I found a chat that talks about some spiritual stuff. But once more I do not fit in there. it's ok. I don't' fit in anywhere on this world. part of being to different and not having the veil and being whatever density I'm at. I'd ask but I really don't mind. I assume it's at least 4d, or maybe higher, the exact number I really don't mind so anything 4+ is ok. The exact number is not important.
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Yes, I did a few test watching on youtube and since the auto defaulted to 240, I had the settings set to never try higher quality. SO youtube is fine. The only maybe problem is I like watching a person who channels about 5 days a week. Though I have not been watching him live. On days like Sunday where there is no livestream I'd watch his show fully live. On other days like Monday , Wednesday, & Friday where I can watch an hour of his channeling before the livestream show I like starts I'd watch him. I figure I can either watch him live now if youtube downgrades it or if does not, I can watch his show archives like before and never watch it live.
I'll try watching a livestream tonight to see how it is. on trying the archives of the livestream it seems to play for about 3 seconds, stops for 3 seconds. Sometimes it stops for good. and I have to press pause play then it rebuffers. Depending if it does this whie the show is live I'll have ot see if i want to watch any livestreaming or quit.
For downloading the light body courses, I'll have to use a download manager since if I download the .zip file of the whole course it would take an hour to download. I like doing that since i can save the .zpi file on an external hdd to access the course later sine that takes up less room then the unzipped file. During that hour I'd use a download manager and listen to a podcast. also if i download certain other things that may take time I may do the same. other youtube stuff I want to download and save I can choose a lower quality, say 480 instead of 720.
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Some of my other mates, Gaia and Maribelle, and Nagi have been nudging me to be with Shalamane. I really can't be but I guess they mean talking to her a bit more and when I do masturbate focus on her most of the time. Marielle said there is a sizable advantage to being with Shalamane more. But she would not say what it is.
My only theory is maybe Shalamane does most of what I do over there so she and I would see each other and be together daily, and my other mates i may see a few times a week at most since they'd be busy doing other stuff, spending time with their familes, friends, other mates (if any) and lovers.
I do wonder if Shalamane is an ensoled being and immortal or if she's an incarnation. Though i think an ensouled being could make or manifest a physical body for themselves. Guess they could have the body be immortal. Though if she is an incarnation i guess she could have the body be unaging with treatments, being healed ect, not sure of that. Im not sure how that works. Do you have any idea or feelings about that or concerning Shalamane.
Not sure when this is over if I'd be an ensouled being who can make or manifest a physical body for myself. maybe convert it to light, teleport somewhere and recreate it. or reshape it into a unicorn. That feels possible as well as having it not age. not sure if that is how it works or if Shalamane is an incarnation, an Ensoulded being or both where her body can just not age or go on forever or if it has a diffident lifespan.
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I was thinking. Except for earth there may be sorta 3 systems. Actually 2.5 systems of beings. 1 could be say an incarnation. The soul intends to be there for a lifespan. The body will die then the soul will go on to other experiences. Another is a soul, in certain areas they can do this, could just manifest a body for themselves and interact like the incarnated beings, remaining as long as they wish, or for a certain mission maybe. A 3rd possibility I think is if one is in an incarnation and they are fully aware and really like what they are doing they could use technology, healing abilities, ect, and expand the livespan to be in-diffident.
Some souls who divide themselves up may choose one of the other 2. Ensouled being who manifests a body or an incarnation that continues in-diffident. This way a soul could continue one life it really enjoys in-diffident and do other things, learn other things as well.
Ones who dislike dividing themselves up may do so occasionally and or they may pick the ensouled with a body and convert it to energy, light maybe, and take it with them if they wish or need to go elsewhere, returning later. Or maybe if it's an incarnation they can put themselves into a trance and project and go do what they want and return later.
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Running the energies and doing the 10th energy went well. Shalamane talked to me briefly during this. she did say she is an incarnation, but her lifespan can be diffident with healing and such. Neat.
She also did the growl again, a mating growl I guess you'd call it. I experienced feeling pleasure, love, affection. My eyes closed and after what seemed to me like a second at most. Then I did the answering growl to her. She said it was a good sign that my instincts were strong indeed. She said considering that I'm incarnated and where I am in my development my instincts could have been weaker and maybe almost non existent. Not sure what it means that my instincts are real, at least my positive royal alpha draconian instincts are.
She also said the mating growls we did is a way to show affection, love, ect since we are mates and we could do the mating dance later once I can be fully with her. She said mates can do this more then once and the mating growl is like the mating biting we did, to show affection, love, tenderness. But the mating grown doesn't require physical contact of course. I can say there is a sexual, erotic element to both as well.
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I do wonder if some can continue an incarnation diffidently. Maybe taking vacations. I can see several ways to take a vacation. go into a trance type and project out for a while. Take the body with you by converting it into light or something. Also perhaps letting the body die, and coming back as say your great grandchild or something like that, assuming there is no veil that comes over one like here.
I think with freedom there is all these systems, though some areas may only have 1 or 2 of them, others may allow all the systems, depending on one's choice.
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I do feel an inner part of me is still excited about the news from yesterday, that my dragoness mother is sharing all her titles with me. Though no idea what any of the titles are or what my duties will be. Though when I talked to her she did say I'd like 99% of it. it's stuff I'd like to do anyway. She said it's not 100% since there's some stuff that comes up now and then that is annoying or a problem, but that happens sometimes with anything. It does include, as I've said before, me having a guardian naga around. Different shifts, since they take shifts. She also just told me I have some positive alpha draconians as guardians but I'm not aware of them. no idea why her sharing her titles with me gets me guardians, nor the other stuff I said.
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my other mates nudge and say I should spend more time with Shalamane, I should focus on her more. But not why I should. Since they all want me to I'll do that. No idea why they all want me to. the only vague clue is Maribelle saying there is a diffident advantage if I do. That she said yesterday.
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Just had Shalamane say that though there was some grumbling, and slight oppisition to my dragoness mother sharing her titles with me, it wasn't that she should not have it was just she should have waited till after this incarnation of mine is over and I had recoperated. Though they know I have no viel and am as aware as i can be at this time, i dont' have access to my full soul memories and knowledge. Though She also said when she reported to them how I responded to her initiating the mating dance that did away with the grumbling that my dragoness mother should have waited. She said to the nagas they just did the human equivalant of shrugging their shoulders like none of them minded. She said she initiated the mating dance, to do a rough translation of what it really means into english, because she did really want us to be mates, and could feel the connection and feelings we have for each other. And when she did the report of how strong my instincts are, the positive alpha draconian instincts are, they were not that did away with the last of the minor opposition. but as I said before it wasn't really any opposition to her sharing her titles with me, just that some felt she should have waited, like i said before. I guess this may be part of what Shalamane meant when she said to me yesterday and or today that there is an advantage (or something like that, don't recall her exact words) to my instincts being that strong.
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Not much to report on the 10th guided mediation of the 5th part of awakening the light body. it went pretty well I think overall. Not sure what the point was but I think it went ok to well.
I did find my sex drive and urges were rather high. The link, or main link or something seems to be with Shalamane. Interesting.
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It is hard indeed to live in a world I don't fit into anywhere. but that is all part of not being a human soul and being incarnated here. I do hope I'm not here for to many more years. Not that I'm depressed or anything. I just hope my incarnation here is due to end within a decade and I can go home.
Though my presence here is likely helping the earth and those incarnating here with the shift, it is hard being incarnated in a world where one does to fit in anywhere. But at least I can talk to folks back home. my mates, soul parents, the 2 that I do talk to. Not that I dislike the other 2 but don't feel I have anything to say to them. at least so far. So that does help.
Not sure if I mentioned it but Shalamane said her normal height is about 20 feet and mine is 18 feet. Not sure if alpha draconians, let along positive ones, are normally that large. She did she is also sometimes at 12 feet so she is less intimidating to other sentient races.
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