I did intro focus 10 for the first time today and it went very well. I was dimly aware of my body during the focus 10 part. I focused on remaining relaxed, inhaling and as I exhaled I focused on remaining relaxed and becoming even more relaxed.
I did partially pop somewhere. . I was semi in 2 places at once. I was like on a beach somewhere or maybe it wasn't a beach. I think a beach was nearby. There was a large boulder and on it was a robed humanoid with a hood on so one could not see it's features. I could see it was twirling what looked like a ray gun like from one of the 1950's style sci-fi magazine cover pictures and the figure was twirling it like some gunslingers do in some western movies. I remember remarking that the hand I could see twirling the gun looked maybe reptilian.
I watched him for a second or so and looked around a bit and he hopped off the boulder in front of me but not close. I didn't see what he did with the ray gun, maybe it was unmanifested. I got a feeling it was a male being. After he hopped off of the boulder in front of me, but as I said not to close, he was a few feet away. he raised his hands and pulled his hood back, revealing he was a reptilian. which I found to be cool.
He said he was one of my guides and to continue to focus on remaining relaxed and to keep doing what I was doing. he said we'd talk later, another time. he said he would bring in my higher self to explain and it switched to where I was elsewhere or in a space in my mind. It seemed a featureless dark area. I felt like the message would be a brief one so there was no need for a setting nor furniture. the reptilian part of me appeared and was at first a large naga like he was before, though not human from the waist up, but humanoid reptilian. he said it was best if I would continue focusing on relaxation just as I had been doing using my breathing. also to do this intro focus 10 for a 2nd time today as I had been planning and twice tomorrow and do it for the next few days before I move on to the next one. he said this would help me immensely.
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I did the intro focus 10 for the 2nd time today. One of my eyelids kept flicking open, which is normal. It was a minor thing since if I keep my eyes rolled up as high as I comfortably can it usually won't happen and I was able to remain relaxed. I'll have to remember to make sure the thing I tie over my eyes puts light pressure on both of the eyelids of both eyes, or maybe I can put cotton balls on each of my eyes to help with that.
I was able to use my breathing like before to help with my relaxation. I was briefly in 2 places at once again, shorter then before. But with the distractions like one of my eyelids flicking open for a quarter second or so, and some other sensations like a spot or 2 itching, it's ok.
I was very close to a biped reptilian being that to me felt like he was positive and I could feel not only that he, or was it she. Anyway I could feel that the being was not only positive but also proud of the fact I had reached this level and I did feel love, not the same as from some other beings, but love. The being hugged me close saying, "my son, you're of my lineage. I'm so proud of you for achieving this, reaching here." not sure if I got the exact quote, but I'm sure I got pretty close and once again I was in like 2 places at once briefly, though not 100% in both locations.
I asked, "you're not another part of me or my full self?"
Being: "not in the way you're thinking no. you are of my lineage, my bloodline. We'll talk again later. You're doing great."
The being was large, well we were the same size. if they were larger then me it was not by that much. They were a biped reptilian and very muscled. I didn't get to see much of it since we were very close together and the being did hug me close. I hugged then back without thinking. In hindsight I do think we both had tails and wings folded on our backs.
An interesting but brief experience. Lots of reptilian experiences, not that I mind. I find it interesting. Though I do also feel that I have cetacean heritage also. Maybe that is it or maybe I have 1-2 others also. I'm sure I'll find out all in due time. Since I'm doing The Gateway Experience. I'm kinda pretending I don't know the stuff I learned of before. and I wonder what my future experiences will be.
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Gaia sent me a mental message to say were are still lovers and what I'm doing with the gateway and pretending to start over, is a good idea and some things coming up again. as I'm sure certain things will. This likely offers some advantages and we'll see where it goes and leads to.
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I can say I don't dislike being incarnated on earth, though I do not like the limitations, but that'll change, well after my incarnation is over. There are some fun I do have, every day. Though some annoyances like when my sleep is messed up. I highly doubt that I"ll incarnate on earth again, not cause I hate it, just cause all the freedom that isn't here, no teleporting, changing your appearance, form, ect. But I do understand many love it here. though I'm sure when ever this incarnation ends I'll likely miss certain aspects about being here, that doesn't mean I want to incarnate again. the annoyances would outweigh fun aspects so I don't plan on incarnating here again. Even if I stopped aging at 20 and lived to be say 1,000 before some accident got me, I'd still both miss certain aspects about being incarnated here, but also would be glad to be back on the other side and decide I'm not going to incarnate here again. Not that that's negative. one can look at the fun and positive aspects of say living in a certain area and once you move back home decide you're not going back to that location again since though you did have fun there, there are a lot of annoyances.
Saturday, October 31, 2015
Friday, October 30, 2015
Friday 10-30
I did the 2nd audio of wave 1 again and it went well. I got very relaxed. Think I did reach focus 10. While I was able to feel my body it was pretty dim, faint, as was my feeling the chair I was sitting on. I was aware of it only to the dimmest extint, as I was my body.
I had an aspect of myself, or so it or he said. it looked like a snake. It said that it was me, representing my reptilian side, my reptilian heritage and yes I do have naga heritage. It represents that which most humans suppress, keep to the shadows, though that doesn't apply to me since I've merged with my former shadow aspect. a part of my sexuality, though my cetacean heritage also represents part of that. and it did confirm it is a part of me me, this me here incarnated in this human body, not of my main multi dimensional self. It said that we, meaning my whole full self, various multi dimensional selves, felt it's better for now that it be my aspects, other selves of me, this me here incarnated in this human body, be the ones to talk to me since I coudl then get to know myself better. I said the connection didn't feel to strong and he said that the Gateway System will help with that. So our connection would be stronger.
Interesting experience. and how it did mention sexuality. I guess it can have 2 parts or dimensions, represented by the cetacean and the reptilian, snake in this manner and it did say I had naga and cetacean heritage. Nice. Though I channeled that before, with Gateway I'd like to start over, pretending I've not really channeled before. I do get the feeling later on it may be willing to deepen our relationship, but that'll come in time, all in due time. Think I may try this audio later today, if I have time and don't get to distracted.
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I get the feeling that he also would say he's not just an aspect of myself, but my higher self also. he's part of both and this'll let me get to know myself and he can also be a guide also, an initial guide or something I guess, or maybe a full guide. The Cetacean he said is also a part of myself and my higher self as he is. I guess the unicorn may be also, or maybe not as much as the naga and cetacean are. It does seem interesting. naga and cetacean being parts of myself and my higher self. This should be an interesting experience as time goes on.
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I feel maybe I'm part of 1 or more groups or collectives maybe. they may have had little knowledge or direct knowledge of earth before I came here. Just the general impressions or feelings I'm getting.
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I did the 2nd audio of wave 1, intro focus 10. I talked to a being that said it was another part of me. part of my larger self, like part of my higher self and the part of me not incarnated here. Think of myself as part of it, the incarnated as an earth human self and it is part of our larger self. I could and still do feel love from it as well. It was at first like a large snake, then I got a view of a reptilian humanoid. and it said we're of the royal line. I got the feeling I'm part of a collective and when it said royal line it mean more then just naga. it did say of the naga type we're cobra type and the royal line isn't only naga but reptilian royal line. he didn't have to much time to tell me stuff since I guess it was Robert Monroe's voice that does the audio stuff. he kept interrupting. my reptilian self did say we'd have more time to talk in the free form audio. and I should do the intro to focus 10 for at least several more days before continuing to the next audio file.
He also said it was normal when I asked, that it was normal for me to find him sexually attractive since we are a sexual being and this was not only normal for us but also a good sign that i did find him such. I felt that he feels the same as I do about him.
He spend a good part of the short conversations we had as a reptilian biped looking being. He said cetacean was another part of who and what we were. He also said we're more then just being cobra nagas, and we are natural shape shifters. I felt he didn't go into detail since the time was short but I diffidently go the feeling he meant more types of species of reptilian. I felt a resonating around in my torso area briefly and he said this was his using this to deepen our connection and as I continued doing the Gateway our connection would deepen and I would be able to feel that.
I can feel that he's a loving being, that he loves and and we love each other as well as finding each other sexually attractive, which I guess since we are both the same being which I did ask and he said yes we are the same being. I guess this is normal. A very interesting encounter.
I also go the feeling I'm part of 1 or more collectives. I'm not sure if it is 1 that has multiple species like reptilians, cetaceans. though I do expect I'll find out eventually. No hurry.
I had an aspect of myself, or so it or he said. it looked like a snake. It said that it was me, representing my reptilian side, my reptilian heritage and yes I do have naga heritage. It represents that which most humans suppress, keep to the shadows, though that doesn't apply to me since I've merged with my former shadow aspect. a part of my sexuality, though my cetacean heritage also represents part of that. and it did confirm it is a part of me me, this me here incarnated in this human body, not of my main multi dimensional self. It said that we, meaning my whole full self, various multi dimensional selves, felt it's better for now that it be my aspects, other selves of me, this me here incarnated in this human body, be the ones to talk to me since I coudl then get to know myself better. I said the connection didn't feel to strong and he said that the Gateway System will help with that. So our connection would be stronger.
Interesting experience. and how it did mention sexuality. I guess it can have 2 parts or dimensions, represented by the cetacean and the reptilian, snake in this manner and it did say I had naga and cetacean heritage. Nice. Though I channeled that before, with Gateway I'd like to start over, pretending I've not really channeled before. I do get the feeling later on it may be willing to deepen our relationship, but that'll come in time, all in due time. Think I may try this audio later today, if I have time and don't get to distracted.
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I get the feeling that he also would say he's not just an aspect of myself, but my higher self also. he's part of both and this'll let me get to know myself and he can also be a guide also, an initial guide or something I guess, or maybe a full guide. The Cetacean he said is also a part of myself and my higher self as he is. I guess the unicorn may be also, or maybe not as much as the naga and cetacean are. It does seem interesting. naga and cetacean being parts of myself and my higher self. This should be an interesting experience as time goes on.
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I feel maybe I'm part of 1 or more groups or collectives maybe. they may have had little knowledge or direct knowledge of earth before I came here. Just the general impressions or feelings I'm getting.
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I did the 2nd audio of wave 1, intro focus 10. I talked to a being that said it was another part of me. part of my larger self, like part of my higher self and the part of me not incarnated here. Think of myself as part of it, the incarnated as an earth human self and it is part of our larger self. I could and still do feel love from it as well. It was at first like a large snake, then I got a view of a reptilian humanoid. and it said we're of the royal line. I got the feeling I'm part of a collective and when it said royal line it mean more then just naga. it did say of the naga type we're cobra type and the royal line isn't only naga but reptilian royal line. he didn't have to much time to tell me stuff since I guess it was Robert Monroe's voice that does the audio stuff. he kept interrupting. my reptilian self did say we'd have more time to talk in the free form audio. and I should do the intro to focus 10 for at least several more days before continuing to the next audio file.
He also said it was normal when I asked, that it was normal for me to find him sexually attractive since we are a sexual being and this was not only normal for us but also a good sign that i did find him such. I felt that he feels the same as I do about him.
He spend a good part of the short conversations we had as a reptilian biped looking being. He said cetacean was another part of who and what we were. He also said we're more then just being cobra nagas, and we are natural shape shifters. I felt he didn't go into detail since the time was short but I diffidently go the feeling he meant more types of species of reptilian. I felt a resonating around in my torso area briefly and he said this was his using this to deepen our connection and as I continued doing the Gateway our connection would deepen and I would be able to feel that.
I can feel that he's a loving being, that he loves and and we love each other as well as finding each other sexually attractive, which I guess since we are both the same being which I did ask and he said yes we are the same being. I guess this is normal. A very interesting encounter.
I also go the feeling I'm part of 1 or more collectives. I'm not sure if it is 1 that has multiple species like reptilians, cetaceans. though I do expect I'll find out eventually. No hurry.
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Thursday 10-29
Wednesday night before I get ready for bed: a bit of a intuitive message after I did a bit of the Sahaja meditation yoga thing, not very long since it says 10-15 minutes but I'm easing into it very slowly. but I got a few minutes later.
The reason the earth experience is hitting me and effecting me so hard is not only am I clearing for myself but some of the collective as well. and since I normally do not come anywhere near places or planes of this density this is my first time in such a dense place or plane so it has effected me very hard since I'm a first timer here, though I am in fact not a young being but an old or ancient one.
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Think I slept 5 or 6 hours, nice. sleep is getting backish to normal, but I still look forward to getting Sleeping Through the Rain since it should help to keep my sleep at normal. Next week I"ll get some sleep phones, designed to be worn while sleeping so I won't have to use the in ear earphones anymore while sleeping, that'll be a plus.
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So far the day is going great. I'm about an hour or so behind when I use to do certain things, but that is ok. Far better. Also I wonder if I may choose to go back to doing some light body stuff after I've finished gateway or I've done gateway for a while I may do some light body courses now and then. I'll decide later on.
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I did the wave 1 intro phase 10. I was able to reach it and felt very relaxed and was able to remain there for a while but I slipped up to phase 3, but was able to get myself somewhere between phase 3 and 10 by inhaling and slowly exhaling, and stayed there for the rest of the exercise. this one may take me more then a week to do.
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This evening was mostly fun overall. things went well overall.
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I do feel that I have friends and loved ones on the other side. not sure of the exact nature of them. I feel they are there, relatives perhaps, not in the human way but maybe from the same parent or parents that created the being I'm part of. Hard to explain what I mean, but that is a close approximation. Very close friends and lovers also, perhaps.
Just an intuitive feeling. I do feel they miss me. Miss talking or me being with them. Not sure which or maybe both. Though I do feel they do love me still. it is a pleasant feeling, the love I mean. I'm sure I'll be able to communicate with them soon. No hurry I guess.
The reason the earth experience is hitting me and effecting me so hard is not only am I clearing for myself but some of the collective as well. and since I normally do not come anywhere near places or planes of this density this is my first time in such a dense place or plane so it has effected me very hard since I'm a first timer here, though I am in fact not a young being but an old or ancient one.
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Think I slept 5 or 6 hours, nice. sleep is getting backish to normal, but I still look forward to getting Sleeping Through the Rain since it should help to keep my sleep at normal. Next week I"ll get some sleep phones, designed to be worn while sleeping so I won't have to use the in ear earphones anymore while sleeping, that'll be a plus.
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So far the day is going great. I'm about an hour or so behind when I use to do certain things, but that is ok. Far better. Also I wonder if I may choose to go back to doing some light body stuff after I've finished gateway or I've done gateway for a while I may do some light body courses now and then. I'll decide later on.
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I did the wave 1 intro phase 10. I was able to reach it and felt very relaxed and was able to remain there for a while but I slipped up to phase 3, but was able to get myself somewhere between phase 3 and 10 by inhaling and slowly exhaling, and stayed there for the rest of the exercise. this one may take me more then a week to do.
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This evening was mostly fun overall. things went well overall.
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I do feel that I have friends and loved ones on the other side. not sure of the exact nature of them. I feel they are there, relatives perhaps, not in the human way but maybe from the same parent or parents that created the being I'm part of. Hard to explain what I mean, but that is a close approximation. Very close friends and lovers also, perhaps.
Just an intuitive feeling. I do feel they miss me. Miss talking or me being with them. Not sure which or maybe both. Though I do feel they do love me still. it is a pleasant feeling, the love I mean. I'm sure I'll be able to communicate with them soon. No hurry I guess.
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Wedensday 10-28
Feels like another sleepless night. I thought that Dreamcatcher hemi-sync was good since it seems to have been semi working, but it's not been working for about the past almost 12 hours. Maybe it's a come and go thing or something or there is some other reason.
Think since i can't sleep I'll do some web surfing then try the Gateway thing, but this time I may try the Focus 10 which is the 2nd audio for wave 1 of Gateway. I was going to wait till Friday but I figured since I can't sleep and I've been doing the 1st audio for 5 days & I can't sleep, why not give the 2nd audio that is Focus 10 a try. Can't hurt.
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hmm, wonder if I should save up and buy a usb mic, then I can use some of my spending or savings to pay for a channeler to ask them some questions. I am in need of guidance. and I am unable to channel at present. That may change in the future. but as of right now I am unable to.
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Though I do have fun here at times, I do also feel lonely at times. and most of me really doesn't want to be here. Not that I hate being here, just I don't like it here. it feels so restrictive, limiting, a sadness all around, and I'm sad being here. unable to ... well I'll stop here. Not negative just thought I'd write down some of my feelings I am feeling at this moment.
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Let's do the focus 10 and see what happens. it went sorta ok. I talked to a part of me that feels like I do. it and I just don't want to be here. It feels, well felt since we talked it's sadness went away, well most of it. it's sad on still being here and just doesn't want to be here on the earth. I don't either, so in that we're in agreement. it feels as limited, constrained as I do and it greatly wants to be on the other side, where the vastness will be available to us both. In that I do agree. Not that we can do anything about it, which it did agree to. We both wish we were on the other side instead of here. Though we do have some fun on earth, we just don't want to be here.
I got pretty relaxed but wasn't in the body asleep mind awake state. maybe that takes a great deal of time. I felt some odd feelings in both of my knees, which happens, not to bad but distracting. after being in the focus 10 for a while I slipped out of it and back into just being a bit relaxed. So not sure how to classify this experience. I'll go ahead and say sorta ok since I'm not sure.
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Went to the grocery store today. Everything went super. I didn't have to wait very long at all. Hit everything perfectly well.
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only slept 4.5 hours so far. I should take a nap soon. Got a feeling or memory piece that maybe before some part of me came here some guide or other being said that I'd not like it here, not one bit. I'd find it very annoying indeed since I'm not use to anything like it is here. Not sure if it is true or imaginary.
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The person that was an online friend of mine is well I'll no go there. But part of it is I do feel that her viewpoint and thinking are totally different then mine. She sees the fact I don't want to be here as being very negative. when it's not. I don't hate being here, it's just that I don't like being here, even deep down. My guess is it's due to I normally don't come anywhere near as dense of a place as earth is. maybe I don't go down past 4th dimension or maybe not past 5th dimension. and not liking being here, even deep down, is not a negative thing. it's like a human say sent to the middle east or who goes there for this specific reason, but just doesn't like being there. The weather, temperature, desert air, the way some of the people are, ect. But he's there to do 1 thing, then once that is done, as soon as he can, he's out and going back home. That is not negativity. Some who enjoy being here or enjoy the idea of hanging around for several incarnations to help other folks & light workers and the shift as part of phase 2 have a totally different outlook and feeling to us phase 1 folks who are here for 1 thing, then we're out. We're not here for the long haul over a number of incarnations to do several things. Those are 2 totally different viewpoints and I can see how the wave 2 folks would see the viewpoint of the wave 1 folks as negative the fact they just don't like being here even deep down. Since they really don't understand the wave 1 viewpoint, likely since they never have done that sort of thing before.
I do have a feeling that she and I don't get along to well on the other side, not that we hate each other or are mad, just we really don't get along and don't talk except when needed for specific reasons, Which is fine since not everyone will get along with everyone else.
and deep down I really don't like being here. there are fun times I have yes, but all the limitations and such. and that is not negativity since I'm part of wave 1, in to anchor the energies then out as soon as everything checks off which being earth means things will be much more complicated as to when I can have an exit point and go. it may cause sadness and what some may perceive as depression, but that is part of not being native to here and not being here for the long term like the wave 2 folks who will likely be here for several incarnations or perhaps for the entire shift, unlike us wave 1 folks who are here for 1 mission, 1 incarnation, then we're out of here.
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I did the short version of the hemi-sync chakra meditation thing. Felt it went pretty well. I differently felt most or all of my chakras spinning. I think I figured out what the resonating type feeling in my legs were, it was at least in part the negativity energy and such flowing into the Earth. maybe in small amounts, but the long and short versions of the mediation had it flow more so I could feel an increase. There may be more blocks, negativity left since I've only done the long one yesterday and the short one today, but it feels like it's better. Not sure if there is a lot left. I think for the rest of this month and all of November I"ll do the long version a few times a week and the short version a few times a week. Then starting in December I may cut back to just doing the short version once or a few times a week.
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I had fun. there was a stream but I only half watched it since it was of marginal interest. Think I found the 2 google group chat places that I've been on may be fun to continue to chat on.
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I've one some chakra clearing and do feel better. think I'll continue to do this. maybe listen to the hour long one a few times a week and the short 2? minute one a few times a week. if I feel ok by say mid november I may cut back to doing the long one once a month and the shorter ones a few times a week.
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feeling a bit lonely. I think that is I've stopped channeling. Wasn't sure if what I was getting was clear, distorted or not. Want to wait till I am sure I've been clear most of the day for a few days. Maybe till I get half way done with the wave 1. I'll decide then. No hurry. part of it also is I'm still here on earth.
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I found some places that have free reiki attunements, 1 with basic reiki, some with all sorts of different types. and they have manuals. Think I may start to study this as a side thing. and I may try the tapping thing, the EFT, to help clear myself and keep myself clear. can't hurt. Emotional freedom techniques I'll do daily and try for a few weeks to see if it works. 1 person I met a few times suggested youtube videos by Brad Yates so I'll focus on those. I figure at the very least the positive affirmations and relaxing will do me some good.
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I may get back into Sahaja yoga meditation since it may help and it is free to go to, I may learn and if I go say once or a few times a month I'd meet some folks, though they scatter once the class ends, better then nothing. I can be on the lookout for other things to try to make some friends in rl. It'll take time. I do hope it works out.
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I'm feeling lonely, maybe a sign I'm clear enough to try channeling a bit again tomorrow. i do hope the gateway will help me to get a better connection. but time will tell.
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Even if I found the perfect friends, most of me still wouldn't like being here on Earth. Yes it can be fun at times. but it is so restrictive, so limiting. I feel deep down I miss my freedom. Maybe a sign i don't normally come to places this dense. I'm sure I'll find out sooner or later. I can also feel an excitement that I will one day be back home. No idea when, but it'll happen one day.
Think since i can't sleep I'll do some web surfing then try the Gateway thing, but this time I may try the Focus 10 which is the 2nd audio for wave 1 of Gateway. I was going to wait till Friday but I figured since I can't sleep and I've been doing the 1st audio for 5 days & I can't sleep, why not give the 2nd audio that is Focus 10 a try. Can't hurt.
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hmm, wonder if I should save up and buy a usb mic, then I can use some of my spending or savings to pay for a channeler to ask them some questions. I am in need of guidance. and I am unable to channel at present. That may change in the future. but as of right now I am unable to.
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Though I do have fun here at times, I do also feel lonely at times. and most of me really doesn't want to be here. Not that I hate being here, just I don't like it here. it feels so restrictive, limiting, a sadness all around, and I'm sad being here. unable to ... well I'll stop here. Not negative just thought I'd write down some of my feelings I am feeling at this moment.
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Let's do the focus 10 and see what happens. it went sorta ok. I talked to a part of me that feels like I do. it and I just don't want to be here. It feels, well felt since we talked it's sadness went away, well most of it. it's sad on still being here and just doesn't want to be here on the earth. I don't either, so in that we're in agreement. it feels as limited, constrained as I do and it greatly wants to be on the other side, where the vastness will be available to us both. In that I do agree. Not that we can do anything about it, which it did agree to. We both wish we were on the other side instead of here. Though we do have some fun on earth, we just don't want to be here.
I got pretty relaxed but wasn't in the body asleep mind awake state. maybe that takes a great deal of time. I felt some odd feelings in both of my knees, which happens, not to bad but distracting. after being in the focus 10 for a while I slipped out of it and back into just being a bit relaxed. So not sure how to classify this experience. I'll go ahead and say sorta ok since I'm not sure.
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Went to the grocery store today. Everything went super. I didn't have to wait very long at all. Hit everything perfectly well.
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only slept 4.5 hours so far. I should take a nap soon. Got a feeling or memory piece that maybe before some part of me came here some guide or other being said that I'd not like it here, not one bit. I'd find it very annoying indeed since I'm not use to anything like it is here. Not sure if it is true or imaginary.
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The person that was an online friend of mine is well I'll no go there. But part of it is I do feel that her viewpoint and thinking are totally different then mine. She sees the fact I don't want to be here as being very negative. when it's not. I don't hate being here, it's just that I don't like being here, even deep down. My guess is it's due to I normally don't come anywhere near as dense of a place as earth is. maybe I don't go down past 4th dimension or maybe not past 5th dimension. and not liking being here, even deep down, is not a negative thing. it's like a human say sent to the middle east or who goes there for this specific reason, but just doesn't like being there. The weather, temperature, desert air, the way some of the people are, ect. But he's there to do 1 thing, then once that is done, as soon as he can, he's out and going back home. That is not negativity. Some who enjoy being here or enjoy the idea of hanging around for several incarnations to help other folks & light workers and the shift as part of phase 2 have a totally different outlook and feeling to us phase 1 folks who are here for 1 thing, then we're out. We're not here for the long haul over a number of incarnations to do several things. Those are 2 totally different viewpoints and I can see how the wave 2 folks would see the viewpoint of the wave 1 folks as negative the fact they just don't like being here even deep down. Since they really don't understand the wave 1 viewpoint, likely since they never have done that sort of thing before.
I do have a feeling that she and I don't get along to well on the other side, not that we hate each other or are mad, just we really don't get along and don't talk except when needed for specific reasons, Which is fine since not everyone will get along with everyone else.
and deep down I really don't like being here. there are fun times I have yes, but all the limitations and such. and that is not negativity since I'm part of wave 1, in to anchor the energies then out as soon as everything checks off which being earth means things will be much more complicated as to when I can have an exit point and go. it may cause sadness and what some may perceive as depression, but that is part of not being native to here and not being here for the long term like the wave 2 folks who will likely be here for several incarnations or perhaps for the entire shift, unlike us wave 1 folks who are here for 1 mission, 1 incarnation, then we're out of here.
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I did the short version of the hemi-sync chakra meditation thing. Felt it went pretty well. I differently felt most or all of my chakras spinning. I think I figured out what the resonating type feeling in my legs were, it was at least in part the negativity energy and such flowing into the Earth. maybe in small amounts, but the long and short versions of the mediation had it flow more so I could feel an increase. There may be more blocks, negativity left since I've only done the long one yesterday and the short one today, but it feels like it's better. Not sure if there is a lot left. I think for the rest of this month and all of November I"ll do the long version a few times a week and the short version a few times a week. Then starting in December I may cut back to just doing the short version once or a few times a week.
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I had fun. there was a stream but I only half watched it since it was of marginal interest. Think I found the 2 google group chat places that I've been on may be fun to continue to chat on.
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I've one some chakra clearing and do feel better. think I'll continue to do this. maybe listen to the hour long one a few times a week and the short 2? minute one a few times a week. if I feel ok by say mid november I may cut back to doing the long one once a month and the shorter ones a few times a week.
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feeling a bit lonely. I think that is I've stopped channeling. Wasn't sure if what I was getting was clear, distorted or not. Want to wait till I am sure I've been clear most of the day for a few days. Maybe till I get half way done with the wave 1. I'll decide then. No hurry. part of it also is I'm still here on earth.
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I found some places that have free reiki attunements, 1 with basic reiki, some with all sorts of different types. and they have manuals. Think I may start to study this as a side thing. and I may try the tapping thing, the EFT, to help clear myself and keep myself clear. can't hurt. Emotional freedom techniques I'll do daily and try for a few weeks to see if it works. 1 person I met a few times suggested youtube videos by Brad Yates so I'll focus on those. I figure at the very least the positive affirmations and relaxing will do me some good.
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I may get back into Sahaja yoga meditation since it may help and it is free to go to, I may learn and if I go say once or a few times a month I'd meet some folks, though they scatter once the class ends, better then nothing. I can be on the lookout for other things to try to make some friends in rl. It'll take time. I do hope it works out.
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I'm feeling lonely, maybe a sign I'm clear enough to try channeling a bit again tomorrow. i do hope the gateway will help me to get a better connection. but time will tell.
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Even if I found the perfect friends, most of me still wouldn't like being here on Earth. Yes it can be fun at times. but it is so restrictive, so limiting. I feel deep down I miss my freedom. Maybe a sign i don't normally come to places this dense. I'm sure I'll find out sooner or later. I can also feel an excitement that I will one day be back home. No idea when, but it'll happen one day.
Tuesday, October 27, 2015
Tuesday 10-27
Had someone who said they didn't want to talk to me, that I was to draining. So to respect their wishes I took them off of my google+ thing. Had to look up how to do that and how to remove someone from your address book in your Gmail. I also deleted the bookmark to the Spiritual forum I went to since they post there. I had a thread I posted to there simultaneous to when I posted to this Google+ post blog thing, but that is ok. if they want no contact with me and I do drain them maybe I'd drain them by going to the same forum they go to. I don't know how these things work. I don't even pretend to know how these things work.
As far as I know the light body stuff I have been doing has not done any good. I do hope this Gateway Experience or whatever Robert Monroe and his institute name it will work. Been less then a week and I'm not done with doing the 1st audio of wave 1. I won't switch to the 2nd audio of wave 2 till Friday, since last Friday was when I started doing the 1st audio of wave 1. I figure I won't have any idea if it is doing anything for me or not till maybe January.
Found out the livestream I was going to watch tonight isn't happening. Oh well, I was looking forward to that, guess it as a last minute cancellation thing, the host getting sick, to tired from work or something to do a stream and the others are not prepared to do a stream. As I see it it's likely for my greater good. I'll buy another hemi-sync, taking the money from the kindle book fund I had put aside. I can try out one of the meditation ones. Though since it's a Mind Food one I guess it may take a month at least to notice if that one does any good or not.
I got up from trying to take a nap but didn't get to sleep even listening to the hemi-sync Dreamcatcher. Felt it doing a lot of energy stuff, no idea how and can't begin to describe how it feels. i thought for sure I'd go to sleep since by my records I've only slept about 5.5 hours. maybe that's enough or maybe I was wrong on the time and I've slept 6.5 hours and that is enough for today. Or maybe this body will do extra sleep tomorrow. it's possible. I'm not feeling 100%, but part of that is a mild headache, from the time I went out in the sun earlier today. forgot to take an aspirin. Whenever I do that i always get what I call a sun headache. I've taken an asprin not to long ago though so maybe it'll go away in an hour or so.
Once I listen to this hemi-sync meditation I'll then watch a Brice Lee movie. Those are next up on my movie series I've seen in my childhood and have not seen for years, so not a total loss. I do wonder if Gateway and Hemi-sync will do any good since the Light Body courses I did didn't do any good. not that I'm mad at spending the money I could only barely afford to spend, taking all my spending money for those months. if I had not gotten them and tried them out then I'd have no knowledge that they won't work for me. Which I do know so that money was spend in gaining me that experience. As for the Gateway and the Hemi-sync courses i bought yesterday and today, I'll have to wait and see. The Dreamcather seems to have worked a bit, but that may be premature since I've had it only 24 hours. I may buy a 3rd Hemi-sync music one and thereby have 2 hemi-sync music audios and hemi-sync with 2 guided meditations, a 1 hour one and a abridged 20something minute one. so 3 in total, not counting the Gateway ones. I'm sure by January I'll know if this is doing any good or if they don't work for me.
This means I have no one to talk to about this stuff, but that's ok. I've gone full circle. I started off and spend most of my life with no one to talk to about this stuff and I'm right back to having no one to talk to about this stuff so actually it's right back to normal. I do wonder if there is life after death if I'll spend that alone too and needing to be alone a lot due to being to drained being around people and picking up stuff. I would assume so. Likely a mark for a very young soul, but I don't really care about soul ages so I'll give that no further thought.
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I did the nearly hour long hemi-sync meditation. not sure if it worked or not. I felt something diffidently in the various spots of my body. may have given myself a headache, but then again that could be the left over from the sun headache earlier. I think I should put an aspirin on top of my id stuff since I'll try to go to the grocery store again tomorrow. it as raining Sunday. Today was a dud, in that the bus never arrived. That happens at times. I do hope it comes tomorrow. All I need is 1 more trip and I'll be done for a month.
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Tried watching a video on soul contracts, figured since I know nothing about this spiritual stuff I could learn some stuff but like a video I tried to watch yesterday I think it was, different person, the host's audio was either to low or he naturally speaks very softly and everyone else is to loud compared to him so I quit after a few minutes. Oh well. Guess that happens with folks at times, having the varying audio levels.
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Think I may be in a cycle where I'm extra sensative to sound. Maybe light too, not sure. I noticed stretching way back a decade or more, before I started to take Ginko for my migranes, even though I'm already sensative to light and sound. There were times when I was extra sensative to one or both sound and light. At times it was severe, not to mention my migranes. Since I've been taking Ginko not only are my migranes gone where now I get just regular headaches, or maybe it's that my migranes feel like regular headaches. But the cycles when I'm sensative to light and or sound are not a severe as they were before. I wonder what the cause is. No biggie. I've lived this long not knowing, just like I've lived this long having the list of foods I can shrink the older I get with no idea why. I can live the rest of my 50 to 100 years having no idea why. Just have to adapt as best as I can. no biggie in eiher way.
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I do feel different from my mediation, no idea how to describe it, no biggie. I think I may need to do that long one, the nearly 1 hour, every day for a week or a month before I can start doing the short one that is for quick balance and adjustment. Just a guess since this meditation is of the mind food type of hemi-sync i guess that means it takes at least a month to take effect.
Again I do hope the Gateway hemi-sync thing works, but that'll take time. As I said I should know by January I' guess and hope.
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Just wanted to add, for the past maybe hour, not sure when, I've felt really odd. No idea if it is positive, neutral, negative or a mix of those. part of it is some sort of pressure and slight discomfort in my head. and the rest of me feels really weird, can't describe how. I assume its a temporary thing that'lll pass sooner or later. Wonder what it means or what the cause is. I'm sure it'll pass sooner or later.
As far as I know the light body stuff I have been doing has not done any good. I do hope this Gateway Experience or whatever Robert Monroe and his institute name it will work. Been less then a week and I'm not done with doing the 1st audio of wave 1. I won't switch to the 2nd audio of wave 2 till Friday, since last Friday was when I started doing the 1st audio of wave 1. I figure I won't have any idea if it is doing anything for me or not till maybe January.
Found out the livestream I was going to watch tonight isn't happening. Oh well, I was looking forward to that, guess it as a last minute cancellation thing, the host getting sick, to tired from work or something to do a stream and the others are not prepared to do a stream. As I see it it's likely for my greater good. I'll buy another hemi-sync, taking the money from the kindle book fund I had put aside. I can try out one of the meditation ones. Though since it's a Mind Food one I guess it may take a month at least to notice if that one does any good or not.
I got up from trying to take a nap but didn't get to sleep even listening to the hemi-sync Dreamcatcher. Felt it doing a lot of energy stuff, no idea how and can't begin to describe how it feels. i thought for sure I'd go to sleep since by my records I've only slept about 5.5 hours. maybe that's enough or maybe I was wrong on the time and I've slept 6.5 hours and that is enough for today. Or maybe this body will do extra sleep tomorrow. it's possible. I'm not feeling 100%, but part of that is a mild headache, from the time I went out in the sun earlier today. forgot to take an aspirin. Whenever I do that i always get what I call a sun headache. I've taken an asprin not to long ago though so maybe it'll go away in an hour or so.
Once I listen to this hemi-sync meditation I'll then watch a Brice Lee movie. Those are next up on my movie series I've seen in my childhood and have not seen for years, so not a total loss. I do wonder if Gateway and Hemi-sync will do any good since the Light Body courses I did didn't do any good. not that I'm mad at spending the money I could only barely afford to spend, taking all my spending money for those months. if I had not gotten them and tried them out then I'd have no knowledge that they won't work for me. Which I do know so that money was spend in gaining me that experience. As for the Gateway and the Hemi-sync courses i bought yesterday and today, I'll have to wait and see. The Dreamcather seems to have worked a bit, but that may be premature since I've had it only 24 hours. I may buy a 3rd Hemi-sync music one and thereby have 2 hemi-sync music audios and hemi-sync with 2 guided meditations, a 1 hour one and a abridged 20something minute one. so 3 in total, not counting the Gateway ones. I'm sure by January I'll know if this is doing any good or if they don't work for me.
This means I have no one to talk to about this stuff, but that's ok. I've gone full circle. I started off and spend most of my life with no one to talk to about this stuff and I'm right back to having no one to talk to about this stuff so actually it's right back to normal. I do wonder if there is life after death if I'll spend that alone too and needing to be alone a lot due to being to drained being around people and picking up stuff. I would assume so. Likely a mark for a very young soul, but I don't really care about soul ages so I'll give that no further thought.
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I did the nearly hour long hemi-sync meditation. not sure if it worked or not. I felt something diffidently in the various spots of my body. may have given myself a headache, but then again that could be the left over from the sun headache earlier. I think I should put an aspirin on top of my id stuff since I'll try to go to the grocery store again tomorrow. it as raining Sunday. Today was a dud, in that the bus never arrived. That happens at times. I do hope it comes tomorrow. All I need is 1 more trip and I'll be done for a month.
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Tried watching a video on soul contracts, figured since I know nothing about this spiritual stuff I could learn some stuff but like a video I tried to watch yesterday I think it was, different person, the host's audio was either to low or he naturally speaks very softly and everyone else is to loud compared to him so I quit after a few minutes. Oh well. Guess that happens with folks at times, having the varying audio levels.
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Think I may be in a cycle where I'm extra sensative to sound. Maybe light too, not sure. I noticed stretching way back a decade or more, before I started to take Ginko for my migranes, even though I'm already sensative to light and sound. There were times when I was extra sensative to one or both sound and light. At times it was severe, not to mention my migranes. Since I've been taking Ginko not only are my migranes gone where now I get just regular headaches, or maybe it's that my migranes feel like regular headaches. But the cycles when I'm sensative to light and or sound are not a severe as they were before. I wonder what the cause is. No biggie. I've lived this long not knowing, just like I've lived this long having the list of foods I can shrink the older I get with no idea why. I can live the rest of my 50 to 100 years having no idea why. Just have to adapt as best as I can. no biggie in eiher way.
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I do feel different from my mediation, no idea how to describe it, no biggie. I think I may need to do that long one, the nearly 1 hour, every day for a week or a month before I can start doing the short one that is for quick balance and adjustment. Just a guess since this meditation is of the mind food type of hemi-sync i guess that means it takes at least a month to take effect.
Again I do hope the Gateway hemi-sync thing works, but that'll take time. As I said I should know by January I' guess and hope.
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Just wanted to add, for the past maybe hour, not sure when, I've felt really odd. No idea if it is positive, neutral, negative or a mix of those. part of it is some sort of pressure and slight discomfort in my head. and the rest of me feels really weird, can't describe how. I assume its a temporary thing that'lll pass sooner or later. Wonder what it means or what the cause is. I'm sure it'll pass sooner or later.
Tues 10-27
Well I tried the Dreamcatcher Hemi-Sync audio file I purchased and while if I did sleep at all it was maybe only 20 or 30 minutes. So while it didn't help me to sleep long I do feel better then I did 24 hours ago, so that is a plus, so not a total dud, but not good enough. I'm still resonating. the minor pressure headache I was feeling is much less then before.
I'll try it for at least a week or so. It may take a few uses to notice any real change if it helps a little each time, so time will tell.
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If I get all this cleared up I'd not mind if my new sleeping pattern was like say an hour between say 11pm-1am. and from say 3 or 4am to 8 or 9 sleep 4-5 hours. then say again 10am-1pm, sleep an hour or so during that, and 1 hour around 4 or 5 pm for 1 hour. if that gets stabilized then I may try one of the hemi-sync things to see if I can reduce that 4th sleeping period down to 25 or 30 minutes. I could gradually adjust to that, given time.
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I do think I'll stick with doing each of the wave 1 gateway audios for a week each. So wave 1 will take 6 weeks to fully complete. if that goes well I think with wave 2 I may try each audio for 5 days, so that'll take 1 month. See if that goes ok. I may do 1 or 2 of the days where I may do the gateway audio twice, maybe. I'll decide and try it out during the time when I'm doing wave 2. if that goes well I may do that for wave 3-6.
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It's very lonely not having anyone to talk to about my mystic experiences daily. every once in a while is ok, though I do have basically no one really. I do have an online friend I talk to basically daily in the evening, but he's not into mystic stuff at all and is totally unaware. Though we talk about other stuff. The Illume Dharma group is disbanded for no idea how long and those i use to talk to who were aware, even if they were less ware then I was, are not around anymore. I'd mind it to much if I knew this is a final stage before going home, but I'm sure I'll be here 50 or 100 years since i don't see how this incarnation can end soon or very soon. I was told that a month or so ago and it's been a month, so that is untrue. soon and very soon has already been here and gone. I wonder how high I really am and if I really can be aware enough to not incarnate anymore and look into and explore the options available to those who do not incarnate. I'd prefer to do like some said I would do back when I use to channel. Thought there were likely other things also, other options I can do too.
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I'll go and see how it goes this time, if I can get more sleep this time and how I'll feel during and after I wake up and how long I'll sleep this time.
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Not sure if I mentioned it but I do hope I'm a high level rather then a beginner soul. Finding out what the options are for those who no longer incarnate does interest me, incarnating does not interest me at all. as well as hoping this one can be over soon and I'll not be here 50-100 years, though likely it'll be that long. I see no clues it'll be less. But I'll find out sooner or later.
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I did the 1st audio of wave 1 again and it went ok. the main difference I did was for the toning I kept my eyes closed since I see it as both a bother and close my eyes for the exhalation part, plus what I do with something is I need to have it tied across my eyes since sometimes my eyes won't stay closed since my eyelids at times jerk and my eyes won't stay closed, so I instead tie something across my eyes so they stay closed. The rest of it went pretty much as it has before.
I'll try it for at least a week or so. It may take a few uses to notice any real change if it helps a little each time, so time will tell.
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If I get all this cleared up I'd not mind if my new sleeping pattern was like say an hour between say 11pm-1am. and from say 3 or 4am to 8 or 9 sleep 4-5 hours. then say again 10am-1pm, sleep an hour or so during that, and 1 hour around 4 or 5 pm for 1 hour. if that gets stabilized then I may try one of the hemi-sync things to see if I can reduce that 4th sleeping period down to 25 or 30 minutes. I could gradually adjust to that, given time.
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I do think I'll stick with doing each of the wave 1 gateway audios for a week each. So wave 1 will take 6 weeks to fully complete. if that goes well I think with wave 2 I may try each audio for 5 days, so that'll take 1 month. See if that goes ok. I may do 1 or 2 of the days where I may do the gateway audio twice, maybe. I'll decide and try it out during the time when I'm doing wave 2. if that goes well I may do that for wave 3-6.
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It's very lonely not having anyone to talk to about my mystic experiences daily. every once in a while is ok, though I do have basically no one really. I do have an online friend I talk to basically daily in the evening, but he's not into mystic stuff at all and is totally unaware. Though we talk about other stuff. The Illume Dharma group is disbanded for no idea how long and those i use to talk to who were aware, even if they were less ware then I was, are not around anymore. I'd mind it to much if I knew this is a final stage before going home, but I'm sure I'll be here 50 or 100 years since i don't see how this incarnation can end soon or very soon. I was told that a month or so ago and it's been a month, so that is untrue. soon and very soon has already been here and gone. I wonder how high I really am and if I really can be aware enough to not incarnate anymore and look into and explore the options available to those who do not incarnate. I'd prefer to do like some said I would do back when I use to channel. Thought there were likely other things also, other options I can do too.
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I'll go and see how it goes this time, if I can get more sleep this time and how I'll feel during and after I wake up and how long I'll sleep this time.
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Not sure if I mentioned it but I do hope I'm a high level rather then a beginner soul. Finding out what the options are for those who no longer incarnate does interest me, incarnating does not interest me at all. as well as hoping this one can be over soon and I'll not be here 50-100 years, though likely it'll be that long. I see no clues it'll be less. But I'll find out sooner or later.
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I did the 1st audio of wave 1 again and it went ok. the main difference I did was for the toning I kept my eyes closed since I see it as both a bother and close my eyes for the exhalation part, plus what I do with something is I need to have it tied across my eyes since sometimes my eyes won't stay closed since my eyelids at times jerk and my eyes won't stay closed, so I instead tie something across my eyes so they stay closed. The rest of it went pretty much as it has before.
Monday, October 26, 2015
Monday 10-26
I did the 1st audio of the first gateway wave and it went well. Still don't understand the point of the toning but no biggie. overall it went well and like before once he was done taking me to what he called focus 3, which to me felt not much different then regular awareness. I felt more relaxed, calm, and the like I explained before in previous posts. During the various points when he went quiet, he said for me to enjoy this experience before he would return for the next step my mind kept wondering like usual. I'd bring it back to focusing on my breathing. at one point I imagined a bunch of beings, the male serious dolphin, a dragon, naga, reptilian humanoid, some reptilians, some sort of angel maybe, among other beings of various species & forms who said various things like i'll soon be among them, I'm one of them, as well as being one of the Sirius pod, among other imaginary things they said. I said they are just imaginary and not real, though I imagined them saying they are not and some or al of them accepted the challenge to prove to me they are real, wither they are other multidimensional selves of me or other beings who are not me.
except for that bit, the rest of the gateway audio 1 of wave 1 went well.
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No idea if it'll work but I bought Dreamcatcher hemi-sync. It is supposed to support deep restorative sleep when used in continuous play. I'll try playing it on my tablet with the in ear earphones, hope that works. Playing on my mp3 player would be to much of a hassle since raising and lowering the volume is the same control for going forward and back a track and when you try to control the volume I always go forward or back a track, and raising the volume is easier then lowering it. I've found it easier to leave it where it is and if the volume is to high and I'm listening to it using it's built in speakers, turn it so the speakers are down against the bed. or if that is not enough, put a cushion over it. I did find a free audio player for my tablet that claims it supports FLAC also. handy if I rip some cd's. I found some sleep phones, designed to be worn while going to sleep, that I'll purchase next month.
Tried to listen to a Seraphim channeling but quit after the short session of the person sending energy since it seemed everyone's sound levels in the call was set at random with the person channeling set to minimum, someone else set to maximum, and everyone else set to random sound levels. So when the Q and A session started I left. I was watching it on youtube and not in the call.
If this Hemi-sync does work that is supposed to help with sleep. Then I'll get some other ones to help with sleep since I'm sure I'd get bored with just 1 type. I have a week to try this one out, I do hope it works. The Dreamcatcher I bought I took out of some money I put aside to get Kindle books.
I do hope it works. If I do need chakra or whatever else treatment I need. I can't do anything about that. I do hope this hemi-sync DreamCatcher helps with my totally messed up sleep.
The gateway may help me with various things like deepening my meditative trances and maybe get to where I can channel various aspects of my multidimensional self, as well as various guides of mine, friends. perspective lovers, if I have any lovers or if my multi dimensional self does. as well as help with my sleep and everything else getting back to normal and me growing & ascending to become a high level soul, if such is possible in 1 incarnation. and even better maybe I can finish all incarnations so I don't need to incarnate anymore since I feel tired and have no desire to incarnate anymore, but to find out, & explore the possibilities beings who do not incarnate have . That interests me greatly. .
except for that bit, the rest of the gateway audio 1 of wave 1 went well.
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No idea if it'll work but I bought Dreamcatcher hemi-sync. It is supposed to support deep restorative sleep when used in continuous play. I'll try playing it on my tablet with the in ear earphones, hope that works. Playing on my mp3 player would be to much of a hassle since raising and lowering the volume is the same control for going forward and back a track and when you try to control the volume I always go forward or back a track, and raising the volume is easier then lowering it. I've found it easier to leave it where it is and if the volume is to high and I'm listening to it using it's built in speakers, turn it so the speakers are down against the bed. or if that is not enough, put a cushion over it. I did find a free audio player for my tablet that claims it supports FLAC also. handy if I rip some cd's. I found some sleep phones, designed to be worn while going to sleep, that I'll purchase next month.
Tried to listen to a Seraphim channeling but quit after the short session of the person sending energy since it seemed everyone's sound levels in the call was set at random with the person channeling set to minimum, someone else set to maximum, and everyone else set to random sound levels. So when the Q and A session started I left. I was watching it on youtube and not in the call.
If this Hemi-sync does work that is supposed to help with sleep. Then I'll get some other ones to help with sleep since I'm sure I'd get bored with just 1 type. I have a week to try this one out, I do hope it works. The Dreamcatcher I bought I took out of some money I put aside to get Kindle books.
I do hope it works. If I do need chakra or whatever else treatment I need. I can't do anything about that. I do hope this hemi-sync DreamCatcher helps with my totally messed up sleep.
The gateway may help me with various things like deepening my meditative trances and maybe get to where I can channel various aspects of my multidimensional self, as well as various guides of mine, friends. perspective lovers, if I have any lovers or if my multi dimensional self does. as well as help with my sleep and everything else getting back to normal and me growing & ascending to become a high level soul, if such is possible in 1 incarnation. and even better maybe I can finish all incarnations so I don't need to incarnate anymore since I feel tired and have no desire to incarnate anymore, but to find out, & explore the possibilities beings who do not incarnate have . That interests me greatly. .
Sunday, October 25, 2015
Sunday 10-25
I did the 1st audio of wave 1 of the gateway system again today and it went much the same as before. I felt relaxed, some other positive things hard to describe. I've no idea if the vocal tuning does any good or not, but at least this time I don't have to go super deep to avoid coughing. i have a very mild sore spot on my throat that I assume is cause by cold air irritating my throat. the past few years around this time of year I get a constant very mild sore throat that comes and goes as the temperatures raise and fall, going away when they are above a certain temperature. I think upper 60's Fahrenheit. But I'm not sure. So I'll have a very mild sore throat off and on from now till around april or so.
I did experience my source self or some non physical 4th density (not fourth dimension, using the density system described to me by some when I use to channel. I've quit channeling for now. Not sure when or if I'll start up again. but the 4th density as they described it covers lots of dimensions from the 4th on up. 5th is semi formless & 6th and up is formless. so a much more simple system then dimensions.
I was with some Dolphins from Sirius, then popped over to light beings & angels working on a multiple planetary scale, solar systems at a time, instead of just single planet or individual level, as well as maybe galactic level, not sure of the exact details wasn't there long, and it was like I was 10 percent there and 90 percent in my physical body so didn't get much in what I experienced. I did this, it happened spontaneously during the time after the audio did the focus 3 thing but he left saying he'll be back when it's time to come back.
I just know the dolphins were Sirius since while I was swimming along with them I asked saying they are not earth dolphins and 1 of the closest ones to me said no, they are from Sirius and that they could tell I was presently incarnated on earth. to which I said unfortunately but I'm not from there. the same one or another one said that would pass with time, I'm just there to help with the shift and for me to visit them anytime, especially after my incarnation ended there. Since then we could have all sorts of fun together, to which one of them turned his underside towards me briefly and showed me his erect penis. I said something like, that sounds like fun. Don't remember my exact words.
the light beings I didn't talk to since they were focused on doing various things, the solar system level, multiple planetary and solar system level, some galaxy level I think, so I left, being there only a few seconds since I didn't want to interrupt anyone.
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still no sleep. I'll happen eventually. also with all the rain I couldn't go to the grocery store yesterday so I'll go today and tomorrow, assuming it doesn't rain. I'll have to pay the busfar instead of a free busrides but after the 2n trip i'll e done for the month. i'm doing lots of tpos but i'll leave them in since i'm not veyr awake.
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had my imagination, a dolphin that said he was from serius, or however you spell that. i channelgnged him to prove he wasn't just part of my imagination and was really fo the ight and really a male dolphin from sirius, he said he accepted the channelge and would rpove it. he alsosaid he would try to hep me to go to sleep but said he couldn't since the erth os far to dense. ihe said again he would accept my channelnge and i was o ftheir pod of the sirius pod and i'd be welcomd eong them anytime and then once this incarnation was overwe could have a lot fo fun together, variuus types of fun.
i'sure this cinration will last another century or so, thoeven though the imaginary sirus male dolphin said the human body can't last that long, not yet. had a sorta female voice pop into my had, another part of my imaginatonat that said something like (not being fully awake not sure i'll remeberit well. but it went somethin glike : "my son if you were on this side you could get lal the elp you need and for the asking, but as dense as hwere you arewe don't know hot to help., though we do wish we could hep oyou and knew hat todo." not sure how accurate that i since im not very awake. also this body still can't decide if it's sligtly to warmor slightly to chilly. also i often feel the resonationg wildly, but i'm use to feeling that nearly 24.7 now.
I do know that if I have any choice, I'm not incarnating on anyplace as dense as erth, likely won't go anywhere below 5th dimension, if I have any choice in the matter, 5th dimension and up. that is if I have any choice.
I did experience my source self or some non physical 4th density (not fourth dimension, using the density system described to me by some when I use to channel. I've quit channeling for now. Not sure when or if I'll start up again. but the 4th density as they described it covers lots of dimensions from the 4th on up. 5th is semi formless & 6th and up is formless. so a much more simple system then dimensions.
I was with some Dolphins from Sirius, then popped over to light beings & angels working on a multiple planetary scale, solar systems at a time, instead of just single planet or individual level, as well as maybe galactic level, not sure of the exact details wasn't there long, and it was like I was 10 percent there and 90 percent in my physical body so didn't get much in what I experienced. I did this, it happened spontaneously during the time after the audio did the focus 3 thing but he left saying he'll be back when it's time to come back.
I just know the dolphins were Sirius since while I was swimming along with them I asked saying they are not earth dolphins and 1 of the closest ones to me said no, they are from Sirius and that they could tell I was presently incarnated on earth. to which I said unfortunately but I'm not from there. the same one or another one said that would pass with time, I'm just there to help with the shift and for me to visit them anytime, especially after my incarnation ended there. Since then we could have all sorts of fun together, to which one of them turned his underside towards me briefly and showed me his erect penis. I said something like, that sounds like fun. Don't remember my exact words.
the light beings I didn't talk to since they were focused on doing various things, the solar system level, multiple planetary and solar system level, some galaxy level I think, so I left, being there only a few seconds since I didn't want to interrupt anyone.
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still no sleep. I'll happen eventually. also with all the rain I couldn't go to the grocery store yesterday so I'll go today and tomorrow, assuming it doesn't rain. I'll have to pay the busfar instead of a free busrides but after the 2n trip i'll e done for the month. i'm doing lots of tpos but i'll leave them in since i'm not veyr awake.
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had my imagination, a dolphin that said he was from serius, or however you spell that. i channelgnged him to prove he wasn't just part of my imagination and was really fo the ight and really a male dolphin from sirius, he said he accepted the channelge and would rpove it. he alsosaid he would try to hep me to go to sleep but said he couldn't since the erth os far to dense. ihe said again he would accept my channelnge and i was o ftheir pod of the sirius pod and i'd be welcomd eong them anytime and then once this incarnation was overwe could have a lot fo fun together, variuus types of fun.
i'sure this cinration will last another century or so, thoeven though the imaginary sirus male dolphin said the human body can't last that long, not yet. had a sorta female voice pop into my had, another part of my imaginatonat that said something like (not being fully awake not sure i'll remeberit well. but it went somethin glike : "my son if you were on this side you could get lal the elp you need and for the asking, but as dense as hwere you arewe don't know hot to help., though we do wish we could hep oyou and knew hat todo." not sure how accurate that i since im not very awake. also this body still can't decide if it's sligtly to warmor slightly to chilly. also i often feel the resonationg wildly, but i'm use to feeling that nearly 24.7 now.
I do know that if I have any choice, I'm not incarnating on anyplace as dense as erth, likely won't go anywhere below 5th dimension, if I have any choice in the matter, 5th dimension and up. that is if I have any choice.
Saturday, October 24, 2015
Sat 10/24
I did the 1st audio of the 1st gateway wave again. I did it once yesterday & once today. So far it's going well. I'll switch to the 2nd audio of gateway wave 1 starting this Friday. I do feel much more rested, an inner sense of peace. hard to describe exactly how I feel. Though I do hope it spills over to where I can sleep normally again, normally as in my normal sleep pattern. Overall it went very well. and I'm looking forward to the rest of the 5 lessons/audios of wave 1, and all 6 of wave 2. I'm sure they'll go well.
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not going to channel today or for the foreseeable future since I'm in doubt any of the so called beings are real and not just my imagination. Their so called treatments only worked once each. once for Gaia, and once for some so called ancient being. then when they tried more treatments they didn't work. I highly doubt a real Gaia would have that problem let alone some ancient being. I also know they were not speaking the truth when they said I'd be return home to the other side since it's been at least a month, and I'm still here, which proves them to all be liers since I'm still here a month after they started saying that I'd be returning home very soon, soon. That and Gaia's so called treatment to help me get to sleep and treat my sleeping problems only working once, and Gaia having no idea why more treatments then the 1st don't work. I highly doubt, as I said that the real Gaia would be at a loss and have no idea and her further treatments after the 1st would not work, same as some so called ancient being. so that along with them saying I'll be returning to the other side soon for a month now shows me they are all liers. and or must my imagination.
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not going to channel today or for the foreseeable future since I'm in doubt any of the so called beings are real and not just my imagination. Their so called treatments only worked once each. once for Gaia, and once for some so called ancient being. then when they tried more treatments they didn't work. I highly doubt a real Gaia would have that problem let alone some ancient being. I also know they were not speaking the truth when they said I'd be return home to the other side since it's been at least a month, and I'm still here, which proves them to all be liers since I'm still here a month after they started saying that I'd be returning home very soon, soon. That and Gaia's so called treatment to help me get to sleep and treat my sleeping problems only working once, and Gaia having no idea why more treatments then the 1st don't work. I highly doubt, as I said that the real Gaia would be at a loss and have no idea and her further treatments after the 1st would not work, same as some so called ancient being. so that along with them saying I'll be returning to the other side soon for a month now shows me they are all liers. and or must my imagination.
Friday, October 23, 2015
171 - Higher self ?, and Karinus + journal [fri 10-23]
I did the first audio of the first wave of Gateway, Orientation they call it. It went well and various things were introduced like Toning, where when you ehail you do a sound as you exhale and I went to focus 3 as they called it. I felt relaxation, as well as well being and love from I guess myself and maybe my guides or others of myself, my family or other non incarnates that I talk to and some I have not met. So all in all it went well.
I think I may do this for up to a week before I move on to the next one, the 2nd audio of wave 1. Since this is the basic introduction to the Gateway system it makes sense to do this one and maybe the next longer. I may do each of the audios for a week each, but I'll play it by ear and see if maybe 4 days is enough, or do I need 7 or 9. and some days I may do this one twice in 1 day. I'll decide tomorrow.
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Higher self, guide or another me: you did very well. it may be just the 1st time you did that gateway audio meditation but that is an important first step. From here on your things will vastly improve for you. I suggest you stick with your idea to do all 6 waves of the Gateway. Then after that you can pick out some other hemi-sync courses that may catch your interest as well as single hemi-syncs. up to you which you do in what order but I'd suggest maybe the courses before the single ones. As for me, I'm a higher reflection of yourself. of our, true self. just to keep it simple.
you are doing great and will see far better things for you in the future.
you are doing very well. Think of it in terms of another shift. Though you've done the gateway 1st audio of wave 1 once you've entered onto a new path, this one is better for your, our really since we're the same being, greater good. The light body courses you've taken have helped greatly, but this is better for our greater good at this point and it may continue. it is not to unusual to switch like this, quite ordinary for some. The others you've been talking to, some of them will talk to you soon, some of the others in a bit longer since they can be busy doing various things and it is not unusual for us immortal beings to not talk to be together for a few weeks, or even months for some who like to travel around and keep busy. it may sound and feel like a long time to those forced to experience a linear existence like those incarnated on earth do, but to those of us here, our true home, it is not to long seeming and we can keep in contact telepathically, even easier then earth humans can keep in contact using cellphones.
You are doing great. you've reached a new stage and a new path. One better for you at this point. Continue on it. Change is the one constant, though changes can be very tiny and unnoticed, or very large and noticeable.
you've switched to a path better for you, greater for your greater good.
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Karinus: you are doing great dude, great indeed. Welcome to the new path. your former path was great for you and this one is even better, smoother, better, easier, more fun, faster. Though to have been able to reach this one you had to travel on your old former path and have done the light body guided meditations that you did. Big congratulations dude, it's radically good how you're doing.
me: Thanks. I do feel some sort of change.
Karinus: yea dude, new path, you've started on and reached a new step, though you've only done the gateway meditation thing once. it is an important first step. You're doing great dude. we're so happy for you, new path and all. Smoother and more fun, and far cheaper too. Though the light body audio courses you did helped you greatly. This new path will be smooth, cheaper, more fun, and as great for you as it can be, depending what you put into it. It can do you great, very great indeed dude.
Go ahead and post this dude, just a short message from both of us congratulating you dude, we're all so happy and proud of you, you're doing great, talk to you next time dude.
I think I may do this for up to a week before I move on to the next one, the 2nd audio of wave 1. Since this is the basic introduction to the Gateway system it makes sense to do this one and maybe the next longer. I may do each of the audios for a week each, but I'll play it by ear and see if maybe 4 days is enough, or do I need 7 or 9. and some days I may do this one twice in 1 day. I'll decide tomorrow.
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Higher self, guide or another me: you did very well. it may be just the 1st time you did that gateway audio meditation but that is an important first step. From here on your things will vastly improve for you. I suggest you stick with your idea to do all 6 waves of the Gateway. Then after that you can pick out some other hemi-sync courses that may catch your interest as well as single hemi-syncs. up to you which you do in what order but I'd suggest maybe the courses before the single ones. As for me, I'm a higher reflection of yourself. of our, true self. just to keep it simple.
you are doing great and will see far better things for you in the future.
you are doing very well. Think of it in terms of another shift. Though you've done the gateway 1st audio of wave 1 once you've entered onto a new path, this one is better for your, our really since we're the same being, greater good. The light body courses you've taken have helped greatly, but this is better for our greater good at this point and it may continue. it is not to unusual to switch like this, quite ordinary for some. The others you've been talking to, some of them will talk to you soon, some of the others in a bit longer since they can be busy doing various things and it is not unusual for us immortal beings to not talk to be together for a few weeks, or even months for some who like to travel around and keep busy. it may sound and feel like a long time to those forced to experience a linear existence like those incarnated on earth do, but to those of us here, our true home, it is not to long seeming and we can keep in contact telepathically, even easier then earth humans can keep in contact using cellphones.
You are doing great. you've reached a new stage and a new path. One better for you at this point. Continue on it. Change is the one constant, though changes can be very tiny and unnoticed, or very large and noticeable.
you've switched to a path better for you, greater for your greater good.
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Karinus: you are doing great dude, great indeed. Welcome to the new path. your former path was great for you and this one is even better, smoother, better, easier, more fun, faster. Though to have been able to reach this one you had to travel on your old former path and have done the light body guided meditations that you did. Big congratulations dude, it's radically good how you're doing.
me: Thanks. I do feel some sort of change.
Karinus: yea dude, new path, you've started on and reached a new step, though you've only done the gateway meditation thing once. it is an important first step. You're doing great dude. we're so happy for you, new path and all. Smoother and more fun, and far cheaper too. Though the light body audio courses you did helped you greatly. This new path will be smooth, cheaper, more fun, and as great for you as it can be, depending what you put into it. It can do you great, very great indeed dude.
Go ahead and post this dude, just a short message from both of us congratulating you dude, we're all so happy and proud of you, you're doing great, talk to you next time dude.
170 Orca & Reptilian me [Thurs 10-22]
Me: So I guess I can never incarnate after this if I want?
Orca: Why sure indeed. Many of us either never incarnate or do so only once or a few times. You'd not be the first that incarnates only once and that is it.
Reptilian me: and you'd still benefit from all the rest of us incarnating, those who do and have that is, adding to the collective memories.
Me: you mean like I recall some past incarnations though they are not mine personally but of our various other selves and I can remember them since we're all part of the same being?
reptilian me: indeed, that is how it works. also one can recall the larger collective if one wishes to. Like an earth human can recall a past incarnation that he or she never lived, and their full self did not either. You can recall those of Sirius and others.
Me: nice. Since I don't really feel like incarnating after this one is over. I can see the fun aspects, new experiences, but overall I think it's just way to annoying overall and I really don't want to.
Reptilian me: just cause you think of it and understand some of the fun aspects and can see the appeal doesn't mean you have to. it shows you are making a more informed decision. after all if it's not something you'd find fun, but would find annoying, then don't do it.
me: That I can understand. Though it may have it's fun aspects, new experiences and such. I just really don't want to. Forced to live in form, in 1 linear existence, and depending where i do incarnate maybe forgetting everything and starting as a total blank with no awareness and my abilities blocked or unusable. No, not for me, though I do understand and see the appeal of others, it's something I really don't want to do.
Reptilian me: indeed, I concur. I think it's best if you don't since for you the annoyances and disadvantages outweigh the pluses.
Orca me: indeed incarnating is not a thing for your greater good, growth nor pleasure, well once this present one is over that is. Which is supposed to be soon and should be. any more would not suit you and would run counter to your greater good, fun, pleasure and growth. Believe me, as another you, I know first hand.
Me: I agree. Being on the other side, not incarnating. Those options appeal to me far more. incarnating really just doesn't, everything considered.
reptilian me: indeed. there are many options for you and those who never incarnate. and you're remember all the incarnations of our full being once you're here, as we can recall yours. we all can remember being of the same being. So on pressure. it would run counter to your greater good and further growth. for you my suggestion is once you're here, relax, and learn, remember, experience what here has to offer. far more for you personally then incarnating.
orca me: indeed very true where we are concerned. for others, for some, incarnating is best for them, for others like us, incarnating is best a thing we not do. for some for a while it is. For others, they never incarnate. an infinity of options exist. choose the one that flows with you best, excites you most, feels right, the most fun, and remember we do an eternity to grow closer, have fun, share fun, learn and grow together. Some think, oh you're attitude will change when you're here and see it's all like a play. For some it does, but for most their attitude does not change. Those who think it will are those who really deep down enjoy incarnating and thing everyone is like them, not able to see the truth that we are all individuals and for some incarnating does not suit their greater good, we're among those who it does not, the 3 of us here and some others we could name. For our greater self incarnating is a thing seldom done and in many cases each self does so once and that is it, much like how you plan on doing it and I see you sticking to that, as the rest of us who have incarnated have done. few of us are the ones who do incarnate more then once. or a tiny handful of times, in many cases like yours we were new and did't exists ourselves before the incarnation began, like you now.
Thursday, October 22, 2015
169 Orca & reptilian me's [Thurs 10-22]
me: feels like you're another me, an orca this time. not the same as the beluga whale multi dimensional me from yesterday?
Orca: no dear, I'm not. I'm a different one. Think of me as, for now, another higher self or another you willing to fill that role. And I'll say now that I do indeed find you sexy, though why would I not find myself sexy.
you've shifted to, well among other things, that the Gateway and some Hemi-sync still will benefit you. The light body audios you did did do a great deal of work and helped you. But you've shifted to , well a bit higher and to the side, another track, so to speak. it is quite normal to do this, and the speed you are ascending is a sign of you achieving your native level that we are all native to. And yes I would suggest you stay away from any light body stuff dealing with increasing your radiance. As a type of star your present radiance is within the safety limits of the physical body you presently inhabit, so no need to increase it and doing so is not within the safety parameters of the human body at present. We'll all be glad when you are fully here among us. Though you'll be the youngest of us, that won't matter since once you're here you'll be as aware as the rest of us are. and the wait will not be long indeed, but short in truth.
Reptilian me: I'm another reptilian you, not the same as the one yesterday. let's say I'm here to start helping you get more in touch with your reptilian nature. Though the orca here as you can call him, and the Beluga will help with the cetacean nature we all share. must keep things in balance you know. and as you know we are all sexual beings, as sexual as you are. But plenty of time for that later. And other non us's will speak to you soon. Just this has been a time when it's best, most advantageous for us to talk to ourselves for your and all our help since you are us and we are you we effect each other continuously. Since though we are individuals we are 1 system and the same multi dimensional being. May sound a bit complicated but that is how it works in truth. As others have said we do change to different forms, though many of us do have certain preferred forms. i feel though that you'll not have a full or real preference. You'll be one of us that switches to any ol form with no overall preference. Though you'll be in certain moods at times, say more of a reptilian mood now, but more of an orca or dolphin mood later this evening, that sort of thing.
orca em: yes, we are one big happy family, the various us's, being friends, advisers, very deep passionate lovers, to each other. Then there are one's family, our family I mean. Lovers, friends, and so on, but we can go into such details later or wait till you'll be here fully among us since the wait won't be long at all in truth.
For now just relax for today and tomorrow perhaps a bit too. Best to do this at this time, ease into things a bit at a time. you are doing very well.
Reptilian me: yes lover you are indeed. Fabulous. look at your progress over 1 year. The little doubts that pop up now and then are quite understandable where you are considering where you are at present. Just deal with them in the ways you know and have learned and things will go even better for you my lover, though I'm getting ahead of myself I do feel we will be that and we're as willing as you are.
me: Indeed. and I'm sure having other me's as lovers is normal for us and will give a special depth to the relationship and to others also.
Reptilian me: indeed, a special depth and passion and form the foundation for the other kinds of relationships you can have with others. Though ours will always remain. Others may well remain, or drift apart or grow closer over time. The relationshps you have with yourselves will change, but not as dramatic. Think of it as a slight shift this way or that way.
orca me: indeed.Your relationships with others does change over time, drifting apart for some, becoming closer, or deeper with others. the one you have with your various selves is more like shifting. you're more in the mood or feel a bit closer to these you's, or those. more like the mood of what form you wish to be in. or if you wish to be formless or semi formless. it's all normal and ok.
reptilian me: after all, who better to be your guides, or among your guides then other you's. We understand you well, our energy is certainly comparable and complimentary. among other advantages.
Me: thanks. I know we're a sexual being, what does that really mean?
Orca me: well, to keep it simple & not to complicated. We share sensual pleasures, love, sex, passions, passionate love, our being with each other. it goes far beyond mere sex and benefits all those involved. Side effects are that it can cause one's resonance to come closer to matching, one day even matching perfectly like ours and Gaia's may one day reach. We're willing for this, inducing her who's willing also, if it happens, if not that is ok, but we'll likely at least have a close if not perfect resonance.
That is keeping it simple as to what it means to be a sexual being that we are. There are far more complexity to this, and many benefits. The key is it's not mere sex between us but as I said, and the sensual pleasures, pleasures, love, passions, are not the lower types found on planes of the lower variety but what we share is of the higher planar type. There are higher planar versions of these.
Reptilian me: indeed. What we share are the higher, the highest planar frequencies that we can at this time, of love, sensual pleasures, passions, our very being, pleasures, sex. you've experienced some of that but not the lower type. you're to high and light to enjoy or have any lower type feelings. Though everyone is at the level perfect for them at that time, and all move upwards, though there is no real up or down, higher or lower, we just use these terms to help with understanding. it's really a question of focus and choice. Like we here don't say we're higher then a native earth human or some being that loves to incarnate on one of the Sirius worlds since they are at the level 1 level of being and we are native to a higher level. We are all equal, just a matter of how aware you are, your personal choice. We all prefer being active across multiple levels of being.
orca: indeed, some of us more then others. And there is personal moods too. For a while, say a few centuries or millennia you pay prefer to remain in 1 level of being, and at others more in the mood to travel around, being active across a wide array of level of beings and places.
Me: I'm very excited about being back home on the other side.
Orca me: that is because this is your real native level of being and home, not being incarnated on earth.
Reptilian me: Indeed and you can feel the time approaches, which also explains the excitement you feel coming from within yourself.
Orca: no dear, I'm not. I'm a different one. Think of me as, for now, another higher self or another you willing to fill that role. And I'll say now that I do indeed find you sexy, though why would I not find myself sexy.
you've shifted to, well among other things, that the Gateway and some Hemi-sync still will benefit you. The light body audios you did did do a great deal of work and helped you. But you've shifted to , well a bit higher and to the side, another track, so to speak. it is quite normal to do this, and the speed you are ascending is a sign of you achieving your native level that we are all native to. And yes I would suggest you stay away from any light body stuff dealing with increasing your radiance. As a type of star your present radiance is within the safety limits of the physical body you presently inhabit, so no need to increase it and doing so is not within the safety parameters of the human body at present. We'll all be glad when you are fully here among us. Though you'll be the youngest of us, that won't matter since once you're here you'll be as aware as the rest of us are. and the wait will not be long indeed, but short in truth.
Reptilian me: I'm another reptilian you, not the same as the one yesterday. let's say I'm here to start helping you get more in touch with your reptilian nature. Though the orca here as you can call him, and the Beluga will help with the cetacean nature we all share. must keep things in balance you know. and as you know we are all sexual beings, as sexual as you are. But plenty of time for that later. And other non us's will speak to you soon. Just this has been a time when it's best, most advantageous for us to talk to ourselves for your and all our help since you are us and we are you we effect each other continuously. Since though we are individuals we are 1 system and the same multi dimensional being. May sound a bit complicated but that is how it works in truth. As others have said we do change to different forms, though many of us do have certain preferred forms. i feel though that you'll not have a full or real preference. You'll be one of us that switches to any ol form with no overall preference. Though you'll be in certain moods at times, say more of a reptilian mood now, but more of an orca or dolphin mood later this evening, that sort of thing.
orca em: yes, we are one big happy family, the various us's, being friends, advisers, very deep passionate lovers, to each other. Then there are one's family, our family I mean. Lovers, friends, and so on, but we can go into such details later or wait till you'll be here fully among us since the wait won't be long at all in truth.
For now just relax for today and tomorrow perhaps a bit too. Best to do this at this time, ease into things a bit at a time. you are doing very well.
Reptilian me: yes lover you are indeed. Fabulous. look at your progress over 1 year. The little doubts that pop up now and then are quite understandable where you are considering where you are at present. Just deal with them in the ways you know and have learned and things will go even better for you my lover, though I'm getting ahead of myself I do feel we will be that and we're as willing as you are.
me: Indeed. and I'm sure having other me's as lovers is normal for us and will give a special depth to the relationship and to others also.
Reptilian me: indeed, a special depth and passion and form the foundation for the other kinds of relationships you can have with others. Though ours will always remain. Others may well remain, or drift apart or grow closer over time. The relationshps you have with yourselves will change, but not as dramatic. Think of it as a slight shift this way or that way.
orca me: indeed.Your relationships with others does change over time, drifting apart for some, becoming closer, or deeper with others. the one you have with your various selves is more like shifting. you're more in the mood or feel a bit closer to these you's, or those. more like the mood of what form you wish to be in. or if you wish to be formless or semi formless. it's all normal and ok.
reptilian me: after all, who better to be your guides, or among your guides then other you's. We understand you well, our energy is certainly comparable and complimentary. among other advantages.
Me: thanks. I know we're a sexual being, what does that really mean?
Orca me: well, to keep it simple & not to complicated. We share sensual pleasures, love, sex, passions, passionate love, our being with each other. it goes far beyond mere sex and benefits all those involved. Side effects are that it can cause one's resonance to come closer to matching, one day even matching perfectly like ours and Gaia's may one day reach. We're willing for this, inducing her who's willing also, if it happens, if not that is ok, but we'll likely at least have a close if not perfect resonance.
That is keeping it simple as to what it means to be a sexual being that we are. There are far more complexity to this, and many benefits. The key is it's not mere sex between us but as I said, and the sensual pleasures, pleasures, love, passions, are not the lower types found on planes of the lower variety but what we share is of the higher planar type. There are higher planar versions of these.
Reptilian me: indeed. What we share are the higher, the highest planar frequencies that we can at this time, of love, sensual pleasures, passions, our very being, pleasures, sex. you've experienced some of that but not the lower type. you're to high and light to enjoy or have any lower type feelings. Though everyone is at the level perfect for them at that time, and all move upwards, though there is no real up or down, higher or lower, we just use these terms to help with understanding. it's really a question of focus and choice. Like we here don't say we're higher then a native earth human or some being that loves to incarnate on one of the Sirius worlds since they are at the level 1 level of being and we are native to a higher level. We are all equal, just a matter of how aware you are, your personal choice. We all prefer being active across multiple levels of being.
orca: indeed, some of us more then others. And there is personal moods too. For a while, say a few centuries or millennia you pay prefer to remain in 1 level of being, and at others more in the mood to travel around, being active across a wide array of level of beings and places.
Me: I'm very excited about being back home on the other side.
Orca me: that is because this is your real native level of being and home, not being incarnated on earth.
Reptilian me: Indeed and you can feel the time approaches, which also explains the excitement you feel coming from within yourself.
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
168 - Male Pterosaur & Beluga Whale me [10-22]
Me: I got a mental image of a Pterosaur. another me?
male Pterosaur: indeed. I'm another you. think of me as from a more, reptilian side instead of the more cetacean side, though it's all fine.
male Beluga whale me: indeed but the distinction is unimportant, we're mostly the same with some little or slight differences.
male pterosaur me: yes, think of it as certain personality traits tweaked more this or that way. So not the same identical personality, but very similar. We're all as sexual beings as you are. Some have more interest and some less then others. You're about average overall in the that interest, on this side that is. But just take things slow and easy and you'll do great. not long and you'll be here fully and met the rest of us, as well as the others you've met who are not us, and others you've' not met yet like some aquatic us like a reptilian aquatic us. I'll leave the species of some a surprise, but at least 1 is an icythosaur.
me: I guess we like being in a variety of forms since i guess we can all change at will.
male Pterosaur: indeed, i stick with reptilian mostly, but some dolphin ones at times, the occasional avian. Sometimes just the source self. Depends on my mood. I just wanted to come briefly since this would show that you are quite varied in our forms, appearances, preferences and such.
me: Have I gone through a shift or something? just curious and are we really high beings?
male pterosaur me: indeed you have, though the exact details are not important at this time. as for being a high level being, we are, especially compared to some on earth, there ae some rather high level beings on and around the earth at present due to the shift. Though as high as we are there are others higher still. We don't pay much attention if we are higher then them or not as high as them.
and we are all sexual beings, some of us are more into sharing pleasures, sensual pleausures, sex, love, as the dolphin you talked to recently. The rest of us enjoy it as much as him and you do, in a variety of forms and genders but some of us put that say 2nd, others put that among one of the things we like best, though not the only favorite.
We have no experience in places as dense or lower as some would classify it as the earth. We normally don't go anywhere near where the earth is in it's density. we normally don't go down past say upper 4th dimension, as some classify it, greatly preferring 5th dimension and up. Though we usually prefer to not divide things into dimensions to often. They are handy for certain reasons like explaining things.
male beluga me: some of prefer the upper dimension then others, others are active from 5th density and up. With the occupational foray into 4th density occasionally now and then sometimes. For short periods of time, mostly to teach this or that or other things. Normally we'd go to 5th or 6th dimension and talk to a 4th dimensional being. the few of us who do visit the 4th dimension usually do so only for very short periods of time. most never go anywhere near that density. You're the first of us to be in 3rd density. not something I'd do, normally. but earth is a special case and it is for an important reason, more then just to help a world through a shift. since if that were the case we'd let others do that. the worlds we help through a shift, thos of us who do this, usually stick with 5th dimension and up.
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male beluga me: I can be one of your guides, though my appearance my change between dolphin, this one and orca. My form changes depending on my mood, as yours will once you're here. You'll very likely not stick to just one form. Who better to be one of your guides then another you?
male pterosaur me: yea, very few of us, none really, stick with just one form all the time. Though some do prefer certain forms over others.
me: so is there a specific place we live at or is there no real homes at our level of being?
male beluga me: There is a home, some of us at this level do have homes and some just manifest a home when they are in the mood for that. Also you can have your own home if you like. it can even be like a tardis, huge on the inside, like a moon, planet or larger, and small exterior. or it's own dimension that has no exit that you can teleport into and out of. Some do that.
Some galactic level beings have no homes, not bothering with that or just manifesting one when they are in the mood as I said, others never bother. not wanting one, not seeing the need or just not seeing the appeal.
Me: so what level are we native to and will I be native there too once this incarnation ends?
male beluga whale me: indeed you will be, though you may need some time to adjust, not long a few minutes, hours. Not sure since none of us has incarnated on the earth before or anywhere near as dense as that.
The level we are native to is, well the actual place of our full self is outside time, outside space. Though here planetary, sun, beings hang out, some individuals from level 1 let's label it for handy use. Some from the higher levels visit. We visit the lower and higher levels, staying where we wish based on our mood, what we wish to do & the like.
Me: Think I'll end this here, starting to get a bit late, thanks.
Male Pterosaur me: Glad to talk to you, we'll talk another time.
Male Beluga whale: nice talking to you, we'll have more conversations in the future. Good luck and continue remaining true to yourself.
male Pterosaur: indeed. I'm another you. think of me as from a more, reptilian side instead of the more cetacean side, though it's all fine.
male Beluga whale me: indeed but the distinction is unimportant, we're mostly the same with some little or slight differences.
male pterosaur me: yes, think of it as certain personality traits tweaked more this or that way. So not the same identical personality, but very similar. We're all as sexual beings as you are. Some have more interest and some less then others. You're about average overall in the that interest, on this side that is. But just take things slow and easy and you'll do great. not long and you'll be here fully and met the rest of us, as well as the others you've met who are not us, and others you've' not met yet like some aquatic us like a reptilian aquatic us. I'll leave the species of some a surprise, but at least 1 is an icythosaur.
me: I guess we like being in a variety of forms since i guess we can all change at will.
male Pterosaur: indeed, i stick with reptilian mostly, but some dolphin ones at times, the occasional avian. Sometimes just the source self. Depends on my mood. I just wanted to come briefly since this would show that you are quite varied in our forms, appearances, preferences and such.
me: Have I gone through a shift or something? just curious and are we really high beings?
male pterosaur me: indeed you have, though the exact details are not important at this time. as for being a high level being, we are, especially compared to some on earth, there ae some rather high level beings on and around the earth at present due to the shift. Though as high as we are there are others higher still. We don't pay much attention if we are higher then them or not as high as them.
and we are all sexual beings, some of us are more into sharing pleasures, sensual pleausures, sex, love, as the dolphin you talked to recently. The rest of us enjoy it as much as him and you do, in a variety of forms and genders but some of us put that say 2nd, others put that among one of the things we like best, though not the only favorite.
We have no experience in places as dense or lower as some would classify it as the earth. We normally don't go anywhere near where the earth is in it's density. we normally don't go down past say upper 4th dimension, as some classify it, greatly preferring 5th dimension and up. Though we usually prefer to not divide things into dimensions to often. They are handy for certain reasons like explaining things.
male beluga me: some of prefer the upper dimension then others, others are active from 5th density and up. With the occupational foray into 4th density occasionally now and then sometimes. For short periods of time, mostly to teach this or that or other things. Normally we'd go to 5th or 6th dimension and talk to a 4th dimensional being. the few of us who do visit the 4th dimension usually do so only for very short periods of time. most never go anywhere near that density. You're the first of us to be in 3rd density. not something I'd do, normally. but earth is a special case and it is for an important reason, more then just to help a world through a shift. since if that were the case we'd let others do that. the worlds we help through a shift, thos of us who do this, usually stick with 5th dimension and up.
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male beluga me: I can be one of your guides, though my appearance my change between dolphin, this one and orca. My form changes depending on my mood, as yours will once you're here. You'll very likely not stick to just one form. Who better to be one of your guides then another you?
male pterosaur me: yea, very few of us, none really, stick with just one form all the time. Though some do prefer certain forms over others.
me: so is there a specific place we live at or is there no real homes at our level of being?
male beluga me: There is a home, some of us at this level do have homes and some just manifest a home when they are in the mood for that. Also you can have your own home if you like. it can even be like a tardis, huge on the inside, like a moon, planet or larger, and small exterior. or it's own dimension that has no exit that you can teleport into and out of. Some do that.
Some galactic level beings have no homes, not bothering with that or just manifesting one when they are in the mood as I said, others never bother. not wanting one, not seeing the need or just not seeing the appeal.
Me: so what level are we native to and will I be native there too once this incarnation ends?
male beluga whale me: indeed you will be, though you may need some time to adjust, not long a few minutes, hours. Not sure since none of us has incarnated on the earth before or anywhere near as dense as that.
The level we are native to is, well the actual place of our full self is outside time, outside space. Though here planetary, sun, beings hang out, some individuals from level 1 let's label it for handy use. Some from the higher levels visit. We visit the lower and higher levels, staying where we wish based on our mood, what we wish to do & the like.
Me: Think I'll end this here, starting to get a bit late, thanks.
Male Pterosaur me: Glad to talk to you, we'll talk another time.
Male Beluga whale: nice talking to you, we'll have more conversations in the future. Good luck and continue remaining true to yourself.
167 Male Beluga Whale Me [Wed 10-21]
me: Guess I got right what I typed up earlier?
male beluga me: Indeed my son, or I should say me since I'm, to put it simply a reflection of our higher, full being. think of me as a cross between beluga and orca in my appearance or beluga whale. for now and least. a beluga for now will be best.
but on to what you said yes indeed it is a combination of your genetics, non human at that, the new frequencies reaching earth, the fact you are indeed a type of star so you do generate frequencies of light of your own, higher plane light, more since you did the solar radiance audio course. those combined and if you do the active trying to raise your radiance increases the light frequencies output beyond the safety parameters of the human body as it is at present. We didn't suspect this since this is new to all of us, we do not normally go anywhere near a place as dense and limiting earth & the interplay of those factors you posted about and I mentioned are indeed fairly unique and not a common thing.
As for me, think of me as a temporary construction created for a specific mission, to be a sort of guide to those others of ourselves who are aware enough to reach the levels I can reach. as you reach more awareness it'll be higher aspects like orca, then perhaps various whale species or it may be a generic cetacean and just get larger in size symbolically. I'd prefer to stop at either beluga or orca. But either is fine. I am willing to be lovers too with you but more able to focus past that. the dolphin us is not immature, but more focused on sharing pleasures, younger perhaps but here there is no real point in picking if one is younger or older since he is fully aware it doesn't matter. Think of it as he's more focused on sex, I'm more balanced. nothing wrong with that since I do enjoy sharing pleasures, sensual pleasures, but that isn't my primary focus.
me: So is your mental image I'm getting symbolic or personal preference?
Beluga whale me: personal preference. I prefer their appearance. larger then a dolphin, but not as large as an orca. But I can be whatever form and size I prefer. As for the suggestions, mine agree with ours. With perhaps focusing more on the Gateway and less on the light body courses. Hemi-sync will help you also, certain ones more then others and some likely won't do much, but you can use your intuition to guide you in that. But I do agree, if doing the awaken the light body expanded is ok for you to do 3-4 times a week then getting the one about being your divine self, our true self, would be a good last and final light body course to get. Then once the Gateway course is finished maybe redo some of those, certain of your favorite Light body courses, some Hemi-sync. use your intuition as a guide. And again though initially meant to be temporary I can go permanently also, depending on my personal choice which is highly likely since I do enjoy being a guide to some others of ourselves, and others as well. and perhaps more then a sort of guide or older self too, but that is for later on or once you are here, and there are other us's to fill that roll too.
Me: Thanks. I'd not mind us having a relationships but I do agree, let's just let it build and develop however it does.
Beluga whale me: indeed and you'll notice your relationship with our various selves is as varied as those you have with others. As for the gateway at the very least it'll help you to deepen your meditative trance, some inner work and other benefits and will be doing this and other things with less energy interaction, which is beneficial to you at this time. We were unaware that such as this would happen with you. your uniqueness and unique situation combined while not the first time this has happens is diffidently not common so there isn't common knowledge about this and as for us we are new to the denseness of earth so we are all learning as you do also.
as for your remaining incarnation time, you are indeed part of phase 1, as some classify it. As to when there are many various factors so we are unable to say this specific date.. it is more rather that after a certain amount of time the chance starts to raise up exponentially in the overall percentage and indeed your personal doubts about this does not have a impact on your exit point since it is the normal shallow doubts not very deep doubts since you do have the more clear beliefs as well. For dealing with the doubts you've learned various techniques from the book you read on quantum entrapment as the author called it then, and some from the awaken the light body and the solar radiance course. Do these for just short periods of time. Since any active energy on your part may drive it to non safe levels. Brief, short times should be safe. and you"ll not need to do it very often or for long, less then a minute in many cases. Except where you talk to yourself. less then 30 seconds in the cases of energy manipulating.
My suggestion is to build a good foundation, try doing at least the first few gateway audios of the 1st part, first wave as they call it, for a week each.
me: Thanks for the help.
male beluga me: I'm glad to help. I'll be here later to talk and if not me then a higher reflection like an orca. Other us's will talk to you also as well as others. We feel like now it's best to talk to ourselves at this time. You've noticed the flow from talking to another you to talking to others and at times mixed, this will highly likely continue for the near future.
me: thanks. I'll pause here for a while since it feels like a good place to pause.
male beluga me: Indeed my son, or I should say me since I'm, to put it simply a reflection of our higher, full being. think of me as a cross between beluga and orca in my appearance or beluga whale. for now and least. a beluga for now will be best.
but on to what you said yes indeed it is a combination of your genetics, non human at that, the new frequencies reaching earth, the fact you are indeed a type of star so you do generate frequencies of light of your own, higher plane light, more since you did the solar radiance audio course. those combined and if you do the active trying to raise your radiance increases the light frequencies output beyond the safety parameters of the human body as it is at present. We didn't suspect this since this is new to all of us, we do not normally go anywhere near a place as dense and limiting earth & the interplay of those factors you posted about and I mentioned are indeed fairly unique and not a common thing.
As for me, think of me as a temporary construction created for a specific mission, to be a sort of guide to those others of ourselves who are aware enough to reach the levels I can reach. as you reach more awareness it'll be higher aspects like orca, then perhaps various whale species or it may be a generic cetacean and just get larger in size symbolically. I'd prefer to stop at either beluga or orca. But either is fine. I am willing to be lovers too with you but more able to focus past that. the dolphin us is not immature, but more focused on sharing pleasures, younger perhaps but here there is no real point in picking if one is younger or older since he is fully aware it doesn't matter. Think of it as he's more focused on sex, I'm more balanced. nothing wrong with that since I do enjoy sharing pleasures, sensual pleasures, but that isn't my primary focus.
me: So is your mental image I'm getting symbolic or personal preference?
Beluga whale me: personal preference. I prefer their appearance. larger then a dolphin, but not as large as an orca. But I can be whatever form and size I prefer. As for the suggestions, mine agree with ours. With perhaps focusing more on the Gateway and less on the light body courses. Hemi-sync will help you also, certain ones more then others and some likely won't do much, but you can use your intuition to guide you in that. But I do agree, if doing the awaken the light body expanded is ok for you to do 3-4 times a week then getting the one about being your divine self, our true self, would be a good last and final light body course to get. Then once the Gateway course is finished maybe redo some of those, certain of your favorite Light body courses, some Hemi-sync. use your intuition as a guide. And again though initially meant to be temporary I can go permanently also, depending on my personal choice which is highly likely since I do enjoy being a guide to some others of ourselves, and others as well. and perhaps more then a sort of guide or older self too, but that is for later on or once you are here, and there are other us's to fill that roll too.
Me: Thanks. I'd not mind us having a relationships but I do agree, let's just let it build and develop however it does.
Beluga whale me: indeed and you'll notice your relationship with our various selves is as varied as those you have with others. As for the gateway at the very least it'll help you to deepen your meditative trance, some inner work and other benefits and will be doing this and other things with less energy interaction, which is beneficial to you at this time. We were unaware that such as this would happen with you. your uniqueness and unique situation combined while not the first time this has happens is diffidently not common so there isn't common knowledge about this and as for us we are new to the denseness of earth so we are all learning as you do also.
as for your remaining incarnation time, you are indeed part of phase 1, as some classify it. As to when there are many various factors so we are unable to say this specific date.. it is more rather that after a certain amount of time the chance starts to raise up exponentially in the overall percentage and indeed your personal doubts about this does not have a impact on your exit point since it is the normal shallow doubts not very deep doubts since you do have the more clear beliefs as well. For dealing with the doubts you've learned various techniques from the book you read on quantum entrapment as the author called it then, and some from the awaken the light body and the solar radiance course. Do these for just short periods of time. Since any active energy on your part may drive it to non safe levels. Brief, short times should be safe. and you"ll not need to do it very often or for long, less then a minute in many cases. Except where you talk to yourself. less then 30 seconds in the cases of energy manipulating.
My suggestion is to build a good foundation, try doing at least the first few gateway audios of the 1st part, first wave as they call it, for a week each.
me: Thanks for the help.
male beluga me: I'm glad to help. I'll be here later to talk and if not me then a higher reflection like an orca. Other us's will talk to you also as well as others. We feel like now it's best to talk to ourselves at this time. You've noticed the flow from talking to another you to talking to others and at times mixed, this will highly likely continue for the near future.
me: thanks. I'll pause here for a while since it feels like a good place to pause.
Wed 10-21
I slept 1 hour last night from around 2:00am to around 3:00am.
I had 1 dream during that. From what I recall I got out of some sort of pickup or some other vehicle. I went to some place that had things up that were like, hard to describe, wood that crisscrossed to make like small boxes open in both sides. when I said I was there to look for a certain rpg book the wood things were removed and I went into the store but they didn't have the book I had, I decided to go home and someone mentioned I could go to an rpg convention and if I beat some of the folks there they'd let me have their whole collection. i wasn't interested since I was after just 1 specific book, and left saying I did hope I'd get home in time since I had to use the bus and had a long way to go.
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This morning about 6:30am my my time roughly: I did the 8th light body guided meditation of Radiance: self exciting expanded and it went well. I could feel the resonance that i usually feel 24/7, except for short periods of time. Except it kicked into super high gear during the meditation, even more so when I rested with my hands facing upwards. It literally made my teeth ache towards the end and gave me a slight pressure headache that went away once the meditation ended and the ache in my teeth did also. When Daben did his vocalizations it was the usual, not just the feel of energy he was sending me but also the usual intense non sexual pleasure. hard to describe. I visualized my fullonia light, solar radiance, going up to the entire universe, and I again felt like part of me was outside the universe, which I remembered part of 1 of my 2 channelings last night, not sure if I remembered to put it down. that our (my male dolphin self (non earth and he's often in anthro form) did say our true self did dwell outside time, outside space where time and space have no meaning.
I also mentally heard my true self or some aspect of it say to me during the meditation, "The thing about being incarnated on earth is the energy has a certain key that can benefit those incarnated on earth, humans, animals, plants. if we were not incarnated we could just stream the energies into Gaia directly but it would not benifit those of the earth collective life, humans, animals, plants. "
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On the advice of an online friend I'll take a break from doing any more light body stuff and I'll stay away from doing any more of the radiance stuff I have. Friday I think I'll start doing an Awaken the Light Body Expanded and see how it goes. if it goes ok I'll try doing it 3 times next week, Monday, Wednesday, & Friday. I also ordered first 2 parts of the Gateway course. managed to find the first 2 used on amazon for half the price of 1 brand new and it says it's new. The seller has a very good rating, which I won't buy from anyone who's under 98%. So I'll do those too. I'll try those I think once a day and maybe do each audio either 5 days before I go to the next one or maybe 7 days, 1 full week. depending on how I do it if I do it 5 days before I switch to the next one I'll take 6 months to do the 6 parts, but if I do each audio for a week then it'll take 9 months to finish the whole 6 part course.
Looking over my records on a forum of my posts it looks like this messed up sleep happened every day starting at the 11th of this month. I recall late September it happened but was milder compared to this. So it could be a combination of the genetics of this body, the fact I'm a type of star, from what I've been told so maybe that means I generate certain frequencies, certain frequencies have reached earth that have not before so all that combined may mean if I try to increase my radiance with one of Orin or Daben's courses pushes the energy past the healthy or safe levels that this human body can take. maybe just passive may keep it within the safe levels. not sure about the awaken the light body expanded or being your divine self. The awaken the light body expanded I already bought a month ago so I'll give it a slow try. The being your divine self I won't think about buying till January at the earliest since I figure 2 months should be enough time to see if I want to get that one or not since if I were to buy just 1 more course that is the one that interests me out of all the other courses I've not gotten yet.
The gateway course from my research seems to be about relaxing the mind and body, deepening your trance, doing some inner work and stuff with energy, later in the latter courses meeting non physical friends, i guess they mean guides, higher self that sort of thing. No idea if I'll be able to project with that but I figure even if it just helps me to do some inner work, some energy stuff, unless I notice side effects and stay away from that, deepening my meditative trance, and maybe being an even more clear channel, may be interesting. interesting that when I asked since I felt I was being nudged towards the Gateway stuff they said that I'm at the right point to benefit fro doing the Gateway Course. I guess since the Light Body Courses I've done up to that point have helped with getting me more clear, aware, or other things.
I'll continue to channel or whatever it is that I do when I mentally talk to the ones I talk to and type up our conversation. During some of the Light Body courses I've been taking over the past3 or more months I have occationally found myself in 2 places at the same time, both in the body and elsewhere also.
If can project my consciousness it would be neat to be able to meet some of the ones I've been talking to and getting mental images of and some physical impressions of when they touch me like sometimes I'm 10 or 20% there. So maybe I can be like 100% in both locations, or be 20% here & 80% there. but if not that is ok. I'm sure even if the Gateway course doesn't do that it'll still help in various other ways.
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also almost forgot. Had a dream where I was a dragon in a human body on earth and didn't understand any of the customs or ways of earth. Don't recall much about the dream but that.
I had 1 dream during that. From what I recall I got out of some sort of pickup or some other vehicle. I went to some place that had things up that were like, hard to describe, wood that crisscrossed to make like small boxes open in both sides. when I said I was there to look for a certain rpg book the wood things were removed and I went into the store but they didn't have the book I had, I decided to go home and someone mentioned I could go to an rpg convention and if I beat some of the folks there they'd let me have their whole collection. i wasn't interested since I was after just 1 specific book, and left saying I did hope I'd get home in time since I had to use the bus and had a long way to go.
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This morning about 6:30am my my time roughly: I did the 8th light body guided meditation of Radiance: self exciting expanded and it went well. I could feel the resonance that i usually feel 24/7, except for short periods of time. Except it kicked into super high gear during the meditation, even more so when I rested with my hands facing upwards. It literally made my teeth ache towards the end and gave me a slight pressure headache that went away once the meditation ended and the ache in my teeth did also. When Daben did his vocalizations it was the usual, not just the feel of energy he was sending me but also the usual intense non sexual pleasure. hard to describe. I visualized my fullonia light, solar radiance, going up to the entire universe, and I again felt like part of me was outside the universe, which I remembered part of 1 of my 2 channelings last night, not sure if I remembered to put it down. that our (my male dolphin self (non earth and he's often in anthro form) did say our true self did dwell outside time, outside space where time and space have no meaning.
I also mentally heard my true self or some aspect of it say to me during the meditation, "The thing about being incarnated on earth is the energy has a certain key that can benefit those incarnated on earth, humans, animals, plants. if we were not incarnated we could just stream the energies into Gaia directly but it would not benifit those of the earth collective life, humans, animals, plants. "
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On the advice of an online friend I'll take a break from doing any more light body stuff and I'll stay away from doing any more of the radiance stuff I have. Friday I think I'll start doing an Awaken the Light Body Expanded and see how it goes. if it goes ok I'll try doing it 3 times next week, Monday, Wednesday, & Friday. I also ordered first 2 parts of the Gateway course. managed to find the first 2 used on amazon for half the price of 1 brand new and it says it's new. The seller has a very good rating, which I won't buy from anyone who's under 98%. So I'll do those too. I'll try those I think once a day and maybe do each audio either 5 days before I go to the next one or maybe 7 days, 1 full week. depending on how I do it if I do it 5 days before I switch to the next one I'll take 6 months to do the 6 parts, but if I do each audio for a week then it'll take 9 months to finish the whole 6 part course.
Looking over my records on a forum of my posts it looks like this messed up sleep happened every day starting at the 11th of this month. I recall late September it happened but was milder compared to this. So it could be a combination of the genetics of this body, the fact I'm a type of star, from what I've been told so maybe that means I generate certain frequencies, certain frequencies have reached earth that have not before so all that combined may mean if I try to increase my radiance with one of Orin or Daben's courses pushes the energy past the healthy or safe levels that this human body can take. maybe just passive may keep it within the safe levels. not sure about the awaken the light body expanded or being your divine self. The awaken the light body expanded I already bought a month ago so I'll give it a slow try. The being your divine self I won't think about buying till January at the earliest since I figure 2 months should be enough time to see if I want to get that one or not since if I were to buy just 1 more course that is the one that interests me out of all the other courses I've not gotten yet.
The gateway course from my research seems to be about relaxing the mind and body, deepening your trance, doing some inner work and stuff with energy, later in the latter courses meeting non physical friends, i guess they mean guides, higher self that sort of thing. No idea if I'll be able to project with that but I figure even if it just helps me to do some inner work, some energy stuff, unless I notice side effects and stay away from that, deepening my meditative trance, and maybe being an even more clear channel, may be interesting. interesting that when I asked since I felt I was being nudged towards the Gateway stuff they said that I'm at the right point to benefit fro doing the Gateway Course. I guess since the Light Body Courses I've done up to that point have helped with getting me more clear, aware, or other things.
I'll continue to channel or whatever it is that I do when I mentally talk to the ones I talk to and type up our conversation. During some of the Light Body courses I've been taking over the past3 or more months I have occationally found myself in 2 places at the same time, both in the body and elsewhere also.
If can project my consciousness it would be neat to be able to meet some of the ones I've been talking to and getting mental images of and some physical impressions of when they touch me like sometimes I'm 10 or 20% there. So maybe I can be like 100% in both locations, or be 20% here & 80% there. but if not that is ok. I'm sure even if the Gateway course doesn't do that it'll still help in various other ways.
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also almost forgot. Had a dream where I was a dragon in a human body on earth and didn't understand any of the customs or ways of earth. Don't recall much about the dream but that.
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
166 Male Dolphin Me [tue 10-20]
Me: so if we are 2 different selves of the same multi dimensional being. I assume our resonance is already in perfect match. Could it get closer?
male dolphin me <said in a mental voice that sounds sexually alluring>: well dear, we are 2 different selves of the same being. While our resonance does match, we can grow closer together and it can match even more. It may sound like a contradiction but it really isn't.
Me: wow, .... I'd be glad to explore that with you. I thought our relationship was one that could not get any better.
male dolphin me: oh no my dear. It can. our relationship an grow deeper, and our resonance can match even more, even though we are 2 different selves of the same multi dimensional being. It's not a contradiction dear, nor a paradox. our relationship can grow as deep as we want and allow it to be. Some selves can get closer then others. Like say the 2 of us and a reptilian us can get very close, become the deepest of lovers. whereas you and other may be friends or acquaintances with benefits, or just remain acquaintances.
me: that is interesting. and I'm sure you'd not mind us exploring that, becoming deep lovers if possible.
Male dolphin me: of course I'd not mind. we do love being intimate with ourselves, and the relationship you have with ourselves is the basis of the sorts you can have with others, and your level of self awareness also. among other things too.
Me: Interesting that we can get closer resonance the other selves of us. Makes sense that others can reach perfect resonance with us and become part of the same resonance being while each remains their own personality as a being. Not the right terms in English for what I want to say but you know what I mean.
male dolphin me: indeed. We can become the deepest of lovers and have an even closer resonance, though you don't have to do that with all of us, and others can indeed reach perfect resonance with us. Sara has, Sam too. Others are willing to reach perfect resonance with you, C, Gaia, Levi, and others. the reptilian being's higher reflection, his, sometimes her, true full self, is one of the lovers of our full self and it, and some lower reflections are lovers with us also.
Me: that is interesting. what is the deal with Treb popping up to say a sentence to me now and then? it's not like I'm best friend with Rob who channels him. not that I mind.
male dolphin me: he's good friends with some of us. that's why he's contacted you from time to time. Also we do have very strong ties with reptilians, being part progenitor reptilian ourselves.
me: makes sense. I just wish my sleep wasn't all messed up. But I'm sorta getting half way kinda use to it and sorta not able to at the same time.
male dolphin me: it us due to the frequencies that are currently on the earth. You'll not have to suffer for to long. all the more reason to get you to this side. Though all in good time. things do have to check out. part of the problem, well the main reasons are, your DNA is highly non human, our energy is totally alien to the earth and we are VERY alien to the low density that earth currently resides in. We normally don't go anywhere near that density.
me: I am excited about returning home. I do hope I don't have to wait to long from earth reckoning.
male dolphin me: You won't.
me: I guess just as our full self is multi dimensional, we are too.
male dolphin me: indeed, we both are. that is how once you're here Chad can manifest if he wishes. and he'll be multidimensional too, just as we are, our true self, and on back all the way to source.
me: it is a benefit to us that we're a sexual being and love being intimate with ourselves.
male dolphin me: yes, far more fun for us, among other benefits too. Like learning more of yourself, more awareness of yourself, ourselves really. Other benefits too, but I'll let you discover the fun surprises when you are on this side.
Believe me we'll get much better acquainted over time, especially when you're here. and with some others you've not met and those you have. Lots of fun for you.
Me: so will I just transition back home or will some other mechanism be used?
male dolphin me: well, there are several ways. One is you can transition back to your, our, native level. then rest here. others are some can come and take you back, that is the most common used and the easiest on everyone. that someone can be or look like a vehicle instead of a person and the vehicle could have
Me: so will I return to the place our true self lives, or somewhere else?
male dolphin me: it depends both on your personal level of awareness, choice and what our full self wanted before the incarnation started. His plan was, if you are willing, to return to his level and home, rest and recover, then talk to him and decide what comes next with no pressure at all.
male dolphin me <said in a mental voice that sounds sexually alluring>: well dear, we are 2 different selves of the same being. While our resonance does match, we can grow closer together and it can match even more. It may sound like a contradiction but it really isn't.
Me: wow, .... I'd be glad to explore that with you. I thought our relationship was one that could not get any better.
male dolphin me: oh no my dear. It can. our relationship an grow deeper, and our resonance can match even more, even though we are 2 different selves of the same multi dimensional being. It's not a contradiction dear, nor a paradox. our relationship can grow as deep as we want and allow it to be. Some selves can get closer then others. Like say the 2 of us and a reptilian us can get very close, become the deepest of lovers. whereas you and other may be friends or acquaintances with benefits, or just remain acquaintances.
me: that is interesting. and I'm sure you'd not mind us exploring that, becoming deep lovers if possible.
Male dolphin me: of course I'd not mind. we do love being intimate with ourselves, and the relationship you have with ourselves is the basis of the sorts you can have with others, and your level of self awareness also. among other things too.
Me: Interesting that we can get closer resonance the other selves of us. Makes sense that others can reach perfect resonance with us and become part of the same resonance being while each remains their own personality as a being. Not the right terms in English for what I want to say but you know what I mean.
male dolphin me: indeed. We can become the deepest of lovers and have an even closer resonance, though you don't have to do that with all of us, and others can indeed reach perfect resonance with us. Sara has, Sam too. Others are willing to reach perfect resonance with you, C, Gaia, Levi, and others. the reptilian being's higher reflection, his, sometimes her, true full self, is one of the lovers of our full self and it, and some lower reflections are lovers with us also.
Me: that is interesting. what is the deal with Treb popping up to say a sentence to me now and then? it's not like I'm best friend with Rob who channels him. not that I mind.
male dolphin me: he's good friends with some of us. that's why he's contacted you from time to time. Also we do have very strong ties with reptilians, being part progenitor reptilian ourselves.
me: makes sense. I just wish my sleep wasn't all messed up. But I'm sorta getting half way kinda use to it and sorta not able to at the same time.
male dolphin me: it us due to the frequencies that are currently on the earth. You'll not have to suffer for to long. all the more reason to get you to this side. Though all in good time. things do have to check out. part of the problem, well the main reasons are, your DNA is highly non human, our energy is totally alien to the earth and we are VERY alien to the low density that earth currently resides in. We normally don't go anywhere near that density.
me: I am excited about returning home. I do hope I don't have to wait to long from earth reckoning.
male dolphin me: You won't.
me: I guess just as our full self is multi dimensional, we are too.
male dolphin me: indeed, we both are. that is how once you're here Chad can manifest if he wishes. and he'll be multidimensional too, just as we are, our true self, and on back all the way to source.
me: it is a benefit to us that we're a sexual being and love being intimate with ourselves.
male dolphin me: yes, far more fun for us, among other benefits too. Like learning more of yourself, more awareness of yourself, ourselves really. Other benefits too, but I'll let you discover the fun surprises when you are on this side.
Believe me we'll get much better acquainted over time, especially when you're here. and with some others you've not met and those you have. Lots of fun for you.
Me: so will I just transition back home or will some other mechanism be used?
male dolphin me: well, there are several ways. One is you can transition back to your, our, native level. then rest here. others are some can come and take you back, that is the most common used and the easiest on everyone. that someone can be or look like a vehicle instead of a person and the vehicle could have
Me: so will I return to the place our true self lives, or somewhere else?
male dolphin me: it depends both on your personal level of awareness, choice and what our full self wanted before the incarnation started. His plan was, if you are willing, to return to his level and home, rest and recover, then talk to him and decide what comes next with no pressure at all.
165 Male Dolphin Me [Tues 10-20]
Me: I think I recall some of how soul groups, soul families work. What some earth humans call twin flames, one can be in more then 1. Soul families & groups can be based on who you're in a relationship with, especially a deep one, also some of those who have the same being or beings who created them.
Like a and b could be twin flames with each other but also with a with c and d, b with e and f. So that could be the same soul group or family, even though b is not a twin flame or very deep resonance with c or d.
Also to add to the complexity of multi dimensional selves, a3 may be lovers and very deep relationship and deep resonance with c3, and d6.
B2 with e5 and f5, and with b5 as well. b4 could be with c5. b4 with b6 and 7.
male dolphin: indeed. and say of A5 and G4 are lovers they can, over time grow in resonance till they join the family. also say G may be in A's soul family but also in another one since they may reach very deep resonance with L's soul family too. It grows and changes over time. Some may leave and other join it, some will remain for eternity.
Also those that reach a very deep resonance or even perfect resonance can join in to be the same being, but each can be separate personalities. so 1 being, since they have the same resonance, but separate personalities at the same time. Like you and Sara. Not the same relationship that we are in since we are the same being. you and Sara, well actually us and Sara reached the same resonance, perfect match. We are the same multidimensional being, you and me, but Sara and us are the same resonance being, though she has her own personality. You and we can reach the same perfect resonance with others and we have. Though all this is a more complicated concept for many on earth at this moment in time.
Also you could be separate from our same multidimensional being and go your own way, either immediately or it can happen over time.
Some relationships we are in do wish to be in a relationship with you as well as they are with some of us, and some like Gaia wish to be in one with you, and the rest of us are extras. Some relationships are permanent, some may fade after a time, others may come and go, ebb and flow, wax and wane, over time.
Though yes if 2, say you and Gaia, remain in your passionate relationship, the 2 of you will grow in closer and closer resonance and indeed you and Gaia may one day reach perfect resonance in your relationship. There are some beings you've met who are well on the way to that and are ok if it happens.
me: I see, so like A2 & b5 may have that happen then?
male dolphin me: indeed. Though we are the same multi dimensional being, we can deepen our resonance and relationship too, as unusual as that may sound.
But indeed you may be in very deep relationships with other beings and us also. We can have our resonance grow closer, deeper though we are 2 different beings of the same multi dimensional beings. You and say Gaia can reach that one day also, matching resonance.
me: what of C, feels like hers is pretty close to matching ours and Levi and certain others.
Male dolphin me: indeed, she, sometimes a male, is in a relationship with more then 1 of us and our resonances to match. Levi also, though it doesn't match as much as C's does at present that is changing. the reptile being that is at the same level as our full self is is also. So relationships between beings can get pretty complicated indeed, between the different beings as well as the separate selves that make up the same multi dimensional selves, each of those selves with each other and with other beings. it can get quite complicated indeed but I think we've discussed it enough so you understand it.
me: indeed I do believe I do. It does feel pretty complicated for the level most beings of earth are at.
male dolphin: indeed it is, but you, we, are not at their level. We are one of those incarnated on earth who's above, well above, the averate level of the native earth souls & beings, and many of the non native earth beings who are incarnated on the earth.
There are some who do wish to deepen their relationships with you. Like me for one, others, Gaia of course, C, and the others you've met, some you have not. We, and you, are in actuality in relationships with some planetary, solar (sun), beings, and some like galactic beings, you'll meet most of them later. You have met 1, the reptilian being, and one of it's selves, the snake being who has aspects and selves who are a planetary being and a sun being.
You'll learn even more of those over time and especially when you are here, Some do indeed wish to be in a relationship with you.
Feel free to post this, then we talk later on tonight.
Me: thanks. makes me even more excited about being on the other side.
male dolphin me: indeed, since this is your true home and state of being, not being incarnated, especially on a place as dense as the earth, we normally don't go anywhere near where densities like where the earth is.
male Dolphin Me: you are not long there supposed to be. You are supposed to be soon on this level, though as to when I can't say at the moment. Won't be able to be until maybe when it's within a day or after though if we told you its within a day it may mess up things so even then we'd not say. I do wish we could say since you are not supposed to be there for long after phase 2 gets under way, believe me multiple of us are checking and looking into that to be sure everything goes smoothly in regard to that.
me: thanks, though I don't hate being incarnated here, I greatly prefer being on the other side since that feels more like were I belong rather then being incarnated here. But I'll stop here and post and take a break. talk to you later tonight.
male dolphin me: indeed.
Like a and b could be twin flames with each other but also with a with c and d, b with e and f. So that could be the same soul group or family, even though b is not a twin flame or very deep resonance with c or d.
Also to add to the complexity of multi dimensional selves, a3 may be lovers and very deep relationship and deep resonance with c3, and d6.
B2 with e5 and f5, and with b5 as well. b4 could be with c5. b4 with b6 and 7.
male dolphin: indeed. and say of A5 and G4 are lovers they can, over time grow in resonance till they join the family. also say G may be in A's soul family but also in another one since they may reach very deep resonance with L's soul family too. It grows and changes over time. Some may leave and other join it, some will remain for eternity.
Also those that reach a very deep resonance or even perfect resonance can join in to be the same being, but each can be separate personalities. so 1 being, since they have the same resonance, but separate personalities at the same time. Like you and Sara. Not the same relationship that we are in since we are the same being. you and Sara, well actually us and Sara reached the same resonance, perfect match. We are the same multidimensional being, you and me, but Sara and us are the same resonance being, though she has her own personality. You and we can reach the same perfect resonance with others and we have. Though all this is a more complicated concept for many on earth at this moment in time.
Also you could be separate from our same multidimensional being and go your own way, either immediately or it can happen over time.
Some relationships we are in do wish to be in a relationship with you as well as they are with some of us, and some like Gaia wish to be in one with you, and the rest of us are extras. Some relationships are permanent, some may fade after a time, others may come and go, ebb and flow, wax and wane, over time.
Though yes if 2, say you and Gaia, remain in your passionate relationship, the 2 of you will grow in closer and closer resonance and indeed you and Gaia may one day reach perfect resonance in your relationship. There are some beings you've met who are well on the way to that and are ok if it happens.
me: I see, so like A2 & b5 may have that happen then?
male dolphin me: indeed. Though we are the same multi dimensional being, we can deepen our resonance and relationship too, as unusual as that may sound.
But indeed you may be in very deep relationships with other beings and us also. We can have our resonance grow closer, deeper though we are 2 different beings of the same multi dimensional beings. You and say Gaia can reach that one day also, matching resonance.
me: what of C, feels like hers is pretty close to matching ours and Levi and certain others.
Male dolphin me: indeed, she, sometimes a male, is in a relationship with more then 1 of us and our resonances to match. Levi also, though it doesn't match as much as C's does at present that is changing. the reptile being that is at the same level as our full self is is also. So relationships between beings can get pretty complicated indeed, between the different beings as well as the separate selves that make up the same multi dimensional selves, each of those selves with each other and with other beings. it can get quite complicated indeed but I think we've discussed it enough so you understand it.
me: indeed I do believe I do. It does feel pretty complicated for the level most beings of earth are at.
male dolphin: indeed it is, but you, we, are not at their level. We are one of those incarnated on earth who's above, well above, the averate level of the native earth souls & beings, and many of the non native earth beings who are incarnated on the earth.
There are some who do wish to deepen their relationships with you. Like me for one, others, Gaia of course, C, and the others you've met, some you have not. We, and you, are in actuality in relationships with some planetary, solar (sun), beings, and some like galactic beings, you'll meet most of them later. You have met 1, the reptilian being, and one of it's selves, the snake being who has aspects and selves who are a planetary being and a sun being.
You'll learn even more of those over time and especially when you are here, Some do indeed wish to be in a relationship with you.
Feel free to post this, then we talk later on tonight.
Me: thanks. makes me even more excited about being on the other side.
male dolphin me: indeed, since this is your true home and state of being, not being incarnated, especially on a place as dense as the earth, we normally don't go anywhere near where densities like where the earth is.
male Dolphin Me: you are not long there supposed to be. You are supposed to be soon on this level, though as to when I can't say at the moment. Won't be able to be until maybe when it's within a day or after though if we told you its within a day it may mess up things so even then we'd not say. I do wish we could say since you are not supposed to be there for long after phase 2 gets under way, believe me multiple of us are checking and looking into that to be sure everything goes smoothly in regard to that.
me: thanks, though I don't hate being incarnated here, I greatly prefer being on the other side since that feels more like were I belong rather then being incarnated here. But I'll stop here and post and take a break. talk to you later tonight.
male dolphin me: indeed.
Tues 10-20
I slept a total of 1.5 hours, from 12:30am to 2am. I'll likely get more sleep eventually. pretty miserable being sleepy and in a body that refuses to go to sleep even when it does need sleep and is sleepy.
I did briefly talk to the male dolphin me, him being in a anthro form. Not sure if he just switched to that, if it's a form he likes or a past incarnation. but it is another me, multi dimensional self. I can feel his sort of mental presence, hard to explain, and that of Treb's too, no idea why in Treb's case. Unless I'm imaging things I do think I remember I have some sort of connection to Treb but I can't remember what it is.
the male dolphin me showed me how our love is, it's the center of our being. it's not just that we do love or are loving beings but love is at the center of our being. he showed me by doing a hug and caress while we kissed, an enjoyable way of doing that. We also talked about it's natural for us to love each other as deeply as we do since we are the same being, we enjoy being intimate with ourselves, being friends, lovers and all that.
We also talked what earth would be like in say 100 years. Like one example he said to me was a typical morning for, let's name a couple Joe Winslow and Jane Winslow. They do the typical morning stuff, not to unlike humans do today in America. Though their breakfasts are let's say coffee or some other drink and say biscuits with say an omelet or whatever it is. they don't eat their breakfast at home. they do so in their car since it is self driving and roads are not 2d like today but 3d. the height of them limited to say the height of say 100 feet or somesuch. Though I do assume brands of cars may be on roads only, we didn't discuss that.
So Joe and Jane can eat their breakfasts in their car while it drives, they can watch tv while doing that, talking also. This lets them sleep a bit later since they don't need to eat breakfast at home, eating it in the car lets them sleep a bit later. Say jane gets off at work first then the car drives to drop Joe off. Since say jane gets off work first once Joe is out of the car after a certain time passes it may drive itself over to where jane's work is and send a message to their equivalent of a cellphone so she can find it when she gets off of work. The homes are run by computers so will adjust their temperatures and light levels and such shortly before they are due home. not only based on the time but they can communicate with the car as well as well as turning on the tv if they like to watch tv, just before they open the door. Sounds neat for those then, though I've no interest in incarnating. as I've mentioned before incarnating may have certain fun aspects but overall there is to much of hassle of various types, and it doesn't interest me that much really. He, the male dolphin me, did a sort of smile, i could feel it in his energy, and he said he understands since he feels the same way, many of us do he said, meaning most of my other selves. No real interest in incarnating, though it has fun aspects, it has to many annoying elements and aspects and we are really not interested.
and about that description he gave me, he said it wasn't the 100% future, just the most likely future say around 100 years of a typical weekday morning for a typical American. Or i guess other places like Canadian, British, Australian, ect.
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I did the 7th radiance: self exciting expanded guided meditation for the first time today and I think overal it went well. I could feel the fullonia and solar light light filling the universe and part of me was outside the universe, maybe most of me or my true self, not sure of the details. I could also feel that incarnating isn't my thing, it's not for me. Some of me doesn't like incarnating and incarnating isn't their thing like me, and the male dolphin other self me.
I can feel how something may have fun aspects to it, but not be my thing.
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I did it for the 2nd time today & it went well. I felt like I was floating in the light body cocoon and light body light, hard to describe. I could feel part of me is outside the universe and the light body cocoon and the light body light, solar radiance and fullonia light was capable of covering the entire universe. I also had a brief conversation with the dolphin me.
Me: so is the 4th density or whatever it's called body just manifested whenever I want or need it or do I store it somewhere like in my energy field energy systems or whatever it's called?
male dolphin me: well one can do either way. it depends on personal choice preference and with some how often they'll be using that sort of body. For example if you stay mainly in the formless areas and only occasionally venture into the areas with form, the physicality areas, then some prefer to just manifest a body as needed. Others who frequently visit such places and levels of being find it handier to just store the same body. it's really personal choice and preference.
me: So it's the source self and then the body is used around that, inter meshed into the body to use it's various senses most effectively?
Male dolphin me: yes, that is how it works. once one, the source self as you call it, is properly inter-meshed and for beings at our levels or being this can be done faster then an instant, one can experience the various senses directly.
Also during it it was like part of me was showing me some of the joys and fun things about being incarnated. I did feel it did have fun aspects and qualities, but isn't for me, not my thing, to many annoyances. but I do better understand why some may want to incarnate, as well as I felt also the part of me that did this was showing me to also let me see if I would really want to incarnate or choose never to incarnate and I'd be making the decision from a point of information rather then just making it.
I did briefly talk to the male dolphin me, him being in a anthro form. Not sure if he just switched to that, if it's a form he likes or a past incarnation. but it is another me, multi dimensional self. I can feel his sort of mental presence, hard to explain, and that of Treb's too, no idea why in Treb's case. Unless I'm imaging things I do think I remember I have some sort of connection to Treb but I can't remember what it is.
the male dolphin me showed me how our love is, it's the center of our being. it's not just that we do love or are loving beings but love is at the center of our being. he showed me by doing a hug and caress while we kissed, an enjoyable way of doing that. We also talked about it's natural for us to love each other as deeply as we do since we are the same being, we enjoy being intimate with ourselves, being friends, lovers and all that.
We also talked what earth would be like in say 100 years. Like one example he said to me was a typical morning for, let's name a couple Joe Winslow and Jane Winslow. They do the typical morning stuff, not to unlike humans do today in America. Though their breakfasts are let's say coffee or some other drink and say biscuits with say an omelet or whatever it is. they don't eat their breakfast at home. they do so in their car since it is self driving and roads are not 2d like today but 3d. the height of them limited to say the height of say 100 feet or somesuch. Though I do assume brands of cars may be on roads only, we didn't discuss that.
So Joe and Jane can eat their breakfasts in their car while it drives, they can watch tv while doing that, talking also. This lets them sleep a bit later since they don't need to eat breakfast at home, eating it in the car lets them sleep a bit later. Say jane gets off at work first then the car drives to drop Joe off. Since say jane gets off work first once Joe is out of the car after a certain time passes it may drive itself over to where jane's work is and send a message to their equivalent of a cellphone so she can find it when she gets off of work. The homes are run by computers so will adjust their temperatures and light levels and such shortly before they are due home. not only based on the time but they can communicate with the car as well as well as turning on the tv if they like to watch tv, just before they open the door. Sounds neat for those then, though I've no interest in incarnating. as I've mentioned before incarnating may have certain fun aspects but overall there is to much of hassle of various types, and it doesn't interest me that much really. He, the male dolphin me, did a sort of smile, i could feel it in his energy, and he said he understands since he feels the same way, many of us do he said, meaning most of my other selves. No real interest in incarnating, though it has fun aspects, it has to many annoying elements and aspects and we are really not interested.
and about that description he gave me, he said it wasn't the 100% future, just the most likely future say around 100 years of a typical weekday morning for a typical American. Or i guess other places like Canadian, British, Australian, ect.
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I did the 7th radiance: self exciting expanded guided meditation for the first time today and I think overal it went well. I could feel the fullonia and solar light light filling the universe and part of me was outside the universe, maybe most of me or my true self, not sure of the details. I could also feel that incarnating isn't my thing, it's not for me. Some of me doesn't like incarnating and incarnating isn't their thing like me, and the male dolphin other self me.
I can feel how something may have fun aspects to it, but not be my thing.
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I did it for the 2nd time today & it went well. I felt like I was floating in the light body cocoon and light body light, hard to describe. I could feel part of me is outside the universe and the light body cocoon and the light body light, solar radiance and fullonia light was capable of covering the entire universe. I also had a brief conversation with the dolphin me.
Me: so is the 4th density or whatever it's called body just manifested whenever I want or need it or do I store it somewhere like in my energy field energy systems or whatever it's called?
male dolphin me: well one can do either way. it depends on personal choice preference and with some how often they'll be using that sort of body. For example if you stay mainly in the formless areas and only occasionally venture into the areas with form, the physicality areas, then some prefer to just manifest a body as needed. Others who frequently visit such places and levels of being find it handier to just store the same body. it's really personal choice and preference.
me: So it's the source self and then the body is used around that, inter meshed into the body to use it's various senses most effectively?
Male dolphin me: yes, that is how it works. once one, the source self as you call it, is properly inter-meshed and for beings at our levels or being this can be done faster then an instant, one can experience the various senses directly.
Also during it it was like part of me was showing me some of the joys and fun things about being incarnated. I did feel it did have fun aspects and qualities, but isn't for me, not my thing, to many annoyances. but I do better understand why some may want to incarnate, as well as I felt also the part of me that did this was showing me to also let me see if I would really want to incarnate or choose never to incarnate and I'd be making the decision from a point of information rather then just making it.
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