Sat 10-10

had a series of very short dreams, no idea what they mean. 

In the first there were some actors from classic star trek who were in a room joking around and mentioned how they had died.  one of them asked how I had and I said this was my first time there.  one of them said not to listen then I'd been there 5 times and always said that.  I then somehow knew I was dreaming and attempted to awaken, failed.  said somehow this happens, I tried again and as it was working one of them said don't go but I kept on and finally did.  for some reason it's hard and always take shere willpower to awaken.

In another I was walking along and wound up walking in the woods and wound up near a school in the woods where I could hear some kids laughing and in the dream I remember thinking why am I back here again, where those kids who picked on me are here and I awoke (a false awakening)  then I thought I'll go ask anne, she can often tell what dreams mean that I have.  I then remembered how I often me with Anne.  (odd since I know no Anne in rl)  this seemed to be an old time setting based on the dress styles and the lack of any technological deices around. 

I went to go to where add was and her mother commented she was going up to see Anne also. I knew I'd have to hurry to beat her since she's a mean woman. I went into the stairs and saw someone on the stairs that looked dead but when I shook them I saw it was a terrified girl who ran off.  There were a man and woman coming down the stairs.  For them it was regular stairs but when I used them it was a struggle and was very exhausting to make my way up, having to pull myself up by my arms, very exhausting. i finally made it up to the next floor and had enough strength to push up the trap door type opening and poke my head through. Anne's governess, or whatever she was asked why I had come nd I said to ask if Anne had any idea what the dreams meant.  the Governess said to wait a moment she'd go and ask Anne.  I struggled to get up to where I could set on the next floor landing and was about half way there when her governess came back and said Anne had no more insight then I already had.  I then said I know nothing and I'll just force myself to awaken and ignore the dreams like I always do since I never have any idea what they mean. I then started to use the shear will force to force myself to awaken and it was working the first time this time.  Though just before I left I heard Anne say Wait. 

No idea what those dreams mean and since I have no idea, and never have any idea what my dreams may be trying to say, if anything.  I'll just ignore them and continue.  If they want to give me a message they'll need someone or a narrator tell me.

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I did the 4th solar light guided meditation today for the 1st time and it went ok, nothing special.  The area or question I picked was when will I be returning home,when will this incarnation be ending.  later on in the meditation I got 2 answers.  "in 5 years."  "or less".  so that is something.

most of the meditation went meh since parts of it I didn't understand what Orin was talking about and I did what I always do and what those I channel said when I asked them, I just ignore it and move on.  I used the time to rest to do some other things.  One thing I did was I merged with the divine light and with another me. or was it some energy another me sent, I'm not sure.  Orin said to imagine a room I was in, which Did and for some reason where ever this room was it had dildos of various species around, various sentient species.  I just mentally shrugged and continued, not seeing anything in the room for me. 

overall a meh meditation, but no biggie, not all of them can be great and super great ones.

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I did the meditation for the 2nd time today and it went better then the 1st time I did it.  I asked the same question and got the same answer, 5 years or less.

I went pretty deep a few times during this meditation.  I could feel the solar radiance entering my physical, emotional and mental bodies, clearing them and so forth.  At the point of where I was supposed to imagine and have the intent of the Solar light entering into me and I'd start to increase my radiance, I added in the the light frequencies of source would do the same, adding to the frequencies that I radiate, also if I do have the frequency or frequencies of light of some angelic or galactic angelic type being, that would be increased also.  overall I guess it went ok, I can't really tell.  Towards the end I added in the imagination and intent to send out some energy to myself throughout today and the next week, to among other things help me to go to sleep much faster, so I'd get more of a normal sleep.  as well as even more good luck.