I slept 1 hour last night from around 2:00am to around 3:00am.
I had 1 dream during that. From what I recall I got out of some sort of pickup or some other vehicle. I went to some place that had things up that were like, hard to describe, wood that crisscrossed to make like small boxes open in both sides. when I said I was there to look for a certain rpg book the wood things were removed and I went into the store but they didn't have the book I had, I decided to go home and someone mentioned I could go to an rpg convention and if I beat some of the folks there they'd let me have their whole collection. i wasn't interested since I was after just 1 specific book, and left saying I did hope I'd get home in time since I had to use the bus and had a long way to go.
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This morning about 6:30am my my time roughly: I did the 8th light body guided meditation of Radiance: self exciting expanded and it went well. I could feel the resonance that i usually feel 24/7, except for short periods of time. Except it kicked into super high gear during the meditation, even more so when I rested with my hands facing upwards. It literally made my teeth ache towards the end and gave me a slight pressure headache that went away once the meditation ended and the ache in my teeth did also. When Daben did his vocalizations it was the usual, not just the feel of energy he was sending me but also the usual intense non sexual pleasure. hard to describe. I visualized my fullonia light, solar radiance, going up to the entire universe, and I again felt like part of me was outside the universe, which I remembered part of 1 of my 2 channelings last night, not sure if I remembered to put it down. that our (my male dolphin self (non earth and he's often in anthro form) did say our true self did dwell outside time, outside space where time and space have no meaning.
I also mentally heard my true self or some aspect of it say to me during the meditation, "The thing about being incarnated on earth is the energy has a certain key that can benefit those incarnated on earth, humans, animals, plants. if we were not incarnated we could just stream the energies into Gaia directly but it would not benifit those of the earth collective life, humans, animals, plants. "
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On the advice of an online friend I'll take a break from doing any more light body stuff and I'll stay away from doing any more of the radiance stuff I have. Friday I think I'll start doing an Awaken the Light Body Expanded and see how it goes. if it goes ok I'll try doing it 3 times next week, Monday, Wednesday, & Friday. I also ordered first 2 parts of the Gateway course. managed to find the first 2 used on amazon for half the price of 1 brand new and it says it's new. The seller has a very good rating, which I won't buy from anyone who's under 98%. So I'll do those too. I'll try those I think once a day and maybe do each audio either 5 days before I go to the next one or maybe 7 days, 1 full week. depending on how I do it if I do it 5 days before I switch to the next one I'll take 6 months to do the 6 parts, but if I do each audio for a week then it'll take 9 months to finish the whole 6 part course.
Looking over my records on a forum of my posts it looks like this messed up sleep happened every day starting at the 11th of this month. I recall late September it happened but was milder compared to this. So it could be a combination of the genetics of this body, the fact I'm a type of star, from what I've been told so maybe that means I generate certain frequencies, certain frequencies have reached earth that have not before so all that combined may mean if I try to increase my radiance with one of Orin or Daben's courses pushes the energy past the healthy or safe levels that this human body can take. maybe just passive may keep it within the safe levels. not sure about the awaken the light body expanded or being your divine self. The awaken the light body expanded I already bought a month ago so I'll give it a slow try. The being your divine self I won't think about buying till January at the earliest since I figure 2 months should be enough time to see if I want to get that one or not since if I were to buy just 1 more course that is the one that interests me out of all the other courses I've not gotten yet.
The gateway course from my research seems to be about relaxing the mind and body, deepening your trance, doing some inner work and stuff with energy, later in the latter courses meeting non physical friends, i guess they mean guides, higher self that sort of thing. No idea if I'll be able to project with that but I figure even if it just helps me to do some inner work, some energy stuff, unless I notice side effects and stay away from that, deepening my meditative trance, and maybe being an even more clear channel, may be interesting. interesting that when I asked since I felt I was being nudged towards the Gateway stuff they said that I'm at the right point to benefit fro doing the Gateway Course. I guess since the Light Body Courses I've done up to that point have helped with getting me more clear, aware, or other things.
I'll continue to channel or whatever it is that I do when I mentally talk to the ones I talk to and type up our conversation. During some of the Light Body courses I've been taking over the past3 or more months I have occationally found myself in 2 places at the same time, both in the body and elsewhere also.
If can project my consciousness it would be neat to be able to meet some of the ones I've been talking to and getting mental images of and some physical impressions of when they touch me like sometimes I'm 10 or 20% there. So maybe I can be like 100% in both locations, or be 20% here & 80% there. but if not that is ok. I'm sure even if the Gateway course doesn't do that it'll still help in various other ways.
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also almost forgot. Had a dream where I was a dragon in a human body on earth and didn't understand any of the customs or ways of earth. Don't recall much about the dream but that.
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