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Did some masturbating and focusing on certain mates, as well as Nagi, 1 or 2 each. seems my or our desires can be rather high. I can feel that the love and such that we share does go very deep, though with Nagi it feels different. Likely since Nagi is/was my other half whereas Maribelle, Spitfire & Gaia and I are mates. My own desires being fairly or pretty high does feel normal. Maybe it's just me as an individual, and or other factors, like being dolphin (of non earth origins), perhaps unicorn as well and naga, but it does feel that the dolphin does play a part in it. Perhaps also being reunited with Nagi and having 3 mates may all play into this.
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not sure of if it is this reality but I feel there is at least some areas that are like a solid hologram for souls to either play in or have fun, or learn in. Others are created for specific purposes. not sure how accurate it is.
It may be that places are created using energy so may work similar to how a holographic universe would work.
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Feels like though Nagi and my mates do enjoy sharing with me, it feels like the are sort of nudging me to share more with Gaia then for me ot share with them equally.
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I think Gaia mentioned that since I was
ready to hear that, and since I had agreed to letting her guide, teach
& help me reach her level, I'd have found out anyway and I'll be a
full conscious member one day.
I'd have thought that stars & planets would be at different levels, like stars would be higher up then planets, but maybe not. Or maybe it's a blurred grey area with young star's souls being the same maybe as old planets. or maybe it's just a matter of choice. Like if you want to incarnate, do you want to do so as a planet or a star. Like do you wish to incarnate as an earth human, this race, that race?
I guess all reality, or realities are types of holograms, with some preferring to live in the holograms instead of in non physicality and some, perhaps like me, who sorta like both and go back and forth. maybe some, like some Unicorns, and others, know of the hologram reality type of thing but prefer to life there anyway.
& some are for lessons/learning, some areas may be just for fun, and others may be for both, to varying extincts.
got a few messages from Gaia regards to that soul groups thing. <both are in the same soul groups dear.> So both are in the same soul groups? <As my sexy little bullfin will find out first hand my, our soul group contains some souls that incarnate as planets, some as stars, and some that don't incarnate as either.> Was her answer, along with the sensual/sexual type feelings, sorta like a mental sensual caress type thing.
I'd have thought that stars & planets would be at different levels, like stars would be higher up then planets, but maybe not. Or maybe it's a blurred grey area with young star's souls being the same maybe as old planets. or maybe it's just a matter of choice. Like if you want to incarnate, do you want to do so as a planet or a star. Like do you wish to incarnate as an earth human, this race, that race?
I guess all reality, or realities are types of holograms, with some preferring to live in the holograms instead of in non physicality and some, perhaps like me, who sorta like both and go back and forth. maybe some, like some Unicorns, and others, know of the hologram reality type of thing but prefer to life there anyway.
& some are for lessons/learning, some areas may be just for fun, and others may be for both, to varying extincts.
got a few messages from Gaia regards to that soul groups thing. <both are in the same soul groups dear.> So both are in the same soul groups? <As my sexy little bullfin will find out first hand my, our soul group contains some souls that incarnate as planets, some as stars, and some that don't incarnate as either.> Was her answer, along with the sensual/sexual type feelings, sorta like a mental sensual caress type thing.
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I wonder if the reason Nagi and my twin flame are not incarnated is maybe because I'm (and them too) not as tied to incarnating anymore. Maybe since it would be distracting, to distracting, perhaps both reasons, or others also?
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I did the 11th meditation for part 5 for the first time. it will be soon that I'll be switching to do the 2nd pass. Wonder how that'll be compared to the first pass.
Running the energies went well, feels like I've been using a higher vibration energy to run the energies through my light body energy centers as well as the first 2 light body centers.
It felt like my Fullonia has expanded quite large. i felt a tightness and while Daben was talking and not doing a vocalization directed that tight area to relax, and it felt like my Fullonia (1st light body center, different then the light body energy centers) expanded much larger, like it may be larger then this apartment i live it, or around the same size, with some of it sticking out maybe since it feels like a sphere. Diffidently larger then my Renawre cocoon.
I remember during the main part of the meditation working on the Fullunia and Renawre, Daben would go back and forth. I heard mentally Maribelle comment I look shiny, or maybe she said I look shinier today then usual, not sure exactly which. I do remember Gaia commenting that <my cute little bullfin is looking shinier today then he has before.>
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As I was typing up the above I had another mental conversation with Gaia. I'll see if I can recreate it below.
<I approached you with the offer of helping to guide, teach and help you to reach my level since some in the group have seen that you were ready to join our soul group.>
So you're the one who noticed? <primarily me and the world the pod lives on. Some others noticed too. Since you are incarnated here and we have a diffidently soul connection as mates & lovers I was the logical one to approach you with the offer.>
Recently: <you'll love being in the group. You'll get along with us well and fit in. Though being individuals we don't agree on everything, it's not like when humans may disagree, it's far more loving, open, fun. and yes as you've read in the Michael Newton books before, souls are in more then 1 soul group. It's your lineage soul group, if you wish to add labels. there are soul groups for what you do, various pastimes since instead of looking at what job do you have on this side. Think of it as everyone here has various hobbies, but no job. and as you grow and evolve up you'll join more soul groups. Though your first soul group you'll be very close to, even if the whole group doesn't wholly meet often they always share experiences and such with each other. you are members of more then 1 soul group and have technically joined mine, but you have to grow into being a conscious member. Though one of our youngest members, at least briefly. Till more join over time.>
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I've been thinking about a few things. I think I posted on that some races can be full en-souled beings, and some may be mostly or fully incarnations. Like earth humans are fully incarnations.
There may be some confusion since some like unicorns I feel are mostly, almost all I feel, are fully en-souled beings. But there can be some who are incarnated as a unicorn also. the way this often works is one soul may incarnate as a unicorn for a specific mission. Say help earth through it's shift. and say when the shift is fully over it may deem it's mission is finished and end the incarnation. or continue as a unicorn and split itself into another being and that part will go off to do something else.
The pod I'm not sure about. Feels that at least some are en-souled beings, but I get the feelings maybe some are incarnations too? So a mixture of both. You may have some fully en-souled souls, say like me, who are members of the pod who come back and visit and hang out. Maybe who were incarnated as a pod member in the past so still considered a full member.
With some I feel the way this works is here may be a species that evolves, and as they get to a certain density some may just continue being that race, even though they are fully en-souled beings and don't want to incarnate as other races. Maybe they have already and have moved past incarnating. Maybe they are incarnating elsewhere and being multi dimensional beings they can have a small part of their beings incarnated and the rest could be hanging out as say with the pod as a full member.
I get the feeling that what causes some confusion and a blurred area is after a certain density some may be incarnations, and some are en-souled beings, and are say members of the same species or group. And it could be a fully en-souled being who just enjoys being this type of being, or one who is say incarnated as say a star or planet, and a unicorn or pod member fully en-souled as a unicorn or pod member. Or perhaps at higher densities they may be both, say a fully en-souled star/planet, and a unicorn or pod member, or even as both as they have themselves divided up being multi dimensional beings who are all the same being but in 3 bodies.
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Feels like what I did earlier, some light self hypnosis to work on a few issues may have caused more to come to the surface since i do feel some slight tightness in my abdominal area. I would assume it's good that it's at the surface so I can deal with it. Think I may try a few methods. Light self hypnotic/meditative trance, maybe some modified Qi Gong and some sharing with Gaia. Not sure if all work equally. Though I do want to be fully clear of this.
I also do hope this one incarnation finishes up the incarnations since I feel if I do reach deep down I no longer wish to incarnate. Though I've posted on this feeling often so no need to go into it here again.
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This time when i did some clearing i got started and then Gaia wanted me to lay down on the floor with my belly and abdominal on the floor. Felt a lot of energy being shared between us like she was doing some sort of energy work on me. I did feel at least 1 large block pass out of my abdominal into the earth. Not sure how long it went on for. After a while I went pretty deep into a restful sort of trance. When Gaia said it was over for now it felt like maybe 10 minutes but could have been 30 or an hour. My abdominal felt a bit sore.
When I did the 11th meditation running the energies went pretty well. Though the rest of the meditation was somewhat not as spectacular as it was before. maybe due to just one of those things or maybe the energy work Gaia did on me left me maybe where that shouldn't have responded as much so it didn't.
She wanted to do energy work on me, saying it would help clear both of us. during it she called me a few things, the usual stuff, bullphin, sexy bullphin, studbullphin once. Then helped me to relax more. I figured given whatever level she's at, and she's vastly more experienced then that she likely had a very good idea of what she was doing. I think I felt Nagi was helping out at some points, or was aware of what was going on and was doing something.
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Had a fun conversation with Maribelle. Not sure if she was kidding or being serious. Among the things she said was after my celebration at coming home, each of my mates wanted to have a day of just the 2 of us. This was to both consummate our mateship properly since I'd be fully home, and I guess to just hang out and be together. Though I guess we'd not be just the 2 of us totally alone all day. Or maybe it would be as we do various things then just sharing as the pod calls it. Though from what Maribelle hinted and said, I'd be doing that often with each of them.
The order, she said, would be the order they became my mates. Then day 4 I'd be allowed to rest. My idea is maybe visit and be with Nagi and or some other friends. Then she said on day 5 they, along with Nagi, would have our own celebration of our mateship.
I asked Gaia about it and she said yes, we would do other things then sharing, but we would be doing a lot of that. She said the the day would be spent with us at her home. I asked if she had one, not sure if someone at her level would have a home/house and she said yes. Also each day would be spent with me at the mate's house. the 5th would be at my house.
I think I'll refrain from asking Spitfire about it, she'd likely say something similar. Not sure if they are kidding me or not, but either way it was an interesting conversations.
Heard Gaia say to me, <of course we're being serious dear.> And then Spitfire saying, <oh yes.> Then Maribelle saying <we certainly are>
whether they were kidding or being serious, it was a fun conversation.
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