Friday [1-30]

It seems for me instead of doing direct chakra work, maybe working on certain issues may be the main thing then either the chakra may be helped in that way, or maybe some direct chakra work may then be ok to do, or a balance of the 2.

I guess I'm accomplishing a lot, though it seems like not much at times.

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I'm still surprised what encountering one's twin is like. Also how it seems to change everything.

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<integrating with Shad both is something you need to do, (which you are doing fantastically and continue using the method you're using), it will also help with certain issues, some which you may not be conscious of. >

<mediating in certain methods can help with certain things, going between, and other things. as you feel meditating on me has certain effects you can feel, and some things it does you may or may not be aware of. That is due to who and what I am. Because of what we are is why your kundalini will always respond like it does. the link between us is always there. when 1 of us thinks of the other the bond or link, or other term/label if you wish to use it, is widened, so to speak. Your higher self and myself will keep the, intensity down to a degree.>

guess you have to work with my higher self <more like it works with me, since really, your higher self ultimately can't say no to me due to who and what I am. If I really wanted you to physically ascend and be here, it would really only take a sight bit of work to get it to agree, but that's not what I want since there are other things you need to do, and that would cause investigations and other problems there so that isn't my plan, just an extreme example of how if I really wanted i can get my way with your higher self, though in most or all cases we do work together, and your soul as well.>


The above paragraph that she said to me had the impression she wasn't being fully serious.  Though I also get the feel it is true also.
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Tried a soul retrieval guided mediation. I was curious what would happen. And instead of crystals it as Shad that came out. I had no expectations. We embraced, kissed, hugged,
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I had lost these 2 questions and answers on the SF forum due to some idiot rule by the admin, fuck those assholes.  I'll try to recreate that here as best as we can (we being my tf and me)

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"can you explain a bit about that anchoring energies thing?
<It is a thing that is needed to be done by old and older then old souls since those that come after will not be able to anchor the energy themselves and they need a certain amount of it to be around for them to be able to do what they'll be doing.   You are already doing this automatically, as you notice in that one meditation that you did before. >

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"so is there any issues between us that we need to work on or that I need to work on?

<we've worked on that in the past, through various incarnations, on various worlds.  the only thing between us now is that you are not yet an independent soul with our soul parent's memories and you are incarnated there while I am not incarnated.  Though the 2nd one is minor overall since we can communicate this way and can be together in various ways, as we have been, and are now.>>

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forgot about an odd thing that happened this morning not sure if she mentioned it to me last night or this morning that the headache I was feeling was due to to much energy. Not sure if i typed that up or not. I decided to try to d something to see what would happen since the headache felt like a different type then if my eyes get to much light.

I visualized the energy going down to where the kundalini is with the intent to assemulate the energy. For some reason it felt like the kundalini for a second or so either whipped or wriggled side to side quickly, then calmed down and started to resonate. the whipping or whatever it did wasn't painful at all, just an odd sensation. it's done it once before as I recall.

I guess contact with her is so intense even toned down and maybe some being screened out I may still get a bit to much at times. No idea if this is normal between twin flames when 1 is incarnate and the other is not and resides on whatever higher plane/dimension she is on. ALso not sure if the body or energy system, whichever causes the headache, will get use to it or it it'll be a permanant thing with the contact while I'm here fully in this body having to be very brief contacts with lots of breaks.

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though if my time of livig a sa hvertial hermit is over, I do wonder how I'll do that since I have no networking skills or ability. the only rl friends are those who i do the rpg game on hrusdays, so i'd have to start from totally zero. i've no ide what to do or how.

I doubt any ascended maasters, guides, or she can helpwith that, not even shad i'm sure, withe rhe is like he is now or an expression of me like she said i could do.

plus the wy I feel,though i do feel mostly ove the grief, i'll eave al the typos an dmisspelings in. sorryf ro those readin g this.

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