I was talking to Gaia a bit this morning and she mentioned stellar beings. I don't remember exactly what she said. it was something about becoming one you need to accumulate a lot of ??? around you, or something like that. Maybe they are a level or a few above whatever one Gaia is at. I asked Nagi and she did say that technically Gaia is above us, more evolved, then we are, but she wouldn't say what density, dimension ect that Gaia is native to nor which one we both are. Not that it really matters, I was just curious. Gaia may have said accumulate a lot of mass around you. And I did get a flash of what that is like. Interesting, but I'm not inclined in that way. Getting to that level of being yes, but not to be a sun, or to incarnate as a sun. Some part of me is maybe interested in that, but the vast majority if me sees that as a huge bother and annoyance, and not fun. and that bit of me that is somewhat interested does say it would be a huge bother so no real interest in being one myself. More like imagining what its like, but don't really want to be one myself.
Since As I've said i feel that the interest in incarnating for me is gone or winding down. I'm more interested in what other options that there are for me, more fun then incarnating since the fun in incarnating has passed. The annoyances have started to outweigh the fun factor so time to move on i feel. Not that it's bad. Some folks incarnate forever. Some move on up to incarnating as planets and stars, galaxies even I feel may be possible. A universe perhaps even. Though one can be a level of that being and be incarnated as a universe, galaxy, star, or planet.
I feel it's like souls at say our level. Some have an interest in incarnating, like say earth humans, some or many what humans would call ET races, and some do not, say unicorns and others. Though some unicorns may be aspects of large beings. it can get complicated. So one could be at a level of being of say a planetary being like Gaia, a stellar being, galaxy or universe and choose to not incarnate and many do not.
Though I do recall when I asked if Gaia is above us, more evolved then we are Nagi was a bit hesitant to say yes, it felt like not that she didn't want to answer. It felt more like the exact answer was like she sorta, kinda is, but sorta kinda not. But if one had to say yes or no then technically yes. Though I'm not sure on the details and she won't say. This could mean a number of things.
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I had some more time with Gaia. I was masturbating and including her, which she did enjoy. I could feel she was in the form of a female dolphin at first, then for the 2nd time a female orca, since I was thinking, wondering what it would be like to share with her with her as a female orca. The first time with her as a female dolphin I did have a non physical energy orgasm and ejaculation. Then did so again with her as a female orca. I was in the male dolphin then orca form myself. This was mental, while I was physically... Though the mental images did feel real too. Hard to describe. Guess we could be in a mental space, like I've done before, while I was here. Sorta dividing my attention so to speak. With most of me here and 10% of me there maybe. hard to describe. it wasn't imagination, since I could feel her and what we were doing.
She and I also had a brief conversation. I mentioned that given her age she must have many mates and she said yes. I asked what was being mates entail, being curious what being mates with her may be like. Her reply was what would I want it to entail, with the diffident feel that she was open to us becoming mates.
I guess her being multi dimensional and non linear means she can be effectively fully with each mate, lover, or friend even if she is with more then 1 at a time. Think I do understand. So if one has say 10, or more, mates, lovers, friends, one won't short change any of them time wise, looking at it from a soul's point of view. Though as for Gaia and me staying with being lovers or mates, I'm willing for either.
I do feel I can equally love all my friends, lovers, mates, and being monogamous is not my thing, it's not me, but if someone wants to be, that is their choice too. maybe that is them, being true to themselves.
After all it is about being true to your true self, what excites you most, what do you find the most fun. That is the true key. not how many lovers or mates I have, not that I'm lovers or mates with x, or I can lift a ton with my mind. But being true to my true self, what excites me the most and what do I find the most fun.
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As for being multi dimensional I feel that the being I am, wouldn't like to be say 50 or more separate selves. But say with twin flame, the part of me not incarnated, it's fine if they remain separate. the 2 of them feel like me, or other aspects of me, hard to say, but Nagi is my other half, or she was till we merged. we're like 1 being in 2 bodies and maybe sorta 2 minds, at least partially. Maybe since being here I can't access her memories & knowledge, nor all of mine, at least not yet. That is ok.
I feel I'd 'not mind being say a handful of selves, if they want to remain separate, like twin flame, the part of me not incarnated that I call soul for convinces sake, I may marge with it when this incarnation is over. We can decide then at the appropriate time. Nagi feels different. She was my other half and now she's not since we are merged, or as much as we can now. Doesn't matter if we are merged fully or not. maybe we are and I'm not fully aware of it yet, or maybe not, it doesn't matter either way.
Being non linear I can do quite a few things, be there for each of my friends, lovers, mates, and no short change any of them.
I also feel I don't really like to divine myself up into say 20 or 100 selves. if some want to be separate that is ok. like if say Chad wants to manifest and be separate when this incarnation so over either permanent or if he wishes to come and go, either is fine. But i wont seek to have 20 or 100 separate selves. Though i do feel some souls do enjoy doing his.
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Labels can be handy but one doesn't need to use labels and labels may not fully identify or provide full information. Like the label mate. The difference between a mate and a lover, at the soul level, I feel is a very blurred area. and mates may also cover different types of relationships. Like 2 mates may do the type of sharing that is like humans hugging and kissing. sex type sharing may come up less often. as well as they may hang out like friends and do fun stuff together and other stuff. Though 2 mates may also do a lot of sex type sharing, as well as showing affection & closeness. So one could use the same label for what may look like 2 different types of relationships.
And the difference between mate and lover being very blurred at the soul point of view fits also. Since those are labels and a label doesn't fully show or express all the information. but labels can be handy, as long as one recognized it may not express all the information. hard to explain what I mean but that is the closest that I can.
Since lovers may have long term commitment to each other, and mates does feel like they decide they do want it to.
I do think I'd like being mates with Gaia, and my 2 mates don't mind.
It may seem odd but some I think put beings like Gaia up on a pedestal and at the core of it, we're all souls, the fact if we incarnate or no doesn't matter, the fact we may incarnate as say in a human body or as a planet doesn't matter. Same if say 1 is native to the 6th or 8th dimension and the other is a 10 or 12d being. Though being lovers or mates with a higher type of being the 6 or 8d being would quickly take on qualities of a 10 or 12d being i think and may become one before the know it. That could indeed be one fun way of growth. Also sharing like the pod does may indeed be another way since if one shares there is a give and take, a true sharing. hard to explain. Both are left with some of the best of the other, so to speak, and sine it is an act of sharing love, a type of love, both benefit in many other positive ways also.
Also being able to be there for others is a trivial matter for souls, or souls who do accept they are non linear beings. So for example I may be in a room where some others are, maybe watching a movie or just hanging out talking for example. I may teleport off, spend a few days with say Gaia, Spitfire, and or Maribelle. Pop back a tenth or a hundredth of a second after I left. And one can say both at one point of view I wasn't gone but far less then a second, but also I was also gone for several days or weeks. And I think that is, perhaps, one example of the non linear nature of souls and what they can do. Though I do feel some souls prefer a more linear type of thing. I'm one that prefers being non linear often.
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Some more examples of the non linear nature of souls is. From my point of view I may be with Maribelle say a few hours most days. But from her point of view she may get busy and not see me for several days at a time. This is once I'm past this incarnation and back home.
Another example is one could have 3 relationships with a soul. They could, while younger, pop back into the past to when their guide is their age and be friends and hang out. Like 2 kids having fun. Also when older they could pop back to when their guide is younger then them and be a guide or secondary guide to them. and also their guide is older then them in their "present time" and a guide to them. Confusing but I think this is possible due to the fact a soul can be non linear and can pop around at will. Not sure if I do something like this, but I'm sure some souls have done it.
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I did the 6th part of part 5 of awaken the light body. Half way through part 5, or I will be once I've done this one once. I'm excited what the experience will be like.
Running the energies went very well. Even got some to the 6th LB energy center.
For this meditation Daben had me pick 1 person I enjoyed spending time with. I decided to pick 3, Maribelle, Spitfire & Gaia, rather then any from the gaming group since I figured whatever may happen they'd be more sensitive to it and if I had to pick, I'd have to pick one of them rather then any of the gaming group, not that I don't like hanging out with them. I see, some of them, once a week.
Then focusing on the Ranthia (lb Heart energy center) while he did the vocalizations for the Fullonia, I did feel the Ranthia stir a bit. Then after a short while he reversed that, having me focus on the Ranthia and the energy did feel different. It was like some of the Fullonia energy had merged or mixed with the Ranthia as well. An interesting experience. I'm not sure of the full reason for it. But it was interesting and for my greater good, even if I can't see in what way now.
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I did part 6 of the 5th part of awakening the light body. Running the energies went fantastic. Had a bit of a very shot conversation with Gaia as Daen was walking, though I was listening to him too. I asked her how she felt about us being mates now and in answer I felt a sort of gentle force around my penis for a second or 2, gently gripping it. I asked how she did that and all I got was a mental impression of her grinning a bit mischievously humorously.
The rest of the meditation went well. My LB heart energy center does feel huge as I've said before. My Fullonia, the first light body center, does feel like it's filling my Renware cocoon fully. This time when I ran the energies the 2nd light body center (different then the Light body energy center) responded very well, the Saha. And this time when I was supposed to pick 1 person, I picked the same 3 as before, Maribelle, Spifire, & Gaia. I also briefly included some of the Thursday group. It felt like it went pretty well.
Also, almost forgot to say. While I was running the energies for the light body energy centers and the 2 light body centers it felt like some of the energy that was pulled in was some of Gaia's energy. I somehow knew that instinctively from the feel. It also had some sexualness sorta feel mixed in, hard to explain but that is the closest I can say. Not low vibration type, but higher vibration like the rest of the energy.
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I do see the simple thing is indeed. What excites you the most, is the most fun. As well as being true to yourself. I do try to do that. Think before I didn't consciously know that and was sorta doing it without thinking. Now that I do consciously remember that I'll try to be doing it till it is second nature to do it, or I can do it without having to think it over to much. That I think is some of the soul knowledge I remembered recently without realizing it consciously. At least at first.
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These are just some thoughts, pondering and wondering that I had tonight and I thought why not type them up. Often I don't type up this stuff, especially if I'm doing something or talking to online friends, which distracts me from typing down my pondering, wondering, contemplations. Though this evening none of my online friends were on, and the livestream I watched was fun, but wasn't one I had to pay close attention to so I typed up my thoughts and such instead. This may give you sorta an idea of what I think of during the day, and evening. Apart from thinking about other stuff liek the tablet games I play, dr who, and other things.
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I felt like I was resonating a lot. Like energy was being streamed into my abdominal area. I lay back in my chair and relaxed and felt that area to see what could be happening. I got the diffident feel it was actually happening all over my body, energy being streamed into me, or whatever the term is. I felt of the energy and felt that I got the idea that it was perhaps Gaia, Nagi, Maribelle, and perhaps Spitfire doing something. If it is them doing something then I'll trust it's for my own greater good and won't look into it since details don't matter really.
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Seems odd how it can be so simple that the main thing is being true to yourself and do what excites you the most. Do what is fun. What is the most fun for you.
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Hmm, just what do I fun fun at the soul level, what excites me. I think I"ll think this over and post it here. Though it'll be incomplete due to my not yet having all my soul knowledge & memories. Which I do hope is inevitable that it'll happen soon, where I'll have all of it.
Sharing is one thing I enjoy, obvious. not just with anyone. My mates, Nagi, likely the part of me that isn't incarnated here. Unless once this is over we merge permanently. Though we may be in the process of me embodying my full self, or as much as this physical body can. My twin flame perhaps, but it feels like we're not as close as before. Though we are parts of the same soul. hard to explain, while Nagi is/was my other half. hard to explain.
Various pod members. Though I've no idea how large the pod is. I'd guess there are some I'm close to, and share with regularly, with perhaps the sharing being some of my very being, a deep sharing. Others it may be less deep that is if one does share less deeply. And some I may just share say now and then, occupationally. Some more often, semi regular. Also some unicorns and other races maybe, if I have friends and lovers among them.
Hanging out with folks, like my mates lovers friends. From some of my memories as a pod member, I'd guess I do some group healing. Working with a group to do some healing. I think I consciously know how to do that.
Also rising as high as I can. That sounds like fun, and I'm doing it here, or maybe more accurately returning to my native level, or as high as I can.
I do wonder if Maribelle, Spitfire, & Gaia were mates of mine before this incarnation, so to speak, and at least Maribelle & Spitfire asking me isn't them moving pretty fast. Maybe since I didn't consciously remember them it was some sort of rule or something, or they thought it may be fun to court me a bit before asking to be mates? I think I got a message from Gaia saying <no, first time for me.> so we weren't mates before.
Not sure what it is, but I must be doing something right, or did something right to get the attention of a planetary level being that they want to be lovers and are willing to be mates with me. I wonder if it may be due to my either deciding I want to have full access to the soul memories and accumulated wisdom of all my soul parents, and or my being re-created and at least 2 of my soul parents are monad level beings, maybe gave me the potential to be a monad level being, or that is my native level now, or it can be my native level. And that sounds cool to be a monad level being. I now wonder what it's like to be a planetary or stellar level of being. Hmm.
Incarnating is a thing that I feel doesn't really appeal to me anymore.
Gaia did say to me once, from one logos to another. Hmm. I had to research what logos was. It is a deity or a deity like being. from what I recall. and she said I'm higher then I suspect, a thing I've been told by more then one being.
While I'm ot sure if I'm a planetary level of being. I do assume and feel there are some that are at that level, or are stellar/star level beings, and not incarnated as a planet nor a star. I may be what some call a monad level of being. not sure where monad relates to a planetary level of being. not that the details matter, just curious.
I also got the term unity consciousness. Not sure what that is, but it could be that the pod is a unity conscious. Maybe part of the planet, or where ever the pod is, but also individuals. Some may no realize this and some may realize, like, I am the planet. It's a soul, I am a part of it, but also an individual. Not sure if this is true or totally wrong. if that is true then I may technically be a part of a planetary logos type being, but also an individual.
Not sure how this relates to what some call a monad, or what Orin & Daben call Divine Self. They may be similar things.
I do feel that me realizing soul and I are 1 being and I'm just the part of it that is incarnated here, but we are still one being, was the first step. Maybe Nagi came along since we're ready for the next step. Realizing I"m at one with a higher type soul. Soul group, monad, divine self, planetary or stellar, or whatever soul, but also an individual at the same time.
One can be a planetary or stellar level of being, or a galaxy perhaps, and not be incarnated as one of those. Though to them it may be like your pinkie up to the knuckle, or your little toe is incarnated as a planet, or star, and the rest of you is free to do as you want.
I think/feel part of me likes the idea of being a planetary and stellar level of being. not sure about incarnating as one, a planet or a star. Don't really want to incarnate anymore, but being at that level of a being does interest me. Not sure what they do for fun. I assume the same as any soul. I feel I could be one of those, at that level , and still be with Maribelle, Spitfire, the pod, and other friends and such. Since it makes sense one can travel to other dimensions and densities. Though I doubt I'd go down past say 5th density, maybe not down past 4th. Not sure how it is for say a 12th level being to visit a 4th or 6th level place. if it is hard or easy.
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I also think. Is a planetary and sun beings, I mean souls that incarnate as a planet or a sun, or galaxy if such exists. Are they different types of souls to say those that incarnate as sentient beings? I feel or know that animal souls are not the same exact type as sentient souls. Though free will being what it is someone who incarnates as a human could incarnate as a animal maybe if they really wanted. I think they could, not sure.
Though back to my original wondering. I do wonder if say gaia and say earth's sun, assuming stars have souls too, are they different types of souls then say one that incarnates as a sentient like me. or are they souls who say evolved up to say the 9th, 10th or whatever dimension, and or density and the ones at that level who do want to incarnate do so as a planet or a star?
and if so what would the soul be like if say Gaia created a soul with one that incarnates as a star or a sentient being like a human or non human.
It could be both ways. Since a soul could be created and it could choose to have both it's soul parents memories or their accumulated wisdom so it could start off as a Gaia level being, or it could evolve and grow into a Gaia or star type being.
Just some more thoughts.
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I still wonder what about me attracted Gaia to me. All she said was it was because of who and what I am. She knows of me and of the pod. A bit vague.
I did remember, sorta, how Maribelle and Spitfire. With Maribelle it was she was a friend of my twin flame first. Who I guess either mentioned me to Maribelle, or she found out and went to meet me, or my twin flame mentioned Maribelle to me, or had us meet, and Spitfire is a friend of Maribelle's, but younger then she is. No idea if I have any other lovers or mates I don't remember. No idea about Gaia apart from what she said. But no biggie. I just wonder but details don't really matter, no harm in being curious and wondering.
I'll go ahead and post since one of my online friends came on and typing this, will be to distracting to do while typing to him and watching videos too.
The awaken the light body course is fun. I wonder where it'll take me once i finish the course, and after I've purchased & done the light body courses I plan on buying and going through. Guess I'll find out eventually.
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