Looking back at it it may have been some
sort of misunderstanding. Maybe that was shadow aspect in the buffer
room thing. Is it some other plane or something inside me as a
multidimensional being? I still wonder what that all white crystaline
place was. I only got maybe a half second to see it yesterday then I
was pulled close to the non anthro dolphin or whatever it was, my face
about an inch or 2 from his chest. but I described the brief encounter
above, no idea where that was or who he was.
I guess Shad's come back from whever he was. Maybe I can't feel him to well currently maybe since we've started integrating past a certain point, or maybe where my sensing ability isn't very good or my awareness of the aspects of me isn't very good yet or just my overall awareness isn't very good.
His refractory period must not exist or be like that of a dolphin. I do wonder if sex between us isn't just pleasurable for him but goes down more spiritually. Yesterday evening I felt a bit tired, lay down and he wanted to ... and afterwards I did feel much better. Not sure if it was my laying down for 15 or so minutes was it or something else. This morning after getting out of bed and his ... 4 times maybe I did feel in a better mood then I am usually in the morning, not that I'm in a bad mood in the morning. My moods are usually somewhat neutral to maybe slightly up since I don't think i'm fully awake when I wake up in the morning.
Don't want to be to crass, or pornish but I do use this to record both my feelings, thoughts and mysticial/spiritual experiences. Not all my though just the spiritual/mystic related stuff. If I really like say a certain mlp music video I often won't mention that here for example, or the 6 monty python episodes i watched last night or the 4 Addams family I watched Thursday and friday night. Forgot how funny those 2 series were. Glad I got them on dvd.
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I guess Shad's come back from whever he was. Maybe I can't feel him to well currently maybe since we've started integrating past a certain point, or maybe where my sensing ability isn't very good or my awareness of the aspects of me isn't very good yet or just my overall awareness isn't very good.
His refractory period must not exist or be like that of a dolphin. I do wonder if sex between us isn't just pleasurable for him but goes down more spiritually. Yesterday evening I felt a bit tired, lay down and he wanted to ... and afterwards I did feel much better. Not sure if it was my laying down for 15 or so minutes was it or something else. This morning after getting out of bed and his ... 4 times maybe I did feel in a better mood then I am usually in the morning, not that I'm in a bad mood in the morning. My moods are usually somewhat neutral to maybe slightly up since I don't think i'm fully awake when I wake up in the morning.
Don't want to be to crass, or pornish but I do use this to record both my feelings, thoughts and mysticial/spiritual experiences. Not all my though just the spiritual/mystic related stuff. If I really like say a certain mlp music video I often won't mention that here for example, or the 6 monty python episodes i watched last night or the 4 Addams family I watched Thursday and friday night. Forgot how funny those 2 series were. Glad I got them on dvd.
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Had an interesting experience on the bus
on the way home. I was trying to go between my thoughts and remain that
way, sorta a very light meditative type thing. When I sorta felt a
very gentle almost unnoticed pull and I was in 2 places. I was sorta
maybe 40-30% in my body and 60-70% back in the bright white crystalline
place. Like before I didn't get a very good look since this time the
part of me that was there had had a dolphin's face and sometimes more of
his body, taking up most of my field of vision. I felt some sort of,
connection, kinship. It was like on the tip of my tongue. I couldn't
quite remember or think of what it was. Some of what he said to me is a
bit confusing since its' like at times he sent 2 or more concepts at
once so i got them piled on top of each other in a bit of a confusion.
Dolphin (besides the feeling or almost knowing above I felt he was glad/happy to see me: "Welcome (here I got to concepts at once so It was like I got both Welcome home and welcome back at the same time).
Me: "uh, what is this place?" I said, I tried looking around a bit but most of it was obscured by the dolphin.
Dolphin: (here i got several concepts at once. I think separating them I got
temple of masters, assemblage of masters, crystal ? of assemblage.
Also without my conscious knowledge I had reached my right hand down to grasp his maleness without realizing it at some point. It was as as if part of me knew he would enjoy this, it was ok or proper to do this, not sure why part of me just did that. He did shiver or shake a bit in pleasure, no idea how long this went on for, felt like maybe a minute or a few. Time seemed compressed so when the experience was over the me there maybe went through 5 or 10 minutes (or maybe longer) but the me in this body went through a minute or 2 I think.
Dolphin: "an excellent way of saying thanks." at this point I realized what I had been doing consciously and jerked my hand back.
I can still feel the kinship? recognizion, some soul connection? I can't tell what, like I said it's like the tip of my tongue. I ask the dolphin: "Are you like a guide or my oversoul or something?"
Dolphin (giggles) : "you'll find out very soon," at this point he put either his flippers or hands on my shoulders or upper arms, "and boy won't you be surprised."
me: "you're not my future self." I said feeling he wasn't that.
Dolphin: "no, that would be to much like talking to yourself." I thought I could sense another me or future me somewhere nearby.
Dolphin: "but you can feel your future self came here..."
me (I interrupt the dolphin since I knew the rest of the line he was going to say somehow): "I came here since I experienced things already from this viewpoint I wanted to see things from the outside." No idea how I knew that I just did. I could feel the future me was sorta nearby but could not pinpoint exactly where.
Dolphin: "anyway, you'll still interact with your soul some in the near future. Your shadow aspect you'll have to handle yourself but you are doing excellent in that regard. You're ready to begin the next phase."
The experience ended here with me still in the body. Later, no idea why I just sent him, the dolphin a mental question, normally I'd be to bashful or shy to do it. I asked him if we could share in the future, using the term my immediate soul family use for intermingling energy, what some earth humans call soul sex or spiritual sex, but we don't like the term. The dolphin sent back, <sure we can.> I was a bit bashful and embarrassed that I just asked him like that. I sent back, "you mean you don't mind us sometimes...." He answered back <of course not.> and I felt an impression of a grin and or he was looking forward to sharing with me in the future. A bit embarrassed about typing this down but though i should since this is where I put the mystical/spiritual experiences, and some of my thoughts & feelings. Maybe as a thing for me to reread, maybe help others maybe, also maybe work through certain issues myself this way.
I'm not sure what to make of any of this. Also what sort of being could pull part of someone out of their body just like that so they'd start experiencing multidimensional being in 2 places at once. I guess that was some other plane somewhere.
almost forgot to put in. Though i can't remember his color, his eyes were not at the sides of the head like an earth dolphin but more forward facing, but not as close together as a human's eyes I think.
Also forgot to add. Afterwards I felt ? lighter, or some inner part of me felt lighter? Hard to describe.
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Tried going to the buffer space after I lay down to rest. Found Shad was already there ahead of me. Also he looked like an anthro dolphin, like in some furry pictures I've seen. Not sure if he got there ahead of me on his own or soul aspect summoned him there. He did seem very happy with his appearance. It was very, attractive, to put it in a g rated term. So that was the surprise. Last night I did try once to see if I could get a mental image of him, but he said for me to stop, it was a surprise.
Seems like there is a huge theme of dolphins to me for some reason. Not that I mind, just surprised and wonder what is obvious to everyone but me, is going on.
Dolphin (besides the feeling or almost knowing above I felt he was glad/happy to see me: "Welcome (here I got to concepts at once so It was like I got both Welcome home and welcome back at the same time).
Me: "uh, what is this place?" I said, I tried looking around a bit but most of it was obscured by the dolphin.
Dolphin: (here i got several concepts at once. I think separating them I got
temple of masters, assemblage of masters, crystal ? of assemblage.
Also without my conscious knowledge I had reached my right hand down to grasp his maleness without realizing it at some point. It was as as if part of me knew he would enjoy this, it was ok or proper to do this, not sure why part of me just did that. He did shiver or shake a bit in pleasure, no idea how long this went on for, felt like maybe a minute or a few. Time seemed compressed so when the experience was over the me there maybe went through 5 or 10 minutes (or maybe longer) but the me in this body went through a minute or 2 I think.
Dolphin: "an excellent way of saying thanks." at this point I realized what I had been doing consciously and jerked my hand back.
I can still feel the kinship? recognizion, some soul connection? I can't tell what, like I said it's like the tip of my tongue. I ask the dolphin: "Are you like a guide or my oversoul or something?"
Dolphin (giggles) : "you'll find out very soon," at this point he put either his flippers or hands on my shoulders or upper arms, "and boy won't you be surprised."
me: "you're not my future self." I said feeling he wasn't that.
Dolphin: "no, that would be to much like talking to yourself." I thought I could sense another me or future me somewhere nearby.
Dolphin: "but you can feel your future self came here..."
me (I interrupt the dolphin since I knew the rest of the line he was going to say somehow): "I came here since I experienced things already from this viewpoint I wanted to see things from the outside." No idea how I knew that I just did. I could feel the future me was sorta nearby but could not pinpoint exactly where.
Dolphin: "anyway, you'll still interact with your soul some in the near future. Your shadow aspect you'll have to handle yourself but you are doing excellent in that regard. You're ready to begin the next phase."
The experience ended here with me still in the body. Later, no idea why I just sent him, the dolphin a mental question, normally I'd be to bashful or shy to do it. I asked him if we could share in the future, using the term my immediate soul family use for intermingling energy, what some earth humans call soul sex or spiritual sex, but we don't like the term. The dolphin sent back, <sure we can.> I was a bit bashful and embarrassed that I just asked him like that. I sent back, "you mean you don't mind us sometimes...." He answered back <of course not.> and I felt an impression of a grin and or he was looking forward to sharing with me in the future. A bit embarrassed about typing this down but though i should since this is where I put the mystical/spiritual experiences, and some of my thoughts & feelings. Maybe as a thing for me to reread, maybe help others maybe, also maybe work through certain issues myself this way.
I'm not sure what to make of any of this. Also what sort of being could pull part of someone out of their body just like that so they'd start experiencing multidimensional being in 2 places at once. I guess that was some other plane somewhere.
almost forgot to put in. Though i can't remember his color, his eyes were not at the sides of the head like an earth dolphin but more forward facing, but not as close together as a human's eyes I think.
Also forgot to add. Afterwards I felt ? lighter, or some inner part of me felt lighter? Hard to describe.
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Tried going to the buffer space after I lay down to rest. Found Shad was already there ahead of me. Also he looked like an anthro dolphin, like in some furry pictures I've seen. Not sure if he got there ahead of me on his own or soul aspect summoned him there. He did seem very happy with his appearance. It was very, attractive, to put it in a g rated term. So that was the surprise. Last night I did try once to see if I could get a mental image of him, but he said for me to stop, it was a surprise.
Seems like there is a huge theme of dolphins to me for some reason. Not that I mind, just surprised and wonder what is obvious to everyone but me, is going on.
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