015

Monday 11-23 + ANGEL

Though some only incarnate as Lyrans or other races, they may out of curiosity try incarnating as other races now and then or if a place needs help, like earth does going through a shift.

Some who really enjoy and prefer being in the matrix of say being a 6th dimension Lyran, or whatever may stay between incarnations in an inbetween place that is inbetween the various incarnation matrix's of this or that area of existence, and outside time & space. 

I do wonder if that means that if I say teleport in and manifest a body while visiting some a Sirius dolphin pod, would that count as a sort if incarnation or not.  I feel sorta not since I'm just visiting without the plan to remain for a long period of time and set up long term plans and such that involve others.  I feel that some places to allow this sort of thing and others do not.  Some may allow it only under specific permission.

I think also as far as having sex with the locals, sharing in that way that some would regard as sex, which is sharing of love, pleasure, one's own being.  That depends on what the local rules are and one's motives for doing that.  and how aware those involved are.   I'm not sure about being trapped at a certain dimension by indulging in this.  Though one's motives would be likely part of what any repercussion may be.  Though sharing love, pleasure, one's own being may be certainly permissible.  though with one less aware then one's self, say a 10 and 6th dimensional being.  Though there could be true love between the 2 and that would likely change things.  Or true love between more then 2 if there is going to be more then 2 beings involved.  The full reasons and such I feel is the real main thing that matters, one's full reason for doing that.  out of lust or out of sharing love, pleasure, ect.  Though having all those mixed together may be not only permissible but ok.  Though whether it lowers one's resonance is another question. 

In this case the both of them may benefit.  Though if one is from say the 4th, 5th or 6th dimension and giving into lust or as a way to show power over another, that is not really sharing love and the resonance of the act will be lower then sharing out of love, pleasure, one's being and desire with another that shares one's love equally.  Though in areas above earth i do feel those involved would be more likely to be able to be perceptive to this, especially at what some may label as the 5th dimension and up.

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Angel: you going for natural fibers in as many things as you can is a good idea.  With yourself becoming more clear and the shift progressing, these factors together have made you more sensitive to artificial fibers and the more substances like soap, non hypoallergenic shampoo and such you should work out of your use as well and go as hypoallergenic and natural fibers as you can.  he reason you are more sensitive to the non natural fibers and more harsh substances and chemicals, and certain chemicals is a mixture of factors.  part of it is as the shift progresses and you are more clear you are more sensitive to these things, as well as the degree of non human genes that you have, needed doing since your energy is so alien to earth a lot of adjustments had to be made in utero and other factors, but no need to go into such complicated details at this point.

and indeed this will be your last and only incarnation since the natural thing is often each you only incarnates once or a few times.  That is normal for some beings such as yourself.  Others do enjoy incarnating.  Many incarnate on just primarily 1 world.  Others incarnate on a number of other worlds, drifting as their interest takes them. Though there are some such as yourself who prefers to travel around and not incarnate in the traditional sense.

Your visiting say a Sirius dolphin pod could be counted as a type of incarnation, but most would not consider it as such since you may teleport there and hang out with 1 pod for however long.  You'd not make long term plans like some who incarnate do.  The vehicle body being born or hatched from an egg being an option in most places. You can also just teleport in and stay for decades or centuries.  Though many do choose to go through being born or hatched since they do enjoy the experience.  Though unlike earth the children grow up very quickly.  They are aware of their true natures, especially above certain density or dimensions and know what they want to be so they very soon go off to study what they wish to be, say a healer, solar engineer, or other things.  There are some places where it is a mix of these where they may indeed have a childhood and study what they want to learn, perhaps trying this or that before they fully decide or they may have a firm decision from the very start.  most in fact do, but some prefer to not choose from the very start.  most prefer to know from the start thought.

You'll prefer visiting here and there, various friends and lovers from past incarnations.  and since they were incarnations of your true self they are also past incarnations of yourself.  Many prefer to do things in this way so you'll not be unusual at all.  it's all about what you wish to do.

Also the council of elders does not do any judging as some have heard.  They are there to give folks a different perspective, one that is not as harsh as some may give themselves as well as showing and mentioning some stuff you may have missed.  Though being sentients they do have personalities all of their own. 

also subjects such as sex is much more open in places other then earth.  It is seen as a part of sharing pleasure, love, one's own being and if done out of these reasons it raises the vibrations of all those involved, as well as having other benefits for those involved. 

The key thing is what do you wish to do, that really excites you.  You do this and you are being true to your true being as well as gaining a lot from the experiences, helping others, and other benefits.  and it goes on literally for an eternity, a thing few can really conceive of, use to the concept of death.  There is no need to return to source, the one or whatever you wish to call it since we are all the one, source, ect.  So there is no need to return to the one or source when we are all it.  Though there are some who dwell in a place one can consider as source, and some do leave at periods of time to help with this or that then they return.  This is a place of incredible love and light that you just dwell there. just being, not doing other things, just being with the love all around and through, and you as you are it. 

Some stay here for eternity, some visit it and depart, some dwell there and leave to help with this or that.  Many carry the place within themselves as we do and can go out and do various things with the knowing and feeling that the place dwells within us forever.  hard to explain fully what it is like but that is what the closest I can explain to you at this time while you are in a 3d earth human body.  But away from this earth place you do carry within yourself as I and other others of our family do.

Others can grow to know they have this place, this being, this connection, within themselves and it was there all along, just that they did not consciously know it, or were partially aware of it.

your relationship with yourself is the cornerstone and foundation of everything, though some do miss this.  So you having a relationship with yourself is not odd or nor unusual, but is actually normal.  The nature of this relationship will be different for each one.  it will be filled with love. for some it can resemble more of a real relationship with sharing one's love, being, pleasure, and perhaps in ways some may call sex, for some this may seem unusual but this area is far more open, totally open in areas other then the earth, so having this as part of your relationship with yourself is quite normal for some.

Also having a relationship of this or that type with various planetary beings is also normal, the type of relationship is as varied as there are the number of sentients.  yours and Gaia's for example may be of a type that includes more of an erotic or sexual nature, among other sorts of things since it is a relationship based on true love and other things.  As is your relationship with other beings, some of them you know.  The female royal naga, Carian, and male sirius dolphin, among others you've met before and not yet met. 

Also you, the true self, is active across a number, many, of what one would call dimensions and alternate timelines.  This adds a huge variety to things and experiences, relationships, ect.  This is a complicated area that many do not understand. 

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Angel [Sunday 11-22]

Got the feeling an angel type being wanted to say something to me.  I first got a mental image of a stereotypical angel image.  I then said, is that your true form.  you know me, and that I'd not be shocked by your true form.  I then got a mental image of a sphere of bright light with light in the shape of wings. hard to describe but that is the easiest that I can.

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Angel: you know of your true nature as a Seraphim of the angel realm as me refer to them.  We merely call it home. The 3 you've been talking, communicating with were friends, good friends, lovers & mates from past, former, incarnations and your relationships with them have continued after the first incarnation you had with each of them and you've come closer together over time.

Your incarnation will not be for long, though living through it may seem like a long time to you since you are experiencing it. Once you are on this side it'll be like one of your very long dreams and you are awakening since you are really suspended in the energy matrix of the holographic universe.  This isn't exactly what it is but that is the closest way to explain it in simple 3d technological terms and as you have posted before.  yes the 6th dimension lyrans, Sirius races and others are in a similar case, though nowhere as dense as the earth is under present.  this is how incarnating works, again to put it as simply in 3d technological terms as possible. 

Also as you have posted before in many places other then earth, though on earth one can do this, but only with very special permission.  but in other places you can pop in; say in your place you wish to to visit and hang out with a Sirius dolphin pod for a while. You can teleport there.  Basically you can will yourself to be there from where you are and manifest a body while you are there. Basically you are putting on a suit from the local area to interact and hang out with the dolphins there. Then go and visit some nagas, say one of your female naga lovers and your and her friends there. 

Some beings prefer to incarnate and some like you prefer to come and go, teleporting around.  The benefits of each are equal and neither are better then the other.  each has certain advantages over the other that the other lacks.  it's all about personal preference.  You are becoming more & more of your true self, or as much as the local matrix allows, due to it's denseness, the certain characteristics of the physical human body, and other complicated reasons. 

the use of stones and hemi-sync is a good idea of yours and it not only returns a normal sleep pattern to you but alleviates your symptoms that the shift and ascension of the planet earth wishes to go through and in fact is, causes you to experience.  The acquisition of some orgone devices is a good idea as is putting some orgonite pyramids and other such around your dwelling since if you do this as you can easily can afford it you'll find the atmosphere of your dwelling, the interior of it, will feel more positive since the one that you wear at present is unable to effect the entire dwelling at once, but it does great good, more then you are consciously aware of at present.

Once this incarnation ends, you'll indeed end up back at home in the angelic realms, though it may not be poof at once, but one of your other friends/lovers has spoken about this before and your internal knowledge has revealed this to you as well so there is not as much need to go into the details at this time.  But indeed it may not be poof, though returning you'll find is much much faster then going down  to the earth to incarnate since returning to your native level you'll find is much easier then going to the earth to incarnate. 

The way I see it indeed as you have said yourself, the chances of you incarnating after this one is over is very small, though your true self may choose to incarnate, this will not effect you much, other then you gaining the knowledge and experiences of this other self or selves since you are a multi dimensional being and creature you can be in a number of levels of being at once.  As with being part of a collective, you can indeed be part of your true self and yet be an individual at the same time.  You even more so since you have this time where you have the sense of separation and being your own individual.  Those of earth will have more individuality then some others, though others do not lack a sense of individuality. it is difficult to explain this in 3d language terms that one can easily understand.  suffice it to say that while every being is an individual, you having incarnating on earth this once will give you even more of a sense of one.  Though I'll go at this time since your energy bodies, and physical structures are unable to sustain this level of contact though you yourself can. hard to explain the fullness of this.  We'll talk again.  Do as you are continuing to do and you'll do greater then you suspect or consciously are aware of at the present.  Good luck and remain true to yourself.

Sunday 11-22

I do feel that soul mates and twin flames are much more common on the other side then many suspect.  first soul mate covers a lot of territory.  It could be someone you agreed to help you with this and that is what some call a karmic twin flame.  What it is really is someone who agreed to help you with this particular thing and since there is the inability to remember things here and the separation then 1 or both may hold onto this relationship when it was meant to last only a few weeks, months, or years.  Which means the individuals involved are unable to move one. One of the many flaws I would say with the system as it is currently implemented here, but that is another topic.

Soul mates and twin flames I feel are actually far more common on the other side, twin flames being someone that you resonate with on a close level.  2 who are 1 sort of thing.  I feel that it's more common on the other side.  There may be a number that you are in close resonance with. Since away from here you may get in very close resonance or your individual resonances may almost match or match with more then 1 individual.  Over time it may be first 1 then another being, then a 3rd, ect.  and on earth it's not like this I feel since due to the current level earth is at and the various limitations here, Those who are sensitive enough can only feel this with 1 individual and it's a concept being introduced to earth slowly. instead of the whole  thing. Introduce a far simpler version first, then introduce the more advance complicated versions later on.

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I feel as the shift progresses the physical bodies will change of course.  Since if you are a 6th dimensional Lyran or Sirius dolphin, you are still in a body.  it's just it's less dense then this one here on earth and of a higher dimension and frequency.  Also I fee that in at least some if not most places you don't have to be incarnated to interact with others.  So say if you are not incarnated anywhere you could just manifest a body to hang out or be with some folks in the 4th, 6th or another dimension.  I feel that there are some advantages to being incarnated as say a Lyran of Sirius dolphin of whatever dimension and density.  I also feel there are some advantages if you do more like I feel I'd prefer and not incarnate but just manifest a body to interact and hang out in the place.  you may not even be aware of how the process works. You can poof make a body as you appear there.  Also I do feel you'd be aware of what the local rules are for the area. 

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I also do feel, like I've said before, that though I can be as totally clear as possible, that the matrix (can't think of a better term) of the human collective, since they are interconnected, just that most of us can't feel and are not consciously aware of this connection, it does affect you still.  So say if I am mostly clear.  The slighth doubt and maybe slight fear, can still pop up since the human collective has that and other feelings since due to the conditioning here, how humans are raised, the conditioning and programming, it sets up within the matrix grid framework of the human collective things like some doubt, fear, shame, and other emotions.  I do think this may change over time as more humans awaken or partially awaken and the vibrations and resonance frequency changes, growing higher over time.  how fast I can't say.  Though I do feel that even centuries from now there'll be some polarity and contrast, just perhaps not as severe as here.  it may be instead of like it is now in some parts and areas of the earth, more like it is in other areas where you may have a neighbor that the 2 of you don't like each other, don't get along or have totally different beliefs or feelings about certain things.  and you just don't speak to each other.  instead of trying to blow each other up, kill each other, fight each other, you'll just continue to live side by side and just not speak.  You may speak your views in certain groups, but eventually most will come to the conclusion that they can exist with others they don't agree with.  This may happen around the point when they become aware of the human collective matrix framework thing that has humans interconnected, those inhabiting human bodies.  That could be one of the differences is if  you are not incarnated but just manifest a body you may either not be connected or maybe only peripherally.

if so then some beings like angels may have no real form, but can look like however they want and they may be viewed by others as whatever their form is since they can maybe connect to any collective.  Though at it's true base, souls have no form.  So I wonder if angels are a certain type of soul.  I'm sure I'll figure it out at some point.

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I'm not sure if greed, jealousy, envy, power hungriness and other sorts are part of the human collective, if they come from other emotions like fear, ect.  Not sure. Maybe I don't feel these since I don't have those in my make up so it may be just an individual thing or since I'm not a native earth human who's mostly or only incarnated here I don't have those emotions and they take longer to settle in.  or take being conditioned, programmed in and I wasn't raised where those were conditioned in.

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I did the freeform focus 10, the 6th and last part of wave 1 of the gateway experience.  Mostly I felt very relaxed and like I was floating.  Part of it I did wonder what the angelic realms looked like and what I saw was a beautiful bright white light, with a slight blue tint to it, or maybe it was a white-very light blue light.  Very beautiful to look at and it seemed to be in front of me, and it's light was everywhere.  No idea what it was, but it diffidently felt great seeing it and feeling it's light all around and within me as well. 

I wasn't aware that over 30 minutes had passed.  Since the time seemed to be just a few minutes. Maybe 5 or so minutes at most. So all in all I think it went great.

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Took a 2nd nap.  Well I didn't go to sleep but I lay there and rested so it was of help since I felt the mental need to rest a bit.  I felt some sadness, not from me. Not sure why.  Maybe a future self or me at feeling sad once this incarnation ends that the unique experiences will be gone and I didn't indulge in more of them.  Maybe other reasons.  Some others who I are not in contact with since they and I want separate ways and don't resonate with missing each other at some level.  Maybe it was just general sadness I was picking up on and not related to me at all.  No idea. 

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Saturday 11-21

I had one of my female guides give me a very technical lecture on a number of topics.  I also got a few flashes of future tech, like I did as a kid.  A wide screen thin screen that some would hang on the wall and use it for the computer monitor & tv and it would be very thin.  And if your needs are moderate you could get a computer on a small thing like an android on a stick, a 2 by 3 inch thing that you can plug into the back with a ssd, and the screen itself is thin. 

Also got that I may one day have a kindle e-ink device.  Not sure why they showed me that, and I may have a 10 inch tablet and more money then I do now.  not rich but a bit more money on a month by month basis. 

Also I would be going back home to the angelic realms.  I may need to go back in steps instead of poof back.  Not sure of how fast it would be or how slow. Something like a diver coming up from the depths to avoid getting the bends. Not that I would get the bends.  not sure why I couldn't just go poof back but something about that is the way it's done and is best to do it that way. 

Think I got a brief sorta glimpse of the angelic realms maybe.  Or maybe just part of the other side.  Nice place.  Lots of white, the colors look more real then here.  not all of it is really very physical and some have no real background nor forms.  hard to explain what I saw.  I'd need to go back, return, in steps since it's different then temporarily lowering one's vibration rate so one can channel.  This is much more pronounced, having lowered my vibration rate to incarnate on the earth.

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I'll put down the basics of what she said as best as I can recall, though it'll likely not be in order.  also no idea if this female who gave me the lecture was one of my 2 female guides, or another from higher up, one of my true family, a more senior guide, one of the time lord types that the free lecture mentioned.  I've no idea, though I did seem to know her, or my true self did. This lecture was very technical though I only recall the general summary of the lecture. at least at this point.

The lecture was about various topics.  Why I'd have to return home in stages instead of poof.  Easiest since I lowered my vibration rate to incarnate here I'd have to return in steps.  Though I would eventually return to the angelic realms to remain there for a while, resting, before I decided what to do next.  and it would be highly likely that I would not incarnate, this me anyway. 

Also other things like my using the stones/crystals I've been using and the orgonite device too.  Are helping to clear me, also stabilize and even out the energies so the energies reaching earth won't effect me as much as before.  Also these are helping me to be as much myself as the local matrix (she didn't use the term matrix but went into much more detail) supports only a certain amount of me being my true self.  This would change over time and I could become more and more of my true self as time progresses till this incarnation ends when I'll become my true self and recall everything.  Maybe no instantly, but it would happen much more quickly then being in a physical body would allow.  also something about my current incarnation is variable as to how long it'll last.  there are some several possibilities as to how long it may last.

She talked about how it's easier energetically for them, the male Sirius dolphin, female royal naga and female royal carian, to go from say 6d down to 4d temporarily to communicate with me.  Instead of me reaching up as high as I can and I am capable of reaching higher then 6d.  Also I am becoming more clear and easier to reach.  as well as th reason I sometimes hear a distinct mental voice but often not is usually how it works is they send a message to through my subconsciousness and it's easiest if they send the message and let me intuitively know & feel what they sent/said.  and that is why it often is my own mental voice though I do know or feel what they said.  it takes more effort for them to send it farther and for me to get a distinct mental voice that is theirs.  Also it's best if I am relaxed and the ability is developed along a certain line. The gateway and other things will help with this over time.  Don't rush it.  Just go at my own pace.  and doing it intuitivly is still a very good method and means. 

When this present incarnation ends I'll have to return home in stages instead of all at once since the lowering of my vibratory rate to incarnate had to be done gradually to keep it permanently low enough to incarnate here, it can only be returned at a set pace, though this will happen much faster then it was to lower it.  I may go somewhere or my family could manifest a vehicle & I may go on that or be carried by one of my family, close friend, ect, from the angelic realms, or from a similar place of the same vibration rate and I may go to sleep during the trip as I'm carried there and will recover there, awakening once the process is over.  My memories and knowledge and such will fully return during this, though some time to rest will be needed also and is normally part of the process.

I have been a number of different races, royalty being part of it, like royal naga, carian, among other races such as Sirius dolphins, Sirius humanoid, and other races & species. it's not unusual if this me here, this individual me incarnated in this human body doesn't incarnate after this.  this is not an uncommon occurrence for me and has happened before, and is quite normal for some beings. 

also there are other beings of all sorts of species that my true self and other me's are in various relationships with, lovers, friends & the type.  They are willing to continue or renew the relationships they have with the other me's or my true self with me, but that will be for me to decide after this incarnation is over and I've rested a bit, so plenty of time for me to decide then. 

She also went into detail how my being here helps to anchor the energies and raise the vibrations and the energy vibrations that surround me help some individuals that I may be near, but it's mostly focused on helping the collective, planet, planetary being Gaia, and system. 

It helps to raise the vibration, anchor in some energies & frequencies by my being here.  This helps over the long run, especially by raising the vibrations, as well as other beneficial effects. 

it may seem to be moving slowly but my incarnation will be over soon enough.  THough going through the time it may seem like it's taking a long time, it'll be over soon enough.

The male Sirius Dolphin, Female royal naga, & royal female carian have prior relationships with me from before and that is the connection they have and why they have that connection to be guides in this incarnation at this time.

She also said that above a certain dimension no one wears clothes due to shame, to hide one's body parts, and not for the fact clothes have pockets.  Everyone can just manifest instantly whatever they want or need.  and the weather doesn't bother anyone nor the temperatures.  Though some do like to wear a cloak or other clothes since they are in the mood for a certain look, flourish or somesuch like that. 


once this incarnation is over no only will I likely not be incarnating anymore, but I'd be a, in a way, separate being, my own being, but also still part of my true self, and that stretches back to the one.  my experiencing being separate will mean this will carry over once I return home and I can well be my own being, but also still a part of my true self.  as has been said before.  hard to explain what it reallly means.  Think I understand what it means. 

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during my 1st nap she, whoever she said, that Gaia does want to deepen our relationship but it's up to me.  She said (and I guess the female voice is maybe either the female carian or naga guides. Though it may be a more senior guide, maybe even an angelic one or higher.  Do angels have parents?  I've no idea.  Maybe, maybe not.

Anyway she said that with Gaia it started with just the sort of relationship of I'm here to help with the shift, help raise her vibration and that of her physical body, anchor in the frequencies by being here so the 2nd wave could come in, and help with clearing and such.  but with Gaia it's gone past that and she does want to deepen the relationship and continue it after this incarnation is over.  though it's ultimatly up to me and she, Gaia, wants me to wait till after this incarnation is over to fully and finally decide. 

I guess this is because I'll have access to my full nature, memories, ect.

I did try to freeform focus 10, but was mainly relaxed, felt a bit of floating.  part of it I talk to myself about certain things, so there was some progress.

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I was watching an art stream I watch and relaxed mentally and wondering who she is, the mental voice and I got the impression of warms, soft, fine feathers.  Or that is how they feel to my hands as I caress her body.  Wonder if it may be the royal carian female that I've been mates with before, or so she says we have been and I must admit I do feel a deeper love for her, not sexual lust, but sexual attraction is there, but it feels more like we've agreed there's time for that later.  And I do get the feeling she enjoyed the caressing I may have done mentally. I guess maybe using part of my energy or something.  The feeling I get is diffidently female avian and the sexual femaleness, in a way that feels like we've been intimate and shared energies before.  Like the feeling royal female naga and with the male Sirius dolphin.  Though it's maleness with him, and the sexual feelings are not on the surface, but lower down.  Like I mentioned before, like there's time for that later, sort of feeling. hard to describe. 

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I guess since I'm starting to get the feel of who and what I am, many others are farther ahead of me.  I do wonder how long this will continue till I'll have full access to all my knowledge and memories.  Due to the human collective matrix thing, I may not have access to all my abilities while I'm incarnated here.  maybe it'll change over however long this incarnation will go on for. 

Friday, November 20, 2015

Friday 11-20

I got my orgone pendant I ordered on Monday.  Nice.  No idea if it works or has any energy.  I think I feel slightly different but it may have energy I can't yet feel or only barely can.  It came with a free lightpen that is a pen and penlight in one, nice.  Wherever it was made or packaged must be heavy with incense since the inside of the padded envelope smells of that, the plastic bags that are resealable all smell of that.  Not that I mind the smell.  Time will tell of this does anything since I don't expect to notice anything right away.  Though I do think I feel energy in my body, a resonating that I've felt before.  Time will tell and the effects may be subtle.

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I did the freeform focus 10 and I did get some conversation from who I guess are my 3 guides.  A female royal naga, male Sirius dolphin, and a female Carian.  She looked like an anthro or biped bird.  Not sure if the wings I saw were a cloak or actual wings, though she did have hands. 

she said when I asked that yes she is of royalty and we were mates, as I was with the naga before and the male Sirius dolphin and I are very good friends from before.  She said that the 3 of them are certainly willing to renew or continue their relationships with me, once this incarnation is over.  To which the others agreed.  She went on to say that best to focus on them being guides to me and friends since this incarnation won't really last long enough for us to renew our relationships with each other, theirs with me.  best to keep it to the guide and friend type of dealing for now.  She did also say that indeed the 3 of them did continue their relationships with me between my incarnations.  She said I am from the angelic planes/realms and it is a great place. I'll love it there and do spend a great deal of time there, though I'm also spending time elsewhere since that is what I do.  I think she also mentioned it's a good thing that I started getting into orgonite devices & that I got one and I plan on getting more, but no need to hurry.  She also said that I would enjoy sacred geometry as well and look into that also.  Just be myself, my true self & things will go great and will be fine. 

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I was thinking earlier.  think that I do have some knowledge of my self.  Being a Seraphim from the angelic realms, having incarnated on Sirius (not sure if it was 1 or more worlds) as a variety of species, but at least or a few times or more then a few as a Sirius dolphin, but also as a merman and a blue skinned humanoid.  And others also. No idea of the worlds.  a royal naga, royal carian, maybe a royal positive royal alpha draconian but not sure of this race.  Not sure of the others I have been or how often I have been the various species I know I have been, but that's not really important.  I still feel that I will likely choose to not incarnate again. I may become like an oversoul or a multi dimensional being in my own right, but still a part of my true self at the same time. 

feel like I'm also a unicorn, and have a connection to dragons, but not sure in what way.  Maybe I've been those in the past and or have some parallel incarnations, or other selves who are some of those.

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Thursday 11-19

I had a dream last night where from what I recall I and some others were talking about setting up an rp.  I was going to be an original character but during the conversation with someone I decided to instead do the 1st green lantern Gordon Scott.

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I was reading in a book on how some channelers lost their reputation since their predictions came out not happening.  And I remembered how once in a dream I was able to see how time is.  In this dream or lucid dream, don't recall it now, I wrote it up I think in a past blog.  Anyway in the dream I was able to see possible futures.  I recall, it wasn't a lucid dream I was some other being in this dream a female who has this power. The way she saw the future was like looking at a road map.  Their were roads & paths branching off from the present.  The more likely they were the thicker they were and the less likely the thinner.  One could look forward towards the future to do the same. 

I think that some may be biased also.  Some who may see the future may be biased say towards darker futures, so that is like putting on a filter on top of this road map where the more positive positive futures are either not able to be seen or not as clearly.  One may have the opposite type of filter as well. 

Also some may be able to only see 1 set future instead of able to see multiple possible futures. 

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not much to say.  When I did the freeform focus 10 today all I got was very relaxed.  Though that was nice.  nothing else.  No biggie, it happens at times.

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I tried the sleep & explore from wave 1, but as usual it never puts me to sleep and I never do project or anything with that.  THink I'll quit using it since it makes sense to me that out of the 36 exercises that the Gateway experiences has, it makes sense some would  be totally useless for some individuals, the exact ones useless would be based on the individual.

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I did the release and recharge, another from wave 1, but this one I did without listening to the audio.  seemed to go okish.  nothing super. 

I was thinking that maybe the reason i have some of these feelings of very slight doubt and such could be the matrix or whatever the term would be for here.  The fact that the human collective due to various religions, experiences growing up and other things, has fear, doubt shame, ect being fed into it all the time.  So it make sense that some of this may effect individuals even if they personally have none of those or if they have cleared themselves totally, it may still pop up.  Maybe some part of the dynamic of the human collective being non really separated but there is the illusion of separation.  Just some guesses on my part since it seems I can get down to being very clear, but there is that last little bit of this or that still there.  That could be why it is still there or pops up from time to time is I may be sensitive enough to feel that.  So for it go to away totally it could mean that the whole human collective has to be clear of that totally, which will take time as the shift progresses.  Again just thoughts and guesses, maybe right maybe wrong, maybe a mix of both.

my guess is my clearing myself may help the collective in some manner, though just my being here may help the collective as it does the planet and other things.  hard to put this into English. 

The presence of some like me does help to anchor in the higher frequencies and other benefits also.  allowing others to come to incarnate here after us since they require a certain level & amount of frequencies before they can be supported enough to incarnate here.  They come in and their presence may anchor in certain frequencies and in turn it may allow another say a phase 3 and so on.  Helping the shift with others coming here instead of letting the native earth humans try to do the shift by themselves. 

I still think the shift may take at least centuries or millennia to complete.  not sure how long that'll be.   and aliens openly walking around on earth may take centuries or longer since humans would need a lot of time to grow use to the idea gradually and governments would not like this since they would have to admit that they in fact are not the top technologically, and humans would have to accept they are not the tops of everything.  as well as there being many varied forms of sentients out there, let along that we're all really 1 in different species bodies & vehicles.

Though many of the alien societies, civilizations and individuals have things to learn too since many may see humans as no more then children, not as high in importance as them, or smart animals.  So they will learn from this shift as well. Though some may not need to learn this having learned this already in the past or never having the concept of we're higher then them, we're more important them them.  Since everyone is really equal, it's just a matter of awareness and experience, and some incarnated here are of such a being that they are really ones higher in awareness and experience then some non humans visiting earth and being channeled currently.  though some individuals may just be a bit more impatient or less patient compared to others since we are all individuals.  Some have more of a sense of individuality then others.

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Wedensday 11-18

I did the freeform focus 10 from gateway, but this time I did it without listening to the audio.  I wanted to see what would happen if I tried to do it without listening to the audio and I think it went well.  Some stuff like the resonance toning I did a very short time then he usually has the group do it in the past audio since if I do it as long as they do I get the feeling of to much energy in my head so I've learned to cut down, way down, on how long I do it.

Anyway it went very well.  I got a short conversation with my Sirius dolphin guide, then a female naga came on as well. They did say they would help me to remember what was said as I was typing.  one odd thing was that as I was relaxing I got either a poof or something, not sure, maybe a message, it wasn't either of the 2 guides. Something about a car bomb within the Middle East or Europe in as little as within 6 hours or perhaps within 6 months. 

The conversation with the dolphin guide was a very short one.  it was mostly about I'm doing great and he was going to introduce me to another guide and then he sort of faded out and another fadded in, a female naga.  Though unlike the sirius Dolphin who when he communicates with me it's in my mental voice, though In instinctly know its him and not me.  The female naga had a distinct mental voice. 

I did comment on that she's a female she did say that she is, that the nagas to reproduce sexually since they enjoy the closeness, shared love, pleasure and other benefit of sex, or what earth humans would call sex.  She then said she is of a royal line, though not as high as mine.  In mentioning I thought I was of angelic origin she said that indeed I am and of the Seraphim type since I prefer and do like working with the planet, planetary being, collective, race collective as a whole instead of purely only on a 1 on 1 individual basis like some others do.  Then she said that my ties to the naga and reptilian are basically as close as the Sirius mostly dolphin, beings. 

She then went on that their attitude, the naga collective, since I've incarnated as a naga royalty they regard me as that if I do visit them or even if I'm not visiting them as a naga.  She said I've been royalty of other races like the positive alpha draconians and carians, among perhaps others.  She said the nagas only have royalty since they do not see royalty as better or higher then non royalty, as some less aware and some other beings do, it's just that when they talk to other beings, for various reasons, some prefer to talk to royalty, or better for those involved if they have those of royalty do the talking.  She said that being royalty is more duties and service to others, not living thinking you're better then others.  It has more duties and responsibilities that come with it, but it does have certain, perks that come with it too. and she said it in a half smiling manner, being not 100% serious.

She said that usually I'd likely be talking to the Sirius dolphin since it's easiest for me, while I'm incarnated here, to be dealing primarily with the energy of 1 being, but she would talk to me too at times. 

then she went on to say I'm doing well and things would continue to improve and accelerate at a faster pace over time.  She said it was a good idea my using certain stones and crystals to help alleviate the symptoms of the shift that I'm going through, like my sleep being messed up, and I had picked out the right ones.  Though as I've been doing I do not need to keep the stones near me all the time.  Just maybe a bit before bed, during the main period of time where I sleep, but not the majority of the time.  She said it would help some others going through the same and like me they could use their intuition to show them, let them pick out which ones would help them. 

I did ask her, not sure why I did, I asked if she and I had been mates before and she smiled saying yes, the 2 of us have been mates in past incarnations. and I got the feeling she had enjoyed those times and would be willing to have a relationship other then being one of my guides. 

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She said the shift was going well, though some were not ready for it and were fighting against it.  When the time came there would be alternatives for them, other places they could go to continue to incarnate to work out and learn and resolve what they needed to learn, work out and resolve.  Depending how things went this could be a variable amount of time.  Since there variable and more then 1 possible futures. 

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Tuesday 11-17

I had some dreams last night.  I don't remember most of them.  I'm sure I had 3. 1 of them I recall was a typical makes no sense.  Though I do recall 1 of the dreams, at least in part.

I was with a group of folks, talking to 1 primarily.  Not sure if this is my true family, senior guides i have, friends, or what but I do recall we were talking and part of it I think was asking what I thought of incarnating on the earth or something like that. and I said while it did have it's fun aspects, and I did have fun and enjoyed it at times, due to the sense of separation everyone has there it could be better, but it was improving.  Also I don't think I'll be incarnating anymore, not that I hate the earth or dislike it, or the idea of incarnating, just feels like this me doesn't have any more interest in incarnating, like I've been there done that. While I can see the appeal it has for some, but for me while it would have some fun aspects, there are annoyances, and the limitations imposed are ones that I just wouldn't find fun so no, I do feel this is the last time that this me will incarnate.  The other parts of my multi dimensional selves may have 1 or more the enjoy incarnating.

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I did the freefocus 10.  it was relaxing again.  The Sirius dolphin and I had a conversation.  Some of it was about the same as before.  The stuff he mentioned, though I'll list it maybe not fully in order.

Though I'm from more then the 6th dimension, the local matrix only supports up to a certain amount of my being and awareness, the matrix locally here being of the 3rd dimensional matrix, but that is changing as it is being phased out.  Phased out wasn't the concept he sent me since there is no word for that but that is the closest English term.  He sent me an image also of like a disconnected web type structure only slightly connected and it is being reconnected and is very complicated, with more then quintillions of connections that will be brought fully online, bit by bit at a proper speed.  I'll have more access to more of my being, memories and such over time.  Once this incarnation ends I'll have all of it.

What happened to me at 12 when I fell on my head from I forgot the distance, i feel either 12 or 15 feet on my head. he said what happened was I became aware of the matrix or the hologram though while still being within it, though still being unable to fully access my full being and senses and such.

It is not unusual for me to feel like I do not want to incarnate after this.  it is not unusual for some parts of a multi dimensional being to decide it does not wish to incarnate anymore once a present incarnation ends. In turn I may decide to become my own multi dimensional being, not really separate from my real being, He sent me a mental data thing of what he meant and it is hard to explain in English. The closest I can is I can become a multi dimensional entity in my own right, while remaining a part of the true self I'm a part of now, as it is a part of another multi dimensional being, though also being an individual as I am.  hard to explain but that is the closest that I can, and this stretches back to what some call Source, The One, All that is, and other names.

He also said that my ties to Sirius run very deep and due to that I'm known to all the pods of the Sirius systems and am welcome to visit and be among them. There are some who are incarnated there and some who come and go and visit and I'll likely be one of those who come and go, visiting and remaining for various periods of time.  There are some other selves of me who visit some Sirius pods, and other worlds as well. 

I've incarnated across more then Sirius, many other worlds, places, times, though I've incarnated often on Sirius in the past as a variety of races, often dolphin, but not always so. 

he again did mention I'm from the high angelic realms, and yes as my intuition says the rank structure of earth is not that this type of angel is higher then another, all of us are equal, it's just that what you really want to do determines what type you choose to be and are.  Like I really prefer working on helping a world, planetary being and race collective as a whole, instead of the individual as some others do, like various healers, and other types.

Monday, November 16, 2015

Monday 11-16

My Sirius dolphin guide & I had a short mental conversation as I was laying down to take a nap.  He did say I was from the high angelic plane, or maybe he said planes, don't recall if he mentioned it in singular or plural.  But he also said again that he is from Sirius.  Getting some Orgone is a good idea and I may be surprised at the benefits.  Spreading some around, as I can afford it, say over the course of a year or 2, would be a good idea.  As is taking breaks from doing Gateway now and then instead of doing Gateway every single day, 7 days a week.   And it was indeed easier on my body's energy system at this level to contact him, or the mermaid.  and they could relay messages from higher level friends, guides, family to me. Though I could ready the high level ones myself.  Though he did say that would likely change in the future.    

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I did the focus 10 free form. It was very relaxing and I did get the floating feeling towards the very end part.  I did have a brief conversation with the Sirius dolphin guide.  though I did come out of the focus 10 about 5 minutes before the excercise ended so I just took off my earphones and turned off the audio. 

Basically the Sirius guide did say some of the same stuff, but also that it may take a few minutes for me to remember this conversation as it's translated to my 3d mind, though he would do what he could to help ensure I would recall it.  he did say that he was native to 6d and from Sirius but he came down to 4d to converse with me since that would be easier on my physical body energetically, though I am capable of reaching higher.  I am from the high angelic realms and am of the Seraphim type.  he said that as I suspected there is no rank structure as far as these types are better then those types.  It's more like your chosen interest and specialty.  I focus on the whole world and collective instead of the individual like some others do.  Folks do benefit from my energy being near me like if I attend a group. But I don't focus on helping individuals on a 1 on 1 bases like some others do.    He mentioned that the orgone devices may benefit me in ways I'm not aware of yet, so he'd keep that as a pleasant surprise.  Spreading a few through my apartment would be a good idea, but only at a pace I could easily afford, but he said to go ahead with the idea I had and I was doing very well in general an in regards to the gateway also.  It was great my switching to that.  I did it at the proper time too.

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I'm doing pretty well being left handed, writing left handed that is. Though I do some right handed now and then.  I did fill out a check fully left handed again.  Guess it's a matter of time, not to long I bet, when I can do hand writing and have it feel ok left or right handed, it would feel just as ok.  I do look forward to being fully ambi dexterous.  Though I think since it seems I was meant to be left handed I'll continue to write mostly with my left handed even after I'm smoothly writing with either hand.  I can say my stuttering has totally gone away.  Not sure if any other effects my writing mostly left handed, but I can say that one.   My stuttering has totally stopped.  I do have some speech thing pop up once in a while, but it's the same as anyone else has, getting tongue tied once in a great while.  Just needing to pause a moment, ect.  




Sunday, November 15, 2015

Sunday 11-15

Got a message from the dolphin who said that due to my strong ties with the Sirius dolphin pods and due to what I've done in the past, my past actions, I'm more then welcome in any of the pods.

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had a strange dream where I was superman or a superman type character, but very early in his career, including a bit of time as superboy, I wasn't known outside Smallville, and I only had some of the abilities, no super cold breath or super speed.  And the strength levels were't rediculous.

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I also remember where the mermaid, then later the dolphin, told me that with I had so many blocks up that was acting as a type of cushion which was why the energy frequencies reaching earth were not much of a problem, not as much as now, as well as the synthetic stuff not bothering me as much.  Though as both my blocks cleared and I became more clear and more and more of my true self as well as the new frequencies reaching the earth, both together have made me much more sensative to the synthetic and unhealthy foods.  The dolphin adding in the fact I'm so alien to the earth and this level of density and my non human genetics compound the problem as well.

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I had fun at the walk around I had at the wholestic feastival.  I'll head back later this afternoon.  This time I'll remember to wear something in my ears since traffic can be very noisy.  Also they had some new asphault on part of the walk there, ick, but I'm sure anyone that's smelled  new asphalt knows that that smells like.  Smells very toxic to me & makes me feel not to well.  But it was mild.  The energy of the place was very nice, and I'll go back for at least 1 more walk through.  met 1 of the folks from another meet up group there. 

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On further thinking, I think I may get more orgone things.  I do like how they look.  I think I'll some pendants & pyramids.  The pendants I'll hang around my appartment, mostly off of the bookshelves, maybe 1 off of the front door handle.  maybe 1 off a wall, like art.  Think I may get some pyramids and spheres and place them around, like art also.  Slowly over time, no hurry. It feels like the right thing to do.  and the idea does appeal to me, even at a deep level.

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I went again to the event, had fun just walking around, great energy. 

Before I left I had another me pop up mentally, a female anthro dolphin.  wasn't expecting that.  she said she was 4th dimesion, and said she had come so we could balance our energies, her female and my male energies.  it was a pleasant experience.  not sure if she is native to 4th dimension or if she went there from 5th to more easily talk to me mentally. 

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Overall I had what I think is a pretty good day.  Very good even.  I'll take it easy, and not do any Gateway, taking a break.  I'll start up again tomorrow doing the freeform focus 10, and the sleep & explore.  The release & reacharge I may do Tuesday or Wednesday.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Saturday 11-14

Friday: while I didn't sleep to well Thursday night, I had a lot of fun at the spiritual type meet up I went to late this morning that lasted till about 1, from 10 - 1. I met new people and I diffidently will be going to more meet ups in the future.  I think she has 2 a month at her house and I may not go to the other one that is at the restaurant, a different one picked each time.

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On the suggestion of someone I know online I used some stones.  First I just walked around my apartment then put on my bed under and around my head.  It seems to have worked.  I'll keep using them to see if it continues to work.  I used an amythest cluster thing I have a a bunch of tiny amythest crystals, quarts, rose quarts, some heavy black stone I have, and a very small geode on a keychain. 

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So I may be from the angelic plane and have had incarnations on many worlds.  Feels like I've had a number or a lot on either Sirius worlds and or ones that are water types since I do recall I've been dolphins often, a merperson, merman in the 2 flashes I've had of other lives. Not sure if it was 2 different lives or the same one. and also 1 or a few as a blue skinned humanoid that instinctively says Sirian.  also had 1 as some sort of furry humanoid, teaching a group who would go out and teach others, a male Naga, working in a temple type place where he'd channel info, carve or write it on metal sheets and give it to others to copy and send out.  

Also had Gaia yesterday introduce me to a mermaid and the mermaid said her energy is easier for me to handle since though I can reach a high level guides, including the plane I'm from, its easier on my physical body for now for her to be a guide or a go between since her energy is easier for my physical body to handle since say for example she's 4d, and if I'm from another plane, the angelic plane she said, but if for example their energy is say a high plane and they can reach down to the 6th dimension, it's easier for my body energy wise since she's 4d or can go down to 4d easily herself.  She also said I have a very strong connection to mermaids so that makes it easier too for her and I to connect. 

Makes sense that with the energies reaching the earth at this time and I'm sensitive to energy a 4d mermaid would be easier energywise then a high plane reaching down to 6d and if I've been non earth dolphins, a humanoid dolphin of some high tech world, and a merman at least once, that was on some non earth planet with how the sky looked it wasnt earth.  I guess that explains what she may mean. 

I do feel a strong connection to her, merfolk, dolphins, orcas, and such. also to Nagas & dragons too, and biped reptilians, unicorns.


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Think I have a dolphin guide now too.  he came to me a short time ago. basically he said yes the Mermaid's energy is easier on my physical body, his also. he said while he is native to the 6th dimension he can easily go down to the 4th in order to talk to me.  he said that the others I can talk to are much higher up, high beings since I'm from  the high angelic realms.  it's easier on my physical body energetically of they do it this way.  He said that of course I know I have a very strong connection to dolphins and he did say he's from one  of the Sirius system worlds, a sirius dolphin aquatic type world.  and them together, him and the mermaid, are my guides that I can easily reach, and as he and she said earlier, easier energetically on my physical body. 

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I tried the sleep & explore hemi-sync but like before all I got was being very relaxed and after a bit a floating feeling, very relaxing.  Later I tried the focus 10 freeform, the last audio exercise for wave 1, but I am not sure if I got down to focus 10, but that was the first time I did it do I don't see anything bad about that, plus I'll not start wave 2 will the day after my birthday since the wave 2 album package is still sealed and I want to wait will my birthday to open it.  So that means I'll have extra time to do free form focus 10, sleep & exploration, and I'll also do the release & energize a few times over the time before that. 

Think I had the new dolphin guide pop up.  he mentioned I should take the day off and he and the mermaid may appear tomorrow, but I should diffidently take today off like I did  yesterday.  yesterday since my sleep Thursday night wasn't very good and I went to a meet up at an organizer's house, but I wrote about that yesterday.    Tomorrow I'll be going to another meet up, a special event thing that is being held at a hotel that is about 25 or 30 minutes from where I live, so I figure why not walk over there, since I joined the group last week.