This morning I asked Gaia how we met and she said remember and I did remember, though in my mind I saw the event play out and I seemed to be a 3rd person viewpoint instead of first person. But I now remember it 1st person I think maybe too.
Though The blurry bit may be since there are 2 time lines that are both true. Think I sorta understand, and I think paradox's don't apply to souls. So when I was re-created they created a new time line and did a new past. So I have 2 pasts that are both equally valid. I think with souls this is possible.
Anyway it seems that in 1 of them, the new timeline thing I knew that I would be incarnating on earth, I think, so I decided to come and talk to Gaia but I was a bit nervous considering how far above me she was. and it seems when we first met. When I first saw her she and I had some sort of spark or connection that we knew we'd love each other. not sure if we became lovers at that time or if it wasn't till later.
I asked Gaia if that can just happen and she said yes it can. Just like how when I meet someone I can often tell they and I won't get along, and at times I can tell exactly how well we will. I then asked since I had a previous relationship with Maribelle & Spitfire why they asked to be mates with me before and Gaia said that they both wanted to have the fun of courting me again. With Maribelle I think maybe we may have been mates or perhaps were lovers before. With Spitfire I am not sure if we were mates before or not, lovers yes, but not sure about mates. Maribelle I'm not sure if we were mates before or were long time lovers before my incarnation here. not sure on all the details.
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Also not sure if we help clear out each other, me and Gaia but it seems if we share energy, that she does at times when I lay down to rest or nap, or if I do some masturbating, that I do feel better afterwards and feels like there is more energy and its' of a higher vibration or resonance then my energy was before I started. Though I don't go to a physical orgasm I often do feel an energy one, to an extent, sometimes strongly or other times not as strong. it feels that we are sharing pleasure, love, some of our energy and being, hard to describe, though it does fee like maybe I'm not feeling all of it since my senses may be dulled while I'm incarnated here. I can feel that it's not just us using each other, that we both really are sharing love, pleasure, energy, some of our very being. Hard to describe it.
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I did the 8th meditation of part 5. Running the energies went well. Not a lot to say about the main meditation. It was about soul linking and once linked you work on brightening your own energy and theirs, looking for areas that need work. I choose Gaia since I'm here to help her, and the earth human souls, through the shift. Instead of picking a spot to work on I just chose the entire earth to work on to loosen the tight areas, brighten everything. Just general sorta stuff. This time she didn't send me to much erotic stuff, mostly just her calling me her bullphin which I'm starting to get use to, the impression of her female dolphin form, which I do feel strong attraction for, as well as sexual attraction for, though it was much more subdued this time then usual. & her mentioning that once the incarnation is over the real fun can begun, but just a hint of it instead of her saying it this time. I guess it was the reason I was doing the meditation. I think next time i do this I may pick Maribelle, since she and I are mates too. And I may try to do a quick version of the meditation later without audio picking Spitfire and Nagi. In the future I may pick some friends and try that if their souls and selves are willing, or pick random anonymous human who's soul is willing and they are willing, subconsciously if they are not aware. As well as working on myself several times a day.
The meditation also had me work on myself a bit. I had some tightness in the area below my navel, but working on myself I got that done away.
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I think I do understand multi dimensional nature. From what Gaia said. Each person she's with gets her full attention. I figured it was this and how she can have likely so many lovers & mates, likely friends and others. and Each gets her full attention all at the same time.
That is in part of how she can be with me in say a female dolphin form, talking to me mentally, which I know is not coming from her female dolphin form, and I can focus on say sharing, including soul type sharing and sex, with the Gaia's female spirit form, and talk to her at the same time, and still focused on the sex. or be listening to the audio of a guided meditation, listening and talking to Gaia at the same time. Feels like I'm not to good at it. not sure if it's due to the density here. I have to relearn to allow myself to be multi dimensional, less focused on the physical body like during a meditation, or other reasons.
Not sure that I'd like to divide myself up amongst a lot of focuses, or at least not doing it often. maybe like Nagi and I are 1 in 2 bodies. maybe I'd do it now & then, but popping around non linear I think is my preference. Though i do wonder if being multi dimensional becomes natural and what many souls do after a certain point. Though i do feel even then some do it more then others. Some may do it seldom. One can have their attention and or being focusing and doing different things at once, and in different places at once, and each one could be giving it's full attention to 1 thing, thus a multi dimensional soul could be doing a number of things at once & be aware of them all. or is it the main one would focus on one or the other, shifting their awareness quickly, instantly, or that they would be aware of it all at the same instant.
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I did the 8th guided meditation for part 5 of awaken the light body for the 2nd time. This time for the soul linking I picked Maribelle. The resulting experience was different then when I did it with Gaia earlier. Just as intense. Maribelle and I shared a deep intense soul level deep love. Her energies felt fine, like she didn't have any thing I could feel that needed work on, but we did share the deep soul level intense love. it was different then With Gaia for several reasons I think. Among these may be Maribelle doesn't have anything the really needs work on that I can feel. Gaia does, also Gaia may be more multi dimensional then Maribelle is, that is if Maribelle is multi dimensional. She may prefer to be just 1 focus only usually, not in multiple, like Gaia is. And I was just sharing love with Maribelle and feeling of her energy. With Gaia I was doing that as well as more subdued sexual feelings on Gaia's part. Though Maribelle's were mixed in too as I look back at it. There was less of a focus on it. hard to describe. Maybe personal preference and or since she's an individual the experience is different. I expected it would be different with her then with Gaia. With Gaia it felt more complex so to speak, on many levels. Hard to explain what I mean by the more complex, more active complex. hard to explain. With Maribelle the complexity was less active, simpler in certain ways. More relaxed. hard to explain.
It may also be that they are individuals as I said before. Maybe like with Maribelle she does enjoy sharing with me, affection, love, our being, sex, ect, but maybe they are more all equal and more relaxed, and also Gaia enjoys those equally, but she is also more focused on enjoying soul level type sex. So still personal preference type of thing. Also their being individual the experience would be different.
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