Tuesday [1-27]

This was a lucid dream and towards the end the body woke up but part of me was still there so I thought I'd post it in my dream thread and here also. Didn't realize the length of it.

not sure how this one started. From what I can remember it took place in what looked like it had crystalline structures of various colors. Like what i call the soul realms (no idea what it is really or where), where the colors seem alive, & the colors here are pale dead imitations by comparison. I didn't remember much, just a bit, but i did ask if I could have help remembering this as I typed.

As I recall there was a type of ? singing or tone? ? crystal singing? were the crystals singing in a thing you are not aware of unless you really try to listen to it. Like a thing you quickly get unaware of since you feel or hear it all the time.

There was a group of what looked like dolphins before me. I don't recall the exact number and the dialog will perhaps not be in order. and the exact dialog may not be written down right, but the general gist will be correct.

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I look around and recognize it, some part of me does. "I've been here ? before ?"

One of the dolphins: "this certainly isn't your first time here. You've spend time here on this side of things."
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Me: "At least some of you are .... sonic ?engineers?, not the exact term. and I do know you somehow." I said, I did feel I knew them somehow but couldn't remember exactly how.

Dolphin:"accessing that bit of your soul knowledge excellent."

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"i've been here, sometimes for more then short visits. ? long visits? living here for periods of time? Not as a sonic engineer or healer..." I say not exactly sure where i'm going.

another dolphin: "actually you were usually ...." it starts to say but gets the equivalent of an elbow nudge.

another one: "Yes, you have lived here as one of us before."

me looking at that one dolphin that seemed to almost let something slip. "that wasn't really you almost letting something slip was it. it was some sort of test?" i said concentrating on him.

that dolphin: "maybe."

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me: "My soul aspect said it's incarnated on various worlds, doesn't restrict itself to one world, system, galaxy or universe. A wanderer I guess."

Dolphin: "not a wanderer nor a nomad. Usually you go where the mission takes you to. The mission you pick that is. Though no one does just missions all the time."

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"and I guess you can look like however you like here?"

Dolphin: "due to where we are and the dynamics and properties of this area/place certainly. These forms are more comfortable to use and many of us have had forms similar to this in most of our incarnations. We're not limited to 1 form or appearance unlike those in the 3rd dimension such as you humans are."


Me: "I'm not a human. I am incarnated in the body of one, but I'm not a human."

Another dolphin: "non assimilation is to be expected. He is not a human soul after all. & this is his first time incarnating as a human."

yet another one: "yes, he's visited earth before, but never incarnated there, till now."

yet another one: "though he has been a guide before to at least 1 person on earth before."
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I then look at one of the dolphins, feeling a stronger connection and recognition with ? her ? then the others.

"I do know you, a stronger connection then with most of those here." I say to her.

Female dolphin: "you feel our stronger connection. That is a good sign indeed." She says as she comes up to put her hands or flippers on my shoulders (not sure which she did).

me: "You were my mother in at least 1 incarnation".... I say, an image appearing, "not necessarily in a form like this... humanoid, skin not dark blue... light or medium."

female dolphin: "ah, the veil thins. yes, one of the races of sirius."

me: "not always as mother, but in other ways and forms. at least once in bodies that look like yours."

female dolphin: "yes, and at least once I was one of your guides. We've shared many relationships."

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I can see that pretending to almost let something slip being a pre arranged thing. Like one of them saying something like "hey, i'll pretend to let something slip and one of you stop me before I do." and maybe another saying, that won't work, he'll be able to tell. maybe the first one saying something next like, let it be a sort of test.

and that one referring to me as a human. Looking back at the scene I think he did it on purpose, another test perhaps. I say he but except for the one dolphin that did feel female to me, the others I'm not sure, maybe androgynous? Didn't think of it at the time and really it's not important.
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Had another dream this afternoon. It was of a type of mediation I may try. I was mentally saying to myself "I love myself." I've done it before, but I've not felt anything happening. Though the effects may be more below the surface.

Then I did another type, a visualization. In this type of meditation I visualized the different aspects of myself being drawn towards each other, and at the same time there was a circle around the aspects, and as the aspects were drawing each other towards each other. The circle was decreasing in size, also pushing them towards each other.

Not sure what this means, but I'll try these 2. and I'll also try adding them together and saying to myself "I love myself." as I do the visualization, see if anything happens.

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I forgot, when I woke up I felt a strong resonating along from the end of my spine all the way to the top of the spine.  Along the entire length.  No idea what was up with that.


i tried the mediation but it didn't seem to do anything.  Also likely unrelated i do feel a pain in my abdominal area, no idea why.  no biggie I guess.

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? is the being I called soul aspect really my higher self?  What is the difference between higher self, soul, and spirit. 

? who and what is that dolphin guy to me?

? am I doing perfectly, not to well, or is there a way to progress faster along the path of integrating and fully awakening? 

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Think maybe another impression of a memory popped up. THink I may meditate on this later.

It was about the dolphins I encountered in wherever that place is I mentioned before is. ? I've been a member of them before? Or I spend time as a member of their group at times?

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