I did do a 2 meditations when I awoke, a clearing blockages one and a violet flame one. These were quick ones and i assume they did do some good.
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Looking over the Orin and Daben website there are other non light body courses that may interest me, but I"ll think later if I want to get those. Once I've finished the light body courses I plan on taking. Then I'll redo all the light body courses once more. This may take a year or year and a half. During that I"ll think about if I want to buy any of those courses or not. I'll be in a better position to know once I'm done with all the light body course, and even better I think once I've gone back over all the light body stuff at least once once I have everything finished.
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I did the 2nd mediation for part 5 and running the energies was pretty meh. Not a surprise since it does happen that the light body energy centers are sluggish to respond. The Fullonia was much more responsive then the light body energy centers were. That I felt like a dullish ache at first but that gave way to waves of energy it felt like, long explosions, I saw 2 flashes of light during this, with my eyes covered and closed. Also towards the end it felt like the waves of energy became more relaxed maybe and constant with a feeling of peace and love type thing. Also It felt like maybe my light body heard and throat centers may be merging maybe. Not sure yet, maybe functioning more in harmony or unison with each other.
It does make me wonder if the dullish sorta ache I felt the few days before in the heart area was maybe the Fullonia starting to awaken or activate.
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I do hope I get all these blocks and such cleared since I don't want to spend the rest of this incarnation clearing blockages. I'd like to spend at least the least few years with all my blockages cleared.
I think in addition to doubt, fear, and worry, which are not really major, unlike before, I seem to have anger/annoyance back. Not sure if that is what was buried and came to the surface as a result of my current development, if some of it was Nagi and those and some that I had became our blockages. they are minor compared to before. Though I do hope these don't take years to clear.
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Scarlett talking about initiation and light quotient has me a bit curious what mine is in both of those.
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I did the changing your thoughts guided meditation and I feel immensely better. I also feel I understand the meditation now that I had missed the other times I listened to it.
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I did the clear blockage guided meditation, the 5 minute one, and this time I picked fear. I do feel different, like some change did happen in my emotional and mental bodies.
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Next I did a mixed of the non audio sub personality combined with changing your thoughts meditations, taking elements from each and combining them into a new meditation. This time I diffidently felt a, surge of energy, and or a surge of something. I think I hit on something since I did feel an inner
shift and surge of power, or some of my inner energy shifting to a higher light or higher vibration, octave or whatever the term is. Seems I figured out a unique thing that works for me.
I focused on doubt, fear, worry, and anger/annoyance, changing them to rational (belief, faith, patience) & inner power.
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I asked Nagi that most likely future of any earth after this incarnation. and she said the likeliest is I may come back as a guide of sorts, channeled guide maybe. Incarnating she didn't see an any of the possible futures, so that is good.
I asked about our most likely futures and she said, kidding lots of sex. then more seriously, we have a lot of fun together, usually in 2 bodies, there are less probable futures where we decide to merge into 1 body, but those are far less likely then remaining similar to how we are now, in 2 bodies. Similar since the most likely futures are me not incarnating as being teh vast majority of the most possible futures. She then mentioned us having kids, nto sure if she was kidding, meaning the 2 of us. We can, but wouldn't they be aspects of us? Though I feel if we intend to create original souls we could though its' our energy. It feels possible that we could do that.
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I did the 2nd meditation of 5th awaken the light body course and running the energies went very well this time. The centers were all responsive. Though like usual the Pieah seemed the lest responsive. maybe I should give that one more attention, running the energies just for that one from time to time through the day.
It did feel like my Ranthia, light body heart energy center felt like it swelled in size. It feels like now it is much larger. Like the top of it is around just below my nose, and the bottom is around where my belly button is. I wonder if what did earlier to try to clear some blockages and deal with issues helped it to swell in size. It does feel huge in size. The throat center feels like both it is sorta a separate light body energy center, but also like it may be partially merged with the light body heart center also.
the Follunia felt much more responsive then before. This time it felt like it every one of Daben's vocalizations had it respond with a long explosion or long burst of energy and the burst of explosion of energy went out to the Ranwaree cocoon, changing the way it feels and maybe filling the area within? The Renawre cocoon feels like it's around a foot or 2 away from this physical body.
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I did feel some presences, well mainly 1 nearby with the feeling of some others not to far off. Guess more guards maybe. I do feel protected and safe, nice feeling.
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I was Thinking earlier, what if, my new reason for here was to try to see if I can go full range from a sleeper up to my normal level as a monad level being. Maybe changed from the original personal mission since I was re-created or maybe not.
then a short time ago I had a sort of poof where I recalled some of my previous incarnation. It was indeed that anthro dolphin being that I had visited in a past meditation.
From what I recall he was doing something similar to what Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer are doing. Channeling, and having lessons for others. Though from what I can recall I could also remember it wasn't all just channeling like they do since I think there was no veil, unlike here on earth. Not sure if he helped with their transition from 4th to 5th density or was just there to generally do some teaching. I do recall I was at least somewhat successful then. Not sure if i was rich or not. Can't remember full details, just a general sort of thing. Not sure if it is normal to be able to just remember the general thing of a past life as clearly as i can or not.
I do still feel like I do want to go home. Though the feeling comes and goes.
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