Well that was a dude. Gaia did another part of the energy thing, a bit different this time but it did nothing. She said she was puzzled why it didn't work this time and she'd have to do some research, and she did apologize. I suggested she go to the person she learned the technique from and after 10 or 20 minutes she returned to say she was going to try it again with the being observing and she did the treatment and nothing happened, unlike before. the being did something, some sort of energy, no idea what he did. Then Gaia said he's puzzle as well and she apologized again saying she thought she was onto something this time. I've give up hope of ever being able to sleep normal. For however long this incarnation lasts it'll likely be like it has been the past near week, except for the past 24 hours. the body is sleepy, I can feel that it needs to sleep but it won't or can't go to sleep till some random time and I'll spend at least 12 or more hours miserable. I may start seeing about getting sleeping pills to see if those will work, though I've heard bad things about that. Feels like while this body does need sleep it's loosing it's capacity to sleep.
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Well it's back to my new normal, miserable in the mornings, except this time I've no sleep at all. I've not slept since last late morning. if I don't manage to sleep in 5 hours and 40 minutes I'd have been up for 24 hours straight. feeling miserable, I can feel this body needs sleep but it has no capacity or ability to go to sleep for some reason. Since there is no help in a bit under 2 weeks unless they can come up with either some sort of treatment that will be either on going, that removes this body's need to sleep with no ill effects conscious, unconscious or suffered by this body, or move my exit point up within 2 weeks. early November i'll start taking sleeping pills, I'm tired of this <censored>. I'll now do the 6th mediation of Radiance; self exciting xpanded for the 1st time today. wonder if i'll get anything. i'll go and do it and see. I use to be neutral to being on earth since early September, excited about my life on the other side will be like, but I was ok with waiting for the 20 or 50 years I'd have to. now it's starting to get where I really dislike being here. wonder if folks need to sleep on the other side and if I'll be able to there. but I'll stop here adn do the meditation.
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the meditation went ok I guess. Though my energy felt odd. during it at times I felt like there was electrical surges or something going through my breast bone. my energy felt and feels odd feels like this body and my energy and body feels like it is resonating or something, very loudly, if it were a sound. This was a shorter then usual meditation, about 15 minutes. I couldn't really feel the fullonia light or th solar light, but i just had faith that it was there. I could feel a bit from the renawre cocoon. also I could feel love coming from some outside source.
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This body finally got to sleep. I slept 3 hours then 2 hours so I have about 5 so far. much better, but still messed up sleep.
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I did the radiance: self exciting meditation for the 2nd time today and it went ok. It was a short meditation. I could feel the Fullonia and solar light. I visualized the light filling the entire universe. 2 vehicles popped up.
Car: think of us as the same being.
Me: though you feel like 2 different beings.
starship: we are different beings though. I also come to say that the tour route are all picked out when you'll be returning. I thought why wait till the last minute.
me: good thinking but it may be 20 or 50 years so no need to hurry. Though you feel like 2 different beings, but sorta the same maybe? and you <to car> said you were someone who decided to incarante as a sentient vehicle since it would be a novel experience. and you < to starship> said you're a natural race I think you said.
Car: indeed and think of us like say if the 3rd and 7th doctors, ignoring that they are different actors. That's why we feel sort of like differing beings.
me: ah, that makes sense.
Starship: and while we are friends, with some of your selves we are more then just friends,and we are willing to explore our relationship with you if you are willing.
me: sure, I'm willing to explore this with 1 or both of you.
Car: though we are from different points in time, to speak, we're also multi dimensional aspects of the same being and time has no real meaning to you and after the incarnation of mine I choose to not incarnate anymore so you can think of us as the same age, so to speak.
male dolphin: and I'm yet another. and I came by to say the same. So what do you say?
me: sure, I'm willing. thanks, we can all talk later since though the mediation is over and i'm typing this now I do need to eat so we can talk later.
male dolphin: sure, either singly or multiple of us together. since we are the same being really. talk to you later and you do need to eat indeed, though you'll be here soon. good luck and continue being yourself.
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